The Red Badge of Courage An Episode of the American Civil War A Charles
E. Merrill Standard Edition Stephen Crane Introduction by Joseph Katz
University of South Carolina CHARLES E. MERRILL PUBLISHING COMPANY COLUMBUS,
OHIO
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THE cold passed
reluctantly from the earth, and the retiring fogs revealed an army stretched
out on the hills, resting. As the landscape changed from brown to green, the
army awakened, and began to tremble with eagerness at the noise of rumors. It
cast its eyes upon the roads, which were growing from long troughs of liquid
mud to proper thoroughfares. A river, amber tinted in the shadow of its
banks, purled at the army's feet; and at night, when the stream had become of a
sorrowful blackness, one could see across it the red, eyelike gleam of hostile
campfires set in the low brows of distant hills.
Once a certain tall
soldier developed virtues and went resolutely to wash a shirt. He came flying
back from a brook waving his garment bannerlike. He was swelled with a tale he
had heard from a reliable friend, who had heard it from a truthful cavalryman,
who had heard it from his trustworthy brother, one of the orderlies at division
headquarters. He adopted the important air of a herald in red and gold.
"We're goin' t'
move t' morrah -- sure," he said pompously to a group in the company
street. "We're goin' 'way up the river, cut across, an' come around in
behint 'em."
To his attentive
audience he drew a loud and elaborate plan of a very brilliant campaign. When
he had finished, the blue clothed men scattered into small arguing groups
between the rows of squat brown huts. A negro teamster who had been dancing
upon a cracker box with the hilarious encouragement of twoscore soldiers was
deserted. He sat mournfully down. Smoke drifted lazily from a multitude of
quaint chimneys.
"It's a lie!
that's all it is--a thunderin' lie!" said another private loudly. His
smooth face was flushed, and his hands were thrust sulkily into his trousers'
pockets. He took the matter as an affront to him. "I don't believe the
derned old army's ever going to move. We're set. I've got ready to move eight
times in the last two weeks, and we ain't moved yet."
The tall soldier felt
called upon to defend the truth of a rumor he himself had introduced. He and
the loud one came near to fighting over it.
A corporal began to
swear before the assemblage. He had just put a costly board floor in his house,
he said. During the early spring he had refrained from adding extensively to
the comfort of his environment because he had felt that the army might start on
the march at any moment. Of late, however, he had been impressed that they were
in a sort of eternal camp.
Many of the men engaged
in a spirited debate. One outlined in a peculiarly lucid manner all the plans
of the commanding general. He was opposed by men who advocated that there were
other plans of campaign. They clamored at each other, numbers making futile
bids for the popular attention. Meanwhile, the soldier who had fetched the
rumor bustled about with much importance. He was continually assailed by
questions.
"What's up,
Jim?"
"Th' army's goin'
t' move."
"Ah, what yeh
talkin' about? How yeh know it is?"
"Well, yeh kin
b'lieve me er not, jest as yeh like. I don't care a hang."
There was much food for
thought in the manner in which he replied. He came near to convincing them by
disdaining to produce proofs. They grew excited over it.
There was a youthful
private who listened with eager ears to the words of the tall soldier and to
the varied comments of his comrades. After receiving a fill of discussions
concerning marches and attacks, he went to his hut and crawled through an
intricate hole that served it as a door. He wished to be alone with some new
thoughts that had lately come to him.
He lay down on a wide
bank that stretched across the end of the room. In the other end, cracker boxes
were made to serve as furniture. They were grouped about the fireplace. A
picture from an illustrated weekly was upon the log walls, and three rifles
were paralleled on pegs. Equipments hunt on handy projections, and some tin
dishes lay upon a small pile of firewood. A folded tent was serving as a roof.
The sunlight, without, beating upon it, made it glow a light yellow shade. A
small window shot an oblique square of whiter light upon the cluttered floor.
The smoke from the fire at times neglected the clay chimney and wreathed into
the room, and this flimsy chimney of clay and sticks made endless threats to
set ablaze the whole establishment.
The youth was in a
little trance of astonishment. So they were at last going to fight. On the
morrow, perhaps, there would be a battle, and he would be in it. For a time he
was obliged to labor to make himself believe. He could not accept with
assurance an omen that he was about to mingle in one of those great affairs of
the earth.
He had, of course,
dreamed of battles all his life--of vague and bloody conflicts that had
thrilled him with their sweep and fire. In visions he had seen himself in many
struggles. He had imagined peoples secure in the shadow of his eagle eyed
prowess. But awake he had regarded battles as crimson blotches on the pages of
the past. He had put them as things of the bygone with his thought images
of heavy crowns and high castles. There was a portion of the world's history
which he had regarded as the time of wars, but it, he thought, had been long
gone over the horizon and had disappeared forever.
From his home his
youthful eyes had looked upon the war in his own country with distrust. It must
be some sort of a play affair. He had long despaired of witnessing a Greeklike
struggle. Such would be no more, he had said. Men were better, or more timid.
Secular and religious education had effaced the throat grappling instinct,
or else firm finance held in check the passions.
He had burned several
times to enlist. Tales of great movements shook the land. They might not be
distinctly Homeric, but there seemed to be much glory in them. He had read of
marches, sieges, conflicts, and he had longed to see it all. His busy mind had
drawn for him large pictures extravagant in color, lurid with breathless deeds.
But his mother had
discouraged him. She had affected to look with some contempt upon the quality
of his war ardor and patriotism. She could calmly seat herself and with no
apparent difficulty give him many hundreds of reasons why he was of vastly more
importance on the farm than on the field of battle. She had had certain ways of
expression that told him that her statements on the subject came from a deep
conviction. Moreover, on her side, was his belief that her ethical motive in
the argument was impregnable.
At last, however, he
had made firm rebellion against this yellow light thrown upon the color of his
ambitions. The newspapers, the gossip of the village, his own picturings had
aroused him to an uncheckable degree. They were in truth fighting finely down
there. Almost every day the newspapers printed accounts of a decisive victory.
One night, as he lay in
bed, the winds had carried to him the clangoring of the church bell as some
enthusiast jerked the rope frantically to tell the twisted news of a great
battle. This voice of the people rejoicing in the night had made him shiver in
a prolonged ecstasy of excitement. Later, he had gone down to his mother's room
and had spoken thus: "Ma, I'm going to enlist."
"Henry, don't you
be a fool," his mother had replied. She had then covered her face with the
quilt. There was an end to the matter for that night.
Nevertheless, the next
morning he had gone to a town that was near his mother's farm and had enlisted
in a company that was forming there. When he had returned home his mother was
milking the brindle cow. Four others stood waiting. "Ma, I've
enlisted," he had said to her diffidently. There was a short silence.
"The Lord's will be done, Henry," she had finally replied, and had
then continued to milk the brindle cow.
When he had stood in
the doorway with his soldier's clothes on his back, and with the light of
excitement and expectancy in his eyes almost defeating the glow of regret for
the home bonds, he had seen two tears leaving their trails on his mother's
scarred cheeks.
Still, she had
disappointed him by saying nothing whatever about returning with his shield or
on it. He had privately primed himself for a beautiful scene. He had prepared
certain sentences which he thought could be used with touching effect. But her
words destroyed his plans. She had doggedly peeled potatoes and addressed him
as follows: "You watch out, Henry, an' take good care of yerself in this
here fighting business--you watch out, an' take good care of yerself. Don't go
a thinkin' you can lick the hull rebel army at the start, because yeh
can't. Yer jest one little feller amongst a hull lot of others, and yeh've got
to keep quiet an' do what they tell yeh. I know how you are, Henry.
"I've knet yeh
eight pair of socks, Henry, and I've put in all yer best shirts, because I want
my boy to be jest as warm and comf'able as anybody in the army. Whenever they
get holes in 'em, I want yeh to send 'em right away back to me, so's I kin
dern 'em.
"An' allus be
careful an' choose yer comp'ny. There's lots of bad men in the army, Henry. The
army makes 'em wild, and they like nothing better than the job of leading off a
young feller like you, as ain't never been away from home much and has allus
had a mother, an' a learning 'em to drink and swear. Keep clear of them
folks, Henry. I don't want yeh to ever do anything, Henry, that yes would be
'shamed to let me know about. Jest think as if I was a watchin' yes. If
yes keep that in yer mind allus, I guess yeh'll come out about right.
"Yes must allus
remember yer father, too, child, an' remember he never drunk a drop of licker
in his life, and seldom swore a cross oath.
"I don't know what
else to tell yes, Henry, excepting that yes must never do no shirking, child,
on my account. If so be a time comes when yes have to be kilt or do a mean
thing, why, Henry, don't think of anything 'cept what's right, because there's
many a woman has to bear up 'ginst sech things these times, and the Lord 'll
take keer of us all.
"Don't forgit
about the socks and the shirts, child; and I've put a cup of blackberry jam
with yer bundle, because I know yes like it above all things. Good by,
Henry. Watch out, and be a good boy."
He had, of course, been
impatient under the ordeal of this speech. It had not been quite what he
expected, and he had borne it with an air of irritation. He departed feeling
vague relief.
Still, when he had
looked back from the gate, he had seen his mother kneeling among the potato
parings. Her brown face, upraised, was stained with tears, and her spare form
was quivering. He bowed his head and went on, feeling suddenly ashamed of his
purposes.
From his home he had
gone to the seminary to bid adieu to many schoolmates. They had thronged about
him with wonder and admiration. He had felt the gulf now between them and had
swelled with calm pride. He and some of his fellows who had donned blue were
quite overwhelmed with privileges for all of one afternoon, and it had been a
very delicious thing. They had strutted.
A certain
light haired girl had made vivacious fun at his martial spirit, but there
was another and darker girl whom he had gazed at steadfastly, and he thought
she grew demure and sad at sight of his blue and brass. As he had walked down
the path between the rows of oaks, he had turned his head and detected her at a
window watching his departure. As he perceived her, she had immediately begun
to stare up through the high tree branches at the sky. He had seen a good deal
of flurry and haste in her movement as she changed her attitude. He often
thought of it.
On the way to
Washington his spirit had soared. The regiment was fed and caressed at station
after station until the youth had believed that he must be a hero. There was a
lavish expenditure of bread and cold meats, coffee, and pickles and cheese. As
he basked in the smiles of the girls and was patted and complimented by the old
men, he had felt growing within him the strength to do mighty deeds of arms.
After complicated
journeyings with many pauses, there had come months of monotonous life in a
camp. He had had the belief that real war was a series of death struggles with
small time in between for sleep and meals; but since his regiment had come to
the field the army had done little but sit still and try to keep warm.
He was brought then
gradually back to his old ideas. Greeklike struggles would be no more. Men were
better, or more timid. Secular and religious education had effaced the
throat grappling instinct, or else firm finance held in check the
passions.
He had grown to regard
himself merely as a part of a vast blue demonstration. His province was to look
out, as far as he could, for his personal comfort. For recreation he could
twiddle his thumbs and speculate on the thoughts which must agitate the minds
of the generals. Also, he was drilled and drilled and reviewed, and drilled and
drilled and reviewed.
The only foes he had
seen were some pickets along the river bank. They were a sun tanned,
philosophical lot, who sometimes shot reflectively at the blue pickets. When
reproached for this afterward, they usually expressed sorrow, and swore by
their gods that the guns had exploded without their permission. The youth, on
guard duty one night, conversed across the stream with one of them. He was a
slightly ragged man, who spat skillfully between his shoes and possessed a
great fund of bland and infantile assurance. The youth liked him personally.
"Yank," the
other had informed him, "yer a right dum good feller." This
sentiment, floating to him upon the still air, had made him temporarily regret
war.
Various veterans had
told him tales. Some talked of gray, bewhiskered hordes who were advancing with
relentless curses and chewing tobacco with unspeakable valor; tremendous bodies
of fierce soldiery who were sweeping along like the Huns. Others spoke of
tattered and eternally hungry men who fired despondent powders. "They'll
charge through hell's fire an' brimstone t' git a holt on a haversack, an' sech
stomachs ain't a lastin' long," he was told. From the stories, the
youth imagined the red, live bones sticking out through slits in the faded
uniforms.
Still, he could not put
a whole faith in veterans' tales, for recruits were their prey. They talked
much of smoke, fire, and blood, but he could not tell how much might be lies.
They persistently yelled "Fresh fish!" at him, and were in no wise to
be trusted.
However, he perceived
now that it did not greatly matter what kind of soldiers he was going to fight,
so long as they fought, which fact no one disputed. There was a more serious
problem. He lay in his bunk pondering upon it. He tried to mathematically prove
to himself that he would not run from a battle.
Previously he had never
felt obliged to wrestle too seriously with this question. In his life he had
taken certain things for granted, never challenging his belief in ultimate
success, and bothering little about means and roads. But here he was confronted
with a thing of moment. It had suddenly appeared to him that perhaps in a
battle he might run. He was forced to admit that as far as war was concerned he
knew nothing of himself.
A sufficient time
before he would have allowed the problem to kick its heels at the outer portals
of his mind, but now he felt compelled to give serious attention to it.
A little
panic fear grew in his mind. As his imagination went forward to a fight,
he saw hideous possibilities. He contemplated the lurking menaces of the
future, and failed in an effort to see himself standing stoutly in the midst of
them. He recalled his visions of broken bladed glory, but in the shadow of
the impending tumult he suspected them to be impossible pictures.
He sprang from the bunk
and began to pace nervously to and fro. "Good Lord, what's th' matter with
me?" he said aloud.
He felt that in this
crisis his laws of life were useless. Whatever he had learned of himself was
here of no avail. He was an unknown quantity. He saw that he would again be
obliged to experiment as he had in early youth. He must accumulate information
of himself, and meanwhile he resolved to remain close upon his guard lest those
qualities of which he knew nothing should everlastingly disgrace him.
"Good Lord!" he repeated in dismay.
After a time the tall
soldier slid dexterously through the hole. The loud private followed. They were
wrangling.
"That's all
right," said the tall soldier as he entered. He waved his hand
expressively. "You can believe me or not, jest as you like. All you got to
do is to sit down and wait as quiet as you can. Then pretty soon you'll find
out I was right."
His comrade grunted
stubbornly. For a moment he seemed to be searching for a formidable reply.
Finally he said: "Well, you don't know everything in the world, do
you?"
"Didn't say I knew
everything in the world," retorted the other sharply. He began to stow
various articles snugly into his knapsack.
The youth, pausing in
his nervous walk, looked down at the busy figure. "Going to be a battle,
sure, is there, Jim?" he asked.
"Of course there
is," replied the tall soldier. "Of course there is. You jest wait
'til to morrow, and you'll see one of the biggest battles ever was. You
jest wait."
"Thunder!der!"
said the youth.
"Oh, you'll see
fighting this time, my boy, what'll be regular out and out
fighting," added the tall soldier, with the air of a man who is about to
exhibit a battle for the benefit of his friends.
"Huh!" said
the loud one from a corner.
"Well,"
remarked the youth, "like as not this story'll turn out jest like them
others did."
"Not much it
won't," replied the tall soldier, exasperated. "Not much it won't.
Didn't the cavalry all start this morning?" He glared about him. No one
denied his statement. "The cavalry started this morning," he
continued. "They say there ain't hardly any cavalry left in camp. They're
going to Richmond, or some place, while we fight all the Johnnies. It's some
dodge like that. The regiment's got orders, too. A feller what seen 'em go to
headquarters told me a little while ago. And they're raising blazes all over
camp--anybody can see that."
"Shucks!"
said the loud one.
The youth remained
silent for a time. At last he spoke to the tall soldier. "Jim!"
"What?"
"How do you think
the reg'ment 'll do?"
"Oh, they'll fight
all right, I guess, after they once get into it," said the other with cold
judgment. He made a fine use of the third person. "There's been heaps of
fun poked at 'em because they're new, of course, and all that; but they'll
fight all right, I guess."
"Think any of the
boys 'll run?" persisted the youth.
"Oh, there may be
a few of 'em run, but there's them kind in every regiment, 'specially when they
first goes under fire," said the other in a tolerant way. "Of course
it might happen that the hull kit and boodle might start and run, if
some big fighting came first off, and then again they might stay and fight
like fun. But you can't bet on nothing. Of course they ain't never been under
fire yet, and it ain't likely they'll lick the hull rebel army all to oncet
the first time; but I think they'll fight better than some, if worse than
others. That's the way I figger. They call the reg'ment 'Fresh fish' and
everything; but the boys come of good stock, and most of 'em 'll fight like sin
after they oncet git shootin'," he added, with a mighty emphasis on the
last four words.
"Oh, you think you
know--" began the loud soldier with scorn.
The other turned
savagely upon him. They had a rapid altercation, in which they fastened upon
each other various strange epithets.
The youth at last
interrupted them. "Did you ever think you might run yourself, Jim?"
he asked. On concluding the sentence he laughed as if he had meant to aim a
joke. The loud soldier also giggled.
The tall private waved
his hand. "Well," said he profoundly, "I've thought it might get
too hot for Jim Conklin in some of them scrimmages, and if a whole lot of boys
started and run, why, I s'pose I'd start and run. And if I once started to run,
I'd run like the devil, and no mistake. But if everybody was a standing
and a fighting, why, I'd stand and fight. Be jiminey, I would. I'll bet on
it."
"Huh!" said
the loud one.
The youth of this tale
felt gratitude for these words of his comrade. He had feared that all of the
untried men possessed a great and correct confidence. He now was in a measure
reassured.
THE next morning the
youth discovered that his tall comrade had been the fast flying messenger
of a mistake. There was much scoffing at the latter by those who had yesterday
been firm adherents of his views, and there was even a little sneering by men
who had never believed the rumor. The tall one fought with a man from Chatfield
Corners and beat him severely.
The youth felt,
however, that his problem was in no wise lifted from him. There was, on the
contrary, an irritating prolongation. The tale had created in him a great
concern for himself. Now, with the newborn question in his mind, he was
compelled to sink back into his old place as part of a blue demonstration.
For days he made
ceaseless calculations, but they were all wondrously unsatisfactory. He found
that he could establish nothing. He finally concluded that the only way to
prove himself was to go into the blaze, and then figuratively to watch his legs
to discover their merits and faults. He reluctantly admitted that he could not
sit still and with a mental slate and pencil derive an answer. To gain it, he
must have blaze, blood, and danger, even as a chemist requires this, that, and
the other. So he fretted for an opportunity.
Meanwhile he
continually tried to measure himself by his comrades. The tall soldier, for
one, gave him some assurance. This man's serene unconcern dealt him a measure
of confidence, for he had known him since childhood, and from his intimate
knowledge he did not see how he could be capable of anything that was beyond
him, the youth. Still, he thought that his comrade might be mistaken about
himself. Or, on the other hand, he might be a man heretofore doomed to peace
and obscurity, but, in reality, made to shine in war.
The youth would have
liked to have discovered another who suspected himself. A sympathetic
comparison of mental notes would have been a joy to him.
He occasionally tried
to fathom a comrade with seductive sentences. He looked about to find men in
the proper mood. All attempts failed to bring forth any statement which looked
in any way like a confession to those doubts which he privately acknowledged in
himself. He was afraid to make an open declaration of his concern, because he
dreaded to place some unscrupulous confidant upon the high plane of the
unconfessed from which elevation he could be derided.
In regard to his
companions his mind wavered between two opinions, according to his mood.
Sometimes he inclined to believing them all heroes. In fact, he usually
admitted in secret the superior development of the higher qualities in others.
He could conceive of men going very insignificantly about the world bearing a
load of courage unseen, and although he had known many of his comrades through
boyhood, he began to fear that his judgment of them had been blind. Then, in
other moments, he flouted these theories, and assured himself that his fellows
were all privately wondering and quaking.
His emotions made him
feel strange in the presence of men who talked excitedly of a prospective
battle as of a drama they were about to witness, with nothing but eagerness and
curiosity apparent in their faces. It was often that he suspected them to be
liars.
He did not pass such
thoughts without severe condemnation of himself. He dinned reproaches at times.
He was convicted by himself of many shameful crimes against the gods of
traditions.
In his great anxiety
his heart was continually clamoring at what he considered the intolerable
slowness of the generals. They seemed content to perch tranquilly on the river
bank, and leave him bowed down by the weight of a great problem. He wanted it
settled forthwith. He could not long bear such a load, he said. Sometimes his
anger at the commanders reached an acute stage, and he grumbled about the camp
like a veteran.
One morning, however,
he found himself in the ranks of his prepared regiment. The men were whispering
speculations and recounting the old rumors. In the gloom before the break of
the day their uniforms glowed a deep purple hue. From across the river the red
eyes were still peering. In the eastern sky there was a yellow patch like a rug
laid for the feet of the coming sun; and against it, black and pattern like,
loomed the gigantic figure of the colonel on a gigantic horse.
From off in the
darkness came the trampling of feet. The youth could occasionally see dark
shadows that moved like monsters. The regiment stood at rest for what seemed a
long time. The youth grew impatient. It was unendurable the way these affairs
were managed. He wondered how long they were to be kept waiting.
As he looked all about
him and pondered upon the mystic gloom, he began to believe that at any moment
the ominous distance might be aflare, and the rolling crashes of an engagement
come to his ears. Staring once at the red eyes across the river, he conceived
them to be growing larger, as the orbs of a row of dragons advancing. He turned
toward the colonel and saw him lift his gigantic arm and calmly stroke his
mustache.
At last he heard from
along the road at the foot of the hill the clatter of a horse's galloping
hoofs. It must be the coming of orders. He bent forward, scarce breathing. The
exciting clickety click, as it grew louder and louder, seemed to be
beating upon his soul. Presently a horseman with jangling equipment drew rein
before the colonel of the regiment. The two held a short, sharp-worded
conversation. The men in the foremost ranks craned their necks.
As the horseman wheeled
his animal and galloped away he turned to shout over his shoulder, "Don't
forget that box of cigars!" The colonel mumbled in reply. The youth
wondered what a box of cigars had to do with war.
A moment later the
regiment went swinging off into the darkness. It was now like one of those
moving monsters wending with many feet. The air was heavy, and cold with dew. A
mass of wet grass, marched upon, rustled like silk.
There was an occasional
flash and glimmer of steel from the backs of all these huge crawling reptiles.
From the road came creakings and grumblings as some surly guns were dragged
away.
The men stumbled along
still muttering speculations. There was a subdued debate. Once a man fell down,
and as he reached for his rifle a comrade, unseeing, trod upon his hand. He of
the injured fingers swore bitterly and aloud. A low, tittering laugh went among
his fellows.
Presently they passed
into a roadway and marched forward with easy strides. A dark regiment moved
before them, and from behind also came the tinkle of equipments on the bodies
of marching men.
The rushing yellow of
the developing day went on behind their backs. When the sunrays at last struck full
and mellowingly upon the earth, the youth saw that the landscape was streaked
with two long, thin, black columns which disappeared on the brow of a hill in
front and rearward vanished in a wood. They were like two serpents crawling
from the cavern of the night.
The river was not in
view. The tall soldier burst into praises of what he thought to be his powers
of perception.
Some of the tall one's
companions cried with emphasis that they, too, had evolved the same thing, and
they congratulated themselves upon it. But there were others who said that the
tall one's plan was not the true one at all. They persisted with other
theories. There was a vigorous discussion.
The youth took no part
in them. As he walked along in careless line he was engaged with his own
eternal debate. He could not hinder himself from dwelling upon it. He was
despondent and sullen, and threw shifting glances about him. He looked ahead,
often expecting to hear from the advance the rattle of firing.
But the long serpents
crawled slowly from hill to hill without bluster of smoke. A dun colored
cloud of dust floated away to the right. The sky overhead was of a fairy blue.
The youth studied the
faces of his companions, ever on the watch to detect kindred emotions. He
suffered disappointment. Some ardor of the air which was causing the veteran
commands to move with glee--almost with song--had infected the new regiment.
The men began to speak of victory as of a thing they knew. Also, the tall
soldier received his vindication. They were certainly going to come around in
behind the enemy. They expressed commiseration for that part of the army which
had been left upon the river bank, felicitating themselves upon being a part of
a blasting host.
The youth, considering
himself as separated from the others, was saddened by the blithe and merry
speeches that went from rank to rank. The company wags all made their best
endeavors. The regiment tramped to the tune of laughter.
The blatant soldier
often convulsed whole files by his biting sarcasms aimed at the tall one.
And it was not long
before all the men seemed to forget their mission. Whole brigades grinned in
unison, and regiments laughed.
A rather fat soldier
attempted to pilfer a horse from a dooryard. He planned to load his
knap sack upon it. He was escaping with his prize when a young girl rushed
from the house and grabbed the animal's mane. There followed a wrangle. The
young girl, with pink cheeks and shining eyes, stood like a dauntless statue.
The observant regiment,
standing at rest in the roadway, whooped at once, and entered whole soiled
upon the side of the maiden. The men became so engrossed in this affair that
they entirely ceased to remember their own large war. They jeered the piratical
private, and called attention to various defects in his personal appearance;
and they were wildly enthusiastic in support of the young girl.
To her, from some
distance, came bold advice. "Hit him with a stick."
There were crows and
catcalls showered upon him when he retreated without the horse. The regiment
rejoiced at his downfall. Loud and vociferous congratulations were showered
upon the maiden, who stood panting and regarding the troops with defiance.
At nightfall the column
broke into regimental pieces, and the fragments went into the fields to camp.
Tents sprang up like strange plants. Camp fires, like red, peculiar blossoms,
dotted the night.
The youth kept from
intercourse with his companions as much as circumstances would allow him. In
the evening he wandered a few paces into the gloom. From this little distance
the many fires, with the black forms of men passing to and fro before the
crimson rays, made weird and satanic effects.
He lay down in the
grass. The blades pressed tenderly against his cheek. The moon had been lighted
and was hung in a treetop. The liquid stillness of the night enveloping him
made him feel vast pity for himself. There was a caress in the soft winds; and
the whole mood of the darkness, he thought, was one of sympathy for himself in
his distress.
He wished, without
reserve, that he was at home again making the endless rounds from the house to
the barn, from the barn to the fields, from the fields to the barn, from the
barn to the house. He remembered he had often cursed the brindle cow and her
mates, and had sometimes flung milking stools. But, from his present point of
view, there was a halo of happiness about each of their heads, and he would
have sacrificed all the brass buttons on the continent to have been enabled to
return to them. He told himself that he was not formed for a soldier. And he
mused seriously upon the radical differences between himself and those men who
were dodging imp like around the fires.
As he mused thus he
heard the rustle of grass, and, upon turning his head, discovered the loud
soldier. He called out, "Oh, Wilson!"
The latter approached
and looked down. "Why, hello, Henry; is it you? What you doing here?"
"Oh,
thinking," said the youth.
The other sat down and
carefully lighted his pipe. "You're getting blue, my boy. You're looking
thundering peeked. What the dickens is wrong with you?"
"Oh,
nothing," said the youth.
The loud soldier
launched then into the subject of the anticipated fight. "Oh, we've got
'em now!" As he spoke his boyish face was wreathed in a gleeful smile, and
his voice had an exultant ring. "We've got 'em now. At last, by the
eternal thunders, we'll lick 'em good!"
"If the truth was
known," he added, more soberly, "they've licked us about every clip
up to now; but this time--this time--we'll lick 'em good!"
"I thought you was
objecting to this march a little while ago," said the youth coldly.
"Oh, it wasn't
that," explained the other. "I don't mind marching, if there's going
to be fighting at the end of it. What I hate is this getting moved here and
moved there, with no good coming of it, as far as I can see, excepting sore
feet and damned short rations."
"Well, Jim Conklin
says we'll get a plenty of fighting this time."
"He's right for
once, I guess, though I can't see how it come. This time we're in for a big
battle, and we've got the best end of it, certain sure. Gee rod! how we will
thump 'em!"
He arose and began to
pace to and fro excitedly. The thrill of his enthusiasm made him walk with an
elastic step. He was sprightly, vigorous, fiery in his belief in success. He
looked into the future with clear, proud eye, and he swore with the air of an
old soldier.
The youth watched him
for a moment in silence. When he finally spoke his voice was as bitter as
dregs. "Oh, you're going to do great things, I s'pose!"
The loud soldier blew a
thoughtful cloud of smoke from his pipe. "Oh, I don't know," he
remarked with dignity; "I don't know. I s'pose I'll do as well as the
rest. I'm going to try like thunder." He evidently complimented himself
upon the modesty of this statement.
"How do you know
you won't run when the time comes?" asked the youth.
"Run?" said
the loud one; "run?--of course not!" He laughed.
"Well,"
continued the youth, "lots of good a 'nough men have thought
they was going to do great things before the fight, but when the time come they
skedaddled."
"Oh, that's all
true, I s'pose," replied the other; "but I'm not going to skedaddle.
The man that bets on my running will lose his money, that's all." He
nodded confidently.
"Oh, shucks!"
said the youth. "You ain't the bravest man in the world, are you?"
"No, I
ain't," exclaimed the loud soldier indignantly; "and I didn't say I
was the bravest man in the world, neither. I said I was going to do my share of
fighting--that's what I said. And I am, too. Who are you, anyhow. You talk as
if you thought you was Napoleon Bonaparte." He glared at the youth for a
moment, and then strode away.
The youth called in a
savage voice after his comrade: "Well, you needn't git mad about it!"
But the other continued on his way and made no reply.
He felt alone in space
when his injured comrade had disappeared. His failure to discover any mite of
resemblance in their view points made him more miserable than before. No one
seemed to be wrestling with such a terrific personal problem. He was a mental
outcast.
He went slowly to his
tent and stretched himself on a blanket by the side of the snoring tall
soldier. In the darkness he saw visions of a thousand tongued fear that
would babble at his back and cause him to flee, while others were going coolly
about their country's business. He admitted that he would not be able to cope
with this monster. He felt that every nerve in his body . would be an ear to
hear the voices, while other men would remain stolid and deaf.
And as he sweated with
the pain of these thoughts, he could hear low, serene sentences. "I'll bid
five." "Make it six." "Seven." "Seven goes."
He stared at the red,
shivering reflection of a fire on the white wall of his tent until, exhausted
and ill from the monotony of his suffering, he fell asleep.
WHEN another night came
the columns, changed to purple streaks, filed across two pontoon bridges. A
glaring fire wine tinted the waters of the river. Its rays, shining upon
the moving masses of troops, brought forth here and there sudden gleams of
silver or gold. Upon the other shore a dark and mysterious range of hills was
curved against the sky. The insect voices of the night sang solemnly.
After this crossing the
youth assured himself that at any moment they might be suddenly and fearfully
assaulted from the caves of the lowering woods. He kept his eyes watchfully
upon the darkness.
But his regiment went
unmolested to a camping place, and its soldiers slept the brave sleep of
wearied men. In the morning they were routed out with early energy, and hustled
along a narrow road that led deep into the forest.
It was during this
rapid march that the regiment lost many of the marks of a new command.
The men had begun to
count the miles upon their fingers, and they grew tired. "Sore feet an'
damned short rations, that's all," said the loud soldier. There was
perspiration and grumblings. After a time they began to shed their knapsacks.
Some tossed them unconcernedly down; others hid them carefully, asserting their
plans to return for them at some convenient time. Men extricated themselves
from thick shirts. Presently few carried anything but their necessary clothing,
blankets, haversacks, canteens, and arms and ammunition. "You can now eat
and shoot," said the tall soldier to the youth. "That's all you want
to do."
There was sudden change
from the ponderous infantry of theory to the light and speedy infantry of
practice. The regiment, relieved of a burden, received a new impetus. But there
was much loss of valuable knapsacks, and, on the whole, very good shirts.
But the regiment was
not yet veteranlike in appearance. Veteran regiments in the army were likely to
be very small aggregations of men. Once, when the command had first come to the
field, some perambulating veterans, noting the length of their column, had
accosted them thus: "Hey, fellers, what brigade is that?" And when the
men had replied that they formed a regiment and not a brigade, the older
soldiers had laughed, and said, "O Gawd!"
Also, there was too
great a similarity in the hats. The hats of a regiment should properly
represent the history of headgear for a period of years. And, moreover, there
were no letters of faded gold speaking from the colors. They were new and
beautiful, and the color bearer habitually oiled the pole.
Presently the army
again sat down to think. The odor of the peaceful pines was in the men's
nostrils. The sound of monotonous axe blows rang through the forest, and the
insects, nodding upon their perches, crooned like old women. The youth returned
to his theory of a blue demonstration.
One gray dawn, however,
he was kicked in the leg by the tall soldier, and then, before he was entirely
awake, he found himself running down a wood road in the midst of men who were
panting from the first effects of speed. His canteen banged rhythmically upon
his thigh, and his haversack bobbed softly. His musket bounced a trifle from
his shoulder at each stride and made his cap feel uncertain upon his head.
He could hear the men
whisper jerky sentences: "Say--what's all this--about?" "What
th' thunder--we--skedaddlin' this way fer?" "Billie--keep off m'
feet. Yes run--like a cow." And the loud soldier's shrill voice could be
heard: "What th' devil they in sich a hurry for?"
The youth thought the
damp fog of early morning moved from the rush of a great body of troops. From
the distance came a sudden spatter of firing.
He was bewildered. As
he ran with his comrades he strenuously tried to think, but all he knew was
that if he fell down those coming behind would tread upon him. All his
faculties seemed to be needed to guide him over and past obstructions. He felt
carried along by a mob.
The sun spread
disclosing rays, and, one by one, regiments burst into view like armed men just
born of the earth. The youth perceived that the time had come. He was about to
be measured. For a moment he felt in the face of his great trial like a babe,
and the flesh over his heart seemed very thin. He seized time to look about him
calculatingly.
But he instantly saw
that it would be impossible for him to escape from the regiment. It inclosed
him. And there were iron laws of tradition and law on four sides. He was in a
moving box.
As he perceived this
fact it occurred to him that he had never wished to come to the war. He had not
enlisted of his free will. He had been dragged by the merciless government. And
now they were taking him out to be slaughtered.
The regiment slid down
a bank and wallowed across a little stream. The mournful current moved slowly
on, and from the water, shaded black, some white bubble eyes looked at the men.
As they climbed the
hill on the farther side artillery began to boom. Here the youth forgot many things
as he felt a sudden impulse of curiosity. He scrambled up the bank with a speed
that could not be exceeded by a bloodthirsty man.
He expected a battle
scene.
There were some little
fields girted and squeezed by a forest. Spread over the grass and in among the
tree trunks, he could see knots and waving lines of skirmishers who were
running hither and thither and firing at the landscape. A dark battle line lay
upon a sunstruck clearing that gleamed orange color. A flag fluttered.
Other regiments floundered
up the bank. The brigade was formed in line of battle, and after a pause
started slowly through the woods in the rear of the receding skirmishers, who
were continually melting into the scene to appear again farther on. They were
always busy as bees, deeply absorbed in their little combats.
The youth tried to
observe everything. He did not use care to avoid trees and branches, and his
forgotten feet were constantly knocking against stones or getting entangled in
briers. He was aware that these battalions with their commotions were woven red
and startling into the gentle fabric of softened greens and browns. It looked
to be a wrong place for a battle field.
The skirmishers in
advance fascinated him. Their shots into thickets and at distant and prominent
trees spoke to him of tragedies-- hidden, mysterious, solemn.
Once the line
encountered the body of a dead soldier. He lay upon his back staring at the
sky. He was dressed in an awkward suit of yellowish brown. The youth could see
that the soles of his shoes had been worn to the thinness of writing paper, and
from a great rent in one the dead foot projected piteously. And it was as if
fate had betrayed the soldier. In death it exposed to his enemies that poverty
which in life he had perhaps concealed from his friends.
The ranks opened
covertly to avoid the corpse. The invulnerable dead man forced a way for
himself. The youth looked keenly at the ashen face. The wind raised the tawny
beard. It moved as if a hand were stroking it. He vaguely desired to walk
around and around the body and stare; the impulse of the living to try to read
in dead eyes the answer to the Question.
During the march the
ardor which the youth had acquired when out of view of the field rapidly faded
to nothing. His curiosity was quite easily satisfied. If an intense scene had
caught him with its wild swing as he came to the top of the bank, he might have
gone roaring on. This advance upon Nature was too calm. He had opportunity to
reflect. He had time in which to wonder about himself and to attempt to probe
his sensations.
Absurd ideas took hold
upon him. He thought that he did not relish the landscape. It threatened him. A
coldness swept over his back, and it is true that his trousers felt to him that
they were no fit for his legs at all.
A house standing
placidly in distant fields had to him an ominous look. The shadows of the woods
were formidable. He was certain that in this vista there lurked
fierce eyed hosts. The swift thought came to him that the generals did not
know what they were about. It was all a trap. Suddenly those close forests
would bristle with rifle barrels. Ironlike brigades would appear in the rear.
They were all going to be sacrificed. The generals were stupids. The enemy
would presently swallow the whole command. He glared about him, expecting to
see the stealthy approach of his death.
He thought that he must
break from the ranks and harangue his comrades. They must not all be killed
like pigs; and he was sure it would come to pass unless they were informed of
these dangers. The generals were idiots to send them marching into a regular
pen. There was but one pair of eyes in the corps. He would step forth and make
a speech. Shrill and passionate words came to his lips.
The line, broken into
moving fragments by the ground, went calmly on through fields and woods. The
youth looked at the men nearest him, and saw, for the most part, expressions of
deep interest, as if they were investigating something that had fascinated
them. One or two stepped with overvaliant airs as if they were already plunged
into war. Others walked as upon thin ice. The greater part of the untested men
appeared quiet and absorbed. They were going to look at war, the red
animal--war, the blood swollen god. And they were deeply engrossed in this
march.
As he looked the youth
gripped his outcry at his throat. He saw that even if the men were tottering
with fear they would laugh at his warning. They would jeer him, and, if
practicable, pelt him with missiles. Admitting that he might be wrong, a
frenzied declamation of the kind would turn him into a worm.
He assumed, then, the
demeanor of one who knows that he is doomed alone to unwritten
responsibilities. He lagged, with tragic glances at the sky.
He was surprised
presently by the young lieutenant of his company, who began heartily to beat
him with a sword, calling out in a loud and insolent voice: "Come, young
man, get up into ranks there. No skulking'll do here." He mended his pace
with suitable haste. And he hated the lieutenant, who had no appreciation of
fine minds. He was a mere brute.
After a time the
brigade was halted in the cathedral light of a forest. The busy skirmishers
were still popping. Through the aisles of the wood could be seen the floating
smoke from their rifles. Sometimes it went up in little balls, white and
compact.
During this halt many
men in the regiment began erecting tiny hills in front of them. They used
stones, sticks, earth, and anything they thought might turn a bullet. Some
built comparatively large ones, while others seemed content with little ones.
This procedure caused a
discussion among the men. Some wished to fight like duelists, believing it to
be correct to stand erect and be, from their feet to their foreheads, a mark.
They said they scorned the devices of the cautious. But the others scoffed in
reply, and pointed to the veterans on the flanks who were digging at the ground
like terriers. In a short time there was quite a barricade along the regimental
fronts. Directly, however, they were ordered to withdraw from that place.
This astounded the
youth. He forgot his stewing over the advance movement. "Well, then, what
did they march us out here for?" he demanded of the tall soldier. The
latter with calm faith began a heavy explanation, although he had been
compelled to leave a little protection of stones and dirt to which he had
devoted much care and skill.
When the regiment was
aligned in another position each man's regard for his safety caused another
line of small intrenchments. They ate their noon meal behind a third one. They
were moved from this one also. They were marched from place to place with
apparent aimlessness.
The youth had been
taught that a man became another thing in a battle. He saw his salvation in
such a change. Hence this waiting was an ordeal to him. He was in a fever of
impatience. He considered that there was denoted a lack of purpose on the part
of the generals. He began to complain to the tall soldier. "I can't stand
this much longer," he cried. "I don't see what good it does to make
us wear out our legs for nothin'." He wished to return to camp, knowing
that this affair was a blue demonstration; or else to go into a battle and
discover that he had been a fool in his doubts, and was, in truth, a man of traditional
courage. The strain of present circumstances he felt to be intolerable.
The philosophical tall
soldier measured a sandwich of cracker and pork and swallowed it in a
nonchalant manner. "Oh, I suppose we must go reconnoitering around the
country jest to keep 'em from getting too close, or to develop 'em, or
something."
"Huh!" said
the loud soldier.
"Well," cried
the youth, still fidgeting, "I'd rather do anything 'most than go tramping
'round the country all day doing no good to nobody and jest tiring ourselves
out."
"So would I,"
said the loud soldier. "It ain't right. I tell you if anybody with any
sense was a runnin' this army it--"
"Oh, shut
up!" roared the tall private. "You little fool. You little damn'
cuss. You ain't had that there coat and them pants on for six months, and yet
you talk as if--"
"Well, I wanta do
some fighting anyway," interrupted the other. "I didn't come here to
walk. I could 'ave walked to home--'round an' 'round the barn, if I jest wanted
to walk."
The tall one, red faced,
swallowed another sandwich as if taking poison in despair.
But gradually, as he
chewed, his face became again quiet and contented. He could not rage in fierce
argument in the presence of such sandwiches. During his meals he always wore an
air of blissful contemplation of the food he had swallowed. His spirit seemed
then to be communing with the viands.
He accepted new
environment and circumstance with great coolness, eating from his haversack at
every opportunity. On the march he went along with the stride of a hunter,
objecting to neither gait nor distance. And he had not raised his voice when he
had been ordered away from three little protective piles of earth and stone,
each of which had been an engineering feat worthy of being made sacred to the
name of his grandmother.
In the afternoon the
regiment went out over the same ground it had taken in the morning. The
landscape then ceased to threaten the youth. He had been close to it and become
familiar with it.
When, however, they
began to pass into a new region, his old fears of stupidity and incompetence
reassailed him, but this time he doggedly let them babble. He was occupied with
his problem, and in his desperation he concluded that the stupidity did not
greatly matter.
Once he thought he had
concluded that it would be better to get killed directly and end his troubles.
Regarding death thus out of the corner of his eye, he conceived it to be
nothing but rest, and he was filled with a momentary astonishment that he
should have made an extraordinary commotion over the mere matter of getting
killed. He would die; he would go to some place where he would be understood.
It was useless to expect appreciation of his profound and fine senses from such
men as the lieutenant. He must look to the grave for comprehension.
The skirmish fire
increased to a long chattering ing sound. With it was mingled far-away
cheering. A battery spoke.
Directly the youth
would see the skirmishers running. They were pursued by the sound of musketry
fire. After a time the hot, dangerous flashes of the rifles were visible. Smoke
clouds went slowly and insolently across the fields like observant phantoms.
The din became crescendo, like the roar of an oncoming train.
A brigade ahead of them
and on the right went into action with a rending roar. It was as if it had
exploded. And thereafter it lay stretched in the distance behind a long gray
wall, that one was obliged to look twice at to make sure that it was smoke.
The youth, forgetting
his neat plan of getting killed, gazed spell bound. His eyes grew wide and busy
with the action of the scene. His mouth was a little ways open.
Of a sudden he felt a
heavy and sad hand laid upon his shoulder. Awakening from his trance of
observation he turned and beheld the loud soldier.
"It's my first and
last battle, old boy," said the latter, with intense gloom. He was quite
pale and his girlish lip was trembling.
"Eh?"
murmured the youth in great astonishment.
"It's my first and
last battle, old boy," continued the loud soldier. "Something tells
me--"
"What?"
"I'm a gone coon
this first time and--and I w want you to take these here things--to--my--
folks." He ended in a quavering sob of pity for himself. He handed the
youth a little packet done up in a yellow envelope.
"Why, what the
devil--" began the youth again.
But the other gave him
a glance as from the depths of a tomb, and raised his limp hand in a prophetic
manner and turned away.
THE brigade was halted
in the fringe of a grove. The men crouched among the trees and pointed their
restless guns out at the fields. They tried to look beyond the smoke.
Out of this haze they
could see running men. Some shouted information and gestured as they hurried.
The men of the new
regiment watched and listened eagerly, while their tongues ran on in gossip of
the battle. They mouthed rumors that had flown like birds out of the unknown.
"They say Perry
has been driven in with big loss."
"Yes, Carrott went
t' th' hospital. He said he was sick. That smart lieutenant is commanding 'G'
Company. Th' boys say they won't be under Carrott no more if they all have t'
desert. They allus knew he was a--"
"Hannises' batt'ry
is took."
"It ain't either.
I saw Hannises' batt'ry off on th' left not more'n fifteen minutes ago."
"Well--"
"Th' general, he
ses he is goin' t' take th' hull cammand of th' 304th when we go inteh action,
an' then he ses we'll do sech fightin' as never another one reg'ment
done."
"They say we're
catchin' it over on th' left. They say th' enemy driv' our line inteh a devil
of a swamp an' took Hannises' batt'ry."
"No sech thing.
Hannises' batt'ry was 'long here 'bout a minute ago."
"That young
Hasbrouck, he makes a good off'cer. He ain't afraid 'a nothin'."
"I met one of th'
148th Maine boys an' he ses his brigade fit th' hull rebel army fer four hours
over on th' turnpike road an' killed about five thousand of 'em. He ses one
more sech fight as that an' th' war 'll be over."
"Bill wasn't
scared either. No, sir! It wasn't that. Bill ain't a gittin' scared easy.
He was jest mad, that's what he was. When that feller trod on his hand, he up
an' sed that he was willin' t' give his hand t' his country, but he be dumbed if
he was goin' t' have every dumb bushwhacker in th' kentry walkin' 'round on it.
Se he went t' th' hospital disregardless of th' fight. Three fingers was
crunched. Th' dern doctor wanted t' amputate 'm, an' Bill, he raised a heluva
row, I hear. He's a funny feller."
The din in front
swelled to a tremendous chorus. The youth and his fellows were frozen to
silence. They could see a flag that tossed in the smoke angrily. Near it were
the blurred and agitated forms of troops. There came a turbulent stream of men
across the fields. A battery changing position at a frantic gallop scattered
the stragglers right and left.
A shell screaming like
a storm banshee went over the huddled heads of the reserves. It landed in the
grove, and exploding redly flung the brown earth. There was a little shower of
pine needles.
Bullets began to
whistle among the branches and nip at the trees. Twigs and leaves came sailing
down. It was as if a thousand axes, wee and invisible, were being wielded. Many
of the men were constantly dodging and ducking their heads.
The lieutenant of the
youth's company was shot in the hand. He began to swear so wondrously that a
nervous laugh went along the regimental line. The officer's profanity sounded
conventional. It relieved the tightened senses of the new men. It was as if he
had hit his fingers with a tack hammer at home.
He held the wounded
member carefully away from his side so that the blood would not drip upon his
trousers.
The captain of the
company, tucking his sword under his arm, produced a handkerchief and began to
bind with it the lieutenant's wound. And they disputed as to how the binding
should be done.
The battle flag in the
distance jerked about madly. It seemed to be struggling to free itself from an
agony. The billowing smoke was filled with horizontal flashes.
Men running swiftly
emerged from it. They grew in numbers until it was seen that the whole command
was fleeing. The flag suddenly sank down as if dying. Its motion as it fell was
a gesture of despair.
Wild yells came from
behind the walls of smoke. A sketch in gray and red dissolved into a moblike
body of men who galloped like wild horses.
The veteran regiments
on the right and left of the 304th immediately began to jeer. With the
passionate song of the bullets and the banshee shrieks of shells were mingled
loud catcalls and bits of facetious advice concerning places of safety.
But the new regiment
was breathless with horror. "Gawd! Saunders's got crushed!" whispered
the man at the youth's elbow. They shrank back and crouched as if compelled to
await a flood.
The youth shot a swift
glance along the blue ranks of the regiment. The profiles were motionless,
carven; and afterward he remembered that the color sergeant was standing with
his legs apart, as if he expected to be pushed to the ground.
The following throng
went whirling around the flank. Here and there were officers carried along on
the stream like exasperated chips. They were striking about them with their
swords and with their left fists, punching every head they could reach. They
cursed like highway men.
A mounted officer
displayed the furious anger of a spoiled child. He raged with his head, his
arms, and his legs.
Another, the commander
of the brigade, was galloping about bawling. His hat was gone and his clothes
were awry. He resembled a man who has come from bed to go to a fire. The hoofs
of his horse often threatened the heads of the running men, but they scampered
with singular fortune. In this rush they were apparently all deaf and blind.
They heeded not the largest and longest of the oaths that were thrown at them
from all directions.
Frequently over this
tumult could be heard the grim jokes of the critical veterans; but the
retreating men apparantly were not even conscious of the presence of an audience.
The battle reflection
that shone for an instant in the faces on the mad current made the youth feel
that forceful hands from heaven would not have been able to have held him in
place if he could have got intelligent control of his legs.
There was an appalling
imprint upon these faces. The struggle in the smoke had pictured an
exaggeration of itself on the bleached cheeks and in the eyes wild with one
desire.
The sight of this
stampede exerted a floodlike force that seemed able to drag sticks and stones
and men from the ground. They of the reserves had to hold on. They grew pale
and firm, and red and quaking.
The youth achieved one
little thought in the midst of this chaos. The composite monster which had
caused the other troops to flee had not then appeared. He resolved to get a
view of it, and then, he thought he might very likely run better than the best
of them.
THERE were moments of
waiting. The youth thought of the village street at home before the arrival of
the circus parade on a day in the spring. He remembered how he had stood, a
small, thrillful boy, prepared to follow the dingy lady upon the white horse,
or the band in its faded chariot. He saw the yellow road, the lines of
expectant people, and the sober houses. He particularly remembered an old
fellow who used to sit upon a cracker box in front of the store and feign to
despise such exhibitions. A thousand details of color and form surged in his
mind. The old fellow upon the cracker box appeared in middle prominence.
Some one cried,
"Here they come!"
There was rustling and
muttering among the men. They displayed a feverish desire to have every
possible cartridge ready to their hands. The boxes were pulled around into
various positions, and adjusted with great care. It was as if seven hundred new
bonnets were being tried on.
The tall soldier,
having prepared his rifle, produced a red handkerchief of some kind. He was
engaged in knitting it about his throat with exquisite attention to its
position, when the cry was repeated up and down the line in a muffled roar of
sound.
"Here they come!
Here they come!" Gun locks clicked.
Across the
smoke infested fields came a brown swarm of running men who were giving
shrill yells. They came on, stooping and swinging their rifles at all angles. A
flag, tilted forward, sped near the front.
As he caught sight of
them the youth was momentarily startled by a thought that perhaps his gun was
not loaded. He stood trying to rally his faltering intellect so that he might
recollect the moment when he had loaded, but he could not.
A hatless general
pulled his dripping horse to a stand near the colonel of the 304th. He shook
his fist in the other's face. "You 've got to hold 'em back!" he
shouted, savagely; "you 've got to hold 'em back!"
In his agitation the
colonel began to stammer. "A all r right, General, all right, by
Gawd! We we'll do our--we-we'll d-d-do--do our best, General." The
general made a passionate gesture and galloped away. The colonel, perchance to
relieve his feelings, began to scold like a wet parrot. The youth, turning
swiftly to make sure that the rear was unmolested, saw the commander regarding
his men in a highly regretful manner, as if he regretted above everything his
association with them.
The man at the youth's
elbow was mumbling, as if to himself: "Oh, we 're in for it now! oh, we
're in for it now!"
The captain of the
company had been pacing excitedly to and fro in the rear. He coaxed in
schoolmistress fashion, as to a congregation of boys with primers. His talk was
an endless repetition. "Reserve your fire, boys--don't shoot till I tell
you--save your fire--wait till they get close up--don't be damned fools--"
Perspiration streamed
down the youth's face, which was soiled like that of a weeping urchin. He
frequently, with a nervous movement, wiped his eyes with his coat sleeve. His
mouth was still a little ways open.
He got the one glance
at the foe swarming field in front of him, and instantly ceased to debate
the question of his piece being loaded. Before he was ready to begin--before he
had announced to himself that he was about to fight-- he threw the obedient,
well balanced rifle into position and fired a first wild shot. Directly he
was working at his weapon like an automatic affair.
He suddenly lost
concern for himself, and forgot to look at a menacing fate. He became not a man
but a member. He felt that something of which he was a part--a regiment, an
army, a cause, or a country--was in a crisis. He was welded into a common
personality which was dominated by a single desire. For some moments he could
not flee no more than a little finger can commit a revolution from a hand.
If he had thought the
regiment was about to be annihilated perhaps he could have amputated himself from
it. But its noise gave him assurance. The regiment was like a firework that,
once ignited, proceeds superior to circumstances until its blazing vitality
fades. It wheezed and banged with a mighty power. He pictured the ground before
it as strewn with the discomfited.
There was a
consciousness always of the presence of his comrades about him. He felt the
subtle battle brotherhood more potent even than the cause for which they were
fighting. It was a mysterious fraternity born of the smoke and danger of death.
He was at a task. He
was like a carpenter who has made many boxes, making still another box, only
there was furious haste in his movements. He, in his thought, was careering off
in other places, even as the carpenter who as he works whistles and thinks of
his friend or his enemy, his home or a saloon. And these jolted dreams were
never perfect to him afterward, but remained a mass of blurred shapes.
Presently he began to
feel the effects of the war atmosphere--a blistering sweat, a sensation that
his eyeballs were about to crack like hot stones. A burning roar filled his
ears.
Following this came a
red rage. He developed the acute exasperation of a pestered animal, a
well meaning cow worried by dogs. He had a mad feeling against his rifle,
which could only be used against one life at a time. He wished to rush forward
and strangle with his fingers. He craved a power that would enable him to make
a world sweeping gesture and brush all back. His impotency appeared to
him, and made his rage into that of a driven beast.
Buried in the smoke of
many rifles his anger was directed not so much against the men whom he knew
were rushing toward him as against the swirling battle phantoms which were
choking him, stuffing their smoke robes down his parched throat. He fought
frantically for respite for his senses, for air, as a babe being smothered
attacks the deadly blankets.
There was a blare of
heated rage mingled with a certain expression of intentness on all faces. Many
of the men were making low toned noises with their mouths, and these
subdued cheers, snarls, imprecations, prayers, made a wild, barbaric song that
went as an undercurrent of sound, strange and chantlike with the resounding
chords of the war march. The man at the youth's elbow was babbling. In it there
was something soft and tender like the monologue of a babe. The tall soldier
was swearing in a loud voice. From his lips came a black procession of curious
oaths. Of a sudden another broke out in a querulous way like a man who has
mislaid his hat. "Well, why don't they support us? Why don't they send
supports? Do they think--"
The youth in his battle
sleep heard this as one who dozes hears.
There was a singular
absence of heroic poses. The men bending and surging in their haste and rage were
in every impossible attitude. The steel ramrods clanked and clanged with
incessant din as the men pounded them furiously into the hot rifle barrels. The
flaps of the cartridge boxes were all unfastened, and bobbed idiotically with
each movement. The rifles, once loaded, were jerked to the shoulder and fired
without apparent aim into the smoke or at one of the blurred and shifting forms
which upon the field before the regiment had been growing larger and larger
like puppets under a magician's hand.
The officers, at their
intervals, rearward, neglected to stand in picturesque attitudes. They were
bobbing to and fro roaring directions and encouragements. The dimensions of
their howls were extraordinary. They expended their lungs with prodigal wills.
And often they nearly stood upon their heads in their anxiety to observe the
enemy on the other side of the tumbling smoke.
The lieutenant of the
youth's company had encountered a soldier who had fled screaming at the first
volley of his comrades. Behind the lines these two were acting a little
isolated scene. The man was blubbering and staring with sheeplike eyes at the
lieutenant, who had seized him by the collar and was pommeling him. He drove
him back into the ranks with many blows. The soldier went mechanically, dully,
with his animal like eyes upon the officer. Perhaps there was to him a
divinity expressed in the voice of the other --stern, hard, with no reflection
of fear in it. He tried to reload his gun, but his shaking hands prevented. The
lieutenant was obliged to assist him.
The men dropped here
and there like bundles. The captain of the youth's company had been killed in
an early part of the action. His body lay stretched out in the position of a
tired man resting, but upon his face there was an astonished and sorrowful
look, as if he thought some friend had done him an ill turn. The babbling man
was grazed by a shot that made the blood stream widely down his face. He
clapped both hands to his head. "Oh!" he said, and ran. Another grunted
suddenly as if he had been struck by a club in the stomach. He sat down and
gazed ruefully. In his eyes there was mute, indefinite reproach. Farther up the
line a man, standing behind a tree, had had his knee joint splintered by a
ball. Immediately he had dropped his rifle and gripped the tree with both arms.
And there he remained, clinging desperately and crying for assistance that he
might withdraw his hold upon the tree.
At last an exultant
yell went along the quivering line. The firing dwindled from an uproar to a
last vindictive popping. As the smoke slowly eddied away, the youth saw that
the charge had been repulsed. The enemy were scattered into reluctant groups.
He saw a man climb to the top of the fence, straddle the rail, and fire a
parting shot. The waves had receded, leaving bits of dark de'bris upon the
ground.
Some in the regiment
began to whoop frenziedly. Many were silent. Apparently they were trying to
contemplate themselves.
After the fever had
left his veins, the youth thought that at last he was going to suffocate. He
became aware of the foul atmosphere in which he had been struggling. He was
grimy and dripping like a laborer in a foundry. He grasped his canteen and took
a long swallow of the warmed water.
A sentence with
variations went up and down the line. "Well, we 've helt 'em back. We 've
helt 'em back; derned if we haven't." The men said it blissfully, leering
at each other with dirty smiles.
The youth turned to look
behind him and off to the right and off to the left. He experienced the joy of
a man who at last finds leisure in which to look about him.
Under foot there were a
few ghastly forms motionless. They lay twisted in fantastic contortions. Arms
were bent and heads were turned in incredible ways. It seemed that the dead men
must have fallen from some great height to get into such positions. They looked
to be dumped out upon the ground from the sky.
From a position in the
rear of the grove a battery was throwing shells over it. The flash of the guns
startled the youth at first. He thought they were aimed directly at him.
Through the trees he watched the black figures of the gunners as they worked
swiftly and intently. Their labor seemed a complicated thing. He wondered how
they could remember its formula in the midst of confusion.
The guns squatted in a
row like savage chiefs. They argued with abrupt violence. It was a grim
pow wow. Their busy servants ran hither and thither.
A small procession of
wounded men were going drearily toward the rear. It was a flow of blood from
the torn body of the brigade.
To the right and to the
left were the dark lines of other troops. Far in front he thought he could see
lighter masses protruding in points from the forest. They were suggestive of
unnumbered thousands.
Once he saw a tiny
battery go dashing along the line of the horizon. The tiny riders were beating
the tiny horses.
From a sloping hill
came the sound of cheerings and clashes. Smoke welled slowly through the
leaves.
Batteries were speaking
with thunderous oratorical effort. Here and there were flags, the red in the
stripes dominating. They splashed bits of warm color upon the dark lines of
troops.
The youth felt the old
thrill at the sight of the emblem. They were like beautiful birds strangely
undaunted in a storm.
As he listened to the
din from the hillside, to a deep pulsating thunder that came from afar to the
left, and to the lesser clamors which came from many directions, it occurred to
him that they were fighting, too, over there, and over there, and over there.
Heretofore he had supposed that all the battle was directly under his nose.
As he gazed around him
the youth felt a flash of astonishment at the blue, pure sky and the sun
gleamings on the trees and fields. It was surprising that Nature had gone
tranquilly on with her golden process in the midst of so much devilment.
THE youth awakened
slowly. He came gradually back to a position from which he could regard
himself. For moments he had been scrutinizing his person in a dazed way as if
he had never before seen himself. Then he picked up his cap from the ground. He
wriggled in his jacket to make a more comfortable fit, and kneeling replaced
his shoe. He thoughtfully mopped his reeking features.
So it was all over at
last! The supreme trial had been passed. The red, formidable difficulties of
war had been vanquished.
He went into an ecstasy
of self satisfaction. He had the most delightful sensations of his life.
Standing as if apart from himself, he viewed that last scene. He perceived that
the man who had fought thus was magnificent.
He felt that he was a
fine fellow. He saw himself even with those ideals which he had considered as
far beyond him. He smiled in deep gratification.
Upon his fellows he
beamed tenderness and good will. "Gee! ain't it hot, hey?" he said
affably to a man who was polishing his streaming face with his coat sleeves.
"You bet!"
said the other, grinning sociably. "I never seen sech dumb hotness." He
sprawled out luxuriously on the ground. "Gee, yes! An' I hope we don't
have no more fightin' till a week from Monday."
There were some
handshakings and deep speeches with men whose features were familiar, but with
whom the youth now felt the bonds of tied hearts. He helped a cursing comrade
to bind up a wound of the shin.
But, of a sudden, cries
of amazement broke out along the ranks of the new regiment. "Here they
come ag'in! Here they come ag'in!" The man who had sprawled upon the
ground started up and said, "Gosh!"
The youth turned quick
eyes upon the field. He discerned forms begin to swell in masses out of a
distant wood. He again saw the tilted flag speeding forward.
The shells, which had
ceased to trouble the regiment for a time, came swirling again, and exploded in
the grass or among the leaves of the trees. They looked to be strange war
flowers bursting into fierce bloom.
The men groaned. The
luster faded from their eyes. Their smudged countenances now expressed a
profound dejection. They moved their stiffened bodies slowly, and watched in
sullen mood the frantic approach of the enemy. The slaves toiling in the temple
of this god began to feel rebellion at his harsh tasks.
They fretted and
complained each to each. "Oh, say, this is too much of a good thing! Why
can't somebody send us supports?"
"We ain't never
goin' to stand this second banging. I didn't come here to fight the hull damn'
rebel army."
There was one who
raised a doleful cry. "I wish Bill Smithers had trod on my hand, insteader
me treddin' on his'n." The sore joints of the regiment creaked as it
painfully floundered into position to repulse.
The youth stared.
Surely, he thought, this impossible thing was not about to happen. He waited as
if he expected the enemy to suddenly stop, apologize, and retire bowing. It was
all a mistake.
But the firing began
somewhere on the regimental line and ripped along in both directions. The level
sheets of flame developed great clouds of smoke that tumbled and tossed in the
mild wind near the ground for a moment, and then rolled through the ranks as
through a gate. The clouds were tinged an earthlike yellow in the sunrays and
in the shadow were a sorry blue. The flag was sometimes eaten and lost in this
mass of vapor, but more often it projected, sun touched, resplendent.
Into the youth's eyes
there came a look that one can see in the orbs of a jaded horse. His neck was
quivering with nervous weakness and the muscles of his arms felt numb and
bloodless. His hands, too, seemed large and awkward as if he was wearing
invisible mittens. And there was a great uncertainty about his knee joints.
The words that comrades
had uttered previous to the firing began to recur to him. "Oh, say, this is
too much of a good thing! What do they take us for--why don't they send
supports? I didn't come here to fight the hull damned rebel army."
He began to exaggerate
the endurance, the skill, and the valor of those who were coming. Himself
reeling from exhaustion, he was astonished beyond measure at such persistency.
They must be machines of steel. It was very gloomy struggling against such
affairs, wound up perhaps to fight until sundown.
He slowly lifted his
rifle and catching a glimpse of the thickspread field he blazed at a cantering
cluster. He stopped then and began to peer as best he could through the smoke.
He caught changing views of the ground covered with men who were all running
like pursued imps, and yelling.
To the youth it was an
onslaught of redoubtable dragons. He became like the man who lost his legs at
the approach of the red and green monster. He waited in a sort of a horrified,
listening attitude. He seemed to shut his eyes and wait to be gobbled.
A man near him who up
to this time had been working feverishly at his rifle suddenly stopped and ran
with howls. A lad whose face had borne an expression of exalted courage, the
majesty of he who dares give his life, was, at an instant, smitten abject. He
blanched like one who has come to the edge of a cliff at midnight and is
suddenly made aware. There was a revelation. He, too, threw down his gun and
fled. There was no shame in his face. He ran like a rabbit.
Others began to scamper
away through the smoke. The youth turned his head, shaken from his trance by
this movement as if the regiment was leaving him behind. He saw the few
fleeting forms.
He yelled then with
fright and swung about. For a moment, in the great clamor, he was like a
proverbial chicken. He lost the direction of safety. Destruction threatened him
from all points.
Directly he began to
speed toward the rear in great leaps. His rifle and cap were gone. His
unbuttoned coat bulged in the wind. The flap of his cartridge box bobbed
wildly, and his canteen, by its slender cord, swung out behind. On his face was
all the horror of those things which he imagined.
The lieutenant sprang
forward bawling. The youth saw his features wrathfully red, and saw him make a
dab with his sword. His one thought of the incident was that the lieutenant was
a peculiar creature to feel interested in such matters upon this occasion.
He ran like a blind
man. Two or three times he fell down. Once he knocked his shoulder so heavily
against a tree that he went headlong.
Since he had turned his
back upon the fight his fears had been wondrously magnified. Death about to
thrust him between the shoulder blades was far more dreadful than death about
to smite him between the eyes. When he thought of it later, he conceived the
impression that it is better to view the appalling than to be merely within
hearing. The noises of the battle were like stones; he believed himself liable
to be crushed.
As he ran he mingled
with others. He dimly saw men on his right and on his left, and he heard
footsteps behind him. He thought that all the regiment was fleeing, pursued by
these ominous crashes.
In his flight the sound
of these following footsteps gave him his one meager relief. He felt vaguely
that death must make a first choice of the men who were nearest; the initial
morsels for the dragons would be then those who were following him. So he
displayed the zeal of an insane sprinter in his purpose to keep them in the
rear. There was a race.
As he, leading, went
across a little field, he found himself in a region of shells. They hurtled
over his head with long wild screams. As he listened he imagined them to have
rows of cruel teeth that grinned at him. Once one lit before him and the livid
lightning of the explosion effectually barred the way in his chosen direction.
He groveled on the ground and then springing up went careering off through some
bushes.
He experienced a thrill
of amazement when he came within view of a battery in action. The men there
seemed to be in conventional moods, altogether unaware of the impending
annihilation. The battery was disputing with a distant antagonist and the
gunners were wrapped in admiration of their shooting. They were continually
bending in coaxing postures over the guns. They seemed to be patting them on
the back and encouraging them with words. The guns, stolid and undaunted, spoke
with dogged valor.
The precise gunners
were coolly enthusiastic. They lifted their eyes every chance to the
smoke wreathed hillock from whence the hostile battery addressed them.
The youth pitied them as he ran. Methodical idiots! Machine like fools!
The refined joy of planting shells in the midst of the other battery's
formation would appear a little thing when the infantry came swooping out of
the woods.
The face of a youthful
rider, who was jerking his frantic horse with an abandon of temper he might
display in a placid barnyard, was impressed deeply upon his mind. He knew that
he looked upon a man who would presently be dead.
Too, he felt a pity for
the guns, standing, six good comrades, in a bold row.
He saw a brigade going
to the relief of its pestered fellows. He scrambled upon a wee hill and watched
it sweeping finely, keeping formation in difficult places. The blue of the line
was crusted with steel color, and the brilliant flags projected. Officers were
shouting.
This sight also filled
him with wonder. The brigade was hurrying briskly to be gulped into the
infernal mouths of the war god. What manner of men were they, anyhow? Ah, it
was some wondrous breed! Or else they didn't comprehend--the fools.
A furious order caused
commotion in the artillery lery. An officer on a bounding horse made maniacal
motions with his arms. The teams went swinging up from the rear, the guns were
whirled about, and the battery scampered away. The cannon with their noses
poked slantingly at the ground grunted and grumbled like stout men, brave but
with objections to hurry.
The youth went on,
moderating his pace since he had left the place of noises.
Later he came upon a
general of division seated upon a horse that pricked its ears in an interested
way at the battle. There was a great gleaming of yellow and patent leather
about the saddle and bridle. The quiet man astride looked mouse colored
upon such a splendid charger.
A jingling staff was
galloping hither and thither. Sometimes the general was surrounded by horsemen
and at other times he was quite alone. He looked to be much harassed. He had
the appearance of a business man whose market is swinging up and down.
The youth went slinking
around this spot. He went as near as he dared trying to overhear words. Perhaps
the general, unable to comprehend chaos, might call upon him for information.
And he could tell him. He knew all concerning it. Of a surety the force was in
a fix, and any fool could see that if they did not retreat while they had
opportunity--why--
He felt that he would
like to thrash the general, or at least approach and tell him in plain words
exactly what he thought him to be. It was criminal to stay calmly in one spot
and make no effort to stay destruction. He loitered in a fever of eagerness for
the division commander to apply to him.
As he warily moved
about, he heard the general call out irritably: "Tompkins, go over an' see
Taylor, an' tell him not t' be in such an all allfired hurry; tell him t' halt
his brigade in th' edge of th' woods; tell him t' detach a reg'ment --say I
think th' center 'll break if we don't help it out some; tell him t' hurry
up."
A slim youth on a fine
chestnut horse caught these swift words from the mouth of his superior. He made
his horse bound into a gallop almost from a walk in his haste to go upon his
mission. There was a cloud of dust.
A moment later the
youth saw the general bounce excitedly in his saddle.
"Yes, by heavens,
they have!" The officer leaned forward. His face was aflame with
excitement. "Yes, by heavens, they 've held 'im! They 've held 'im!"
He began to blithely
roar at his staff: "We 'll wallop 'im now. We 'll wallop 'im now. We 've
got 'em sure." He turned suddenly upon an aid:
"Here--you--Jones--quick--ride after Tompkins --see Taylor--tell him t' go
in--everlastingly-- like blazes--anything."
As another officer sped
his horse after the first messenger, the general beamed upon the earth like a sun.
In his eyes was a desire to chant a paean. He kept repeating, "They 've
held 'em, by heavens!"
His excitement made his
horse plunge, and he merrily kicked and swore at it. He held a little carnival
of joy on horseback.
THE youth cringed as if
discovered in a crime. By heavens, they had won after all! The imbecile line
had remained and become victors. He could hear cheering.
He lifted himself upon
his toes and looked in the direction of the fight. A yellow fog lay wallowing
on the treetops. From beneath it came the clatter of musketry. Hoarse cries
told of an advance.
He turned away amazed
and angry. He felt that he had been wronged.
He had fled, he told
himself, because annihilation approached. He had done a good part in saving himself,
who was a little piece of the army. He had considered the time, he said, to be
one in which it was the duty of every little piece to rescue itself if
possible. Later the officers could fit the little pieces together again, and
make a battle front. If none of the little pieces were wise enough to save
themselves from the flurry of death at such a time, why, then, where would be
the army? It was all plain that he had proceeded according to very correct and
commendable rules. His actions had been sagacious things. They had been full of
strategy. They were the work of a master's legs.
Thoughts of his
comrades came to him. The brittle blue line had withstood the blows and won. He
grew bitter over it. It seemed that the blind ignorance and stupidity of those
little pieces had betrayed him. He had been overturned and crushed by their
lack of sense in holding the position, when intelligent deliberation would have
convinced them that it was impossible. He, the enlightened man who looks afar
in the dark, had fled because of his superior perceptions and knowledge. He
felt a great anger against his comrades. He knew it could be proved that they
had been fools.
He wondered what they
would remark when later he appeared in camp. His mind heard howls of derision.
Their density would not enable them to understand his sharper point of view.
He began to pity
himself acutely. He was ill used. He was trodden beneath the feet of an iron
injustice. He had proceeded with wisdom and from the most righteous motives
under heaven's blue only to be frustrated by hateful circumstances.
A dull,
animal like rebellion against his fellows, war in the abstract, and fate
grew within him. He shambled along with bowed head, his brain in a tumult of
agony and despair. When he looked loweringly up, quivering at each sound, his
eyes had the expression of those of a criminal who thinks his guilt and his
punishment great, and knows that he can find no words.
He went from the fields
into a thick woods, as if resolved to bury himself. He wished to get out of
hearing of the crackling shots which were to him like voices.
The ground was
cluttered with vines and bushes, and the trees grew close and spread out like
bouquets. He was obliged to force his way with much noise. The creepers,
catching against his legs, cried out harshly as their sprays were torn from the
barks of trees. The swishing saplings tried to make known his presence to the
world. He could not conciliate the forest. As he made his way, it was always
calling out protestations. When he separated embraces of trees and vines the
disturbed foliages waved their arms and turned their face leaves toward him. He
dreaded lest these noisy motions and cries should bring men to look at him. So
he went far, seeking dark and intricate places.
After a time the sound
of musketry grew faint and the cannon boomed in the distance. The sun, suddenly
apparent, blazed among the trees. The insects were making rhythmical noises.
They seemed to be grinding their teeth in unison. A woodpecker stuck his impudent
head around the side of a tree. A bird flew on lighthearted wing.
Off was the rumble of
death. It seemed now that Nature had no ears.
This landscape gave him
assurance. A fair field holding life. It was the religion of peace. It would
die if its timid eyes were compelled to see blood. He conceived Nature to be a
woman with a deep aversion to tragedy.
He threw a pine cone at
a jovial squirrel, and he ran with chattering fear. High in a treetop he
stopped, and, poking his head cautiously from behind a branch, looked down with
an air of trepidation.
The youth felt
triumphant at this exhibition. There was the law, he said. Nature had given him
a sign. The squirrel, immediately upon recognizing danger, had taken to his
legs without ado. He did not stand stolidly baring his furry belly to the
missile, and die with an upward glance at the sympathetic heavens. On the
contrary, he had fled as fast as his legs could carry him; and he was but an
ordinary squirrel, too-- doubtless no philosopher of his race. The youth
wended, feeling that Nature was of his mind. She re enforced his argument
with proofs that lived where the sun shone.
Once he found himself
almost into a swamp. He was obliged to walk upon bog tufts and watch his feet
to keep from the oily mire. Pausing at one time to look about him he saw, out
at some black water, a small animal pounce in and emerge directly with a
gleaming fish.
The youth went again
into the deep thickets. The brushed branches made a noise that drowned the
sounds of cannon. He walked on, going from obscurity into promises of a greater
obscurity.
At length he reached a
place where the high, arching boughs made a chapel. He softly pushed the green
doors aside and entered. Pine needles were a gentle brown carpet. There was a
religious half light.
Near the threshold he
stopped, horror stricken at the sight of a thing.
He was being looked at
by a dead man who was seated with his back against a columnlike tree. The
corpse was dressed in a uniform that once had been blue, but was now faded to a
melancholy shade of green. The eyes, staring at the youth, had changed to the
dull hue to be seen on the side of a dead fish. The mouth was open. Its red had
changed to an appalling yellow. Over the gray skin of the face ran little ants.
One was trundling some sort of a bundle along the upper lip.
The youth gave a shriek
as he confronted the thing. He was for moments turned to stone before it. He
remained staring into the liquid looking eyes. The dead man and the living
man exchanged a long look. Then the youth cautiously put one hand behind him
and brought it against a tree. Leaning upon this he retreated, step by step,
with his face still toward the thing. He feared that if he turned his back the
body might spring up and stealthily pursue him.
The branches, pushing
against him, threatened to throw him over upon it. His unguided feet, too,
caught aggravatingly in brambles; and with it all he received a subtle
suggestion to touch the corpse. As he thought of his hand upon it he shuddered
profoundly.
At last he burst the
bonds which had fastened him to the spot and fled, unheeding the underbrush. He
was pursued by a sight of the black ants swarming greedily upon the gray face
and venturing horribly near to the eyes.
After a time he paused,
and, breathless and panting, listened. He imagined some strange voice would
come from the dead throat and squawk after him in horrible menaces.
The trees about the
portal of the chapel moved soughingly in a soft wind. A sad silence was upon
the little guarding edifice.
THE trees began softly
to sing a hymn of twilight. The sun sank until slanted bronze rays struck the
forest. There was a lull in the noises of insects as if they had bowed their
beaks and were making a devotional pause. There was silence save for the
chanted chorus of the trees.
Then, upon this
stillness, there suddenly broke a tremendous clangor of sounds. A crimson roar
came from the distance.
The youth stopped. He
was transfixed by this terrific medley of all noises. It was as if worlds were
being rended. There was the ripping sound of musketry and the breaking crash of
the artillery.
His mind flew in all
directions. He conceived the two armies to be at each other panther fashion. He
listened for a time. Then he began to run in the direction of the battle. He
saw that it was an ironical thing for him to be running thus toward that which
he had been at such pains to avoid. But he said, in substance, to himself that
if the earth and the moon were about to clash, many persons would doubtless
plan to get upon the roofs to witness the collision.
As he ran, he became
aware that the forest had stopped its music, as if at last becoming capable of
hearing the foreign sounds. The trees hushed and stood motionless. Everything
seemed to be listening to the crackle and clatter and earshaking thunder. The
chorus pealed over the still earth.
It suddenly occurred to
the youth that the fight in which he had been was, after all, but perfunctory
popping. In the hearing of this present din he was doubtful if he had seen real
battle scenes. This uproar explained a celestial battle; it was tumbling hordes
a struggle in the air.
Reflecting, he saw a
sort of a humor in the point of view of himself and his fellows during the late
encounter. They had taken themselves and the enemy very seriously and had
imagined that they were deciding the war. Individuals must have supposed that
they were cutting the letters of their names deep into everlasting tablets of
brass, or enshrining their reputations forever in the hearts of their
countrymen, while, as to fact, the affair would appear in printed reports under
a meek and immaterial title. But he saw that it was good, else, he said, in
battle every one would surely run save forlorn hopes and their ilk.
He went rapidly on. He
wished to come to the edge of the forest that he might peer out.
As he hastened, there
passed through his mind pictures of stupendous conflicts. His accumulated
thought upon such subjects was used to form scenes. The noise was as the voice
of an eloquent being, describing.
Sometimes the brambles
formed chains and tried to hold him back. Trees, confronting him, stretched out
their arms and forbade him to pass. After its previous hostility this new
resistance of the forest filled him with a fine bitterness. It seemed that
Nature could not be quite ready to kill him.
But he obstinately took
roundabout ways, and presently he was where he could see long gray walls of
vapor where lay battle lines. The voices of cannon shook him. The musketry
sounded in long irregular surges that played havoc with his ears. He stood
regardant for a moment. His eyes had an awestruck expression. He gawked in the
direction of the fight.
Presently he proceeded
again on his forward way. The battle was like the grinding of an immense and
terrible machine to him. Its complexities and powers, its grim processes,
fascinated him. He must go close and see it produce corpses.
He came to a fence and
clambered over it. On the far side, the ground was littered with clothes and
guns. A newspaper, folded up, lay in the dirt. A dead soldier was stretched
with his face hidden in his arm. Farther off there was a group of four or five
corpses keeping mournful company. A hot sun had blazed upon the spot.
In this place the youth
felt that he was an invader. This forgotten part of the battle ground was owned
by the dead men, and he hurried, in the vague apprehension that one of the
swollen forms would rise and tell him to begone.
He came finally to a
road from which he could see in the distance dark and agitated bodies of
troops, smoke fringed. In the lane was a blood stained crowd
streaming to the rear. The wounded men were cursing, groaning, and wailing. In
the air, always, was a mighty swell of sound that it seemed could sway the
earth. With the courageous words of the artillery and the spiteful sentences of
the musketry mingled red cheers. And from this region of noises came the steady
current of the maimed.
One of the wounded men
had a shoeful of blood. He hopped like a schoolboy in a game. He was laughing
hysterically.
One was swearing that
he had been shot in the arm through the commanding general's mismanagement of
the army. One was marching with an air imitative of some sublime drum major.
Upon his features was an unholy mixture of merriment and agony. As he marched
he sang a bit of doggerel in a high and quavering voice:
"Sing a song 'a
vic'try,
A pocketful 'a bullets,
Five an' twenty dead
men
Baked in a--pie."
Parts of the procession limped and staggered to this tune.
Another had the gray
seal of death already upon his face. His lips were curled in hard lines and his
teeth were clinched. His hands were bloody from where he had pressed them upon
his wound. He seemed to be awaiting the moment when he should pitch headlong.
He stalked like the specter of a soldier, his eyes burning with the power of a
stare into the unknown.
There were some who
proceeded sullenly, full of anger at their wounds, and ready to turn upon
anything as an obscure cause.
An officer was carried
along by two privates. He was peevish. "Don't joggle so, Johnson, yeh
fool," he cried. "Think m' leg is made of iron? If yeh can't carry me
decent, put me down an' let some one else do it."
He bellowed at the
tottering crowd who blocked the quick march of his bearers. "Say, make way
there, can't yeh? Make way, dickens take it all."
They sulkily parted and
went to the roadsides. As he was carried past they made pert remarks to him.
When he raged in reply and threatened them, they told him to be damned.
The shoulder of one of
the tramping bearers knocked heavily against the spectral soldier who was
staring into the unknown.
The youth joined this
crowd and marched along with it. The torn bodies expressed the awful machinery
in which the men had been entangled.
Orderlies and couriers
occasionally broke through the throng in the roadway, scattering wounded men
right and left, galloping on followed by howls. The melancholy march was
continually disturbed by the messengers, and sometimes by bustling batteries
that came swinging and thumping down upon them, the officers shouting orders to
clear the way.
There was a tattered
man, fouled with dust, blood and powder stain from hair to shoes, who trudged
quietly at the youth's side. He was listening with eagerness and much humility
to the lurid descriptions of a bearded sergeant. His lean features wore an
expression of awe and admiration. He was like a listener in a country store to
wondrous tales told among the sugar barrels. He eyed the story teller with
unspeakable wonder. His mouth was agape in yokel fashion.
The sergeant, taking
note of this, gave pause to his elaborate history while he administered a
sardonic comment. "Be keerful, honey, you 'll be a ketchin'
flies," he said.
The tattered man shrank
back abashed.
After a time he began
to sidle near to the youth, and in a different way try to make him a friend.
His voice was gentle as a girl's voice and his eyes were pleading. The youth
saw with surprise that the soldier had two wounds, one in the head, bound with
a blood soaked rag, and the other in the arm, making that member dangle
like a broken bough.
After they had walked
together for some time the tattered man mustered sufficient courage to speak.
"Was pretty good fight, wa'n't it?" he timidly said. The youth, deep
in thought, glanced up at the bloody and grim figure with its lamblike eyes.
"What?"
"Was pretty good
fight, wa'n't it?
"Yes," said
the youth shortly. He quickened his pace.
But the other hobbled
industriously after him. There was an air of apology in his manner, but he
evidently thought that he needed only to talk for a time, and the youth would
perceive that he was a good fellow.
"Was pretty good
fight, wa'n't it?" he began in a small voice, and then he achieved the
fortitude to continue. "Dern me if I ever see fellers fight so. Laws, how
they did fight! I knowed th' boys 'd like when they onct got square at it. Th'
boys ain't had no fair chanct up t' now, but this time they showed what they
was. I knowed it 'd turn out this way. Yeh can't lick them boys. No, sir!
They're fighters, they be."
He breathed a deep
breath of humble admiration. He had looked at the youth for encouragement
several times. He received none, but gradually he seemed to get absorbed in his
subject.
"I was talkin'
'cross pickets with a boy from Georgie, onct, an' that boy, he ses, 'Your
fellers 'll all run like hell when they onct hearn a gun,' he ses. 'Mebbe they
will,' I ses, 'but I don't b'lieve none of it,' I ses; 'an' b'jiminey,' I ses
back t' 'um, 'mebbe your fellers 'll all run like hell when they onct hearn a
gun,' I ses. He larfed. Well, they didn't run t' day, did they, hey? No, sir!
They fit, an' fit, an' fit."
His homely face was
suffused with a light of love for the army which was to him all things
beautiful and powerful.
After a time he turned
to the youth. "Where yeh hit, ol' boy?" he asked in a brotherly tone.
The youth felt instant
panic at this question, although at first its full import was not borne in upon
him.
"What?" he
asked.
"Where yeh
hit?" repeated the tattered man.
"Why," began
the youth, "I--I--that is-- why--I--"
He turned away suddenly
and slid through the crowd. His brow was heavily flushed, and his fingers were
picking nervously at one of his buttons. He bent his head and fastened his eyes
studiously upon the button as if it were a little problem.
The tattered man looked
after him in astonishment.
THE youth fell back in
the procession until the tattered soldier was not in sight. Then he started to
walk on with the others.
But he was amid wounds.
The mob of men was bleeding. Because of the tattered soldier's question he now
felt that his shame could be viewed. He was continually casting sidelong
glances to see if the men were contemplating the letters of guilt he felt
burned into his brow.
At times he regarded
the wounded soldiers in an envious way. He conceived persons with torn bodies
to be peculiarly happy. He wished that he, too, had a wound, a red badge of
courage.
The spectral soldier
was at his side like a stalking reproach. The man's eyes were still fixed in a
stare into the unknown. His gray, appalling face had attracted attention in the
crowd, and men, slowing to his dreary pace, were walking with him. They were
discussing his plight, questioning him and giving him advice. In a dogged way
he repelled them, signing to them to go on and leave him alone. The shadows of
his face were deepening and his tight lips seemed holding in check the moan of
great despair. There could be seen a certain stiffness in the movements of his
body, as if he were taking infinite care not to arouse the passion of his
wounds. As he went on, he seemed always looking for a place, like one who goes
to choose a grave.
Something in the
gesture of the man as he waved the bloody and pitying soldiers away made the
youth start as if bitten. He yelled in horror. Tottering forward he laid a
quivering hand upon the man's arm. As the latter slowly turned his waxlike
features toward him, the youth screamed:
"Gawd! Jim
Conklin!"
The tall soldier made a
little commonplace smile. "Hello, Henry," he said.
The youth swayed on his
legs and glared strangely. He stuttered and stammered. "Oh, Jim--oh,
Jim--oh, Jim--"
The tall soldier held
out his gory hand. There was a curious red and black combination of new blood
and old blood upon it. "Where yeh been, Henry?" he asked. He
continued in a monotonous voice, "I thought mebbe yeh got keeled over.
There 's been thunder t' pay t' day. I was worryin' about it a good
deal."
The youth still
lamented. "Oh, Jim--oh, Jim --oh, Jim--"
"Yeh know,"
said the tall soldier, "I was out there." He made a careful gesture.
"An', Lord, what a circus! An', b'jiminey, I got shot-- I got shot. Yes,
b'jiminey, I got shot." He reiterated this fact in a bewildered way, as if
he did not know how it came about.
The youth put forth
anxious arms to assist him, but the tall soldier went firmly on as if
propelled. Since the youth's arrival as a guardian for his friend, the other
wounded men had ceased to display much interest. They occupied themselves again
in dragging their own tragedies toward the rear.
Suddenly, as the two
friends marched on, the tall soldier seemed to be overcome by a terror. His
face turned to a semblance of gray paste. He clutched the youth's arm and
looked all about him, as if dreading to be overheard. Then he began to speak in
a shaking whisper:
"I tell yeh what
I'm 'fraid of, Henry--I 'll tell yeh what I 'm 'fraid of. I 'm 'fraid I 'll
fall down --an' then yeh know--them damned artillery wagons--they like as not
'll run over me. That 's what I 'm 'fraid of--"
The youth cried out to
him hysterically: "I 'll take care of yeh, Jim! I'll take care of yeh! I
swear t' Gawd I will!"
"Sure--will yeh,
Henry?" the tall soldier beseeched.
"Yes--yes--I tell
yeh--I'll take care of yeh, Jim!" protested the youth. He could not speak
accurately because of the gulpings in his throat.
But the tall soldier
continued to beg in a lowly way. He now hung babelike to the youth's arm. His
eyes rolled in the wildness of his terror. "I was allus a good friend t'
yeh, wa'n't I, Henry? I 've allus been a pretty good feller, ain't I? An' it
ain't much t' ask, is it? Jest t' pull me along outer th' road? I 'd do it fer
you, Wouldn't I, Henry?"
He paused in piteous
anxiety to await his friend's reply.
The youth had reached
an anguish where the sobs scorched him. He strove to express his loyalty, but
he could only make fantastic gestures.
However, the tall
soldier seemed suddenly to forget all those fears. He became again the grim,
stalking specter of a soldier. He went stonily forward. The youth wished his
friend to lean upon him, but the other always shook his head and strangely
protested. "No--no--no-- leave me be--leave me be--"
His look was fixed
again upon the unknown. He moved with mysterious purpose, and all of the
youth's offers he brushed aside. "No--no-- leave me be--leave me
be--"
The youth had to
follow.
Presently the latter
heard a voice talking softly near his shoulders. Turning he saw that it
belonged to the tattered soldier. "Ye 'd better take 'im outa th' road,
pardner. There 's a batt'ry comin' helitywhoop down th' road an' he 'll git
runned over. He 's a goner anyhow in about five minutes--yeh kin see that. Ye
'd better take 'im outa th' road. Where th' blazes does he git his stren'th
from?"
"Lord knows!"
cried the youth. He was shaking his hands helplessly.
He ran forward
presently and grasped the tall soldier by the arm. "Jim! Jim!" he
coaxed, "come with me."
The tall soldier weakly
tried to wrench himself free. "Huh," he said vacantly. He stared at
the youth for a moment. At last he spoke as if dimly comprehending. "Oh!
Inteh th' fields? Oh!"
He started blindly
through the grass.
The youth turned once
to look at the lashing riders and jouncing guns of the battery. He was startled
from this view by a shrill outcry from the tattered man.
"Gawd! He's
runnin'!"
Turning his head
swiftly, the youth saw his friend running in a staggering and stumbling way
toward a little clump of bushes. His heart seemed to wrench itself almost free
from his body at this sight. He made a noise of pain. He and the tattered man
began a pursuit. There was a singular race.
When he overtook the
tall soldier he began to plead with all the words he could find. "Jim
--Jim--what are you doing--what makes you do this way--you 'll hurt
yerself."
The same purpose was in
the tall soldier's face. He protested in a dulled way, keeping his eyes
fastened on the mystic place of his intentions. "No--no--don't tech
me--leave me be--leave me be--"
The youth, aghast and filled
with wonder at the tall soldier, began quaveringly to question him. "Where
yeh goin', Jim? What you thinking about? Where you going? Tell me, won't you,
Jim?"
The tall soldier faced
about as upon relentless pursuers. In his eyes there was a great appeal.
"Leave me be, can't yeh? Leave me be fer a minnit."
The youth recoiled.
"Why, Jim," he said, in a dazed way, "what's the matter with
you?"
The tall soldier turned
and, lurching dangerously, went on. The youth and the tattered soldier
followed, sneaking as if whipped, feeling unable to face the stricken man if he
should again confront them. They began to have thoughts of a solemn ceremony.
There was something rite like in these movements of the doomed soldier.
And there was a resemblance in him to a devotee of a mad religion,
blood sucking, muscle wrenching, bone crushing. They were awed
and afraid. They hung back lest he have at command a dreadful weapon.
At last, they saw him
stop and stand motion less. Hastening up, they perceived that his face wore an
expression telling that he had at last found the place for which he had
struggled. His spare figure was erect; his bloody hands were quietly at his
side. He was waiting with patience for something that he had come to meet. He
was at the rendezvous. They paused and stood, expectant.
There was a silence.
Finally, the chest of
the doomed soldier began to heave with a strained motion. It increased in
violence until it was as if an animal was within and was kicking and tumbling
furiously to be free.
This spectacle of
gradual strangulation made the youth writhe, and once as his friend rolled his
eyes, he saw something in them that made him sink wailing to the ground. He
raised his voice in a last supreme call.
"Jim--Jim--Jim--"
The tall soldier opened
his lips and spoke. He made a gesture. "Leave me be--don't tech me--leave
me be--"
There was another
silence while he waited.
Suddenly, his form
stiffened and straightened. Then it was shaken by a prolonged ague. He stared
into space. To the two watchers there was a curious and profound dignity in the
firm lines of his awful face.
He was invaded by a
creeping strangeness that slowly enveloped him. For a moment the tremor of his
legs caused him to dance a sort of hideous hornpipe. His arms beat wildly about
his head in expression of implike enthusiasm.
His tall figure
stretched itself to its full height. There was a slight rending sound. Then it
began to swing forward, slow and straight, in the manner of a falling tree. A
swift muscular contortion made the left shoulder strike the ground first.
The body seemed to
bounce a little way from the earth. "God!" said the tattered soldier.
The youth had watched,
spellbound, this ceremony at the place of meeting. His face had been twisted
into an expression of every agony he had imagined for his friend.
He now sprang to his
feet and, going closer, gazed upon the pastelike face. The mouth was open and
the teeth showed in a laugh.
As the flap of the blue
jacket fell away from the body, he could see that the side looked as if it had
been chewed by wolves.
The youth turned, with
sudden, livid rage, toward the battlefield. He shook his fist. He seemed about
to deliver a philippic.
"Hell--"
The red sun was pasted
in the sky like a wafer.
THE tattered man stood
musing.
"Well, he was
reg'lar jim dandy fer nerve, wa'n't he," said he finally in a little
awestruck voice. "A reg'lar jim dandy." He thoughtfully poked
one of the docile hands with his foot. "I wonner where he got 'is stren'th
from? I never seen a man do like that before. It was a funny thing. Well, he
was a reg'lar jim dandy."
The youth desired to
screech out his grief. He was stabbed, but his tongue lay dead in the tomb of
his mouth. He threw himself again upon the ground and began to brood.
The tattered man stood
musing.
"Look a here,
pardner," he said, after a time. He regarded the corpse as he spoke.
"He 's up an' gone, ain't 'e, an' we might as well begin t' look out fer
ol' number one. This here thing is all over. He 's up an' gone, ain't 'e? An'
he 's all right here. Nobody won't bother 'im. An' I must say I ain't enjoying
any great health m'self these days."
The youth, awakened by
the tattered soldier's tone, looked quickly up. He saw that he was swinging
uncertainly on his legs and that his face had turned to a shade of blue.
"Good Lord!"
he cried, "you ain't goin' t'-- not you, too."
The tattered man waved
his hand. "Nary die," he said. "All I want is some pea soup an'
a good bed. Some pea soup," he repeated dreamfully.
The youth arose from
the ground. "I wonder where he came from. I left him over there." He
pointed. "And now I find 'im here. And he was coming from over there,
too." He indicated a new direction. They both turned toward the body as if
to ask of it a question.
"Well," at
length spoke the tattered man, "there ain't no use in our stayin' here an'
tryin' t' ask him anything."
The youth nodded an
assent wearily. They both turned to gaze for a moment at the corpse.
The youth murmured
something.
"Well, he was a
jim dandy, wa'n't 'e?" said the tattered man as if in response.
They turned their backs
upon it and started away. For a time they stole softly, treading with their
toes. It remained laughing there in the grass.
"I'm commencin' t'
feel pretty bad," said the tattered man, suddenly breaking one of his
little silences. "I'm commencin' t' feel pretty damn' bad."
The youth groaned.
"O Lord!" He wondered if he was to be the tortured witness of another
grim encounter.
But his companion waved
his hand reassuringly. "Oh, I'm not goin' t' die yit! There too much
dependin' on me fer me t' die yit. No, sir! Nary die! I can't! Ye'd oughta see
th' swad a' chil'ren I've got, an' all like that."
The youth glancing at
his companion could see by the shadow of a smile that he was making some kind
of fun.
As they plodded on the
tattered soldier continued to talk. "Besides, if I died, I wouldn't die
th' way that feller did. That was th' funniest thing. I'd jest flop down, I
would. I never seen a feller die th' way that feller did.
"Yeh know Tom
Jamison, he lives next door t' me up home. He's a nice feller, he is, an' we
was allus good friends. Smart, too. Smart as a steel trap. Well, when we was
a fightin' this atternoon, all of a sudden he begin t' rip
up an' cuss an' beller at me. 'Yer shot, yeh blamed infernal!'--he swear
horrible--he ses t' me. I put up m' hand t' m' head an' when I looked at m'
fingers, I seen, sure 'nough, I was shot. I give a holler an' begin t' run, but
b'fore I could git away another one hit me in th' arm an' whirl' me clean
'round. I got skeared when they was all a shootin' b'hind me an' I run t'
beat all, but I cotch it pretty bad. I've an idee I'd a' been fightin' yit, if
t'was n't fer Tom Jamison."
Then he made a calm
announcement: "There's two of 'em--little ones--but they 're beginnin' t'
have fun with me now. I don't b'lieve I kin walk much furder."
They went slowly on in
silence. "Yeh look pretty peek ed yerself," said the tattered
man at last. "I bet yeh 've got a worser one than yeh think. Ye'd better
take keer of yer hurt. It don't do t' let sech things go. It might be inside
mostly, an' them plays thunder. Where is it located?" But he continued his
harangue without waiting for a reply. "I see 'a feller git hit plum in th'
head when my reg'ment was a standin' at ease onct. An' everybody yelled
out to 'im: Hurt, John? Are yeh hurt much? 'No," ses he. He looked kinder
surprised, an' he went on tellin' 'em how he felt. He sed he didn't feel nothin'.
But, by dad, th' first thing that feller knowed he was dead. Yes, he was
dead--stone dead. So, yeh wanta watch out. Yeh might have some queer kind 'a
hurt yerself. Yeh can't never tell. Where is your'n located?"
The youth had been
wriggling since the introduction of this topic. He now gave a cry of
exasperation and made a furious motion with his hand. "Oh, don't bother
me!" he said. He was enraged against the tattered man, and could have
strangled him. His companions seemed ever to play intolerable parts. They were
ever upraising the ghost of shame on the stick of their curiosity. He turned
toward the tattered man as one at bay. "Now, don't bother me," he
repeated with desperate menace.
"Well, Lord knows
I don't wanta bother anybody," said the other. There was a little accent
of despair in his voice as he replied, "Lord knows I 've gota 'nough m'
own t' tend to."
The youth, who had been
holding a bitter debate with himself and casting glances of hatred and contempt
at the tattered man, here spoke in a hard voice. "Good by," he
said.
The tattered man looked
at him in gaping amazement. "Why--why, pardner, where yeh goin'?" he
asked unsteadily. The youth looking at him, could see that he, too, like that
other one, was beginning to act dumb and animal like. His thoughts seemed
to be floundering about in his head. "Now--now--look--a--here, you Tom
Jamison--now--I won't have this--this here won't do. Where--where yeh
goin'?"
The youth pointed
vaguely. "Over there," he replied.
"Well, now
look--a--here--now," said the tattered man, rambling on in idiot fashion.
His head was hanging forward and his words were slurred. "This thing won't
do, now, Tom Jamison. It won't do. I know yeh, yeh pig headed devil. Yeh
wanta go trompin' off with a bad hurt. It ain't right--now--Tom Jamison--it
ain't. Yeh wanta leave me take keer of yeh, Tom Jamison. It ain't--right--it
ain't--fer yeh t' go--trompin' off--with a bad hurt--it ain't--ain't--ain't
right--it ain't."
In reply the youth
climbed a fence and started away. He could hear the tattered man bleating
plaintively.
Once he faced about
angrily. "What?"
"Look--a--here,
now, Tom Jamison--now--it ain't--"
The youth went on.
Turning at a distance he saw the tattered man wandering about helplessly in the
field.
He now thought that he
wished he was dead. He believed that he envied those men whose bodies lay
strewn over the grass of the fields and on the fallen leaves of the forest.
The simple questions of
the tattered man had been knife thrusts to him. They asserted a society that
probes pitilessly at secrets until all is apparent. His late companion's chance
persistency made him feel that he could not keep his crime concealed in his
bosom. It was sure to be brought plain by one of those arrows which cloud the
air and are constantly pricking, discovering, proclaiming those things which
are willed to be forever hidden. He admitted that he could not defend himself
against this agency. It was not within the power of vigilance.
HE became aware that
the furnace roar of the battle was growing louder. Great brown clouds had
floated to the still heights of air before him. The noise, too, was
approaching. The woods filtered men and the fields became dotted.
As he rounded a
hillock, he perceived that the roadway was now a crying mass of wagons, teams,
and men. From the heaving tangle issued exhortations, commands, imprecations.
Fear was sweeping it all along. The cracking whips bit and horses plunged and
tugged. The white topped wagons strained and stumbled in their exertions
like fat sheep.
The youth felt
comforted in a measure by this sight. They were all retreating. Perhaps, then,
he was not so bad after all. He seated himself and watched the
terror stricken wagons. They fled like soft, ungainly animals. All the
roarers and lashers served to help him to magnify the dangers and horrors of
the engagement that he might try to prove to himself that the thing with which
men could charge him was in truth a symmetrical act. There was an amount of
pleasure to him in watching the wild march of this vindication.
Presently the calm head
of a forward going column of infantry appeared in the road. It came
swiftly on. Avoiding the obstructions gave it the sinuous movement of a
serpent. The men at the head butted mules with their musket stocks. They
prodded teamsters indifferent to all howls. The men forced their way through
parts of the dense mass by strength. The blunt head of the column pushed. The
raving teamsters swore many strange oaths.
The commands to make
way had the ring of a great importance in them. The men were going forward to
the heart of the din. They were to confront the eager rush of the enemy. They
felt the pride of their onward movement when the remainder of the army seemed
trying to dribble down this road. They tumbled teams about with a fine feeling
that it was no matter so long as their column got to the front in time. This
importance made their faces grave and stern. And the backs of the officers were
very rigid.
As the youth looked at
them the black weight of his woe returned to him. He felt that he was regarding
a procession of chosen beings. The separation was as great to him as if they
had marched with weapons of flame and banners of sunlight. He could never be
like them. He could have wept in his longings.
He searched about in
his mind for an adequate malediction for the indefinite cause, the thing upon
which men turn the words of final blame. It--whatever it was--was responsible
for him, he said. There lay the fault.
The haste of the column
to reach the battle seemed to the forlorn young man to be something much finer
than stout fighting. Heroes, he thought, could find excuses in that long
seething lane. They could retire with perfect self respect and make
excuses to the stars.
He wondered what those
men had eaten that they could be in such haste to force their way to grim
chances of death. As he watched his envy grew until he thought that he wished
to change lives with one of them. He would have liked to have used a tremendous
force, he said, throw off himself and become a better. Swift pictures of
himself, apart, yet in himself, came to him--a blue desperate figure leading
lurid charges with one knee forward and a broken blade high--a blue, determined
figure standing before a crimson and steel assault, getting calmly killed on a
high place before the eyes of all. He thought of the magnificent pathos of his
dead body.
These thoughts uplifted
him. He felt the quiver of war desire. In his ears, he heard the ring of
victory. He knew the frenzy of a rapid successful charge. The music of the
trampling feet, the sharp voices, the clanking arms of the column near him made
him soar on the red wings of war. For a few moments he was sublime.
He thought that he was
about to start for the front. Indeed, he saw a picture of himself, duststained,
haggard, panting, flying to the front at the proper moment to seize and
throttle the dark, leering witch of calamity.
Then the difficulties
of the thing began to drag at him. He hesitated, balancing awkwardly on one
foot.
He had no rifle; he
could not fight with his hands, said he resentfully to his plan. Well, rifles
could be had for the picking. They were extraordinarily profuse.
Also, he continued, it
would be a miracle if he found his regiment. Well, he could fight with any
regiment.
He started forward
slowly. He stepped as if he expected to tread upon some explosive thing. Doubts
and he were struggling.
He would truly be a
worm if any of his comrades should see him returning thus, the marks of his flight
upon him. There was a reply that the intent fighters did not care for what
happened rearward saving that no hostile bayonets appeared there. In the
battle blur his face would, in a way be hidden, like the face of a cowled
man.
But then he said that
his tireless fate would bring forth, when the strife lulled for a moment, a man
to ask of him an explanation. In imagination he felt the scrutiny of his
companions as he painfully labored through some lies.
Eventually, his courage
expended itself upon these objections. The debates drained him of his fire.
He was not cast down by
this defeat of his plan, for, upon studying the affair carefully, he could not
but admit that the objections were very formidable.
Furthermore, various
ailments had begun to cry out. In their presence he could not persist in flying
high with the wings of war; they rendered it almost impossible for him to see
himself in a heroic light. He tumbled headlong.
He discovered that he
had a scorching thirst. His face was so dry and grimy that he thought he could
feel his skin crackle. Each bone of his body had an ache in it, and seemingly
threatened to break with each movement. His feet were like two sores. Also, his
body was calling for food. It was more powerful than a direct hunger. There was
a dull, weight like feeling in his stomach, and, when he tried to walk, his
head swayed and he tottered. He could not see with distinctness. Small patches
of green mist floated before his vision.
While he had been
tossed by many emotions, he had not been aware of ailments. Now they beset him
and made clamor. As he was at last compelled to pay attention to them, his
capacity for self hate was multiplied. In despair, he declared that he was
not like those others. He now conceded it to be impossible that he should ever
become a hero. He was a craven loon. Those pictures of glory were piteous
things. He groaned from his heart and went staggering off.
A certain mothlike
quality within him kept him in the vicinity of the battle. He had a great
desire to see, and to get news. He wished to know who was winning.
He told himself that,
despite his unprecedented suffering, he had never lost his greed for a victory,
yet, he said, in a half apologetic manner to his conscience, he could not
but know that a defeat for the army this time might mean many favorable things
for him. The blows of the enemy would splinter regiments into fragments. Thus,
many men of courage, he considered, would be obliged to desert the colors and
scurry like chickens. He would appear as one of them. They would be sullen
brothers in distress, and he could then easily believe he had not run any
farther or faster than they. And if he himself could believe in his virtuous
perfection, he conceived that there would be small trouble in convincing all
others.
He said, as if in
excuse for this hope, that previously the army had encountered great defeats
and in a few months had shaken off all blood and tradition of them, emerging as
bright and valiant as a new one; thrusting out of sight the memory of disaster,
and appearing with the valor and confidence of unconquered legions. The
shrilling voices of the people at home would pipe dismally for a time, but
various generals were usually compelled to listen to these ditties. He of
course felt no compunctions for proposing a general as a sacrifice. He could
not tell who the chosen for the barbs might be, so he could center no direct
sympathy upon him. The people were afar and he did not conceive public opinion
to be accurate at long range. It was quite probable they would hit the wrong
man who, after he had recovered from his amazement would perhaps spend the rest
of his days in writing replies to the songs of his alleged failure. It would be
very unfortunate, no doubt, but in this case a general was of no consequence to
the youth.
In a defeat there would
be a roundabout vindication of himself. He thought it would prove, in a manner,
that he had fled early because of his superior powers of perception. A serious
prophet upon predicting a flood should be the first man to climb a tree. This
would demonstrate that he was indeed a seer.
A moral vindication was
regarded by the youth as a very important thing. Without salve, he could not,
he thought, wear the sore badge of his dishonor through life. With his heart
continually assuring him that he was despicable, he could not exist without
making it, through his actions, apparent to all men.
If the army had gone
gloriously on he would be lost. If the din meant that now his army's flags were
tilted forward he was a condemned wretch. He would be compelled to doom himself
to isolation. If the men were advancing, their indifferent feet were trampling
upon his chances for a successful life.
As these thoughts went
rapidly through his mind, he turned upon them and tried to thrust them away. He
denounced himself as a villain. He said that he was the most unutterably
selfish man in existence. His mind pictured the soldiers who would place their
defiant bodies before the spear of the yelling battle fiend, and as he saw
their dripping corpses on an imagined field, he said that he was their
murderer.
Again he thought that
he wished he was dead. He believed that he envied a corpse. Thinking of the
slain, he achieved a great contempt for some of them, as if they were guilty
for thus becoming lifeless. They might have been killed by lucky chances, he
said, before they had had opportunities to flee or before they had been really
tested. Yet they would receive laurels from tradition. He cried out bitterly
that their crowns were stolen and their robes of glorious memories were shams.
However, he still said that it was a great pity he was not as they.
A defeat of the army
had suggested itself to him as a means of escape from the consequences of his
fall. He considered, now, however, that it was useless to think of such a
possibility. His education had been that success for that mighty blue machine
was certain; that it would make victories as a contrivance turns out buttons. He
presently discarded all his speculations in the other direction. He returned to
the creed of soldiers.
When he perceived again
that it was not possible for the army to be defeated, he tried to bethink him
of a fine tale which he could take back to his regiment, and with it turn the
expected shafts of derision.
But, as he mortally
feared these shafts, it became impossible for him to invent a tale he felt he
could trust. He experimented with many schemes, but threw them aside one by one
as flimsy. He was quick to see vulnerable places in them all.
Furthermore, he was
much afraid that some arrow of scorn might lay him mentally low before he could
raise his protecting tale.
He imagined the whole
regiment saying: "Where's Henry Fleming? He run, didn't 'e? Oh, my!"
He recalled various persons who would be quite sure to leave him no peace about
it. They would doubtless question him with sneers, and laugh at his stammering
hesitation. In the next engagement they would try to keep watch of him to discover
when he would run.
Wherever he went in
camp, he would encounter insolent and lingeringly cruel stares. As he imagined
himself passing near a crowd of comrades, he could hear some one say,
"There he goes!"
Then, as if the heads
were moved by one muscle, all the faces were turned toward him with wide,
derisive grins. He seemed to hear some one make a humorous remark in a low
tone. At it the others all crowed and cackled. He was a slang phrase.
THE column that had
butted stoutly at the obstacles in the roadway was barely out of the youth's
sight before he saw dark waves of men come sweeping out of the woods and down
through the fields. He knew at once that the steel fibers had been washed from
their hearts. They were bursting from their coats and their equipments as from
entanglements. They charged down upon him like terrified buffaloes.
Behind them blue smoke
curled and clouded above the treetops, and through the thickets he could
sometimes see a distant pink glare. The voices of the cannon were clamoring in
interminable chorus.
The youth was
horrorstricken. He stared in agony and amazement. He forgot that he was engaged
in combating the universe. He threw aside his mental pamphlets on the
philosophy of the retreated and rules for the guidance of the damned.
The fight was lost. The
dragons were coming with invincible strides. The army, helpless in the matted
thickets and blinded by the overhanging night, was going to be swallowed. War,
the red animal, war, the blood swollen god, would have bloated fill.
Within him something
bade to cry out. He had the impulse to make a rallying speech, to sing a battle
hymn, but he could only get his tongue to call into the air:
"Why--why--what--what 's th' matter?"
Soon he was in the
midst of them. They were leaping and scampering all about him. Their blanched
faces shone in the dusk. They seemed, for the most part, to be very burly men.
The youth turned from one to another of them as they galloped along. His
incoherent questions were lost. They were heedless of his appeals. They did not
seem to see him.
They sometimes gabbled
insanely. One huge man was asking of the sky: "Say, where de plank road?
Where de plank road!" It was as if he had lost a child. He wept in his
pain and dismay.
Presently, men were
running hither and thither in all ways. The artillery booming, forward,
rearward, and on the flanks made jumble of ideas of direction. Landmarks had
vanished into the gathered gloom. The youth began to imagine that he had got
into the center of the tremendous quarrel, and he could perceive no way out of
it. From the mouths of the fleeing men came a thousand wild questions, but no
one made answers.
The youth, after
rushing about and throwing interrogations at the heedless bands of retreating
infantry, finally clutched a man by the arm. They swung around face to face.
"Why--why--"
stammered the youth struggling with his balking tongue.
The man screamed:
"Let go me! Let go me!" His face was livid and his eyes were rolling
uncontrolled. He was heaving and panting. He still grasped his rifle, perhaps
having forgotten to release his hold upon it. He tugged frantically, and the
youth being compelled to lean forward was dragged several paces.
"Let go me! Let go
me!"
"Why--why--"
stuttered the youth.
"Well, then!"
bawled the man in a lurid rage. He adroitly and fiercely swung his rifle. It
crushed upon the youth's head. The man ran on.
The youth's fingers had
turned to paste upon the other's arm. The energy was smitten from his muscles.
He saw the flaming wings of lightning flash before his vision. There was a
deafening rumble of thunder within his head.
Suddenly his legs
seemed to die. He sank writhing to the ground. He tried to arise. In his
efforts against the numbing pain he was like a man wrestling with a creature of
the air.
There was a sinister
struggle.
Sometimes he would
achieve a position half erect, battle with the air for a moment, and then fall
again, grabbing at the grass. His face was of a clammy pallor. Deep groans were
wrenched from him.
At last, with a
twisting movement, he got upon his hands and knees, and from thence, like a
babe trying to walk, to his feet. Pressing his hands to his temples he went
lurching over the grass.
He fought an intense
battle with his body. His dulled senses wished him to swoon and he opposed them
stubbornly, his mind portraying unknown dangers and mutilations if he should
fall upon the field. He went tall soldier fashion. He imagined secluded spots
where he could fall and be unmolested. To search for one he strove against the
tide of his pain.
Once he put his hand to
the top of his head and timidly touched the wound. The scratching pain of the
contact made him draw a long breath through his clinched teeth. His fingers
were dabbled with blood. He regarded them with a fixed stare.
Around him he could
hear the grumble of jolted cannon as the scurrying horses were lashed toward
the front. Once, a young officer on a besplashed charger nearly ran him down.
He turned and watched the mass of guns, men, and horses sweeping in a wide
curve toward a gap in a fence. The officer was making excited motions with a
gauntleted hand. The guns followed the teams with an air of unwillingness, of
being dragged by the heels.
Some officers of the
scattered infantry were cursing and railing like fishwives. Their scolding
voices could be heard above the din. Into the unspeakable jumble in the roadway
rode a squadron of cavalry. The faded yellow of their facings shone bravely.
There was a mighty altercation.
The artillery were
assembling as if for a conference.
The blue haze of
evening was upon the field. The lines of forest were long purple shadows. One
cloud lay along the western sky partly smothering the red.
As the youth left the
scene behind him, he heard the guns suddenly roar out. He imagined them shaking
in black rage. They belched and howled like brass devils guarding a gate. The
soft air was filled with the tremendous remonstrance. With it came the
shattering peal of opposing infantry. Turning to look behind him, he could see
sheets of orange light illumine the shadowy distance. There were subtle and
sudden lightnings in the far air. At times he thought he could see heaving
masses of men.
He hurried on in the
dusk. The day had faded until he could barely distinguish place for his feet.
The purple darkness was filled with men who lectured and jabbered. Sometimes he
could see them gesticulating against the blue and somber sky. There seemed to
be a great ruck of men and munitions spread about in the forest and in the
fields.
The little narrow
roadway now lay lifeless. There were overturned wagons like sun dried
bowlders. The bed of the former torrent was choked with the bodies of horses
and splintered parts of war machines.
It had come to pass
that his wound pained him but little. He was afraid to move rapidly, however,
for a dread of disturbing it. He held his head very still and took many
precautions against stumbling. He was filled with anxiety, and his face was
pinched and drawn in anticipation of the pain of any sudden mistake of his feet
in the gloom.
His thoughts, as he
walked, fixed intently upon his hurt. There was a cool, liquid feeling about it
and he imagined blood moving slowly down under his hair. His head seemed
swollen to a size that made him think his neck to be inadequate.
The new silence of his
wound made much worriment. The little blistering voices of pain that had called
out from his scalp were, he thought, definite in their expression of danger. By
them he believed that he could measure his plight. But when they remained
ominously silent he became frightened and imagined terrible fingers that
clutched into his brain.
Amid it he began to
reflect upon various incidents and conditions of the past. He bethought him of
certain meals his mother had cooked at home, in which those dishes of which he
was particularly fond had occupied prominent positions. He saw the spread
table. The pine walls of the kitchen were glowing in the warm light from the
stove. Too, he remembered how he and his companions used to go from the
schoolhouse to the bank of a shaded pool. He saw his clothes in disorderly
array upon the grass of the bank. He felt the swash of the fragrant water upon
his body. The leaves of the overhanging maple rustled with melody in the wind
of youthful summer.
He was overcome
presently by a dragging weariness. His head hung forward and his shoulders were
stooped as if he were bearing a great bundle. His feet shuffled along the
ground.
He held continuous
arguments as to whether he should lie down and sleep at some near spot, or
force himself on until he reached a certain haven. He often tried to dismiss
the question, but his body persisted in rebellion and his senses nagged at him
like pampered babies.
At last he heard a cheery
voice near his shoulder: "Yeh seem t' be in a pretty bad way, boy?"
The youth did not look
up, but he assented with thick tongue. "Uh!"
The owner of the cheery
voice took him firmly by the arm. "Well," he said, with a round
laugh, "I'm goin' your way. Th' hull gang is goin' your way. An' I guess I
kin give yeh a lift." They began to walk like a drunken man and his
friend.
As they went along, the
man questioned the youth and assisted him with the replies like one
manipulating the mind of a child. Sometimes he interjected anecdotes.
"What reg'ment do yeh b'long teh? Eh? What's that? Th' 304th N' York? Why,
what corps is that in? Oh, it is? Why, I thought they wasn't engaged t' day--they
're 'way over in th' center. Oh, they was, eh? Well, pretty nearly everybody
got their share 'a fightin' t' day. By dad, I give myself up fer dead any
number 'a times. There was shootin' here an' shootin' there, an' hollerin' here
an' hollerin' there, in th' damn' darkness, until I couldn't tell t' save m'
soul which side I was on. Sometimes I thought I was sure 'nough from Ohier, an'
other times I could 'a swore I was from th' bitter end of Florida. It was th'
most mixed up dern thing I ever see. An' these here hull woods is a reg'lar
mess. It'll be a miracle if we find our reg'ments t' night. Pretty soon,
though, we 'll meet a plenty of guards an' provostguards, an' one thing
an' another. Ho! there they go with an off'cer, I guess. Look at his hand
a draggin'. He 's got all th' war he wants, I bet. He won't be talkin' so
big about his reputation an' all when they go t' sawin' off his leg. Poor
feller! My brother 's got whiskers jest like that. How did yeh git 'way over
here, anyhow? Your reg'ment is a long way from here, ain't it? Well, I guess we
can find it. Yeh know there was a boy killed in my comp'ny t' day that I
thought th' world an' all of. Jack was a nice feller. By ginger, it hurt like
thunder t' see ol' Jack jest git knocked flat. We was a standin' purty
peaceable fer a spell, 'though there was men runnin' ev'ry way all 'round us,
an' while we was a standin' like that, 'long come a big fat feller. He
began t' peck at Jack's elbow, an' he ses: 'Say, where 's th' road t' th'
river?' An' Jack, he never paid no attention, an' th' feller kept on
a peckin' at his elbow an' sayin': 'Say, where 's th' road t' th' river?'
Jack was a lookin' ahead all th' time tryin' t' see th' Johnnies comin'
through th' woods, an' he never paid no attention t' this big fat feller fer a
long time, but at last he turned 'round an' he ses: 'Ah, go t' hell an' find
th' road t' th' river!' An' jest then a shot slapped him bang on th' side th'
head. He was a sergeant, too. Them was his last words. Thunder, I wish we was
sure 'a findin' our reg'ments t' night. It 's goin' t' be long huntin'.
But I guess we kin do it."
In the search which
followed, the man of the cheery voice seemed to the youth to possess a wand of
a magic kind. He threaded the mazes of the tangled forest with a strange
fortune. In encounters with guards and patrols he displayed the keenness of a
detective and the valor of a gamin. Obstacles fell before him and became of
assistance. The youth, with his chin still on his breast, stood woodenly by
while his companion beat ways and means out of sullen things.
The forest seemed a
vast hive of men buzzing about in frantic circles, but the cheery man conducted
the youth without mistakes, until at last he began to chuckle with glee and
self satisfaction. "Ah, there yeh are! See that fire?"
The youth nodded
stupidly.
"Well, there 's
where your reg'ment is. An' now, good by, ol' boy, good luck t' yeh."
A warm and strong hand
clasped the youth's languid fingers for an instant, and then he heard a
cheerful and audacious whistling as the man strode away. As he who had so
befriended him was thus passing out of his life, it suddenly occurred to the
youth that he had not once seen his face.
THE youth went slowly
toward the fire indicated by his departed friend. As he reeled, he bethought
him of the welcome his comrades would give him. He had a conviction that he
would soon feel in his sore heart the barbed missiles of ridicule. He had no
strength to invent a tale; he would be a soft target.
He made vague plans to
go off into the deeper darkness and hide, but they were all destroyed by the
voices of exhaustion and pain from his body. His ailments, clamoring, forced
him to seek the place of food and rest, at whatever cost.
He swung unsteadily
toward the fire. He could see the forms of men throwing black shadows in the
red light, and as he went nearer it became known to him in some way that the
ground was strewn with sleeping men.
Of a sudden he
confronted a black and monstrous figure. A rifle barrel caught some glinting
beams. "Halt! halt!" He was dismayed for a moment, but he presently
thought that he recognized the nervous voice. As he stood tottering before the
rifle barrel, he called out: "Why, hello, Wilson, you--you here?"
The rifle was lowered to
a position of caution and the loud soldier came slowly forward. He peered into
the youth's face. "That you, Henry?"
"Yes, it's--it's
me."
"Well, well, ol'
boy," said the other, "by ginger, I'm glad t' see yeh! I give yeh up
fer a goner. I thought yeh was dead sure enough." There was husky emotion
in his voice.
The youth found that
now he could barely stand upon his feet. There was a sudden sinking of his
forces. He thought he must hasten to produce his tale to protect him from the
missiles already at the lips of his redoubtable comrades. So, staggering before
the loud soldier, he began: "Yes, yes. I've--I've had an awful time. I've
been all over. Way over on th' right. Ter'ble fightin' over there. I had an
awful time. I got separated from th' reg'ment. Over on th' right, I got shot.
In th' head. I never see sech fightin'. Awful time. I don't see how I could 'a
got separated from th' reg'ment. I got shot, too."
His friend had stepped
forward quickly. "What? Got shot? Why didn't yeh say so first? Poor ol'
boy, we must--hol' on a minnit; what am I doin'. I'll call Simpson."
Another figure at that
moment loomed in the gloom. They could see that it was the corporal. "Who
yeh talkin' to, Wilson?" he demanded. His voice was anger toned.
"Who yeh talkin' to? Yeh th' derndest sentinel--why--hello, Henry, you
here? Why, I thought you was dead four hours ago! Great Jerusalem, they keep
turnin' up every ten minutes or so! We thought we'd lost forty two men by
straight count, but if they keep on a comin' this way, we'll git th'
comp'ny all back by mornin' yit. Where was yeh?"
"Over on th'
right. I got separated"--began the youth with considerable glibness.
But his friend had
interrupted hastily. "Yes, an' he got shot in th' head an' he's in a fix,
an' we must see t' him right away." He rested his rifle in the hollow of
his left arm and his right around the youth's shoulder.
"Gee, it must hurt
like thunder!" he said.
The youth leaned
heavily upon his friend. "Yes, it hurts--hurts a good deal," he
replied. There was a faltering in his voice.
"Oh," said
the corporal. He linked his arm in the youth's and drew him forward. "Come
on, Henry. I'll take keer 'a yeh."
As they went on
together the loud private called out after them: "Put 'im t' sleep in my
blanket, Simpson. An'--hol' on a minnit--here's my canteen. It's full 'a
coffee. Look at his head by th' fire an' see how it looks. Maybe it's a pretty
bad un. When I git relieved in a couple 'a minnits, I'll be over an' see t'
him."
The youth's senses were
so deadened that his friend's voice sounded from afar and he could scarcely
feel the pressure of the corporal's arm. He submitted passively to the latter's
directing strength. His head was in the old manner hanging forward upon his
breast. His knees wobbled.
The corporal led him
into the glare of the fire. "Now, Henry," he said, "let's have
look at yer ol' head."
The youth sat down
obediently and the corporal, laying aside his rifle, began to fumble in the
bushy hair of his comrade. He was obliged to turn the other's head so that the
full flush of the fire light would beam upon it. He puckered his mouth with a
critical air. He drew back his lips and whistled through his teeth when his
fingers came in contact with the splashed blood and the rare wound.
"Ah, here we
are!" he said. He awkwardly made further investigations. "Jest as I
thought," he added, presently. "Yeh've been grazed by a ball. It's
raised a queer lump jest as if some feller had lammed yeh on th' head with a
club. It stopped a bleedin' long time ago. Th' most about it is that in
th' mornin' yeh'll feel that a number ten hat wouldn't fit yeh. An' your head'll
be all het up an' feel as dry as burnt pork. An' yeh may git a lot 'a other
sicknesses, too, by mornin'. Yeh can't never tell. Still, I don't much think
so. It's jest a damn' good belt on th' head, an' nothin' more. Now, you jest
sit here an' don't move, while I go rout out th' relief. Then I'll send Wilson
t' take keer 'a yeh."
The corporal went away.
The youth remained on the ground like a parcel. He stared with a vacant look
into the fire.
After a time he
aroused, for some part, and the things about him began to take form. He saw
that the ground in the deep shadows was cluttered with men, sprawling in every
conceivable posture. Glancing narrowly into the more distant darkness, he
caught occasional glimpses of visages that loomed pallid and ghostly, lit with
a phosphorescent glow. These faces expressed in their lines the deep stupor of
the tired soldiers. They made them appear like men drunk with wine. This bit of
forest might have appeared to an ethereal wanderer as a scene of the result of
some frightful debauch.
On the other side of
the fire the youth observed an officer asleep, seated bolt upright, with his
back against a tree. There was something perilous in his position. Badgered by
dreams, perhaps, he swayed with little bounces and starts, like an old
toddy stricken grandfather in a chimney corner. Dust and stains were upon
his face. His lower jaw hung down as if lacking strength to assume its normal
position. He was the picture of an exhausted soldier after a feast of war.
He had evidently gone
to sleep with his sword in his arms. These two had slumbered in an embrace, but
the weapon had been allowed in time to fall unheeded to the ground. The
brass mounted hilt lay in contact with some parts of the fire.
Within the gleam of
rose and orange light from the burning sticks were other soldiers, snoring and
heaving, or lying deathlike in slumber. A few pairs of legs were stuck forth,
rigid and straight. The shoes displayed the mud or dust of marches and bits of
rounded trousers, protruding from the blankets, showed rents and tears from
hurried pitchings through the dense brambles.
The fire crackled
musically. From it swelled light smoke. Overhead the foliage moved softly. The
leaves, with their faces turned toward the blaze, were colored shifting hues of
silver, often edged with red. Far off to the right, through a window in the
forest could be seen a handful of stars lying, like glittering pebbles, on the
black level of the night.
Occasionally, in this
low arched hall, a soldier would arouse and turn his body to a new
position, the experience of his sleep having taught him of uneven and
objectionable places upon the ground under him. Or, perhaps, he would lift
himself to a sitting posture, blink at the fire for an unintelligent moment, throw
a swift glance at his prostrate companion, and then cuddle down again with a
grunt of sleepy content.
The youth sat in a
forlorn heap until his friend the loud young soldier came, swinging two
canteens by their light strings. "Well, now, Henry, ol' boy," said
the latter, "we'll have yeh fixed up in jest about a minnit."
He had the bustling
ways of an amateur nurse. He fussed around the fire and stirred the sticks to
brilliant exertions. He made his patient drink largely from the canteen that
contained the coffee. It was to the youth a delicious draught. He tilted his
head afar back and held the canteen long to his lips. The cool mixture went
caressingly down his blistered throat. Having finished, he sighed with
comfortable delight.
The loud young soldier
watched his comrade with an air of satisfaction. He later produced an extensive
handkerchief from his pocket. He folded it into a manner of bandage and soused
water from the other canteen upon the middle of it. This crude arrangement he
bound over the youth's head, tying the ends in a queer knot at the back of the
neck.
"There," he
said, moving off and surveying his deed, "yeh look like th' devil, but I
bet yeh feel better."
The youth contemplated
his friend with grateful eyes. Upon his aching and swelling head the cold cloth
was like a tender woman's hand.
"Yeh don't holler
ner say nothin'," remarked his friend approvingly. "I know I'm a
blacksmith at takin' keer 'a sick folks, an' yeh never squeaked. Yer a good un,
Henry. Most 'a men would a' been in th' hospital long ago. A shot in th' head
ain't foolin' business."
The youth made no
reply, but began to fumble with the buttons of his jacket.
"Well, come,
now," continued his friend, "come on. I must put yeh t' bed an' see
that yeh git a good night's rest."
The other got carefully
erect, and the loud young soldier led him among the sleeping forms lying in
groups and rows. Presently he stooped and picked up his blankets. He spread the
rubber one upon the ground and placed the woolen one about the youth's
shoulders.
"There now,"
he said, "lie down an' git some sleep."
The youth, with his
manner of doglike obedience, got carefully down like a crone stooping. He
stretched out with a murmur of relief and comfort. The ground felt like the
softest couch.
But of a sudden he
ejaculated: "Hol' on a minnit! Where you goin' t' sleep?"
His friend waved his
hand impatiently. "Right down there by yeh."
"Well, but hol' on
a minnit," continued the youth. "What yeh goin' t' sleep in? I've got
your--"
The loud young soldier
snarled: "Shet up an' go on t' sleep. Don't be makin' a damn' fool 'a
yerself," he said severely.
After the reproof the
youth said no more. An exquisite drowsiness had spread through him. The warm
comfort of the blanket enveloped him and made a gentle languor. His head fell
forward on his crooked arm and his weighted lids went softly down over his
eyes. Hearing a splatter of musketry from the distance, he wondered
indifferently if those men sometimes slept. He gave a long sigh, snuggled down
into his blanket, and in a moment was like his comrades.
WHEN the youth awoke it
seemed to him that he had been asleep for a thousand years, and he felt sure
that he opened his eyes upon an unexpected world. Gray mists were slowly
shifting before the first efforts of the sun rays. An impending splendor could
be seen in the eastern sky. An icy dew had chilled his face, and immediately
upon arousing he curled farther down into his blanket. He stared for a while at
the leaves overhead, moving in a heraldic wind of the day.
The distance was
splintering and blaring with the noise of fighting. There was in the sound an
expression of a deadly persistency, as if it had not begun and was not to
cease.
About him were the rows
and groups of men that he had dimly seen the previous night. They were getting
a last draught of sleep before the awakening. The gaunt, careworn features and
dusty figures were made plain by this quaint light at the dawning, but it
dressed the skin of the men in corpselike hues and made the tangled limbs appear
pulseless and dead. The youth started up with a little cry when his eyes first
swept over this motionless mass of men, thickspread upon the ground, pallid,
and in strange postures. His disordered mind interpreted the hall of the forest
as a charnel place. He believed for an instant that he was in the house of the
dead, and he did not dare to move lest these corpses start up, squalling and
squawking. In a second, however, he achieved his proper mind. He swore a
complicated oath at himself. He saw that this somber picture was not a fact of
the present, but a mere prophecy.
He heard then the noise
of a fire crackling briskly in the cold air, and, turning his head, he saw his
friend pottering busily about a small blaze. A few other figures moved in the
fog, and he heard the hard cracking of axe blows.
Suddenly there was a
hollow rumble of drums. A distant bugle sang faintly. Similar sounds, varying
in strength, came from near and far over the forest. The bugles called to each
other like brazen gamecocks. The near thunder of the regimental drums rolled.
The body of men in the
woods rustled. There was a general uplifting of heads. A murmuring of voices
broke upon the air. In it there was much bass of grumbling oaths. Strange gods
were addressed in condemnation of the early hours necessary to correct war. An
officer's peremptory tenor rang out and quickened the stiffened movement of the
men. The tangled limbs unraveled. The corpse hued faces were hidden behind
fists that twisted slowly in the eye sockets.
The youth sat up and
gave vent to an enormous yawn. "Thunder!" he remarked petulantly. He
rubbed his eyes, and then putting up his hand felt carefully of the bandage
over his wound. His friend, perceiving him to be awake, came from the fire. "Well,
Henry, ol' man, how do yeh feel this mornin'?" he demanded.
The youth yawned again.
Then he puckered his mouth to a little pucker. His head, in truth, felt
precisely like a melon, and there was an unpleasant sensation at his stomach.
"Oh, Lord, I feel
pretty bad," he said.
"Thunder!"
exclaimed the other. "I hoped ye'd feel all right this mornin'. Let's see
th' bandage--I guess it's slipped." He began to tinker at the wound in
rather a clumsy way until the youth exploded.
"Gosh dern
it!" he said in sharp irritation; "you're the hangdest man I ever
saw! You wear muffs on your hands. Why in good thunderation can't you be more
easy? I'd rather you'd stand off an' throw guns at it. Now, go slow, an' don't
act as if you was nailing down carpet."
He glared with insolent
command at his friend, but the latter answered soothingly. "Well, well,
come now, an' git some grub," he said. "Then, maybe, yeh'll feel
better."
At the fireside the
loud young soldier watched over his comrade's wants with tenderness and care.
He was very busy marshaling the little black vagabonds of tin cups and pouring
into them the streaming, iron colored mixture from a small and sooty tin pail.
He had some fresh meat, which he roasted hurriedly upon a stick. He sat down
then and contemplated the youth's appetite with glee.
The youth took note of
a remarkable change in his comrade since those days of camp life upon the river
bank. He seemed no more to be continually regarding the proportions of his
personal prowess. He was not furious at small words that pricked his conceits.
He was no more a loud young soldier. There was about him now a fine reliance.
He showed a quiet belief in his purposes and his abilities. And this inward
confidence evidently enabled him to be indifferent to little words of other men
aimed at him.
The youth reflected. He
had been used to regarding his comrade as a blatant child with an audacity
grown from his inexperience, thoughtless, headstrong, jealous, and filled with
a tinsel courage. A swaggering babe accustomed to strut in his own dooryard.
The youth wondered where had been born these new eyes; when his comrade had
made the great discovery that there were many men who would refuse to be
subjected by him. Apparently, the other had now climbed a peak of wisdom from which
he could perceive himself as a very wee thing. And the youth saw that ever
after it would be easier to live in his friend's neighborhood.
His comrade balanced
his ebony coffee cup on his knee. "Well, Henry," he said,
"what d'yeh think th' chances are? D'yeh think we'll wallop 'em?"
The youth considered
for a moment. "Day b'fore yesterday," he finally replied,
with boldness, "you would 'a' bet you'd lick the hull
kit an' boodle all by yourself."
His friend looked a
trifle amazed. "Would I?" he asked. He pondered. "Well, perhaps
I would," he decided at last. He stared humbly at the fire.
The youth was quite
disconcerted at this surprising reception of his remarks. "Oh, no, you
wouldn't either," he said, hastily trying to retrace.
But the other made a
deprecating gesture. "Oh, yeh needn't mind, Henry," he said. "I
believe I was a pretty big fool in those days." He spoke as after a lapse
of years.
There was a little
pause.
"All th' officers
say we've got th' rebs in a pretty tight box," said the friend, clearing
his throat in a commonplace way. "They all seem t' think we've got 'em
jest where we want 'em."
"I don't know
about that," the youth replied. "What I seen over on th' right makes
me think it was th' other way about. From where I was, it looked as if we was
gettin' a good poundin' yestirday."
"D'yeh think
so?" inquired the friend. "I thought we handled 'em pretty rough
yestir day."
"Not a bit,"
said the youth. "Why, lord, man, you didn't see nothing of the fight.
Why!" Then a sudden thought came to him. "Oh! Jim Conklin's
dead."
His friend started.
"What? Is he? Jim Conklin?"
The youth spoke slowly.
"Yes. He's dead. Shot in th' side."
"Yeh don't say so.
Jim Conklin. . . . poor cuss!"
All about them were
other small fires sur rounded by men with their little black utensils.
From one of these near came sudden sharp voices in a row. It appeared that two
lightfooted soldiers had been teasing a huge, bearded man, causing him to spill
coffee upon his blue knees. The man had gone into a rage and had sworn
comprehensively. Stung by his language, his tormentors had immediately bristled
at him with a great show of resenting unjust oaths. Possibly there was going to
be a fight.
The friend arose and
went over to them, making pacific motions with his arms. "Oh, here, now,
boys, what's th' use?" he said. "We'll be at th' rebs in less'n an
hour. What's th' good fightin' 'mong ourselves?"
One of the
light footed soldiers turned upon him red faced and violent.
"Yeh needn't come around here with yer preachin'. I s'pose yeh don't
approve 'a fightin' since Charley Morgan licked yeh; but I don't see what
business this here is 'a yours or anybody else."
"Well, it
ain't," said the friend mildly. "Still I hate t' see--"
There was a tangled
argument.
"Well, he--,"
said the two, indicating their opponent with accusative forefingers.
The huge soldier was
quite purple with rage. He pointed at the two soldiers with his great hand,
extended clawlike. "Well, they--"
But during this
argumentative time the desire to deal blows seemed to pass, although they said
much to each other. Finally the friend returned to his old seat. In a short
while the three antagonists could be seen together in an amiable bunch.
"Jimmie Rogers ses
I'll have t' fight him after th' battle t' day," announced the friend
as he again seated himself. "He ses he don't allow no interferin' in his
business. I hate t' see th' boys fightin' 'mong themselves."
The youth laughed.
"Yer changed a good bit. Yeh ain't at all like yeh was. I remember when
you an' that Irish feller--" He stopped and laughed again.
"No, I didn't use
t' be that way," said his friend thoughtfully. "That's true
'nough."
"Well, I didn't
mean--" began the youth.
The friend made another
deprecatory gesture. "Oh, yeh needn't mind, Henry."
There was another
little pause.
"Th' reg'ment lost
over half th' men yestirday," remarked the friend eventually. "I
thought a course they was all dead, but, laws, they kep' a comin' back
last night until it seems, after all, we didn't lose but a few. They'd been
scattered all over, wanderin' around in th' woods, fightin' with other
reg'ments, an' everything. Jest like you done."
"So?" said
the youth.
THE regiment was
standing at order arms at the side of a lane, waiting for the command to march,
when suddenly the youth remembered the little packet enwrapped in a faded
yellow envelope which the loud young soldier with lugubrious words had
intrusted to him. It made him start. He uttered an exclamation and turned
toward his comrade.
"Wilson!"
"What?"
His friend, at his side
in the ranks, was thoughtfully staring down the road. From some cause his
expression was at that moment very meek. The youth, regarding him with sidelong
glances, felt impelled to change his purpose. "Oh, nothing," he said.
His friend turned his
head in some surprise, "Why, what was yeh goin' t' say?"
"Oh,
nothing," repeated the youth.
He resolved not to deal
the little blow. It was sufficient that the fact made him glad. It was not
necessary to knock his friend on the head with the misguided packet.
He had been possessed
of much fear of his friend, for he saw how easily questionings could make holes
in his feelings. Lately, he had assured himself that the altered comrade would
not tantalize him with a persistent curiosity, but he felt certain that during
the first period of leisure his friend would ask him to relate his adventures
of the previous day.
He now rejoiced in the
possession of a small weapon with which he could prostrate his comrade at the
first signs of a cross examination. He was master. It would now be he who
could laugh and shoot the shafts of derision.
The friend had, in a
weak hour, spoken with sobs of his own death. He had delivered a melancholy
oration previous to his funeral, and had doubtless in the packet of letters,
presented various keepsakes to relatives. But he had not died, and thus he had
delivered himself into the hands of the youth.
The latter felt
immensely superior to his friend, but he inclined to condescension. He adopted
toward him an air of patronizing good humor.
His self pride was
now entirely restored. In the shade of its flourishing growth he stood with
braced and self confident legs, and since nothing could now be discovered
he did not shrink from an encounter with the eyes of judges, and allowed no
thoughts of his own to keep him from an attitude of manfulness. He had
performed his mistakes in the dark, so he was still a man.
Indeed, when he
remembered his fortunes of yesterday, and looked at them from a distance he
began to see something fine there. He had license to be pompous and
veteranlike.
His panting agonies of
the past he put out of his sight.
In the present, he declared
to himself that it was only the doomed and the damned who roared with sincerity
at circumstance. Few but they ever did it. A man with a full stomach and the
respect of his fellows had no business to scold about anything that he might
think to be wrong in the ways of the universe, or even with the ways of
society. Let the unfortunates rail; the others may play marbles.
He did not give a great
deal of thought to these battles that lay directly before him. It was not
essential that he should plan his ways in regard to them. He had been taught
that many obligations of a life were easily avoided. The lessons of yesterday
had been that retribution was a laggard and blind. With these facts before him
he did not deem it necessary that he should become feverish over the
possibilities of the ensuing twenty four hours. He could leave much to
chance. Besides, a faith in himself had secretly blossomed. There was a little
flower of confidence growing within him. He was now a man of experience. He had
been out among the dragons, he said, and he assured himself that they were not
so hideous as he had imagined them. Also, they were inaccurate; they did not
sting with precision. A stout heart often defied, and defying, escaped.
And, furthermore, how
could they kill him who was the chosen of gods and doomed to greatness?
He remembered how some
of the men had run from the battle. As he recalled their terrorstruck faces he
felt a scorn for them. They had surely been more fleet and more wild than was
absolutely necessary. They were weak mortals. As for himself, he had fled with
discretion and dignity.
He was aroused from
this reverie by his friend, who, having hitched about nervously and blinked at
the trees for a time, suddenly coughed in an introductory way, and spoke.
"Fleming!"
"What?"
The friend put his hand
up to his mouth and coughed again. He fidgeted in his jacket.
"Well," he
gulped, at last, "I guess yeh might as well give me back them
letters." Dark, prickling blood had flushed into his cheeks and brow.
"All right,
Wilson," said the youth. He loosened two buttons of his coat, thrust in
his hand, and brought forth the packet. As he extended it to his friend the
latter's face was turned from him.
He had been slow in the
act of producing the packet because during it he had been trying to invent a
remarkable comment upon the affair. He could conjure nothing of sufficient
point. He was compelled to allow his friend to escape unmolested with his
packet. And for this he took unto himself considerable credit. It was a
generous thing.
His friend at his side
seemed suffering great shame. As he contemplated him, the youth felt his heart
grow more strong and stout. He had never been compelled to blush in such manner
for his acts; he was an individual of extraordinary virtues.
He reflected, with
condescending pity: "Too bad! Too bad! The poor devil, it makes him feel
tough!"
After this incident,
and as he reviewed the battle pictures he had seen, he felt quite competent to
return home and make the hearts of the people glow with stories of war. He
could see himself in a room of warm tints telling tales to listeners. He could
exhibit laurels. They were insignificant; still, in a district where laurels
were infrequent, they might shine.
He saw his gaping
audience picturing him as the central figure in blazing scenes. And he imagined
the consternation and the ejaculations of his mother and the young lady at the
seminary as they drank his recitals. Their vague feminine formula for beloved
ones doing brave deeds on the field of battle without risk of life would be
destroyed.
A SPUTTERING of
musketry was always to be heard. Later, the cannon had entered the dispute. In
the fog filled air their voices made a thudding sound. The reverberations
were continued. This part of the world led a strange, battleful existence.
The youth's regiment
was marched to relieve a command that had lain long in some damp trenches. The
men took positions behind a curving line of rifle pits that had been turned up,
like a large furrow, along the line of woods. Before them was a level stretch,
peopled with short, deformed stumps. From the woods beyond came the dull
popping of the skirmishers and pickets, firing in the fog. From the right came
the noise of a terrific fracas.
The men cuddled behind
the small embankment and sat in easy attitudes awaiting their turn. Many had
their backs to the firing. The youth's friend lay down, buried his face in his
arms, and almost instantly, it seemed, he was in a deep sleep.
The youth leaned his
breast against the brown dirt and peered over at the woods and up and down the
line. Curtains of trees interfered with his ways of vision. He could see the
low line of trenches but for a short distance. A few idle flags were perched on
the dirt hills. Behind them were rows of dark bodies with a few heads sticking
curiously over the top.
Always the noise of
skirmishers came from the woods on the front and left, and the din on the right
had grown to frightful proportions. The guns were roaring without an instant's
pause for breath. It seemed that the cannon had come from all parts and were
engaged in a stupendous wrangle. It became impossible to make a sentence heard.
The youth wished to
launch a joke--a quotation from newspapers. He desired to say, "All quiet
on the Rappahannock," but the guns refused to permit even a comment upon
their uproar. He never successfully concluded the sentence. But at last the
guns stopped, and among the men in the rifle pits rumors again flew, like
birds, but they were now for the most part black creatures who flapped their
wings drearily near to the ground and refused to rise on any wings of hope. The
men's faces grew doleful from the interpreting of omens. Tales of hesitation
and uncertainty on the part of those high in place and responsibility came to
their ears. Stories of disaster were borne into their minds with many proofs.
This din of musketry on the right, growing like a released genie of sound,
expressed and emphasized the army's plight.
The men were disheartened
and began to mutter. They made gestures expressive of the sentence: "Ah,
what more can we do?" And it could always be seen that they were
bewildered by the alleged news and could not fully comprehend a defeat.
Before the gray mists
had been totally obliterated by the sun rays, the regiment was marching in a
spread column that was retiring carefully through the woods. The disordered,
hurrying lines of the enemy could sometimes be seen down through the groves and
little fields. They were yelling, shrill and exultant.
At this sight the youth
forgot many personal matters and became greatly enraged. He exploded in loud
sentences. "B'jiminey, we're generaled by a lot 'a lunkheads."
"More than one
feller has said that t' day," observed a man.
His friend, recently
aroused, was still very drowsy. He looked behind him until his mind took in the
meaning of the movement. Then he sighed. "Oh, well, I s'pose we got
licked," he remarked sadly.
The youth had a thought
that it would not be handsome for him to freely condemn other men. He made an
attempt to restrain himself, but the words upon his tongue were too bitter. He
presently began a long and intricate denunciation of the commander of the
forces.
"Mebbe, it wa'n't
all his fault--not all together. He did th' best he knowed. It's our luck t'
git licked often," said his friend in a weary tone. He was trudging along
with stooped shoulders and shifting eyes like a man who has been caned and
kicked.
"Well, don't we
fight like the devil? Don't we do all that men can?" demanded the youth
loudly.
He was secretly
dumfounded at this sentiment when it came from his lips. For a moment his face
lost its valor and he looked guiltily about him. But no one questioned his
right to deal in such words, and presently he recovered his air of courage. He
went on to repeat a statement he had heard going from group to group at the
camp that morning. "The brigadier said he never saw a new reg'ment fight
the way we fought yestirday, didn't he? And we didn't do better than many
another reg'ment, did we? Well, then, you can't say it's th' army's fault, can
you?"
In his reply, the
friend's voice was stern. "'A course not," he said. "No man dare
say we don't fight like th' devil. No man will ever dare say it. Th' boys fight
like hell roosters. But still--still, we don't have no luck."
"Well, then, if we
fight like the devil an' don't ever whip, it must be the general's fault,"
said the youth grandly and decisively. "And I don't see any sense in
fighting and fighting and fighting, yet always losing through some derned old
lunkhead of a general."
A sarcastic man who was
tramping at the youth's side, then spoke lazily. "Mebbe yeh think yeh fit
th' hull battle yestirday, Fleming," he remarked.
The speech pierced the
youth. Inwardly he was reduced to an abject pulp by these chance words. His
legs quaked privately. He cast a frightened glance at the sarcastic man.
"Why, no," he
hastened to say in a conciliating voice, "I don't think I fought the whole
battle yesterday."
But the other seemed
innocent of any deeper meaning. Apparently, he had no information. It was
merely his habit. "Oh!" he replied in the same tone of calm derision.
The youth,
nevertheless, felt a threat. His mind shrank from going near to the danger, and
thereafter he was silent. The significance of the sarcastic man's words took
from him all loud moods that would make him appear prominent. He became
suddenly a modest person.
There was
low toned talk among the troops. The officers were impatient and snappy,
their countenances clouded with the tales of misfortune. The troops, sifting
through the forest, were sullen. In the youth's company once a man's laugh rang
out. A dozen soldiers turned their faces quickly toward him and frowned with
vague displeasure.
The noise of firing
dogged their footsteps. Sometimes, it seemed to be driven a little way, but it
always returned again with increased insolence. The men muttered and cursed,
throwing black looks in its direction.
In a clear space the
troops were at last halted. Regiments and brigades, broken and detached through
their encounters with thickets, grew together again and lines were faced toward
the pursuing bark of the enemy's infantry.
This noise, following
like the yellings of eager, metallic hounds, increased to a loud and joyous
burst, and then, as the sun went serenely up the sky, throwing illuminating
rays into the gloomy thickets, it broke forth into prolonged pealings. The
woods began to crackle as if afire.
"Whoop a dadee,"
said a man, "here we are! Everybody fightin'. Blood an' destruction."
"I was willin' t'
bet they'd attack as soon as th' sun got fairly up," savagely asserted the
lieutenant who commanded the youth's company. He jerked without mercy at his
little mustache. He strode to and fro with dark dignity in the rear of his men,
who were lying down behind whatever protection they had collected.
A battery had trundled
into position in the rear and was thoughtfully shelling the distance. The
regiment, unmolested as yet, awaited the moment when the gray shadows of the
woods before them should be slashed by the lines of flame. There was much
growling and swearing.
"Good Gawd,"
the youth grumbled, "we're always being chased around like rats! It makes
me sick. Nobody seems to know where we go or why we go. We just get fired
around from pillar to post and get licked here and get licked there, and nobody
knows what it's done for. It makes a man feel like a damn' kitten in a bag.
Now, I'd like to know what the eternal thunders we was marched into these woods
for anyhow, unless it was to give the rebs a regular pot shot at us. We came in
here and got our legs all tangled up in these cussed briers, and then we begin
to fight and the rebs had an easy time of it. Don't tell me it's just luck! I
know better. It's this derned old--"
The friend seemed
jaded, but he interrupted his comrade with a voice of calm confidence.
"It'll turn out all right in th' end," he said.
"Oh, the devil it
will! You always talk like a dog hanged parson. Don't tell me! I
know--"
At this time there was
an interposition by the savage minded lieutenant, who was obliged to vent
some of his inward dissatisfaction upon his men. "You boys shut right up!
There no need 'a your wastin' your breath in long winded arguments about
this an' that an' th' other. You've been jawin' like a lot 'a old hens. All
you've got t' do is to fight, an' you'll get plenty 'a that t' do in about ten
minutes. Less talkin' an' more fightin' is what's best for you boys. I never
saw sech gabbling jackasses."
He paused, ready to
pounce upon any man who might have the temerity to reply. No words being said,
he resumed his dignified pacing.
"There's too much
chin music an' too little fightin' in this war, anyhow," he said to them,
turning his head for a final remark.
The day had grown more
white, until the sun shed his full radiance upon the thronged forest. A sort of
a gust of battle came sweeping toward that part of the line where lay the
youth's regiment. The front shifted a trifle to meet it squarely. There was a
wait. In this part of the field there passed slowly the intense moments that
precede the tempest.
A single rifle flashed
in a thicket before the regiment. In an instant it was joined by many others.
There was a mighty song of clashes and crashes that went sweeping through the
woods. The guns in the rear, aroused and enraged by shells that had been thrown
burlike at them, suddenly involved themselves in a hideous altercation with
another band of guns. The battle roar settled to a rolling thunder, which was a
single, long explosion.
In the regiment there
was a peculiar kind of hesitation denoted in the attitudes of the men. They
were worn, exhausted, having slept but little and labored much. They rolled
their eyes toward the advancing battle as they stood awaiting the shock. Some
shrank and flinched. They stood as men tied to stakes.
THIS advance of the
enemy had seemed to the youth like a ruthless hunting. He began to fume with
rage and exasperation. He beat his foot upon the ground, and scowled with hate
at the swirling smoke that was approaching like a phantom flood. There was a
maddening quality in this seeming resolution of the foe to give him no rest, to
give him no time to sit down and think. Yesterday he had fought and had fled
rapidly. There had been many adventures. For to day he felt that he had
earned opportunities for contemplative repose. He could have enjoyed portraying
to uninitiated listeners various scenes at which he had been a witness or ably
discussing the processes of war with other proved men. Too it was important
that he should have time for physical recuperation. He was sore and stiff from
his experiences. He had received his fill of all exertions, and he wished to
rest.
But those other men
seemed never to grow weary; they were fighting with their old speed. He had a
wild hate for the relentless foe. Yesterday, when he had imagined the universe
to be against him, he had hated it, little gods and big gods; to day he
hated the army of the foe with the same great hatred. He was not going to be
badgered of his life, like a kitten chased by boys, he said. It was not well to
drive men into final corners; at those moments they could all develop teeth and
claws.
He leaned and spoke
into his friend's ear. He menaced the woods with a gesture. "If they keep
on chasing us, by Gawd, they'd better watch out. Can't stand too much."
The friend twisted his
head and made a calm reply. "If they keep on a chasin' us they'll
drive us all inteh th' river."
The youth cried out
savagely at this statement. He crouched behind a little tree, with his eyes
burning hatefully and his teeth set in a cur like snarl. The awkward
bandage was still about his head, and upon it, over his wound, there was a spot
of dry blood. His hair was wondrously tousled, and some straggling, moving
locks hung over the cloth of the bandage down toward his forehead. His jacket
and shirt were open at the throat, and exposed his young bronzed neck. There
could be seen spasmodic gulpings at his throat.
His fingers twined
nervously about his rifle. He wished that it was an engine of annihilating
power. He felt that he and his companions were being taunted and derided from
sincere convictions that they were poor and puny. His knowledge of his
inability to take vengeance for it made his rage into a dark and stormy
specter, that possessed him and made him dream of abominable cruelties. The tormentors
were flies sucking insolently at his blood, and he thought that he would have
given his life for a revenge of seeing their faces in pitiful plights.
The winds of battle had
swept all about the regiment, until the one rifle, instantly followed by others,
flashed in its front. A moment later the regiment roared forth its sudden and
valiant retort. A dense wall of smoke settled slowly down. It was furiously
slit and slashed by the knifelike fire from the rifles.
To the youth the
fighters resembled animals tossed for a death struggle into a dark pit. There
was a sensation that he and his fellows, at bay, were pushing back, always
pushing fierce onslaughts of creatures who were slippery. Their beams of
crimson seemed to get no purchase upon the bodies of their foes; the latter
seemed to evade them with ease, and come through, between, around, and about
with unopposed skill.
When, in a dream, it
occurred to the youth that his rifle was an impotent stick, he lost sense of
everything but his hate, his desire to smash into pulp the glittering smile of
victory which he could feel upon the faces of his enemies.
The blue
smoke swallowed line curled and writhed like a snake stepped upon. It
swung its ends to and fro in an agony of fear and rage.
The youth was not
conscious that he was erect upon his feet. He did not know the direction of the
ground. Indeed, once he even lost the habit of balance and fell heavily. He was
up again immediately. One thought went through the chaos of his brain at the
time. He wondered if he had fallen because he had been shot. But the suspicion
flew away at once. He did not think more of it.
He had taken up a first
position behind the little tree, with a direct determination to hold it against
the world. He had not deemed it possible that his army could that day succeed,
and from this he felt the ability to fight harder. But the throng had surged in
all ways, until he lost directions and locations, save that he knew where lay
the enemy.
The flames bit him, and
the hot smoke broiled his skin. His rifle barrel grew so hot that ordinarily he
could not have borne it upon his palms; but he kept on stuffing cartridges into
it, and pounding them with his clanking, bending ramrod. If he aimed at some
changing form through the smoke, he pulled his trigger with a fierce grunt, as
if he were dealing a blow of the fist with all his strength.
When the enemy seemed
falling back before him and his fellows, he went instantly forward, like a dog
who, seeing his foes lagging, turns and insists upon being pursued. And when he
was compelled to retire again, he did it slowly, sullenly, taking steps of
wrathful despair.
Once he, in his intent
hate, was almost alone, and was firing, when all those near him had ceased. He
was so engrossed in his occupation that he was not aware of a lull.
He was recalled by a
hoarse laugh and a sentence that came to his ears in a voice of contempt and
amazement. "Yeh infernal fool, don't yeh know enough t' quit when there
ain't anything t' shoot at? Good Gawd!"
He turned then and,
pausing with his rifle thrown half into position, looked at the blue line of
his comrades. During this moment of leisure they seemed all to be engaged in
staring with astonishment at him. They had become spectators. Turning to the
front again he saw, under the lifted smoke, a deserted ground.
He looked bewildered
for a moment. Then there appeared upon the glazed vacancy of his eyes a diamond
point of intelligence. "Oh," he said, comprehending.
He returned to his
comrades and threw himself upon the ground. He sprawled like a man who had been
thrashed. His flesh seemed strangely on fire, and the sounds of the battle
continued in his ears. He groped blindly for his canteen.
The lieutenant was
crowing. He seemed drunk with fighting. He called out to the youth: "By
heavens, if I had ten thousand wild cats like you I could tear th' stomach outa
this war in less'n a week!" He puffed out his chest with large dignity as
he said it.
Some of the men
muttered and looked at the youth in awe struck ways. It was plain that as
he had gone on loading and firing and cursing without the proper intermission,
they had found time to regard him. And they now looked upon him as a war devil.
The friend came
staggering to him. There was some fright and dismay in his voice. "Are yeh
all right, Fleming? Do yeh feel all right? There ain't nothin' th' matter with
yeh, Henry, is there?"
"No," said
the youth with difficulty. His throat seemed full of knobs and burs.
These incidents made
the youth ponder. It was revealed to him that he had been a barbarian, a beast.
He had fought like a pagan who defends his religion. Regarding it, he saw that
it was fine, wild, and, in some ways, easy. He had been a tremendous figure, no
doubt. By this struggle he had overcome obstacles which he had admitted to be
mountains. They had fallen like paper peaks, and he was now what he called a
hero. And he had not been aware of the process. He had slept and, awakening,
found himself a knight.
He lay and basked in
the occasional stares of his comrades. Their faces were varied in degrees of
blackness from the burned powder. Some were utterly smudged. They were reeking
with perspiration, and their breaths came hard and wheezing. And from these
soiled expanses they peered at him.
"Hot work! Hot
work!" cried the lieutenant deliriously. He walked up and down, restless
and eager. Sometimes his voice could be heard in a wild, incomprehensible
laugh.
When he had a
particularly profound thought upon the science of war he always unconsciously
addressed himself to the youth.
There was some grim
rejoicing by the men. "By thunder, I bet this army'll never see another
new reg'ment like us!" .
"You bet!"
"A dog, a woman,
an' a walnut tree,
Th' more yeh beat 'em,
th' better they be! That's like us."
"Lost a piler men,
they did. If an' ol' woman swep' up th' woods she'd git a dustpanful."
"Yes, an' if
she'll come around ag'in in 'bout an' hour she'll git a pile more."
The forest still bore
its burden of clamor. From off under the trees came the rolling clatter of the
musketry. Each distant thicket seemed a strange porcupine with quills of flame.
A cloud of dark smoke, as from smoldering ruins, went up toward the sun now
bright and gay in the blue, enameled sky.
THE ragged line had
respite for some minutes, but during its pause the struggle in the forest
became magnified until the trees seemed to quiver from the firing and the
ground to shake from the rushing of the men. The voices of the cannon were
mingled in a long and interminable row. It seemed difficult to live in such an
atmosphere. The chests of the men strained for a bit of freshness, and their
throats craved water.
There was one shot
through the body, who raised a cry of bitter lamentation when came this lull.
Perhaps he had been calling out during the fighting also, but at that time no
one had heard him. But now the men turned at the woeful complaints of him upon
the ground.
"Who is it? Who is
it?"
"It's Jimmie
Rogers. Jimmie Rogers."
When their eyes first
encountered him there was a sudden halt, as if they feared to go near. He was
thrashing about in the grass, twisting his shuddering body into many strange
postures. He was screaming loudly. This instant's hesitation seemed to fill him
with a tremendous, fantastic contempt, and he damned them in shrieked
sentences.
The youth's friend had
a geographical illusion concerning a stream, and he obtained permission to go
for some water. Immediately canteens were showered upon him. "Fill mine,
will yeh?" "Bring me some, too." "And me, too." He
departed, ladened. The youth went with his friend, feeling a desire to throw
his heated body onto the stream and, soaking there, drink quarts.
They made a hurried
search for the supposed stream, but did not find it. "No water here,"
said the youth. They turned without delay and began to retrace their steps.
From their position as
they again faced toward the place of the fighting, they could of course
comprehend a greater amount of the battle than when their visions had been
blurred by the hurling smoke of the line. They could see dark stretches winding
along the land, and on one cleared space there was a row of guns making gray
clouds, which were filled with large flashes of orange colored flame. Over
some foliage they could see the roof of a house. One window, glowing a deep
murder red, shone squarely through the leaves. From the edifice a tall leaning
tower of smoke went far into the sky.
Looking over their own
troops, they saw mixed masses slowly getting into regular form. The sunlight
made twinkling points of the bright steel. To the rear there was a glimpse of a
distant roadway as it curved over a slope. It was crowded with retreating
infantry. From all the interwoven forest arose the smoke and bluster of the
battle. The air was always occupied by a blaring.
Near where they stood
shells were flip flapping and hooting. Occasional bullets buzzed in the
air and spanged into tree trunks. Wounded men and other stragglers were
slinking through the woods.
Looking down an aisle
of the grove, the youth and his companion saw a jangling general and his staff
almost ride upon a wounded man, who was crawling on his hands and knees. The
general reined strongly at his charger's opened and foamy mouth and guided it
with dexterous horsemanship past the man. The latter scrambled in wild and
torturing haste. His strength evidently failed him as he reached a place of
safety. One of his arms suddenly weakened, and he fell, sliding over upon his
back. He lay stretched out, breathing gently.
A moment later the
small, creaking cavalcade was directly in front of the two soldiers. Another
officer, riding with the skillful abandon of a cowboy, galloped his horse to a
position directly before the general. The two unnoticed foot soldiers made a
little show of going on, but they lingered near in the desire to overhear the
conversation. Perhaps, they thought, some great inner historical things would
be said.
The general, whom the
boys knew as the commander of their division, looked at the other officer and
spoke coolly, as if he were criticising his clothes. "Th' enemy's formin'
over there for another charge," he said. "It'll be directed against
Whiterside, an' I fear they'll break through there unless we work like thunder
t' stop them."
The other swore at his
restive horse, and then cleared his throat. He made a gesture toward his cap.
"It'll be hell t' pay stoppin' them," he said shortly.
"I presume so,"
remarked the general. Then he began to talk rapidly and in a lower tone. He
frequently illustrated his words with a pointing finger. The two infantrymen
could hear nothing until finally he asked: "What troops can you
spare?"
The officer who rode
like a cowboy reflected for an instant. "Well," he said, "I had
to order in th' 12th to help th' 76th, an' I haven't really got any. But
there's th' 304th. They fight like a lot 'a mule drivers. I can spare them best
of any."
The youth and his
friend exchanged glances of astonishment.
The general spoke
sharply. "Get 'em ready, then. I'll watch developments from here, an' send
you word when t' start them. It'll happen in five minutes."
As the other officer
tossed his fingers toward his cap and wheeling his horse, started away, the
general called out to him in a sober voice: "I don't believe many of your
mule drivers will get back."
The other shouted
something in reply. He smiled.
With scared faces, the
youth and his companion hurried back to the line.
These happenings had
occupied an incredibly short time, yet the youth felt that in them he had been
made aged. New eyes were given to him. And the most startling thing was to
learn suddenly that he was very insignificant. The officer spoke of the regiment
as if he referred to a broom. Some part of the woods needed sweeping, perhaps,
and he merely indicated a broom in a tone properly indifferent to its fate. It
was war, no doubt, but it appeared strange.
As the two boys
approached the line, the lieutenant perceived them and swelled with wrath.
"Fleming--Wilson--how long does it take yeh to git water, anyhow--where
yeh been to."
But his oration ceased
as he saw their eyes, which were large with great tales. "We're goin' t'
charge--we're goin' t' charge!" cried the youth's friend, hastening with
his news.
"Charge?"
said the lieutenant. "Charge? Well, b'Gawd! Now, this is real
fightin'." Over his soiled countenance there went a boastful smile.
"Charge? Well, b'Gawd!"
A little group of
soldiers surrounded the two youths. "Are we, sure 'nough? Well, I'll be
derned! Charge? What fer? What at? Wilson, you're lyin'."
"I hope to
die," said the youth, pitching his tones to the key of angry remonstrance.
"Sure as shooting, I tell you."
And his friend spoke in
re enforcement. "Not by a blame sight, he ain't lyin'. We heard 'em
talkin'."
They caught sight of
two mounted figures a short distance from them. One was the colonel of the
regiment and the other was the officer who had received orders from the commander
of the division. They were gesticulating at each other. The soldier, pointing
at them, interpreted the scene.
One man had a final
objection: "How could yeh hear 'em talkin'?" But the men, for a large
part, nodded, admitting that previously the two friends had spoken truth.
They settled back into
reposeful attitudes with airs of having accepted the matter. And they mused
upon it, with a hundred varieties of expression. It was an engrossing thing to
think about. Many tightened their belts carefully and hitched at their
trousers.
A moment later the
officers began to bustle among the men, pushing them into a more compact mass
and into a better alignment. They chased those that straggled and fumed at a
few men who seemed to show by their attitudes that they had decided to remain
at that spot. They were like critical shepherds struggling with sheep.
Presently, the regiment
seemed to draw itself up and heave a deep breath. None of the men's faces were
mirrors of large thoughts. The soldiers were bended and stooped like sprinters
before a signal. Many pairs of glinting eyes peered from the grimy faces toward
the curtains of the deeper woods. They seemed to be engaged in deep
calculations of time and distance.
They were surrounded by
the noises of the monstrous altercation between the two armies. The world was
fully interested in other matters. Apparently, the regiment had its small
affair to itself.
The youth, turning,
shot a quick, inquiring glance at his friend. The latter returned to him the
same manner of look. They were the only ones who possessed an inner knowledge.
"Mule drivers--hell t' pay--don't believe many will get back." It was
an ironical secret. Still, they saw no hesitation in each other's faces, and
they nodded a mute and unprotesting assent when a shaggy man near them said in
a meek voice: "We'll git swallowed."
THE youth stared at the
land in front of him. Its foliages now seemed to veil powers and horrors. He
was unaware of the machinery of orders that started the charge, although from
the corners of his eyes he saw an officer, who looked like a boy
a horseback, come galloping, waving his hat. Suddenly he felt a straining
and heaving among the men. The line fell slowly forward like a toppling wall,
and, with a convulsive gasp that was intended for a cheer, the regiment began
its journey. The youth was pushed and jostled for a moment before he understood
the movement at all, but directly he lunged ahead and began to run.
He fixed his eye upon a
distant and prominent clump of trees where he had concluded the enemy were to
be met, and he ran toward it as toward a goal. He had believed throughout that
it was a mere question of getting over an unpleasant matter as quickly as
possible, and he ran desperately, as if pursued for a murder. His face was
drawn hard and tight with the stress of his endeavor. His eyes were fixed in a
lurid glare. And with his soiled and disordered dress, his red and inflamed
features surmounted by the dingy rag with its spot of blood, his wildly swinging
rifle and banging accouterments, he looked to be an insane soldier.
As the regiment swung
from its position out into a cleared space the woods and thickets before it
awakened. Yellow flames leaped toward it from many directions. The forest made
a tremendous objection.
The line lurched
straight for a moment. Then the right wing swung forward; it in turn was
surpassed by the left. Afterward the center careered to the front until the
regiment was a wedge shaped mass, but an instant later the opposition of
the bushes, trees, and uneven places on the ground split the command and
scattered it into detached clusters.
The youth,
light footed, was unconsciously in advance. His eyes still kept note of
the clump of trees. From all places near it the clannish yell of the enemy
could be heard. The little flames of rifles leaped from it. The song of the
bullets was in the air and shells snarled among the treetops. One tumbled
directly into the middle of a hurrying group and exploded in crimson fury.
There was an instant's spectacle of a man, almost over it, throwing up his
hands to shield his eyes.
Other men, punched by
bullets, fell in grotesque agonies. The regiment left a coherent trail of
bodies.
They had passed into a
clearer atmosphere. There was an effect like a revelation in the new appearance
of the landscape. Some men working madly at a battery were plain to them, and
the opposing infantry's lines were defined by the gray walls and fringes of
smoke.
It seemed to the youth
that he saw everything. Each blade of the green grass was bold and clear. He
thought that he was aware of every change in the thin, transparent vapor that
floated idly in sheets. The brown or gray trunks of the trees showed each
roughness of their surfaces. And the men of the regiment, with their starting
eyes and sweating faces, running madly, or falling, as if thrown headlong, to
queer, heaped up corpses--all were comprehended. His mind took a
mechanical but firm impression, so that afterward everything was pictured and
explained to him, save why he himself was there.
But there was a frenzy
made from this furious rush. The men, pitching forward insanely, had burst into
cheerings, moblike and barbaric, but tuned in strange keys that can arouse the
dullard and the stoic. It made a mad enthusiasm that, it seemed, would be
incapable of checking itself before granite and brass. There was the delirium
that encounters despair and death, and is heedless and blind to the odds. It is
a temporary but sublime absence of selfishness. And because it was of this
order was the reason, perhaps, why the youth wondered, afterward, what reasons
he could have had for being there.
Presently the straining
pace ate up the energies of the men. As if by agreement, the leaders began to
slacken their speed. The volleys directed against them had had a seeming
windlike effect. The regiment snorted and blew. Among some stolid trees it began
to falter and hesitate. The men, staring intently, began to wait for some of
the distant walls of smoke to move and disclose to them the scene. Since much
of their strength and their breath had vanished, they returned to caution. They
were become men again.
The youth had a vague
belief that he had run miles, and he thought, in a way, that he was now in some
new and unknown land.
The moment the regiment
ceased its advance the protesting splutter of musketry became a steadied roar.
Long and accurate fringes of smoke spread out. From the top of a small hill
came level belchings of yellow flame that caused an inhuman whistling in the
air.
The men, halted, had
opportunity to see some of their comrades dropping with moans and shrieks. A
few lay under foot, still or wailing. And now for an instant the men stood,
their rifles slack in their hands, and watched the regiment dwindle. They
appeared dazed and stupid. This spectacle seemed to paralyze them, overcome
them with a fatal fascination. They stared woodenly at the sights, and,
lowering their eyes, looked from face to face. It was a strange pause, and a
strange silence.
Then, above the sounds
of the outside commotion, arose the roar of the lieutenant. He strode suddenly
forth, his infantile features black with rage.
"Come on, yeh
fools!" he bellowed. "Come on! Yeh can't stay here. Yeh must come
on." He said more, but much of it could not be understood.
He started rapidly
forward, with his head turned toward the men. "Come on," he was
shouting. The men stared with blank and yokel like eyes at him. He was
obliged to halt and retrace his steps. He stood then with his back to the enemy
and delivered gigantic curses into . the faces of the men. His body vibrated
from the weight and force of his imprecations. And he could string oaths with
the facility of a maiden who strings beads.
The friend of the youth
aroused. Lurching suddenly forward and dropping to his knees, he fired an angry
shot at the persistent woods. This action awakened the men. They huddled no more
like sheep. They seemed suddenly to bethink them of their weapons, and at once
commenced firing. Belabored by their officers, they began to move forward. The
regiment, involved like a cart involved in mud and muddle, started unevenly
with many jolts and jerks. The men stopped now every few paces to fire and
load, and in this manner moved slowly on from trees to trees.
The flaming opposition
in their front grew with their advance until it seemed that all forward ways
were barred by the thin leaping tongues, and off to the right an ominous
demonstration could sometimes be dimly discerned. The smoke lately generated
was in confusing clouds that made it difficult for the regiment to proceed with
intelligence. As he passed through each curling mass the youth wondered what
would confront him on the farther side.
The command went
painfully forward until an open space interposed between them and the lurid
lines. Here, crouching and cowering behind some trees, the men clung with
desperation, as if threatened by a wave. They looked wild eyed, and as if
amazed at this furious disturbance they had stirred. In the storm there was an
ironical expression of their importance. The faces of the men, too, showed a
lack of a certain feeling of responsibility for being there. It was as if they
had been driven. It was the dominant animal failing to remember in the supreme
moments the forceful causes of various superficial qualities. The whole affair
seemed incomprehensible to many of them.
As they halted thus the
lieutenant again began to bellow profanely. Regardless of the vindictive
threats of the bullets, he went about coaxing, berating, and bedamning. His
lips, that were habitually in a soft and childlike curve, were now writhed into
unholy contortions. He swore by all possible deities.
Once he grabbed the
youth by the arm. "Come on, yeh lunkhead!" he roared. "Come on!
We'll all git killed if we stay here. We've on'y got t' go across that lot. An'
then"--the remainder of his idea disappeared in a blue haze of curses.
The youth stretched
forth his arm. "Cross . there?" His mouth was puckered in doubt and
awe.
"Certainly. Jest
'cross th' lot! We can't stay here," screamed the lieutenant. He poked his
face close to the youth and waved his bandaged hand. "Come on!" Presently
he grappled with him as if for a wrestling bout. It was as if he planned to
drag the youth by the ear on to the assault.
The private felt a
sudden unspeakable indignation against his officer. He wrenched fiercely and
shook him off.
"Come on herself,
then," he yelled. There was a bitter challenge in his voice.
They galloped together
down the regimental front. The friend scrambled after them. In front of the
colors the three men began to bawl: "Come on! come on!" They danced
and gyrated like tortured savages.
The flag, obedient to
these appeals, bended its glittering form and swept toward them. The men
wavered in indecision for a moment, and then with a long, wailful cry the
dilapidated regiment surged forward and began its new journey.
Over the field went the
scurrying mass. It was a handful of men splattered into the faces of the enemy.
Toward it instantly sprang the yellow tongues. A vast quantity of blue smoke
hung before them. A mighty banging made ears valueless.
The youth ran like a madman
to reach the woods before a bullet could discover him. He ducked his head low,
like a football player. In his haste his eyes almost closed, and the scene was
a wild blur. Pulsating saliva stood at the corners of his mouth.
Within him, as he
hurled himself forward, was born a love, a despairing fondness for this flag
which was near him. It was a creation of beauty and invulnerability. It was a
goddess, radiant, that bended its form with an imperious gesture to him. It was
a woman, red and white, hating and loving, that called him with the voice of
his hopes. Because no harm could come to it he endowed it with power. He kept
near, as if it could be a saver of lives, and an imploring cry went from his
mind.
In the mad scramble he
was aware that the color sergeant flinched suddenly, as if struck by a
bludgeon. He faltered, and then became motionless, save for his quivering
knees.
He made a spring and a
clutch at the pole. At the same instant his friend grabbed it from the other
side. They jerked at it, stout and furious, but the color sergeant was dead,
and the corpse would not relinquish its trust. For a moment there was a grim
encounter. The dead man, swinging with bended back, seemed to be obstinately
tugging, in ludicrous and awful ways, for the possession of the flag.
It was past in an
instant of time. They wrenched the flag furiously from the dead man, and, as
they turned again, the corpse swayed forward with bowed head. One arm swung
high, and the curved hand fell with heavy protest on the friend's unheeding
shoulder.
WHEN the two youths
turned with the flag they saw that much of the regiment had crumbled away, and
the dejected remnant was coming slowly back. The men, having hurled themselves
in projectile fashion, had presently expended their forces. They slowly
retreated, with their faces still toward the spluttering woods, and their hot
rifles still replying to the din. Several officers were giving orders, their
voices keyed to screams.
"Where in hell yeh
goin'?" the lieutenant was asking in a sarcastic howl. And a
red bearded officer, whose voice of triple brass could plainly be heard,
was commanding: "Shoot into 'em! Shoot into 'em, Gawd damn their
souls!" There was a mele'e of screeches, in which the men were ordered to
do conflicting and impossible things.
The youth and his
friend had a small scuffle over the flag. "Give it t' me!" "No,
let me keep it!" Each felt satisfied with the other's possession of it,
but each felt bound to declare, by an offer to carry the emblem, his
willingness to further risk himself. The youth roughly pushed his friend away.
The regiment fell back
to the stolid trees. There it halted for a moment to blaze at some dark forms
that had begun to steal upon its track. Presently it resumed its march again,
curving among the tree trunks. By the time the depleted regiment had again
reached the first open space they were receiving a fast and merciless fire.
There seemed to be mobs all about them.
The greater part of the
men, discouraged, their spirits worn by the turmoil, acted as if stunned. They
accepted the pelting of the bullets with bowed and weary heads. It was of no
purpose to strive against walls. It was of no use to batter themselves against
granite. And from this consciousness that they had attempted to conquer an
unconquerable thing there seemed to arise a feeling that they had been
betrayed. They glowered with bent brows, but dangerously, upon some of the
officers, more particularly upon the red bearded one with the voice of
triple brass.
However, the rear of
the regiment was fringed with men, who continued to shoot irritably at the
advancing foes. They seemed resolved to make every trouble. The youthful
lieutenant was perhaps the last man in the disordered mass. His forgotten back
was toward the enemy. He had been shot in the arm. It hung straight and rigid.
Occasionally he would cease to remember it, and be about to emphasize an oath
with a sweeping gesture. The multiplied pain caused him to swear with
incredible power.
The youth went along
with slipping, uncertain feet. He kept watchful eyes rearward. A scowl of
mortification and rage was upon his face. He had thought of a fine revenge upon
the officer who had referred to him and his fellows as mule drivers. But he saw
that it could not come to pass. His dreams had collapsed when the mule drivers,
dwindling rapidly, had wavered and hesitated on the little clearing, and then
had recoiled. And now the retreat of the mule drivers was a march of shame to
him.
A dagger pointed
gaze from without his blackened face was held toward the enemy, but his greater
hatred was riveted upon the man, who, not knowing him, had called him a mule
driver.
When he knew that he
and his comrades had failed to do anything in successful ways that might bring
the little pangs of a kind of remorse upon the officer, the youth allowed the
rage of the baffled to possess him. This cold officer upon a monument, who
dropped epithets unconcernedly down, would be finer as a dead man, he thought.
So grievous did he think it that he could never possess the secret right to
taunt truly in answer.
He had pictured red
letters of curious revenge. "We are mule drivers, are we?" And now he
was compelled to throw them away.
He presently wrapped
his heart in the cloak of his pride and kept the flag erect. He harangued his
fellows, pushing against their chests with his free hand. To those he knew well
he made frantic appeals, beseeching them by name. Between him and the
lieutenant, scolding and near to losing his mind with rage, there was felt a
subtle fellowship and equality. They supported each other in all manner of
hoarse, howling protests.
But the regiment was a
machine run down. The two men babbled at a forceless thing. The soldiers who
had heart to go slowly were continually shaken in their resolves by a knowledge
that comrades were slipping with speed back to the lines. It was difficult to
think of reputation when others were thinking of skins. Wounded men were left
crying on this black journey.
The smoke fringes and
flames blustered always. The youth, peering once through a sudden rift in a
cloud, saw a brown mass of troops, interwoven and magnified until they appeared
to be thousands. A fierce hued flag flashed before his vision.
Immediately, as if the
uplifting of the smoke had been prearranged, the discovered troops burst into a
rasping yell, and a hundred flames jetted toward the retreating band. A rolling
gray cloud again interposed as the regiment doggedly replied. The youth had to
depend again upon his misused ears, which were trembling and buzzing from the
mele'e of musketry and yells.
The way seemed eternal.
In the clouded haze men became panicstricken with the thought that the regiment
had lost its path, and was proceeding in a perilous direction. Once the men who
headed the wild procession turned and came pushing back against their comrades,
screaming that they were being fired upon from points which they had considered
to be toward their own lines. At this cry a hysterical fear and dismay beset
the troops. A soldier, who heretofore had been ambitious to make the regiment
into a wise little band that would proceed calmly amid the huge appearing
difficulties, suddenly sank down and buried his face in his arms with an air of
bowing to a doom. From another a shrill lamentation rang out filled with profane
allusions to a general. Men ran hither and thither, seeking with their eyes
roads of escape. With serene regularity, as if controlled by a schedule,
bullets buffed into men.
The youth walked
stolidly into the midst of the mob, and with his flag in his hands took a stand
as if he expected an attempt to push him to the ground. He unconsciously
assumed the attitude of the color bearer in the fight of the preceding day. He
passed over his brow a hand that trembled. His breath did not come freely. He
was choking during this small wait for the crisis.
His friend came to him.
"Well, Henry, I guess this is good by--John."
"Oh, shut up, you
damned fool!" replied the youth, and he would not look at the other.
The officers labored
like politicians to beat the mass into a proper circle to face the menaces. The
ground was uneven and torn. The men curled into depressions and fitted
themselves snugly behind whatever would frustrate a bullet.
The youth noted with
vague surprise that the lieutenant was standing mutely with his legs far apart
and his sword held in the manner of a cane. The youth wondered what had
happened to his vocal organs that he no more cursed.
There was something
curious in this little intent pause of the lieutenant. He was like a babe which,
having wept its fill, raises its eyes and fixes upon a distant toy. He was
engrossed in this contemplation, and the soft under lip quivered from
self whispered words.
Some lazy and ignorant
smoke curled slowly. The men, hiding from the bullets, waited anxiously for it
to lift and disclose the plight of the regiment.
The silent ranks were
suddenly thrilled by the eager voice of the youthful lieutenant bawling out:
"Here they come! Right onto us, b'Gawd!" His further words were lost
in a roar of wicked thunder from the men's rifles.
The youth's eyes had
instantly turned in the direction indicated by the awakened and agitated
lieutenant, and he had seen the haze of treachery disclosing a body of soldiers
of the enemy. They were so near that he could see their features. There was a
recognition as he looked at the types of faces. Also he perceived with dim
amazement that their uniforms were rather gay in effect, being light gray,
accented with a brilliant hued facing. Too, the clothes seemed new.
These troops had
apparently been going forward with caution, their rifles held in readiness,
when the youthful lieutenant had discovered them and their movement had been
interrupted by the volley from the blue regiment. From the moment's glimpse, it
was derived that they had been unaware of the proximity of their
dark suited foes or had mistaken the direction. Almost instantly they were
shut utterly from the youth's sight by the smoke from the energetic rifles of
his companions. He strained his vision to learn the accomplishment of the
volley, but the smoke hung before him.
The two bodies of
troops exchanged blows in the manner of a pair of boxers. The fast angry
firings went back and forth. The men in blue were intent with the despair of
their circumstances and they seized upon the revenge to be had at close range.
Their thunder swelled loud and valiant. Their curving front bristled with
flashes and the place resounded with the clangor of their ramrods. The youth
ducked and dodged for a time and achieved a few unsatisfactory views of the
enemy. There appeared to be many of them and they were replying swiftly. They
seemed moving toward the blue regiment, step by step. He seated himself
gloomily on the ground with his flag between his knees.
As he noted the vicious,
wolflike temper of his comrades he had a sweet thought that if the enemy was
about to swallow the regimental broom as a large prisoner, it could at least
have the consolation of going down with bristles forward.
But the blows of the
antagonist began to grow more weak. Fewer bullets ripped the air, and finally,
when the men slackened to learn of the fight, they could see only dark,
floating smoke. The regiment lay still and gazed. Presently some chance whim
came to the pestering blur, and it began to coil heavily away. The men saw a
ground vacant of fighters. It would have been an empty stage if it were not for
a few corpses that lay thrown and twisted into fantastic shapes upon the sward.
At sight of this
tableau, many of the men in blue sprang from behind their covers and made an
ungainly dance of joy. Their eyes burned and a hoarse cheer of elation broke
from their dry lips.
It had begun to seem to
them that events were trying to prove that they were impotent. These little
battles had evidently endeavored to demonstrate that the men could not fight
well. When on the verge of submission to these opinions, the small duel had
showed them that the proportions were not impossible, and by it they had
revenged themselves upon their misgivings and upon the foe.
The impetus of
enthusiasm was theirs again. They gazed about them with looks of uplifted
pride, feeling new trust in the grim, always confident weapons in their hands.
And they were men.
PRESENTLY they knew
that no firing threatened them. All ways seemed once more opened to them. The
dusty blue lines of their friends were disclosed a short distance away. In the
distance there were many colossal noises, but in all this part of the field there
was a sudden stillness.
They perceived that
they were free. The depleted band drew a long breath of relief and gathered
itself into a bunch to complete its trip.
In this last length of
journey the men began to show strange emotions. They hurried with nervous fear.
Some who had been dark and unfaltering in the grimmest moments now could not
conceal an anxiety that made them frantic. It was perhaps that they dreaded to
be killed in insignificant ways after the times for proper military deaths had
passed. Or, perhaps, they thought it would be too ironical to get killed at the
portals of safety. With backward looks of perturbation, they hastened.
As they approached
their own lines there was some sarcasm exhibited on the part of a gaunt and
bronzed regiment that lay resting in the shade of trees. Questions were wafted
to them.
"Where th' hell
yeh been?"
"What yeh comin'
back fer?"
"Why didn't yeh
stay there?"
"Was it warm out
there, sonny?"
"Goin' home now,
boys?"
One shouted in taunting
mimicry: "Oh, mother, come quick an' look at th' sojers!"
There was no reply from
the bruised and battered regiment, save that one man made broadcast challenges
to fist fights and the red bearded officer walked rather near and glared
in great swashbuckler style at a tall captain in the other regiment. But the
lieutenant suppressed the man who wished to fist fight, and the tall captain,
flushing at the little fanfare of the red bearded one, was obliged to look
intently at some trees.
The youth's tender
flesh was deeply stung by these remarks. From under his creased brows he
glowered with hate at the mockers. He meditated upon a few revenges. Still,
many in the regiment hung their heads in criminal fashion, so that it came to
pass that the men trudged with sudden heaviness, as if they bore upon their
bended shoulders the coffin of their honor. And the youthful lieutenant,
recollecting himself, began to mutter softly in black curses.
They turned when they
arrived at their old position to regard the ground over which they had charged.
The youth in this
contemplation was smitten with a large astonishment. He discovered that the
distances, as compared with the brilliant measurings of his mind, were trivial
and ridiculous. The stolid trees, where much had taken place, seemed incredibly
near. The time, too, now that he reflected, he saw to have been short. He
wondered at the number of emotions and events that had been crowded into such
little spaces. Elfin thoughts must have exaggerated and enlarged everything, he
said.
It seemed, then, that
there was bitter justice in the speeches of the gaunt and bronzed veterans. He
veiled a glance of disdain at his fellows who strewed the ground, choking with
dust, red from perspiration, misty eyed, disheveled.
They were gulping at
their canteens, fierce to wring every mite of water from them, and they
polished at their swollen and watery features with coat sleeves and bunches of
grass.
However, to the youth
there was a considerable joy in musing upon his performances during the charge.
He had had very little time previously in which to appreciate himself, so that
there was now much satisfaction in quietly thinking of his actions. He recalled
bits of color that in the flurry had stamped themselves unawares upon his
engaged senses.
As the regiment lay
heaving from its hot exertions the officer who had named them as mule drivers
came galloping along the line. He had lost his cap. His tousled hair streamed
wildly, and his face was dark with vexation and wrath. His temper was displayed
with more clearness by the way in which he managed his horse. He jerked and
wrenched savagely at his bridle, stopping the hard breathing animal with a
furious pull near the colonel of the regiment. He immediately exploded in
reproaches which came unbidden to the ears of the men. They were suddenly
alert, being always curious about black words between officers.
"Oh, thunder,
MacChesnay, what an awful bull you made of this thing!" began the officer.
He attempted low tones, but his indignation caused certain of the men to learn
the sense of his words. "What an awful mess you made! Good Lord, man, you
stopped about a hundred feet this side of a very pretty success! If your men
had gone a hundred feet farther you would have made a great charge, but as it
is --what a lot of mud diggers you've got anyway!"
The men, listening with
bated breath, now turned their curious eyes upon the colonel. They had a
ragamuffin interest in this affair.
The colonel was seen to
straighten his form and put one hand forth in oratorical fashion. He wore an
injured air; it was as if a deacon had been accused of stealing. The men were
wiggling in an ecstasy of excitement.
But of a sudden the
colonel's manner changed from that of a deacon to that of a Frenchman. He
shrugged his shoulders. "Oh, well, general, we went as far as we
could," he said calmly.
"As far as you
could? Did you, b'Gawd?" snorted the other. "Well, that wasn't very
far, was it?" he added, with a glance of cold contempt into the other's
eyes. "Not very far, I think. You were intended to make a diversion in
favor of Whiterside. How well you succeeded your own ears can now tell
you." He wheeled his horse and rode stiffly away.
The colonel, bidden to
hear the jarring noises of an engagement in the woods to the left, broke out in
vague damnations.
The lieutenant, who had
listened with an air of impotent rage to the interview, spoke suddenly in firm
and undaunted tones. "I don't care what a man is--whether he is a general
or what--if he says th' boys didn't put up a good fight out there he's a damned
fool."
"Lieutenant,"
began the colonel, severely, "this is my own affair, and I'll trouble
you--"
The lieutenant made an
obedient gesture. "All right, colonel, all right," he said. He sat
down with an air of being content with himself.
The news that the
regiment had been reproached went along the line. For a time the men were
bewildered by it. "Good thunder!" they ejaculated, staring at the
vanishing form of the general. They conceived it to be a huge mistake.
Presently, however,
they began to believe that in truth their efforts had been called light. The
youth could see this conviction weigh upon the entire regiment until the men
were like cuffed and cursed animals, but withal rebellious.
The friend, with a
grievance in his eye, went to the youth. "I wonder what he does
want," he said. "He must think we went out there an' played marbles!
I never see sech a man!"
The youth developed a
tranquil philosophy for these moments of irritation. "Oh, well," he
rejoined, "he probably didn't see nothing of it at all and got mad as
blazes, and concluded we were a lot of sheep, just because we didn't do what he
wanted done. It's a pity old Grandpa Henderson got killed yestirday--he'd have
known that we did our best and fought good. It's just our awful luck, that's
what."
"I should say
so," replied the friend. He seemed to be deeply wounded at an injustice.
"I should say we did have awful luck! There's no fun in fightin' fer
people when everything yeh do--no matter what--ain't done right. I have a
notion t' stay behind next time an' let 'em take their ol' charge an' go t' th'
devil with it."
The youth spoke soothingly
to his comrade. "Well, we both did good. I'd like to see the fool what'd
say we both didn't do as good as we could!"
"Of course we
did," declared the friend stoutly. "An' I'd break th' feller's neck
if he was as big as a church. But we're all right, anyhow, for I heard one
feller say that we two fit th' best in th' reg'ment, an' they had a great
argument 'bout it. Another feller, 'a course, he had t' up an' say it was a
lie--he seen all what was goin' on an' he never seen us from th' beginnin' t'
th' end. An' a lot more struck in an' ses it wasn't a lie--we did fight like
thunder, an' they give us quite a send off. But this is what I can't
stand--these everlastin' ol' soldiers, titterin' an' laughin', an' then that
general, he's crazy."
The youth exclaimed
with sudden exasperation: "He's a lunkhead! He makes me mad. I wish he'd
come along next time. We'd show 'im what--"
He ceased because
several men had come hurrying up. Their faces expressed a bringing of great
news.
"O Flem, yeh jest
oughta heard!" cried one, eagerly.
"Heard what?"
said the youth.
"Yeh jest oughta
heard!" repeated the other, and he arranged himself to tell his tidings.
The others made an excited circle. "Well, sir, th' colonel met your
lieutenant right by us--it was damnedest thing I ever heard--an' he ses: 'Ahem!
ahem!' he ses. 'Mr. Hasbrouck!' he ses, 'by th' way, who was that lad what
carried th' flag?' he ses. There, Flemin', what d' yeh think 'a that? 'Who was
th' lad what carried th' flag?' he ses, an' th' lieutenant, he speaks up right
away: 'That's Flemin', an' he's a jimhickey,' he ses, right away. What? I say
he did. 'A jimhickey,' he ses--those 'r his words. He did, too. I say he did.
If you kin tell this story better than I kin, go ahead an' tell it. Well, then,
keep yer mouth shet. Th' lieutenant, he ses: 'He's a jimhickey,' an' th'
colonel, he ses: 'Ahem! ahem! he is, indeed, a very good man t' have, ahem! He
kep' th' flag 'way t' th' front. I saw 'im. He's a good un,' ses th' colonel.
'You bet,' ses th' lieutenant, 'he an' a feller named Wilson was at th' head 'a
th' charge, an' howlin' like Indians all th' time,' he ses. 'Head 'a th' charge
all th' time,' he ses. 'A feller named Wilson,' he ses. There, Wilson, m'boy,
put that in a letter an' send it hum t' yer mother, hay? 'A feller named
Wilson,' he ses. An' th' colonel, he ses: 'Were they, indeed? Ahem! ahem! My
sakes!' he ses. 'At th' head 'a th' reg'ment?' he ses. 'They were,' ses th'
lieutenant. 'My sakes!' ses th' colonel. He ses: 'Well, well, well,' he ses,
'those two babies?' 'They were,' ses th' lieutenant. 'Well, well,' ses th'
colonel, 'they deserve t' be major generals,' he ses. 'They deserve t' be
major generals.'
The youth and his
friend had said: "Huh!" "Yer lyin', Thompson." "Oh, go
t' blazes!" "He never sed it." "Oh, what a lie!"
"Huh!" But despite these youthful scoffings and embarrassments, they
knew that their faces were deeply flushing from thrills of pleasure. They
exchanged a secret glance of joy and congratulation.
They speedily forgot
many things. The past held no pictures of error and disappointment. They were
very happy, and their hearts swelled with grateful affection for the colonel
and the youthful lieutenant.
WHEN the woods again
began to pour forth the dark hued masses of the enemy the youth felt
serene self confidence. He smiled briefly when he saw men dodge and duck
at the long screechings of shells that were thrown in giant handfuls over them.
He stood, erect and tranquil, watching the attack begin against a part of the
line that made a blue curve along the side of an adjacent hill. His vision
being unmolested by smoke from the rifles of his companions, he had
opportunities to see parts of the hard fight. It was a relief to perceive at
last from whence came some of these noises which had been roared into his ears.
Off a short way he saw
two regiments fighting a little separate battle with two other regiments. It
was in a cleared space, wearing a set apart look. They were blazing as if
upon a wager, giving and taking tremendous blows. The firings were incredibly
fierce and rapid. These intent regiments apparently were oblivious of all
larger purposes of war, and were slugging each other as if at a matched game.
In another direction he
saw a magnificent brigade going with the evident intention of driving the enemy
from a wood. They passed in out of sight and presently there was a most
awe inspiring racket in the wood. The noise was unspeakable. Having
stirred this prodigious uproar, and, apparently, finding it too prodigious, the
brigade, after a little time, came marching airily out again with its fine
formation in nowise disturbed. There were no traces of speed in its movements.
The brigade was jaunty and seemed to point a proud thumb at the yelling wood.
On a slope to the left
there was a long row of guns, gruff and maddened, denouncing the enemy, who,
down through the woods, were forming for another attack in the pitiless
monotony of conflicts. The round red discharges from the guns made a crimson
flare and a high, thick smoke. Occasional glimpses could be caught of groups of
the toiling artillerymen. In the rear of this row of guns stood a house, calm
and white, amid bursting shells. A congregation of horses, tied to a long
railing, were tugging frenziedly at their bridles. Men were running hither and
thither.
The detached battle
between the four regiments lasted for some time. There chanced to be no
interference, and they settled their dispute by themselves. They struck
savagely and powerfully at each other for a period of minutes, and then the
lighter hued regiments faltered and drew back, leaving the dark blue
lines shouting. The youth could see the two flags shaking with laughter amid
the smoke remnants.
Presently there was a
stillness, pregnant with meaning. The blue lines shifted and changed a trifle
and stared expectantly at the silent woods and fields before them. The hush was
solemn and churchlike, save for a distant battery that, evidently unable to
remain quiet, sent a faint rolling thunder over the ground. It irritated, like
the noises of unimpressed boys. The men imagined that it would prevent their
perched ears from hearing the first words of the new battle.
Of a sudden the guns on
the slope roared out a message of warning. A spluttering sound had begun in the
woods. It swelled with amazing speed to a profound clamor that involved the
earth in noises. The splitting crashes swept along the lines until an
interminable roar was developed. To those in the midst of it it became a din
fitted to the universe. It was the whirring and thumping of gigantic machinery,
complications among the smaller stars. The youth's ears were filled up. They
were incapable of hearing more.
On an incline over
which a road wound he saw wild and desperate rushes of men perpetually backward
and forward in riotous surges. These parts of the opposing armies were two long
waves that pitched upon each other madly at dictated points. To and fro they
swelled. Sometimes, one side by its yells and cheers would proclaim decisive blows,
but a moment later the other side would be all yells and cheers. Once the youth
saw a spray of light forms go in houndlike leaps toward the waving blue lines.
There was much howling, and presently it went away with a vast mouthful of
prisoners. Again, he saw a blue wave dash with such thunderous force against a
gray obstruction that it seemed to clear the earth of it and leave nothing but
trampled sod. And always in their swift and deadly rushes to and fro the men
screamed and yelled like maniacs.
Particular pieces of
fence or secure positions behind collections of trees were wrangled over, as
gold thrones or pearl bedsteads. There were desperate lunges at these chosen
spots seemingly every instant, and most of them were bandied like light toys between
the contending forces. The youth could not tell from the battle flags flying
like crimson foam in many directions which color of cloth was winning.
His emaciated regiment
bustled forth with undiminished fierceness when its time came. When assaulted again
by bullets, the men burst out in a barbaric cry of rage and pain. They bent
their heads in aims of intent hatred behind the projected hammers of their
guns. Their ramrods clanged loud with fury as their eager arms pounded the
cartridges into the rifle barrels. The front of the regiment was a smokewall
penetrated by the flashing points of yellow and red.
Wallowing in the fight,
they were in an astonishingly short time resmudged. They surpassed in stain and
dirt all their previous appearances. Moving to and fro with strained exertion,
jabbering the while, they were, with their swaying bodies, black faces, and
glowing eyes, like strange and ugly friends jigging heavily in the smoke.
The lieutenant,
returning from a tour after a bandage, produced from a hidden receptacle of his
mind new and portentous oaths suited to the emergency. Strings of expletives he
swung lashlike over the backs of his men, and it was evident that his previous
efforts had in nowise impaired his resources.
The youth, still the
bearer of the colors, did not feel his idleness. He was deeply absorbed as a
spectator. The crash and swing of the great drama made him lean forward,
intent eyed, his face working in small contortions. Sometimes he prattled,
words coming unconsciously from him in grotesque exclamations. He did not know
that he breathed; that the flag hung silently over him, so absorbed was he.
A formidable line of
the enemy came within dangerous range. They could be seen plainly-- tall, gaunt
men with excited faces running with long strides toward a wandering fence.
At sight of this danger
the men suddenly ceased their cursing monotone. There was an instant of
strained silence before they threw up their rifles and fired a plumping volley
at the foes. There had been no order given; the men, upon recognizing the
menace, had immediately let drive their flock of bullets without waiting for
word of command.
But the enemy were
quick to gain the protection of the wandering line of fence. They slid down
behind it with remarkable celerity, and from this position they began briskly
to slice up the blue men.
These latter braced
their energies for a great struggle. Often, white clinched teeth shone from the
dusky faces. Many heads surged to and fro, floating upon a pale sea of smoke.
Those behind the fence frequently shouted and yelped in taunts and gibelike
cries, but the regiment maintained a stressed silence. Perhaps, at this new
assault the men recalled the fact that they had been named mud diggers, and it
made their situation thrice bitter. They were breathlessly intent upon keeping
the ground and thrusting away the rejoicing body of the enemy. They fought
swiftly and with a despairing savageness denoted in their expressions.
The youth had resolved
not to budge whatever should happen. Some arrows of scorn that had buried
themselves in his heart had generated strange and unspeakable hatred. It was
clear to him that his final and absolute revenge was to be achieved by his dead
body lying, torn and gluttering, upon the field. This was to be a poignant
retaliation upon the officer who had said "mule drivers," and later
"mud diggers," for in all the wild graspings of his mind for a unit
responsible for his sufferings and commotions he always seized upon the man who
had dubbed him wrongly. And it was his idea, vaguely formulated, that his
corpse would be for those eyes a great and salt reproach.
The regiment bled
extravagantly. Grunting bundles of blue began to drop. The orderly sergeant of
the youth's company was shot through the cheeks. Its supports being injured,
his jaw hung afar down, disclosing in the wide cavern of his mouth a pulsing
mass of blood and teeth. And with it all he made attempts to cry out. In his
endeavor there was a dreadful earnestness, as if he conceived that one great
shriek would make him well.
The youth saw him
presently go rearward. His strength seemed in nowise impaired. He ran swiftly,
casting wild glances for succor.
Others fell down about
the feet of their companions. Some of the wounded crawled out and away, but
many lay still, their bodies twisted into impossible shapes.
The youth looked once
for his friend. He saw a vehement young man, powder smeared and frowzled,
whom he knew to be him. The lieutenant, also, was unscathed in his position at
the rear. He had continued to curse, but it was now with the air of a man who
was using his last box of oaths.
For the fire of the
regiment had begun to wane and drip. The robust voice, that had come strangely
from the thin ranks, was growing rapidly weak.
THE colonel came
running along back of the line. There were other officers following him.
"We must charge'm!" they shouted. "We must charge'm!" they
cried with resentful voices, as if anticipating a rebellion against this plan
by the men.
The youth, upon hearing
the shouts, began to study the distance between him and the enemy. He made
vague calculations. He saw that to be firm soldiers they must go forward. It
would be death to stay in the present place, and with all the circumstances to
go backward would exalt too many others. Their hope was to push the galling
foes away from the fence.
He expected that his
companions, weary and stiffened, would have to be driven to this assault, but
as he turned toward them he perceived with a certain surprise that they were
giving quick and unqualified expressions of assent. There was an ominous,
clanging overture to the charge when the shafts of the bayonets rattled upon
the rifle barrels. At the yelled words of command the soldiers sprang forward
in eager leaps. There was new and unexpected force in the movement of the
regiment. A knowledge of its faded and jaded condition made the charge appear
like a paroxysm, a display of the strength that comes before a final
feebleness. The men scampered in insane fever of haste, racing as if to achieve
a sudden success before an exhilarating fluid should leave them. It was a blind
and despairing rush by the collection of men in dusty and tattered blue, over a
green sward and under a sapphire sky, toward a fence, dimly outlined in smoke,
from behind which spluttered the fierce rifles of enemies.
The youth kept the
bright colors to the front. He was waving his free arm in furious circles, the
while shrieking mad calls and appeals, urging on those that did not need to be
urged, for it seemed that the mob of blue men hurling themselves on the
dangerous group of rifles were again grown suddenly wild with an enthusiasm of
unselfishness. From the many firings starting toward them, it looked as if they
would merely succeed in making a great sprinkling of corpses on the grass
between their former position and the fence. But they were in a state of
frenzy, perhaps because of forgotten vanities, and it made an exhibition of
sublime recklessness. There was no obvious questioning, nor figurings, nor
diagrams. There was, apparently, no considered loopholes. It appeared that the
swift wings of their desires would have shattered against the iron gates of the
impossible.
He himself felt the
daring spirit of a savage religion mad. He was capable of profound sacrifices,
a tremendous death. He had no time for dissections, but he knew that he thought
of the bullets only as things that could prevent him from reaching the place of
his endeavor. There were subtle flashings of joy within him that thus should be
his mind.
He strained all his
strength. His eyesight was shaken and dazzled by the tension of thought and
muscle. He did not see anything excepting the mist of smoke gashed by the
little knives of fire, but he knew that in it lay the aged fence of a vanished
farmer protecting the snuggled bodies of the gray men.
As he ran a thought of
the shock of contact gleamed in his mind. He expected a great concussion when the
two bodies of troops crashed together. This became a part of his wild battle
madness. He could feel the onward swing of the regiment about him and he
conceived of a thunderous, crushing blow that would prostrate the resistance
and spread consternation and amazement for miles. The flying regiment was going
to have a catapultian effect. This dream made him run faster among his
comrades, who were giving vent to hoarse and frantic cheers.
But presently he could
see that many of the men in gray did not intend to abide the blow. The smoke,
rolling, disclosed men who ran, their faces still turned. These grew to a
crowd, who retired stubbornly. Individuals wheeled frequently to send a bullet
at the blue wave.
But at one part of the
line there was a grim and obdurate group that made no movement. They were
settled firmly down behind posts and rails. A flag, ruffled and fierce, waved
over them and their rifles dinned fiercely.
The blue whirl of men
got very near, until it seemed that in truth there would be a close and
frightful scuffle. There was an expressed disdain in the opposition of the
little group, that changed the meaning of the cheers of the men in blue. They
became yells of wrath, directed, personal. The cries of the two parties were
now in sound an interchange of scathing insults.
They in blue showed
their teeth; their eyes shone all white. They launched themselves as at the
throats of those who stood resisting. The space between dwindled to an
insignificant distance.
The youth had centered
the gaze of his soul upon that other flag. Its possession would be high pride.
It would express bloody minglings, near blows. He had a gigantic hatred for
those who made great difficulties and complications. They caused it to be as a
craved treasure of mythology, hung amid tasks and contrivances of danger.
He plunged like a mad
horse at it. He was resolved it should not escape if wild blows and darings of
blows could seize it. His own emblem, quivering and aflare, was winging toward
the other. It seemed there would shortly be an encounter of strange beaks and
claws, as of eagles.
The swirling body of
blue men came to a sudden halt at close and disastrous range and roared a swift
volley. The group in gray was split and broken by this fire, but its riddled
body still fought. The men in blue yelled again and rushed in upon it.
The youth, in his
leapings, saw, as through a mist, a picture of four or five men stretched upon
the ground or writhing upon their knees with bowed heads as if they had been
stricken by bolts from the sky. Tottering among them was the rival color
bearer, whom the youth saw had been bitten vitally by the bullets of the last
formidable volley. He perceived this man fighting a last struggle, the struggle
of one whose legs are grasped by demons. It was a ghastly battle. Over his face
was the bleach of death, but set upon it was the dark and hard lines of
desperate purpose. With this terrible grin of resolution he hugged his precious
flag to him and was stumbling and staggering in his design to go the way that
led to safety for it.
But his wounds always
made it seem that his feet were retarded, held, and he fought a grim fight, as
with invisible ghouls fastened greedily upon his limbs. Those in advance of the
scampering blue men, howling cheers, leaped at the fence. The despair of the
lost was in his eyes as he glanced back at them.
The youth's friend went
over the obstruction in a tumbling heap and sprang at the flag as a panther at
prey. He pulled at it and, wrenching it free, swung up its red brilliancy with
a mad cry of exultation even as the color bearer, gasping, lurched over in a
final throe and, stiffening convulsively, turned his dead face to the ground.
There was much blood upon the grass blades.
At the place of success
there began more wild clamorings of cheers. The men gesticulated and bellowed
in an ecstasy. When they spoke it was as if they considered their listener to
be a mile away. What hats and caps were left to them they often slung high in
the air.
At one part of the line
four men had been swooped upon, and they now sat as prisoners. Some blue men
were about them in an eager and curious circle. The soldiers had trapped
strange birds, and there was an examination. A flurry of fast questions was in
the air.
One of the prisoners
was nursing a superficial wound in the foot. He cuddled it, baby wise, but
he looked up from it often to curse with an astonishing utter abandon straight
at the noses of his captors. He consigned them to red regions; he called upon
the pestilential wrath of strange gods. And with it all he was singularly free
from recognition of the finer points of the conduct of prisoners of war. It was
as if a clumsy clod had trod upon his toe and he conceived it to be his
privilege, his duty, to use deep, resentful oaths.
Another, who was a boy
in years, took his plight with great calmness and apparent good nature. He
conversed with the men in blue, studying their faces with his bright and keen
eyes. They spoke of battles and conditions. There was an acute interest in all
their faces during this exchange of view points. It seemed a great satisfaction
to hear voices from where all had been darkness and speculation.
The third captive sat
with a morose countenance. He preserved a stoical and cold attitude. To all
advances he made one reply without variation, "Ah, go t' hell!"
The last of the four
was always silent and, for the most part, kept his face turned in unmolested
directions. From the views the youth received he seemed to be in a state of
absolute dejection. Shame was upon him, and with it profound regret that he
was, perhaps, no more to be counted in the ranks of his fellows. The youth
could detect no expression that would allow him to believe that the other was
giving a thought to his narrowed future, the pictured dungeons, perhaps, and
starvations and brutalities, liable to the imagination. All to be seen was
shame for captivity and regret for the right to antagonize.
After the men had
celebrated sufficiently they settled down behind the old rail fence, on the
opposite side to the one from which their foes had been driven. A few shot
perfunctorily at distant marks.
There was some long
grass. The youth nestled in it and rested, making a convenient rail support the
flag. His friend, jubilant and glorified, holding his treasure with vanity,
came to him there. They sat side by side and congratulated each other.
THE roarings that had
stretched in a long line of sound across the face of the forest began to grow
intermittent and weaker. The stentorian speeches of the artillery continued in
some distant encounter, but the crashes of the musketry had almost ceased. The
youth and his friend of a sudden looked up, feeling a deadened form of distress
at the waning of these noises, which had become a part of life. They could see
changes going on among the troops. There were marchings this way and that way.
A battery wheeled leisurely. On the crest of a small hill was the thick gleam
of many departing muskets.
The youth arose.
"Well, what now, I wonder?" he said. By his tone he seemed to be
preparing to resent some new monstrosity in the way of dins and smashes. He
shaded his eyes with his grimy hand and gazed over the field.
His friend also arose
and stared. "I bet we're goin' t' git along out of this an' back over th'
river," said he.
"Well, I
swan!" said the youth.
They waited, watching.
Within a little while the regiment received orders to retrace its way. The men
got up grunting from the grass, regretting the soft repose. They jerked their
stiffened legs, and stretched their arms over their heads. One man swore as he
rubbed his eyes. They all groaned "O Lord!" They had as many
objections to this change as they would have had to a proposal for a new
battle.
They trampled slowly
back over the field across which they had run in a mad scamper.
The regiment marched
until it had joined its fellows. The reformed brigade, in column, aimed through
a wood at the road. Directly they were in a mass of dust covered troops,
and were trudging along in a way parallel to the enemy's lines as these had
been defined by the previous turmoil.
They passed within view
of a stolid white house, and saw in front of it groups of their comrades lying
in wait behind a neat breastwork. A row of guns were booming at a distant
enemy. Shells thrown in reply were raising clouds of dust and splinters.
Horsemen dashed along the line of intrenchments.
At this point of its
march the division curved away from the field and went winding off in the
direction of the river. When the significance of this movement had impressed
itself upon the youth he turned his head and looked over his shoulder toward
the trampled and de'bris strewed ground. He breathed a breath of new
satisfaction. He finally nudged his friend. "Well, it's all over," he
said to him.
His friend gazed
backward. "B'Gawd, it is," he assented. They mused.
For a time the youth
was obliged to reflect in a puzzled and uncertain way. His mind was undergoing
a subtle change. It took moments for it to cast off its battleful ways and
resume its accustomed course of thought. Gradually his brain emerged from the
clogged clouds, and at last he was enabled to more closely comprehend himself
and circumstance.
He understood then that
the existence of shot and counter shot was in the past. He had dwelt in a
land of strange, squalling upheavals and had come forth. He had been where
there was red of blood and black of passion, and he was escaped. His first
thoughts were given to rejoicings at this fact.
Later he began to study
his deeds, his failures, and his achievements. Thus, fresh from scenes where
many of his usual machines of reflection had been idle, from where he had
proceeded sheeplike, he struggled to marshal all his acts.
At last they marched
before him clearly. From this present view point he was enabled to look upon
them in spectator fashion and to criticise them with some correctness, for his
new condition had already defeated certain sympathies.
Regarding his
procession of memory he felt gleeful and unregretting, for in it his public
deeds were paraded in great and shining prominence. Those performances which
had been witnessed by his fellows marched now in wide purple and gold, having
various deflections. They went gayly with music. It was pleasure to watch these
things. He spent delightful minutes viewing the gilded images of memory.
He saw that he was
good. He recalled with a thrill of joy the respectful comments of his fellows
upon his conduct.
Nevertheless, the ghost
of his flight from the first engagement appeared to him and danced. There were
small shoutings in his brain about these matters. For a moment he blushed, and
the light of his soul flickered with shame.
A specter of reproach
came to him. There loomed the dogging memory of the tattered soldier--he who,
gored by bullets and faint for blood, had fretted concerning an imagined wound
in another; he who had loaned his last of strength and intellect for the tall
soldier; he who, blind with weariness and pain, had been deserted in the field.
For an instant a
wretched chill of sweat was upon him at the thought that he might be detected
in the thing. As he stood persistently before his vision, he gave vent to a cry
of sharp irritation and agony.
His friend turned.
"What's the matter, Henry?" he demanded. The youth's reply was an
outburst of crimson oaths.
As he marched along the
little branch hung roadway among his prattling companions this vision of
cruelty brooded over him. It clung near him always and darkened his view of
these deeds in purple and gold. Whichever way his thoughts turned they were
followed by the somber phantom of the desertion in the fields. He looked
stealthily at his companions, feeling sure that they must discern in his face
evidences of this pursuit. But they were plodding in ragged array, discussing
with quick tongues the accomplishments of the late battle.
"Oh, if a man
should come up an' ask me, I'd say we got a dum good lickin'."
"Lickin'--in yer
eye! We ain't licked, sonny. We're goin' down here aways, swing aroun', an'
come in behint 'em."
"Oh, hush, with
your comin' in behint 'em. I've seen all 'a that I wanta. Don't tell me about
comin' in behint--"
"Bill Smithers, he
ses he'd rather been in ten hundred battles than been in that heluva hospital.
He ses they got shootin' in th' nighttime, an' shells dropped plum among 'em in
th' hospital. He ses sech hollerin' he never see."
"Hasbrouck? He's
th' best off'cer in this here reg'ment. He's a whale."
"Didn't I tell yeh
we'd come aroun' in behint 'em? Didn't I tell yeh so? We--"
"Oh, shet yeh
mouth!"
For a time this
pursuing recollection of the tattered man took all elation from the youth's
veins. He saw his vivid error, and he was afraid that it would stand before him
all his life. He took no share in the chatter of his comrades, nor did he look
at them or know them, save when he felt sudden suspicion that they were seeing
his thoughts and scrutinizing each detail of the scene with the tattered soldier.
Yet gradually he
mustered force to put the sin at a distance. And at last his eyes seemed to
open to some new ways. He found that he could look back upon the brass and
bombast of his earlier gospels and see them truly. He was gleeful when he
discovered that he now despised them.
With this conviction
came a store of assurance. He felt a quiet manhood, nonassertive but of sturdy
and strong blood. He knew that he would no more quail before his guides
wherever they should point. He had been to touch the great death, and found
that, after all, it was but the great death. He was a man.
So it came to pass that
as he trudged from the place of blood and wrath his soul changed. He came from
hot plowshares to prospects of clover tranquilly, and it was as if hot plowshares
were not. Scars faded as flowers.
It rained. The
procession of weary soldiers became a bedraggled train, despondent and
muttering, marching with churning effort in a trough of liquid brown mud under
a low, wretched sky. Yet the youth smiled, for he saw that the world was a
world for him, though many discovered it to be made of oaths and walking
sticks. He had rid himself of the red sickness of battle. The sultry nightmare
was in the past. He had been an animal blistered and sweating in the heat and
pain of war. He turned now with a lover's thirst to images of tranquil skies,
fresh meadows, cool brooks--an existence of soft and eternal peace.
Over the river a golden
ray of sun came through the hosts of leaden rain clouds.
THE END.