SONNETS FROM THE PORTUGUESE BY ELIZABETH BARRETT BROWNING New York DUFFIELD & COMPANY 1909 Copyright, 1909, by DUFFIELD & COMPANY I

 

            I thought once how Theocritus had sung

            Of the sweet years, the dear and wished-for years,

            Who each one in a gracious hand appears

            To bear a gift for mortals, old or young:

            And, as I mused it in his antique tongue,

            I saw, in gradual vision through my tears,

            The sweet, sad years, the melancholy years,

            Those of my own life, who by turns had flung

            A shadow across me. Straightway I was ’ware,

            So weeping, how a mystic Shape did move

            Behind me, and drew me backward by the hair;

            And a voice said in mastery, while I strove,--

            "Guess now who holds thee!"--"Death," I said, But, there,

            The silver answer rang, "Not Death, but Love."

II

 

            But only three in all God’s universe

            Have heard this word thou hast said,--Himself, beside

            Thee speaking, and me listening! and replied

            One of us . . . that was God, . . . and laid the curse

            So darkly on my eyelids, as to amerce

            My sight from seeing thee,--that if I had died,

            The death-weights, placed there, would have signified

            Less absolute exclusion. "Nay" is worse

            From God than from all others, O my friend!

            Men could not part us with their worldly jars,

            Nor the seas change us, nor the tempests bend;

            Our hands would touch for all the mountain-bars:

            And, heaven being rolled between us at the end,

            We should but vow the faster for the stars.

III

 

            Unlike are we, unlike, O princely Heart!

            Unlike our uses and our destinies.

            Our ministering two angels look surprise

            On one another, as they strike athwart

            Their wings in passing. Thou, bethink thee, art

            A guest for queens to social pageantries,

            With gages from a hundred brighter eyes

            Than tears even can make mine, to play thy part

            Of chief musician. What hast thou to do

            With looking from the lattice-lights at me,

            A poor, tired, wandering singer, singing through

            The dark, and leaning up a cypress tree?

            The chrism is on thine head,--on mine, the dew,--

            And Death must dig the level where these agree.

IV

 

            Thou hast thy calling to some palace-floor,

            Most gracious singer of high poems! where

            The dancers will break footing, from the care

            Of watching up thy pregnant lips for more.

            And dost thou lift this house’s latch too poor

            For hand of thine? and canst thou think and bear

            To let thy music drop here unaware

            In folds of golden fulness at my door?

            Look up and see the casement broken in,

            The bats and owlets builders in the roof!

            My cricket chirps against thy mandolin.

            Hush, call no echo up in further proof

            Of desolation! there’s a voice within

            That weeps . . . as thou must sing . . . alone, aloof.

V

 

            I lift my heavy heart up solemnly,

            As once Electra her sepulchral urn,

            And, looking in thine eyes, I over-turn

            The ashes at thy feet. Behold and see

            What a great heap of grief lay hid in me,

            And how the red wild sparkles dimly burn

            Through the ashen greyness. If thy foot in scorn

            Could tread them out to darkness utterly,

            It might be well perhaps. But if instead

            Thou wait beside me for the wind to blow

            The grey dust up, . . . those laurels on thine head,

            O my Beloved, will not shield thee so,

            That none of all the fires shall scorch and shred

            The hair beneath. Stand further off then! go!

VI

 

            Go from me. Yet I feel that I shall stand

            Henceforward in thy shadow. Nevermore

            Alone upon the threshold of my door

            Of individual life, I shall command

            The uses of my soul, nor lift my hand

            Serenely in the sunshine as before,

            Without the sense of that which I forbore--

            Thy touch upon the palm. The widest land

            Doom takes to part us, leaves thy heart in mine

            With pulses that beat double. What I do

            And what I dream include thee, as the wine

            Must taste of its own grapes. And when I sue

            God for myself, He hears that name of thine,

            And sees within my eyes the tears of two.

VII

 

            The face of all the world is changed, I think,

            Since first I heard the footsteps of thy soul

            Move still, oh, still, beside me, as they stole

            Betwixt me and the dreadful outer brink

            Of obvious death, where I, who thought to sink,

            Was caught up into love, and taught the whole

            Of life in a new rhythm. The cup of dole

            God gave for baptism, I am fain to drink,

            And praise its sweetness, Sweet, with thee anear.

            The names of country, heaven, are changed away

            For where thou art or shalt be, there or here;

            And this . . . this lute and song . . . loved yesterday,

            (The singing angels know) are only dear

            Because thy name moves right in what they say.

VIII

 

            What can I give thee back, O liberal

            And princely giver, who hast brought the gold

            And purple of thine heart, unstained, untold,

            And laid them on the outside of the wall

            For such as I to take or leave withal,

            In unexpected largesse? am I cold,

            Ungrateful, that for these most manifold

            High gifts, I render nothing back at all?

            Not so; not cold,--but very poor instead.

            Ask God who knows. For frequent tears have run

            The colours from my life, and left so dead

            And pale a stuff, it were not fitly done

            To give the same as pillow to thy head.

            Go farther! let it serve to trample on.

IX

 

            Can it be right to give what I can give?

            To let thee sit beneath the fall of tears

            As salt as mine, and hear the sighing years

            Re-sighing on my lips renunciative

            Through those infrequent smiles which fail to live

            For all thy adjurations? O my fears,

            That this can scarce be right! We are not peers

            So to be lovers; and I own, and grieve,

            That givers of such gifts as mine are, must

            Be counted with the ungenerous. Out, alas!

            I will not soil thy purple with my dust,

            Nor breathe my poison on thy Venice-glass,

            Nor give thee any love--which were unjust.

            Beloved, I only love thee! let it pass.

X

 

            Yet, love, mere love, is beautiful indeed

            And worthy of acceptation. Fire is bright,

            Let temple burn, or flax; an equal light

            Leaps in the flame from cedar-plank or weed:

            And love is fire. And when I say at need

            I love thee . . . mark! . . . I love thee--in thy sight

            I stand transfigured, glorified aright,

            With conscience of the new rays that proceed

            Out of my face toward thine. There’s nothing low

            In love, when love the lowest: meanest creatures

            Who love God, God accepts while loving so.

            And what I feel, across the inferior features

            Of what I am, doth flash itself, and show

            How that great work of Love enhances Nature’s.

XI

 

            And therefore if to love can be desert,

            I am not all unworthy. Cheeks as pale

            As these you see, and trembling knees that fail

            To bear the burden of a heavy heart,--

            This weary minstrel-life that once was girt

            To climb Aornus, and can scarce avail

            To pipe now ’gainst the valley nightingale

            A melancholy music,--why advert

            To these things? O Beloved, it is plain

            I am not of thy worth nor for thy place!

            And yet, because I love thee, I obtain

            From that same love this vindicating grace

            To live on still in love, and yet in vain,--

            To bless thee, yet renounce thee to thy face.

XII

 

            Indeed this very love which is my boast,

            And which, when rising up from breast to brow,

            Doth crown me with a ruby large enow

            To draw men’s eyes and prove the inner cost,--

            This love even, all my worth, to the uttermost,

            I should not love withal, unless that thou

            Hadst set me an example, shown me how,

            When first thine earnest eyes with mine were crossed,

            And love called love. And thus, I cannot speak

            Of love even, as a good thing of my own:

            Thy soul hath snatched up mine all faint and weak,

            And placed it by thee on a golden throne,--

            And that I love (O soul, we must be meek!)

            Is by thee only, whom I love alone.

XIII

 

            And wilt thou have me fashion into speech

            The love I bear thee, finding words enough,

            And hold the torch out, while the winds are rough,

            Between our faces, to cast light on each?--

            I drop it at thy feet. I cannot teach

            My hand to hold my spirits so far off

            From myself--me--that I should bring thee proof

            In words, of love hid in me out of reach.

            Nay, let the silence of my womanhood

            Commend my woman-love to thy belief,--

            Seeing that I stand unwon, however wooed,

            And rend the garment of my life, in brief,

            By a most dauntless, voiceless fortitude,

            Lest one touch of this heart convey its grief.

XIV

 

            If thou must love me, let it be for nought

            Except for love’s sake only. Do not say

            "I love her for her smile--her look--her way

            Of speaking gently,--for a trick of thought

            That falls in well with mine, and certes brought

            A sense of pleasant ease on such a day"--

            For these things in themselves, Beloved, may

            Be changed, or change for thee,--and love, so wrought,

            May be unwrought so. Neither love me for

            Thine own dear pity’s wiping my cheeks dry,--

            A creature might forget to weep, who bore

            Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!

            But love me for love’s sake, that evermore

            Thou may’st love on, through love’s eternity.

XV

 

            Accuse me not, beseech thee, that I wear

            Too calm and sad a face in front of thine;

            For we two look two ways, and cannot shine

            With the same sunlight on our brow and hair.

            On me thou lookest with no doubting care,

            As on a bee shut in a crystalline;

            Since sorrow hath shut me safe in love’s divine,

            And to spread wing and fly in the outer air

            Were most impossible failure, if I strove

            To fail so. But I look on thee--on thee--

            Beholding, besides love, the end of love,

            Hearing oblivion beyond memory;

            As one who sits and gazes from above,

            Over the rivers to the bitter sea.

XVI

 

            And yet, because thou overcomest so,

            Because thou art more noble and like a king,

            Thou canst prevail against my fears and fling

            Thy purple round me, till my heart shall grow

            Too close against thine heart henceforth to know

            How it shook when alone. Why, conquering

            May prove as lordly and complete a thing

            In lifting upward, as in crushing low!

            And as a vanquished soldier yields his sword

            To one who lifts him from the bloody earth,

            Even so, Beloved, I at last record,

            Here ends my strife. If thou invite me forth,

            I rise above abasement at the word.

            Make thy love larger to enlarge my worth!

XVII

 

            My poet, thou canst touch on all the notes

            God set between His After and Before,

            And strike up and strike off the general roar

            Of the rushing worlds a melody that floats

            In a serene air purely. Antidotes

            Of medicated music, answering for

            Mankind’s forlornest uses, thou canst pour

            From thence into their ears. God’s will devotes

            Thine to such ends, and mine to wait on thine.

            How, Dearest, wilt thou have me for most use?

            A hope, to sing by gladly? or a fine

            Sad memory, with thy songs to interfuse?

            A shade, in which to sing--of palm or pine?

            A grave, on which to rest from singing? Choose.

XVIII

 

            I never gave a lock of hair away

            To a man, Dearest, except this to thee,

            Which now upon my fingers thoughtfully

            I ring out to the full brown length and say

            "Take it." My day of youth went yesterday;

            My hair no longer bounds to my foot’s glee,

            Nor plant I it from rose- or myrtle-tree,

            As girls do, any more: it only may

            Now shade on two pale cheeks the mark of tears,

            Taught drooping from the head that hangs aside

            Through sorrow’s trick. I thought the funeral-shears

            Would take this first, but Love is justified,--

            Take it thou,--finding pure, from all those years,

            The kiss my mother left here when she died.

XIX

 

            The soul’s Rialto hath its merchandize;

            I barter curl for curl upon that mart,

            And from my poet’s forehead to my heart

            Receive this lock which outweighs argosies,--

            As purply black, as erst to Pindar’s eyes

            The dim purpureal tresses gloomed athwart

            The nine white Muse-brows. For this counterpart, . . .

            The bay crown’s shade, Beloved, I surmise,

            Still lingers on thy curl, it is so black!

            Thus, with a fillet of smooth-kissing breath,

            I tie the shadows safe from gliding back,

            And lay the gift where nothing hindereth;

            Here on my heart, as on thy brow, to lack

            No natural heat till mine grows cold in death.

XX

 

            Beloved, my Beloved, when I think

            That thou wast in the world a year ago,

            What time I sat alone here in the snow

            And saw no footprint, heard the silence sink

            No moment at thy voice, but, link by link,

            Went counting all my chains as if that so

            They never could fall off at any blow

            Struck by thy possible hand,--why, thus I drink

            Of life’s great cup of wonder! Wonderful,

            Never to feel thee thrill the day or night

            With personal act or speech,--nor ever cull

            Some prescience of thee with the blossoms white

            Thou sawest growing! Atheists are as dull,

            Who cannot guess God’s presence out of sight.

XXI

 

            Say over again, and yet once over again,

            That thou dost love me. Though the word repeated

            Should seem a "cuckoo-song," as thou dost treat it,

            Remember, never to the hill or plain,

            Valley and wood, without her cuckoo-strain

            Comes the fresh Spring in all her green completed.

            Beloved, I, amid the darkness greeted

            By a doubtful spirit-voice, in that doubt’s pain

            Cry, "Speak once more--thou lovest!" Who can fear

            Too many stars, though each in heaven shall roll,

            Too many flowers, though each shall crown the year?

            Say thou dost love me, love me, love me--toll

            The silver iterance!--only minding, Dear,

            To love me also in silence with thy soul.

XXII

 

            When our two souls stand up erect and strong,

            Face to face, silent, drawing nigh and nigher,

            Until the lengthening wings break into fire

            At either curved point,--what bitter wrong

            Can the earth do to us, that we should not long

            Be here contented? Think! In mounting higher,

            The angels would press on us and aspire

            To drop some golden orb of perfect song

            Into our deep, dear silence. Let us stay

            Rather on earth, Beloved,--where the unfit

            Contrarious moods of men recoil away

            And isolate pure spirits, and permit

            A place to stand and love in for a day,

            With darkness and the death-hour rounding it.

XXIII

 

            Is it indeed so? If I lay here dead,

            Wouldst thou miss any life in losing mine?

            And would the sun for thee more coldly shine

            Because of grave-damps falling round my head?

            I marvelled, my Beloved, when I read

            Thy thought so in the letter. I am thine--

            But . . . so much to thee? Can I pour thy wine

            While my hands tremble? Then my soul, instead

            Of dreams of death, resumes life’s lower range.

            Then, love me, Love! look on me--breathe on me!

            As brighter ladies do not count it strange,

            For love, to give up acres and degree,

            I yield the grave for thy sake, and exchange

            My near sweet view of heaven, for earth with thee!

XXIV

 

            Let the world’s sharpness like a clasping knife

            Shut in upon itself and do no harm

            In this close hand of Love, now soft and warm,

            And let us hear no sound of human strife

            After the click of the shutting. Life to life--

            I lean upon thee, Dear, without alarm,

            And feel as safe as guarded by a charm

            Against the stab of worldlings, who if rife

            Are weak to injure. Very whitely still

            The lilies of our lives may reassure

            Their blossoms from their roots, accessible

            Alone to heavenly dews that drop not fewer;

            Growing straight, out of man’s reach, on the hill.

            God only, who made us rich, can make us poor.

XXV

 

            A heavy heart, Beloved, have I borne

            From year to year until I saw thy face,

            And sorrow after sorrow took the place

            Of all those natural joys as lightly worn

            As the stringed pearls, each lifted in its turn

            By a beating heart at dance-time. Hopes apace

            Were changed to long despairs, till God’s own grace

            Could scarcely lift above the world forlorn

            My heavy heart. Then thou didst bid me bring

            And let it drop adown thy calmly great

            Deep being! Fast it sinketh, as a thing

            Which its own nature does precipitate,

            While thine doth close above it, mediating

            Betwixt the stars and the unaccomplished fate.

XXVI

 

            I lived with visions for my company

            Instead of men and women, years ago,

            And found them gentle mates, nor thought to know

            A sweeter music than they played to me.

            But soon their trailing purple was not free

            Of this world’s dust, their lutes did silent grow,

            And I myself grew faint and blind below

            Their vanishing eyes. Then thou didst come--to be,

            Beloved, what they seemed. Their shining fronts,

            Their songs, their splendours, (better, yet the same,

            As river-water hallowed into fonts)

            Met in thee, and from out thee overcame

            My soul with satisfaction of all wants:

            Because God’s gifts put man’s best dreams to shame.

XXVII

 

            My own Beloved, who hast lifted me

            From this drear flat of earth where I was thrown,

            And, in betwixt the languid ringlets, blown

            A life-breath, till the forehead hopefully

            Shines out again, as all the angels see,

            Before thy saving kiss! My own, my own,

            Who camest to me when the world was gone,

            And I who looked for only God, found thee!

            I find thee; I am safe, and strong, and glad.

            As one who stands in dewless asphodel,

            Looks backward on the tedious time he had

            In the upper life,--so I, with bosom-swell,

            Make witness, here, between the good and bad,

            That Love, as strong as Death, retrieves as well.

XXVIII

 

            My letters! all dead paper, mute and white!

            And yet they seem alive and quivering

            Against my tremulous hands which loose the string

            And let them drop down on my knee to-night.

            This said,--he wished to have me in his sight

            Once, as a friend: this fixed a day in spring

            To come and touch my hand . . . a simple thing,

            Yet I wept for it!--this, . . . the paper’s light . . .

            Said, Dear I love thee; and I sank and quailed

            As if God’s future thundered on my past.

            This said, I am thine--and so its ink has paled

            With lying at my heart that beat too fast.

            And this . . . O Love, thy words have ill availed

            If, what this said, I dared repeat at last!

XXIX

 

            I think of thee!--my thoughts do twine and bud

            About thee, as wild vines, about a tree,

            Put out broad leaves, and soon there’s nought to see

            Except the straggling green which hides the wood.

            Yet, O my palm-tree, be it understood

            I will not have my thoughts instead of thee

            Who art dearer, better! Rather, instantly

            Renew thy presence; as a strong tree should,

            Rustle thy boughs and set thy trunk all bare,

            And let these bands of greenery which insphere thee,

            Drop heavily down,--burst, shattered everywhere!

            Because, in this deep joy to see and hear thee

            And breathe within thy shadow a new air,

            I do not think of thee--I am too near thee.

XXX

 

            I see thine image through my tears to-night,

            And yet to-day I saw thee smiling. How

            Refer the cause?--Beloved, is it thou

            Or I, who makes me sad? The acolyte

            Amid the chanted joy and thankful rite

            May so fall flat, with pale insensate brow,

            On the altar-stair. I hear thy voice and vow,

            Perplexed, uncertain, since thou art out of sight,

            As he, in his swooning ears, the choir’s amen.

            Beloved, dost thou love? or did I see all

            The glory as I dreamed, and fainted when

            Too vehement light dilated my ideal,

            For my soul’s eyes? Will that light come again,

            As now these tears come--falling hot and real?

XXXI

 

            Thou comest! all is said without a word.

            I sit beneath thy looks, as children do

            In the noon-sun, with souls that tremble through

            Their happy eyelids from an unaverred

            Yet prodigal inward joy. Behold, I erred

            In that last doubt! and yet I cannot rue

            The sin most, but the occasion--that we two

            Should for a moment stand unministered

            By a mutual presence. Ah, keep near and close,

            Thou dove-like help! and when my fears would rise,

            With thy broad heart serenely interpose:

            Brood down with thy divine sufficiencies

            These thoughts which tremble when bereft of those,

            Like callow birds left desert to the skies.

XXXII

 

            The first time that the sun rose on thine oath

            To love me, I looked forward to the moon

            To slacken all those bonds which seemed too soon

            And quickly tied to make a lasting troth.

            Quick-loving hearts, I thought, may quickly loathe;

            And, looking on myself, I seemed not one

            For such man’s love!--more like an out-of-tune

            Worn viol, a good singer would be wroth

            To spoil his song with, and which, snatched in haste,

            Is laid down at the first ill-sounding note.

            I did not wrong myself so, but I placed

            A wrong on thee. For perfect strains may float

            ’Neath master-hands, from instruments defaced,--

            And great souls, at one stroke, may do and doat.

XXXIII

 

            Yes, call me by my pet-name! let me hear

            The name I used to run at, when a child,

            From innocent play, and leave the cowslips plied,

            To glance up in some face that proved me dear

            With the look of its eyes. I miss the clear

            Fond voices which, being drawn and reconciled

            Into the music of Heaven’s undefiled,

            Call me no longer. Silence on the bier,

            While I call God--call God!--so let thy mouth

            Be heir to those who are now exanimate.

            Gather the north flowers to complete the south,

            And catch the early love up in the late.

            Yes, call me by that name,--and I, in truth,

            With the same heart, will answer and not wait.

XXXIV

 

            With the same heart, I said, I’ll answer thee

            As those, when thou shalt call me by my name--

            Lo, the vain promise! is the same, the same,

            Perplexed and ruffled by life’s strategy?

            When called before, I told how hastily

            I dropped my flowers or brake off from a game.

            To run and answer with the smile that came

            At play last moment, and went on with me

            Through my obedience. When I answer now,

            I drop a grave thought, break from solitude;

            Yet still my heart goes to thee--ponder how--

            Not as to a single good, but all my good!

            Lay thy hand on it, best one, and allow

            That no child’s foot could run fast as this blood.

XXXV

 

            If I leave all for thee, wilt thou exchange

            And be all to me? Shall I never miss

            Home-talk and blessing and the common kiss

            That comes to each in turn, nor count it strange,

            When I look up, to drop on a new range

            Of walls and floors, another home than this?

            Nay, wilt thou fill that place by me which is

            Filled by dead eyes too tender to know change

            That’s hardest. If to conquer love, has tried,

            To conquer grief, tries more, as all things prove,

            For grief indeed is love and grief beside.

            Alas, I have grieved so I am hard to love.

            Yet love me--wilt thou? Open thy heart wide,

            And fold within, the wet wings of thy dove.

XXXVI

 

            When we met first and loved, I did not build

            Upon the event with marble. Could it mean

            To last, a love set pendulous between

            Sorrow and sorrow? Nay, I rather thrilled,

            Distrusting every light that seemed to gild

            The onward path, and feared to overlean

            A finger even. And, though I have grown serene

            And strong since then, I think that God has willed

            A still renewable fear . . . O love, O troth . . .

            Lest these enclasped hands should never hold,

            This mutual kiss drop down between us both

            As an unowned thing, once the lips being cold.

            And Love, be false! if he, to keep one oath,

            Must lose one joy, by his life’s star foretold.

XXXVII

 

            Pardon, oh, pardon, that my soul should make

            Of all that strong divineness which I know

            For thine and thee, an image only so

            Formed of the sand, and fit to shift and break.

            It is that distant years which did not take

            Thy sovranty, recoiling with a blow,

            Have forced my swimming brain to undergo

            Their doubt and dread, and blindly to forsake

            Thy purity of likeness and distort

            Thy worthiest love to a worthless counterfeit.

            As if a shipwrecked Pagan, safe in port,

            His guardian sea-god to commemorate,

            Should set a sculptured porpoise, gills a-snort

            And vibrant tail, within the temple-gate.

XXXVIII

 

            First time he kissed me, he but only kissed

            The fingers of this hand wherewith I write;

            And ever since, it grew more clean and white.

            Slow to world-greetings, quick with its "O, list,"

            When the angels speak. A ring of amethyst

            I could not wear here, plainer to my sight,

            Than that first kiss. The second passed in height

            The first, and sought the forehead, and half missed,

            Half falling on the hair. O beyond meed!

            That was the chrism of love, which love’s own crown,

            With sanctifying sweetness, did precede

            The third upon my lips was folded down

            In perfect, purple state; since when, indeed,

            I have been proud and said, "My love, my own."

XXXIX

 

            Because thou hast the power and own’st the grace

            To look through and behind this mask of me,

            (Against which, years have beat thus blanchingly,

            With their rains,) and behold my soul’s true face,

            The dim and weary witness of life’s race,--

            Because thou hast the faith and love to see,

            Through that same soul’s distracting lethargy,

            The patient angel waiting for a place

            In the new Heavens,--because nor sin nor woe,

            Nor God’s infliction, nor death’s neighbourhood,

            Nor all which others viewing, turn to go,

            Nor all which makes me tired of all, self-viewed,--

            Nothing repels thee, . . . Dearest, teach me so

            To pour out gratitude, as thou dost, good!

XL

 

            Oh, yes! they love through all this world of ours!

            I will not gainsay love, called love forsooth:

            I have heard love talked in my early youth,

            And since, not so long back but that the flowers

            Then gathered, smell still. Mussulmans and Giaours

            Throw kerchiefs at a smile, and have no ruth

            For any weeping. Polypheme’s white tooth

            Slips on the nut if, after frequent showers,

            The shell is over-smooth,--and not so much

            Will turn the thing called love, aside to hate

            Or else to oblivion. But thou art not such

            A lover, my Beloved! thou canst wait

            Through sorrow and sickness, to bring souls to touch,

            And think it soon when others cry "Too late."

XLI

 

            I thank all who have loved me in their hearts,

            With thanks and love from mine. Deep thanks to all

            Who paused a little near the prison-wall

            To hear my music in its louder parts

            Ere they went onward, each one to the mart’s

            Or temple’s occupation, beyond call.

            But thou, who, in my voice’s sink and fall

            When the sob took it, thy divinest Art’s

            Own instrument didst drop down at thy foot

            To harken what I said between my tears, . . .

            Instruct me how to thank thee! Oh, to shoot

            My soul’s full meaning into future years,

            That they should lend it utterance, and salute

            Love that endures, from life that disappears!

XLII

 

            My future will not copy fair my past--

            I wrote that once; and thinking at my side

            My ministering life-angel justified

            The word by his appealing look upcast

            To the white throne of God, I turned at last,

            And there, instead, saw thee, not unallied

            To angels in thy soul! Then I, long tried

            By natural ills, received the comfort fast,

            While budding, at thy sight, my pilgrim’s staff

            Gave out green leaves with morning dews impearled.

            I seek no copy now of life’s first half:

            Leave here the pages with long musing curled,

            And write me new my future’s epigraph,

            New angel mine, unhoped for in the world!

XLIII

 

            How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

            I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

            My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

            For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

            I love thee to the level of everyday’s

            Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.

            I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

            I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

            I love thee with the passion put to use

            In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.

            I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

            With my lost saints,--I love thee with the breath,

            Smiles, tears, of all my life!--and, if God choose,

            I shall but love thee better after death.

XLIV

 

            Beloved, thou hast brought me many flowers

            Plucked in the garden, all the summer through,

            And winter, and it seemed as if they grew

            In this close room, nor missed the sun and showers.

            So, in the like name of that love of ours,

            Take back these thoughts which here unfolded too,

            And which on warm and cold days I withdrew

            From my heart’s ground. Indeed, those beds and bowers

            Be overgrown with bitter weeds and rue,

            And wait thy weeding; yet here’s eglantine,

            Here’s ivy!--take them, as I used to do

            Thy flowers, and keep them where they shall not pine.

            Instruct thine eyes to keep their colours true,

            And tell thy soul, their roots are left in mine.