Louisa May Alcott's
novel brings to life vividly the life of New England during the nineteenth
century. A life that was tranquil, secure, and productive.
It is little wonder,
for she drew on her own and on her family's experiences for her work. As one of
four daughters growing up in Boston.
At the age of eight,
she moved with her family to nearby Concord. There she spent the happiest years
of her younger life, even though she experienced the constant threat of
poverty.
She counted as friends
the children of Hawthorne and Emerson. The Alcott was only a modest cottage,
but the girls made use of a neighboring barn to perform plays written by Louisa
May.
She was educated at
home, and became a school teacher in Boston. She saw her first story printed in
a Boston newspaper at the age of twenty. Her first full-length book appeared
two years later.
Interrupting her career
as a writer, she served as a nurse in a Washington hospital during the Civil
War.
The thing that pleased
her most about her writing, as she became more and more well known, was the
fact that sales of her books helped to make life more comfortable and less of a
daily struggle for her parents in their later years.
LITTLE WOMEN was
published in 1869, and has gone on to become one of America's classics.
“Christmas won't be
Christmas without any presents,” grumbled Jo, lying on the rug.
“It's so dreadful to be
poor!” sighed Meg, looking down at her old dress.
“I don't think it's
fair for some girls to have plenty of pretty things, and other girls nothing at
all,” added little Amy, with an injured sniff.
“We've got Father and
Mother, and each other,” said Beth contentedly from her corner.
The four young faces on
which the firelight shone brightened at the cheerful words, but darkened again
as Jo said sadly, “We haven't got Father, and shall not have him for a long
time.” She didn't say “perhaps never,” but each silently added it, thinking of
Father far away, where the fighting was.
Nobody spoke for a
minute; then Meg said in an altered tone, “You know the reason Mother proposed
not having any presents this Christmas was because it is going to be a hard
winter for everyone; and she thinks we ought not to spend money for pleasure,
when our men are suffering so in the army. We can't do much, but we can make
our little sacrifices, and ought to do it gladly. But I am afraid I don't” And
Meg shook her head,as she thought regretfully of all the pretty things she
wanted.
“But I don't think the
little we should spend would do any good. We've each got a dollar, and the army
wouldn't be much helped by our giving that. I agree not to expect anything from
Mother or you, but I do want to buy UNDINE AND SINTRAM for myself. I've wanted
it so long,” said Jo, who was a bookworm.
“I planned to spend
mine in new music,” said Beth, with a little sigh, which no one heard but the
hearth brush and kettle holder.
“I shall get a nice box
of Faber's drawing pencils. I really need them,” said Amy decidedly.
“Mother didn't say
anything about our money, and she won't wish us to give up everything. Let's
each buy what we want, and have a little fun. I'm sure we work hard enough to
earn it,” cried Jo, examining the heels of her shoes in a gentlemanly manner.
“I know I do--teaching
those tiresome children nearly all day, when I'm longing to enjoy myself at
home,” began Meg, in the complaining tone again.
“You don't have half
such a hard time as I do,” said Jo. “How would you like to be shut up for hours
with a nervous, fussy old lady, who keeps you trotting, is never satisfied, and
worries you till you you're ready to fly out the window or cry?”
“It's naughty to fret,
but I do think washing dishes and keeping things tidy is the worst work in the
world. It makes me cross, and my hands get so stiff, I can't practice well at
all.” And Beth looked at her rough hands with a sigh that any one could hear
that time.
“I don't believe any of
you suffer as I do,” cried Amy, “for you don't have to go to school with
impertinent girls, who plague you if you don't know your lessons, and laugh at
your dresses, and label your father if he isn't rich, and insult you when your
nose isn't nice.”
“If you mean libel, I'd
say so, and not talk about labels, as if Papa was a pickle bottle,” advised Jo,
laughing.
“I know what I mean,
and you needn't be statirical about it. It's proper to use good words, and
improve your vocabilary,” returned Amy, with dignity.
“Don't peck at one
another, children. Don't you wish we had the money Papa lost when we were
little, Jo? Dear me! How happy and good we'd be, if we had no worries!” said
Meg, who could remember better times.
“You said the other day
you thought we were a deal happier than the King children, for they were
fighting and fretting all the time, in spite of their money.”
“So I did, Beth. Well,
I think we are. For though we do have to work, we make fun of ourselves, and
are a pretty jolly set, as Jo would say.”
“Jo does use such slang
words!” observed Amy, with a reproving look at the long figure stretched on the
rug.
Jo immediately sat up,
put her hands in her pockets, and began to whistle.
“Don't, Jo. It's so
boyish!”
“That's why I do it.”
“I detest rude,
unladylike girls!”
“I hate affected, niminy-piminy
chits!”
“Birds in their little
nests agree,” sang Beth, the peacemaker, with such a funny face that both sharp
voices softened to a laugh, and the “pecking” ended for that time.
“Really, girls, you are
both to be blamed,” said Meg, beginning to lecture in her elder-sisterly
fashion.”You are old enough to leave off boyish tricks, and to behave better,
Josephine. It didn't matter so much when you were a little girl, but now you
are so tall, and turn up your hair, you should remember that you are a young
lady.”
“I'm not! And if
turning up my hair makes me one, I'll wear it in two tails till I'm twenty,”
cried Jo, pulling off her net, and shaking down a chestnut mane. “I hate to
think I've got to grow up, and be Miss March, and wear long gowns, and look as
prim as a China Aster! It's bad enough to be a girl, anyway, when I like boy's
games and work and manners! I can't get over my disappointment in not being a
boy. And it's worse than ever now, for I'm dying to go and fight with Papa. And
I can only stay home and knit, like a poky old woman!”
And Jo shook the blue
army sock till the needles rattled like castanets, and her ball bounded across
the room.
“Poor Jo! It's too bad,
but it can't be helped. So you must try to be contented with making your name
boyish, and playing brother to us girls,” said Beth, stroking the rough head
with a hand that all the dish washing and dusting in the world could not make
ungentle in its touch.
“As for you, Amy,”
continued Meg, “you are altogether to particular and prim. Your airs are funny
now, but you'll grow up an affected little goose, if you don't take care. I I
like your nice manners and refined ways of speaking, when you don't try to be
elegant. But your absurd words are as bad as Jo's slang.”
“If Jo is a tomboy and
Amy a goose, what am I, please?” asked Beth, ready to share the lecture.
“You're a dear, and
nothing else,” answered Meg warmly, and no one contradicted her, for the
`Mouse' was the pet of the family.
As young readers like
to know `how people look', we will take this moment to give them a little
sketch of the four sisters, who sat knitting away in the twilight, while the
December snow fell quietly without, and the fire crackled cheerfully within. It
was a comfortable room,though the carpet was faded and the furniture very
plain, for a good picture or two hung on the walls, books filled the recesses,
chrysanthemums and Christmas roses bloomed in the windows, and a pleasant
atmosphere of home peace pervaded it.
Margaret, the eldest of
the four, was sixteen, and very pretty, being plump and fair, with large eyes,
plenty of soft brown hair, a sweet mouth, and white hands, of which she was
rather vain. Fifteen-year-old Jo was very tall, thin, and brown, and reminded
one of a colt, for she never seemed to know what to do with her long limbs,
which were very much in her way. She had a decided mouth, a comical nose, and
sharp, gray eyes, which appeared to see everything, and were by turns fierce,
funny, or thoughtful. Her long, thick hair was her one beauty, but it was
usually bundled into a net, to be out of her way. Round shoulders had Jo, big
hands and feet, a fly-away look to her clothes, and the uncomfortable
appearance of a girl who was rapidly shooting up into a woman and didn't like
it. Elizabeth, or Beth, as everyone called her, was a rosy, smooth-haired,
bright-eyed girl of thirteen, with a shy manner, a timid voice, and a peaceful
expression which was seldom disturbed. Her father called her `Little Miss
Tranquility', and the name suited her excellently, for she seemed to live in a
happy world of her own, only venturing out to meet the few whom she trusted and
loved. Amy, though the youngest, was a most important person, in her own
opinion at least. A regular snow maiden, with blue eyes, and yellow hair
curling on her shoulders, pale and slender, and always carrying herself like a
young lady mindful of her manners. What the characters of the four sisters were
we will leave to be found out.
The clock struck six
and, having swept up the hearth, Beth put a pair of slippers down to warm.
Somehow the sight of the old shoes had a good effect upon the girls, for Mother
was coming, and everyone brightened to welcome her. Meg stopped lecturing, and
lighted the lamp, Amy got out of the easy chair without being asked, and Jo
forgot how tired she was as she sat up to hold the slippers nearer to the
blaze.
“They are quite worn
out. Marmee must have a new pair.”
“I thought I'd get her
some with my dollar,” said Beth.
“No, I shall!” cried
Amy.
“I'm the oldest,” began
Meg, but Jo cut in with a decided, “I'm the man of the family now Papa is away,
and I shall provide the slippers, for he told me to take special care of Mother
while he was gone.”
“I'll tell you what
we'll do,” said Beth, “let's each get her something for Christmas,land not get
anything for ourselves.”
“That's like you, dear!
What will we get?” exclaimed Jo.
Everyone thought
soberly for a minute, then Meg announced, as if the idea was suggested by the
sight of her own pretty hands, “I shall give her a nice pair of gloves.”
“Army shoes, best to be
had,” cried Jo.
“Some handkerchiefs,
all hemmed,” said Beth.
“I'll get a little
bottle of cologne. She likes it, and it won't cost much, so I'll have some left
to buy my pencils,” added Amy.
“How will we give the
things?” asked Meg.
“Put them on the table,
and bring her in and see her open the bundles. Don't you remember how we used
to do on our birthdays?” answered Jo.
“I used to be so
frightened when it was my turn to sit in the chair with the crown on, and see
you all come marching round to give the presents, with a kiss. I liked the
things and the kisses, but it was dreadful to have you sit looking at me while
I opened the bundles,” said Beth, who was toasting her face and the bread for
tea at the same time.
“Let Marmee think we
are getting things for ourselves, and then surprise her. We must go shopping
tomorrow afternoon, Meg. There is so much to do about the play for Christmas
night,” said Jo, marching up and down, with her hands behind her back, and her
nose in the air.
“I don't mean to act
any more after this time. I'm getting too old for such things,” observed Meg,
who was as much a child as ever about `dressing-up' frolics.
“You won't stop, I
know, as long as you can trail round in a white gown with your hair down, and
wear gold-paper jewelry. You are the best actress we've got, and there'll be an
end of everything if you quit the boards,” said Jo. “We ought to rehearse
tonight. Come here, Amy, and do the fainting scene, for you are as stiff as a
poker in that.”
“I can't help it. I
never saw anyone faint, and I don't choose to make myself all black and blue,
tumbling flat as you do. If I can go down easily, I'll drop. If I can't, I
shall fall into a chair and be graceful. I don't care if Hugo does come at me
with a pistol,” returned Amy, who was not gifted with dramatic power, but was
chosen because she was small enough to be borne out shrieking by the villain of
the piece.
“Do it this way. Clasp
your hands so, and stagger across the room, crying frantically, `Roderigo` Save
me! Save me! and away went Jo, with a melodramatic scream which was truly
thrilling.
Amy followed, but she
poked her hands out stiffly before her, and jerked herself along as if she went
by machinery, and her “Ow!” was more suggestive of pins being run into her than
of fear and anguish. Jo gave a despairing groan, and Meg laughed outright,
while Beth let her bread burn as she watched the fun with interest.
“It's no use! Do the
best you can when the time comes, and if the audience laughs, don't blame me.
Come on, Meg.”
“Then things went
smoothly, for Don Pedro defied the world in a speech of two pages without a
single break. Hagar, the witch, chanted an awful incantation over her kettleful
of simmering toads, with weird effect. Roderigo rent his chains asunder
manfully, and Hugo died in agonies of remorse and arsenic, with a wild,”Ha! Ha!”
“It's the best we've
had yet,” said Meg, as the dead villain sat up and rubbed his elbows.
“I don't see how you
can write and act such splendid things, Jo. You're a regular Shakespeare!”
exclaimed Beth, who firmly believed that her sisters were gifted with wonderful
genius in all things.
“Not quite,” replied Jo
modestly. “I do think THE WITCHES CURSE, an Operatic Tragedy is rather a nice
thing, but I'd like to try McBETH, if we only had a trapdoor for Banquo. I
always wanted to do the killing part. `Is that a dagger that I see before me?”
muttered Jo, rolling her eyes and clutching at the air, as she had seen a
famous tragedian do.
“No, it's the toasting
fork, with Mother's shoe on it instead of the bread. Beth's stage-struck!”
cried Meg, and the rehearsal ended in a general burst of laughter.
“Glad to find you so
merry, my girls,” said a cheery voice at the door, and actors and audience
turned to welcome a tall, motherly lady with a `can I help you' look about her
which was truly delightful. She was not elegantly dressed, but a noble-looking
woman, and the girls thought the gray cloak and unfashionable bonnet covered
the most splendid mother in the world.
“Well, dearies, how
have you got on today? There was so much to do, getting the boxes ready to go
tomorrow, that I didn't come home to dinner. Has anyone called, Beth? How is
your cold, Meg? Jo, you look tired to death. Come and kiss me, baby.”
While making these
maternal inquiries Mrs. March got her wet things off, her warm slippers on, and
sitting down in the easy chair, drew Amy to her lap, preparing to enjoy the
happiest hour of her busy day. The girls flew about, trying to make things
comfortable, each in her own way. Meg arranged the tea table, Jo brought wood
and set chairs, dropping, over-turning,and clattering everything she touched.
Beth trotted to and fro between parlor kitchen, quiet and busy, while Amy gave
directions to everyone, as she sat with her hands folded.
As they gathered about
the table, Mrs. March said, with a particularly happy face, “I've got a treat
for you after supper.”
A quick, bright smile
went round like a streak of sunshine. Beth clapped her hands, regardless of the
biscuit she held, and Jo tossed up her napkin, crying, “A letter! A letter!
Three cheers for Father!”
“Yes, a nice long
letter. He is well, and thinks he shall get through the cold season better than
we feared. He sends all sorts of loving wishes for Christmas, and an especial
message to you girls,” said Mrs. March, patting her pocket as if she had got a
treasure there.
“Hurry and get done!
Don't stop to quirk your little finger and simper over your plate, Amy,” cried
Jo, choking on her tea and dropping her bread, butter side down, on the carpet
in her haste to get at the treat.
Beth ate no more, but
crept away to sit in her shadowy corner and brood over the delight to come,
till the others were ready.
“I think it was so
splendid in Father to go as chaplain when he was too old to be drafted, and not
strong enough for a soldier,” said Meg warmly.
“Don't I wish I could
go as a drummer, a vivan--what's its name? Or a nurse, so I could be near him and
help him,” exclaimed Jo, with a groan.
“It must be very
disagreeable to sleep in a tent, and eat all sorts of bad-tasting things, and
drink out of a tin mug,” sighed Amy.
“When will he come
home, Marmee? asked Beth, with a little quiver in her voice.
“Not for many months,
dear, unless he is sick. He will stay and do his work faithfully as long as he
can, and we won't ask for him back a minute sooner than he can be spared. Now
come and hear the letter.”
They all drew to the
fire, Mother in the big chair with Beth at her feet, Meg and Amy perched on
either arm of the chair, and Jo leaning on the back, where no one would see any
sign of emotion if the letter should happen to be touching. Very few letters
were written in those hard times that were not touching, especially those which
fathers sent home. In this one little was said of the hardships endured, the
dangers faced, or the homesickness conquered. It was a cheerful, hopeful
letter, full of lively descriptions of camp life, marches, and military news,
and only at the end did the writer's heart over-flow with fatherly love and
longing for the little girls at home.
“ Give them all of my
dear love and a kiss. Tell them I think of them by day, pray for them by night,
and find my best comfort in their affection at all times. A year seems very
long to wait before I see them, but remind them that while we wait we may all
work, so that these hard days need not be wasted. I know they will remember all
I said to them, that they will be loving children to you, will do their duty
faithfully, fight their bosom enemies bravely, and conquer themselves so
beautifully that when I come back to them I may be fonder and prouder than ever
of my little women.”
Everybody sniffed when
they came to that part. Jo wasn't ashamed of the great tear that dropped off
the end of her nose, and Amy never minded the rumpling of her curls as she hid
her face on her mother's shoulder and sobbed out, “I am a selfish girl! But
I'll truly try to be better, so he mayn't be disappointed in me by-and-by.”
We all will,” cried
Meg. “I think too much of my looks and hate to work, but won't any more, if I
can help it.”
“I'll try and be what
he loves to call me, `a little woman' and not be rough and wild, but do my duty
here instead of wanting to be somewhere else,” said Jo, thinking that keeping
her temper at home was a much harder task than facing a rebel or two down
South.
Beth said nothing, but
wiped away her tears with the blue army sock and began to knit with all her
might, losing no time in doing the duty that lay nearest her, while she
resolved in her quiet little soul to be all that Father hoped to find her when
the year brought round the happy coming home.
Mrs. March broke the
silence that followed Jo's words, by saying in her cheery voice, “Do you
remember how you used to play Pilgrims Progress when you were little things?
Nothing delighted you more than to have me tie my piece bags on your backs for
burdens, give you hats and sticks and rolls of paper, and let you travel through
the house from the cellar, which was the City of Destruction, up, up, to the
housetop, where you had all the lovely things you could collect to make a
Celestial City.”
“What fun it was,
especially going by the lions, fighting Apollyon, and passing through the
valley where the hob-goblins were,” said Jo.
“I liked the place
where the bundles fell off and tumbled downstairs,” said Meg.
“I don't remember much
about it, except that I was afraid of the cellar and the dark entry, and always
liked the cake and milk we had up at the top. If I wasn't too old for such
things, I'd rather like to play it over again,” said Amy, who began to talk of
renouncing childish things at the mature age of twelve.
“We never are too old
for this, my dear, because it is a play we are playing all the time in one way
or another. Out burdens are here, our road is before us, and the longing for
goodness and happiness is the guide that leads us through many troubles and
mistakes to the peace which is a true Celestial City. Now, my little pilgrims,
suppose you begin again, not in play, but in earnest, and see how far on you
can get before Father comes home.”
“Really, Mother? Where
are our bundles?” asked Amy, who was a very literal young lady.
“Each of you told what
your burden was just now, except Beth. I rather think she hasn't got any,” said
her mother.
“Yes, I have. Mine is
dishes and dusters, and envying girls with nice pianos, and being afraid of
people.”
Beth's bundle was such
a funny one that everybody wanted to laugh, but nobody did, for it would have
hurt her feelings very much.
“Let us do it,” said
Meg thoughtfully. “It is only another name for trying to be good, and the story
may help us, for though we do want to be good, it's hard work and we forget,
and don't do our best.”
“We were in the Slough
of Despond tonight, and Mother came and pulled us out as Help did in the book.
We ought to have our roll of directions, like Christian. What shall we do about
that?” asked Jo, delighted with the fancy which lent a little romance to the
very dull task of doing her duty.
“Look under your
pillows Christmas morning, and you will find your guidebook,” replied Mrs.
March.
They talked over the
new plan while old Hannah cleared the table, then out came the four little work
baskets, and the needles flew as the girls made sheets for Aunt March. It was
uninteresting sewing, but tonight no one grumbled. They adopted Jo's plan of
dividing the long seams into four parts, and calling the quarters Europe, Asia,
Africa, and America, and in that way got on capitally, especially when they
talked about the different countries as they stitched their way through them.
At nine they stopped
work, and sang, as usual, before they went to bed. No one but Beth could get
much music out of the old piano, but she had a way of softly touching the
yellow keys and making a pleasant accompaniment to the simple songs they sang.
Meg had a voice like a flute, and she and her mother led the little choir. Amy
chirped like a cricket, and Jo wandered through the airs at her own sweet will,
always coming out at the wrong place with a croak or a quaver that spoiled the
most pensive tune. They had always done this from the time they could lisp . .
.
Crinkle, crinkle,
'ittle 'tar,
Jo was the first to
wake in the gray dawn of Christmas morning. No stockings hung at the fireplace,
and for a moment she felt as much disappointed as she did long ago, when her
little sock fell down because it was crammed so full of goodies. Then she
remembered her mother's promise and, slipping her hand under her pillow, drew
out a little crimson-covered book. She knew it very well, for it was that
beautiful old story of the best life ever lived, and Jo felt that it was a true
guidebook for any pilgrim going on a long journey. She woke Meg with a “Merry
Christmas,” and bade her see what was under her pillow. A green-covered book
appeared, with the same picture inside, and a few words written by their
mother, which made their one present very precious in their eyes. Presently
Beth and Amy woke to rummage and find their little books also, one
dove-colored, the other blue, and all sat looking at and talking about them,
while the east grew rosy with the coming day.
In spite of her small
vanities, Margaret had a sweet and pious nature, which unconsciously influenced
her sisters, especially Jo, who loved her very tenderly, and obeyed her because
her advice was so gently given.
“Girls,” said Meg
seriously, looking from the tumbled head beside her to the two little
night-capped ones in the room beyond, “Mother wants us to read and love and
mind these books, and we must begin at once. We used to be faithful about it,
but since Father went away and all this war trouble unsettled us, we have
neglected many things. You can do as you please, but I shall keep my book on
the table here and read a little every morning as soon as I wake, for I know it
will do me good and help me through the day.”
Then she opened her new
book and began to read. Jo put her arm round her and, leaning cheek to cheek,
read also, with the quiet expression so seldom seen on her restless face.
“How good Meg is! Come,
Amy, let's do as they do. I'll help you with the hard words, and they'' explain
things if we don't understand,” whispered Beth, very much impressed by the
pretty books and her sisters, example.
“I'm glad mine is blue,”
said Amy. and then the rooms were very still while the pages were softly
turned, and the winter sunshine crept in to touch the bright heads and serious
faces with a Christmas greeting.
“Where is Mother?”
asked Meg, as she and Jo ran down to thank her for their gifts, half an hour
later.
“Goodness only knows.
some poor creeter came a-beggin', and your ma went straight off to see what was
needed. There never was such a woman for givin' away vittles and drink, clothes
and firin',” replied Hannah, who had lived with the family since Meg was born,
and was considered by them all more as a friend than a servant.
“She will be back soon,
I think, so fry your cakes, and have everything ready,” said Meg, looking over
the presents which were collected in a basket and kept under the sofa, ready to
be produced at the proper time. “why, where is Amy's bottle of cologne?” she
added, as the little flask did not appear.
“She took it out a
minute ago, and went off with it to put a ribbon on it, or some such notion,”
replied Jo, dancing about the room to take the first stiffness off the new army
slippers.
“How nice my
handkerchiefs look, don't they? Hannah washed and ironed them for me, and I
marked them all myself,” said Beth, looking proudly at the somewhat uneven
letters which had cost her such labor.
“Bless the child! She's
gone and put `Mother' on them instead of `M. March'. How funny!” cried Jo,
taking one up.
“Isn't that right? I
thought it was better to do it so, because Meg's initials are M.M., and I don't
want anyone to use these but Marmee,” said Beth;, looking troubled.
“It's all right, dear,
and a very pretty idea, quite sensible too, for no one can ever mistake now. It
will please her very much, I know,” said Meg, with a frown for Jo and a smile
for Beth.
“There's Mother. Hide
the basket, quick!” cried Jo, as a door slammed and steps sounded in the hall.
Amy came in hastily,
and looked rather abashed when she saw her sisters all waiting for her.
“Where have you been,
and what are you hiding behind you?” asked Meg, surprised to see, by her hood
and cloak, that lazy Amy had been out so early.
“Don't laugh at me, Jo!
I didn't mean anyone should know till the time came. I only meant to change the
little bottle for a big one, and I gave all my money to get it, and I'm truly
trying not to be selfish any more.”
As she spoke, Amy
showed the handsome flask which replaced the cheap one, and looked so earnest
and humble in her little effort to forget herself that Meg hugged her on the
spot, and Jo pronounced her `a trump', while Beth ran to the window, and picked
her finest rose to ornament the stately bottle.
“You see I felt ashamed
of my present, after reading and talking about being good this morning, so I
ran round the corner and changed it the minute I was up, and I'm so glad, for
mine is the handsomest now.”
Another bang of the
street door sent the basket under the sofa, and the girls to the table, eager
for breakfast.
“Merry Christmas,
Marmee! Many of them! Thank you for our books. We read some, and mean to every
day,” they all cried in chorus.
“Merry Christmas,
little daughters! I'm glad you began at once, and hope you will keep on. But I
want to say one word before we sit down. Not far away from here lies a poor
woman with a little newborn baby. Six children are huddled into one bed to keep
from freezing, for they have no fire. There is nothing to eat over there, and
the oldest boy came to tell me they were suffering hunger and cold. My girls,
will you give them your breakfast as a Christmas present?”
They were all unusually
hungry, having waited nearly an hour, and for a minute no one spoke, only a
minute, for Jo exclaimed impetuously, “I'm so glad you came before we began!”
“May I go and help
carry the things to the poor little children?” asked Beth eagerly.
“I shall take the cream
and the muffings,” added Amy, heroically giving up the article she most liked.
Meg was already covering
the buckwheats, and piling the bread into one big plate.
“I thought you'd do it,”
said Mrs. March, smiling as if satisfied. “You shall all go and help me, and
when we come back we will have bread and milk for breakfast, and make it up at
dinnertime.”
They were soon ready,
and the procession set out. Fortunately it was early, and they went through
back streets, so few people saw them, and no one laughed at the queer party.
A poor, bare, miserable
room it was, with broken windows, no fire, ragged bedclothes, a sick mother,
wailing baby, and a group of pale, hungry children cuddled under one old quilt,
trying to keep warm.
How the big eyes stared
and the blue lips smiled as the girls went in.
“Ach, mein Gott! It is
good angels come to us!” said the poor woman, crying for joy.
“Funny angels in hoods
and mittens,” said Jo, and set them to laughing.
In a few minutes it
really did seem as if kind spirits had been at work there. Hannah, who had
carried wood, made a fire, and stopped up the broken panes with old hats and
her own cloak. Mrs. March gave the mother tea and gruel, and comforted her with
promises of help, while she dressed the little baby as tenderly as if it had
been her own. The girls meantime spread the table, set the children round the
fire, and fed them like so many hungry birds, laughing, talking, and trying to
understand the funny broken English.
“Das ist gut!” “Die
Engel-kinder!” cried the poor things as they ate and warmed their purple hands
at the comfortable blaze.
The girls had never
been called angel children before, and thought it very agreeable, especially
Jo, who had been considered a `Sancho' ever since she was born. That was a very
happy breakfast, though they didn't get any of it. And when they went away,
leaving comfort behind, I think there were not in all the city four merrier
people than the hungry little girls who gave away their breakfasts and
contented themselves with bread and milk on Christmas morning.
“That's loving our
neighbor better than ourselves, and I like it,” said Meg, as they set out their
presents while their mother was upstairs collecting clothes for the poor
Hummels.
Not a very splendid
show, but there was a great deal of love done up in the few little bundles, and
the tall vase of red roses, white chrysanthemums, and trailing vines, which
stood in the middle, gave quite an elegant air to the table.
“She's coming! Strike
up, Beth! Open the door, Amy! Three cheers for Marmee!” cried Jo, prancing
about while Meg went to conduct Mother to the seat of honor.
Beth played her gayest
march, Amy threw open the door, and Meg enacted escort with great dignity. Mrs.
March was both surprised and touched, and smiled with her eyes full as she
examined her presents and read the little notes which accompanied them. The
slippers went on at once, a new handkerchief was slipped into her pocket, well
scented with Amy's cologne, the rose was fastened in her bosom, and the nice
gloves were pronounced a perfect fit.
There was a good deal
of laughing and kissing and explaining, in the simple, loving fashion which
makes these home festivals so pleasant at the time, so sweet to remember long
afterward, and then all fell to work.
The morning charities
and ceremonies took so much time that the rest of the day was devoted to
preparations for the evening festivities. Being still too young to go often to
the theater, and not rich enough to afford any great outlay for private
performances, the girls put their wits to work, and necessity being the mother
of invention, made whatever they needed. Very clever were some of their
productions, pasteboard guitars, antique lamps made of old-fashioned butter
boats covered with silver paper, gorgeous robes of old cotton, glittering with
tin spangles from a pickle factory, and armor covered with the same useful
diamond shaped bits left inn sheets when the lids of preserve pots were cut
out. The big chamber was the scene of many innocent revels.
No gentleman were
admitted, so Jo played male parts to her heart's content and took immense
satisfaction in a pair of russet leather boots given her by a friend, who knew
a lady who knew an actor. These boots, an old foil, and a slashed doublet once
used by an artist for some picture, were Jo's chief treasures and appeared on
all occasions. The smallness of the company made it necessary for the two
principal actors to take several parts apiece, and they certainly deserved some
credit for the hard work they did in learning three or four different parts,
whisking in and out of various costumes, and managing the stage besides. It was
excellent drill for their memories, a harmless amusement, and employed many
hours which otherwise would have been idle, lonely, or spent in less profitable
society.
On Christmas night, a
dozen girls piled onto the bed which was the dress circle, and sat before the
blue and yellow chintz curtains in a most flattering state of expectancy. There
was a good deal of rustling and whispering behind the curtain, a trifle of lamp
smoke, and an occasional giggle from Amy, who was apt to get hysterical in the
excitement of the moment. Presently a bell sounded, the curtains flew apart,
and the OPERATIC TRAGEDY began.
“A gloomy wood,”
according to the one playbill, was represented by a few shrubs in pots, green
baize on the floor, and a cave in the distance. This cave was made with a
clothes horse for a roof, bureaus for walls, and in it was a small furnace in
full blast, with a black pot on it and an old witch bending over it. The stage
was dark and the glow of the furnace had a fine effect, especially as real
steam issued from the kettle when the witch took off the cover. A moment was
allowed for the first thrill to subside, then Hugo, the villain, stalked in
with a clanking sword at his side, a slouching hat, black beard, mysterious
cloak, and the boots. After pacing to and fro in much agitation, he struck his
forehead, and burst out in a wild strain, singing of his hatred to Roderigo,
his love for Zara, and his pleasing resolution to kill the one and win the
other. The gruff tones of Hugo's voice, with an occasional shout when his
feelings overcame him, were very impressive, and the audience applauded the
moment he paused for breath. bowing with the air of one accustomed to public
praise, he stole to the cavern and ordered Hagar to come forth with a
commanding, “What ho, minion! I need thee!”
Out came Meg, with gray
horsehair hanging about her face, a red and black robe, a staff, and cabalistic
signs upon her cloak. Hugo demanded a potion to make Zara adore him, and one
destroy Roderigo. Hagar, in a fine dramatic melody, promised both, and
proceeded to call up the spirit who would bring the love philter.
Hither, hither, from
thy home,
Airy sprite, I bid thee
come!
Born of roses, fed on
dew,
Charms and potions
canst thou brew?
Bring me here, with
elfin speed,
The fragrant philter
which I need.
Make it sweet and swift
and strong,
Spirit, answer now my
song!
A soft strain of music
sounded, and then at the back of the cave appeared a little figure in cloudy
white, with glittering wings, golden hair, and a garland of roses on its head.
Waving a wand, it sang . . .
Hither I come,
From my airy home,
Afar in the silver
moon.
Take the magic spell,
And use it well,
Or its power will
vanish soon!
And dropping a small,
gilded bottle at the witch's feet, the spirit vanished. Another chant from
Hagar produced another apparition, not a lovely one, for with a bang an ugly
black imp appeared and, having croaked a reply, tossed a dark bottle at Hugo
and disappeared with a mocking laugh. Having warbled his thanks and put the
potions in his boots, Hugo departed, and Hagar informed the audience that as he
had killed a few of her friends in times past, she had cursed him, and intends
to thwart his plans, and be revenged on him. Then the curtain fell, and the
audience reposed and ate candy while discussing the merits of the play.
A good deal of
hammering went on before the curtain rose again, but when it became evident
what a masterpiece of stage carpentery had been got up, no one murmured at the
delay. It was truly superb. A tower rose to the ceiling, halfway up appeared a
window with a lamp burning in it, and behind the white curtain appeared Zara in
a lovely blue and silver dress, waiting for Roderigo. He came in gorgeous array,
with plumed cap, red cloak, chestnut lovelocks, a guitar, and the boots, of
course. Kneeling at the foot of the tower, he sang a serenade in melting tones.
Zara replied and, after a musical dialogue, consented to fly. Then came the
grand effect of the play. Roderigo produced a rope ladder, with five steps to
it, threw up one end, and invited Zara to descend. Timidly she crept from her
lattice, put her hand on Roderigo's shoulder, and was about to leap gracefully
down when “Alas! Alas for Zara!” she forgot her train. It caught in the window,
the tower tottered, leaned forward, fell with a crash, and buried the unhappy
lovers in the ruins.
A universal shriek
arose as the russet boots waved wildly from the wreck and a golden head
emerged, exclaiming, “I told you so! I told you so!” With wonderful presence of
mind, Don Pedro, the cruel sire, rushed in, dragged out his daughter, with a
hasty aside . . .
“Don't laugh! Act as if
it was all right!” and, ordering Roderigo up, banished him form the kingdom
with wrath and scorn. Though decidedly shaken by the fall from the tower upon
him, Roderigo defied the old gentleman and refused to stir. This dauntless
example fired Zara. She also defied her sire, and he ordered them both to the
deepest dungeons of the castle. A stout little retainer came in with chains and
led them away, looking very much frightened and evidently forgetting the speech
he ought to have made.
Act third was the
castle hall, and here Hagar appeared, having come to free the lovers and finish
Hugo. She hears him coming and hides, sees him put the potions into two cups of
wine and bid the the timid little servant, “Bear them to the captives in their
cells, and tell them I shall come anon.” The servant takes Hugo aside to tell
him something, and Hagar changes the cups for two others which are harmless.
Ferdinando, the `minion', carries them away, and Hagar puts back the cup which
holds the poison meant for Roderigo. Hugo, getting thirsty after a long warble,
drinks it, loses his wits, and after a good deal of clutching and stamping,
falls flat and dies, while Hagar informs him what she has done in a song of
exquisite power and melody.
This was a truly
thrilling scene, though some persons might have thought that the sudden
tumbling down of a quantity of long red hair rather marred the effect of the
villain's death. He was called before the curtain, and with great propriety
appeared, leading Hagar, whose singing was considered more wonderful than all
the rest of the performance put together.
Act fourth displayed
the despairing Roderigo on the point of stabbing himself because he has been
told that Zara has deserted him. Just as the dagger is at his heart, a lovely
song is sung under his window, informing him that Zara is true but in danger,
and he can save her if he will. A key is thrown in, which unlocks the door, and
in a spasm of rapture he tears off his chains and rushes away to find and
rescue his lady love.
Act fifth opened with a
stormy scene between Zara and Don Pedro. He wishes her to go into a convent,
but she won't hear of it, and after a touching appeal, is about to faint when
Roderigo dashes in and demands her hand. Don Pedro refuses, because he is not
rich. They shout and gesticulate tremendously but cannot agree, and Rodrigo is
about to bear away the exhausted Zara, when the timid servant enters with a
letter and a bag from Hagar, who has mysteriously disappeared. The latter
informs the party that she bequeaths untold wealth to the young pair and an
awful doom to Don Pedro, if he doesn't make them happy. The bag is opened, and
several quarts of tin money shower down upon the stage till it is quite
glorified with the glitter. This entirely softens the stern sire. He consents
without a murmur, all join in a joyful chorus, and the curtain falls upon the
lovers kneeling to receive Don Pedro's blessing in attitudes of the most
romantic grace.
Tumultuous applause
followed but received an unexpected check, for the cot bed, on which the dress
circle was built, suddenly shut up and extinguished the enthusiastic audience.
Roderigo and Don Pedro flew to the rescue, and all were taken out unhurt,
though many were speechless with laughter. the excitement had hardly subsided
when Hannah appeared, with “Mrs. March's compliments, and would the ladies walk
down to supper.”
This was a surprise
even to the actors, and when they saw the table, they looked at one another in
rapturous amazement. It was like Marmee to get up a little treat for them, but
anything so fine as this was unheard of since the departed days of plenty.
There was ice cream, actually two dishes of it, pink and white, and cake and
fruit and distracting french bonbons and, in the middle of the table, four
great bouquets of hot house flowers.
It quite took their
breath away, and they stared first at the table and then at their mother, who
looked as if she enjoyed it immensely.
“Is it fairies?” asked
Amy.
“Santa Claus,” said
Beth.
“Mother did it.” And
Meg smiled her sweetest, in spite of her gray beard and white eyebrows.
“Aunt March had a good
fit and sent the supper,” cried Jo, with a sudden inspiration.
“All wrong. Old Mr.
Laurence sent it,” replied Mrs. March.
“The Laurence boy's
grandfather! What in the world put such a thing into his head? We don't know
him!' exclaimed Meg.
“Hannah told one of his
servants about your breakfast party. He is an odd old gentleman, but that
pleased him. He knew my father years ago, and he sent me a polite note this
afternoon, saying he hoped I would allow him to express his friendly feeling toward
my children by sending them a few trifles in honor of the day. I could not
refuse, and so you have a little feast at night to make up for the
bread-and-milk breakfast.”
“That boy; put it into
his head, I know he did! He's a capital fellow, and I wish we could get
acquainted. He looks as if he'd like to know us but he's bashful, and Meg is so
prim she won't let me speak to him when we pass,” said Jo, as the plates went
round, and the ice began to melt out of sight, with ohs and ahs of
satisfaction.
“You mean the people
who live in the big house next door, don't you?” asked one of the girls. “My
mother knows old Mr. Laurence, but says he's very proud and doesn't like to mix
with his neighbors. He keeps his grandson shut up, when he isn't riding or walking
with his tutor, and makes him study very hard. We invited him to our party, but
he didn't come. Mother says he's very nice, though he never speaks to us girls.”
“Our cat ran away once,
and he brought her back, and we talked over the fence, and were getting on
capitally, all about cricket, and so on, when he saw Meg coming, and walked
off. I mean to know him some day, for he needs fun, I'm sure he does,” said Jo
decidedly.
“I like his manners,
and he looks like a little gentleman, so I've no objection to your knowing him,
if a proper opportunity comes. He brought the flowers himself, and I should
have asked him in, if I had been sure what was going on upstairs. He looked so
wistful as he went away, hearing the frolic and evidently having none of his own.”
“It's a mercy you
didn't , Mother!” laughed Jo, looking at her boots. “But we'll have another
play sometime that he can see. Perhaps he'll help act. Wouldn't that be jolly?”
“I never had such a
fine bouquet before! How pretty it is!” And Meg examined her flowers with great
interest.
“They are lovely. But
Beth's roses are sweeter to me,” said Mrs. March, smelling the half-dead posy
in her belt.
Beth nestled up to her,
and whispered softly, “I wish I could send my bunch to Father. I'm afraid he isn't
having such a merry Christmas as we are.”
“Jo! Jo! Where are you?”
cried Meg at the foot of the garret stairs.
“Here!” answered a
husky voice from above, and, running up, Meg found her sister eating apples and
crying over the HEIR OF REDCLYFFE, wrapped up in a comforter on an old
three-legged sofa by the sunny window. This was Jo's favorite refuge, and here
she loved to retire with half a dozen russets and a nice book, to enjoy the
quiet and the society of a pet rat who lived near by and didn't mind her a
particle. As Meg appeared, Scrabble whisked into his hole. Jo shook the tears
off her cheeks and waited to hear the news.
“Such fun! Only see! A
regular note of invitation from Mrs. Gardiner for tomorrow night!” cried Meg,
waving the precious paper and then proceeding to read it with girlish delight.
“`Mrs. Gardiner would
be happy to see Miss March and Miss Josephine at a little dance on New Year's
Eve.' Marmee is willing we should go, now what shall we wear?”
“What's the use of
asking that, when you know we shall wear our poplins, because we haven't got
anything else?” answered Jo with her mouth full.
“If I only had a silk!”
sighed Meg. “Mother says I may when I'm eighteen perhaps, but two years is an
everlasting time to wait.”
“I'm sure our pops look
like silk, and they are nice enough for us. Yours is as good as new, but I
forgot the burn and the tear in mine. Whatever shall I do? The burn shows
badly, and I can't take any out.”
“You must sit still all
you can and keep your back out of sight. The front is all right. I shall have a
new ribbon for my hair, and Marmee will lend me her little pearl pin, and my
new slippers are lovely, and my gloves will do, though they aren't as nice as
I'd like.”
“Mine are spoiled with lemonade,
and I can't get any new ones, so I shall have to go without,” said Jo, who
never troubled herself much about dress.
“You must have gloves,
or I won't go,” cried Meg decidedly. “Gloves are more important than anything
else. You can't dance without them, and if you don't I should be so mortified.”
“Then I'll stay still.
I don't care much for company dancing. It's no fun to go sailing round. I like
to fly about and cut capers.”
“You can't ask Mother
for new ones, they are so expensive, and you are so careless. She said when you
spoiled the others that she shouldn't get you any more this winter. Can't you
make them do?”
“I can hold them
crumpled up in my hand, so no one will know how stained they are. That's all I
can do. No! I'll tell you how we can manage, each wear one good one and carry a
bad one. Don't you see?”
“Your hands are bigger
than mine, and you will stretch my glove dreadfully,” began Meg, whose gloves
were a tender point with her.
“Then I'll go without.
I don't care what people say!” cried Jo, taking up her book.
“You may have it, you
may! Only don't stain it, and do behave nicely. Don't put your hands behind
you, or stare, or say `Christopher Columbus!' will you?”
“Don't worry about me.
I'll be as prim ad I can and not get into any scrapes, if I can help it. Now go
and answer your note, and let me finish this splendid story.”
So Meg went away to
`accept with thanks', look over her dress, and sing blithely as she did up her
one real lace frill, while Jo finished her story, her four apples, and had a
game of romps with Scrabble.
On New Year's Eve the
parlor was deserted, for the two younger girls played dressing maids and the
two elder were absorbed in the all-important business of `getting ready for the
party'. Simple as the toilets were, there was a great deal of running up and
down, laughing and talking, and at one time a strong smell of burned hair
pervaded the house. Meg wanted a few curls about her face, and Jo undertook to
pinch the papered locks with a pair of hot tongs.
“Ought they to smoke
like that?” asked Beth from her perch on the bed.
“It's the dampness
drying,” replied Jo.
“What a queer smell!
It's like burned feathers,” observed Amy, smoothing her own pretty curls with a
superior air.
“There, now I'll take
off the papers and you'll see a cloud of little ringlets,” said Jo, putting
down the tongs.
She did take off the
papers, but no cloud of ringlets appeared, for the hair came with the papers,
and the horrified hairdresser laid a row of little scorched bundles on the
bureau before her victim.
“Oh, oh, oh! What have
you done? I'm spoiled! I can't go! My hair, oh, my hair!” wailed Meg, looking
with despair at the uneven frizzle on her forehead.
“Just my luck! You
shouldn't have asked me to do it. I always spoil everything. I'm so sorry, but
the tongs were too hot, and so I've made a mess,” groaned poor Jo, regarding
the little black pancakes with tears of regret.
“It isn't spoiled. Just
frizzle it, and tie your ribbon so the ends come on your forehead a bit, and it
will look like the last fashion. I've seen many girls do it so,” said Amy
consolingly.
“Serves me right for
trying to be fine. I wish I'd let my hair alone,” cried Meg petulantly.
“So do I, it was so
smooth and pretty. But it will soon grow out again,” said Beth, coming to kiss
and comfort the shorn sheep.
After various lesser
mishaps, Meg was finished at last, and by the united exertions of the entire
family Jo's hair was got up and her dress on. They looked very well in their
simple suits, Meg's in silvery drab, with a blue velvet snood, lace frills, and
the pearl pin. Jo in maroon, with a stiff, gentlemanly linen collar, and a
white chrysanthemum or two for her only ornament. Each put on one nice light
glove, and carried one soiled one, and all pronounced the effect “quite easy
and fine”. Meg's high-heeled slippers were very tight and hurt her, though she
would not own it, and Jo's nineteen hairpins all seemed stuck straight into her
head, which was not exactly comfortable, but, dear me, let us be elegant or
die.
“Have a good time,
dearies!” said Mrs. March, as the sisters went daintily down the walk. “Don't
eat much supper, and come away at eleven when I send Hannah for you.” As the
gate clashed behind them, a voice cried from a window . . .
“Girls, girls! Have you
you both got nice pocket handkerchiefs?”
“Yes, yes, spandy nice,
and Meg has cologne on hers,” cried Jo, adding with a laugh as they went on, “I
do believe Marmee would ask that if we were all running away from an earthquake.
“It is one of her
aristocratic tastes, and quite proper, for a real lady is always known by neat
boots, gloves, and handkerchief,” replied Meg, who had a good many little
`aristocratic tastes' of her own.
“Now don't forget to
keep the bad breadth out of sight, Jo. Is my sash right? And does my hair look
very bad?” said Meg, as she turned from the glass in Mrs. Gardiner's dressing
room after a prolonged prink.
“I know I shall forget.
If you see me doing anything wrong, just remind me by a wink, will you?”
returned Jo, giving her collar a twitch and her head a hasty brush.
“No, winking isn't
ladylike. I'll lift my eyebrows if any thing is wrong, and nod if you are all
right. Now hold your shoulder straight, and take short steps, and don't shake
hands if you are introduced to anyone. It isn't the thing.”
“How do you learn all
the proper ways? I never can. Isn't that music gay?”
Down they went, feeling
a trifle timid, for they seldom went to parties, and informal as this little
gathering was, it was an event to them. Mrs. Gardiner, a stately old lady,
greeted them kindly and handed them over to the eldest of her six daughters.
Meg knew Sallie and was at her ease very soon, but Jo, who didn't care much for
girls or girlish gossip, stood about, with her back carefully against the wall,
and felt as much out of place as a colt in a flower garden. Half a dozen jovial
lads were talking about skates in another part of the room, and she longed to
go and join them, for skating was one of the joys of her life. She telegraphed
her wish to Meg, but the eyebrows went up so alarmingly that she dared not
stir. No one came to talk to her, and one by one the group dwindled away till
she was left alone. She could not roam about and amuse herself, for the burned breadth
would show, so she stared at people rather forlornly till the dancing began.
Meg was asked at once, and the tight slippers tripped about so briskly that
none would have guessed the pain their wearer suffered smilingly. Jo saw a big
red headed youth approaching her corner, and fearing he meant to engage her,
she slipped into a curtained recess, intending to peep and enjoy herself in
peace. Unfortunately, another bashful person had chosen the same refuge, for,
as the curtain fell behind her, she found herself face to face with the
`Laurence boy'.
“Dear me, I didn't know
anyone was here!” stammered Jo, preparing to back out as speedily as she had
bounced in.
But the boy laughed and
said pleasantly, though he looked a little startled, “Don't mind me, stay if
you like.”
“Shan't I disturb you?”
“Not a bit. I only came
here because I don't know many people and felt rather strange at first, you
know.”
“So did I. Don't go
away, please, unless you'd rather.”
The boy sat down again
and looked at his pumps, till Jo said, trying to be polite and easy, “I think
I've had the pleasure of seeing you before. You live near us, don't you?”
“Next door.” And he
looked up and laughed outright, for Jo's prim manner was rather funny when he
remembered how they had chatted about cricket when he brought the cat home.
That put Jo at her ease
and she laughed too, as she said, in her heartiest way, “We did have such a
good time over your nice Christmas present.”
“Grandpa sent it.”
“But you put it into
his head, didn't you, now?”
“How is your cat, Miss
March?” asked the boy, trying to look sober while his black eyes shone with
fun.
“Nicely, thank you, Mr.
Laurence. But I am not Miss March, I'm only Jo,” returned the young lady.
“I'm not Mr. Laurence,
I'm only Laurie.”
“Laurie Laurence, what
an odd name.”
“My first name is
Theodore, but I don't like it, for the fellows called me Dora, so I made the
say Laurie instead.”
“I hate my name, too,
so sentimental! I wish every one would say Jo instead of Josephine. How did you
make the boys stop calling you Dora?”
“I thrashed `em.”
“I can't thrash Aunt
March, so I suppose I shall have to bear it.” And Jo resigned herself with a
sigh.
“Don't you like to
dance, Miss Jo?” asked Laurie, looking as if he thought the name suited her.
“I like it well enough
if there is plenty of room, and everyone is lively. In a place like this I'm
sure to upset something, tread on people's toes, or do something dreadful, so I
keep out of mischief and let Meg sail about. Don't you dance?”
“Sometimes. You see
I've been abroad a good many years, and haven't been into company enough yet to
know how you do things here.”
“Abroad!.” cried Jo. “Oh,
tell me about it! I love dearly to hear people describe their travels.”
Laurie didn't seem to
know where to begin, but Jo's eager questions soon set him going, and he told
her how he had been at school in Vevay, where the boys never wore hats and had
a fleet of boats on the lake, and for holiday fun went on walking trips about
Switzerland with their teachers.
“Don't I wish I'd been
there!” cried Jo. “Did you go to Paris?”
“We spent last winter
there.”
“Can you talk French?”
“We were not allowed to
speak anything else at Vevay.”
“Do say some! I can
read it, but can't pronounce.”
“Quel nom a cette jeune
demoiselle en les pantoulles jolis?”
“How nicely you do it!
Let me see . . . you said, `Who is the young lady in the pretty slippers',
didn't you?”
“Oui, mademoiselle.”
“It's my sister
Margaret, and you knew it was! Do you think she is pretty?”
“Yes, she makes me
think of the German girls, she looks so fresh and quiet, and dances like a
lady.”
Jo quite glowed with
pleasure at this boyish praise of her sister, and stored it up to repeat to
Meg. Both peeped and criticized and chatted till they felt like old
acquaintances. Laurie's bashfulness soon wore off, for Jo's gentlemanly
demeanor amused and set him at his ease, and Jo was her merry self again,
because her dress was forgotten and nobody lifted their eyebrows at her. She
liked the `Laurence boy' better than ever and took several good looks at him,
so that she might describe him to the girls, for they had no brothers, very few
male cousins, and boys were almost unknown creatures to them.
“Curly black hair,
brown skin, big black eyes, handsome nose, fine teeth, small hands and feet,
taller than I am, very polite, for a boy, and altogether jolly. Wonder how old
he is?”
It was on the tip of
Jo's tongue to ask, but she checked herself in time and, with unusual tact,
tried to find out in a round-about way.
“I suppose you are
going to college soon? I see you pegging away at your books, no, I mean
studying hard.” And Jo blushed at the dreadful `pegging' which had escaped her.
Laurie smiled but
didn't seem shocked, and answered with a shrug. “Not for a year or two. I won't
go before seventeen, anyway.”
“Aren't you but
fifteen?” asked Jo, looking at the tall lad, whom she had imagined seventeen
already.
“Sixteen, next month.”
“How I wish I was going
to college! You don't look as if you liked it.”
“I hate it! Nothing but
grinding or skylarking. And I don't like the way fellows do either, in this
country.”
“What do you like?”
“To live in Italy, and
to enjoy myself in my own way.”
Jo wanted very much to
ask what his own way was, but his black brows looked rather threatening as he
knit them, so she changed the subject by saying, as her foot kept time, “That's
a splendid polka! Why don't you go and try it?”
“If you will come too,”
he answered, with a gallant little bow.
“I can't, for I told
meg I wouldn't, because . . .” There Jo stopped, and looked undecided whether
to tell or to laugh.
“Because, what?”
“You won't tell?”
“Never!”
“Well, I have a bad
trick of standing before the fire, and so I burn my frocks, and I scorched this
one, and though it's nicely mended, it shows, and Meg told me to keep still so
no one would see it. You may laugh, if you want to. It is funny, I know.”
But Laurie didn't
laugh. He only looked dawn a minute, and the expression of his face puzzled Jo
when he said very gently, “Never mind that. I'll tell you how we can manage.
There's a long hall out there, and we can dance grandly, and no one will see
us. Please come.”
Jo thanked him and
gladly went, wishing she had two neat gloves when she saw the nice,
pearl-colored ones her partner wore. The hall was empty, and they had a grand
polka, for Laurie danced well, and taught her the German step, which delighted
Jo,being full of swing and spring> When the music stopped, they sat down on
the stairs to get their breath, and Laurie was in the midst of an account of a
students' festival at Heidelberg when Meg appeared in search of her sister. She
beckoned, and Jo reluctantly followed her into a side room, where she found her
on a sofa, holding her foot, and looking pale.
“I've sprained my
ankle. That stupid high heel turned and gave me a sad wrench. It aches so, I
can hardly stand, and I don't know how I'm ever going to get home,” she said,
rocking to and fro in pain.
“I knew you'd hurt your
feet with those silly shoes. I'm sorry. But I don't see what you can do, except
get a carriage, or stay here all night,” answered Jo, softly rubbing the poor
ankle as she spoke.
“I can't have a
carriage without its costing ever so much. I dare say I can't get one at all,
for most people come in their own, and it's a long way to the stable, and no
one to send.”
“I'll go.”
“No, indeed! It's past
nine, and dark as Egypt. I can't stop here, for the house is full. Sallie has
some girls staying with her. I'll rest till Hannah comes, and then do the best
I can.”
“I'll ask Laurie. He
will go,” said Jo,” looking relieved as the idea occurred to her.
“Mercy, no! Don't ask
or tell anyone. Get me my rubbers, and put these slippers with our things. I
can't dance anymore, but as soon as supper is over, watch for Hannah and tell
me the minute she comes.”
“They are going out to
supper now. I'll stay with you. I'd rather.”
“No, dear, run along,
and bring me some coffee. I'm so tired I can't stir.”
So Meg reclined, with
rubbers well hidden, and Jo went blundering away to the dining room, which she
found after going into a china closet, and opening the door of a room where old
Mr. Gardiner was taking a little private refreshment. Making a dart at the
table, she secured the coffee, which she immediately spilled, thereby making
the front of her dress as bad as the back.
“Oh, dear, what a
blunderbuss I am!” exclaimed Jo, finishing Meg's glove by scrubbing her gown
with it.
“Can I help you?” said
a friendly voice. And there was Laurie, with a full cup in one hand and a plate
of ice in the other.
“I was trying to get
something for Meg, who is very tired, and someone shook me, and here I am in a
nice state,” answered Jo, glancing dismally from the stained skirt to the
coffee-colored glove.
“Too bad! I was looking
for someone to give this to. May I take it to your sister?”
“Oh, thank you! I'll
show you where she is. I don't offer to take it myself, for I should only get
into another scrape if I did.”
Jo led the way, and as
if used to waiting on ladies, Laurie drew up a little table, brought a second
installment of coffee and ice for Jo, and was so obliging that even particular
Meg pronounced him a `nice boy'. They had a merry time over the bonbons and
mottoes, and were in the midst of a quiet game of BUZZ, with two or three other
young people who had strayed in, when Hannah appeared. Meg forgot her foot and
rose so quickly that she was forced to catch hold of Jo, with an exclamation of
pain.
“Hush! Don't say anything,”
she whispered, adding aloud, “It's nothing. I turned my foot a little, that's
all,” and limped upstairs to put her things on.
Hannah scolded, Meg
cried, and Jo was at her wits' end, till se decided to take things into her own
hands. Slipping out, she ran down and, finding a servant, asked if he could get
her a carriage. It happened to be a hired waiter who knew nothing about the
neighborhood and Jo was looking round for help when Laurie, who had heard what
she said, came up and offered his grandfather's carriage, which had just come
for him, he said.
“It's so early! You
can't mean to go yet?” began Jo. looking relieved but hesitating to accept the
offer.
“I always go early, I
do, truly! Please let me take you home. It's all on my way, you know, and it
rains, they say.”
That settled it, and
telling him of Meg's mishap, Jo gratefully accepted and rushed up to bring down
the rest of the party. Hannah hated rain as much as a cat does so she made no
trouble, and they rolled away in the luxurious close carriage, feeling very
festive and elegant. Laurie went on the box so Meg could keep her foot up, and
the girls talked over their party in freedom.
“I had a capital time.
Did you?' asked Jo, rumpling up her hair, and making herself comfortable.
“Yes, till I hurt
myself. Sallie's friend, Annie Moffat, took a fancy to me, and asked me to come
and spend a week with her when Sallie does. She is going in the spring when the
opera comes, and it will be perfectly splendid, if Mother only lets me go,” answered
Meg, cheering up at the thought.
“I saw you dancing with
the red headed man I ran away from. Was he nice?”
“Oh, very! His hair is
auburn, not red, and he was very polite, and I had a delicious redowa with him.”
“He looked like a
grasshopper in a fit when he did the new step. Laurie and I couldn't help
laughing. Did you hear us?”
“No, but it was very
rude. What were you about all that time, hidden away there?”
Jo told her adventures,
and by the time she had finished they were at home. With many thanks, they said
good night and crept in, hoping to disturb no one, but the instant their door
creaked, two little nightcaps bobbed up, and two sleepy but eager voices cried
out . . .
“Tell about the party!
Tell about the party!”
With what Meg called `a
great want of manners' Jo had saved some bonbons for the little girls, and they
soon subsided, after hearing the most thrilling events of the evening.
“I declare, it really
seems like being a fine young lady, to come home from the party in a carriage
and sit in my dressing gown wit a maid to wait on me,” said Meg, as Jo bound up
her foot with arnica and brushed her hair.
“I don't believe fine
young ladies enjoy themselves a bit more than we do, in spite of our burned
hair, old gowns, one glove apiece and tight slippers that sprain our ankles
when we are silly enough to wear them,” And I think Jo was quite right.
“Oh, dear, how hard it
does seem to take up our packs and go on,” sighed Meg the morning after the
party, for now the holidays were over, the week of merrymaking did not fit her
for going on easily with the task she never liked.
“I wish it was
Christmas or New Year's all the time. Wouldn't it be fun?” answered Jo, yawning
dismally.
“We shouldn't enjoy
ourselves half so much as we do now. But it does seem so nice to have little
suppers and bouquets, and go to parties, and drive home, and read and rest,and
not work. It's like other people, you know, and I always envy girls who do such
things, I'm so fond of luxury,” said Meg, trying to decide which of two shabby
gowns was the least shabby.
“Well, we can't have
it, so don't let us grumble but shoulder our bundles and trudge along as
cheerfully as Marmee does. I'm sure Aunt March is a regular Old Man of the Sea
to me, but I suppose when I've learned to carry her without complaining, she
will tumble off, or get so light that I shan't mind her.”
This idea tickled Jo's
fancy and put her in good spirits, but Meg didn't brighten, for her burden,
consisting of four spoiled children, seemed heavier than ever. She had not
heart enough even to make herself pretty as usual by putting on a blue neck
ribbon and dressing her hair in the most becoming way.
“Where's the use of
looking nice, when no one sees me but those cross midgets, and no one cares
whether I'm pretty or not?” she muttered, shutting her drawer with a jerk. “I
shall have to toil and moil all my days, with only little bits of fun now and
then, and get old and ugly and sour, because I'm poor and can't enjoy my life
as other girls do. It's a shame!”
So Meg went down,
wearing an injured look, and wasn't at all agreeable at breakfast time.
Everyone seemed rather out of sorts and inclined to croak.
Beth had a headache and
lay on the sofa, trying to comfort herself with the cat and three kittens. Amy
was fretting because her lessons were not learned, and she couldn't find her
rubbers. Jo would whistle and make a great racket getting ready.
Mrs. March was very
busy trying to finish a letter, which must go at once, and Hannah had the
grumps, for being up late didn't suit her.
“There never was such a
cross family!” cried Jo, losing her temper when she had upset an inkstand,
broken both boot lacings, and sat down upon her hat.
“You're the crossest
person in it!” returned Amy, washing out the sum that was all wrong with the
tears that had fallen on her slate.
“Beth, if you don't
keep these horrid cats down cellar I'll have them drowned,” exclaimed Meg
angrily as she tried to get rid of the kitten which had scrambled up her back and
stuck like a burr just out of reach.
Jo laughed, Meg
scolded, Beth implored, and Amy wailed because she couldn't remember how much
nine times twelve was.
“Girls, girls, do be
quiet one minute! I must get this off by the early mail, and you drive me distracted
with your worry,” cried Mrs. March, crossing out the third spoiled sentence in
her letter.
There was a momentary
lull, broken by Hannah, who stalked in, laid two hot turnovers on the table,
and stalked out again. These turnovers were an institution, and the girls
called them `muffs',for they had no others and found the hot pies very
comforting to their hands on cold mornings.
Hannah never forgot to
make them, no matter how busy or grumpy she might be, for the walk was long and
bleak. The poor things got no other lunch and were seldom home before two.
“Cuddle your cats and
get over your headache, Bethy. Goodbye, Marmee. We are a set of rascals this
morning, but we'll come home regular angels. Now then, Meg!” And Jo tramped
away, feeling that the pilgrims were not setting out as they ought to do.
They always looked back
before turning the corner, for their mother was always at the window to nod and
smile, and wave her hand to them. Somehow it seemed as if they couldn't have
got through the day without that, for whatever their mood might be, the last
glimpse of that motherly face was sure to affect them like sunshine.
“If Marmee shook her
fist instead of kissing her hand to us, it would serve us right, for more
ungrateful wretches than we are were never seen,” cried Jo, taking a remorseful
satisfaction in the snowy walk and bitter wind.
“Don't use such
dreadful expressions,” replied Meg from the depths of the veil in which she had
shrouded herself like a nun sick of the world.
“I like good strong
words that mean something,” replied Jo, catching her hat as it took a leap off
her head preparatory to flying away altogether.
“Call yourself any
names you like, but I am neither a rascal nor a wretch and I don't choose to be
called so.”
“You're a blighted
being, and decidedly cross today because you can't sit in the lap of luxury all
the time. Poor dear, just wait till I make my fortune, and you shall revel in
carriages and ice cream and high-heeled slippers, and posies, and red-headed
boys to dance with.”
“How ridiculous you
are, Jo!” But Meg laughed at the nonsense and felt better in spite of herself.
“Lucky for you I am,
for if I put on crushed airs and tried to be dismal, as you do, we should be in
a nice state. Thank goodness, I can always find something funny to keep me up.
Don't croak any more, but come home jolly, there's a dear.”
Jo gave her sister an
encouraging pat on the shoulder as they parted for the day, each going a
different way, each hugging her little warm turnover, and each trying to be
cheerful in spite of wintry weather, hard work, and the unsatisfied desires of
pleasure-loving youth.
When Mr. March lost his
property in trying to help an unfortunate friend,the two oldest girls begged to
be allowed to do something toward their own support, at least. Believing that
they could not begin too early to cultivate energy, industry, and independence,
their parents consented, and both fell to work with the hearty good will which
in spite of all obstacles is sure to succeed at last.
Margaret found a place
as nursery governess and felt rich with her small salary. As she said, she was
`fond of luxury', and her chief trouble was poverty. She found it harder to
bear than the others because she could remember a time when home was beautiful,life
full of ease and pleasure, and want of any kind unknown. She tried not to be
envious or discontented, but it was very natural that the young girl should
long for pretty things, gay friends, accomplishments, and a happy life. At the
Kings' she daily saw all she wanted, for the children's older sisters were just
out, and Meg caught frequent glimpses of dainty ball dresses and bouquets,
heard lively gossip about theaters, concerts, sleighing parties, and
merrymakings of all kinds, and saw money lavished on trifles which would have
been so precious to her. Poor Meg seldom complained,but a sense of injustice
made her feel bitter toward everyone sometimes,for she had not yet learned to
know how rich she was in the blessings which alone can make life happy.
Jo happened to suit
Aunt March, who was lame and needed an active person to wait upon her. The
childless old lady had offered to adopt one of the girls when the troubles
came, and was much offended because her offer was declined. Other friends told the
Marches that they had lost all chance of being remembered in the rich old
lady's will, but the unworldly Marches only said . . .
“We can't give up our
girls for a dozen fortunes. Rich or poor, we will keep together and be happy in
one another.”
The old lady wouldn't
speak to them for a time, but happening to meet Jo at at a friend's, something
in her comical face and blunt manners struck the old lady's fancy, and she
proposed to take her for a companion. This did not suit Jo at all, but she
accepted the place since nothing better appeared and, to every one's surprise,
got on remarkably well with her irascible relative. There was an occasional
tempest, and once Jo marched home, declaring she couldn't bear it longer, but
Aunt March always cleared up quickly, and sent for her to come back again with
such urgency that she could not refuse, for in her heart she rather liked the
peppery old lady.
I suspect that the real
attraction was a large library of fine books, which was left to dust and
spiders since Uncle March died. Jo remembered the kind old gentleman, who used
to let her build railroads and bridges with his big dictionaries, tell her
stories about queer pictures in his Latin books, and buy her cards of
gingerbread whenever he met her in the street. The dim, dusty room, with the
busts staring down from the tall bookcases, the cozy chairs, the globes, and
best of all, the wilderness of books in which she could wander where she liked,
made the library a region of bliss to her.
The moment Aunt March took
her nap, or was busy with company, Jo hurried to this quiet place,and curling
herself up in the easy chair, devoured poetry, romance, history, travels, and
pictures like a regular bookworm. But, like all happiness, it did not last
long, for as sure as she had just reached the heart of the story, the sweetest
verse of a song, or the most perilous adventure of her traveler, a shrill voice
called, “Josy-phine! Josy-phine! and she had to leave her paradise to wind
yarn, wash the poodle, or read Belsham's Essays by the hour together.
Jo's ambition was to do
something very splendid. What it was, she had no idea as yet, but left it for
time to tell her, and meanwhile, found her greatest affliction in the fact that
she couldn't read, run, and ride as much as she liked. A quick temper, sharp
tongue, and restless spirit were always getting her into scrapes, and her life
was a series of ups and downs, which were both comic and pathetic. But the
training she received at Aunt March's was just what she needed, and the thought
that she was doing something to support herself made her happy in spite of the
perpetual “Josy-phine!”
Beth was too bashful to
go to school.It had been tried, but she suffered so much that it was given up,
and she did her lessons at home with her father. Even when he went away, and
her mother was called to devote her skill and energy to Soldiers' Aid
Societies, Beth went faithfully on by herself and did the best she could. She
was a housewifely little creature, and helped Hannah keep home neat and
comfortable for the workers, never thinking of any reward but to be loved.
Long, quiet days she spent, not lonely nor idle, for her little world was
peopled with imaginary friends,and she was by nature a busy bee. There were six
dolls to be taken up and dressed every morning, for Beth was a child still and
and loved her pets as well as ever. Not one whole or handsome one among them,
all were outcasts till Beth took them in, for when her sisters outgrew these
idols, they passed to her because Amy would have nothing old or ugly. Beth
cherished them all the more tenderly for that very reason, and set up a
hospital for infirm dolls. No pins were ever stuck into their cotton vitals, no
harsh words or blows were ever given them, no neglect ever saddened the heart
or the most repulsive, but all were fed and clothed, nursed and caressed with
an affection which never failed. One forlorn fragment of dollanity had belonged
to Jo and, having led a tempestuous life, was left a wreck in the rag bag, from
which dreary poorhouse it was rescued by Beth and taken to her refuge. Having
no top to its head, she tied on a neat little cap, and as both arms and legs
were gone, she hid these deficiencies by folding it in a blanket and devoting
her best bed to this chronic invalid. If any had known the care lavished on
that dolly, I think it would have touched their hearts, even while they
laughed. She brought it bits of bouquets, she read to it, took it out to
breathe fresh air, hidden under her coat, she sang it lullabies and never went
to be without kissing its dirty face and whispering tenderly, “I hope you'll
have a good night, my poor dear.”
Beth had her troubles
as well as the others, and not being an angel but a very human little girl, she
often `wept a little weep' as Jo said, because she couldn't take music lessons
and have a fine piano. She loved music so dearly, tried so hard to learn, and
practiced away so patiently at the jingling old instrument, that it did seem as
if someone (not to hint Aunt March) ought to help her. Nobody did, however, and
nobody saw Beth wipe the tears off the yellow keys, that wouldn't keep in tune,
when she was all alone. She sang like a little lark about her work, never was
too tired for Marmee and the girls, and day after day said hopefully to
herself, “ I know I'll get my music some time, if I'm good.”
There are many Beths in
the world, shy and quiet, sitting in corners till needed, and living for others
so cheerfully that no one sees the sacrifices till the little cricket on the
hearth stops chirping, and the sweet, sunshiny presence vanishes, leaving
silence and shadow behind.
If anybody had asked
Amy what the greatest trial of her life was, she would have answered at once, “My
nose.” When she was a baby,Jo had accidently dropped her into the coal hod, and
Amy insisted that the fall had ruined her nose forever. It was not big nor red,
like poor `Petrea's', it was only rather flat, and all the pinching in the
world could not give it an aristocratic point. No one minded it but herself,
and it was doing its best to grow, but Amy felt deeply the want of a Grecian
nose, and drew whole sheets of handsome ones to console herself.
“Little Raphael,” as
her sisters called her, had a decided talent for drawing, and was never so
happy as when copying flowers, designing fairies, or illustrating stories with
queer specimens of art. Her teachers complained that instead of doing her sums
she covered her slate with animals, the blank pages of her atlas were used to
copy maps on, and caricatures of the most ludicrous description came fluttering
out of all her books at unlucky moments. She got through her lessons as well as
she could, and managed to escape reprimands by being a model of deportment. She
was a great favorite with her mates, being good-tempered and possessing the
happy art of pleasing without effort. Her little airs and graces were much
admired, so were her accomplishments, for besides her drawing, she could play
twelve tunes, crochet, and read French without mispronouncing more than
two-thirds of the words. She had a plaintive way of saying, “When Papa was rich
we did so-and-so,” which was very touching, and her long words were considered
`perfectly elegant' by the girls.
Amy was in a fair way
to be spoiled, for everyone petted her, and her small vanities and
selfishnesses were growing nicely. One thing, however, rather quenched the
vanities. She had to wear her cousin's clothes. Now Florence's mama hadn't a
particle of taste, and Amy suffered deeply at having to wear a red instead of a
blue bonnet, unbecoming gowns, and fussy aprons that did not fit. Everything
was good, well made, and little worn, but Amy's artistic eyes were much
afflicted, especially this winter, when her school dress was a dull purple with
yellow dots and no trimming.
“My only comfort,” she
said to Meg, with tears in her eyes, “is that Mother doesn't take tucks in my
dresses whenever I'm naughty, as Maria Parks's mother does. My dear, it's
really dreadful, for sometimes she is so bad her frock is up to her knees, and
she can't come to school. When I think of this deggerredation, I fell that I
can bear even my flat nose and purple gown with yellow skyrockets on it.”
Meg was Amy's
confidante and monitor, and by some strange attraction of opposites Jo was
gentle Beth's. To Jo alone did the shy child tell her thoughts, and over her
big harum-scarum sister Beth unconsciously exercised more influence than anyone
in the family. The two older girls were a great deal to one another, but each
took one of the younger sisters into her keeping and watched over her in her
own way, `playing mother' they called it, and put their sisters in the places
of discarded dolls with the maternal instinct of little women.
“Has anybody got
anything to tell? It's been such a dismal day I'm really dying for some
amusement,” said Meg, as they sat sewing together that evening.
“I had a queer time
with Aunt today, and, as I got the best of it, I'll tell you about it,” began
Jo, who dearly loved to tell stories. “I was reading that everlasting Belsham,
and droning away as I always do, for Aunt soon drops off, and then I take out
some nice book, and read like fury till she wakes up. I actually made myself
sleepy, and before she began to nod, I gave such a gape that she asked me what
I meant by opening my mouth wide enough to take the whole book in at once.
“I wish I could, and be
done with it,” said I, trying not to be saucy.
“Then she gave me a
long lecture on my sins, and told me to sit and think them over while she just
`lost' herself for a moment. She never finds herself very soon, so the minute
her cap began to bob like a top-heavy dahlia, I whipped the VICAR OF WAKEFIELD
out of my pocket, and read away, with one eye on him and one on Aunt. I'd just
got to where they all tumbled into the water when I forgot and laughed out
loud. Aunt woke up and, being more good-natured after her nap, told me to read
a bit and show what frivolous work I preferred to the worthy and instructive
Belsham. I did my very best, and she liked it, though she only said . . .
“I don't understand
what it's all about. Go back and begin it, child.”
“Back I went, and made
the Primroses as interesting as ever I could. Once I was wicked enough to stop
in a thrilling place, and say meekly, “I'm afraid it tires you, ma'am. Shan't I
stop now?”
“She caught up her
knitting, which had dropped out of her hands, gave me a sharp look through her
specs, and said, in her short way, `Finish the chapter, and don't be
impertinent, miss'.”
“Did she own she liked
it?” asked Meg.
“Oh, bless you, no! But
she let old Belsham rest, and when I ran back after my gloves this afternoon,
there she was, so hard at the Vicar that she didn't hear me laugh as I danced a
jig in the hall because of the good time coming. What a pleasant life she might
have if only she chose! I don't envy her much, in spite of her money, for after
all rich people have about as many worries as poor ones, I think,” added Jo.
“That reminds me,” said
Meg, “that I've got something to tell. It isn't funny, like Jo's story, but I thought
about it a good deal as I came home. At the Kings' today I found everybody in a
flurry, and one of the children said that her oldest brother had done something
dreadful, and Papa had sent him away. I heard Mrs. King crying and Mr. King
talking very loud, and Grace and Ellen turned away their faces when they passed
me, so I shouldn't see how red and swollen their eyes were. I didn't ask any
questions, of course, but I felt so sorry for them and was rather glad I hadn't
any wild brothers to do wicked things and disgrace the family.”
“I think being
disgraced in school is a great deal tryinger than anything bad boys can do,”
said Amy, shaking her head, as if her experience of life had been a deep one. “Susie
Perkins came to school today with a lovely red carnelian ring. I wanted it
dreadfully, and wished I was her with all my might. Well, she drew a picture of
Mr. Davis, with a monstrous nose and a hump, and the words, `Young ladies, my
eye is upon you!' coming out of his mouth in a balloon thing. We were laughing
over it when all of a sudden his eye was on us, and he ordered Susie to bring
up her slate. She was parrylized with fright, but she went, and oh, what do you
think he did? He took her by the ear--the ear! Just fancy how horrid!--and led
her to the recitation platform, and made her stand there half and hour, holding
the slate so everyone could see.”
“Didn't the girls laugh
at the picture?” asked Jo, who relished the scrape.
“Laugh? Not one! They
sat still as mice, and Susie cried quarts, I know she did. I didn't envy her
then, for I felt that millions of carnelian rings wouldn't have made me happy
after that. I never, never should have got over such a agonizing mortification.”
And Amy went on with her work, in the proud consciousness of virtue and the
successful utterance of two long words in a breath.
“I saw something I
liked this morning, and I meant to tell it at dinner, but I forgot,” said Beth,
putting Jo's topsy-turvy basket in order as she talked. “When I went to get
some oysters for Hannah, Mr. Laurence was in the fish shop, but he didn't see
me, for I kept behind the fish barrel, and he was busy with Mr. Cutter the
fishman. A poor woman came in with a pail a mop, and asked Mr. Cutter if he
would let her do some scrubbing for a bit of fish, because she hadn't any
dinner for her children, and had been disappointed of a day's work. Mr. Cutter
was in a hurry and said `No', rather crossly, so she was going away, looking
hungry and sorry, when Mr. Laurence hooked up a big fish with the crooked end
of his cane and held it out to her. She was so glad and surprised she took it
right into her arms, and thanked him over and over. He told her to `go along
and cook it', and she hurried off, so happy! Wasn't it good of him? Oh, she did
look so funny, hugging the big, slippery fish, and hoping Mr. Laurence's bed in
heaven would be `aisy'.”
When they had laughed
at Beth's story, they asked their mother for one, and after a moments thought,
she said soberly, “As I sat cutting out blue flannel jackets today at the
rooms, I felt very anxious about Father, and thought how lonely and helpless we
should be , if anything happened to him. It was not a wise thing to do, but I
kept on worrying till an old man came in with an order for some clothes. He sat
down near me, and I began to talk to him, for he looked poor and tired and
anxious.
“`Have you sons in the
army?' I asked,for the note he brought was not to me.
“Yes, ma'am. I had
four, but two were killed, one is a prisoner, and I'm going to the other, who is
very sick in a Washington hospital.' he answered quietly.
“`You have done a great
deal for your country, sir,' I said, feeling respect now, instead of pity.
“`Not a mite more than
I ought, ma'am. I'd go myself, if I was any use. As I ain't, I give my boys,
and give 'em free.'
“He spoke so
cheerfully, looked so sincere, and seemed so glad to give his all, that I was
ashamed of myself. I'd given one man and thought it too much, while he gave
four without grudging them. I had all my girls to comfort me at home, and his
last son was waiting, miles away, to say good-by to him, perhaps! I felt so
rich, so happy thinking of my blessings, that I made him a nice bundle, gave
him some money, and thanked him heartily for the lesson he had taught me.”
“Tell another story,
Mother, one with a moral to it, like this. I like to think about them
afterward, if they are real and not too preachy,” said Jo, after a minute's
silence.
Mrs. March smiled and
began at once, for she had told stories to this little audience for many years,
and knew how to please them.
“Once upon a time,
there were four girls, who had enough to eat and drink and wear, a good many
comforts and pleasures, kind friends and parents who loved them dearly, and yet
they were not contented.” (Here the listeners stole sly looks at one another,
and began to sew diligently.) “These girls were anxious to be good and made
many excellent resolutions, but they did not keep them very well, and were
constantly saying, `If only we had this,' or `If we could only do that,' quite
forgetting how much they already had, and how many things they actually could
do. So they asked an old woman what spell they could use to make them happy,
and she said, `When you feel discontented, think over your blessings, and be
grateful.'” (Here Jo looked up quickly, as if about to speak, but changed her
mind, seeing that the story was not done yet.)
“Being sensible girls,
they decided to try her advice, and soon were surprised to see how well off
they were. One discovered that money couldn't keep shame and sorrow out of rich
people's houses, another that, though she was poor, she was a great deal
happier, with her youth, health, and good spirits, than a certain fretful,
feeble old lady who couldn't enjoy her comforts, a third that, disagreeable as
it was to help get dinner, it was harder still to go begging for it and the
fourth, that even carnelian rings were not so valuable as good behavior. So
they agreed to stop complaining, to enjoy the blessings already possessed, and
try to deserve them, lest they should be taken away entirely, instead of
increased, and I believe they were never disappointed or sorry that they took
the old woman's advice.”
“Now, Marmee, that is
very cunning of you to turn our own stories against us, and give us a sermon
instead of a romance!” cried Meg.
“I like that kind of
sermon. It's the sort Father used to tell us,” said Beth thoughtfully, putting
the needles straight on Jo's cushion.
“I don't complain near
as much as the others do, and I shall be more careful than ever now, for I've
had warning from Susies's downfall,” said Amy morally.
“We needed that lesson,
and we won't forget it. If we do so, you just say to us, as old Chloe did in
UNCLE TOM, `Tink ob yer marcies, chillen! `Tink ob yer marcies!'” added Jo, who
could not, for the life of her, help getting a morsel of fun out of the little
sermon, though she took it to heart as much as any of them.
“What in the world are
you going to do now, Jo.” asked Meg one snowy afternoon,as her sister came
tramping through the hall, in rubber boots, old sack, and hood, with a broom in
one hand and a shovel in the other.
“Going out for
exercise,” answered Jo with a mischievous twinkle in her eyes.
“I should think two
long walks this morning would have been enough! It's cold and dull out, and I
advise you to stay warm and dry by the fire, as I do,” said Meg with a shiver.
“Never take advice!
Can't keep still all day, and not being a pussycat, I don't like to doze by the
fire. I like adventures, and I'm going to find some.”
Meg went back to toast
her feet and read IVANHOE, and Jo began to dig paths with great energy. The
snow was light, and with her broom she soon swept a path all round the garden,
for Beth to walk in when the sun came out and the invalid dolls needed air.
Now, the garden separated the Marches' house from that of Mr. Laurence. Both
stood in a suburb of the city, which was still countrylike, with groves and
lawns, large gardens, and quiet streets. A low hedge parted the two estates. On
one side was an old, brown house, looking rather bare and shabby, robbed of the
vines that in summer covered its walls and the flowers, which then surrounded
it. On the other side was a stately stone mansion, plainly betokening every
sort of comfort and luxury, from the big coach house and well-kept grounds to
the conservatory and the glimpses of lovely things one caught between the rich
curtains.
Yet it seemed a lonely,
lifeless sort of house, for no children frolicked on the lawn, no motherly face
ever smiled at the windows, and few people went in and out, except the old
gentleman and his grandson.
To Jo's lively fancy,
this fine house seemed a kind of enchanted palace, full of splendors and
delights which no one enjoyed. She had long wanted to behold these hidden
glories, and to know the Laurence boy, who looked as if he would like to be
known, if he only knew how to begin. Since the party, she had been more eager
than ever, and had planned many ways of making friends with him, but he had not
been seen lately, and Jo began to think he had gone away, when she one day
spied a brown face at an upper window, looking wistfully down into their
garden, where Beth and Amy were snow-balling one another.
“That boy is suffering
for society and fun,” she said to herself. “His grandpa does not know what's
good for him, and keeps him shut up all alone. He needs a party of jolly boys
to play with, or somebody young and lively. I've a great mind to go over and
tell the old gentleman so!”
The idea amused Jo. who
liked to do daring things and was always scandalizing Meg by her queer
performances. The plan of `going over' was not forgotten. And when the snowy
afternoon came, Jo resolved to try what could be done. She saw Mr. Lawrence
drive off, and then sallied out to dig her way down to the hedge, where she
paused and took a survey. All quiet, curtains down at the lower windows,
servants out of sight, and nothing human visible but a curly black head leaning
on a thin hand at the upper window.
“There he is,” thought
Jo, “Poor boy! All alone and sick this dismal day. It's a shame! I'll toss up a
snowball and make him look out, and then say a kind word to him.”
Up went a handful of
soft snow, and the head turned at once, showing a face which lost its listless
look in a minute, as the big eyes brightened and the mouth began to smile. Jo
nodded and laughed, and flourished her broom as she called out . . .
“How do you do? Are you
sick?”
Laurie opened the
window, and croaked out as hoarsely as a raven . . .
“Better, thank you.
I've had a bad cold, and been shut up a week.”
“I'm sorry. What do you
amuse yourself with?”
“Nothing. It's dull as
tombs up here.”
“Don't you read?”
“Not much. They won't
let me.”
“Can't somebody read to
you?”
“Grandpa does
sometimes, but my books don't interest him, and I hate to ask Brooke all the
time.”
“Have someone come and
see you then.”
“There isn't anyone I'd
like to see. Boys make such a row, and my head is weak.”
“Isn't there some nice
girl who'd read and amuse you? Girls are quiet and like to play nurse.”
“Don't know any.”
“You know us,” began
Jo, then laughed and stopped.
“So I do! Will you
come, please?” cried Laurie.
“I'm not quiet and
nice, but I'll come, if Mother will let me. I'll go ask her. Shut the window,
like a good boy, and wait till I come.”
With that, Jo
shouldered her broom and marched into the house, wondering what they would all
say to her. Laurie was in a flutter of excitement at the idea of having
company, and flew about to get ready, for as Mrs. March said, he was `a little
gentleman'. and did honor to the coming guest by brushing his curly pate,
putting on a fresh color, and trying tidy up the room, which in spite of half a
dozen servants, was anything but neat. Presently there came a loud ring, than a
decided voice, asking for `Mr. Laurie', and a surprised-looking servant came
running up to announce a young lady.
“All right, show her
up, it's Miss Jo,”said Laurie, going to the door of his little parlor to meet
Jo, who appeared, looking rosy and quite at her ease, with a covered dish in
one hand and Beth's three kittens in the other.
“Here I am, bag and
baggage,” she said briskly. “Mother sent her love, and was glad if I could do
anything for you. Meg wanted me to bring some of her blancmange, she makes it
very nicely, and Beth thought her cats would be comforting. I knew you'd laugh
at them, but I couldn't refuse, she was so anxious to do something.”
It so happened that
Beth's funny loan was just the thing, for in laughing over the kits, Laurie
forgot his bashfulness, and grew sociable at once.
“That looks too pretty
to eat,” he said, smiling with pleasure, as Jo uncovered the dish, and showed
the blancmange, surrounded by a garland of green leaves, and the scarlet
flowers of Amy's pet geranium.
“It isn't anything,
only they all felt kindly and wanted to show it. Tell the girl to put it away
for your tea. It's so simple you can eat it, and being soft, it will slip down
without hurting your sore throat. What a cozy room this is!”
“It might be it it was
kept nice, but the maids are lazy, and I don't know how to make them mind. It
worries me though.”
“I'll right it up in
two minutes, for it only needs to have the hearth brushed, so--and the things
made straight on the mantelpiece, so--and the books put here, and the bottles
there, and your sofa turned from the light, and the pillows plumped up a bit.
Now then, you're fixed.”
And so he was, for, as
she laughed and talked, Jo had whisked things into place and given quite a different
air to the room. Laurie watched her in respectful silence, and when she
beckoned him to his sofa, he sat down with a sigh of satisfaction, saying
gratefully . . .
“How kind you are! Yes,
that's what it wanted. Now please take the big chair and let me do something to
amuse my company.”
“No, I came to amuse
you. Shall I read aloud?” and Jo looked affectionately toward some inviting
books near by.
“Thank you! I've read
all those, and if you don't mind, I'd rather talk,” answered Laurie.
“Not a bit. I'll talk
all day if you'll only set me going. Beth says I never know when to stop.”
“Is Beth the rosy one,
who stays at home good deal and sometimes goes out with a little basket?” asked
Laurie with interest.
“Yes, that's Beth.
She's my girl, and a regular good one she is, too.”
“The pretty one is Meg,
and the curly-haired one is Amy, I believe?”
Laurie colored up, but
answered frankly, “Why, you see I often hear you calling to one another, and
when I'm alone up here, I can't help looking over at your house, you always
seem to be having such good times. I beg your pardon for being so rude, but
sometimes you forget to put down the curtain at the window where the flowers
are. And when the lamps are lighted, it's like looking at a picture to see the
fire, and you all around the table with your mother. Her face is right
opposite, and it looks so sweet behind the flowers, I can't help watching it. I
haven't got any mother, you know.” And Laurie poked the fire to hide a little
twitching of the lips that he could not control.
The solitary, hungry
look in his eyes went straight to Jo's warm heart. she had been so simply
taught that there was no nonsense in her head, and at fifteen she was as
innocent and frank as any child. Laurie was sick and lonely, and feeling how
rich she was in home and happiness, she gladly tried to share it with him. Her
face was very friendly and her sharp voice unusually gentle as she said . . .
“We'll never draw that
curtain any more, and I give you leave to look as much as you like. I just
wish, though, instead of peeping, you'd come over and see us. Mother is so
splendid, she'd do you heaps of good, and Beth would sing to you if I begged
her to, and Amy would dance. Meg and I would make you laugh over our funny
stage properties, and we'd have jolly times. Wouldn't your grandpa let you?”
“I think he would, if
your mother asked him. He's very kind, though he does not look so, and he lets
me do what I like, pretty much, only he's afraid I might be a bother to
strangers,” began Laurie, brightening more and more.
“We are not strangers,
we are neighbors, and you needn't think you'd be a bother. We want to know you,
and I've been trying to do it this ever so long. We haven't been here a great
while, you know, but we have got acquainted with all our neighbors but you.”
“You see, Grandpa lives
among his books, and doesn't mind much what happens outside. Mr. Brooke, my
tutor, doesn't stay here, you know, and I have no one to go about with me, so I
just stop at home and get on as I can.”
“That's bad. You ought
to make an effort and go visiting everywhere you are asked, then you'll have
plenty of friends, and pleasant places to go to. Never mind being bashful. It
won't last long if you keep going.”
Laurie turned red
again, but wasn't offended at being accused of bashfulness, for there was so
much good will in Jo it was impossible not to take her blunt speeches as kindly
as they were meant.
“Do you like your
school?” asked the boy, changing the subject, after a little pause, during
which he stared at the fire and Jo looked about her, well pleased.
“Don't go to school,
I'm a businessman--girl, I mean. I go to wait on my great-aunt, and a dear,
cross old soul she is, too,” answered Jo.
Laurie opened his mouth
to ask another question, but remembering just in time that it wasn't manners to
make too many inquiries into people's affairs, he shut it again, and looked
uncomfortable.
Jo liked his good
breeding, and didn't mind having a laugh at Aunt March, so she gave him a
lively description of the fidgety old lady, her fat poodle, the parrot that
talked Spanish, and the library where she reveled.
Laurie enjoyed that
immensely, and when she told about the prim old gentleman who came once to woo
Aunt March, and in the middle of a fine speech, how Poll had tweaked his wig
off to his great dismay, the boy lay back and laughed till the tears ran down
his cheeks, and a maid popped her head in to see what was the matter.
“Oh! That does me no
end of good. Tell on, please,” he said, taking his face out of the sofa
cushion, red and shining with merriment.
Much elated with her
success, Jo did `tell on', all about their plays and plans, their hopes and
fears for Father, and the most interesting events of the little world in which
the sisters lived. Then they got to talking about books, and to Jo's delight,
she found that Laurie loved them as well as she did, and had read even more
than herself.
“If you like them so
much, come down and see ours. Grandfather is out, so you needn't be afraid,”
said Laurie, getting up.
“I'm not afraid of
anything,” returned Jo, with a toss of the head.
“I don't believe you
are!” exclaimed the boy, looking at her with much admiration, though he
privately thought she would have good reason to be a trifle afraid of the old
gentleman, if she met hem in some of his moods.
The atmosphere of the
whole house being summerlike, Laurie led the way from room to room, letting Jo
stop to examine whatever struck her fancy. And so, at last they came to the
library, where she clapped her hands and pranced, as she always did when
especially delighted. It was lined with books, and there were pictures and
statues, and distracting little cabinets full of coins and curiosities, and
Sleepy Hollow chairs, and queer tables, and bronzes, and best of all, a great
open fireplace with quaint tiles all round it.
“What richness!” sighed
Jo, sinking into the depth of a velour chair and gazing about her with an air
of intense satisfaction. “Theodore Laurence, you ought to be the happiest boy
in the world,” she added impressively.
“A fellow can't live on
books,” said Laurie, shaking his head as he perched on a table opposite.
Before he could more, a
bell rang, and Jo flew up, exclaiming with alarm, “Mercy me! It's your grandpa!”
“Well, what if it is?
You are not afraid of anything, you know,” returned the boy, looking wicked.
“I think I am a little
bit afraid of him, but I don't know why I should be. Marmee said I might come,
and I don't think you're any the worse for it,” said Jo, composing herself,
though she kept her eyes on the door.
“I'm a great deal
better for it, and ever so much obliged. I'm only afraid you are very tired of
talking to me. It was so pleasant, I couldn't bear to stop,” said Laurie
gratefully.
“The doctor to see you,
sir,” and the maid beckoned as she spoke.
“Would you mind if I
left you for a minute? I suppose I must see him,” said Laurie.
“Don't mind me. I'm
happy as a cricket here,” answered Jo.
Laurie went away, and
his guest amused herself in her own way. She was standing before a fine
portrait of the old gentleman when the door opened again, and without turning,
she said decidedly, “I'm sure now that I shouldn't be afraid of him, for he's
got kind eyes, though his mouth is grim, and he looks as if he had a tremendous
will of his own. He isn't as handsome as my grandfather, but I like him.”
“Thank you, ma'am,”
said a gruff voice behind her, and there, to her great dismay, stood old Mr.
Laurence.
Poor Jo blushed till
she couldn't blush any redder, and her heart began to beat uncomfortably fast
as she thought what she had said. For a minute a wild desire to run away
possessed her, but that was cowardly, and the girls would laugh at her, so she
resolved to stay and get out of the scrape as she could. A second look showed
her that the living eyes, under the bushy eyebrows, were kinder even than the
painted ones, and there was a sly twinkle in them, which lessened her fear a
good deal. The gruff voice was gruffer than ever, as the old gentleman said abruptly,
after the dreadful pause, “So you're not afraid of me, hey?”
“Not much, sir.”
“And you don't think me
as handsome as your grandfather?”
“Not quite, sir.”
“And I've got a
tremendous will, have I?”
“I only said I thought
so.”
“But you like me in
spite of it?”
“Yes, I do, sir.”
That answer pleased the
old gentleman. He gave a short laugh, shook hands with her, and, putting his
finger under her chin, turned up her face, examined it gravely, and let it go,
saying with a nod, “You've got your grandfather's spirit, if you haven't his
face. He was a fine man, my dear, but what is better, he was a brave and an
honest one, and I was proud to be his friend.”
“Thank you, sir,” And
Jo was quite comfortable after that, for it suited her exactly.
“What have you been
doing to this boy of mine, hey?” was the next question, sharply put.
“Only trying to be
neighborly, sir.” And Jo to how her visit came about.
“You think he needs
cheering up a bit, do you?”
“Yes, sir, he seems a
little lonely, and young folks would do him good perhaps. We are only girls,
but we should be glad to help if we could, for we don't forget the splendid
Christmas present you sent us,” said Jo eagerly.
“Tut, tut, tut! That
was the boy's affair. How is the poor woman?”
“Doing nicely, sir.”
And off went Jo, talking very fast, as she told all about the Hummels, in whom
her mother had interested richer friends than they were.
“Just her father's way
of doing good. I shall come and see your mother some fine day. Tell her so.
There's the tea bell, we have it early on the boy's account. Come down and go
on being neighborly.”
“If you'd like to have
me, sir.”
“Shouldn't ask you, if
I didn't.” And Mr. Laurence offered her his arm with old-fashioned courtesy.
“What would Meg say to
this?” thought Jo, as she was marched away, while her eyes danced with fun as
she imagined herself telling the story at home.
“Hey! Why, what the
dickens has come to the fellow?” said the old gentleman, as Laurie came running
downstairs and brought up with a start of surprise at the astounding sight of
Jo arm in arm with his redoubtable grandfather.
“I didn't know you'd
come, sir,” he began, as Jo gave him a triumphant little glance.
“That's evident, by the
way you racket downstairs. Come to your tea, sir, and behave like a gentleman.”
And having pulled the boy's hair by way of a caress, Mr. Laurence walked on,
while Laurie went through a series of comic evolutions behind their backs,
which nearly produced an explosion of laughter from Jo.
The old gentleman did
not say much as he drank his four cups of tea, but he watched the young people,
who soon chatted away like old friends, and the change in his grandson did not
escape him. There was color, light, and life in the boy's face now, vivacity in
his manner, and genuine merriment in his laugh.
“She's right, the lad
is lonely. I'll see what these little girls can do for him,” thought Mr.
Laurence, as he looked and listened. He liked Jo, for her odd, blunt ways
suited him, and she seemed to understand the boy almost as well as if she had
been one herself.
If the Laurences had
been what Jo called `prim and poky', she would not have got on at all, for such
people always made her shy and awkward. But finding them free and easy, she was
so herself, and made a good impression. When they rose she proposed to go, but
Laurie said he had something more to show her, and took her away to the
conservatory, which had been lighted for her benefit. It seemed quite fairylike
to Jo, as she went up and down the walks, enjoying the blooming walls on either
side, the soft light, the damp sweet air, and the wonderful vines and trees
that hung about her, while her new friend cut the finest flowers till his hands
were full. Then he tied them up, saying, with the happy look Jo liked to see, “Please
give these to your mother, and tell her I like the medicine she sent me very
much.”
They found Mr. Laurence
standing before the fire in the great drawing room, by Jo's attention was
entirely absorbed by a grand piano, which stood open.
“Do you play?” she
asked, turning to Laurie with a respectful expression.
“Sometimes,” he
answered modestly.
“Please do now. I want
to hear it, so I can tell Beth.”
“Won't you first?”
“Don't know how. Too
stupid to learn, but I love music dearly.”
So Laurie played and Jo
listened, with her nose luxuriously buried in heliotrope and tea roses. Her
respect and regard for the `Laurence' boy increased very much, for he played
remarkably well and didn't put on any airs. She wished Beth could hear him, but
she did not say so, only praised him till he was quite abashed, and his
grandfather came to his rescue.
“That will do, that
will do, young lady. too many sugarplums are not good for him. His music isn't
bad, but I hope he will do as well in more important things. Going? well, I'm
much obliged to you, and I hope you'll come again. My respects to your mother.
Good night, Doctor Jo.”
He shook hands kindly,
but looked as if something did not please him. When they got into the hall, Jo
asked Laurie if she had said something amiss. He shook his head.
“No, it was me. He
doesn't like to hear me play.”
“Why not?”
“I'll tell you some
day. John is going home with you, as I can't.”
“No need of that. I am
not a young lady, and it's only a step. Take care of yourself, won't you?”
“Yes, but you will come
again, I hope?”
“If you promise to come
and see us after you are well.”
“I will.”
“Good night, Laurie!”
“Good night, Jo, good
night!”
When all the
afternoon's adventures had been told, the family felt inclined to go visiting
in a body, for each found something very attractive in the big house on the
other side of the hedge. Mrs. March wanted to talk of her father with the old
man who had not forgotten him, Meg longed to walk in the conservatory, Beth
sighed for the grand piano. and Amy was eager to see the fine pictures and
statues.
“Mother, why didn't Mr.
Laurence like to have Laurie play?” asked Jo, who was of an inquiring
disposition.
“I am not sure, but I
think it was because his son, Laurie's father, married an Italian lady, a
musician, which displeased the old man, who is very proud. The lady was good
and lovely and accomplished, but he did not like her, and never saw his son
after he married. They both died when Laurie was a little child, and then his
grandfather took him home. I fancy the boy, who was born in Italy, is not very
strong, and the old man is afraid of losing him, which makes him so careful.
Laurie comes naturally by his love of music, for he is like his mother, and I
dare say his grandfather fears that he may want to be a musician. At any rate,
his skill reminds him of the woman he did not like, and so he `glowered' as Jo
said.”
“Dear me, how romantic!”
exclaimed Meg.
“How silly!” said Jo. “Let
him be a musician if he wants to, and not plague his life out sending him to
college, when he hates to go.”
“That's why he has such
handsome black eyes and pretty manners, I suppose. Italians are always nice, “
said Meg, who was a little sentimental.
“What do you know about
his eyes and his manners? You never spoke to him, hardly,” cried Jo, who was
not sentimental.
“I saw him at the
party, and what you tell shows that he knows how to behave. That was a nice
little speech about the medicine Mother sent him.”
“He meant the blanc
mange, I suppose.”
“How stupid you are,
child! He meant you, of course.”
“Did he?” And Jo opened
her eyes as if it had never occurred to her before.
“I never saw such a
girl! You don't know a compliment when you get it,” said Meg, with the air of a
young lady who knew all about the matter.
“I think they are great
nonsense, and I'll thank you not to be silly and spoil my fun. Laurie's a nice
boy and I like him, and I won't have any sentimental stuff about compliments
and such rubbish. We'll all be good to him because he hasn't got any mother,
and he may come over and see us, mayn't he, Marmee?”
“Yes, Jo, your little
friend is very welcome, and I hope Meg will remember that children should be
children as long as they can.”
“I don't call myself a
child, and I'm not in my teens yet,” observed Amy. “What do you say, Beth?”
“I was thinking about
our `PILGRIM'S PROGRESS',” answered Beth, who had not heard a word. “How we got
out of the Slough and through the Wicket Gate by resolving to be good, and up
the steep hill by trying, and that maybe the house over there, full of splendid
things, is going to be our Palace Beautiful.”
“We have got to get by
the lions first,” said Jo, as if she rather liked the prospect.
The big house did prove
a Palace Beautiful, though it took some time for all to get in, and Beth found
it very hard to pass the lions. Old Mr. Laurence was the biggest one, but after
he had called, said something funny or kind to each one of the girls, and
talked over old times with their mother, nobody felt much afraid of him, except
timid Beth. The other lion was the fact that they were poor and Laurie rich,
for this made them shy of accepting favors which they could not return. But,
after a while, they found that he considered them the benefactors, and could
not do enough to show how grateful he was for Mrs. March's motherly welcome,
their cheerful society, and the comfort he took in that humble home of theirs.
So they soon forgot their pride and interchanged kindnesses without stopping to
think which was the greater.
All sorts of pleasant
things happened about that time, for the new friendship flourished like grass
in spring. Every one liked Laurie, and he privately informed his tutor that “the
Marches were regularly splendid girls.” With the delightful enthusiasm of
youth, they took the solitary boy into their midst and made much of him, and he
found something very charming in the innocent companionship of these
simple-hearted girls. Never having known mother or sisters, he was quick to
feel the influences they brought about him, and their busy, lively ways made
him ashamed of the indolent life he led. He was tired of books, and found
people so interesting now that Mr. Brooke was obliged to make very
unsatisfactory reports, for Laurie was always playing truant and running over
to the Marches'.
“Never mind, let him
take a holiday, and make it up afterward,” said the old gentleman. “The good
lady next door says he is studying too hard and needs young society, amusement,
and exercise. I suspect she is right, and that I've been coddling the fellow as
if I'd been his grandmother. Let him do what he likes, as long as he is happy.
He can't get into mischief in that little nunnery over there, and Mrs. March is
doing more for him than we can.”
What good times they
had, to be sure. Such plays and tableaux, such sleigh rides and skating
frolics, such pleasant evenings in the old parlor, and now and then such gay
little parties at the great house. Meg could walk in the conservatory whenever
she liked and revel in bouquets, Jo browsed over the new library voraciously,
and convulsed the old gentleman with her criticisms, Amy copied pictures and
enjoyed beauty to her heart's content, and Laurie played `lord of the manor' in
the most delightful style.
But Beth, though
yearning for the grand piano, could not pluck up courage to go to the `Mansion
of Bliss', as Meg called it. She went once with Jo, but the old gentleman, not
being aware of her infirmity, stared at her so hard from under his heavy
eyebrows, and said “Hey!” so loud, that he frightened her so much her `feet
chattered on the floor', she never told her mother, and she ran away, declaring
she would never go there any more, not even for the dear piano. No persuasions
or enticements could overcome her fear, till, the fact coming to Mr. Laurence's
ear in some mysterious way, he set about mending matters. During one of the
brief calls he made, he artfully led the conversation to music, and talked away
about great singers whom he had seen, fine organs he had heard, and told such
charming anecdotes that Beth found it impossible to stay in her distant corner,
but crept nearer and nearer, as if fascinated. At the back of his chair she
stopped and stood listening, with her great eyes wide open and her cheeks red
with excitement of this unusual performance. Taking no more notice of her than
if she had been a fly, Mr. Laurence talked on about Laurie's lessons and
teachers. And presently, as if the idea had just occurred to him, he said to
Mrs. March . . .
“The boy neglects his
music now, and I'm glad of it, for he was getting too fond of it. But the piano
suffers for want of use. Wouldn't some of your girls like to run over, and
practice on it now and then, just to keep it in tune, you know, ma`am?”
Beth took a step
forward, and pressed her hands tightly together to keep from clapping them, for
this was an irresistible temptation, and the thought of practicing on that
splendid instrument quite took her breath away. Before Mrs. March could reply,
Mr. Laurence went on with an odd little nod and smile. . .
“They needn't see or
speak to anyone, but run in at any time. For I'm shut up in my study at the
other end of the house, Laurie is out a great deal, and the servants are never
near the drawing room after nine o'clock.”
Here he rose, as if
going, and Beth made up her mind to speak, for that last arrangement left
nothing to be desired. “Please, tell the young ladies what I say, and if they
don't care to come, why, never mind.” Here a little hand slipped into his, and
Beth looked up at him with a face full of gratitude, as she said, in her
earnest yet timid way . . .
“Oh sir, they do care,
very very much!”
“Are you the musical
girl?” he asked, without any startling “Hey!” as he looked down at her very
kindly.
“I'm Beth. I love it
dearly, and I'll come, if you are quite sure nobody will hear me, and be
disturbed,” she added, fearing to be rude, and trembling at her own boldness as
she spoke.
“Not a soul, my dear.
The house is empty half the day, so come and drum away as much as you like, and
I shall be obliged to you.”
“How kind you are, sir!”
Beth blushed like a
rose under the friendly look he wore, but she was not frightened now, and gave
the hand a grateful squeeze because she had no words to thank him for the
precious gift he had given her. The old gentleman softly stroked the hair off
her forehead, and, stooping down, he kissed herr, saying, in a tone few people
ever heard . . .
“I had a little girl once,
with eyes like these. God bless you, my dear! Good day. madam.” And away he
went, in a great hurry.
Beth had a rapture with
her mother, and then rushed up to impart the glorious news to her family of
invalids, as the girls were not home. How blithely she sang that evening, and
how they all laughed at her because she woke Amy in the night by playing the
piano on her face in her sleep. Next day, having seen both the old and young
gentleman out of the house, Beth, after two or three retreats, fairly got in at
the side door, and made her way as noiselessly as any mouse to the drawing room
where her idol stood. Quite by accident, of course, some pretty, easy music lay
on the piano, and with trembling fingers and frequent stops to listen and look
about, Beth at last touched the great instrument, and straightway forgot her
fear, herself, and everything else but the unspeakable delight which the music
gave her, for it was like the voice of a beloved friend.
She stayed till Hannah
came to take her home to dinner, but she had no appetite,and could only sit and
smile upon everyone in a general state of beatitude.
After that, the little
brown hood slipped through the hedge nearly every day, and the great drawing
room was haunted by a tuneful spirit that came and went unseen. She never knew
that Mr. Laurence opened his study door to hear the old-fashioned airs he
liked. She never saw Laurie mount guard in the hall to warn the servants away.
She never suspected that the exercise books and new songs which she found in
the rack were put there for her especial benefit, and when he talked to her
about music at home, she only thought how kind he was to tell things that
helped her so much. So she enjoyed herself heartily, and found, what isn't
always the case, that her granted wish was all she had hoped. Perhaps it was
because she was so grateful for this blessing that a greater was given her. At
any rate she deserved both.
“Mother, I'm going to
work Mr. Laurence a pair of slippers. He is so kind to me, I must thank him,
and I don't know any other way. Can I do it?” asked Beth, a few weeks after
that eventful call of his.
“Yes, dear. It will
please him very much, and be a nice way of thanking him. The girls will help
you about them, and I will pay for the making up,” replied Mrs. March, who took
peculiar pleasure in granting Beth's requests because she so seldom asked
anything for herself.
After many serious
discussions with Meg and Jo, the pattern was chosen, the materials bought, and
the slippers begun. A cluster of grave yet cheerful pansies on a deeper purple
ground was pronounced very appropriate and pretty, and beth worked away early
and late, with occasional lifts over hard parts. She was a nimble little
needlewoman, and they were finished before anyone got tired of them. Then she
wrote a short, simple note, and with Laurie's help, got them smuggled onto the
study table one morning before the old gentleman was up.
When this excitement
was over, Beth waited to see what would happen. All day passed a a part of the
next before any acknowledgement arrived, and she was beginning to fear she had
offended her crochety friend. On the afternoon of the second day, she went out
to do an errand, and give poor Joanna, the invalid doll, her daily exercise. As
she came up the street, on her return, she saw three, yes, four heads popping
in and out of the parlor windows, and the moment they saw her, several hands
were waved, and several joyful voices screamed . . .
“Here's a letter from
the old gentleman! Come quick, and read it!”
“Oh, Beth, he's sent
you . . .” began Amy, gesticulating with unseemly energy, but she got no
further, for Jo quenched her by slamming down the window.
Beth hurried on in a
flutter of suspense. At the door her sisters seized and bore her to the parlor
in a triumphal procession, all pointing and all saying at once, “Look there!
Look there!” Beth did look, and turned pale with delight and surprise, for
there stood a little cabinet piano, with a letter lying on the glossy lid,
directed like a sign board to “Miss Elizabeth March.”
“For me?” gasped Beth,
holding onto Jo and feeling as if she should tumble down, it was such an
overwhelming thing altogether.
“Yes, all for you, my
precious! Isn't it splendid of him? Don't you think he's the dearest old man in
the world? Here's the key in the letter. We didn't open it, but we are dying to
know what he says,” cried Jo, hugging her sister and offering the note.
“You read it! I can't,
I feel so queer! Oh, it is too lovely!” and Beth hid her face in Jo's apron,
quite upset by her present.
Jo opened the paper and
began to laugh, for the first worked she saw were . . .
“Miss March:
“Dear Madam--”
“How nice it sounds! I
wish someone would write to me so!” said Amy, who thought the old-fashioned
address very elegant.
“`I have had many pairs
of slippers in my life, but I never had any that suited me so well as yours,'”
continues Jo. “`Heartsease is my favorite flower, and these will always remind
me of the gentle giver. I like to pay my debts, so I know you will allow `the
old gentleman' to send you something which once belonged to the little grand
daughter he lost. With hearty thanks and best wishes, I remain
“`Your grateful friend
and humble servant,
“`JAMES LAURENCE'
“There, Beth, that's an
honor to be proud of, I'm sure! Laurie told me how fond Mr.Laurence used to be
of the child who died, and how he kept all her little things carefully. Just
think, he's given you her piano. That comes of having big blue eyes and loving
music,” said Jo, trying to soothe Beth, who trembled and looked more excited
than she had ever been before.
“See the cunning
brackets to hold candles, and the nice green silk, puckered up, with a gold
rose in the middle, and the pretty rack and stool, all complete,” added Meg,
opening the instrument and displaying its beauties.
“`Your humble servant,
James Laurence'. Only think of his writing that to you. I'll tell the girls.
They'll think it's splendid,” said Amy, much impressed by the note.
“Try it, honey. Let's
hear the sound of the baby pianny,” said Hannah, who always took a share in the
family joys and sorrows.
So Beth tried it, and
everyone pronounced it the most remarkable piano ever heard. It had evidently
been newly tuned and put in applepie order, but, perfect as it was, I think the
real charm lay in the happiest of all happy faces which leaned over it, as Beth
lovingly touched the beautiful black and white keys and pressed the bright
pedals.
“You'll have to go and
thank him,” said Jo, by way of a joke, for the idea of the child's really going
never entered her head.
“Yes, I mean to. I
guess I'll go no, before I get frightened thinking about it.” And, to the utter
amazement of the assembled family, Beth walked deliberately down the garden,
through the hedge, and in at the Laurences' door.
“Well, I wish I may die
if it ain't the queerest thing I ever see! The pianny has turned her head!
She'd never have gone in her right mind,” cried Hannah, staring after her,
while the girls were rendered quite speechless by the miracle.
They would have been
still more amazed if they had seen what Beth did afterward. If you will believe
me, she went and knocked at the study door before she gave herself time to
think, and when a gruff voice called out, “come in!” she did go in, right up to
Mr. Laurence, who looked quite taken aback, and held out her hand, saying, with
only a small quaver in her voice, “I came to thank you, sir, for. . .” But she
didn't finish, for he looked so friendly that she forgot her speech and, only
remembering that he had lost the little girl he loved, she put both arms round
his neck and kissed him.
If the roof of the
house had suddenly flown off, the old gentleman wouldn't have been more
astonished. But he liked it. Oh, dear, yes, he liked it amazingly! And was so
touched and pleased by that confiding little kiss that all his crustiness
vanished, and he just set her on his knee, and laid his wrinkled cheek against
her rosy one, feeling as if he had got his own little grand daughter back
again. Beth ceased to fear him from that moment, and sat there talking to him
as cozily as if she had known him all her life, for love casts out fear, and
gratitude can conquer pride. When she went home, he walked with her to her own
gate, shook hands cordially, and touched his hat as he marched back again,
looking very stately and erect, like a handsome, soldierly old gentleman, as he
was.
When the girls saw that
performance, Jo began to dance a jig, by way of expressing her satisfaction,
Amy nearly fell out of the window in her surprise, and Meg exclaimed, with
up-lifted hands, “Well, I do believe the world is coming to an end.
“That boy is a perfect
cyclops, isn't he?” said Amy one day, as Laurie clattered by on horseback, with
a flourish of his whip as he passed.
“How dare you say so,
when he's got both his eyes? And very handsome ones they are, too,” cried Jo,
who resented any slighting remarks about her friend.
“I didn't day anything
about his eyes, and I don't see why you need fire up when I admire his riding.”
“Oh, my goodness! That
little goose means a centaur, and she called him a Cyclops,” exclaimed Jo, with
a burst of laughter.
“You needn't be so
rude, it's only a `lapse of lingy', as Mr. Davis says,” retorted Amy, finishing
Jo with her Latin. “I just wish I had a little of the money Laurie spends on
that horse,” she added, as if to herself, yet hoping her sisters would hear.
“Why?” asked Meg
kindly, for Jo had gone off in another laugh at Amy's second blunder.
“I need it so much. I'm
dreadfully in debt, and it won't be my turn to have the rag money for a month.”
“In debt, Amy? What do
you mean?” And Meg looked sober.
“Why, I owe at least a
dozen pickled limes, and I can't pay them, you know, till I have money, for
Marmee forbade my having anything charged at the shop.”
“Tell me all about it.
Are limes the fashion now? It used to be pricking bits of rubber to make balls.”
And Meg tried to keep her countenance, Amy looked so grave and important.
“Why, you see, the girls
are always buying them, and unless you want to be thought mean, you must do it
too. It's nothing but limes now, for everyone is sucking them in their desks in
schooltime, and trading them off for pencils, bead rings, paper dolls, or
something else, at recess. If one girl likes another, she gives her a lime. If
she's mad with her, she eats one before her face, and doesn't offer even a
suck. They treat by turns, and I've had ever so many but haven't returned them,
and I ought for they are debts of honor, you know.”
“How much will pay them
off and restore your credit?” asked Meg, taking out her purse.”
“A quarter would more
than do it, and leave a few cents over for a treat for you. Don't you like
limes?”
“Not much. You may have
my share. Here's the money. Make it last as long as you can, for it isn't very
plenty, you know.”
“Oh, thank you! It must
be so nice to have pocket money! I'll have a grand feast, for I haven't tasted
a lime this week. I felt delicate about taking any, as I couldn't return them,
and I'm actually suffering for one.”
Next day Amy was rather
late at school, but could not resist the temptation of displaying, with
pardonable pride, a moist brown-paper parcel, before she consigned it to the
inmost recesses of her desk. During the next few minutes the rumor that Amy
March had got twenty-four delicious limes (she ate one on the way) and was
going to treat circulated through her `set', and the attentions of her friends
became quite overwhelming. Katy Brown invited her to her next party on the
spot. Mary Kingsley insisted on lending her her watch till recess, and Jenny
Snow, a satirical young lady, who had basely twitted Amy upon her limeless
state, promptly buried the hatchet and offered to furnish answers to certain
appalling sums. But Amy had not forgotten Miss Snow's cutting remarks about
`some persons whose noses were not too flat to smell other people's limes, and
stuck-up people who were not too proud to ask for them', and she instantly
crushed `that Snow girl's' hopes by the withering telegram, “You needn't be so
polite all of a sudden, for you won't get any.”
A distinguished
personage happened to visit the school that morning, and Amy's beautifully
drawn maps received praise, which honor to her foe rankled in the soul of Miss
Snow, and caused Miss March to assume the airs of a studious young peacock.
But, alas, alas! Pride goes before a fall, and the revengeful Snow turned the
tables with disastrous success. No sooner had the guest paid the usual stale
compliments and bowed himself out, than Jenny, under pretense of asking an
important question, informed Mr. Davis, the teacher, that Amy March had pickled
limes in her desk.
Now Mr. Davis had
declared limes a contraband article, and solemnly vowed to publicly ferrule the
first person who was found breaking the law. This much-enduring man had
succeeded in banishing chewing gum after a long and stormy war, had made a
bonfire of the confiscated novels and newspapers, had suppressed a private post
office, had forbidden distortions of the face, nicknames, and caricatures, and
done all that one man could do to keep half a hundred rebellious girls in
order. Boys are trying enough to human patience, goodness knows, but girls are
infinitely more so, especially to nervous gentlemen with tyrannical tempers and
no more talent for teaching than Dr. Blimber. Mr. Davis knew any quantity of
Greek, Latin, algebra, and ologies of all sorts so he was called a fine
teacher, and manners, morals, feelings, and examples were not considered of any
particular importance. It was a most unfortunate moment for denouncing Amy, and
Jenny knew it. Mr. Davis had evidently taken his coffee too strong that
morning, there was an east wind, which always affected his neuralgia, and his
pupils had not done him the credit which he felt he deserved. Therefore, to use
the expressive, if not elegant, language of a schoolgirl, “He was as nervous as
a witch and as cross as a bear”. The word `limes' was like fire to powder, his
yellow face flushed, and he rapped on his desk with an energy which made Jenny
skip to her seat with unusual rapidity.
“Young ladies,
attention, if you please!”
At the stern order the
buzz ceased, and fifty pairs of blue, black, gray, and brown eyes were
obediently fixed upon his awful countenance.
“Miss March, come to
the desk.”
Amy rose to comply with
outward composure, but a secret fear oppressed her, for the limes weighed upon
her conscience.
“Bring with you the
limes you have in your desk,” was the unexpected command which arrested her
before she got out of her seat.
“Don't take all.”
whispered her neighbor, a young lady of great presence of mind.
Amy hastily shook out
half a dozen and laid the rest down before Mr. Davis, feeling that any man
possessing a human heart would relent when that delicious perfume met his nose.
Unfortunately, Mr. Davis particularly detested the odor of the fashionable
pickle, and disgust added to his wrath.
“Is that all?”
“Not quite,” stammered
Amy.
“Bring the rest
immediately.”
With a despairing
glance at her set, she obeyed.
“You are sure there are
no more?'
“I never lie, sir.”
“So I see. Now take
these disgusting things two by two, and throw them out of the window.”
There was a
simultaneous sigh, which created quite a little gust, as the last hope fled,
and the treat was ravished from their longing lips. Scarlet with shame and
anger, Amy went to and fro six dreadful times, and as each doomed couple,
looking oh, so plump and juicy, fell from her reluctant hands, a shout from the
street completed the anguish of the girls, for it told them that their feast
was being exulted over by the little Irish children, who were their sworn foes.
This--this was too much. All flashed indignant or appealing glances at the
inexorable Davis, and one passionate lime lover burst into tears.
As Amy returned from
her last trip, Mr. Davis gave a portentous “Hem!” and said, in his most
impressive manner . . .
“Young ladies, you
remember what I said to you a week ago. I am sorry this has happened, but I
never allow my rules to be infringed, and I never break my word. Miss March,
hold out your hand.”
Amy started, and put
both hands behind her, turning on him an imploring look which pleaded for her
better than the words she could not utter. She was rather a favorite with `old
Davis', as, of course, he was called, and it's my private belief that he would
have broken his word if the indignation of one irrepressible young lady had not
found vent in a hiss. That hiss, faint as it was, irritated the irascible
gentleman, and sealed the culprit's fate.
“Your hand, Miss March!”
was the only answer her mute appeal received, and too proud to cry or beseech,
Amy set her teeth, threw back her head defiantly, and bore without flinching
several tingling blows on her little palm. They were neither many nor heavy,
but that made no difference to her. For the first time in her life she had been
struck, and the disgrace, in her eyes, was as deep as if he had knocked her
down.
“You will now stand on
the platform till recess,” said Mr. Davis, resolved to do the thing thoroughly,
since he had begun.
That was dreadful. It
would have been bad enough to go to her seat, and see the pitying faces of her
friends, or the satisfied ones of her few enemies, but to face the whole
school, with that shame fresh upon her, seemed impossible, and for a second she
felt as if she could only drop down where she stood, and break her heart with
crying. A bitter sense of wrong and the thought of Jenny Snow helped her to
bear it, and, taking the ignominious place, she fixed her eyes on the stove
funnel above what now seemed a sea of faces, and stood there, so motionless and
white that the girls found it hard to study with that pathetic figure before
them.
During the fifteen
minutes that followed, the proud and sensitive little girl suffered a shame and
pain which she never forgot. To others it might seem a ludicrous or trivial
affair, but to her it was a hard experience, for during the twelve years of her
life she had been governed by love alone, and a blow of that sort had never
touched her before. The smart of her hand and the ache of her heart were
forgotten in the sting of the thought, “I shall have to tell at home, and they
will be so disappointed in me!”
The fifteen minutes
seemed an hour, but they came to an end at last, and the word `Recess!' had
never seemed so welcome to her before.
“You can go, Miss
March,” said Mr. Davis, looking, as he felt, uncomfortable.
He did not soon forget
the reproachful glance Amy gave him, as she went, without a word to anyone,
straight into the anteroom, snatched her things, and left the place “forever,”
as she passionately declared to herself. She was in a sad state when she got
home, and when the older girls arrived, some time later, an indignation meeting
was held at once. Mrs. March did not say much but looked disturbed, and
comforted her afflicted little daughter in her tenderest manner. Meg bathed the
insulted hand with glycerine and tears, Beth felt that even her beloved kittens
would fail as a balm for griefs like this, Jo wrathfully proposed that Mr.
Davis be arrested without delay, and Hannah shook her fist at the `villain' and
pounded potatoes for dinner as if she had him under her pestle.
No notice was taken of
Amy's flight, except by her mates, but the sharp-eyed demoiselles discovered
that Mr. Davis was quite benignant in the afternoon, also unusually nervous.
Just before school closed, Jo appeared, wearing a grim expression as she
stalked up to the desk, and delivered a letter from her mother, then collected Amy's
property, and departed, carefully scraping the mud from her boots on the door
mat, as if she shook that dust of the place off her feet.
“Yes, you can have a
vacation from school, but I want you to study a little every day with Beth,”
said Mrs. March that evening. “I don't approve of corporal punishment,
especially for girls. I dislike Mr. Davis's manner of teaching and don't think
the girls you associate with are doing you any good, so I shall ask your
father's advice before I send you anywhere else.”
“That's good! I wish
all the girls would leave, and spoil his old school. It's perfectly maddening
to think of those lovely limes,” sighed Amy, with the air of a martyr.
“I am not sorry you
lost them, for you broke the rules, and deserved some punishment for
disobedience,” was the severe reply, which rather disappointed the young lady,
who expected nothing but sympathy.
“Do you mean you are
glad I was disgraced before the whole school?” cried Amy.
“I should not have
chosen that way of mending a fault,” replied her mother, “but I'm not sure that
it won't do you more good than a molder method. You are getting to be rather
conceited, my dear, and it is quite time you set about correcting it. You have
a good many little gifts and virtues, but there is no need of parading them,
for conceit spoils the finest genius. There is not much danger that real talent
or goodness will be overlooked long, even if it is, the consciousness of
possessing and using it well should satisfy one, and the great charm of all power
is modesty.”
“So it is!” cried
Laurie, who was playing chess in a corner with Jo. “I knew a girl once, who had
a really remarkable talent for music, and she didn't know it, never guessed
what sweet little things she composed when she was alone, and wouldn't have
believed it if anyone had told her.”
“I wish I'd known that
nice girl. Maybe she would have helped me, I'm so stupid,” said Beth, who stood
beside him, listening eagerly.
“You do know her, and
she helps you better than anyone else could,” answered Laurie, looking at her
with such mischievous meaning in his merry black eyes that Beth suddenly turned
very red, and hid her face in the sofa cushion, quite overcome by such an
unexpected discovery.
Jo let Laurie win the
game to pay for that praise of her Beth, who could not be prevailed upon to
play for them after her compliment. So Laurie did his best, and sang
delightfully, being in a particularly lively humor, for to the Marches he
seldom showed the moody side of his character. When he was gone, Amy, who had
been pensive all evening, said suddenly, as if busy over some new idea, “Is
Laurie an accomplished boy?”
“Yes, he has had an
excellent education, and has much talent. He will make a fine man, if not
spoiled by petting,” replied her mother.
“And he isn't
conceited, is he?” asked Amy.
“Not in the least. That
is why he is so charming and we all like him so much.”
“I see. It's nice to
have accomplishments and be elegant, but not to show off or get perked up,”
said Amy thoughtfully.
“These things are
always seen and felt in a person's manner and conversations, if modestly used,
but it is not necessary to display them,” said Mrs. March.
“Any more than it's
proper to wear all your bonnets and gowns and ribbons at once, that folks may know
you've got them,” added Jo, and the lecture ended in a laugh.
“Girls, where are you
going?” asked Amy, coming into their room one Saturday afternoon, and finding
them getting ready to go out with an air of secrecy which excited her
curiosity.
“Never mind. Little
girls shouldn't ask questions,” returned Jo sharply.
Now if there is
anything mortifying to out feelings when we are young, it is to be told that,
and to be bidden to “run away, dear” is still more trying to us. Amy bridled up
at this insult, and determined to find out the secret, if she teased for an
hour. Turning to Meg, who never refused her anything very long, she said
coaxingly, “Do tell me! I should think you might let me go, too, for Beth is
fussing over her piano, and I haven't got anything to do, and am so lonely.”
“I can't, dear, because
you aren't invited,” began Meg, but Jo broke in impatiently, “Now, Meg, be
quiet or you will spoil it all. You can't go, Amy, so don't be a baby and whine
about it.”
“You are going
somewhere with Laurie, I know you are. You were whispering and laughing
together on the sofa last night, and you stopped when I came in. Aren't you
going with him?”
“Yes, we are. Now do be
still, and stop bothering.”
Amy held her tongue,
but used her eyes, and saw Meg slip a fan into her pocket.
“I know! I know! You're
going to the theater to see the SEVEN CASTLES!” she cried, adding resolutely, “and
I shall go, for Mother said I might see it, and I've got my rag money, and it
was mean not to tell me in time.”
“Just listen to me a
minute, and be a good child,” said Meg soothingly. “Mother doesn't wish you to
go this week, because your eyes are not well enough yet to bear the light of
this fairy piece. Next week you can go with Beth and Hannah, and have a nice
time.”
“I don't like that half
as well as going with you and Laurie. Please let me. I've been sick with this
cold so long, and shut up, I'm dying for some fun. Do, Meg! I'll be ever so
good,” pleaded Amy, looking as pathetic as she could.
“Suppose we take her. I
don't believe Mother would mind, if we bundle her up well,” began Meg.
“If she goes I shan't,
and if I don't, Laurie won't like it, and it will be very rude, after he
invited only us, to go and drag in Amy. I should think she'd hate to poke
herself where she isn't wanted,” said Jo crossly, for she disliked the trouble
of overseeing a fidgety child when she wanted to enjoy herself.
Her tone and manner
angered Amy, who began to put her boots on, saying, in her most aggravating
way, “I shall go. Meg says I may, and if I pay for myself, Laurie hasn't
anything to do with it.”
“You can't sit with us,
for our seats are reserved, and you mustn't sit alone, so Laurie will give you
his place, and that will spoil our pleasure. Or he'll get another seat for you,
and that isn't proper when you weren't asked. You shan't stir a step, so you
may just stay where you are,” scolded Jo, crosser than ever, having just
pricked her finger in her hurry.
Sitting on the floor
with one boot on, Amy began to cry and Meg to reason with her, when Laurie
called from below, and the two girls hurried down, leaving their sister
wailing. For now and then she forgot her grown-up ways and acted like a spoiled
child. Just as the party was setting out, Amy called over the banisters in a
threatening tone, “You'll be sorry for this, Jo March, see if you ain't.”
“Fiddlesticks!”
returned Jo, slamming the door.
They had a charming
time, for THE SEVEN CASTLES OF THE DIAMOND LAKE was as brilliant and wonderful
as heart could wish. But in spite of the comical red imps, sparkling elves, and
the gorgeous princes and princesses, Jo's pleasure had a drop of bitterness in
it. The fairy queen's yellow curls reminded her of Amy, and between the acts
she amused herself with wondering what her sister would do to make her `sorry
for it'. She and Amy had had many lively skirmishes in the course of their
lives, for both had quick tempers and were apt to be violent when fairly
roused. Amy teased Jo, and Jo irritated Amy, and semioccasional explosions
occurred, of which both were much ashamed afterward. Although the oldest, Jo
had the least self-control, and had hard times trying to curb the fiery spirit
which was continually getting her into trouble. Her anger never lasted long, and
having humbly confessed her fault, she sincerely repented and tried to do
better. Her sisters used to say that they rather liked to get Jo into a fury
because she was such an angel afterward. Poor Jo tried desperately to be good,
but her bosom enemy was always ready to flame up and defeat her, and it took
years of patient effort to subdue it.
When they got home,
they found Amy reading in the parlor. She assumed an injured air as they came
in, never lifted her eyes from her book, or asked a single question. Perhaps
curiosity might have conquered resentment, if Beth had not been there to
inquire and receive a glowing description of the play. On going up to put away
her best hat, Jo's first look was toward the bureau, for in their last quarrel
Amy had soothed her feelings by turning Jo's top drawer upside down on the
floor. Everything was in its place, however, and after a hasty glance into her
various closets, bags, and boxes, Jo decided that Amy had forgiven and
forgotten her wrongs.
There Jo was mistaken,
for next day she made a discovery which produced a tempest. Meg, Beth, and Amy
were sitting together, late in the afternoon, when Jo burst into the room,
looking excited and demanding breathlessly, “Has anyone taken my book?”
Meg and Beth said, “No.”
at once, and looked surprised. Amy poked the fire and said nothing. Jo saw her
color rise and was down upon her in a minute.
“Amy, you've got it!”
“No, I haven't.”
“You know where it is,
then!”
“No, I don't.”
“That's a fib!” cried
Jo, taking her by the shoulders, and looking fierce enough to frighten a much
braver child than Amy.
“It isn't. I haven't
got it, don't know where it is now, and don't care.”
“You know something
about it, and you'd better tell at once, or I'll make you.” And Jo gave her a
slight shake.
“Scold as much as you
like, you'll never see your silly old book again,” cried Amy, getting excited
in her turn.
“why not?”
“I burned it up.”
“What! My little book I
was so fond of, and worked over, and meant to finish before Father got home?
Have you really burned it?” said Jo, turning very pale, while her eyes kindled
and her hands clutched Amy nervously.
“Yes, I did! I told you
I'd make you pay for being so cross yesterday, and I have, so . . .”
Amy got no farther, for
Jo's hot temper mastered her, and she shook Amy till her teeth chattered in her
head, crying in a passion of grief and anger . . .
“You wicked, wicked
girl! I never can write it again, and I'll never forgive you as long as I live.”
Meg flew to rescue Amy,
and Beth to pacify Jo, but Jo was quite beside herself, and with a parting box
on her sister's ear, she rushed out of the room up to the old sofa in the
garret, and finished her fight alone.
The storm cleared up
below, for Mrs. March came home, and, having heard the story, soon brought Amy
to a sense of the wrong she had done her sister. Jo's book was the pride of her
heart, and was regarded by her family as a literary sprout of great promise. It
was only half a dozen little fairy tales, but Jo had worked over them
patiently, putting her whole heart into her work, hoping to make something good
enough to print. She had just copied them with great care, and had destroyed
the old manuscript, so that Amy's bonfire had consumed the loving work of
several years. It seemed a small loss to others, but to Jo it was a dreadful
calamity, and she felt that it never could be made up to her. Beth mourned as
for a departed kitten, and Meg refused to defend her pet. Mrs. March looked
grave and grieved, and Amy felt that no one would love her till she had asked
pardon for the act which she now regretted more than any of them.
When the tea bell rang,
Jo appeared, looking so grim and unapproachable that it took all Amy's courage
to say meekly . . .
“Please forgive me, Jo.
I'm very, very sorry.”
“I never shall forgive
you,” was Jo's stern answer, and from that moment she ignored Amy entirely.
No one spoke of the
great trouble, not even Mrs. March, for all had learned by experience that when
Jo was in that mood words were wasted, and the wisest course was to wait till
some little accident, or her own generous nature, softened Jo's resentment and
healed the breach. It was not a happy evening, for though they sewed as usual,
while their mother read aloud from Bremer, Scott, or Edgeworth, something was
wanting, and the sweet home peace was disturbed. They felt this most when
singing time came, for Beth could only play, Jo stood dumb as a stone, and Amy
broke down, so Meg and Mother sang alone. But in spite of their efforts to be
as cheery as larks, the flutelike voices did not seem to chord as well as
usual, and all felt out of tune.
As Jo received her
good-night kiss, Mrs. March whispered gently, “My dear, don't let the sun go
down upon your anger. Forgive each other, help each other, and begin again
tomorrow.”
Jo wanted to lay her
head down on that motherly bosom, and cry her grief and anger all away, but
tears were an unmanly weakness, and she felt so deeply injured that she really
couldn't quite forgive yet. So she winked hard, shook her head, and said
gruffly because Amy was listening, “It was an abominable thing, and she doesn't
deserve to be forgiven.”
With that she marched
off to bed, and there was no merry or confidential gossip that night.
Amy was much offended that
her overtures of peace had been repulsed, and began to wish she had not humbled
herself, to feel more injured than ever, and to plume herself on her superior
virtue in a way which was particularly exasperating. Jo still looked like a
thunder cloud, and nothing went well all day. It was bitter cold in the
morning, she dropped her precious turnover in the gutter, Aunt March had an
attack of the fidgets, Meg was sensitive, Beth would look grieved and wistful
when she got home, and Amy kept making remarks about people who were always
talking about being good and yet wouldn't even try when other people set them a
virtuous example.
“Everybody is so
hateful, I'll ask Laurie to go skating. He is always kind and jolly, and will
put me to rights, I know,” said Jo to herself, and off she went.
Amy heard the clash of
skates, and looked out with an impatient exclamation.
“There! She promised I
should go next time, for this is the last ice we shall have. But it's no use to
ask such a crosspatch to take me.”
“Don't say that. You
were very naughty, and it is hard to forgive the loss of her precious little
book, but I think she might do it now, and I guess she will, if you try her at
the right minute,” said Meg. “Go after them. Don't say anything till Jo has got
good-natured with Laurie, than take a quiet minute and just kiss her, or do
some kind thing, and I'm sure she'll be friends again with all her heart.”
“I'll try,” said Amy,
for the advice suited her, and after a flurry to get ready, she ran after the
friends, who were just disappearing over the hill.
It was not far to the
river, but both were ready before Amy reached them. Jo saw her coming, and
turned her back. Laurie did not see, for he was carefully skating along the
shore, sounding the ice, for a warm spell had preceded the cold snap.
“I'll go on to the
first bend, and see if it's all right before we begin to race,” Amy heard him
say, as he shot away, looking like a young Russian in his fur-trimmed coat and
cap.
Jo heard Amy panting
after her run, stamping her feet and blowing on her fingers as she tried to put
her skates on, but Jo never turned and went slowly zigzagging down the river,
taking a bitter, unhappy sort of satisfaction in her sister's troubles. She had
cherished her anger till it grew strong and took possession of her, as evil
thoughts and feelings always do unless cast out at once. As Laurie turned the
bend, he shouted back . . .
“Keep near the shore.
It isn't safe in the middle.”
Jo heard, but Amy was
struggling to her feet and did not catch a word. Jo glanced over her shoulder,
and the little demon she was harboring said in her ear . . .
“No matter whether she
heard or not, let her take care of herself.”
Laurie had vanished
round the bend, Jo was just at the turn, and Amy, far behind, striking out
toward the the smoother ice in the middle of the river. For a minute Jo stood
still with a strange feeling in her heart, then she resolved to go on,but
something held and turned her round, just in time to see Amy throw up her hands
and go down, with a sudden crash of rotten ice, the splash of water, and a cry
that made Jo's heart stand still with fear. She tried to call Laurie, but her
voice was gone. She tried to rush forward, but her feet seemed to have no
strength in them, and for a second, she could only stand motionless, staring
with a terror-stricken face at the little blue hood above the black water.
Something rushed swiftly by her, and Laurie's voice cried out . . .
“Bring a rail. Quick,
quick!”
How she did it, she
never knew, but for the next few minutes she worked as if possessed, blindly
obeying Laurie, who was quite self-possessed, and lying flat, held Amy up by
his arm and hockey stick till Jo dragged a rail from the fence, and together
they got the child out, more frightened than hurt.
“Now then, we must walk
her home as fast as we can. Pile our things on her, while I get off these
confounded skates,” cried Laurie, wrapping his coat round Amy, and tugging away
at the straps which never seemed so intricate before.
Shivering, dripping,
and crying, they got Amy home, and after an exciting time of it, she fell
asleep, rolled in blankets before a hot fire. During the bustle Jo had scarcely
spoken but flown about, looking pale and wild, with her things half off, her
dress torn, and her hands cut and bruised by ice and rails and refractory
buckles. When Amy was comfortably asleep, the house quiet, and Mrs. March
sitting by the bed, she called Jo to her and began to bind up the hurt hands.
“Are you sure she is
safe?” whispered Jo, looking remorsefully at the golden head, which might have
been swept away from her sight forever under the treacherous ice.
“Quite safe, dear. she
is not hurt, and won't even take cold, I think, you were so sensible in
covering and getting her home quickly,” replied her mother cheerfully.
“Laurie did it all. I
only let her go. Mother, if she should die, it would be my fault.” And Jo
dropped down beside the bed in a passion of penitent tears, telling all that
had happened, bitterly condemning her hardness of heart, and sobbing out her
gratitude for being spared the heavy punishment which might have come upon her.
“It's my dreadful
temper! I try to cure it, I think I have, and then it breaks out worse than
ever. OH, Mother, what shall I do? What shall I do?” cried poor Jo, in despair.
“Watch and pray, dear,
never get tired of trying, and never think it is impossible to conquer your
fault,” said Mrs. March, drawing the blowzy head to her shoulder and kissing
the wet cheek so tenderly that Jo cried even harder.
“You don't know, you
can't guess how bad it is! It seems as if I could do anything when I'm in a
passion. I get so savage, I could hurt anyone and enjoy it. I'm afraid I shall
do something dreadful some day, and spoil my life, and make everybody hate me.
Oh, Mother, help me, do help me!”
“I will, my child, I
will. Don't cry so bitterly, but remember this day, and resolve with all your
soul that you will never know another like it. Jo, dear, we all have our
temptations, some far greater than yours, and it often takes us all our lives
to conquer them. You think your temper is the worst in the world,but mine used
to be just like it.”
“Yours, Mother? Why,
you are never angry!” And for the moment Jo forgot remorse in surprise.
“I've been trying to
cure it for forty years, and have only succeeded in controlling it. I am angry
nearly every day of my life, Jo, but I have learned not to show it, and I still
hope to learn not to feel it, though it may take me another forty years to do
so.”
The patience and the
humility of the face she loved so well was a better lesson to Jo than the
wisest lecture, the sharpest reproof. She felt comforted at once by the
sympathy and confidence given her. The knowledge that her mother had a fault
like hers, and tried to mend it, made her own easier to bear and strengthened
her resolution to cure it, though forty years seemed rather a long time to
watch and pray to a girl of fifteen.
“Mother, are you angry
when you fold your lips tight together and go out of the room sometimes, when
Aunt March scolds or people worry you?” asked Jo, feeling nearer and dearer to
her mother than ever before.
“Yes, I've learned to
check the hasty words that rise to my lips, and when I feel that they mean to
break out against my will, I just go away for a minute, and give myself a
little shake for being so weak and wicked,” answered Mrs. March with a sigh and
a smile, as she smoothed and fastened up Jo's disheveled hair.
“How did you learn to
keep still? That is what troubles me, for the sharp words fly out before I know
what I'm about, and the more I say the worse I get, till it's a pleasure to
hurt people's feelings and say dreadful things. Tell me how you do it, Marmee
dear.”
“My good mother used to
help me . . .”
“As you do us . . .”
interrupted Jo, with a grateful kiss.
“But I lost her when I
was a little older than you are, and for years had to struggle on alone, for I
was too proud to confess my weakness to anyone else. I had a hard time, Jo, and
shed a good many bitter tears over my failures, for in spite of my efforts I
never seemed to get on. Then your father came, and I was so happy that i found
it easy to be good. But by-and-by, when I had four little daughters round me
and we were poor, then the old trouble began again, for I am not patient by
nature, and it tried me very much to see my children wanting anything.”
“Poor Mother! What
helped you then?”
“Your father, Jo. He
never loses patience, never doubts or complains, but always hopes, and works
and waits so cheerfully that one is ashamed to do otherwise before him. He
helped and comforted me, and showed me that I must try to practice all the
virtues I would have my little girls possess, for I was their example. It was
easier to try for your sakes than for my own. A startled or surprised look from
one of you when I spoke sharply rebuked me more than any words could have done,
and the love, respect, and confidence of my children was the sweetest reward I
could receive for my efforts to be the woman I would have them copy.”
“Oh, Mother, if I'm
ever half as good as you, I shall be satisfied,” cried Jo, much touched.
“I hope you will be a
great deal better, dear, but you must keep watch over your `bosom enemy', as
father calls it, or it may sadden, if not spoil your life. You have had a
warning. Remember it, and try with heart and soul to master this quick temper,
before it brings you greater sorrow and regret than you have known today.”
“I will try, Mother, I
truly will. But you must help me, remind me, and keep me from flying out. I
used to see Father sometimes put his finger on his lips, and look at you with a
very kind but sober face, and you always folded your lips tight and went away.
Was he reminding you then?” asked Jo softly.
“Yes. I asked him to
help me so, and he never forgot it, but saved me from many a sharp word by that
little gesture and kind look.”
Jo saw that her
mother's eyes filled and her lips trembled as she spoke, and fearing that she
had said too much, she whispered anxiously, “Was it wrong to watch you and to
speak of it? I didn't mean to be rude, but it's so comfortable to say all I
think to you, and feel so safe and happy here.”
“Mu Jo, you may say
anything to your mother, for it is my greatest happiness and pride to feel that
my girls confide in me and know how much I love them.”
“I thought I'd grieved
you.”
“No, dear, but speaking
of Father reminded me how much I miss him, how much I owe him, and how
faithfully I should watch and work to keep his little daughters safe and good
for him.”
“Yet you told him to
go, Mother, and didn't cry when he went, and never complain now, or seem as if
you needed any help,” said Jo, wondering.
“I gave my best to the
country I love, and kept my tears till he was gone. Why should I complain, when
we both have merely done our duty and will surely be the happier for it in the
end? If I don't seem to need help, it is because I have a better friend, even
than Father, to comfort and sustain me. My child, the troubles and temptations
of your life are beginning and may be many, but you can overcome and outlive
them all if you learn to feel the strength and tenderness of your Heavenly
Father as you do that of your earthly one. The more you love and trust Him, and
the less you will depend on human power and wisdom. His love and care never
tire or change, can never be taken from you, but my become the source of
lifelong peace, happiness, and strength. Believe this heartily, and go to God
with all your little cares, and hopes, and sins, and sorrows, as freely and
confidingly as you come to your mother.”
Jo's only answer was to
hold her mother close, and in the silence which followed the sincerest prayer
she had ever prayed left her heart without words. For in that sad yet happy
hour, she had learned not only the bitterness of remorse and despair, but the
sweetness of self-denial and self-control, and led by her mother's hand, she
had drawn nearer to the Friend who always welcomes every child with a love
stronger than that of any father, tenderer than that of any mother.
Amy stirred and sighed
in her sleep, and as if eager to begin at once to mend her fault,l Jo looked up
with an expression on her face which it had never worn before.
“I let the sun go down
on my anger. I wouldn't forgive her, and today, if it hadn't been for Laurie,
it might have been too late! How could I be so wicked?” said Jo, half aloud, as
she leaned over her sister softly stroking the wet hair scattered on the
pillow.
As if she heard, Amy
opened her eyes, and held out her arms, with a smile that went straight to Jo's
heart. Neither said a word, but they hugged one another close, in spite of the
blankets, and everything was forgiven and forgotten in one hearty kiss.
“I do think it was the
most fortunate thing in the world that those children should have the measles
just now,” said Meg, one April day, as she stood packing the `go abroady' trunk
in her room, surrounded by her sisters.
“And so nice of Annie
Moffat not to forget her promise. A whole fortnight of fun will be regularly
splendid,” replied Jo, looking like a windmill as she folded skirts with her
long arms.
“And such lovely
weather, I'm so glad of that,” added Beth, tidily sorting neck and hair ribbons
in her best box, lent for the great occasion.
“I wish I was going to
have a fine time and wear all these nice things,” said Amy with her mouth full
of pins, as she artistically replenished her sister's cushion.
“I wish you were all
going, but as you can't, I shall keep my adventures to tell you when I come
back. I'm sure it's the least I can do when you have been so kind, lending me
things and helping me get ready,” said Meg, glancing round the room at the very
simple outfit, which seemed nearly perfect in their eyes.
“What did Mother give
you out of the treasure box?” asked Amy, who had not been present at the
opening of a certain cedar chest in which Mrs. March kept a few relics of past
splendor, as gifts for her girls when the proper time came.
“A pair of silk
stockings, that pretty carved fan, and a lovely blue sash. I wanted the violet
silk, but there isn't time to make it over, so I must be contented with my old
tarlatan.”
“It will look nice over
my new muslin skirt, and the sash will set it off beautifully. I wish I hadn't
smashed my coral bracelet, for you might have had it,” said Jo, who loved to
give and lend, but whose possessions were usually too dilapidated to be of much
use.
“There is a lovely
old-fashioned pearl set in the treasure chest, but Mother said real flowers
were the prettiest ornament for a young girl, and Laurie promised to send me
all I want,” replied Meg. “Now, let me see, there's my new gray walking suit,
just curl up the feather in my hat, Beth, then my poplin for Sunday and the
small party, it looks heavy for spring, doesn't it? The violet silk would be so
nice. Oh, dear!”
“Never mind, you've got
the tarlatan for the big party, and you always look like an angel in white,”
said Amy, brooding over the little store of finery in which her soul delighted.
“It isn't low-necked,
and it doesn't sweep enough, but it will have to do. My blue housedress looks
so well, turned and freshly trimmed, that I feel as if I'd got a new one. My
silk sacque isn't a bit the fashion, and my bonnet doesn't look like Sallie's.
I didn't like to say anything, but I was sadly disappointed in my umbrella. I
told Mother black with a white handle, but she forgot and bought a green one
with a yellowish handle. It's strong and neat, so I ought not to complain, but
I know I shall feel ashamed of it beside Annie's silk one with a gold top,”
sighed Meg, surveying the little umbrella with great disfavor.
“Change it,” advised
Jo.
“I won't be so silly,
or hurt Marmee's feelings, when she took so much pains to get my things. It's a
nonsensical notion of mine, and I'm not going to give up to it. My silk
stockings and two pairs of new gloves are my comfort. You are a dear to lend me
yours, Jo. I feel so rich and sort of elegant, with two new pairs, and the old
ones cleaned up for common.” And Meg took a refreshing peep at her glove box.
“Annie Moffat has blue
and pink bows on her nightcaps. Would you put some on mine?” she asked, as Beth
brought up a pile of snowy muslins, fresh from Hannah's hands.
“No, I wouldn't, for
the smart caps won't match the plain gowns without any trimming on them. Poor
folks shouldn't rig,” said Jo decidedly.
“I wonder if I shall
ever be happy enough to have real lace on my clothes and bows on my caps?” said
Meg impatiently.
“You said the other day
that you'd be perfectly happy if you could only go to Annie Moffat's,” observed
Beth in her quiet way.
“So I did! Well, I am
happy, and I won't fret, but it does seem as if the more one gets the more one
wants, doesn't it? There now, the trays are ready, and everything in but my
ball dress, which I shall leave for Mother to pack,” said Meg, cheering up, as
she glanced from the half-filled trunk to the many times pressed and mended
white tarlatan, which she called her `ball dress' with an important air.
The next day was fine,
and Meg departed in style for a fortnight of novelty and pleasure. Mrs. March
had consented to the visit rather reluctantly, fearing that Margaret would come
back more discontented than she went. But she begged so hard, and Sallie had
promised to take good care of her, and a little pleasure seemed so delightful
after a winter of irksome work that the mother yielded, and the daughter went
to take her first taste of fashionable life.
The Moffats were very
fashionable, and simple Meg was rather daunted, at first, by the splendor of
the house and the elegance of its occupants. But they were kindly people, in
spite of the frivolous life they led, and soon put their guest at her ease.
Perhaps Meg felt, without understanding why, that they were not particularly cultivated
or intelligent people, and that all their gilding could not quite conceal the
ordinary material of which they were made. It certainly was agreeable to fare
sumptuously, drive in a fine carriage, wear her best frock every day, and do
nothing but enjoy herself. It suited her exactly, and soon she began to imitate
the manners and conversation of those about her, to put on little airs and
graces, use French phrases, crimp her hair, take in her dresses, and talk about
the fashions as well as she could. The more she saw of Annie Moffat's pretty
things, the more she envied her and sighed to be rich. Home now looked bare and
dismal as she thought of it, work grew harder than ever, and she felt that she
was a very destitute and much-injured girl, in spite of the new gloves and silk
stockings.
She had not much time
for repining, however, for the three young girls were busily employed in
`having a good time'. They shopped, walked, rode, and called all day, went to
theaters and operas or frolicked at home in the evening, for Annie had many
friends and knew how to entertain them. Her older sisters were very fine young
ladies, and one was engaged, which was extremely interesting and romantic, Meg
thought. Mr. Moffat was a fat, jolly old gentleman, who knew her father, and
Mrs. Moffat, a fat, jolly old lady, who took as great a fancy to Meg as her
daughter had done. Everyone petted her, and `Daisey', as they called her, was
in a fair way to have her head turned.
When the evening for
the small party came, she found that the poplin wouldn't do at all, for the
other girls were putting on thin dresses and making themselves very fine
indeed. So out came the tarlatan, looking older, limper, and shabbier than ever
beside Sallie's crisp new one. Meg saw the girls glance at it and then at one
another, and her cheeks began to burn, for with all her gentleness she was very
proud. No one said a word about it, but Sallie offered to dress her hair, and
Annie to tie her sash, and Belle, the engaged sister, praised her white arms.
But in their kindness Meg saw only pity for her poverty, and her heart felt
very heavy as she stood by herself, while the others laughed, chattered, and
flew about like gauzy butterflies. The hard, bitter feeling was getting pretty
bad, when the maid brought in a box of flowers. Before she could speak, Annie
had the cover off, and all were exclaiming at the lovely roses, heath, and fern
within.
“It's for Belle, of
course, George always sends her some, but these are altogether ravishing,”
cried Annie, with a great sniff.
“They are for Miss
March, the man said. And here's a note,” put in the maid, holding it to Meg.
“What fun! Who are they
from? Didn't know you had a lover,” cried the girls, fluttering about Meg in a
high state of curiosity and surprise.
“The note is from
Mother, and the flowers from Laurie,” said Meg simply, yet much gratified that
he had not forgotten her.
“Oh, indeed!” said
Annie with a funny look, as Meg slipped the note into her pocket as a sort of
talisman against envy, vanity, and false pride, for the few loving words had
done her good, and the flowers cheered her up by their beauty.
Feeling almost happy
again,she laid by a few ferns and roses for herself, and quickly made up the
rest in dainty bouquets for the breasts, hair, or skirts of her friends,
offering them so prettily that Clara, the elder sister, told her she was `the
sweetest little thing she ever saw', and they looked quite charmed with her
small attention. Somehow the kind act finished her despondency, and when all
the rest went to show themselves to Mrs. Moffat, she saw a happy, bright-eyed
face in the mirror, as she laid her ferns against her rippling hair and
fastened the roses in the dress that didn't strike her as so very shabby now.
She enjoyed herself
very much that evening, for she danced to her heart's content. Everyone was
very kind, and she had three compliments. Annie made her sing, and some one
said she had a remarkably fine voice. Major Lincoln asked who `the fresh little
girl with the beautiful eyes' was, and Mr. Moffat insisted on dancing with her
because she `didn't dawdle, but had some spring in her', as he gracefully
expressed it. So altogether she had a very nice time, till she overheard a bit
of conversation, which disturbed her extremely. She was sitting just inside the
conservatory, waiting for her partner to bring her an ice, when she heard a
voice ask on the other side of the flowery wall . . .
“How old is he?”
“Sixteen or seventeen,
I should say,” replied another voice.
“It would be a grand
thing for one of those girls, wouldn't it? Sallie says they are very intimate
now, and the old man quite dotes on them.”
“Mrs. M. has made her
plans, I dare say, and will play her cards well, early as it is. The girl
evidently doesn't think of it yet,” said Mrs. Moffat.
“She told that fib
about her momma, as if she did know, and colored up when the flowers came quite
prettily. Poor thing! She'd be so nice if she was only got up in style. Do you
think she'd be offended if we offered to lend her a dress for Thursday?” asked
another voice.
“She's proud, but I
don't believe she'd mind, for that dowdy tarlatan is all she has got. She may
tear it tonight, and that will be a good excuse for offering a decent one.”
Here Meg's partner
appeared, to find her looking much flushed and rather agitated. She was proud,
and her pride was useful just then, for it helped her hide her mortification,
anger, and disgust at what she had just heard. For, innocent and unsuspicious
as she was, she could not help understanding the gossip of her friends. She
tried to forget it, but could not, and kept repeating to herself, “Mrs. M. has
made her plans,” “that fib about her mamma,” and 'dowdy tarlatan,” till she was
ready to cry and rush home to tell her troubles and ask for advice. As that was
impossible, she did her best to seem gay, and being rather excited, she
succeeded so well that no one dreamed what an effort she was making. She was
very glad when it was all over and she was quiet in her bed, where she could
think and wonder and fume till her head ached and her hot cheeks were cooled by
a few natural tears. Those foolish, yet well meant words, had opened a new
world to Meg, and much disturbed the peace of the old one in which till now she
had lived as happily as a child. Her innocent friendship with Laurie was
spoiled by the silly speeches she had overheard. Her faith in her mother was a
little shaken by the worldly plans attributed to her by Mrs. Moffat, who judged
others by herself, and the sensible resolution to be contented with the simple
wardrobe which suited a poor man's daughter was weakened by the unnecessary
pity of girls who thought a shabby dress one of the greatest calamities under
heaven.
Poor Meg had a restless
night, and got up heavy-eyed, unhappy, half resentful toward her friends, and
half ashamed of herself for not speaking out frankly and setting everything
right. Everybody dawdled that morning, and it was noon before the girls found
energy enough even to take up their worsted work. Something in the manner of
her friends struck Meg at once. They treated her with more respect, she
thought, took quite a tender interest in what she said, and looked at her with
eyes that plainly betrayed curiosity. All this surprised and flattered her,
though she did not understand it till Miss Belle looked up from her writing,
and said, with a sentimental air . . .
“Daisy, dear, I've sent
an invitation to your friend, Mr. Laurence, for Thursday. We should like to
know him, and it's only a proper compliment to you.”
Meg colored, but a
mischievous fancy to tease the girls made her reply demurely, “You are very
kind, but I'm afraid he won't come.”
“Why not, Cherie?”
asked Miss Belle.
“He's too old.”
“My child, what do you
mean? What is his age, I beg to know!” cried Miss Clara.
“Nearly seventy, I
believe,” answered Meg, counting stitches to hide the merriment in her eyes.
“You sly creature! Of
course we meant the young man,” exclaimed Miss Belle, laughing.
“There isn't any,
Laurie is only a little boy.” And Meg laughed also at the queer look which the
sisters exchanged as she thus described her supposed lover.
“About you age,” Nan
said.
“Nearer my sister Jo's,
I am seventeen in August,” returned Meg, tossing her head.
“It's very nice of him
to send you flowers, isn't it?” said Annie, looking wise about nothing.
“Yes, he often does, to
all of us, for their house is full, and we are so fond of them. My mother and
old Mr. Laurence are friends, you know, so it is quite natural that we children
should play together.” And Meg hoped they would say no more.
“It's evident Daisy
isn't out yet,” said Miss Clara to Belle with a nod.
“Quite a pastoral state
of innocence all round,” returned Miss Belle with a shrug.
“I'm going out to get
some little matters for my girls. Can I do anything for you, young ladies?”
asked Mrs. Moffat, lumbering in like an elephant in silk and lace.
“No, thank you, ma'am,”
replied Sallie. “I've got my new pink silk for Thursday and don't want a thing.”
“Nor I . . .” began
Meg, but stopped because it occurred to her that she did want several things
and could not have them.
“What shall you wear?”
asked Sallie.
“My old white one
again, if I can mend it fit to be seen, it got sadly torn last night,” said
Meg, trying to speak quite easily, but feeling very uncomfortable.
“Why don't you send
home for another?” said Sallie, who was not an observing young lady.
“I haven't got any
other.” It cost Meg an effort to say that, but Sallie did not see it and
exclaimed in amiable surprise, “Only that?” How funny . . .” She did not finish
her speech, for Belle shook her head at her and broke in, saying kindly . . .
“Not at all. Where is
the use of having a lot of dresses when she isn't out yet? There's no need of
sending home, Daisy, even if you had a dozen, for I've got a sweet blue silk
laid away, which I've outgrown, and you shall wear it to please me, won't you,
dear?”
“You are very kind, but
I don't mind my old dress if you don't, it does well enough for a little girl
like me,” said Meg.
“Now do let me please
myself by dressing you up in style. I admire to do it, and you'd be a regular
little beauty with a touch here and there. I shan't let anyone see you till you
are done, and then we'll burst upon them like Cinderella and her godmother
going to the ball,” said Belle in her persuasive tone.
Meg couldn't refuse the
offer so kindly made, for a desire to see if she would be `a little beauty'
after touching up caused her to accept and forget all her former uncomfortable
feelings toward the Moffats.
On the Thursday
evening, Belle shut herself up with her maid, and between them they turned Meg
into a fine lady. They crimped and curled her hair, they polished her neck and
arms with some fragrant powder, touched her lips with coralline salve to make
them redder, and Hortense would have added `a soupcon of rouge', if Meg had not
rebelled. They laced her into a sky-blue dress, which was so tight she could
hardly breathe and so low in the neck that modest Meg blushed at herself in the
mirror. A set of silver filagree was added, bracelets, necklace, brooch, and
even earrings, for Hortense tied them on with a bit of pink silk which did not
show. A cluster of tea-rose buds at the bosom and a ruche, reconciled Meg to
the display of her pretty, white shoulders, and a pair of high-heeled silk
boots satisfied the last wish of her heart. A lace handkerchief, a plumy fan,
and a bouquet in a shoulder holder finished her off, and Miss Belle surveyed
her with the satisfaction of a little girl with a newly dressed doll.
“Mademoiselle is
charmante, tres jolie, is she not?” cried Hortense, clasping her hands in an
affected rapture.
“Come and show
yourself,” said Miss Belle, leading the way to the room where the others were
waiting.
As Meg went rustling
after, with her long skirts trailing, her earrings tinkling, her curls waving,
and her heart beating, she felt as if her fun had really begun at last, for the
mirror had plainly told her that she was `a little beauty'. Her friends
repeated the pleasing phrase enthusiastically, and for several minutes she
stood, like a jackdaw in the fable, enjoying her borrowed plumes, while the
rest chattered like a party of magpies.
“While I dress, do you
drill her, Nan, in the management of her skirt and those French heels, or she
will trip herself up. Take your silver butterfly, and catch up that long curl
on the left side of her head, Clara, and don't any of you disturb the charming
work of my hands,” said Belle, as she hurried away, looking well pleased with
her success.
“You don't look a bit
like yourself, but you are very nice. I'm nowhere beside you, for Belle has
heaps of taste, and you're quite French, I assure you. Let your flowers hang,
don't be so careful of them, and be sure you don't trip,” returned Sallie, trying
not to care that Meg was prettier than herself.
Keeping that warning
carefully in mind, Margaret got safely downstairs and sailed into the drawing
rooms where the Moffats and a few early guests were assembled. She very soon
discovered that there is a charm about fine clothes which attracts a certain
class of people and secures their respect. Several young ladies, who had taken
no notice of her before, were very affectionate all of a sudden. Several young
gentlemen, who had only stared at her at the other party, now not only stared,
but asked to be introduced, and said all manner of foolish but agreeable things
to her, and several old ladies, who sat on the sofas, and criticized the rest
of the party, inquired who she was with an air of interest. She heard Mrs.
Moffat reply to one of them . . .
“Daisy March--father a
colonel in the army--one of our first families, but reverses of fortune, you
know; intimate friends of the Laurences; sweet creature, I assure you; my Ned
is quite wild about her.”
“Dear me!” said the old
lady, putting up her glass for another observation of Meg, who tried to look as
if she had not heard and been rather shocked at Mrs. Moffat's fibs.
The `queer feeling' did
not pass away, but she imagined herself acting the new part of fine lady and so
got on pretty well, though the tight dress gave her a side-ache, the train kept
getting under her feet, and she was in constant fear lest her earrings should
fly off and get lost or broken. She was flirting her fan and laughing at the feeble
jokes of a young gentleman who tried to be witty, when she suddenly stopped
laughing and looked confused, for just opposite, she saw Laurie. He was staring
at her with undisguised surprise, and disapproval also, she thought, for though
he bowed and smiled, yet something in his honest eyes made her blush and wish
she had her old dress on. To complete her confusion, she saw Belle nudge Annie,
and both glance from her to Laurie, who, she was happy to see, looked unusually
boyish and shy.
“Silly creatures, to
put such thoughts into my head. I won't care for it, or let it change me a bit,”
thought Meg, and rustled across the room to shake hands with her friend.
“I'm glad you came, I
was afraid you wouldn't.” she said, with her most grown-up air.
“Jo wanted me to come,
and tell her how you looked, so I did,” answered Laurie, without turning his
eyes upon her, though he half smiled at her maternal tone.
“What shall you tell
her?” asked Meg, full of curiosity to know his opinion of her, yet feeling ill
at ease with him for the first time.
“I shall say I didn't
know you, for you look so grown-up and unlike yourself, I'm quite afraid of
you,” he said, fumbling at his glove button.
“How absurd of you! The
girls dressed me up for fun, and I rather like it. Wouldn't Jo stare if she saw
me?” said Meg, bent on making him say whether he thought her improved or not.
“Yes, I think she
would,” returned Laurie gravely.
“Don't you like me so?'
asked Meg.
“No, I don't,” was the
blunt reply.
“Why not?” in an anxious
tone.
He glanced at her
frizzled head, bare shoulders, and fantastically trimmed dress with an
expression that abashed her more than his answer, which had not particle of his
usual politeness in it.
“I don't like fuss and
feathers.”
That was altogether too
much from a lad younger than herself, and Meg walked away, saying petulantly, “You
are the rudest boy I ever saw.”
Feeling very much
ruffled, she went and stood at a quiet window to cool her cheeks, for the tight
dress gave her an uncomfortably brilliant color. As she stood there, Major
Lincoln passed by, and a minute after she heard him saying to his mother . . .
“They are making a fool
of that little girl. I wanted you to see her, but they have spoiled her
entirely. She's nothing but a doll tonight.”
“Oh, dear!” sighed Meg.
“I wish I'd been sensible and worn my own things, then I should not have
disgusted other people, or felt so uncomfortable and ashamed of myself.”
She leaned her forehead
on the cool pane, and stood half hidden by the curtains, never minding that her
favorite waltz had begun, till some one touched her, and turning, she saw
Laurie, looking penitent, as he said, with his very best bow and his hand out .
. .
“Please forgive my
rudeness, and come and dance with me.”
“I'm afraid it will be
to disagreeable to you,” said Meg, trying to look offended and failing
entirely.
“Not a bit of it, I'm
dying to do it. Come, I'll be good. I don't like your gown, but I do think you
are just splendid.” And he waved his hands, as if words failed to express his
admiration.
Meg smiled and
relented, and whispered as they stood waiting to catch the time, “Take care my
skirt doesn't trip you up. It's the plague of my life and I was a goose to wear
it.”
“Pin it round your
neck, and then it will be useful,” said Laurie, looking down at the little blue
boots, which he evidently approved of.
Away they went fleetly
and gracefully, for having practiced at home, they were well matched, and the
blithe young couple were a pleasant sight to see, as they twirled merrily round
and round, feeling more friendly than ever after their small tiff.
“Laurie,I want you to
do me a favor, will you?' said Meg, as he stood fanning her when her breath
gave out, which it did very soon though she would not own why.
“Won't I!” said Laurie,
with alacrity.
“Please don't tell them
at home about my dress tonight. They won't understand the joke, and it will
worry Mother.'
“Then why did you do
it?” said Laurie's eyes, so plainly that Meg hastily added . . .
“I shall tell them
myself all about it, and `fess' to Mother how silly I've been. But I'd rather
do it myself. So you'll not tell, will you?”
“I give you my word I
won't, only what shall I say when they ask me?”
“Just say I looked
pretty well and was having a good time.”
“I'll say the first
with all my heart, but how about the other? You don't look as if you were
having a good time. Are you?' And Laurie looked at her with an expression which
made her answer in a whisper . . .
“No, not just now. Don't
think I'm horrid. I only wanted a little fun, but this sort doesn't pay, I
find, and I'm getting tired of it.”
“Here comes Ned Moffat.
What does he want?” said Laurie, knitting his black brows as if he did not
regard his young host in the light of a pleasant addition to the party.
“He put his name down
for three dances, and I suppose he's coming for them. What a bore!” said Meg,
assuming a languid air which amused Laurie immensely.
He did not speak to her
again till suppertime, when he saw her drinking champagne with Ned and his
friend Fisher, who were behaving `like a pair of fools', as Laurie said to
himself, for he felt a brotherly sort of right to watch over the Marches and
fight their battles whenever a defender was needed.
“You'll have a splitting
headache tomorrow, if you drink much of that. I wouldn't, Meg, your mother
doesn't like it, you know,” he whispered, leaning over her chair, as Ned turned
to refill her glass and Fisher stooped to pick up her fan.
“I'm not Meg tonight,
I'm `a doll' who does all sorts of crazy things. Tomorrow I shall put away my
`fuss and feathers' and be desperately good again,” se answered with an
affected little laugh.
“Wish tomorrow was
here, then,” muttered Laurie, walking off, ill-pleased at the change he saw in
her.
Meg danced and flirted,
chattered and giggled, as the other girls did. After supper she undertook the
German, and blundered through it, nearly upsetting her partner with her long
skirt, and romping in a way that scandalized Laurie, who looked on and
meditated a lecture. But he got no chance to deliver it, for Meg kept away from
him till he came to say good night.
“Remember!” she said,
trying to smile, for the splitting headache had already begun.
“Silence à la mort,”
replied Laurie, with a melodramatic flourish, as he went away.
This little bit of
byplay excited Annie's curiosity, but Meg was too tired for gossip and went to
bed, feeling as if she had been to a masquerade and hadn't enjoyed herself as
much as she expected. She was sick all the next day, and on Saturday went home,
quite used up with her fortnight's fun and feeling that she had `sat in the lap
of luxury' long enough.
“It does seem pleasant
to be quiet, and not have company manners on all the time. Home is a nice
place, though it isn't splendid,” said Meg, looking about her with a restful
expression, as she sat with her mother and Jo on the Sunday evening.
“I'm glad to hear you
say so, dear, for I was afraid home would seem dull and poor to you after your
fine quarters,” replied her mother, who had given her many anxious looks that
day. For motherly eyes are quick to see any change in children's faces.
Meg had told her
adventures gayly and said over and over what a charming time she had had, but
something still seemed to weigh upon her spirits, and when the younger girls
were gone to bed, she sat thoughtfully staring at the fire, saying little and
looking worried. As the clock struck nine and Jo proposed bed, Meg suddenly
left her chair and, taking Beth's stool, leaned her elbows on her mother's
knee, saying bravely . . .
“Marmee, I want to
`fess'.”
“I thought so. What is
it, dear?”
“Shall I go away?”
asked Jo discreetly.
“Of course not. Don't I
always tell you everything? I was ashamed to speak of it before the younger
children, but I want you to know all the dreadful things I did at the Moffats'.”
“We are prepared,” said
Mrs. March, smiling but looking a little anxious.
“I told you they
dressed me up, but I didn't tell you that they powdered and squeezed and frizzled,
and made me look like a fashion plate. Laurie thought I wasn't proper. I know
he did, though he didn't say so, and one man called me `a doll'. I knew it was
silly, but they flattered me and said I was a beauty, and quantities of
nonsense, so I let them make a fool of me.”
“Is that all?” asked
Jo, as Mrs. March looked silently at the downcast face of her pretty daughter,
and could not find it in her heart to blame her little follies.
“No, I drank champagne
and romped and tried to flirt, and was altogether abominable,” said Meg
self-reproachfully.
“There is something
more, I think.” And Mrs. March smoothed the soft cheek, which suddenly grew
rosy as Meg answered slowly . . .
“Yes. It's very silly,
but I want to tell it, because I hate to have people say and think such things
about us and Laurie.”
Then she told the
various bits of gossip she had heard at the Moffats', and as she spoke, Jo saw
her mother fold her lips tightly, as if ill pleased that such ideas should be
put into Meg's innocent mind.
“Well, if that isn't
the greatest rubbish I ever heard,” cried Jo indignantly. “Why didn't you pop
out and tell them so on the spot?'
“I couldn't, it was so
embarrassing for me. I couldn't help hearing at first, and then I was so angry
and ashamed, I didn't remember that I ought to go away.”
“Just wait till I see
Annie Moffat, and I'll show you how to settle such ridiculous stuff. The idea
of having `plans' and being kind to Laurie because he's rich and may marry us
by-and-by! Won't he shout when I tell him what those silly things say about us
poor children?” And Jo laughed, as if on second thoughts the thing struck her
as a good joke.
“If you tell Laurie,
I'll never forgive you! She mustn't, must she, Mother?” said Meg, looking
distressed.
“No, never repeat that
foolish gossip, and forget it as soon as you can,” said Mrs. March gravely. “I
was very unwise to let you go among people of whom I know so little, kind, I
dare say, but worldly, ill-bred, and full of these vulgar ideas about young
people. I am more sorry than I can express for the mischief this visit may have
done you, Meg.”
“Don't be sorry, I
won't let it hurt me. I'll forget all the bad and remember only the good, for I
did enjoy a great deal, and thank you very much for letting me go. I'll not be
sentimental or dissatisfied, Mother. I know I'm a silly little girl, and I'll
stay with you till I'm fit to take care of myself. But it is nice to be praised
and admired, and I can't help saying I like it,” said Meg, looking half ashamed
of the confession.
“That is perfectly
natural, and quite harmless, if the liking does not become a passion and lead
one to do foolish or unmaidenly things. Learn to know and value the praise
which is worth having, and to excite the admiration of excellent people by
being modest as well as pretty, Meg.”
Margaret sat thinking a
moment, while Jo stood with her hands behind her, looking both interested and a
little perplexed, for it was a new thing to see Meg blushing and talking about
admiration, lovers, and things of that sort. And Jo felt as if during that
fortnight her sister had grown up amazingly, and was drifting away from her
into a world where she could not follow.
“Mother, do you have
`plans', as Mrs. Moffat said?” asked Meg bashfully.
“Yes, my dear, I have a
great many, all mothers do, but mine differ somewhat from Mrs. Moffat's, I
suspect. I will tell you some of them, for the time has come when a word may
set this romantic little head and heart of yours right, on a very serious
subject. You are young, Meg, but not too young to understand me, and mothers'
lips are the fittest to speak of such things to girls like you. Jo, your turn
will come in time, perhaps, so listen to my `plans' and help me carry them out,
if they are good.”
Jo went and sat on one
arm of the chair, looking as if she thought they were about to join in some
very solemn affair. Holding a hand of each, and watching the two young faces
wistfully, Mrs. March said, in her serious yet cheery way . . .
“I want my daughters to
be beautiful, accomplished, and good. To be admired, loved, and respected. To
have a happy youth, to be well and wisely married, and to lead useful, pleasant
lives, with as little care and sorrow to try them as God sees fit to send. To
be loved and chosen by a good man is the best and sweetest thing which can
happen to a woman, and I sincerely hope my girls may know this beautiful
experience. It is natural to think of it, Meg, right to hope and wait for it,
and wise to prepare for it, so that when the happy time comes, you may feel
ready for the duties and worthy of the joy. My dear girls, I am ambitious for
you, but not to have you make a dash in the world, marry rich men merely
because they are rich, or have splendid houses, which are not homes because
love is wanting. Money is a needful and precious thing, and when well used, a
noble thing, but I never want you to think it is the first or only prize to
strive for. I'd rather see you poor men's wives, if you were happy, beloved,
contented, than queens on thrones, without self-respect and peace.”
“Poor girls don't stand
any chance, Belle says, unless they put themselves forward,” sighed Meg.
“Then we'll be old
maids,” said Jo stoutly.
“right, Jo. Better be
happy old maids than unhappy wives, or unmaidenly girls, running about to find
husbands,” said Mrs. March decidedly. “Don't be troubled, Meg, poverty seldom
daunts a sincere lover. Some of the best and most honored women I know were
poor girls, but so love-worthy that they were not allowed to be old maids. Leave
these things to time. Make this home happy, so that you may be fit for homes of
your own, if they are offered you, and contented here if they are not. One
thing remember, my girls. Mother is always ready to be your confidante, Father
to be your friend, and both of hope and trust that our daughters, whether
married or single, will be the pride and comfort of out lives.”
“We will, Marmee, we
will!” cried both, with all their hearts, as she bade them good night.
As spring came on, a
new set of amusements became the fashion, and the lengthening days gave long
afternoons for work and play of all sorts. The garden had to be put in order,
and each sister had a quarter of the little plot to do what she liked with.
Hannah used to say, “I'd know which each of them gardings belonged to, ef I see
'em in Chiny,” and so she might, for the girls' tastes differed as much as
their characters. Meg's had roses and heliotrope, myrtle, and a little orange
tree in it. Jo's bed was never alike two seasons, for she was always trying
experiments. This year it was to be a plantation of sun flowers, the seeds of
which cheerful land aspiring plant were to feed Aunt Cockle-top and her family
of chicks. Beth had old-fashioned fragrant flowers in her garden, sweet peas
and mignonette, larkspur, pinks, pansies, and southernwood, with chickweed for
the birds and catnip for the pussies. Amy had a bower in hers, rather small and
earwiggy, but very pretty to look at, with honeysuckle and morning-glories
hanging their colored horns and bells in graceful wreaths all over it, tall
white lilies, delicate ferns, and as many brilliant, picturesque plants as
would consent to blossom there.
Gardening, walks, rows
on the river, and flower hunts employed the fine days, and for rainy ones, they
had house diversions, some old, some new, all more or less original. One of
these was the `P.C', for as secret societies were the fashion, it was thought
proper to have one, and as all of the girls admired Dickens, they called
themselves the Pickwick Club. With a few interruptions, they had kept this up
for a year, and met every Saturday evening in the big garret, on which
occasions the ceremonies were as follows: Three chairs were arranged in a row
before a table on which was a lamp, also four white badges, with a big `P.C.'
in different colors on each, and the weekly newspaper called, THE PICKWICK
PORTFOLIO, to which all contributed something, while Jo, who reveled in pens
and ink, was the editor. At seven o'clock, the four members ascended to the
clubroom, tied their badges round their heads, and took their seats with great
solemnity. Meg, as the eldest, was Samuel Pickwick, Jo, being of a literary
turn, Augustus Snodgrass, Beth, because she was round and rosy, Tracy Tupman,
and Amy, who was always trying to do what she couldn't, was Nathaniel Winkle.
Pickwick, the president, read the paper, which was filled with original tales,
poetry, local news, funny advertisements, and hints, in which they
good-naturedly reminded each other of their faults and short comings. On one
occasion, Mr. Pickwick put on a pair of spectacles without any glass, rapped
upon the table, hemmed, and having stared hard at Mr. Snodgrass, who was
tilting back in his chair, till he arranged himself properly, began to read:
Again we meet to
celebrate
With badge and solemn
rite,
Our fifty-second
anniversary,
In Pickwick Hall,
tonight.
We all are here in
perfect health,
None gone from our small
band:
Again we see each
well-known face,
And press each friendly
hand.
Our Pickwick, always at
his post,
With reverence we
greet,
As, spectacles on nose,
he reads
Our well-filled weekly
sheet.
Although he suffers
from a cold,
We joy to hear him
speak,
For words of wisdom
from him fall,
In spite of croak or
squeak.
Old six-foot Snodgrass
looms on high,
With elephantine grace,
And beams upon the
company,
With brown and jovial
face.
Poetic fire lights up
his eye,
He struggles 'gainst
his lot.
Behold ambition on his
brow,
And on his nose, a
blot.
Next our peaceful
Tupman comes,
So rosy, plump, and
sweet,
Who chokes with
laughter at the puns,
And tumbles off his
seat.
Prim little Winkle too
is here,
With every hair in
place,
A model of propriety,
Though he hates to wash
his face.
The year is gone, we
still unite
To joke and laugh and
read,
And tread the path of
literature
That doth to glory
lead.
Long may our paper
prosper well,
Our club unbroken be,
And coming years their
blessings pour
On the useful, gay `P.
C.'.
Gondola after gondola
swept up to the marble steps, and left its lovely load to swell the brilliant
throng that filled the stately halls of Count Adelon. Knights and ladies, elves
and pages, monks and flower girls, all mingled gaily in the dance. Sweet voices
and rich melody filled the air, and so with mirth and music the masquerade went
on. “Has your Highness seen the Lady viola tonight?” asked a gallant troubadour
of the fairy queen who floated down the hall upon his arm.
“Yes, is she not
lovely, though so sad! Her dress is well chosen, too, for in a week she weds
Count Antonio, whom she passionately hates.”
“By my faith, I envy
him. Yonder he comes, arrayed like a bridegroom, except the black mask. When
that is off we shall see how he regards the fair maid whose heart he cannot
win, though her stern father bestows her hand,” returned the troubadour.
“Tis whispered that she
loves the young English artist who haunts her steps, and is spurned by the old
Count,” said the lady, as they joined the dance.
The revel was at its
height when a priest appeared, and withdrawing the young pair to an alcove,
hung with purple velvet, he motioned them to kneel. Instant silence fell on the
gay throng, and not a sound, but he dash of fountains or the rustle of orange
groves sleeping in the moonlight, broke the hush, as Count de Adelon spoke
thus:
“My lords and ladies,
pardon the ruse by which I have gathered you here to witness the marriage of my
daughter. Father, we wait your services.”
All eyes turned toward
the bridal party, and a murmur of amazement went through the throng, for
neither bride nor groom removed their masks. Curiosity and wonder possessed all
hearts, but respect restrained all tongues till the holy rite was over. Then
the eager spectators gathered round the count, demanding an explanation.
“Gladly would I give it
if I could, but I only know that it was the whim of my timid Viola, and I
yielded to it. Now, my children, let the play end. Unmask and receive my
blessing.”
But neither bent the
knee, for the young bridegroom replied in a tone that startled all listeners as
the mask fell, disclosing the noble face of Ferdinand Devereux, the artist
lover, and leaning on the breast where now flashed the star of an English earl
was the lovely Viola, radiant with joy and beauty.
“My lord, you
scornfully bade me claim your daughter when I could boast as high a name and
vast a fortune as the Count Antonio. I can do more, for even your ambitious
soul cannot refuse the Earl of Devereux and De Vere, when he gives his ancient
name and boundless wealth in return for the beloved hand of this fair lady, now
my wife.
The count stood like one
changed to stone, and turning to the bewildered crowd, Ferdinand added, with a
gay smile of triumph, “To you, my gallant friends, I can only wish that your
wooing may prosper as mine has done, and that you may all win as fair a bride
as I have by this masked marriage.”
S. PICKWICK Why is the
P. C. like the Tower of Babel?
It is full of unruly
members.
Once upon a time a
farmer planted a little seed. in his garden, and after a while it sprouted and
became a vine and bore many squashes. One day in October, when they were ripe,
he picked one and took it to market. A grocerman bought and put it in his shop.
That same morning, a little girl in a brown hat and blue dress, with a round
face and snub nose, went and bought it for her mother. She lugged it home, cut
it up, and boiled it in the big pot, mashed some of it salt and butter, for
dinner. And to the rest she added a pint of milk, two eggs, four spoons of
sugar, nutmeg, and some crackers, put it in a deep dish, and baked it till it
was brown and nice, and next day it was eaten by a family named March.
T. TUPMAN Mr. Pickwick, Sir:-- I
address you upon the subject of sin the sinner I mean is a man named Winkle who
makes trouble in his club by laughing and sometimes won't write his piece in
this fine paper I hope you will pardon his badness and let him send a French
fable because he can't write out of his head as he has so many lessons to do
and no brains in future I will try to take time by the fetlock and prepare some
work which will be all commy la fo that means all right I am in haste as it is
nearly school time.
On Friday last, we were
startled by a violent shock in our basement, followed by cries of distress. On
rushing in a body to the cellar, we discovered our beloved President prostrate
upon the floor, having tripped and fallen while getting wood for domestic
purposes. A perfect scene of ruin met our eyes, for in his fall Mr. Pickwick
had plunged his head and shoulders into a tub of water, upset a keg of soft
soap upon his manly form, and torn his garments badly. On being removed from
this perilous situation, it was discovered that he had suffered no injury but
several bruises, and we are happy to add, is now doing well.
It is our painful duty
to record the sudden and mysterious disappearance of our cherished friend, Mrs.
Snowball Pat Paw. This lovely and beloved cat was the pet of a large circle of
warm and admiring friends; for her beauty attracted all eyes, her graces and
virtues endeared her to all hearts, and her loss is deeply felt by the whole
community.
When last seen, she was
sitting at the gate, watching the butcher's cart, and it is feared that some
villain, tempted by her charms, basely stole her. Weeks have passed, but no
trace of her has been discovered, and we relinquish all hope, tie a black
ribbon to her basket, set aside her dish, and weep for her as one lost to us
forever.
A sympathizing friend
sends the following gem:
We mourn the loss of
our little pet,
And sigh o'er her
hapless fate,
For never more by the
fire she'll sit,
Nor play by the old
green gate.
The little grave where
her infant sleeps
Is 'neath the chestnut
tree.
But o'er her grave we
may not weep,
We know not where it
may be.
Her empty bed, her idle
ball,
Will never see her
more;
No gentle tap, no
loving purr
Is heard at the parlor
door.
Another cat comes after
her mice,
A cat with a dirty
face,
But she does not hunt
as our darling did,
Nor play with her airy
grace.
Her stealthy paws tread
the very hall
Where Snowball used to
play,
But she only spits at
the dogs our pet
So gallantly drove
away.
She is useful and mild,
and does her best,
But she is not fair to
see,
And we cannot give her
your place dear,
Nor worship her as we
worship thee.
Miss Oranthy Bluggage,
the accomplished strong-minded lecturer, will deliver her famous lecture on “WOMAN
AND HER POSITION” at Pickwick Hall, next Saturday Evening, after the usual
performances.
A weekly meeting will
be held at Kitchen place, to teach young ladies how to cook. Hannah Brown will
preside, and all are invited to attend.
The DUSTPAN SOCIETY
will meet on Wednesday next, and parade in the upper story of the Club House.
All members to appear in uniform and shoulder their brooms at nine precisely.
Mrs. Beth Bouncer will
open her new assortment of Doll's Millinery next week. The latest Paris
fashions have arrived, and orders are respectfully solicited.
A new play will appear
at the Barnville Theatre,in the course of a few weeks,which will surpass
anything ever seen on the American stage. THE GREEK SLAVE, or CONSTANTINE THE
AVENGER, is the name of this thrilling drama.!!!
If S.P. didn't use so
much soap on his hands, he wouldn't always be late at breakfast. A.S. is
requested not to whistle in the street. T.T please don't forget Amy's napkin.
N.W. must not fret because his dress has not nine tucks.
Meg--Good.
Jo--Bad.
Beth--Very Good.
Amy--Middling.
As the President
finished reading the paper (which I beg leave to assure my readers is a bona
fide copy of one written by bona fide girls once upon a time), a round of
applause followed, and then Mr. Snodgrass rose to make a proposition.
“Mr. President and
gentlemen,” he began, assuming a parliamentary attitude and tone, “I wish to
propose the admission of a new member--one who highly deserves the honor, would
be deeply grateful for it, and would add immensely to the spirit of the club,
the literary value of the paper, and be no end jolly and nice. I propose Mr.
Theodore Laurence as an honorary member of the P. C. Come now, do have him.”
Jo's sudden change of
tone made the girls laugh, but all looked rather anxious, and no one said a
word as Snodgrass took his seat.
“We'll put it to a
vote,” said the President. “All in favor of this motion please to manifest it
by saying, `Aye'.”
“Contrary-minded say,
`No'.”
Meg and Amy were
contrary-minded, and Mr. Winkle rose to say with great elegance, “We don't wish
any boys, they only joke and bounce about. This is a ladies' club, and we wish
to be private and proper.”
“I'm afraid he'll laugh
at our paper, and make fun of us afterward,” observed Pickwick, pulling the
little curl on her forehead, as she always did when doubtful.
Up rose Snodgrass, very
much in earnest. “Sir, I give you my word as a gentleman, Laurie won't do
anything of the sort. He likes to write, and he'll give a tone to our
contributions and keep us from being sentimental, don't you see? We can do so
little for him, and he does so much for us, I think the least we can do is to
offer him a place here, and make him welcome if he comes.”
This artful allusion to
benefits conferred brought Tupman to his feet, looking as if he had quite made
up his mind.
“Yes, we ought to do
it, even if we are afraid. I say he may come, and his grandpa, too, if he
likes.”
This spirited burst
from Beth electrified the club, and Jo left her seat to shake hands
approvingly. “Now then, vote again. Everybody remember it's our Laurie, and
say, `Aye!'” cried Snodgrass excitedly.
“Aye! Aye! Aye!”
replied three voices at once.
“Good! Bless you! Now,
as there's nothing like `taking time by the fetlock', as Winkle
characteristically observes, allow me to present the new member.” And, to the
dismay of the rest of the club, Jo threw open the door of the closet, and
displayed Laurie sitting on a rag bag, flushed and twinkling with suppressed
laughter.
“You rogue! You
traitor! Jo, how could you?” cried the three girls, as Snodgrass led her friend
triumphantly forth, and producing both a chair and a badge, installed him in a
jiffy.
“The coolness of you
two rascals is amazing,” began Mr. Pickwick, trying to get up an awful frown
and only succeeding in producing an amiable smile. But the new member was equal
to the occasion, and rising, with a grateful salutation to the Chair, said in
the most engaging manner, “Mr. President and ladies--I beg pardon,
gentlemen--allow me to introduce myself as Sam Weller, the very humble servant
of the club.”
“Good! Good!” cried Jo,
pounding with the handle of the old warming pan on which she leaned.
“My faithful friend and
noble patron,” continued Laurie with a wave of the hand, “who has so
flatteringly presented me, is not to be blamed for the base stratagem of
tonight. I planned it, and she only gave in after lots of teasing.”
“Come now, don't lay it
all on yourself. You know I proposed the cupboard,” broke in Snodgrass, who was
enjoying the joke amazingly.
“Never mind what she
says. I'm the wretch that did it, sir,” said the new member, with a Welleresque
nod to Mr. Pickwick. “But on my honor, I never will do so again, and henceforth
devote myself to the interest of this immortal club.”
“Hear! Hear!” cried Jo,
clashing the lid of the warming pan like a cymbal.
“Go on, go on!” added
Winkle and Tupman, while the President bowed benignly.
“I merely wish to say,
that as a slight token of my gratitude for the honor done me, and as a means of
promoting friendly relations between adjoining nations, I have set up a post
office in the hedge in the lower corner of the garden, a fine, spacious
building with padlocks on the doors and every convenience for the mails, also
the females, if I may be allowed the expression. It's the old martin house, but
I've stopped up the door and made the roof open, so it will hold all sorts of
things, and save our valuable time. Letters, manuscripts, books, and bundles
can be passed in there, and as each nation has a key, it will be uncommonly
nice, I fancy. Allow me to present the club key, and with many thanks for your
favor, take my seat.”
Great applause as Mr.
Weller deposited a little key on the table and subsided, the warming pan
clashed and waved wildly, and it was some time before order could be restored.
A long discussion followed, and everyone came out surprising, for everyone did
her best. So it was an unusually lively meeting, and did not adjourn till a
late hour, when it broke up with three shrill cheers for the new member. No one
ever regretted the admittance of Sam Weller, for a more devoted, well-behaved,
and jovial member no club could have. He certainly did add `spirit' to the
meetings, and `a tone' to the paper, for his orations convulsed his hearers and
his contributions were excellent, being patriotic, classical, comical, or
dramatic, but never sentimental. Jo regarded them as worthy of Bacon, Milton,
or Shakespeare, and remodeled her own works with good effect, she thought.
The P. O. was a capital
little institution, and flourished wonderfully, for nearly as many queer things
passed through it as through the real post office. Tragedies and cravats,
poetry and pickles, garden seeds and long letters, music and gingerbread,
rubbers, invitations, scoldings, and puppies. The old gentleman liked the fun,
and amused himself by sending odd bundles, mysterious messages, and funny
telegrams, and his gardener, who was smitten with Hannah's charms, actually
sent a love letter to Jo's care. How they laughed when the secret came out,
never dreaming how many love letters that little post office would hold in the
years to come.
“The first of June! The
Kings are off to the seashore tomorrow, and I'm free. Three months'
vacation--how I shall enjoy it!” exclaimed Meg, coming home one warm day to
find Jo laid upon the sofa in an unusual state of exhaustion, while Beth took
off her dusty boots, and Amy made lemonade for the refreshment of the whole
party.
“Aunt March went today,
for which, oh, be joyful!” said Jo. “I was mortally afraid she'd ask me to go
with her. If she had, I should have felt as if I ought to do it, but Plumfield
is about as gay as a churchyard, you know, and I'd rather be excused. We had a
flurry getting the old lady off, and I had a fright every time she spoke to me,
for I was in such a hurry to be through that I was uncommonly helpful and
sweet, and feared she'd find it impossible to part from me. I quaked till she
was fairly in the carriage, and had a final fright, for as it drove of, she
popped out her head, saying, `Josyphine, won't you--?' I didn't hear any more,
for I basely turned and fled. I did actually run, and whisked round the corner
whee I felt safe.”
“Poor old Jo! She came
in looking as if bears were after her,” said Beth, as she cuddled her sister's
feet with a motherly air.
“Aunt March is a
regular samphire, is she not?” observed Amy, tasting her mixture critically.
“She means vampire, not
seaweed, but it doesn't matter. It's too warm to be particular about one's
parts of speech,” murmured Jo.
“What shall you do all
your vacation?” asked Amy, changing the subject with tact.
“I shall lie abed late,
and do nothing,” replied Meg, from the depths of the rocking chair. “I've been
routed up early all winter and had to spend my days working for other people,
so now I'm going to rest and revel to my heart's content.”
“No,” said Jo, “that
dozy way wouldn't suit me. I've laid in a heap of books, and I'm going to
improve my shining hours reading on my perch in the old apple tree, when I'm
not having l. . .”
“Don't say `larks!'”
implored Amy, as a return snub for the samphire' correction.
“I'll say
`nightingales' then, with Laurie. That's proper and appropriate, since he's a
warbler.”
“Don't let us do any
lessons, Beth, for a while, but play all the time and rest, as the girls mean
to,” proposed Amy.
“Well, I will, if
Mother doesn't mind. I want to learn some new songs, and my children need
fitting up for the summer. They are dreadfully out of order and really
suffering for clothes.”
“May we, Mother?” asked
Meg, turning to Mrs. March, who sat sewing in what they called `Marmee's
corner'.
“You may try your
experiment for a week and see how you like it. I think by Saturday night you
will find that all play and no work is as bad as all work and no play.”
“Oh, dear, no! It will
be delicious, I'm sure,” said Meg complacently.
“I now propose a toast,
as my `friend and pardner, Sairy Gamp', says. Fun forever, and no grubbing!”
cried Jo, rising, glass in hand, as the lemonade went round.
They all drank it
merrily, and began the experiment by lounging for the rest of the day. Next
morning, Meg did not appear till ten o'clock. Her solitary breakfast did not
taste nice, and the room seemed lonely and untidy, for Jo had not filled the
vases, Beth had not dusted, and Amy's books lay scattered about. Nothing was
neat and pleasant but `Marmee's corner', which looked as usual. And there Meg
sat, to `rest and read', which meant to yawn and imagine what pretty summer
dresses she would get with her salary. Jo spent the morning on the river with
Laurie and the afternoon reading and crying over THE WIDE, WIDE WORLD, up in
the apple tree. Beth began by rummaging everything out of the big closet where
her family resided, but getting tired before half done, she left her
establishment topsy-turvy and went to her music, rejoicing that she had no
dishes to wash. Amy arranged her bower, put on her best white frock, smoothed
her curls, and sat down to draw under the honeysuckle, hoping someone would see
and inquire who the young artist was. As no one appeared but an inquisitive
daddy-longlegs, who examined her work with interest, she went to walk, got
caught in a shower, and came home dripping.
At teatime they
compared notes, and all agreed that it had been a delightful, though unusually
long day. Meg, who went shopping in the afternoon and got a `sweet blue muslin,
had discovered, after she had cut the breadths off, that it wouldn't wash,
which mishap made her slightly cross. Jo had burned the skin off her nose
boating, and got a raging headache by reading too long. Beth was worried by the
confusion of her closet and the difficulty of learning three or four songs at
once, and Amy deeply regretted the damage done her frock, for Katy Brown's
party was to be the next day and now like Flora McFlimsey, she had `nothing to
wear'. But these were mere trifles, and they assured their mother that the
experiment was working finely. She smiled, said nothing, and with Hannah's help
did their neglected work, keeping home pleasant and the domestic machinery
running smoothly. It was astonishing what a peculiar and uncomfortable state of
things was produced by the `resting and reveling' process. The days kept
getting longer and longer, the weather was unusually variable and so were
tempers, and unsettled feeling possessed everyone, and Satan found plenty of mischief
for the idle hands to do. As the height of luxury, Meg put out some of her
sewing, and then found time hang so heavily that she fell to snipping and
spoiling her clothes in her attempts to furbish them up a`la Moffat. Jo read
till her eyes gave out and she was sick of books, got so fidgety that even
good-natured Laurie had a quarrel with her, and so reduced in spirits that she
desperately wished she had gone with Aunt March. Beth got on pretty well, for
she was constantly forgetting that it was to be all play and no work, and fell
back into her old ways now and then. But something in the air affected her, and
more than once her tranquility was much disturbed, so much so that on one
occasion she actually shook poor dear Joanna and told her she was a fright'.
Amy fared worst of all, for her resources were small, and when her sisters left
her to amuse herself, she soon found that accomplished and important little
self a great burden. She didn't like dolls, fairy tales were childish, and one
couldn't draw all the time. Tea parties didn't amount to much neither did
picnics unless very well conducted. “If one could have a fine house, full of
nice girls, or go traveling, the summer would be delightful, but to stay at
home with three selfish sisters and a grown-up boy was enough to try the
patience of a Boaz,” complained Miss Malaprop, after several days devoted to
pleasure, fretting, and ennui.
No one would own that
they were tired of the experiment, but by Friday night each acknowledged to
herself that she was glad the week was nearly done. Hoping to impress the
lesson more deeply, Mrs. March, who had a good deal of humor, resolved to
finish off the trial in an appropriate manner, so she gave Hannah a holiday and
let the girls enjoy the full effect of the play system.
When they got up on
Saturday morning, there was no fire in the kitchen, no breakfast in the dining
room, and no mother anywhere to be seen.
“Mercy on us! What has
happened?” cried Jo, staring about her in dismay.
Meg ran upstairs and
soon came back again, looking relieved but rather bewildered, and a little
ashamed.
“Mother isn't sick,
only very tired, and she says she is going to stay quietly in her room all day
and let us do the best we can. It's a very queer thing for her to do, she doesn't
act a bit like herself. But she says it has been a hard week for her, so we
mustn't grumble but take care of ourselves.”
“That's easy enough,
and I like the idea, I'm aching for something to do, that is, some new
amusement, you know,” added Jo quickly.
In fact it was an
immense relief to them all to have a little work, and they took hold with a
will, but soon realized the truth of Hannah's saying, “Housekeeping ain't no
joke.” There was plenty of food in the larder, and while Beth and Amy set the
table, Meg and Jo got breakfast, wondering as they did why servants ever talked
about hard work.
“I shall take some up
to Mother, though she said we were not to think of her, for she'd take care of
herself,” said Meg, who presided and felt quite matronly behind the teapot.
So a tray was fitted
out before anyone began, and taken up with the cook's compliments. The boiled
tea was very bitter, the omelet scorched, and the biscuits speckled with
saleratus, but Mrs. March received her repast with thanks and laughed heartily
over it after Jo was gone.
“Poor little souls,
they will have a hard time, I'm afraid, but they won't suffer, and it will do
them good,” she said, producing the more palatable viands with which she had
provided herself, and disposing of the bad breakfast, so that their feelings
might not be hurt, a motherly little deception for which they were grateful.
Many were the
complaints below, and great the chagrin of the head cook at her failures. “Never
mind, I'll get the dinner and be servant, you be mistress, keep your hands
nice, see company, and give orders,” said Jo, who knew still less than Meg,
about culinary affairs.
This obliging offer was
gladly accepted, and Margaret retired to the parlor, which she hastily put in
order by whisking the litter under the sofa and shutting the blinds to save the
trouble of dusting. Jo, with perfect faith in her own powers and a friendly
desire to make up the quarrel, immediately put a note in the office, inviting
Laurie to dinner.
“You'd better see what
you have got before you think of having company,” said Meg, when informed of
the hospitable but rash act.
“Oh, there's corned
beef and plenty of potatoes, and I shall get some asparagus and a lobster, `for
a relish', as Hannah says. We'll have lettuce and make a salad. I don't know
how, but the book tells. I'll have blancmange and strawberries for dessert, and
coffee too, if you want to be elegant.”
“Don't try too many
messes, Jo, for you can't make anything but gingerbread and molasses candy fit
to eat. I wash my hands of the dinner party, and since you have asked Laurie on
your own responsibility, you may just take care of him.”
“I don't want you to do
anything but be civil to him and help to the pudding. You'll give me your
advice if I get in a muddle, won't you?” asked Jo, rather hurt.
“Yes, but I don't know
much, except about bread and a few trifles. You had better ask Mother's leave
before you order anything,” returned Meg prudently.
“Of course I shall. I'm
not a fool.” And Jo went off in a huff at the doubts expressed of her powers.
“Get what you like, and
don't disturb me. I'm going out to dinner and can't worry about things at home,”
said Mrs. March, when Jo spoke to her. “I never enjoyed housekeeping, and I'm
going to take a vacation today, and read, write, go visiting, and amuse myself.”
The unusual spectacle
of her busy mother rocking comfortably and reading early in the morning made Jo
feel as if some unnatural phenomenon had occurred, for an eclipse, an
earthquake, or a volcanic eruption would hardly have seemed stranger.
“Everything is out of
sorts, somehow,” she said to herself, going downstairs. “There's Beth crying,
that's a sure sign that something is wrong in this family. If Amy is bothering,
I'll shake her.”
Feeling very much out
of sorts herself, Jo hurried into the parlor to find Beth sobbing over Pip, the
canary, who lay dead in the cage with his little claws pathetically extended,
as if imploring the food for want of which he had died.
“It's all my fault, I
forgot him, there isn't a seed or a drop left. Oh, Pip! Oh, Pip! How could I be
so cruel to you?” cried Beth, taking the poor thing in her hands and trying to
restore him.
Jo peeped into his
half-open eye, felt his little heart, and finding him stiff and cold, shook her
head, and offered her domino box for a coffin.
“Put him in the oven,
and maybe his will get warm and revive,” said Amy hopefully.
“He's been starved, and
he shan't be baked now he's dead. I'll make him a shroud, and he shall be
buried in the garden, and I'll never have another bird, never, my Pip! For I am
too bad to own one,” murmured Beth, sitting on the floor with her pet folded in
her hands.
“The funeral shall be
this afternoon, and we will all go. Now, don't cry, Bethy. It's a pity, but nothing
goes right this week, and Pip has had the worst of the experiment. Make the
shroud, and lay him in my box, and after the dinner party, we'll have a nice
little funeral,” said Jo, beginning to feel as if she had undertaken a good
deal.
Leaving the others to
console Beth, she departed to the kitchen, which was in a most discouraging
state of confusion. Putting on a big apron, she fell to work and got the dishes
piled up ready for washing, when she discovered that the fire was out.
“Here's a sweet prospect!”
muttered Jo, slamming the stove door open, and poking vigorously among the
cinders.
Having rekindled the
fire, she thought she would go to market while the water heated. The walk
revived her spirits, and flattering herself that she had made good bargains,
she trudged home again, after buying a very young lobster, some very old
asparagus, and two boxes of acid strawberries. By the time she got cleared up,
the dinner arrived and the stove was red-hot. Hannah had left a pan of bread to
rise, Meg had worked it up early, set it on the hearth for a second rising, and
forgotten it. Meg was entertaining Sallie Gardiner in the parlor, when the door
flew open and a floury, crocky, flushed, and disheveled figure appeared,
demanding tartly . . .
“I say, isn't bread
`riz' enough when it runs over the pans?”
Sallie began to laugh,
but Meg nodded and lifted her eyebrows as high as they would go, which caused
the apparition to vanish and put the sour bread into the oven without further
delay. Mrs. March went out, after peeping here and there to see how matters
went, also saying a word of comfort to Beth, who sat making a winding sheet,
while the dear departed lay in state in the domino box. A strange sense of
helplessness fell upon the girls as the gray bonnet vanished round the corner,
and despair seized them when a few minutes later Miss Crocker appeared, and
said she'd come to dinner. Now this lady was a thin, yellow spinster, with a
sharp nose and inquisitive eyes, who saw everything and gossiped about all she
saw. They disliked her, but had been taught to be kind to her, simply because
she was old and poor and had few friends. So Meg gave her the easy chair and
tried to entertain her, while she asked questions, criticized everything, and
told stories of the people whom she knew.
Language cannot
describe the anxieties, experiences, and exertions which Jo underwent that
morning, and the dinner she served up became a standing joke. Fearing to ask
any more advice, she did her best alone, and discovered that something more
than energy and good will is necessary to make a cook. She boiled the asparagus
for an hour and was grieved to find the heads cooked off and the stalks harder
than ever. The bread burned black, for the salad dressing so aggravated her
that she could not make it fit to ear. The lobster was a scarlet mystery to
her, but she hammered and poked till it was unshelled and its meager
proportions concealed in a grove of lettuce leaves. The potatoes had to be
hurried, not to keep the asparagus waiting, and were not done at the last. The
blancmange was lumpy, and the strawberries not as ripe as they looked, having
been skilfully `deaconed'.
“Well, they can eat
beef and bread and butter, if they are hungry, only it's mortifying to have to
spend your whole morning for nothing,” thought Jo, as she rang the bell half an
hour later than usual, and stood, hot, tired, and dispirited, surveying the
feast spread before Laurie, accustomed to all sorts of elegance, and Miss
Crocker, whose tattling tongue would report them far and wide.
Poor Jo would gladly
have gone under the table, as one thing after another was tasted and left,
while Amy giggled, Meg looked distressed, Miss Crocker pursed her lips, and
Laurie talked and laughed with all his might to give a cheerful tone to the
festive scene. Jo's one strong point was the fruit, for she had sugared it
well, and had a pitcher of rich cream to eat with it. Her hot cheeks cooled a
trifle, and she drew a long breath as the pretty glass plates went round, and
everyone looked graciously at the little rosy islands floating in a sea of
cream. Miss Crocker tasted first, made a wry face, and drank some water
hastily. Jo, who refused, thinking there might not be enough, for they dwindled
sadly after the picking over, glanced at Laurie, but he was eating away
manfully, though there was a slight pucker about his mouth and he kept his eye
fixed on his plate. Amy, who was fond of delicate fare, took a heaping
spoonful, choked, hid her face in her napkin, and left the table precipitately.
“Oh, what is it?”
exclaimed Jo, trembling.
“Salt instead of sugar,
and the cream is sour,” replied Meg with a tragic gesture.
Jo uttered a groan and
fell back in her chair, remembering that she had given a last hasty powdering
to the berries out of one of the two boxes on the kitchen table, and had
neglected to put the milk in the refrigerator. She turned scarlet and was on
the verge of crying, when she met Laurie's eyes, which would look merry in
spite of his heroic efforts. The comical side of the affair suddenly struck
her, and she laughed till the tears ran down her cheeks. So did everyone else,
even `Croaker' as the girls called the old lady, and the unfortunate dinner
ended gaily, with bread and butter, olives and fun.
“I haven't strength of
mind enough to clear up now, so we will sober ourselves with a funeral,” said
Jo, as they rose, and Miss Crocker made ready to go, being eager to tell the
new story at another friend's dinner table.
They did sober
themselves for Beth's sake. Laurie dug a grave under the ferns in the grove,
little Pip was laid in, with many tears by his tender-hearted mistress, and
covered with moss, while a wreath of violets and chickweed was hung on the
stone which bore his epitaph, composed by Jo while she struggled with the
dinner.
Here lies Pip March,
Who died the 7th of
June;
Loved and lamented
sore,
And not forgotten soon.
At the conclusion of
the ceremonies, Beth retired to her room, overcome with emotion and lobster,
but there was no place of repose, for the beds were not made, and she found her
grief much assuaged by beating up the pillows and putting things in order. Meg
helped Jo clear away the remains of the feast, which took half the afternoon
and left them so tired that they agreed to be contented with tea and toast for
supper.
Laurie took Amy to
drive, which was a deed of charity, for the sour cream seemed to have had a bad
effect upon her temper. Mrs. March came home to find the three older girls hard
at work in the middle of the afternoon, and a glance at the closet gave her an
idea of the success of one part of the experiment.
Before the housewives
could rest, several people called, and there was a scramble to get ready to see
them. Then tea must be got, errands done, and one or two necessary bits of
sewing neglected until the last minute. As twilight fell, dewy and still, one
by one they gathered on the porch where the June roses were budding
beautifully, and each groaned or sighed as she sat down, as if tired or
troubled.
“What a dreadful day
this has been!” began Jo, usually the first to speak.
“It has seemed shorter
than usual, but so uncomfortable,” said Meg.
“Not a bit like home,”
added Amy.
“It can't seem so
without Marmee and little Pip,” sighed Beth, glancing with full eyes at the
empty cage above her head.
“Here's Mother, dear,
and you shall have another bird tomorrow, if you want it.”
As she spoke, Mrs.
March came and took her place among them, looking as if her holiday had not
been much pleasanter than theirs.
“Are you satisfied with
your experiment, girls, or do you want another week of it?” she asked, as Beth
nestled up to her and the rest turned toward her with brightening faces, as
flowers turn toward the sun.
“I don't!” cried Jo
decidedly.
“Nor I,” echoed the
others.
“You think then, that
it is better to have a few duties and live a little for others, do you?”
“Lounging and larking
doesn't pay,” observed Jo, shaking her head. “I'm tired of it and mean to go to
work at something right off.”
“Suppose you learn
plain cooking. That's a useful accomplishment, which no woman should be
without,” said Mrs. March, laughing inaudibly at the recollection of Jo's
dinner party,, for she had met Miss Crocker and heard her account of it.
“Mother, did you go
away and let everything be, just to see how we'd get on?” cried Meg, who had
had suspicions all day.
“Yes, I wanted you to
see how the comfort of all depends on each doing her share faithfully. While
Hannah and I did your work, you got on pretty well, though I don't think you
were very happy or amiable. So I thought, as a little lesson, I would show you
what happens when everyone thinks only of herself. Don't you feel that it is
pleasanter to help one another, to have daily duties which make leisure sweet
when it comes, and to bear and forbear, that home may be comfortable and lovely
to us all?”
“We do, Mother we do!”
cried the girls.
“Then let me advise you
to take up your little burdens again, for though they seem heavy sometimes,
they are good for us, and lighten as we learn to carry them. Work is wholesome,
and there is plenty for everyone. It keeps us from ennui and mischief, is good
for health and spirits, and gives us a sense of power and independence better
than money or fashion.”
“We'll work like bees,
and love it too, see if we don't,” said Jo. “I'll learn plain cooking for my
holiday task, and the dinner party I have shall be a success.”
“I'll make the set of
shirts for father, instead of letting you do it, Marmee. I can and I will,
though I'm not fond of sewing. That will be better than fussing over my own
things, which are plenty nice enough as they are.” said Meg.
“I'll do my lessons
every day, and not spend so much time with my music and dolls. I am a stupid
thing, and ought to be studying, not playing,” was Beth's resolution, while Amy
followed their example by heroically declaring, “I shall learn to make
buttonholes, and attend to my parts of speech.”
“Very good! Then I am
quite satisfied with the experiment, and fancy that we shall not have to repeat
it, only don't go to the other extreme and delve like slaves. Have regular
hours for work and play, make each day both useful and pleasant, and prove that
you understand the worth of time by employing it well. Then youth will be
delightful, old age will bring few regrets, and life become a beautiful
success, in spite of poverty.”
“We'll remember,
Mother!” And they did.
Beth was postmistress,
for, being most at home, she could attend to it regularly, and dearly liked the
daily task of unlocking the little door and distributing the mail. One July day
she came in with her hands full, and went about the house leaving letters and
parcels like the penny post.
“Here's your posy,
Mother! Laurie never forgets that,” she said, putting the fresh nosegay in the
vase that stood in `Marmee's corner', and was kept supplied by the affectionate
boy.
“Miss Meg March, one
letter and a glove,” continued Beth, delivering the articles to her sister, who
sat near her mother, stitching wristbands.
“Why, I left a pair
over there, and here is only one,” said Meg, looking at the gray cotton glove. “Didn't
you drop the other in the garden?”
“No, I'm sure I didn't,
for there was only one in the office.”
“I hate to have odd
gloves! Never mind, the other may be found. My letter is only a translation of
the German song I wanted. I think Mr. Brooke did it, for this isn't Laurie's
writing.”
Mrs. March glanced at
Meg, who was looking very pretty in her gingham morning gown, with the little
curls blowing about her forehead, and very womanly, as she sat sewing at her
little work-table, full of tidy white rolls, so unconscious of the thought in
her mother's mind as she sewed and sang, while her fingers flew and her
thoughts were busied with girlish fancies as innocent and fresh as the pansies
in her belt, that Mrs. March smiled and was satisfied.
“Two letters for Doctor
Jo, a book, and a funny old hat, which covered the whole post office and stuck
outside,” said Beth, laughing as she went into the study where Jo sat writing.
“What a sly fellow
Laurie is! I said I wished bigger hats were the fashion, because I burn my face
every hot day. He said, `Why mind the fashion? Wear a big hat, and be
comfortable!' I said I would if I had one, and he has sent me this to try me.
I'll wear it for fun, and show him I don't care for the fashion.” And hanging
the antique broadbrim on a bust of Plato, Jo read her letters.
One from her mother
made her cheeks glow and her eyes fill, for it said to her . . .
My Dear:
I write a little word
to tell you with how much satisfaction I watch your efforts to control your
temper. You say nothing about your trials, failures, or successes, and think,
perhaps, that no one sees them but the Friend whose help you daily ask, if I
may trust the well-worn cover of your guidebook. I, too, have seen them all,
and heartily believe in the sincerity of your resolution, since it begins to
bear fruit. Go on, dear, patiently and bravely, and always believe that no one
sympathizes more tenderly with you than your loving . . .
Mother
“That does me good!
That's worth millions of money and pecks of praise. Oh, Marmee, I do try! I
will keep on trying, and not get tired, since I have you to help me.”
Laying her head on her
arms, Jo wet her little romance with a few happy tears. for she had thought
that no one saw and appreciated her efforts to be good, and this assurance was
doubly precious, doubly encouraging, because unexpected and from the person
whose commendation she most valued. Feeling stronger than ever to meet and
subdue her Apollyon, she pinned the note inside her frock, as a shield and a
reminder, lest she be taken unaware, and proceeded to open her other letter,
quite ready for either good or bad news. In a big, dashing hand, Laurie wrote .
. .
Dear Jo,
What ho!
Some english girls and
boys are coming to see me tomorrow and I want to have a jolly time. If it's
fine, I'm going to pitch my tent in Longmeadow, and row up the whole crew to
lunch and croquet--have a fire, make messes, gypsy fashion, and all sorts of
larks. They are nice people, and like such things. Brooke will go to keep us
boys steady, and Kate Vaughn will play propriety for the girls. I want you all
to come, can't let Beth off at any price, and nobody shall worry her. Don't
bother about rations, I'll see to that and everything else, only do come,
there's a good fellow!
In a tearing hurry,
Yours ever, Laurie.
“Here's richness!”
cried Jo, flying in to tell the news to Meg.
“Of course we can go,
Mother? It will be such a help to Laurie, for I can row, and Meg see to the
lunch, and the children be useful in some way.”
“I hope the Vaughns are
not fine grown-up people. Do you know anything about them, Jo?” asked Meg.
“Only that there are
four of them. Kate is older than you, Fred and Frank (twins) about my age, and
a little girl (Grace), who is nine or ten. Laurie knew them abroad, and liked
the boys. I fancied, from the way he primmed up his mouth in speaking of her,
that he didn't admire Kate much.”
“I'm so glad my French
print is clean, it's just the thing and so becoming!” observed Meg
complacently. “Have you anything decent, Jo?”
“Scarlet and gray
boating suit, good enough for me. I shall row and tramp about, so I don't want
any starch to think of. You'll come, Betty?”
“If you won't let any
boys talk to me.”
“Not a boy!”
“I like to please
Laurie, and I'm not afraid of Mr. Brooke, he is so kind. But I don't want to
play, or sing, or say anything. I'll work hard and not trouble anyone, and
you'll take care of me, Jo, so I'll go.”
“That's my good girl.
You do try to fight off your shyness, and I love you for it. Fighting faults
isn't easy, as I know, and a cheery word kind of gives a lift. Thank you,
Mother,” And Jo gave the thin cheek a grateful kiss, more precious to Mrs.
March than if it had given back the rosy roundness of her youth.
“I had a box of
chocolate drops, and the picture I wanted to copy,” said Amy, showing her mail.
“And I got a note from
Mr. Laurence, asking me to come over and play to him tonight, before the lamps
are lighted, and I shall go,” added Beth, whose friendship with the old
gentleman prospered finely.
“Now let's fly round,
and do double duty today, so that we can play tomorrow with free minds,” said
Jo, preparing to replace her pen with a broom.
When the sun peeped
into the girls' room early next morning to promise them a fine day, he saw a
comical sight. Each had made such preparation for the fete as seemed necessary
and proper. Meg had an extra row of little curlpapers across her forehead, Jo
had copiously anointed her afflicted face with cold cream, Beth had taken
Joanna to bed with her to atone for the approaching separation, and Amy had
capped the climax by putting a clothespin on her nose to uplift the offending
feature. It was one of the kind artists use to hold the paper on their drawing
boards, therefore quite appropriate and effective for the purpose it was now
being put. This funny spectacle appeared to amuse the sun, for he burst out
with such radiance that Jo woke up and roused her sisters by a hearty laugh at
Amy's ornament.
Sunshine and laughter
were good omens for a pleasure party, and soon a lively bustle began in both
houses. Beth, who was ready first, kept reporting what went on next door, and
enlivened her sisters' toilets by frequent telegrams from the window.
“There goes the man
with the tent! I see Mrs. Barker doing up the lunch in a hamper and a great
basket. Now Mr. Laurence is looking up at the sky and the weathercock. I wish
he would go too. There's Laurie, looking like a sailor, nice boy! Oh, mercy me!
Here's a carriage full of people, a tall lady, a little girl, and two dreadful
boys. One is lame, poor thing, he's got a crutch. Laurie didn't tell us that.
Be quick, girls! It's getting late. Why, there is Ned Moffat, I do declare.
Meg, isn't that the man who bowed to you one day when we were shopping?”
“So it is. How queer
that he should come. I thought he was at the mountains. There is Sallie. I'm
glad she got back in time. Am I all right, Jo?” cried Meg in a flutter.
“A regular daisy. Hold
up your dress and put your hat on straight, it looks sentimental tipped that
way and will fly off at the first puff. Now then, come on!”
“Oh, Jo, you are not
going to wear that awful hat? It's too absurd! You shall not make a guy of
yourself,” remonstrated Meg, as Jo tied down with a red ribbon the
broad-brimmed, old-fashioned leghorn Laurie had sent for a joke.
“I just will, though,
for it's capital, so shady, light, and big. It will make fun, and I don't mind
being a guy if I'm comfortable.” With that Jo marched straight away and the
rest followed, a bright little band of sisters, all looking their best in
summer suits, with happy faces under the jaunty hatbrims.
Laurie ran to meet and
present them to his friends in the most cordial manner. The lawn was the
reception room, and for several minutes a lively scene was enacted there. Meg
was grateful to see that Miss Kate, though twenty, was dressed with a
simplicity which American girls would do well to imitate, and who was much
flattered by Mr. Ned's assurances that he came especially to see her. Jo
understood why Laurie `primmed up his mouth' when speaking of Kate, for that
young lady had a stand-off-don't-touch-me air, which contrasted strongly with the
free and easy demeanor of the other girls. Beth took an observation of the new
boys and decided that the lame one was not `dreadful', but gentle and feeble,
and she would be kind to him on that account. Amy found Grace a well-mannered,
merry, little person, and after staring dumbly at one another for a few
minutes, they suddenly became very good friends.
Tents, lunch, and
croquet utensils having been sent on beforehand, the party was soon embarked,
and the two boats pushed off together, leaving Mr. Laurence waving his hat on
the shore. Laurie and Jo rowed one boat, Mr. Brooke and Ned the other, while
Fred Vaughn, the riotous twin, did his best to upset both by paddling about in
a wherry like a disturbed water bug. Jo's funny hat deserved a vote of thanks,
for it was of general utility. It broke the ice in the beginning by producing a
laugh, it created quite a refreshing breeze, flapping to and fro as she rowed,
and would make an excellent umbrella for the whole party, if a shower came up,
she said. Miss Kate decided that she was `odd', but rather clever, and smiled
upon her from afar.
Meg, in the other boat,
was delightfully situated, face to face with the rowers, who both admired the
prospect and feathered their oars with uncommon `skill and dexterity'. Mr.
Brooke was a grave, silent young man, with handsome brown eyes and a pleasant
voice. Meg liked his quiet manners and considered him a walking encyclopedia of
useful knowledge. He never talked to her much, but he looked at her a good
deal, and she felt sure that he did not regard her with aversion. Ned, being in
college, of course put on all the airs which freshmen think it their bounden
duty to assume. He was not very wise, but very good-natured, and altogether an
excellent person to carry on a picnic. Sallie Gardiner was absorbed in keeping
her white pique dress clean and chattering with the ubiquitous Fred, who kept
Beth in constant terror by his pranks.
It was not far to
Longmeadow, but the tent was pitched and the wickets down by the time they arrived.
A pleasant green field, with three wide-spreading oaks in the middle and a
smooth strip of turf for croquet.
“Welcome to Camp
Laurence!” said the young host, as they landed with exclamations of delight.
“Brooke is commander in
chief, I am commissary general, the other fellows are staff officers, and you,
ladies, are company. The tent is for your especial benefit and that oak is your
drawing room, this is the messroom and the third is the camp kitchen. Now,
let's have a game before it gets hot, and then we'll see about dinner.”
Frank, Beth, Amy, and
Grace sat down to watch the game played by the other eight. Mr. Brooke chose
Meg, Kate, and Fred. Laurie took Sallie, Jo, and Ned. The English played well,
but the Americans played better, and contested every inch of the ground as
strongly as if the spirit of `76 inspired them. Jo and Fred had several
skirmishes and once narrowly escaped high words. Jo was through the last wicket
and had missed the stroke, which failure ruffled her a good deal. Fred was close
behind her and his turn came before hers. He gave a stroke, his ball hit the
wicket, and stopped an inch on the wrong side. No one was very near, and
running up to examine, he gave it a sly nudge with his toe, which put it just
an inch on the right side.
“I'm through! Now, Miss
Jo, I'll settle you, and get in first,” cried the young gentleman, swinging his
mallet for another blow.
“You pushed it. I saw
you. It's my turn now,” said Jo sharply.
“Upon my word, I didn't
move it. It rolled a bit, perhaps, but that is allowed. So, stand off please,
and let me have a go at the stake.”
“We don't cheat in
America, but you can, if you choose,” said Jo angrily.
“Yankees are a deal the
most tricky, everybody knows. There you go!” returned Fred, croqueting her ball
far away.
Jo opened her lips to
say something rude, but checked herself in time, colored up to her forehead and
stood a minute, hammering down a wicket with all her might, while Fred hit the
stake and declared himself out with much exultation. She went off to get her
ball, and was a long time finding it among the bushes, but she came back,
looking cool and quiet, and waited her turn patiently. It took several strokes
to regain the place she had lost, and when she got there, the other side had nearly
won, for Kate's ball was the last but one and lay near the stake.
“By George, it's all up
with us! Goodbye, Kate. Miss Jo owes me one, so you are finished,” cried Fred
excitedly, as they all drew near to see the finish.
“Yankees have a trick
of being generous to their enemies,” said Jo, with a look that made the lad
redden, “especially when they beat them,” she added, as, leaving Kate's ball
untouched, she won the game by a clever stroke.
Laurie threw up his
hat, then remembered that it wouldn't do to exult over the defeat of his
guests, and stopped in the middle of the cheer to whisper to his friend, “Good
for you, Jo! He did cheat, I saw him. We can't tell him so,but he won't do it
again, take my word for it.”
Meg drew her aside,
under pretense of pinning up a loose braid, and said approvingly, “It was
dreadfully provoking, but you kept your temper, and I'm so glad, Jo.”
“Don't praise me, Meg,
for I could box his ears this minute. I should certainly have boiled over if I
hadn't stayed among the nettles till I got my rage under control enough to hold
my tongue.. It's simmering now, so I hope he'll keep out of my way,” returned
Jo, biting her lips as she glowered at Fred from under her big hat.
“Time for lunch,” said
Mr. Brooke, looking at his watch. “Commissary general, will you make the fire
and get water, while Miss March, Miss Sallie, and I spread the table? Who can
make good coffee?”
“Jo can,” said Meg,
glad to recommend her sister. So Jo, feeling that her late lessons in cookery
were to do her honor, went to preside over the coffeepot, while the children
collected dry sticks, and the boys made a fire and got water from a spring near
by. Miss Kate sketched and Frank talked to Beth, who was making little mats of
braided rushes to serve as plates.
The commander in chief
and his aides soon spread the table-cloth with an inviting array of eatables
and drinkables, prettily decorated with green leaves. Jo announced that the
coffee was ready, and everyone settled themselves to a hearty meal, for youth
is seldom dyspeptic, and exercise develops wholesome appetites. A very merry
lunch it was, for everything seemed fresh and funny, and frequent peals of
laughter startled a venerable horse who fed near by. There was a pleasing
inequality in the table, which produced many mishaps to cups and plates, acorns
dropped in the milk, little black ants partook of the refreshments without
being invited, and fuzzy caterpillars swung down from the tree to see what was
going on. Three white-headed children peeped over the fence, and an
objectionable dog barked at them from the other side of the river with all his
might and main.
“There's salt here,”
said Laurie, as he handed Jo a saucer of berries.
“Thank you, I prefer
spiders,” she replied, fishing up two unwary little ones who had gone to a
creamy death. “How dare you remind me of that horrid dinner party, when your's
is so nice in every way?' added Jo, as they both laughed and ate out of one
plate, the china having run short.
“I had an uncommonly
good time that day, and haven't got over it yet. This is no credit to me, you
know, I don't do anything. It's you and Meg and Brooke who make it all go, and
I'm no end obliged to you. what shall we do when we can't eat anymore?” asked
Laurie, feeling that his trump card had been played when lunch was over.
“Have games till it's
cooler. I brought Authors, and I dare say Miss Kate knows something new and
nice. Go and ask her. She's company, and you ought to stay with her more.”
“Aren't you company
too? I thought she'd suit Brooke, but he keeps talking to Meg, and Kate just
stares at them through that ridiculous glass of hers'. I'm going, so you
needn't try to preach propriety, for you can't do it, Jo.”
Miss Kate did know
several new games, and as the girls would not, and the boys could not, eat any
more, they all adjourned to the drawing room to play Rig-marole.
“One person begins a
story, any nonsense you like, and tells as long as he pleases, only taking care
to stop short at some exciting point, when the next takes it up and does the
same. It's very funny when well done, and makes a perfect jumble of tragical
comical stuff to laugh over. Please start it, Mr. Brooke,” said Kate, with a
commanding air, which surprised Meg, who treated the tutor with as much respect
as any other gentleman.
Lying on the grass at
the feet of the two young ladies, Mr. Brooke obediently began the story, with
the handsome brown eyes steadily fixed upon the sunshiny river.
“Once on a time, a
knight went out into the world to seek his fortune, for he had nothing but his
sword and his shield. He traveled a long while, nearly eight-and-twenty years,
and had a hard time of it, till he came to the palace of a good old king, who
had offered a reward to anyone who could tame and train a fine but unbroken
colt, of which he was very fond. The knight agreed to try, and got on slowly
but surely, for the colt was a gallant fellow, and soon learned to love his new
master, though he was freakish and wild. Every day, when he gave his lessons to
this pet of the king's, the knight rode him through the city, and as he rode,
he looked everywhere for a certain beautiful face, which he had seen many times
in his dreams, but never found. One day, as he went prancing down a quiet
street, he saw at the window of a ruinous castle the lovely face. He was
delighted, inquired who lived in this old castle, and was told that several
captive princesses were kept there by a spell, and spun all day to lay up money
to buy their liberty. The knight wished intensely that he could free them, but
he was poor and could only go by each day, watching for the sweet face and
longing to see it out in the sunshine. At last he resolved to get into the
castle and ask how he could help them. He went and knocked. The great door flew
open, and he beheld . ..”
“A ravishingly lovely
lady, who exclaimed, with a cry of rapture, `At last! At last!'” continued
Kate, who had read French novels, and admired the style. “`Tis she!' cried
Count Gustave, and fell at her feet in an ecstasy of joy. `Oh, rise!' she said,
extending a hand of marble fairness. `Never! Till you tell me how I may rescue
you,' swore the knight, still kneeling. `Alas, my cruel fate condemns me to
remain here till my tyrant is destroyed.' `Where is the villain?' `In the mauve
salon. Go, brave heart, and save me from despair.' `I obey, and return
victorious or dead!' With these thrilling words he rushed away, and flinging
open the door of the mauve salon, was about to enter, when he received . . .”
“A stunning blow from
the big Greek lexicon, which an old fellow in a black gown fired at him,” said
Ned. “Instantly, Sir What's-his-name recovered himself, pitched the tyrant out
of the window, and turned to join the lady, victorious, but with a bump on his
brow, found the door locked, tore up the curtains, made a rope ladder, got
halfway down when the ladder broke, and he went headfirst into the moat, sixty
feet below. Could swim like a duck, paddled round the castle till he came to a
little door guarded by two stout fellows, knocked their heads together till
they cracked like a couple of nuts, then, by a trifling exertion of his
prodigious strength, he smashed in the door, went up a pair of stone steps
covered with dust a foot thick, toads as big as your fist, and spiders that would
frighten you into hysterics, Miss March. At the top of these steps he came
plump upon a sight that took his breath away and chilled his blood . . .”
“A tall figure, all in
white with a veil over its face and a lamp in its wasted hand,” went on Meg. “It
beckoned, gliding noiselessly before him down a corridor as dark and cold as
any tomb. Shadowy effigies in armor stood on either side, a dead silence
reigned, the lamp burned blue, and the ghostly figure ever and anon turned its
face toward him, showing the glitter of awful eyes through its white veil. They
reached a curtained door, behind which sounded lovely music. He sprang forward
to enter, but the specter plucked him back, and waved threateningly before him
a . . .”
“Snuffbox,” said Jo, in
a sepulchral tone, which convulsed the audience. “`Thankee,' said the knight
politely, as he took a pinch and sneezed seven times so violently that his head
fell off. `Ha! Ha!' laughed the ghost, and having peeped through the keyhole at
the princesses spinning away for dear life, the evil spirit picked up her
victim and put him in a large tin box, where there were eleven other knights
packed together without their heads, like sardines, who all rose and began to .
. .”
“Dance a hornpipe,” cut
in Fred, as Jo paused for breath, “and, as they danced, the rubbishy old castle
turned to a man-of-war in full sail. `Up with the jib, reef the tops'l
halliards, helm hard alee, and man the guns!' roared the captain, as a
Portuguese pirate hove in sight, with a flag black as ink flying from her
foremast. `Go in and win, my hearties!' says the captain, and a tremendous
fight began. Of course the British beat, they always do.”
“No, they don't!” cried
Jo, aside.
“Having taken the
pirate captain prisoner, sailed slap over the schooner, whose decks were piled
high with dead and whose lee scuppers ran blood, for the order had been
`Cutlasses, and die hard!' `Bosun's mate, take a bight of the flying-jib sheet,
and start this villain if he doesn't confess his sins double quick,' said the
British captain. The Portuguese held his tongue like a brick, and walked the
plank, while the jolly tars cheered like mad. But the sly dog dived, came up
under the man-of-war, scuttled her, and down she went, with all sail set, `To
the bottom of the sea, sea, sea' where . . .”
“Oh, gracious! What
shall I say?” cried Sallie, as Fred ended his rigmarole, in which he had
jumbled together pell-mell nautical phrases and facts out of one of his
favorite books. “Well, they went to the bottom, and a nice mermaid welcomed
them, but was much grieved on finding the box of headless knights, and kindly
pickled them in brine, hoping to discover the mystery about them, for being a
woman, she was curious. By-and-by a diver came down, and the mermaid said,
`I'll give you a box of pearls if you can take it up,' for she wanted to
restore the poor things to life, and couldn't raise the heavy load herself. So
the diver hoisted it up, and was much disappointed on opening it to find no
pearls. He left it in a great lonely field, where it was found by a . . .”
“Little goose girl, who
kept a hundred fat geese in the field,” said Amy, when Sallie's invention gave
out. “The little girl was sorry for them, and asked an old woman what she
should do to help them. `Your geese will tell you, they know everything.' said
the old woman. So she asked what she should use for new heads, since the old
ones were lost, and all the geese opened their hundred mouths and screamed . .
.”
“`Cabbages!'” continued
Laurie promptly. “`Just the thing,' said the girl, and ran to get twelve fine
ones from her garden. She put them on, the knights revived at once, thanked
her, and went on their way rejoicing, never knowing the difference, for there
were so many other heads like them in the world that no one thought anything of
it. The knight in whom I'm interest went back to find the pretty face, and
learned that the princesses had spun themselves free and all gone and married,
but one. He was in a great state of mind at that, and mounting the colt, who stood
by him through thick and thin, rushed to the castle to see which was left.
Peeping over the hedge, he saw the queen of his affections picking flowers in
her garden. `Will you give me a rose?' said he. `You must come and get it. I
can't come to you, it isn't proper,' said she, as sweet as honey. He tried to
climb over the hedge, but it seemed to grow higher and higher. Then he tried to
push through, but it grew thicker and thicker, and he was in despair. So he
patiently broke twig after twig till he had made a little hole through which he
peeped, saying imploringly, `Let me in! Let me in!' But the pretty princess did
not seem to understand, for she picked her roses quietly, and left him to fight
his way in. Whether he did or not, Frank will tell you.”
“I can't. I'm not
playing, I never do,” said Frank, dismayed at the sentimental predicament out
of which he was to rescue the absurd couple. Beth had disappeared behind Jo,
and Grace was asleep.
“So the poor knight is
to be left sticking in the hedge, is he?” asked Mr. Brooke, still watching the
river, and playing with the wild rose in his buttonhole.
“I guess the princess
gave him a posy, and opened the gate after a while,” said Laurie, smiling to
himself, as he threw acorns at his tutor.
“What a piece of
nonsense we have made! With practice we might do something quite clever. Do you
know Truth?”
“I hope so,” said Meg
soberly.
“The game, I mean?”
“what is it?” said
Fred.
“Why, you pile up your
hands, choose a number, and draw out in turn, and the person who draws at the
number has to answer truly any question put by the rest. It's great fun.”
“Let's try it,” said
Jo, who liked new experiments.
Miss Kate and Mr.
Booke, Meg, and Ned declined, but Fred, Sallie, Jo, and Laurie piled and drew,
and the lot fell to Laurie.
“Who are your heroes?”
asked Jo.
“Grandfather and
Napoleon.”
“Which lady here do you
think prettiest?” said Sallie.
“Margaret.”
“Which do you like
best?” from Fred.
“Jo, of course.”
“What silly questions
you ask!” And Jo gave a disdainful shrug as the rest laughed at Laurie's
matter-of-fact tone.
“Try again. Truth isn't
a bad game,” said Fred.
“It's a very good one
for you,” retorted Jo in a low voice. Her turn came next.
“What is your greatest
fault?' asked Fred, by way of testing in her the virtue he lacked himself.
“A quick temper.”
“What do you most wish
for?” said Laurie.
“A pair of boot
lacings,” returned Jo, guessing and defeating his purpose.
“Not a true answer. You
must say what you really do want most.”
“Genius. Don't you wish
you could give it to me, Laurie?” And she slyly smiled in his disappointed
face.
“What virtues do you
most admire in a man?” asked Sallie.
“Courage and honesty.”
“Now my turn,” said
Fred, as his hand came last.
“Let's give it to him,”
whispered Laurie to Jo, who nodded and asked at once . . .
“Didn't you cheat at
croquet?'
“Well, yes, a little
bit.”
“Good! Didn't you take
your story out of THE SEA LION?” said Laurie.
“Rather.”
“Don't you think the
English nation perfect in every respect?” asked Sallie.
“I should be ashamed of
myself if I didn't.”
“He's a true John Bull.
Now, Miss Sallie, you shall have a chance without waiting to draw. I'll harrow
up your feelings first by asking if you don't think you are something of a
flirt,” said Laurie, as Jo nodded to Fred as a sign that peace was declared.
“You impertinent boy!
Of course I'm not,” exclaimed Sallie, with an air that proved the contrary.
“What do you hate most?”
asked Fred.
“Spiders and rice
pudding.”
“What do you like best?”
asked Jo.
“Dancing and French
gloves.”
“Well, I think Truth is
a very silly play. Let's have a sensible game of Authors to refresh our minds,”
proposed Jo.
Ned, frank, and the
little girls joined in this, and while it went on, the three elders sat apart,
talking. Miss Kate took out her sketch again, and Margaret watched her, while
Mr. Brooke lay on the grass with a book, which he did not read.
“How beautifully you do
it! I wish I could draw,” said Meg, with mingled admiration and regret in her
voice.
“Why don't you learn? I
should think you had taste and talent for it,” replied Miss Kate graciously.
“I haven't time.”
“Your mamma prefers
other accomplishments, I fancy. So did mine, but I proved to her that I had
talent by taking a few lessons privately, and then she was quite willing I
should go on. Can't you do the same with your governess?”
“I have none.”
“I forgot young ladies
in America go to school more than with us. Very fine schools they are, too, Papa
says. You go to a private one, I suppose?”
“I don't go at all. I
am a governess myself.”
“Oh. indeed!” said Miss
Kate, but she might as well have said, “Dear me, how dreadful!” for her tone
implied it, and something in her face made Meg color, and wish she had not been
so frank.
Mr. Brooke looked up
and said quickly, Young ladies in America love independence as much as their
ancestors did, and are admired and respected for supporting themselves.”
“Oh, yes, of course
it's very nice and proper in them to do so. We have many most respectable and
worthy young women who do the same and are employed by the nobility, because,
being the daughters of gentlemen, they are both well bred and accomplished, you
know,” said Miss Kate in a patronizing tone that hurt Meg's pride, and made her
work seem not only more distasteful, but degrading.
“Did the German song
suit, Miss March?” inquired Mr. Brooke, breaking an awkward pause.
“Oh, yes! It was very
sweet, and I'm much obliged to whoever translated it for me.” And Meg's
downcast face brightened as she spoke.
“Don't you read German?”
asked Miss Kate with a look of surprise.
“Not very well. My
father, who taught me, is away, and I don't get on very fast alone, for I've no
one to correct my pronunciation.”
“Try a little now. Here
is Schiller's MARY STUART and a tutor who loves to teach.” And Mr. Brooke laid
his book on her lap with an inviting smile.
“It's so hard I'm
afraid to try,” said Meg, grateful, but bashful in the presence of the
accomplished young lady beside her.
“I'll read a bit to
encourage you.” And Miss Kate read one of the most beautiful passages in a
perfectly correct but perfectly expressionless manner.
Mr. Brooke made no
comment as she returned the book to Meg, who said innocently, “I thought it was
poetry.”
“Some of it is. Try
this passage.”
There was a queer smile
about Mr. Brooke's mouth as he opened at poor Mary's lament.
Meg obediently
following the long grass-blade which her new tutor used to point with, read
slowly and timidly, unconsciously making poetry of the hard words by the soft
intonation of her musical voice. Down the page went the green guide, and
presently, forgetting her listener in the beauty of the sad scene, Meg read as
if alone, giving a little touch of tragedy to the words of the unhappy queen.
If she had seen the brown eyes then, she would have stopped short, but she
never looked up, and the lesson was not spoiled for her.
“Very well indeed!”
said Mr. Brooke, as she paused, quite ignoring her many mistakes, and looking
as if he did indeed love to teach.
Miss Kate put up her
glass, and, having taken a survey of the little tableau before her, shut her
sketch book, saying with condescension, “You've a nice accent and in time will
be a clever reader. I advise you to learn, for German is a valuable
accomplishment to teachers. I must look after Grace, she is romping.” And Miss
Kate strolled away, adding to herself with a shrug, “I didn't come to chaperone
a governess, though she is young and pretty. What odd people these Yankees are.
I'm afraid Laurie will be quite spoiled among them.”
“I forgot that English
people rather turn up their noses at governesses and don't treat them as we do,”
said Meg, looking after the retreating figure with an annoyed expression.
“Tutors also have
rather a hard time of it there, as I know to my sorrow. There's no place like
America for us workers, Miss Margaret.” And Mr. Brooke looked so contented and
cheerful that Meg was ashamed to lament her hard lot.
“I'm glad I live in it
then. I don't like my work, but I get a good deal of satisfaction out of it
after all, so I won't complain. I only wished I liked teaching as you do.”
“I think you would if
you had Laurie for a pupil. I shall be very sorry to lose him next year,” said
Mr. Brooke, busily punching holes in the turf.
“Going to college, I
suppose?” Meg's lips asked the question, but her eyes added, “And what becomes
of you?”
“Yes, it's high time he
went, for he is ready, and as soon as he is off, I shall turn soldier. I am
needed.”
“I am glad of that!”
exclaimed Meg. “I should think every young man would want to go, though it is
hard for the mothers and sisters who stay at home,” she added sorrowfully.
“I have neither, and
very few friends to care whether I live or die,” said Mr. Brooke rather
bitterly as he absently put the dead rose in the hole he had made and covered
it up, like a little grave.
“Laurie and his
grandfather would care a great deal, and we should all be very sorry to have
any harm happen to you,” said Meg heartily.
“Thank you, that sounds
pleasant,” began Mr. Brooke, looking cheerful again, but before he could finish
his speech, Ned, mounted on the old horse, came lumbering up to display his
equestrian skill before the young ladies, and there was no more quiet that day.
“Don't you love to
ride?” asked Grace of Amy, as they stood resting after a race round the field
with the others, led by Ned.
“I dote upon it. My
sister, Meg, used to ride when Papa was rich, but we don't keep any horses now,
except Ellen Tree,” added Amy, laughing.
“Tell me about Ellen
Tree. Is it a donkey?” asked Grace curiously.
“Why, you see, Jo is
crazy about horses and so am I, but we've only got an old sidesaddle and no
horse. Out in our garden is an apple tree that has a nice low branch, so Jo put
the saddle on it, fixed some reins on the part that turns up, and we bounce
away on Ellen Tree whenever we like.”
“How funny!” laughed
Grace. “I have a pony at home, and ride nearly every day in the park with Fred
and Kate. It's very nice, for my friends go too, and the Row is full of ladies
and gentlemen.”
“Dear, how charming! I
hope I shall go abroad some day, but I'd rather go to Rome than the row,” said
Amy, who had not the remotest idea what the Row was and wouldn't have asked for
the world.
Frank, sitting just
behind the little girls, heard what they were saying, and pushed his crutch
away from him with an impatient gesture as he watched the active lads going
through all sorts of comical gymnastics. Beth, who was collecting the scattered
Author cards, looked up and said, in her shy yet friendly way, “I'm afraid you
are tired. Can I do anything for you?”
“Talk to me, please.
It's dull, sitting by myself,” answered Frank, who had evidently been used to
being made much of at home.
If he asked her to
deliver a Latin oration, it would not have seemed a more impossible task to
bashful Beth, but there was no place to run to, no Jo to hide behind now, and
the poor boy looked so wistfully at her that she bravely resolved to try.
“What do you like to
talk about?” she asked, fumbling over the cards and dropping half as she tried
to tie them up.
“Well, I like to hear
about cricket and boating and hunting,” said Frank, who had not yet learned to
suit his amusements to his strength.
My heart! What shall I
do? I don't know anything about them, thought Beth, and forgetting the boy's
misfortune in her flurry, she said, hoping to make him talk, “I never saw any
hunting, but I suppose you know all about it.”
“I did once, but I can
never hunt again, for I got hurt leaping a confounded five-barred gate, so
there are no more horses and hounds for me,” said Frank with a sigh that made
Beth hate herself for her innocent blunder.
“Your deer are much
prettier than our ugly buffaloes,” she said, turning to the prairies for help
and feeling glad that she had read one of the boys' books in which Jo
delighted.
Buffaloes proved
soothing and satisfactory, and in her eagerness to amuse another, Beth forgot
herself, and was quite unconscious of her sisters' surprise and delight at the
unusual spectacle of Beth talking away to one of the dreadful boys, against
whom she had begged protection.
“Bless her heart! She
pities him, so she is good to him,” said Jo, beaming at her from the croquet ground.
“I always said she was
a little saint,” added Meg, as if there could be no further doubt of it.
“I haven't heard Frank
laugh so much for ever so long,” said Grace to Amy, as they sat discussing
dolls and making tea sets out of the acorn cups.
“My sister Beth is a
very fastidious girl, when she likes to be,” said Amy, well pleased at Beth's
success. She meant `fascinating', but as Grace didn't know the exact meaning of
either word, fastidious sounded well and made a good impression.
An impromptu circus,
fox and geese, and an amicable game of croquet finished the afternoon. At
sunset the tent was struck, hampers packed, wickets pulled up, boats loaded,
and the whole party floated down the river, singing at the tops of their
voices. Ned, getting sentimental, warbled a serenade with the pensive refrain .
. .
Alone, alone, ah! Woe,
alone,
and at the lines . . . We each
are young, we each have a heart,
Oh, why should we stand
thus coldly apart?
he looked at Meg with such a lackadaisical expression that she laughed
outright and spoiled his song. “How
can you be so cruel to me?” he whispered, under cover of a lively chorus. “You've
kept close to that starched-up Englishwoman all day, and now you snub me.”
“I didn't mean to, but
you looked so funny I really couldn't help it,” replied Meg, passing over the
first part of his reproach, for it was quite true that she had shunned him,
remembering the Moffat party and the talk after it.
Ned was offended and
turned to Sallie for consolation, saying to her rather pettishly, “There isn't
a bit of flirt in that girl, is there?”
“Not a particle, but
she's a dear,” returned Sallie, defending her friend even while confessing her
shortcomings.
“She's not a stricken
deer anyway,” said Ned, trying to be witty, and succeeding as well as very
young gentlemen usually do.
On the lawn where it
had gathered, the little party separated with cordial good nights and good-bys,
for the Vaughns were going to Canada. As the four sisters went home through the
garden, Miss Kate looked after them, saying, without the patronizing tone in
her voice, “In spite of their demonstrative manners, American girls are very
nice when one knows them.”
“I quite agree with
you,” said Mr. Brooke.
Laurie lay luxuriously
swinging to and fro in his hammock one warm September afternoon, wondering what
his neighbors were about, but too lazy to go and find out. He was in one of his
moods, for the day had been both unprofitable and unsatisfactory, and he was
wishing he could live it over again. The hot weather made him indolent, and he
had shirked his studies, tried Mr. Brooke's patience to the utmost, displeased
his grandfather by practicing half the afternoon, frightened the maidservants
half out of their wits by mischievously hinting that one of his dogs was going
mad, and, after high words with the stableman about some fancied neglect of his
horse, he had flung himself into his hammock to fume over the stupidity of the
world in general, till the peace of the lovely day quieted him in spite of
himself. Staring up into the green gloom of the horse-chestnut trees above him,
he dreamed dreams of all sorts, and was just imagining himself tossing on the
ocean in a voyage round the world, when the sound of voices brought him ashore
in a flash. Peeping through the meshes of the hammock, he saw the Marches
coming out, as if bound on some expedition.
“What in the world are
those girls about now?” thought Laurie, opening his sleepy eyes to take a good
look, for there was something rather peculiar in the appearance of his
neighbors. Each wore a large, flapping hat, a brown linen pouch slung over one
shoulder, and carried a long staff. Meg had a cushion, Jo a book, Beth a
basket, and Amy a portfolio. All walked quietly through the garden, out at the
little back gate, and began to climb the hill that lay between the house and
river.
“Well, that's cool,”
said Laurie to himself, “to have a picnic and never ask me! They can't be going
in the boat, for they haven't got the key. Perhaps they forgot it. I'll take it
to them, and see what's going on.”
Though possessed of
half a dozen hats, it took him some time to find one, then there was a hunt for
the key, which was at last discovered in his pocket, so that the girls were
quite out of sight when leaped the fence and ran after them. Taking the
shortest way to the boathouse, he waited for them to appear, but no one came,
and he went up the hill to take an observation. A grove of pines covered one
part of it, and from the heart of this green spot came a clearer sound than the
soft sigh of the pines or the drowsy chirp of the crickets.
“Here's a landscape!”
thought Laurie, peeping through the bushes, and looking wide-awake and
good-natured already.
It was a rather pretty
little picture, for the sisters sat together in the shady nook, with sun and
shadow flickering over them, the aromatic wind lifting their hair and cooling
their hot cheeks, and all the little wood people going on with their affairs as
if these were no strangers but old friends. Meg sat upon her cushion, sewing
daintily with her white hands, and looking as fresh and sweet as a rose in her
pink dress among the green. Beth was sorting the cones that lay thick under the
hemlock near by, for she made pretty things with them. Amy was sketching a
group of ferns, and Jo was knitting as she read aloud. A shadow passed over the
boy's face as he watched them, feeling that he ought to go away because
uninvited, yet lingering because home seemed very lonely and this quiet party
in the woods most attractive to his restless spirit. He stood so still that a
squirrel, busy with it's harvesting, ran dawn a pine close beside him, saw him
suddenly and skipped back, scolding so shrilly that Beth looked up, espied the
wistful face behind the birches,and beckoned with a reassuring smile.
“May I come in, please?
Or shall I be a bother?” he asked, advancing slowly.
Meg lifted her
eyebrows, but Jo scowled at her defiantly and said at once, “Of course you may.
We should have asked you before, only we thought you wouldn't care for such a
girl's game as this.”
“I always like your
games, but if Meg doesn't want me, I'll go away.”
“I've no objection, if
you do something. It's against the rules to be idle here,” replied Meg gravely
but graciously.
“Much obliged. I'll do
anything if you'll let me stop a bit, for it's as dull as the Desert of Sahara
down there. Shall I sew, read, cone, draw, or do all at once? Bring on your
bears. I'm ready.” And Laurie sat down with a submissive expression delightful
to behold.
“Finish this story
while I set my heel,” said Jo, handing him the book.
“Yes'm.” was the meek
answer, as he began, doing his best to prove his gratitude for the favor of
admission into the `Busy Bee Society'.
The story was not a
long one, and when it was finished, he ventured to ask a few questions as a
reward of merit.
“Please, ma'am, could I
inquire if this highly instructive and charming institution is a new one?”
“Would you tell him?”
asked Meg of her sisters.
“He'll laugh,” said Amy
warningly.
“Who cares?” said Jo.
“I guess he'll like it,”
added Beth.
“Of course I shall! I
give you my word I won't laugh. Tell away, Jo, and don't be afraid.”
“The idea of being
afraid of you! Well, you see we used to play Pilgrim's Progress, and we have
been going on with it in earnest, all winter and summer.”
“Yes, I know,” said
Laurie, nodding wisely.
“Who told you?”
demanded Jo.
“Spirits.”
“No, I did. I wanted to
amuse him one night when you were all away, and he was rather dismal. He did
like it, so don't scold, Jo,” said Beth meekly.
“You can't keep a
secret. Never mind, it saves trouble now.”
“Go on, please,” said
Laurie, as Jo became absorbed in her work, looking a trifle displeased.
“Oh, didn't she tell
you about this new plan of ours? Well, we have tried not to waste our holiday,
but each has had a task and worked at it with a will. The vacation is nearly
over, the stints are all done, and we are ever so glad that we didn't dawdle.”
“Yes, I should think
so,” and Laurie thought regretfully of his own idle days.
“Mother likes to have
us out-of-doors as much as possible, so we bring our work here and have nice
times. For the fun of it we bring our things in these bags, wear the old hats,
use poles to climb the hill, and play pilgrims, as we used to do years ago. We
call this hill the Delectable Mountain, for we can look far away and see the
country where we hope to live some time.”
Jo pointed, and Laurie
sat up to examine, for through an opening in the wood one could look cross the
wide, blue river, the meadows on the other side, far over the outskirts of the
great city, to the green hills that rose to meet the sky. The sun was low, and
the heavens glowed with the splendor of an autumn sunset. Gold and purple
clouds lay on the hilltops, and rising high into the ruddy light were silvery
white peaks that shone like the airy spires of some Celestial City.
“How beautiful that is!”
said Laurie softly, for he was quick to see and feel beauty of any kind.
“It's often so, and we like
to watch it, for it is never the same, but always splendid,” replied Amy,
wishing she could paint it.
“Jo talks about the
country where we hope to live some time-- the real country, she means, with
pigs and chickens and haymaking. It would be nice, but I wish the beautiful
country up there was real, and we could ever go to it,” said Beth musingly.
“There is a lovelier
country even than that, where we shall go, by-and-by, when we are good enough,”
answered Meg with her sweetest voice.
“It seems so long to
wait, so hard to do. I want to fly away at once, as those swallows fly, and go
in at that splendid gate.”
“You'll get there,
Beth, sooner or later, no fear of that,” said Jo. “I'm the one that will have
to fight and work, and climb and wait, and maybe never get in after all.”
“you'll have me for
company, if that's any comfort. I shall have to do a deal of traveling before I
come in sight of your Celestial City. If I arrive late, you'll say a good word
for me, won't you, Beth?”
Something in the boy's
face troubled his little friend, but she said cheerfully, with her quiet eyes
on the changing clouds, “If people really want to go, and really try all their
lives, I think they will get in, for I don't believe there are any locks on
that door or any guards at the gate. I always imagine it is as it is in the
picture, where the shining ones stretch out their hands to welcome poor
Christian as he comes up from the river.
“Wouldn't it be fun if
all the castles in the air which we make could come true, and we could live in
them?” said Jo, after a little pause.
“I've made such
quantities it would be hard to choose which I'd have,” said Laurie, lying flat
and throwing cones at the squirrel who had betrayed him.
“You'd have to take
your favorite one. What is it?” asked Meg.
“If I tell mine, will
you tell yours?”
“Yes, if the girls will
too.”
“We will. Now, Laurie.”
“After I'd seen as much
of the world as I want to, I'd like to settle in Germany and have just as much
music as I choose. I'm to be a famous musician myself, and all creation is to
rush to hear me. And I'm never to be bothered about money or business, but just
enjoy myself and live for what I like. That's my favorite castle. What's yours,
Meg?”
Margaret seemed to find
it a little hard to tell hers, and waved a brake before her face, as if to
disperse imaginary gnats, while she said slowly, “I should like a lovely house,
full of all sorts of luxurious things--nice food, pretty clothes, handsome
furniture, pleasant people, and heaps of money. I am to be mistress of it, and
manage it as I like, with plenty of servants, so I never need work a bit. How I
should enjoy it! For I wouldn't be idle, but do good, and make everyone love me
dearly.”
“Wouldn't you have a
master for your castle in the air?” asked Laurie slyly.
“I said `pleasant
people', you know,” And Meg carefully tied up her shoe as she spoke, so that no
one saw her face.
“Why don't you say
you'd have a splendid, wise, good husband and some angelic little children? You
know your castle wouldn't be perfect without,” said blunt Jo, who had no tender
fancies yet, and rather scorned romance, except in books.
“You'd have nothing but
horses, inkstands, and novels in yours,” answered Meg petulantly.
“Wouldn't I though? I'd
have a stable full of Arabian steeds, rooms piled high with books, and I'd
write out of a magic inkstand, so that my works should be as famous as Laurie's
music. I want to do something splendid before I go into my castle, something
heroic or wonderful that won't be forgotten after I'm dead. I don't know what,
but I'm on the watch for it, and mean to astonish you all some day. I think I
shall write books, and get rich and famous, that would suit me, so that is my
favorite dream.”
“Mine is to stay at
home safe with Father and Mother, and help take care of the family,” said Beth
contentedly.
“Don't you wish for
anything else?” asked Laurie.
“Since I had my little
piano, I am perfectly satisfied. I only wish we may all keep well and be
together, nothing else.”
“I have ever so many
wishes, but the pet one is to be an artist, and go to Rome, and do fine
pictures, and be the best artist in the whole world,” was Amy's modest desire.
“We're an ambitious
set, aren't we? Every one of us, but Beth, wants to be rich and famous, and
gorgeous in every respect. I do wonder if any of us will ever get our wishes,”
said Laurie, chewing grass like a meditative calf.
“I've got the key to my
castle in the air, but whether I can unlock the door remains to be seen,”
observed Jo mysteriously.
“I've got the key to
mine, but I'm not allowed to try it. Hang college!” muttered Laurie with an
impatient sigh.
“Here's mine!” and Amy
waved her pencil.
“I haven't got any,”
said Meg forlornly.
“Yes, you have,” said
Laurie at once.
“Where?”
“In your face.”
“Nonsense, that's of no
use.”
“Wait and see if it
doesn't bring you something worth having,” replied the boy, laughing at the
thought of a charming little secret which he fancied he knew.
Meg colored behind the
brake, but asked no questions and looked across the river with the same
expectant expression which Mr. Brooke had worn when he told the story of the
knight.
“If we are all alive
ten years hence, let's meet, and see how many of us have got our wishes, or how
much nearer we are then than now,” said Jo, always ready with a plan.
“Bless me! How old I
shall be, twenty-seven!” exclaimed Meg, who felt grown up already, having just
reached seventeen.
“You and I will be
twenty-six, Teddy, Beth twenty-four, and Amy twenty-two. What a venerable
party!” said Jo.
“I hope I shall have
done something to be proud of by that time, but I'm such a lazy dog, I'm afraid
I shall dawdle, Jo.”
“You need a motive,
Mother says, and when you get it, she is sure you'll work splendidly.”
“Is she? By Jupiter, I
will, if I only get the chance!” cried Laurie, sitting up with sudden energy. “I
ought to be satisfied to please Grandfather, and I do try, but it's working
against the grain, you see, and comes hard. He wants me to be an India merchant,
as he was, and I'd rather be shot. I hate tea and sild and spices, and every
sort of rubbish his old ships bring, and I don't care how soon they go to the
bottom when I own them. Going to college ought to satisfy him, for if I give
him four years he ought to let me off from the business. But he's set, and I've
got to do just as he did, unless I break away and please myself, as my father
did. If there was anyone left to stay with the old gentleman, I'd do it
tomorrow.”
Laurie spoke excitedly,
and looked ready to carry his threat into execution on the slightest
provocation, for he was growing up very fast and, in spite of his indolent
ways, had a young man's hatred of subjection, a young man's restless longing to
try the world for himself.
“I advise you to sail
away in one of your ships, and never come home again till you have tried your
own way,” said Jo, whose imagination was fired by the thought of such a daring
exploit, and whose sympathy was excited by what she called `Teddy's Wrongs'.
“That's not right, Jo.
You mustn't talk in that way, and Laurie mustn't take your bad advice. You
should do just what your grandfather wishes, my dear boy,” said Meg in her most
maternal tone. “do your best at college, and when he sees that you try to
please him, I'm sure he won't be hard on you or unjust to you. As you say,
there is no one else to stay with and love him, and you'd never forgive
yourself if you left him without his permission. Don't be dismal or fret, but
do your duty and you'll get your reward, as good Mr. Brooke has, by being
respected and loved.”
“What do you know about
him?” asked Laurie, grateful for the good advice, but objecting to the lecture,
and glad to turn the conversation from himself after his unusual outbreak.
“Only what your grandpa
told us about him, how he took good care of his own mother till she died, and
wouldn't go abroad as tutor to some nice person because he wouldn't leave her.
And how he provides now for an old woman who nursed his mother, and never tells
anyone, but is just as generous and patient and good as he can be.”
“So he is, dear old
fellow!” said Laurie heartily, as Meg paused, looking flushed and earnest with
her story. “It's like Grandpa to find out all about him without letting him
know, and to tell all his goodness to others, so that they might like him.
Brooke couldn't understand why your mother was so kind to him, asking him over
with me and treating him in her beautiful friendly way. He thought she was just
perfect, and talked about it for days and days, and went on about you all in
flaming style. If ever I do get my wish, you see what I'll do for Booke.”
“Begin to do something
now by not plaguing his life out,” said Meg sharply.
“How do you know I do,
Miss?”
“I can always tell by
his face when he goes away. If you have been good, he looks satisfied and walks
briskly. If you have plagued him, he's sober and walks slowly, as if he wanted
to go back and do his work better.”
“Well, I like that? So
you keep an account of my good and bad marks in Brooke's face, do you? I see
him bow and smile as he passes your window, but I didn't know you'd got up a
telegraph.”
“We haven't. Don't be
angry, and oh, don't tell him I said anything! It was only to show that I cared
how you get on, and what is said here is said in confidence, you know,” cried
Meg, much alarmed at the thought of what might follow from her careless speech.
“I don't tell tales,”
replied Laurie, with his `high and mighty' air, as Jo called a certain
expression which he occasionally wore. “Only if Brooke is going to be a
thermometer, I must mind and have fair weather for him to report.”
“Please don't be
offended. I didn't meant to preach or tell tales or be silly. I only thought Jo
was encouraging you in a feeling which you'd be sorry for by-and-by. You are so
kind to us, we feel as if you were our brother and say just what we think.
Forgive me, I meant it kindly.” And Meg offered her hand with a gesture both
affectionate and timid.
Ashamed of his
momentary pique, Laurie squeezed the kind little hand, and said frankly, “I'm
the one to be forgiven. I'm cross and have been out of sorts all day. I like to
have you tell me my faults and be sisterly, so don't mind if I am grumpy
sometimes. I thank you all the same.”
Bent on showing that he
was not offended, he made himself as agreeable as possible, wound cotton for
Meg, recited poetry to please Jo, shook down cones for Beth, and helped Amy
with her ferns, proving himself a fit person to belong to the `Busy Bee
Society'. In the midst of an animated discussion on the domestic habits of
turtles (one of those amiable creatures having strolled up from the river), the
faint sound of a bell warned them that Hannah had put the tea `to draw', and
they would just have time to get home to supper.
“May I come again?”
asked Laurie.
“Yes, if your are good,
and love your book, as the boys in the primer are told to do,” said Meg,
smiling.
“i'll try.”
“Then you may come, and
I'll teach you to knit as the Scotchmen do. There's a demand for socks just
now,” added Jo, waving hers like a big blue worsted banner as they parted at
the gate.
That night, when Beth
played to Mr. Laurence in the twilight, Laurie, standing in the shadow of the
curtain, listened to the little David, whose simple music always quieted his
moody spirit, and watched the old man, who sat with his gray head on his hand,
thinking tender thoughts of the dead child he had loved so much. Remembering
the conversation of the afternoon, the boy said to himself, with the resolve to
make the sacrifice cheerfully, “I'll let my castle go, and stay with the dear
old gentleman while he needs me, for I am all he has.”
Jo was very busy in the
garret, for the October days began to grow chilly, and the afternoons were
short. For two or three hours the sun lay warmly in the high window, showing Jo
seated on the old sofa, writing busily, with her papers spread out upon a trunk
before her, while Scrabble, the pet rat, promenaded the beams overhead,
accompanied by his oldest son, a fine young fellow, who was evidently very
proud of his whiskers. Quite absorbed in her work, Jo scribbled away till the
last page was filled, when she signed her name with a flourish and threw down
her pen, exclaiming . . .
“There, I've done my
best! If this won't suit I shall have to wait till I can do better.”
Lying back on the sofa,
she read the manuscript carefully through, making dashes here and there, and
putting in many exclamation points, which looked like little balloons. Then she
tied it up with a smart red ribbon, and sat a minute looking at it with a
sober, wistful expression, which plainly showed how earnest her work had been.
Jo's desk up here was an old tin kitchen which hung against the wall. It it she
kept her papers, and a few books, safely shut away from Scrabble, who, being
likewise of a literary turn, was fond of making a circulating library of such
books as were left in his way by eating the leaves. From this tin receptacle Jo
produced another manuscript, and putting both in her pocket, crept quietly downstairs,
leaving her friends to nibble on her pens and taste her ink.
She put on her hat and
jacket as noiselessly as possible, and going to the back entry window, got out
upon the roof of a low porch, swung herself down to the grassy bank, and took a
roundabout way to the road. Once there, she composed herself, hailed a passing
omnibus, and rolled away to town, looking very merry and mysterious.
If anyone had been
watching her, he would have thought her movements decidedly peculiar, for on
alighting, she went off at a great pace till she reached a certain number in a
certain busy street. Having found the place with some difficulty, she went into
the doorway, looked up the dirty stairs, and after standing stock still a
minute, suddenly dived into the street and walked away as rapidly as she came.
This maneuver she repeated several times, to the great amusement of a
black-eyed young gentleman lounging in the window of a building opposite. On
returning for the third time, Jo gave herself a shake, pulled her hat over her
eyes, and walked up the stairs, looking as if she were going to have all her
teeth out.
There was a dentist's
sign, among others, which adorned the entrance, and after staring a moment at
the pair of artificial jaws which slowly opened and shut to draw attention to a
fine set of teeth, the young gentleman put on his coat, took his hat, and went
down to post himself in the opposite doorway, saying with a smile and a shiver,
“It's like her to come alone, but if she has a bad time she'll need someone to
help her home.”
In ten minutes Jo came
running downstairs with a very red face and the general appearance of a person
who had just passed through a trying ordeal of some sort. When she saw the
young gentleman she looked anything but pleased, and passed him with a nod. But
he followed, asking with an air of sympathy, “Did you have a bad time?”
“Not very.”
“You got through
quickly.”
“Yes, thank goodness!”
“Why did you go alone?”
“Didn't want anyone to
know.”
“You're the oddest
fellow I ever saw. How many did you have out?”
Jo looked at her friend
as if she did not understand him, then began to laugh as if mightily amused at
something.
“There are two which I
want to have come out, but I must wait a week.”
“What are you laughing
at? You are up to some mischief, Jo,” said Laurie, looking mystified.
“So are you. What were
you doing, sir, up in that billiard saloon?”
“Begging your pardon,
ma'am, it wasn't a billiard saloon, but a gymnasium, and I was taking a lesson
in fencing.”
“I'm glad of that.”
“why?”
“You can teach me, and
then when we play HAMLET, you can be Laertes, and we'll make a fine thing of
the fencing scene.”
“Laurie burst out with
a hearty boy's laugh, which made several passers-by smile in spite of
themselves.
“I'll teach you whether
we play HAMLET or not. It's grand fun and will straighten you up capitally. But
I don't believe that was your only reason for saying `I'm glad' in that decided
way, was it now?”
“No, I was glad that
you were not in the saloon, because I hope you never go to such places. Do you?”
“Not often.”
“I wish you wouldn't.”
“It's no harm, Jo. I
have billiards at home, but it's no fun unless you have good players, so, as
I'm fond of it, I come sometimes and have a game with Ned Moffat or some of the
other fellows.”
“Oh, dear, I'm so
sorry, for you'll get to liking it better and better, and will waste time and
money, and grow like those dreadful boys. I did hope you'd stay respectable and
be a satisfaction to your friends,” said Jo, shaking her head.
“Can't a fellow take a
little innocent amusement now and then without losing his respectability?”
asked Laurie, looking nettled.
“That depends upon how
and where he takes it. I don't like Ned and his set, and wish you'd keep out of
it. Mother won't let us have him at our house, though he wants to come. And if
you grow like him she won't be willing to have us frolic together as we do now.”
“Won't she?” asked
Laurie anxiously.
“No, she can't bear
fashionable young men, and she'd shut us all up in bandboxes rather than have
us associate with them.”
“Well, she needn't get
out her bandboxes yet. I'm not a fashionable party and don't mean to be, but I
do like harmless larks now and then, don't you?”
“Yes, nobody minds
them, so lark away, but don't get wild, will you? Or there will be an end of
all our good times.”
“I'll be a double
distilled saint.”
“I can't bear saints.
Just be a simple, honest, respectable boy, and we'll never desert you. I don't
know what I should do if you acted like Mr. King's son. He had plenty of money,
but didn't know how to spend it, and got tipsy and gambled, and ran away, and
forged his father's name, I believe, and was altogether horrid.”
“You think I'm likely
to do the same? Much obliged.”
“No, I don't--oh, dear,
no!--but I hear people talking about money being such a temptation, and I
sometimes wish you were poor. I shouldn't worry then.”
“Do you worry about me,
Jo?”
“A little, when you
look moody and discontented, as you sometimes do, for you've got such a strong
will, if you once get started wrong, I'm afraid it would be hard to stop you.”
Laurie walked in
silence a few minutes, and Jo watched him, wishing she had held her tongue, for
his eyes looked angry, though his lips smiled as if at her warnings.
“Are you going to
deliver lectures all the way home?” he asked presently.
“Of course not. Why?”
“Because if you are,
I'll take a bus. If you're not, I'd like to walk with you and tell you
something very interesting.”
“I won't preach any
more, and I'd like to hear the news immensely.”
“Very well, then, come
on. It's a secret, and if I tell you, you must tell me yours.”
“I haven't got any,”
began Jo, but stopped suddenly, remembering that she had.
“You know you have--you
can't hide anything, so up and fess, or I won't tell,” cried Laurie.
“Is your secret a nice
one?”
“Oh, isn't it! All
about people you know, and such fun! You ought to hear it, and I've been aching
to tell it this long time. Come, you begin.”
“You'll not say anything
about it at home, will you?”
“Not a word.”
“And you won't tease me
in private?”
“I never tease.”
“Yes, you do. You get
everything you want out of people. I don't know how you do it, but you are a
born wheedler.”
“Thank you. Fire away.”
“Well, I've left two
stories with a newspaperman, and he's to give his answer next week,” whispered
Jo, in her confidant's ear.
“Hurrah for Miss March,
the celebrated American authoress!” cried Laurie, throwing up his hat and
catching it again, to the great delight of two ducks, four cats, five hens, and
half a dozen Irish children, for they were out of the city now.
“Hush! It won't come to
anything, I dare say, but I couldn't rest till I had tried, and I said nothing
about it because I didn't want anyone else to be disappointed.”
“It won't fail. Why,
Jo, your stories are works of Shakespeare compared to half the rubbish that is
published every day. Won't it be fun to see them in print, and shan't we feel
proud of our authoress?”
Jo's eyes sparkled, for
it is always pleasant to be believed in, and a friend's praise is always
sweeter than a dozen newspaper puffs.
“Where's your secret?
Play fair, Teddy, or I'll never believe you again,” she said, trying to
extinguish the brilliant hopes that blazed up at a word of encouragement.
“I may get into a
scrape for telling, but I didn't promise not to, so I will, for I never feel
easy in my mind till I've told you any plummy bit of news I get. I know where
Meg's glove is.”
“Is that all? said Jo,
looking disappointed, as Laurie nodded and twinkled with a face full of
mysterious intelligence.
“It's quite enough for
the present, as you'll agree when I tell you where it is.”
“Tell, then.”
Laurie bent, and
whispered three words in Jo's ear, which produced a comical change. She stood
and stared at him for a minute, looking both surprised and displeased, then
walked on, saying sharply, “How do you know?”
“Saw it.”
“Where?'
“Pocket.”
“All this time?”
“Yes, isn't that
romantic?”
“No, it's horrid.”
“Don't you like it?”
“Of course I don't.
It's ridiculous, it won't be allowed. My patience! What would Meg say?”
“You are not to tell
anyone. Mind that.”
“I didn't promise.”
“That was understood,
and I trusted you.”
“Well, I won't for the
present, anyway, but I'm disgusted, and wish you hadn't told me.”
“I thought you'd be
pleased.”
“At the idea of anybody
coming to take Meg away? No, thank you.”
“You'll feel better
about it when somebody comes to take you away.”
“I'd like to see anyone
try it,” cried Jo fiercely.
“So should I!” And
Laurie chuckled at the idea.
“I don't think secrets
agree with me, I feel rumpled up in my mind since you told me that,” said Jo
rather ungratefully.
“Race down this hill
with me, and you'll be all right,” suggested Laurie.
No one was in sight,
the smooth road sloped invitingly before her, and finding the temptation
irresistible, Jo darted away, soon leaving hat and comb behind her and
scattering hairpins as she ran. Laurie reached the goal first and was quite
satisfied with the success of his treatment, for his Atalanta came panting up
with flying hair, bright eyes, ruddy cheeks, and no signs of dissatisfaction in
her face.
“I wish I was a horse,
then I could run for miles in this splendid air, and not lose my breath. It was
capital, but see what a guy it's made me. Go, pick up my things, like a cherub,
as you are,” said Jo, dropping down under a maple tree, which was carpeting the
bank with crimson leaves.
Laurie leisurely
departed to recover the lost property, and Jo bundled up her braids, hoping no
one would pass by till she was tidy again. But someone did pass, and who should
it be but Meg, looking particularly ladylike in her state and festival suit,
for she had been making calls.
“What in the world are
you doing here?” she asked, regarding her disheveled sister with well-bred
surprise.
“Getting leaves,”
meekly answered Jo, sorting the rosy handful she had just swept up.
“And hairpins,” added
Laurie, throwing half a dozen into Jo's lap. “They grow on this road, Meg, so
do combs and brown straw hats.”
“You have been running,
Jo. How could you? When will you stop such romping ways?” said Meg reprovingly,
as she settled her cuffs and smoothed her hair, with which the wind had taken
liberties.
“Never till I'm stiff
and old and have to use a crutch. Don't try to make me grow up before my time,
Meg. It's hard enough to have you change all of a sudden. Let me be a little
girl as long as I can.”
As she spoke, Jo bent
over the leaves to hide the trembling of her lips, for lately she had felt that
Margaret was fast getting to be a woman, and Laurie's secret made her dread the
separation which must surely come some time and now seemed very near. He saw
the trouble in her face and drew Meg's attention from it by asking quickly, “Where
have you been calling, all so fine?”
“At the Gardiners', and
Sallie has been telling me all about Belle Moffat's wedding. It was very
splendid, and they have gone to spend the winter in Paris. Just think how
delightful that must be!”
“Do you envy her, Meg?”
said Laurie.
“I'm afraid I do.”
“I'm glad of it!”
muttered Jo, tying on her hat with a jerk.
“Why?” asked Meg,
looking surprised.
“Because if you care
much about riches, you will never go and marry a poor man,” said Jo, frowning
at Laurie, who was mutely warning her to mind what she said.
“I shall never `go and
marry' anyone,” observed Meg, walking on with great dignity while the others
followed, laughing, whispering, skipping stones, and `behaving like children',
as Meg said to herself, though she might have been tempted to join them if she
had not had her best dress on.
For a week or two, Jo
behaved so queerly that her sisters were quite bewildered. She rushed to the
door when the postman rang, was rude to Mr. Brooke whenever they met, would sit
looking at Meg with a woe-begone face, occasionally jumping up to shake and
then kiss her in a very mysterious manner. Laurie and she were always making
signs to one another, and talking about `Spread Eagles' till the girls declared
they had both lost their wits. On the second Saturday after Jo got out of the
window, Meg, as she sat sewing at her window, was scandalized by the sight of
Laurie chasing Jo all over the garden and finally capturing her in Amy's bower.
What went on there, Meg could not see, but shrieks of laughter were heard,
followed by the murmur of voices and a great flapping of newspapers.
“What shall we do with
that girl? She never will behave like a young lady,” sighed Meg, as she watched
the race with a disapproving face.
“I hope she won't. She
is so funny and dear as she is,” said Beth, who had never betrayed that she was
a little hurt at Jo's having secrets with anyone but her.
“It's very trying, but
we never can make her commy la fo,” added Amy, who sat making some new frills
for herself, with her curls tied up in a very becoming way., two agreeable
things that made her feel unusually elegant and ladylike.
In a few minutes Jo
bounced in, laid herself on the sofa, and affected to read.
“Have you anything
interesting there?” asked Meg, with condescension.
“Nothing but a story,
won't amount to much, I guess,” returned Jo, carefully keeping the name of the
paper out of sight.
“You'd better read it
aloud. That will amuse us and keep you out of mischief,” said Amy in her most
grown-up tone.
“What's the name?”
asked Beth, wondering why Jo kept her face behind the sheet.
“The Rival Painters.”
“That sounds well. Read
it,” said Meg.
With a loud “Hem!” and
a long breath, Jo began to read very fast. The girls listened with interest,
for the tale was romantic, and somewhat pathetic, as most of the characters
died in the end.
“I like that about the
splendid picture,” was Amy's approving remark, as Jo paused.
“I prefer the lovering
part. Viola and Angelo are two of our favorite names, isn't that queer?” said
Meg, wiping her eyes, for the lovering part was tragical.
“Who wrote it?” asked
Beth, who had caught a glimpse of Jo's face.
The reader suddenly sat
up, cast away the paper, displaying a flushed countenance, and with a funny
mixture of solemnity and excitement replied in a loud voice, “Your sister.”
“You?” cried Meg,
dropping her work.
“It's very good,” said
Amy critically.
“I knew it! I knew it!
Oh, my Jo, I am so proud!” And Beth ran to hug her sister and exult over this
splendid success.
Dear me, how delighted
they all were, to be sure! How Meg wouldn't believe it till she saw the words. “Miss
Josephine March,” actually printed in the paper. How graciously Amy critisized
the artistic parts of the story, and offered hints for a sequel, which
unfortunately couldn't be carried out, as the hero and heroine were dead. How
Beth got excited, and skipped and sang with joy. How Hannah came in to exclaim,
“Sakes alive, well I never!” in great astonishment at `that Jo's doin's'. How
proud Mrs. March was when she knew it. How Jo laughed, with tears in her eyes,
as she declared she might as well be a peacock and done with it. and how the
`Spread Eagle' might be said to flap his wings triumphantly over the House of
March, as the paper passed from hand to hand.
“Tell us about it.” “When
did it come?” “How much did you get for it?” “What will Father say?” “Won't
Laurie laugh?” cried the family, all in one breath as they clustered about Jo,
for these foolish, affectionate people mad a jubilee of every little household
joy.
“Stop jabbering, girls,
and I'll tell you everything,” said Jo, wondering if Miss Burney felt any
grander over her EVILINA than she did over her `Rival Painters'. Having told
how she disposed of her tales, Jo added, “And when I went to get my answer, the
man said he liked them both, but didn't pay beginners, only let them print in
his paper, and noticed the stories. It was good practice, he said, and when the
beginners improved, anyone would pay. So I let him have the two stories, and
today this was sent to me, and Laurie caught me with it and insisted on seeing
it, so I let him. And he said it was good, and I shall write more, and he's
going to get the next paid for, and I am so happy, for in time I may be able to
support myself and help the girls.”
Jo's breath gave out
here, and wrapping her head in the paper, she bedewed her little story with a
few natural tears, for to be independent and earn the praise of those she loved
were the dearest wishes of her heart, and this seemed to be the first step
toward that happy end.
“November is the most
disagreeable month in the whole year,” said Margaret, standing at the window
one dull afternoon, looking out at the frostbitten garden.
“That's the reason I
was born in it,” observed Jo pensively, quite unconscious of the blot on her
nose.
“If something very
pleasant should happen now, we should think it a delightful month,” said Beth,
who took a hopeful view of everything, even November.
“I dare say, but
nothing pleasant ever does happen in this family,” said Meg, who was out of
sorts. “We go grubbing along day after day, without a bit of change, and very
little fun. We might as well be in a treadmill.”
“My patience, how blue
we are!” cried Jo. “I don't much wonder, poor dear, for you see other girls
having splendid times, while you grind, grind, year in and year out. Oh, don't
I wish I could manage things for you as I do for my heroines! You're pretty
enough and good enough already, so I'd have some rich relation leave you a
fortune unexpectedly. Then you'd dash out as an heiress, scorn everyone who has
slighted you, go abroad, and come home my Lady Something in a blaze of splendor
and elegance.”
“People don't have
fortunes left them in that style nowadays, men have to work and women marry for
money. It's a dreadfully unjust world,” said Meg bitterly.
“Jo and I are going to
make fortunes for you all. Just wait ten years, and see if we don't,” said Amy,
who sat in a corner making mud pies, as Hannah called her little clay models of
birds, fruit, and faces.
“Can't wait, and I'm
afraid I haven't much faith in ink and dirt, though I'm grateful for your good
intentions.
Meg sighed, and turned
to the frostbitten garden again. Jo groaned and leaned both elbows on the table
in a despondent attitude, but Amy spatted away energetically, and Beth, who sat
at the other window, said, smiling, “Two pleasant things are going to happen
right away. Marmee is coming down the street, and Laurie is tramping through
the garden as if he had something nice to tell.”
In they both came, Mrs.
March with her usual question, “Any letter from Father, girls?” and Laurie to
say in his persuasive way, “Won't some of you come for a drive? I've been
working away at mathematics till my head is in a muddle, and I'm going to
freshen my wits by a brisk turn. It's a dull day, but the air isn't bad, and
I'm going to take Brooke home, so it will be gay inside, if it isn't out. Come,
Jo, you and Beth will go, won't you?”
“Of course we will.”
“Much obliged, but I'm
busy.” And Meg whisked out her workbasket, for she had agreed with her mother
that it was best, for her at least, not to drive too often with the young
gentleman.
“We three will be ready
in a minute,” cried Amy, running away to wash her hands.
“Can I do anything for
you, Madam Mother?” asked Laurie, leaning over Mrs. March's chair with the
affectionate look and tone he always gave her.
“No, thank you, except
call at the office, if you'll be so kind, dear. It's our day for a letter, and
the postman hasn't been. Father is as regular as the sun, but there's some
delay on the way, perhaps.”
A sharp ring
interrupted her, and a minute after Hannah came in with a letter.
“It's one of them horrid
telegraph things, mum,” she said, handling it as if she was afraid it would
explode and do some damage.
At the word
`telegraph', Mrs. March snatched it, read the two lines it contained, and
dropped back into her chair as white as if the little paper had sent a bullet
to her heart. Laurie dashed downstairs for water, while Meg and Hannah
supported her, and Jo read aloud, in a frightened voice . . .
Mrs. March:
Your husband is very
ill. Come at once.
S. HALE
Blank Hospital,
Washington.
How still the room was
as they listened breathlessly, how strangely the day darkened outside, and how
suddenly the whole world seemed to change, as the girls gathered about their
mother, feeling as if all the happiness and support of their lives was about to
be taken from them.
Mrs. March was herself
again directly, read the message over, and stretched out her arms to her
daughters, saying, in a tone they never forgot, “I shall go at once, but it may
be too late. Oh, children, children, help me to bear it!”
For several minutes
there was nothing but the sound of sobbing in the room, mingled with broken
words of comfort, tender assurances of help, and hopeful whispers that died
away in tears. Poor Hannah was the first to recover, and with unconscious
wisdom she set all the rest a good example, for with her, work was panacea for
most afflictions.
“The Lord keep the dear
man! I won't waste no time a-cryin', but git your things ready right away, mum,”
she said heartily, as she wiped her face on her apron, gave her mistress a warm
shake of the hand with her own hard one, and went away to work like three women
in one.
“She's right, there's
no time for tears now. Be calm, girls, and let me think.”
They tried to be calm,
poor things, as their mother sat up, looking pale but steady, and put away her
grief to think and plan for them.
“Where's Laurie?' she
asked presently, when she had collected her thoughts and decided on the first
duties to be done.
“Here, ma'am. Oh, let
me do something!” cried the boy, hurrying from the next room whither he had
withdrawn, feeling that their first sorrow was too sacred for even his friendly
eyes to see.
“Send a telegram saying
I will come at once. The next train goes early in the morning. I'll take that.”
“What else? The horses
are ready. I can go anywhere, do anything,” he said, looking ready to fly to
the ends of the earth.
“Leave a note at Aunt
March's. Jo, give me that pen and paper.”
Tearing off the blank
side of one of her newly copied pages, Jo drew the table before her mother,
well knowing that money for the long, sad journey must be borrowed, and feeling
as if she could do anything to add to a little to the sum for her father.
“Now go, dear, but
don't kill yourself driving at a desperate pace. There is no need of that.”
Mrs. March's warning
was evidently thrown away, for five minutes later Laurie tore by the window on
his own fleet horse, riding as if for his life.
“Jo, run to the rooms,
and tell Mrs. King that I can't come. On the way get these things. I'll put
them down, they'll be needed and I must go prepared for nursing. Hospital
stores are not always good. Beth, go and ask Mr. Laurence for a couple of
bottles of old wine. I'm not too proud to beg for Father. He shall have the
best of everything. Amy, tell Hannah to get down the black trunk, and Meg, come
and help me find my things, for I'm half bewildered.”
Writing, thinking, and
directing all at once might well bewilder the poor lady, and Meg begged her to
sit quietly in her room for a little while, and let them work. Everyone
scattered like leaves before a gust of wind, and the quiet, happy household was
broken up as suddenly as if the paper had been an evil spell.
Mr. Laurence came
hurrying back with Beth, bringing every comfort the kind old gentleman could
think of for the invalid, and friendliest promises of protection for the girls
during the mother's absence, which comforted her very much. There was nothing
he didn't offer, from his own dressing gown to himself as escort. But the last
was impossible. Mrs. March would not hear of the old gentleman's undertaking
the long journey, yet an expression of relief was visible when he spoke of it,
for anxiety ill fits one for traveling. He saw the look, knit his heavy
eyebrows, rubbed his hands, and marched abruptly away, saying he'd be back
directly. No one had time to think of him again till, as Meg ran through the
entry, with a pair of rubbers in one hand and a cup of tea in the other, she
came suddenly upon Mr. Brooke.
“I'm very sorry to hear
of this, Miss March,” he said, in the kind, quiet tone which sounded very
pleasantly to her perturbed spirit. “I came to offer myself as escort to your
mother. Mr. Laurence has commissions for me in Washington, and it will give me
real satisfaction to be of service to her there.”
Down dropped the
rubbers, and the tea was very near following, as Meg put out her hand, with a
face so full of gratitude that Mr. Brooke would have felt repaid for a much
greater sacrifice than the trifling one of time and comfort which he was about
to take.
“How kind you all are!
Mother will accept, I'm sure, and it will be such a relief to know that she has
someone to take care of her. Thank you very, very much!”
Meg spoke earnestly,
and forgot herself entirely till something in the brown eyes looking down at
her made her remember the cooling tea, and lead the way into the parlor, saying
she would call her mother.
Everything was arranged
by the time Laurie returned with a note from Aunt March, enclosing the desired
sum, and a few lines repeating what she had often said before, that she had
always told them it was absurd for March to go into the army, always predicted
that no good would come of it, and she hoped they would take her advice the
next time. Mrs. March put the note in the fire, the money in her purse, and
went on with her preparations, with her lips folded tightly in a way which Jo
would have understood if she had been there.
The short afternoon
wore away. All other errands were done, and Meg and her mother busy at some necessary
needlework, while Beth and Amy got tea, and Hannah finished her ironing with
what she called a `slap and a bang', but still Jo did not come. They began to
get anxious, and Laurie went off to find her, for no one knew what freak Jo
might take into her head. He missed her, however, and she came walking in with
a very queer expression of countenance, for there was a mixture of fun and
fear, satisfaction and regret in it, which puzzled the family as much as did
the roll of bills she laid before her mother, saying with a little choke in her
voice, “That's my contribution toward making Father comfortable and bringing
him home!”
“My dear, where did you
get it? Twenty-five dollars! Jo, I hope you haven't done anything rash?”
“No, it's mine
honestly. I didn't beg, borrow, or steal it. I earned it, and I don't think
you'll blame me, for I only sold what was my own.”
As she spoke, Jo took
off her bonnet, and a general outcry arose, for all her abundant hair was cut
short.
“Your hair! Your
beautiful hair!” “Oh, Jo, how could you? Your one beauty.” “My dear girl, there
was no need of this.” “She doesn't look like my Jo any more, but I love her
dearly for it!”
As everyone exclaimed,
and Beth hugged the cropped head tenderly, Jo assumed an indifferent air, which
did not deceive anyone a particle, and said, rumpling up the brown bush and
trying to look as if she liked it, “It doesn't affect the fate of the nation,
so don't wail, Beth. It will be good for my vanity, I getting too proud of my
wig. It will do my brains good to have that mop taken off. My head feels
deliciously light and cool, and the barber said I could soon have a curly crop,
which will be boyish, becoming, and easy to keep in order. I'm satisfied, so
please take the money and let's have supper.”
“Tell me all about it,
Jo. I am not quite satisfied, but I can't blame you, for I know how willingly
you sacrificed your vanity, as you call it, to your love. But, my dear, it was
not necessary, and I'm afraid you will regret it one of these days,” said Mrs.
March.
“No, I won't!” returned
Jo stoutly, feeling much relieved that her prank was not entirely condemned.
“What made you do it?”
asked Amy, who would as soon have thought of cutting off her head as her pretty
hair.
“Well, I was wild to to
something for Father,” replied Jo, as they gathered about the table, for
healthy young people can eat even in the midst of trouble. “I hate to borrow as
much as Mother does, and I knew Aunt March would croak, she always does, if you
ask for a ninepence. Meg gave all her quarterly salary toward the rent, and I
only got some clothes with mine, so I felt wicked, and was bound to have some
money, if I sold the nose off my face to get it.”
“You needn't feel
wicked, my child! You had no winter things and got the simplest with your own
hard earnings,” said Mrs. March with a look that warmed Jo's heart.
“I hadn't the least
idea of selling my hair at first, but as I went along I kept thinking what I
could do, and feeling as if I'd like to dive into some of the rich stores and
help myself. In a barber's window I saw tails of hair with the prices marked,
and one black tail, not so thick as mine, was forty dollars. It came to me all
of a sudden that I had one thing to make money out of, and without stopping to
think, I walked in, asked if they bought hair, and what they would give for
mine.”
“I don't see how you
dared to do it,” said Beth in a tone of awe.
“Oh, he was a little
man who looked as if he merely lived to oil his hair. He rather stared at
first, as if he wasn't used to having girls bounce into his shop and ask him to
buy their hair. He said he didn't care about mine, it wasn't the fashionable
color, and he never paid much for it in the first place. The work he put it
into it made it dear, and so on. It was getting late, and I was afraid if it
wasn't done right away that I shouldn't have it done at all, and you know when
I start to do a thing, I hate to give it up. So I begged him to take it, and
told him why I was in such a hurry. It was silly, I dare say, but it changed
his mind, for I got rather excited, and told the story in my topsy-turvy way,
and his wife heard, and said so kindly, `Take it, Thomas, and oblige the young
lady. I'd do as much for our Jimmy any day if I had a spire of hair worth
selling.”
“Who was Jimmy?” asked
Amy, who liked to have things explained as they went along.
“Her son, she said, who
was in the army. How friendly such things make strangers feel, don't they? She
talked away all the time the man clipped, and diverted my mind nicely.”
“Didn't you feel
dreadfully when the first cut came?” asked Meg, with a shiver.
“I took a last look at
my hair while the man got his things, and that was the end of it. I never
snivel over trifles like that. I will confess, though, I felt queer when I saw
the dear old hair laid out on the table, and felt only the short rough ends of
my head. It almost seemed as if I'd an arm or leg off. The woman saw me look at
it, and picked out a long lock for me to keep. I'll give it to you, Marmee,
just to remember past glories by, for a crop is so comfortable I don't think I
shall ever have a mane again.”
Mrs. March folded the
wavy chestnut lock, and laid it away with a short gray one in her desk. She
only said, “Thank you, deary,” but something in her face made the girls change
the subject, and talk as cheerfully as they could about Mr. Brooke's kindness,
the prospect of a fine day tomorrow, and the happy times they would have when
Father came home to be nursed.
No one wanted to go to
bed when at ten o'clock Mrs. March put by the last finished job, and said, “Come
girls.” Beth went to the piano and played the father's favorite hymn. All began
bravely, but broke down one by one till Beth was left alone, singing with all
her heart, for to her music was always a sweet consoler.
“Go to bed and don't
talk, for we must be up early and shall need all the sleep we can get. Good
night, my darlings,” said Mrs. March, as the hymn ended, for no one cared to
try another.
They kissed her
quietly, and went to bed as silently as if the dear invalid lay in the next
room. Beth and Amy soon fell asleep in spite of the great trouble, but Meg lay
awake, thinking the most serious thoughts she had ever known in her short life.
Jo lay motionless, and her sister fancied that she was asleep, till a stifled
sob made her exclaim, as she touched a wet cheek . . .
“Jo, dear, what is it?
Are you crying about father?”
“No, not now.”
“What then?”
“My . . . My hair!”
burst out poor Jo, trying vainly to smother her emotion in the pillow.
It did not seem at all
comical to Meg, who kissed and caressed the afflicted heroine in the tenderest
manner.
“I'm not sorry,”
protested Jo, with a choke. “I'd do it again tomorrow, if I could. It's only
the vain part of me that goes and cries in this silly way. Don't tell anyone,
it's all over now. I thought you were asleep, so I just made a little private
moan for my one beauty. How came you to be awake?”
“I can't sleep, I'm so
anxious,” said Meg.
“Think about something
pleasant, and you'll soon drop off.”
“I tried it, but felt
wider awake than ever.”
“What did you think of?”
“Handsome faces--eyes
particularly,” answered Meg, smiling to herself in the dark.
“What color do you like
best?”
“Brown, that is,
sometimes. Blue are lovely.”
Jo, laughed, and Meg
sharply ordered her not to talk, then amiably promised to make her hair curl,
and fell asleep to dream of living in her castle in the air.
The clocks were
striking midnight and the rooms were very still as a figure glided quietly from
bed to bed, smoothing a coverlet here, settling a pillow there, and pausing to
look long and tenderly at each unconscious face, to kiss each with lips that
mutely blessed, and to pray the fervent prayers which only mothers utter. As
she lifted the curtain to look out into the dreary night, the moon broke
suddenly from behind the clouds and shone upon her like a bright, benignant
face, which seemed to whisper in the silence,” Be comforted, dear soul! There
is always light behind the clouds.”
In the cold gray dawn
the sisters lit their lamp and read their chapter with an earnestness never
felt before. For now the shadow of a real trouble had come, the little books
were full of help and comfort, and as they dressed, they agreed to say goodbye cheerfully
and hopefully, and send their mother on her anxious journey unsaddened by tears
or complaints from them. Everything seemed very strange when they went down, so
dim and still outside, so full of light and bustle within. Breakfast at that
early hour seemed odd, and even Hannah's familiar face looked unnatural as she
flew about her kitchen with her nightcap on. The big trunk stood ready in the
hall, Mother's cloak and bonnet lay on the sofa, and Mother herself sat trying
to eat, but looking so pale and worn with sleeplessness and anxiety that the
girls found it very hard to keep their resolution. Meg's eyes kept filling in
spite of herself, Jo was obliged to hide her face in the kitchen roller more
than once, ant the little girls wore a grave, troubled expression, as if sorrow
was a new experience to them.
Nobody talked much, but
as the time drew very near and they sat waiting for the carriage, Mrs. March
said to the girls, who were all busied about her, one folding her shawl,
another smoothing out the strings of her bonnet, a third putting on her
overshoes, and a forth fastening up her travelling bag . . .
“Children, I leave you
to Hannah's care and Mr. Laurence's protection. Hannah is faithfulness itself,
and our good neighbor will guard you as if you were his own. I have no fears
for you, yet I am anxious that you should take this trouble rightly. Don't
grieve and fret when I am gone, or think that you can be idle and comfort
yourselves by being idle and trying to forget. Go on with your work as usual,
for work is a blessed solace. Hope and keep busy, and whatever happens,
remember that you never can be fatherless.”
“Yes, Mother.”
“Meg, dear, be prudent,
watch over your sisters, consult Hannah, and in any perplexity, go to Mr.
Laurence. Be patient, Jo, don't get despondent or do rash things, write to me
often, and be my brave girl, ready to help and cheer all. Beth, comfort
yourself with your music, and be faithful to the little home duties, and You
Amy, help all you can, be obedient, and keep happy safe at home.”
“We will, Mother! We
will!”
The rattle of an
approaching carriage made them all start and listen. That was the hard minute,
but the girls stood it well. No one cried, no one ran away or uttered a
lamentation, though their hearts were very heavy as they sent loving messages
to Father, remembering, as they spoke that it might be too late to deliver
them. They kissed their mother quietly, clung about her tenderly, and tried to
wave their hands cheerfully when she drove away.
Laurie and his
grandfather came over to see her off, and Mr. Brooke looked so strong and
sensible and kind that the girls christened him `Mr. Greatheart' on the spot.
“Goodby, my darlings!
God bless and keep us all!” whispered Mrs. March, as she kissed one dear little
face after the other, and hurried into the carriage.
As she rolled away, the
sun came out, and looking back, she saw it shining on the group at the gate
like a good omen. They saw it also, and smiled and waved their hands, and the
last thing she beheld as she turned the corner was the four bright faces, and
behind them like a bodyguard, old Mr. Laurence, faithful Hannah, and devoted
Laurie.
“How kind everyone is
to us!” she said, turning to find fresh proof of it in the respectful sympathy
of the young man's face.
“I don't see how they
can help it,” returned Mr. Brooke, laughing so infectiously that Mrs. March
could not help smiling. And so the journey began with the good omens of
sunshine, smiles, and cheerful words.
“I feel as if there had
been an earthquake,” said Jo, as their neighbors went home to breakfast,
leaving them to rest and refresh themselves.
“It seems as if half
the house was gone,” added Meg forlornly.
Beth opened her lips to
say something, but could only point to the pile of nicely mended hose which lay
on Mother's table, showing that even in her last hurried moments she had
thought and worked for them. It was a little thing, but it went straight to
their hearts, and in spite of their brave resolutions, they all broke down and
cried bitterly.
Hannah wisely allowed
them to relieve their feelings, and when the shower showed signs of clearing
up, she came to the rescue, armed with a coffeepot.
“Now, my dear young
ladies, remember what your ma said, and don't fret. Come and have a cup of
coffee all round, and then let's fall to work and be a credit to the family.”
Coffee was a treat, and
Hannah showed great tact in making it that morning. No one could resist her
persuasive nods, or the fragrant invitation issuing from the nose of the coffee
pot. They drew up to the table, exchanged their handkerchiefs for napkins, and
in ten minutes were all right again.
“`Hope and keep busy',
that's the motto for us, so let's see who will remember it best. I shall go to
Aunt March, as usual. Oh, won't she lecture though!” said Jo, as she sipped
with returning spirit.
“I shall go to my
Kings, though I'd much rather stay at home and attend to things here,” said
Meg, wishing she hadn't made her eyes so red.
“No need of that. Beth
and I can keep house perfectly well,” put in Amy, with an important air.
“Hannah will tell us
what to do, and we'll have everything nice when you come home,” added Beth,
getting out her mop and dish tub without delay.
“I think anxiety is
very interesting,” observed Amy, eating sugar pensively.
The girls couldn't help
laughing, and felt better for it, though Meg shook her head at the young lady
who could find consolation in a sugar bowl.
The sight of the
turnovers made Jo sober again, and when the two went out to their daily tasks,
they looked sorrowfully back at the window where they were accustomed to see
their mother's face. It was gone, but Beth had remembered the little household
ceremony, and there she was, nodding away at them like a rosy-faced mandarin.
“That's so like my
Beth!” said Jo, waving her hat, with a grateful face. “Goodbye, Meggy, I hope
the Kings won't strain today. Don't fret about Father, dear,” she added, as
they parted.
“And I hope Aunt March
won't croak. Your hair is becoming, and it looks very boyish and nice,”
returned Meg, trying not to smile at the curly head, which looked comically
small on her tall sister's shoulders.
“That's my only
comfort.” And, touching her hat à la Laurie, away went Jo, feeling like a shorn
sheep on a wintry day.
News from their father
comforted the girls very much, for though dangerously ill, the presence of the
best and tenderest of nurses had already done him good. Mr. Brooke sent a
bulletin every day, and as the head of the family, Meg insisted on reading the
dispatches, which grew more cheerful as the week passed. At first, everyone was
eager to write, and plump envelopes were carefully poked into the letter box by
one or other of the sisters, who felt rather important with their Washington
correspondence. As one of these packets contained characteristic notes from the
party, we will rob an imaginary mail, and read them.
My dearest Mother:
It is impossible to
tell you how happy your last letter made us, for the news was so good we
couldn't help laughing and crying over it. How very kind Mr. Brooke is, and how
fortunate that Mr. Laurence's business detains him near you so long, since he
is so useful to you and Father. The girls are all as good as gold. Jo helps me
with the sewing, and insists on doing all sorts of hard jobs. I should be
afraid she might overdo, if I didn't know her `moral fit' wouldn't last long.
Beth is as regular about her tasks as a clock, and never forgets what you told
her. She grieves about Father, and looks sober except when she is at her little
piano. Amy minds me nicely, and I take great care of her. She does her own
hair, and I am teaching her to make buttonholes and mend her stockings. She
tries very hard, and I know you will be pleased with her improvement when you
come. Mr. Laurence watches over us like a motherly old hen, as Jo says, and
Laurie is very kind and neighborly. He and Jo keep us merry, for we get pretty
blue sometimes, and feel like orphans, with you so far away. Hannah is a
perfect saint. She does not scold at all, and always calls me Miss Margaret,
which is quite proper, you know, and treats me with respect. We are all well
and busy, but we long, day and night, to have you back. Give my dearest love to
Father, and believe me, ever your own . . .
MEG
This note, prettily
written on scented paper, was a great contrast to the next, which was scribbled
on a big sheet of thin foreign paper, ornamented with blots and all manner of
flourishes and curly-tailed letters.
My precious Marmee:
Three cheers for dear
Father! Brooke was a trump to telegraph right off, and let us know the minute
he was better. I rushed up garret when the letter came, and tried to thank god
for being so good to us, but I could only cry, and say, “I'm glad! I'm glad!”
Didn't that do as well as a regular prayer? For I felt a great many in my
heart. We have such funny times, and now I can enjoy them, for everyone is so
desperately good, it's like living in a nest of turtledoves. You'd laugh to see
Meg head the table and try to be motherish. She gets prettier every day, and
I'm in love with her sometimes. The children are regular archangels, and I--
well, I'm Jo, and never shall be anything else. Oh, I must tell you that I came
near having a quarrel with Laurie. I freed my mind about a silly little thing,
and he was offended. I was right, but didn't speak as I ought, and he marched
home, saying he wouldn't come again till I begged pardon. I declared I wouldn't
and got mad. It lasted all day. I felt bad and wanted you very much. Laurie and
I are both so proud, it's hard to beg pardon. But I thought he'd come to it,
for I was in the right. He didn't come, and just at night I remembered what you
said when Amy fell into the river. I read my little book, felt better, resolved
not to let the sun set on my anger, and ran over to tell Laurie I was sorry. I
met him at the gate, coming for the same thing. We both laughed, begged each
other's pardon, and felt all good and comfortable again.
I made a `pome'
yesterday, when I was helping Hannah wash, and as Father likes my silly little
things, I put it in to amuse him. Give him my lovingest hug that ever was, and
kiss yourself a dozen times for your . . .
Queen of my tub, I
merrily sing,
While the white foam
rises high,
And sturdily wash and
rinse and wring,
And fasten the clothes
to dry.
Then out in the free
fresh air they swing,
Under the sunny sky.
I wish we could wash
from out hearts and souls
The stains of the week
away,
And let water and air
by their magic make
Ourselves as pure as
they.
Then on the earth there
would be indeed,
A glorious washing day!
Along the path of a
useful life,
Will heartsease ever
bloom.
The busy mind has no
time to think
Of sorrow or care or
gloom.
And anxious thoughts
may be swept away,
As we bravely wield a
broom.
I am glad a task to me
is given,
To labor at day by day,
For it brings me health
and strength and hope,
And I cheerfully learn
to say,
“Head, you may think,
Heart, you may feel,
But, Hand, you shall
work alway!”
Dear Mother,
There is only room for
me to send my love, and some pressed pansies from the root I have been keeping
safe in the house for Father to see. I read every morning, try to be good all
day, and sing myself to sleep with Father's tune. I can't sing `LAND OF THE
LEAL' now, it makes me cry. Everyone is very kind, and we are as happy as we
can be without you. Amy wants the rest of the page, so I must stop. I didn't
forget to cover the holders, and I wind the clock and air the rooms every day.
Kiss dear Father on the
cheek he calls mine. Oh, do come soon to your loving . ..
LITTLE BETH
Ma Chere Mamma,
We are all well I do my
lessons always and never corroberate the girls--Meg says I mean contradick so I
put in both words and you can take the properest. Meg is a great comfort to me
and lets me have jelly every night at tea its so good for me Jo says because it
keeps me sweet tempered. Laurie is not as respeckful as he ought to be now I am
almost in my teens, he calls me Chick and hurts my feelings by talking French
to me very fast when I say Merci or Bon jour as Hattie King does. The sleeves
of my blue dress were all worn out, and Meg put in new ones, but the full front
came wrong and they are more blue than the dress. I felt bad but did not fret I
bear my troubles well but I do wish Hannah would put more starch in my aprons
and have buckwheats every day. Can't she? Didn't I make that interrogation
point nice? Meg says my punchtuation and spelling are disgraceful and I am
mortyfied but dear me I have so many things to do, I can't stop. Adieu, I send
heaps of love to Papa. Your affectionate daughter . ..
AMY CURTIS MARCH
Dear Mis March,
I jes drop a line to
say we git on fust rate. The girls is clever and fly round right smart. Miss
Meg is going to make a proper good housekeeper. She hes the liking for it, and
gits the hang of things surprisin quick. Jo doos beat all for goin ahead, but
she don't stop to cal'k'late fust, and you never know where she's like to bring
up. She done out a tub of clothes on Monday, but she starched 'em afore they
was wrenched, and blued a pink calico dress till I thought I should a died a
laughin. Beth is the best of little creeters, and a sight of help to me, being
so fore-handed and dependable. She tries to learn everything, and really goes
to market beyond her years, likewise keeps accounts, with my help, quite
wonderful. We have got on very economical so fur. I don't let the girls hev
coffee only once a week, accordin to your wish, and keep em on plain wholesome
vittles. Amy does well without frettin, wearin her best clothes and eatin sweet
stuff. Mr. Laurie is as full of didoes as usual, and turns the house upside
down frequent, but he heartens the girls, so I let em hev full swing. The old
gentleman send heaps of things, and is rather wearin, but means wal, and it
aint my place to say nothin. My bread is riz, so no more at this time. I send
my duty to Mr. March, and hope he's seen the last of his Pewmonia.
Yours respectful,
HANNAH MULLET
Head Nurse of Ward No.
2,
All serene on the
Rappahannock, troops in fine condition, commisary department well conducted,
the Home Guard under Colonel Teddy always on duty, Commander in Chief General
Laurence reviews the army daily, Quartermaster Mullet keeps order in camp, and
Major Lion does picket duty at night. A salute of twenty-four guns was fired on
receipt of good news from Washington, and a dress parade took place at
headquarters. Commander in chief sends best wishes, in which he is heartily
joined by . . .
COLONEL TEDDY
Dear Madam:
The little girls are
all well. Beth and my boy report daily. Hannah is a model servant, and guards
pretty Meg like a dragon. Glad the fine weather holds. Pray make Brooke useful,
and draw on me for funds if expenses exceed your estimate. Don't let your
husband want anything. Thank God he is mending.
Your sincere friend and
servant,
JAMES LAURENCE
For a week the amount
of virtue in the old house would have supplied the neighborhood. It was really
amazing, for everyone seemed in a heavenly frame of mind, and self-denial was
all the fashion. Relieved of their first anxiety about their father, girls
insensibly relaxed their praiseworthy efforts a little, and began to fall back
into old ways. They did not forget their motto, but hoping and keeping busy
seemed to grow easier, and after such tremendous exertions, they felt that
Endeavor deserved a holiday, and gave it a good many.
Jo caught a bad cold
through neglect to cover the shorn head enough, and was ordered to stay at home
till she was better, for Aunt March didn't like to hear people read with colds
in their heads. Jo liked this, and after an energetic rummage from garret to
cellar, subsided on the sofa to nurse her cold with arsenicum and books. Amy
found that housework and art did not go well together, and returned to her mud
pies. Meg went daily to her pupils, and sewed, or thought she did, at home, but
much time was spent in writing long letters to her mother, or reading the
Washington dispatches over and over. Beth kept on, with only slight relapses
into idleness or grieving.
All the little duties
were faithfully done each day, and many of her sisters' also, for they were
forgetful, and the house seemed like a clock whose pendulum was gone
a-visiting. When her heart got heavy with longings for Mother or fears for
Father, she went away into a certain closet, hid her face in the folds of a
dear old gown, and made her little moan and prayed her little prayer quietly by
herself. Nobody knew what cheered her up after a sober fit, but everyone felt
how sweet and helpful Beth was, and fell into a way of going to her for comfort
or advice in their small affairs.
All were unconscious
that this experience was a test of character, and when the first excitement was
over, felt that they had done well and deserved praise. So they did, but their
mistake was in ceasing to do well, and they learned this lesson through much
anxiety and regret.
“Meg, I wish you'd go
and see the Hummels. You know Mother told us not to forget them.” said Beth,
ten days after Mrs. March's departure.
“I'm too tired to go
this afternoon,” replied Meg, rocking comfortably as she sewed.
“Can't you, Jo?' asked
Beth.
“Too stormy for me with
my cold.”
“I thought it was
almost well.”
“It's well enough for
me to go out with Laurie, but not well enough to go to the Hummels',” said Jo,
laughing, but looking a little ashamed of her inconsistency.
“Why don't you go
yourself?” asked Meg.
“I have been every day,
but the baby is sick, and I don't know what to do for it. Mrs. Hummel goes away
to work, and Lottchen takes care of it. But it gets sicker and sicker, and I
think you or Hannah ought to go.”
Beth spoke earnestly,
and Meg promised she would go tomorrow.
“Ask Hannah for some
nice little mess, and take it round, Beth, the air will do you good,” said Jo,
adding apologetically, “I'd go but I want to finish my writing.”
“My head aches and I'm
tired, so I thought maybe some of you would go,” said Beth.
“Amy will be in
presently, and she will run down for us, suggested Meg.
So Beth lay down on the
sofa, the others returned to their work, and the Hummels were forgotten. An
hour passed. Amy did not come, Meg went to her room to try on a new dress, Jo
was absorbed in her story, and Hannah was sound asleep before the kitchen fire,
when Beth quietly put on her hood, filled her basket with odds and ends for the
poor children, and went out into the chilly air with a heavy head and a grieved
look in her patient eyes. It was late when she came back, and no one saw her
creep upstairs and shut herself into her mother's room. Half an hour after, Jo
went to `Mother's closet' for something, and there found little Beth sitting on
the medicine chest, looking very grave, with red eyes and a camphor bottle in
her hand.
“Christopher Columbus!
What's the matter?” cried Jo, as Beth put out her hand as if to warn her off,
and asked quickly, “You've had the scarlet fever, havent't you?”
“Years ago, when Meg
did. Why?'
“Then I'll tell you.
Oh, Jo, the baby's dead!”
“What baby?”
“Mrs. Hummel's. It died
in my lap before she got home,” cried Beth with a sob.
“My poor dear, how
dreadful for you! I ought to have gone,” said Jo, taking her sister in her arms
as she sat down in her mother's bit chair, with a remorseful face.
“It wasn't dreadful,
Jo, only so sad! I saw in a minute it was sicker, but Lottchen said her mother
had gone for a doctor, so I took Baby and let Lotty rest. It seemed asleep, but
all of a sudden if gave a little cry and trembled, and then lay very still. I
tried to warm its feet, and Lotty gave it some milk, but it didn't stir, and I
knew it was dead.”
“Don't cry, dear! What
did you do?”
“I just sat and held it
softly till Mrs. Hummel came with the doctor. He said it was dead, and looked
at Heinrich and Minna, who have sore throats. `Scarlet fever, ma'am. Ought to
have called me before,' he said crossly. Mrs. Hummel told him she was poor, and
had tried to cure baby herself, but now it was too late, and she could only ask
him to help the others and trust to charity for his pay. He smiled then, and
was kinder, but it was very sad, and I cried with them till he turned round all
of a sudden, and told me to go home and take belladonna right away, or I'd have
the fever.”
“No, you won't!” cried
Jo, hugging her close, with a frightened look. “Oh, Beth, if you should be sick
I never could forgive myself! What shall we do?”
“Don't be frightened, I
guess I shan't have it badly. I looked in Mother's book, and saw that it begins
with headache, sore throat, and queer feelings like mine, so I did take some
belladonna, and I feel better,” said Beth, laying her cold hands on her hot
forehead and trying to look well.
“If Mother was only at
home!” exclaimed Jo, seizing the book, and feeling that Washington was an
immense way off. She read a page, looked at Beth, felt her head, peeped into
her throat, and then said gravely, “You've been over the baby every day for
more than a week, and among the others who are going to have it, so I'm afraid
you are going to have it, Beth. I'll call Hannah, she knows all about sickness.”
“Don't let Amy come.
She never had it, and I should hate to give it to her. Can't you and Meg have
it over again?” asked Beth, anxiously.
“I guess not. Don't care
if I do. Serve me right, selfish pig, to let you go, and stay writing rubbish
myself!” muttered Jo, as she went to consult Hannah.
The good soul was wide
awake in a minute, and took the lead at once, assuring that there was no need
to worry; every one had scarlet fever, and if rightly treated, nobody died, all
of which Jo believed, and felt much relieved as they went up to call Meg.
“Now I'll tell you what
we'll do,” said Hannah, when she had examined and questioned Beth, “we will
have Dr. Bangs, just to take a look at you, dear, and see that we start right.
Then we'll send Amy off to Aunt March's for a spell, to keep her out of harm's
way, and one of you girls can stay at home and amuse Beth for a day or two.”
“I shall stay, of
course, I'm oldest,” began Meg, looking anxious and self-reproachful.
“I shall, because it's
my fault she is sick. I told Mother I'd do the errands, and I haven't,” said Jo
decidedly.
“Which will you have,
Beth? There ain't no need of but one,” said Hannah.
“Jo, please.” And Beth
leaned her head against her sister with a contented look, which effectually
settled that point.
“I'll go and tell Amy,”
said Meg, feeling a little hurt, yet rather relieved on the whole, for she did
not like nursing, and Jo did.
Amy rebelled outright,
and passionately declared that she had rather have the fever than go to Aunt
March. Meg reasoned, pleaded, and commanded, all in vain. Amy protested that
she would not go, and Meg left her in despair to ask Hannah what should be
done. Before she came back, Laurie walked into the parlor to find Amy sobbing,
with her head in the sofa cushions. She told her story, expecting to be
consoled, but Laurie only put his hands in his pockets and walked about the
room, whistling softly, as he knit his brows in deep thought. Presently he sat
down beside her, and said, in his most wheedlesome tone, “Now be a sensible
little woman, and do as they say. No, don't cry, but hear what a jolly plan
I've got. You go to Aunt March's, and I'll come and take you out every day,
driving or walking, and we'll have capital times. Won't that be better than
moping here?”
“I don't wish to be
sent off as if I was in the way,” began Amy, in an injured voice.
“Bless your heart,
child, it's to keep you well. You don't want to be sick, do you?”
“No, I'm sure I don't,
but I dare say I shall be, for I've been with Beth all the time.”
“That's the very reason
you ought to go away at once, so that you may escape it. Change of air and care
will keep you well, I dare say, or if it does not entirely, you will have the
fever more lightly. I advise you to be off as soon as you can, for scarlet
fever is no joke, miss.”
“But it's dull at Aunt
March's, and she is so cross,” said Amy, looking rather frightened.
“It won't be dull with
me popping; in every day to tell you how Beth is, and take you out
gallivanting. The old lady likes me, and I'll be as sweet as possible to her,
so she won't peck at us, whatever we do.”
“Will you take me out
in the trotting wagon with Puck?”
“On my honor as a
gentleman.”
“And come every single
day?”
“See if I don't/”
“And bring me back the
minute Beth is well?”
“The identical minute.”
“And go to the theater,
truly?”
“A dozen theaters, if
we may.”
“Well--I guess I will,”
said Amy slowly.
“Good girl! Call Meg,
and tell her you'll give in,” said Laurie, with an approving pat, which annoyed
Amy more than the `giving in'.
Meg and Jo came running
down to behold the miracle which had been wrought, and Amy, feeling very
precious and self-sacrificing, promised to go, if the doctor said Beth was
going to be ill.
“How is the little
dear?” asked Laurie, for Beth was his especial pet, and he felt more anxious
about her than he liked to show.
“She is lying down on
Mother's bed, and feels better. The baby's death troubled her, but I dare say
she has only got cold. Hannah says she thinks so, but she looks worried, and
that makes me fidgety,” answered Meg.
“What a trying world it
is!” said Jo, rumpling up her hair in a fretful way. “No sooner do we get out
of one trouble than down comes another. There doesn't seem to be anything to
hold on to when Mother's gone, so I'm all at sea.”
“Well, don't make a
porcupine of yourself, it isn't becoming. Settle your wig, Jo, and tell me if I
shall telegraph to your mother, or do anything?” asked Laurie, who never had
been reconciled to the loss of his friend's one beauty.
“That is what troubles
me,” said Meg. “I think we ought to tell her if Beth is really ill, but Hannah
says we mustn't, for Mother can't leave Father, and it will only make them
anxious. Beth won't be sick long, and Hannah knows just what to do, and Mother
said we were to mind her, so I suppose we must, but it doesn't seem quite right
to me.”
“Hum, well, I can't
say. Suppose you ask Grandfather after the doctor has been.”
“We will. Jo, go and
get Dr. Bangs at once,” commanded Meg. “We can't decide anything till he has
been.”
“Stay where you are,
Jo. I'm errand boy to this establishment,” said Laurie, taking up his cap.
“I'm afraid you are
busy,” began Meg.
“No, I've done my
lessons for the day.”
“Do you study in
vacation time?” asked Jo.
“I follow the good
example my neighbors set me,” was Laurie's answer, as he swung himself out of
the room.
“I have great hopes for
my boy,” observed Jo, watching him fly over the fence with an approving smile.
“He does very well, for
a boy,” was Meg's somewhat ungracious answer, for the subject did not interest
her.
Dr. Bangs came, said
Beth had symptoms of the fever, but he thought she would have it lightly,
though he looked sober over the Hummel story. Amy was ordered off at once, and
provided with something to ward off danger, she departed in great state, with
Jo and Laurie as escort.
Aunt March received
them with her usual hospitality.
“What do you want now?”
she asked, looking sharply over her spectacles, while the parrot, sitting on
the back of her chair, called out . . .
“Go away. No boys
allowed her.”
Laurie retired to the
window, and Jo told her story.
“No more than I
expected, if you are allowed to go poking about among poor folks. Amy can stay
and make herself useful if she isn't sick, which I've no doubt she will be,
looks like it now. Don't cry, child, it worries me to hear people sniff.”
Amy was on the point of
crying, but Laurie slyly pulled the parrot's tail, which caused Polly to utter
an astonished croak and call out, “Bless my boots!” in such a funny way, that
she laughed instead.
“What do you hear from
your mother?” asked the old lady gruffly.
“Father is much better,”
replied Jo, trying to keep sober.
“Oh, is her? Well, that
won't last long, I fancy. March never had any stamina,” was the cheerful reply.
“Ha, ha! Never say die,
take a pinch of snuff, goodbye, goodbye!” squalled Polly, dancing on her perch,
and clawing at the old lady's cap as Laurie tweaked him in the rear.
“Hold your tongue, you
disrespectful old bird! And, Jo, you'd better go at once. It isn't proper to be
gadding about so late with a rattlepated boy like . . .”
“Hold your tongue, you
disrespectful old bird!” cried Polly, tumbling off the chair with a bounce, and
running to peck the `rattlepated' boy, who was shaking with laughter at the
last speech.
“I don't think I can
bear it, but I'll try,” thought Amy, as she was left alone with Aunt March.
“Get along, you fright!”
screamed Polly, and at that rude speech Amy could not restrain a sniff.
Beth did have the
fever, and was much sicker than anyone but Hannah and the doctor suspected. The
girls knew nothing about illness, and Mr. Laurence was not allowed to see her,
so Hannah had everything her own way, and busy Dr. Bangs did his best, but left
a good deal to the excellent nurse. Meg stayed at home, lest she should infect
the Kings, and kept house, feeling very anxious and a little guilty when she
wrote letters in which no mention was made of Beth's illness. She could not
think it right to deceive her mother, but she had been bidden to mind Hannah,
and Hannah wouldn't hear of `Mrs. March bein' told, and worried just for sech a
trifle.'
Jo devoted herself to
Beth day and night, not a hard task, for Beth was very patient, and bore her
pain uncomplainingly as long as she could control herself. But there came a
time when during the fever fits she began to talk in a hoarse, broken voice, to
play on the coverlet as if on her beloved little piano, and try to sing with a
throat so swollen that there was no music left, a time when she did not know
the familiar faces around her, but addressed them by wrong names, and called
imploringly for her mother. Then Jo grew frightened, Meg begged to be allowed
to write the truth, and even Hannah said she `would think of it, though there
was no danger yet'. A letter from Washington added to their trouble, for Mr.
March had had a relapse, and could not think of coming home for a long while.
How dark the days
seemed now, how sad and lonely the house, and how heavy were the hearts of the
sisters as they worked and waited, while the shadow of death hovered over the
once happy home. Then it was that Margaret, sitting alone with tears dropping
often on her work, felt how rich she had been in things more precious than any
luxuries money could buy--in love, protection,, peace, and health, the real
blessings of life. Then it was that Jo, living in the darkened room, with that
suffering little sister always before her eyes and that pathetic voice sounding
in her ears, learned to see the beauty and to sweetness of Beth's nature, to
feel how deep and tender a place she filled in all hearts, and to acknowledge
the worth of Beth's unselfish ambition to live for others, and make home happy
by that exercise of those simple virtues which all may possess, and which all
should love and value more than talent, wealth, or beauty. And Amy, in her
exile, longed eagerly to be at home, that she might work for Beth, feeling now
that no service would be hard or irksome, and remembering, with regretful
grief, how many neglected tasks those willing hands had done for her. Laurie
haunted the house like a restless ghost, and Mr. Laurence locked the grand
piano, because he could not bear to be reminded of the young neighbor who used
to make the twilight pleasant for him. Everyone missed Beth. The milkman,
baker, grocer, and butcher inquired how she did, poor Mrs. Hummel came to beg
pardon for her thoughtlessness and to get a shroud for Minna, the neighbors
sent all sorts of comforts and good wishes, and even those who knew her best
were surprised to find how many friends shy little Beth had made.
Meanwhile she lay on
her bed with old Joanna at her side, for even in her wanderings she did not
forget her forlorn protege. She longed for her cats, but would not have them
brought, lest they should get sick, and in her quiet hours she was full of
anxiety about Jo. She sent loving messages to Amy, bade them tell her mother
that she would write soon, and often begged for pencil and paper to try to say
a word, that Father might not think she had neglected him. But soon even these
intervals of consciousness ended, and she lay hour after hour, tossing to and
fro, with incoherent words on her lips, or sank into a heavy sleep which
brought her no refreshment. Dr. Bangs came twice a day, Hannah sat up at night,
Meg kept a telegram in her desk all ready to send off at any minute, and Jo
never stirred from Beth's side.
The first of December
was a wintry day indeed to them, for a bitter wind blew, snow fell fast, and
the year seemed getting ready for its death. When Dr. Bangs came that morning,
he looked long at Beth, held the hot hand in both his own for a minute, and
laid it gently down, saying, in a low voice to Hannah, “If Mrs. March can leave
her husband she'd better be sent for.”
Hannah nodded without
speaking, for her lips twitched nervously, Meg dropped down into a chair as the
strength seemed to go out of her limbs at the sound of those words, and Jo,
standing with a pale face for a minute, ran to the parlor, snatched up the
telegram, and throwing on her things, rushed out into the storm. She was soon
back, and while noiselessly taking off her cloak, Laurie came in with a letter,
saying that Mr. March was mending again. Jo read it thankfully, but the heavy
weight did not seem lifted off her heart, and her face was so full of misery
that Laurie asked quickly, “What is it? Is Beth worse?”
“I've sent for Mother,”
said Jo, tugging at her rubber boots with a tragic expression.
“Good for you, Jo! Did
you do it on your own responsibility?” asked Laurie, as he seated her in the
hall chair and took off the rebellious boots, seeing how her hands shook.
“No. The doctor told us
to.”
“Oh, Jo, it's not so
bad as that?” cried Laurie, with a startled face.
“Yes, it is. She
doesn't know us, she doesn't even talk about the flocks of green doves, as she
calls the vine leaves on the wall. She doesn't look like my Beth, and there's
nobody to help us bear it. Mother and father both gone, and God seems so far
away I can't find Him.”
As the tears streamed
fast down poor Jo's cheeks, she stretched out her hand in a helpless sort of
way, as if groping in the dark, and Laurie took it in his, whispering as well
as he could with a lump in his throat, “I'm here. Hold on tome, Jo, dear!”
She could not speak,
but she did `hold on', and the warm grasp of the friendly human hand comforted
her sore heart, and seemed to lead her nearer to the Divine arm which alone
could uphold her in her trouble.
Laurie longed to say
something tender and comfortable, but no fitting words came to him, so he stood
silent, gently stroking her bent head as her mother used to do. It was the best
thing he could have done, far more soothing than the most eloquent words, for
Jo felt the unspoken sympathy, and in the silence learned the sweet solace
which affection administers to sorrow. Soon she dried the tears which had
relieved her, and looked up with a grateful face.
“Thank you, Teddy, I'm
better now. I don't feel so forlorn, and will try to bear it if it comes.”
“Keep hoping for the
best, that will help you, Jo. Soon your mother will be here, and then
everything will be all right.”
“I'm so glad Father is
better. Now she won't feel so bad about leaving him. Oh, me! It does seem as if
all the troubles came in a heap, and I got the heaviest part on my shoulders,”
sighed Jo, spreading her wet handkerchief over her knees to dry.
“Doesn't Meg pull fair?”
asked Laurie, looking indignant.
“Oh, yes, she tries to,
but she can't love Bethy as I do, and she won't miss her as I shall. Beth is my
conscience, and I can't give her up. I can't! I can't!”
Down went Jo's face
into the wet handkerchief, and she cried despairingly, for she had kept up
bravely till now and never shed a tear. Laurie drew his hand across his eyes,
but could not speak till he had subdued the choky feeling in his throat and
steadied his lips. It might be unmanly, but he couldn't help it, and I am glad
of it. Presently, as Jo's sobs quieted, he said hopefully, “I don't think she
will die. She's so good, and we all love her so much, I don't believe God will
take her away yet.”
“The good and dear
people always do die,” groaned Jo, but she stopped crying, for her friend's
words cheered her up in spite of her own doubts and fears.
“Poor girl, you're worn
out. It isn't like you to be forlorn. Stop a bit. I'll hearten you up in a
jiffy.”
Laurie went off two
stairs at a time, and Jo laid her wearied head down on Beth's little brown
hood, which no one had thought of moving from the table where she left it. It
must have possessed some magic, for the submissive spirit of its gentle owner
seemed to enter into Jo, and when Laurie came running down with a glass of
wine, she took it with a smile, and said bravely, “I drink-- Health to my Beth!
You are a good doctor, Teddy, and such a comfortable friend. How can I ever pay
you?” she added, as the wine refreshed her body, as the kind words had done her
troubled mind.
“I'll send my bill,
by-and-by, and tonight I'll give you something that will warm the cockles of
your heart better than quarts of wine,” said Laurie, beaming at her with a face
of suppressed satisfaction at something.
“what is it?” cried Jo,
forgetting her woes for a minute in her wonder.
“I telegraphed to your
mother yesterday, and Brooke answered she'd come at once, and she'll be here
tonight, and everything will be all right. Aren't you glad I did it?”
Laurie spoke very fast,
and turned red and excited all in a minute, for he had kept his plot a secret,
for fear of disappointing the girls or harming Beth. Jo grew quite white, flew
out of her chair, and the moment he stopped speaking she electrified him by
throwing her arms round his neck, and crying out, with a joyful cry, “Oh,
Laurie! Oh, Mother! I am so glad!” She did not weep again, but laughed
hysterically, and trembled and clung to her friend as if she was a little
bewildered by the sudden news.
Laurie, though decidedly
amazed, behaved with great presence of mind. He patted her back soothingly, and
finding that she was recovering, followed it up by a bashful kiss or two, which
brought Jo round at once. Holding on to the banisters, she put him gently away,
saying breathlessly, “Oh, don't! I didn't mean to, it was dreadful of me, but
you were such a dear to go and do it in spite of Hannah that I couldn't help
flying at you. Tell me all about it, and don't give me wine again, it makes me
act so.”
“I don't mind,” laughed
Laurie, as he settled his tie. “Why, you see I got fidgety, and so did Grandpa.
We thought Hannah was overdoing the authority business, and your mother ought
to know. She'd never forgive us if Beth . . . Well, if anything happened, you
know. So I got grandpa to say it was high time we did something, and off I
pelted to the office yesterday, for the doctor looked sober, and Hannah most
took my head off when I proposed a telegram. I never can bear to be `lorded
over', so that settled my mind, and I did it. Your mother will come, I know,
and the late train is in at two A.M. I shall go for her, and you've only got to
bottle up your rapture, and keep Beth quiet till that blessed lady gets here.”
“Laurie, you're an
angel! How shall I ever thank you?”
“Fly at me again. I
rather liked it,” said Laurie, looking mischievous, a thing he had not done for
a fortnight.
“No, thank you. I'll do
it by proxy, when your grandpa comes. Don't tease, but go home and rest, for
you'll be up half the night. Bless you, Teddy, bless you!”
Jo had backed into a
corner, and as she finished her speech, she vanished precipitately into the
kitchen, where she sat down upon a dresser and told the assembled cats that she
was “happy, oh, so happy!” while Laurie departed, feeling that he had made a
rather neat thing of it.
“That's the
interferingest chap I ever see, but I forgive him and do hope Mrs. March is
coming right away,” said Hannah, with an air of relief, when Jo told the good
news.
Meg had a quiet
rapture, and then brooded over the letter, while Jo set the sickroom in order,
and Hannah `knocked up a couple of pies in case of company unexpected”. A
breath of fresh air seemed to blow through the house, and something better than
sunshine brightened the quiet rooms. Everything appeared to feel the hopeful
change. Beth's bird began to chirp again, and a half-blown rose was discovered
on Amy's bush in the window. The fires seemed to burn with unusual cheeriness,
and every time the girls met, their pale faces broke into smiles as they hugged
one another, whispering encouragingly, “Mother's coming, dear! Mother's coming!”
Every one rejoiced but Beth. She lay in that heavy stupor, alike unconscious of
hope and joy, doubt and danger. It was a piteous sight, the once rosy face so
changed and vacant, the once busy hands so weak and wasted, the once smiling
lips quite dumb, and the once pretty, well-kept hair scattered rough and
tangled on the pillow. All day she say so, only rousing now and then to mutter,
“Water!” with lips so parched they could hardly shape the word. All day Jo and
Meg hovered over her, watching, waiting, hoping, and trusting in God and
Mother, and all day the snow fell, the bitter wind raged, and the hours dragged
slowly by. But night came at last, and every time the clock struck, the
sisters, still sitting on either side of the bed, looked at each other with
brightening eyes, for each hour brought help nearer. The doctor had been in to
say that some change, for better or worse, would probably take place about
midnight, at which time he would return.
Hannah, quite worn out,
lay down on the sofa at the bed's foot and fell fast asleep, Mr. Laurence
marched to and fro in the parlor, feeling that he would rather face a rebel
battery than Mrs. March's countenance as she entered. Laurie lay on the rug,
pretending to rest, but staring into the fire with the thoughtful look which
made his black eyes beautifully soft and clear.
The girls never forgot
that night, for no sleep came to them as they kept their watch, with that dreadful
sense of powerlessness which comes to us in hours like those.
“If God spares Beth, I
never will complain again,” whispered Meg earnestly.
“If god spares Beth,
I'll try to love and serve Him all my life,” answered Jo, with equal fervor.
“I wish I had no heart,
it aches so,” sighed Meg, after a pause.
“If life is often as
hard as this, I don't see how we ever shall get through it,” added her sister
despondently.
Here the clock struck
twelve, and both forgot themselves in watching Beth, for they fancied a change
passed over her wan face. The house was still as death, and nothing but the
wailing of the wind broke the deep hush. Weary Hannah slept on, and no one but
the sisters saw the pale shadow which seemed to fall upon the little bed. An
hour went by, and nothing happened except Laurie's quiet departure for the
station. Another hour, still no one came, and anxious fears of delay in the
storm, or accidents by the way, or, worst of all, a great grief at Washington,
haunted the girls.
It was past two, when
Jo, who stood at the window thinking how dreary the world looked in its winding
sheet of snow, heard a movement by the bed, and turning quickly, saw Meg
kneeling before their mother's easy chair with her face hidden. A dreadful fear
passed coldly over Jo, as she thought, “Beth is dead, and Meg is afraid to tell
me.”
She was back at her
post in an instant, and to her excited eyes a great change seemed to have taken
place. The fever flush and the look of pain were gone, and the beloved little
face looked so pale and peaceful in its utter repose that Jo felt no desire to
weep or to lament. Leaning low over this dearest of her sisters, she kissed the
damp forehead with her heart on her lips, and softly whispered, “Goodby, my
Beth. Goodby!”
As if awaked by the
stir, Hannah started out of her sleep, hurried to the bed, looked at Beth, felt
her hands, listened at her lips, and then, throwing her apron over her head,
sat down to rock to and fro, exclaiming, under her breath, “The fever's turned,
she's sleepin' nat'ral, her skin's damp, and she breathes easy. Praise be
given! Oh, my goodness me!”
Before the girls could
believe the happy truth, the doctor came to confirm it. He was a homely man,
but they thought his face quite heavenly when he smiled and said, with a
fatherly look at them, “Yes, my dears, I think the little girl will pull
through this time. Keep the house quiet, let her sleep, and when she wakes,
give her . . .”
What they were to give,
neither heard, for both crept into the dark hall, and, sitting on the stairs,
held each other close, rejoicing with hearts too full for words. When they went
back to be kissed and cuddled by faithful Hannah, they found Beth lying,, as
she used to do, with her cheek pillowed on her hand, the dreadful pallor gone,
and breathing quietly, as if just fallen asleep.
“If Mother would only
come now!” said Jo, as the winter night began to wane.
“See,” said Meg, coming
up with a white, half-opened rose, “I thought this would hardly be ready to lay
in Beth's hand tomorrow if she--went away from us. But it has blossomed in the
night, and now I mean to put it in my vase here, so that when the darling
wakes, the first thing she sees will be the little rose, and Mother's face.”
Never had the sun risen
so beautifully, and never had the world seemed so lovely as it did to the heavy
eyes of Meg and Jo, as they looked out in the early morning, when their long,
sad vigil was done.
“It looks like a fairy
world,” said Meg, smiling to herself, as she stood behind the curtain, watching
the dazzling sight.
“Hark!” cried Jo,
starting to her feet.
Yes, there was a sound
of bells at the door below, a cry from Hannah, and then Laurie's voice saying
in a joyful whisper, “Girls, she's come! She's come!”
While these things were
happening at home, Amy was having hard times at Aunt March's. She felt her
exile deeply, and for the first time in her life, realized how much she was
beloved and petted at home. Aunt March never petted any one. She did not
approve of it, but she meant to be kind, for the well-behaved little girl
pleased her very much, and Aunt March had a soft place in her old heart for her
nephew's children, though she didn't think it proper to confess it. She really
did her best to make Amy happy, but, dear me, what mistakes she made. Some old
people keep young at heart in spite of wrinkles and gray hairs, can sympathize
with children's little cares and joys, make them feel at home, and can hide
wise lessons under pleasant plays, giving and receiving friendship in the
sweetest way. But Aunt March had not this gift, and she worried Amy very much
with her rules and orders, her prim ways, and long, prosy talks. Finding the
child more docile and amiable than her sister, the old lady felt it her duty to
try and counteract, as far as possible, the bad effects of home freedom and
indulgence. So she took Amy by the hand, and taught her as she herself had been
taught sixty years ago, a process which carried dismay to Amy's soul, and made
her feel like a fly in the web of a very strict spider.
She had to wash the
cups every morning, and polish up the old-fashioned spoons, the fat silver
teapot, and the glasses till they shone. Then she must dust the room, and what
a trying job that was. Not a speck escaped Aunt March's eye, and all the
furniture had claw legs and much carving, which was never dusted to suit. Then
Polly had to be fed, the lap dog combed, and a dozen trips upstairs and down to
get things or deliver orders, for the old lady was very lame and seldom left her
big chair. After these tiresome labors, she must do her lessons, which was a
daily trial of every virtue she possessed. Then she was allowed one hour for
exercise or play, and didn't she enjoy it?
Laurie came every day,
and wheedled Aunt March till Amy was allowed to go out with him, when they
walked and rode and had capital times. After dinner, she had to read aloud, and
sit still while the old lady slept, which she usually did for an hour, as she
dropped off over the first page. Then patchwork or towels appeared, and Amy
sewed with outward meekness and inward rebellion till dusk, when she was
allowed to amuse herself as she liked till teatime. The evenings were the worst
of all, for Aunt March fell to telling long stories about her youth, which were
so unutterably dull that Amy was always ready to go to be, intending to cry
over her hard fate, but usually going to sleep before she had squeezed out more
than a tear or two.
If it had not been for
Laurie, and old Esther, the maid, she felt that she never could have got
through that dreadful time. The parrot alone was enough to drive her
distracted, for he soon felt that she did not admire him, and revenged himself
by being as mischievous as possible. He pulled her hair whenever she came near
him, upset his bread and milk to plague her when she had newly cleaned his
cage, made Mop bark by pecking at him while Madam dozed, called her names
before company, and behaved in all respects like an reprehensible old bird.
Then she could not endure the dog, a fat, cross beast who snarled and yelped at
her when she made his toilet, and who lay on his back with all his legs in the
air and a most idiotic expression of countenance when he wanted something to
eat, which was about a dozen times a day. The cook was bad-tempered, the old
coachman was deaf, and Esther the only one who ever took any notice of the
young lady.
Esther was a
Frenchwoman, who had lived with`Madame', as she called her mistress, for many
years, and who rather tyrannized over the old lady, who could not get along
without her. Her real name was Estelle, but Aunt March ordered her to change
it, and she obeyed, on condition that she was never asked to change her
religion. She took a fancy to Mademoiselle, and amused her very much with odd
stories of her life in France, when Amy sat with her while she got up Madam's
laces. She also allowed her to roam about the great house, and examine the
curious and pretty things stored away in the big wardrobes and the ancient
chests, for Aunt March hoarded like a magpie. Amy's chief delight was an Indian
cabinet, full of queer drawers, little pigeonholes, and secret places, in which
were kept all sorts of ornaments, some precious, some merely curious, all more
or less antique. To examine and arrange these things gave Amy great
satisfaction, especially the jewel cases, in which on velvet cushions reposed
the ornaments which had adorned a belle forty years ago. There was the garnet
set which Aunt March wore when she came out, the pearls her father gave her on
her wedding day, her lover's diamonds, the jet mourning rings and pins, the
queer lockets, with portraits of dead friends and weeping willows made of hair
inside, the baby bracelets her one little daughter had worn, Uncle March's big
watch, with the red seal so many childish hands had played with, and in a box
all by itself lay Aunt March's wedding ring, too small now for her fat finger,
but put carefully away like the most precious jewel of them all.
“Which would
Mademoiselle choose if she had her will?” asked Esther, wo always sat near to
watch over and lock up the valuables.
“I like the diamonds
best, but there is no necklace among them, and I'm fond of necklaces, they are
so becoming. I should choose this if I might,” replied Amy, looking with great
admiration at a string of gold and ebony beads from which hung a heavy cross of
the same.
“I, too, covet that,
but not as a necklace. Ah, no! To me it is a rosary, and as such I should use
it like a good catholic,” said Esther, eyeing the handsome thing wistfully.
“Is it meant to use as
you use the string of good-smelling wooden beads hanging over your glass?”
asked Amy.
“Truly, yes, to pray
with. It would be pleasing to the saints if one used so fine a rosary as this,
instead of wearing it as a vain bijou.”
“You seem to take a
great deal of comfort in your prayers, Esther, and always come down looking
quiet and satisfied. I wish I could.”
“If Mademoiselle was a
Catholic, she would find true comfort, but as that is not to be, it would be
well if you went apart each day to meditate and pray, as did the good mistress
whom I served before Madame. She had a little chapel, and in it found
solacement for much trouble.”
“Would it be right for
me to do so too?” asked Amy, who in her loneliness felt the need of help of some
sort, and found that she was apt to forget her little book, now that Beth was
not there to remind her of it.
“It would be excellent
and charming, and I shall gladly arrange the little dressing room for you if
you like it. Say nothing to Madame, but when she sleeps go you and sit alone a
while to think good thoughts, and pray the dear God preserve your sister.”
Esther was truly pious,
and quite sincere in her advice, for she had an affectionate heart, and felt
much for the sisters in their anxiety. Amy liked the idea, and gave her leave
to arrange the light closet next her room, hoping it would do her good.
“I wish I knew where
all these pretty things would go when Aunt March dies,” she said, as she slowly
replaced the shining rosary and shut the jewel cases one by one.
“To you and your
sisters. I know it, Madame confides in me. I witnessed her will, and it is to
be so,” whispered Esther smiling.
“How nice! But I wish
she'd let us have them now. Procrastination is not agreeable,” observed Amy, taking
a last look at the diamonds.
“It is too soon yet for
the young ladies to wear these things. The first one who is affianced will have
the pearls, Madame has said it, and I have a fancy that the little turquoise
ring will be given to you when you go, for Madame approves your good behavior
and charming manners.”
“Do you think so? Oh,
I'll be a lamb, if I can only have that lovely ring! It's ever so much prettier
than Kitty Bryant's. I do like Aunt March after all.” And Amy tried on the blue
ring with a delighted face and a firm resolve to earn it.
From that day she was a
model of obedience, and the old lady complacently admired the success of her
training. Esther fitted up the closet with a little table, placed a footstool
before it, and over it a picture taken from one of the shut-up rooms. She
thought it was of no great value, but, being appropriate, she borrowed it, well
knowing that Madame would never know it, nor care if she did. It was, however,
a very valuable copy of one of the famous pictures of the world, and Amy's
beauty-loving eyes were never tired of looking up at the sweet face of the
Divine Mother, while her tender thoughts of her own were busy at her heart. On
the table she laid her little testament and hymnbook, kept a vase always full
of the best flowers Laurie brought her, and came every day to `sit alone'
thinking good thoughts, and praying the dear God to preserve her sister. Esther
had given her a rosary of black beads with a silver cross, but Amy hung it up
and did not use it, feeling doubtful as to its fitness for Protestant prayers.
The little girl was
very sincere in all this, for being left alone outside the safe home nest, she
felt the need of some kind hand to hold by so sorely that she instinctively
turned to the strong and tender Friend, whose fatherly love most closely
surrounds His little children. She missed her mother's help to understand and
rule herself, but having been taught where to look, she did her best to find
the way and walk in it confidingly. But Amy was a young pilgrim, and just now
her burden seemed very heavy. She tried to forget herself, to keep cheerful,
and be satisfied with doing right, though no one saw or praised her for it. In
her first effort at being very, very good, she decided to make her will, as
Aunt March had done, so that if she did fall ill and die, her possessions might
be justly and generously divided. It cost her a pang even to think of giving up
the little treasures which in her eyes were as precious as the old lady's
jewels.
During one of her play
hours she wrote out the important document as well as she could, with some help
from Esther as to certain legal terms, and when the good-natured Frenchwoman
had signed her name, Amy felt relieved and laid it by to show Laurie, whom she
wanted as a second witness. As it was a rainy day, she went upstairs to amuse
herself in one of the large chambers, and took Polly with her for company. In
this room there was a wardrobe full of old-fashioned costumes with which Esther
allowed her to play, and it was her favorite amusement to array herself in the
faded brocades, and parade up and down before the long mirror, making stately
curtsies, and sweeping her train about with a rustle which delighted her ears.
So busy was she on this day that she did not hear Laurie's ring nor see his
face peeping in at her as she gravely promenaded to and fro, flirting her fan
and tossing her head, on which she wore a great pink turban, contrasting oddly
with her blue brocade dress and yellow quilted petticoat. She was obliged to
walk carefully, for she had on high-heeled shoes, and, as Laurie told Jo
afterward, it was a comical sight to see her mince along in her gay suit, with
Polly sidling and bridling just behind her, imitating her as well as he could,
and occasionally stopping to laugh or exclaim, “Ain't we fine? Get along, you
fright! Hold your tongue! Kiss me, dear! Ha! Ha!”
Having with difficulty
restrained an explosion of merriment, lest it should offend her majesty, Laurie
tapped and was graciously received.
“Sit down and rest
while I put these things away, then I want to consult you about a very serious
matter,” said Amy, when she had shown her splendor and driven Polly into a
corner. “That bird is the trial of my life,” she continued, removing the pink
mountain from her head, while Laurie seated himself astride a chair. “Yesterday,
when Aunt was asleep and I was trying to be as still as a mouse, Polly began to
squall and flap about in his cage, so I went to let him out, and found a big
spider there. I poked it out, and it ran under the bookcase. Polly marched
straight after it, stooped down and peeped under the bookcase, saying, in his
funny way, with a cock of his eye, `Come out and take a walk, my dear.' I
couldn't help laughing, which made Poll swear, and Aunt woke up and scolded us
both.”
“Did the spider accept
the old fellow's invitation?” asked Laurie, yawning.
“Yes, out it came, and
away ran Polly, frightened to death, and scrambled up on Aunt's chair, calling
out, `Catch her! Catch her! Catch her!' as I chased the spider.”
“That's a lie! Oh, lor!”
cried the parrot, pecking at Laurie's toes.
“I'd wring your neck if
you were mine, you old torment,” cried Laurie, shaking his fist at the bird,
who put his head on one side and gravely croaked, “Allyluyer! Bless your
buttons, dear!”
“Now I'm ready,” said
Amy, shutting the wardrobe and taking a piece of paper out of her pocket. “I
want you to read that, please, and tell me if it is legal and right. I felt I
ought to do it, for life is uncertain and I don't want any ill feeling over my
tomb.”
Laurie bit his lips,
and turning a little from the pensive speaker, read the following document,
with praiseworthy gravity, considering the spelling:
MY LAST WILL AND
TESTIMENT
I, Amy Curtis March,
being in my sane mind, go give and bequeethe all my earthly property--viz.to
wit:--namely
To my father, my best
pictures, sketches, maps, and works of art, including frames. Also my $100, to
do what he likes with.
To my mother, all my
clothes, except the blue apron with pockets--also my likeness, and my medal,
with much love.
To my dear sister
Margaret, I give my turkquoise ring (if I get it), also my green box with the
doves on it, also my; piece of real lace for her neck, and my sketch of her as
a memorial of her `little girl'.
To Jo I leave my
breastpin, the one mended with sealing wax, also my bronze inkstand--she lost
the cover--and my most precious plaster rabbit, because I am sorry I burned up
her story.
To Beth (if she lives
after me) I give my dolls and the little bureau, my fan, my linen collars and
my new slippers if she can wear them being thin when she gets well. And I
herewith also leave her my regret that I ever made fun of old Joanna.
To my friend and
neighbor Theodore Laurence I bequeethe my paper mashay portfolio, my clay model
of a horse though he did say it hadn't any neck. Also in return for his great
kindness in the hour of affliction any one of my artistic works he likes, Noter
Dame is the best.
To our venerable
benefactor Mr. Laurence I leave my purple box with a looking glass in the cover
which will be nice for his pens and remind him of the departed girl who thanks
him for his favors to her family, especially Beth.
I wish my favorite
playmate Kitty Bryant to have the blue silk apron and my gold-bead ring with a
kiss.
To Hannah I give the
bandbox she wanted and all the patchwork I leave hoping she `will remember me,
when it you see'.
And now having disposed
of my most valuable property I hope all will be satisfied and not blame the
dead. I forgive everyone, and trust we may all meet when the trump shall sound.
Amen.
To this will and
testiment I set my hand and seal on this 20th day of Nov. Anni Domino 1861.
AMY CURTIS MARCH
WITNESSES:
ESTELLE VALNOR,
THEODORE LAURENCE.
The last name was
written in pencil, and Amy explained that he was to rewrite it in ink and seal
it up for her properly.
“What put it into your
head? Did anyone tell you about Beth's giving away her things?” asked Laurie
soberly, as Amy laid a bit of red tape, with sealing wax, a taper, and a
standish before him.
She explained and then
asked anxiously, “What about Beth?”
“I'm sorry I spoke, but
as I did, I'll tell you. She felt so ill one day that she told Jo she wanted to
give her piano to Meg, her cats to you, and the poor old doll to Jo, who would
love it for her sake. She was sorry she had so little to give, and left locks
of hair to the rest of us, and her best love to Grandpa. She never thought of a
will.”
Laurie was signing and
sealing as he spoke, and did not look up till a great tear dropped on the
paper. Amy's face was full of trouble, but she only said, “Don't people put
sort of postscripts to their wills, sometimes?”
“Yes, `codicils', they
call them.”
“Put one in mine then,
that I wish all my curls cut off, and given round to my friends. I forgot it,
but I want it done though it will spoil my looks.”
Laurie added it,
smiling at Amy's last and greatest sacrifice. Then he amused her for an hour,
and was much interested in all her trials. But when he came to go, Amy held him
back to whisper with trembling lips, “Is there really any danger about Beth?”
“I'm afraid there is,
but we must hope for the best, so don't cry, dear.” And Laurie put his arm
about her with a brotherly gesture which was very comforting.
When he had gone, she
went to her little chapel, and sitting in the twilight, prayed for Beth, with
streaming tears and an aching heart, feeling that a million turquoise rings
would not console her for the loss of her gentle little sister.
I don't think I have
any words in which to tell the meeting of the mother and daughters. Such hours
are beautiful to live, but very hard to describe, so I will leave it to the
imagination of my readers, merely saying that the house was full of genuine
happiness, and that Meg's tender hope was realized, for when Beth woke from
that long, healing sleep, the first objects on which her eyes fell were the
little rose and Mother's face. Too weak to wonder at anything, she only smiled
and nestled close in the loving arms about her, feeling that the hungry longing
was satisfied at last. Then she slept again, and the girls waited upon their
mother, for she would not unclasp the thin hand which clung to hers even in
sleep.
Hannah had `dished up'
and astonishing breakfast for the traveler, finding it impossible to vent her
excitement in any other way, and Meg and Jo fed their mother like dutiful young
storks, while they listened to her whispered account of Father's state, Mr.
Brooke's promise to stay and nurse him, the delays which the storm occasioned
on the homeward journey, and the unspeakable comfort Laurie's hopeful face had
given her when she arrived, worn out with fatigue, anxiety, and cold.
What a strange yet
pleasant day that was. So brilliant and gay without, for all the world seemed
abroad to welcome the first snow. So quiet and reposeful within, for everyone
slept, spent with watching, and a Sabbath stillness reigned through the house,
while nodding Hannah mounted guard at the door. With a blissful sense of
burdens lifted off, Meg and Jo closed their weary eyes, and lay at rest, like
storm-beaten boats safe at anchor in a quiet harbor. Mrs. March would not leave
Beth's side, but rested in the big chair, waking often to look at, touch, and
brood over her child, like a miser over some recovered treasure.
Laurie meanwhile posted
off to comfort Amy, and told his story so well that Aunt March actually
`sniffed' herself, and never once said “I told you so”. Amy came out so strong
on this occasion that I think the good thoughts in the little chapel really
began to bear fruit. She dried her tears quickly, restrained her impatience to
see her mother, and never even thought of the turquoise ring, when the old lady
heartily agreed in Laurie's opinion, that she behaved `like a capital little
woman'. Even Polly seemed impressed, for he called her a good girl, blessed her
buttons, and begged her to “come and take a walk, dear”, in his most affable
tone. She would very gladly have gone out to enjoy the bright wintry weather,
but discovering that Laurie was dropping with sleep in spite of manful efforts
to conceal the fact, she persuaded him to rest on the sofa, while she wrote a
note to her mother. She was a long time about it, and when she returned, he was
stretched out with both arms under his head, sound asleep, while Aunt March had
pulled down the curtains and sat doing nothing in an unusual fit of benignity.
After a while, they
began to think he was not going to wake up till night, and I'm not sure that he
would, had he not been effectually roused by Amy's cry of joy at sight of her
mother. There probably were a good many happy little girls in and about the
city that day, but it is my private opinion that Amy was the happiest of all,
when she sat in her mother's lap and told her trials, receiving consolation and
compensation in the shape of approving smiles and fond caresses. They were
alone together in the chapel, to which her mother did not object when its
purpose was explained to her.
“On the contrary, I
like it very much, dear,” looking from the dusty rosary to the well-worn little
book, and the lovely picture with its garland of evergreen. “It is an excellent
plan to have some place where we can go to be quiet, when things vex or grieve
us. There are a good many hard times in this life of ours, but we can always
bear them if we ask help in the right way. I think my little girl is learning
this.”
“Yes, Mother, and when
I go home I mean to have a corner in the big closet to put my books and the
copy of that picture which I've tried to make. The woman's face is not good,
it's too beautiful for me to draw, but the baby is done better, and I love it
very much. I like to think He was a little child once, for then I don't seem so
far away, and that helps me.”
As Amy pointed to the
smiling Christ child on his Mother's knee, Mrs. March saw something on the
lifted hand that made her smile. She said nothing, but Amy understood the look,
and after a minute's pause, she added gravely, “I wanted to speak to you about
this, but I forgot it. Aunt gave me the ring today. She called me to her and
kissed me, and put it on my finger, and said I was a credit to her, and she'd
like to keep me always. She gave that funny guard to keep the turquoise on, as
it's too big. I'd like to wear them Mother, can I?”
“They are very pretty,
but I think you're rather too young for such ornaments, Amy,” said Mrs. March,
looking at the plump little hand, with the band of sky-blue stones on the
forefinger, and the quaint guard formed of two tiny golden hands clasped
together.
“I'll try not to be
vain,” said Amy. “I don't think I like it only because it's so pretty, but I
want to wear it as the girl in the story wore her bracelet, to remind me of
something.”
“Do you mean Aunt
March?” asked her mother, laughing.
“No, to remind me not
to be selfish.” Amy looked so earnest and sincere about it that her mother
stopped laughing, and listened respectfully to the little plan.
“I've thought a great
deal lately about my `bundle of naughties', and being selfish is the largest
one in it, so I'm going to try hard to cure it, if I can. Beth isn't selfish,
and that's the reason everyone loves her and feels so bad at the thoughts of
losing her. People wouldn't feel so bat about me if I was sick, and I don't
deserve to have them, but I'd like to be loved and missed by a great many
friends, so I'm going to try and be like Beth all I can. I'm apt to forget my
resolutions, but if I had something always about me to remind me, I guess I
should do better. May we try this way?”
“Yes, but I have more
faith in the corner of the big closet. Wear your ring, dear, and do your best.
I think you will prosper, for the sincere wish to be good is half the battle.
Now I must go back to Beth. Keep up your heart, little daughter, and we will
soon have you home again.”
That evening while Meg
was writing to her father to report the traveler's safe arrival, Jo slipped
upstairs into Beth's room, and finding her mother in her usual place, stood a
minute twisting her fingers in her hair, with a worried gesture and an
undecided look.
“What is it, deary?'
asked Mrs. March, holding out her hand, with a face which invited confidence.
“I want to tell you
something, Mother.”
“About Meg?”
“How quickly you
guessed! Yes, it's about her, and though it's a little thing, it fidgets me.”
“Beth is asleep. Speak
low, and tell me all about it. That Moffat hasn't been here, I hope?” asked
Mrs. March rather sharply.
“No. I should have shut
the door in his face if he had,” said Jo, settling herself on the floor at her
mother's feet. “Last summer Meg left a pair of gloves over at the Laurences'
and only one was returned. We forgot about it, till Teddy told me that Mr.
Brooke owned that he liked Meg but didn't dare say so, she was so young and he
so poor. Now, isn't it a dreadful state of things?”
“Do you think Meg cares
for him?” asked Mrs. March, with an anxious look.
“Mercy me! I don't know
anything about love and such nonsense!” cried Jo, with a funny mixture of interest
and contempt. “In novels, the girls show it by starting and blushing, fainting
away, growing thin, and acting like fools. Now Meg does not do anything of the
sort. She eats and drinks and sleeps like a sensible creature, she looks
straight in my face when I talk about that man, and only blushes a little bit
when Teddy jokes about lovers. I forbid him to do it, but he doesn't mind me as
he ought.”
“Then you fancy that
Meg is not interested in John?'
“Who?” cried Jo,
staring.
“Mr. Brooke. I call him
`John' now. We fell into the way of doing so at the hospital, and he likes it.”
“Oh, dear! I know
you'll take his part. He's been good to Father, and you won't send him away,
but let Meg marry him, if she wants to. Mean thing! To go petting Papa and helping
you, just to wheedle you into liking him.” And Jo pulled her hair again with a
wrathful tweak.
“My dear, don't get
angry about it, and I will tell you how it happened. John went with me at Mr.
Laurence's request, and was so devoted to poor Father that we couldn't help
getting fond of him. He was perfectly open and honorable about Meg, for he told
us he loved her, but would earn a comfortable home before he asked her to marry
him. He only wanted our leave to love her and work for her, and the right to
make her love him if he could. He is a truly excellent young man, and we could
not refuse to listen to him, but I will not consent to Meg's engaging herself
so young.”
“Of course not. It
would be idiotic! I knew there was mischief brewing. I felt it, and now it's
worse than I imagined. I just wish I could marry Meg myself, and keep her safe
in the family.”
This odd arrangement
made Mrs. March smile, but she said gravely, “Jo, I confide in you and don't
wish you to say anything to Meg yet. When John comes back, and I see them
together, I can judge better of her feelings toward him.”
“She'll see those
handsome eyes that she talks about, and then it will be all up with her. She's
got such a soft heart, it will melt like butter in the sun if anyone looks sentimentally
at her. She read the short reports he sent more than she did your letters, and
pinched me when I spoke of it, and likes brown eyes, and doesn't think John an
ugly name, and she'll go and fall in love, and there's an end of peace and fun,
and cozy times together. I see it all! They'll go lovering around the house,
and we shall have to dodge. Meg will be absorbed and no good to me any more.
Brooke will scratch up a fortune somehow, carry her off, and make a hole in the
family, and I shall break my heart, and everything will be abominably
uncomfortable. Oh, dear me! Why weren't we all boys, then there wouldn't be any
bother.”
Jo leaned her chin on
her knees in a disconsolate attitude and shook her fist at the reprehensible
John. Mrs. March sighed, and Jo looked up with an air of relief.
“You don't like it,
Mother? I'm glad of it. Let's send him about his business, and not tell Meg a
word of it, but all be happy together as we always have been.”
“I did wrong to sigh,
Jo. It is natural and right you should all go to homes of your own in time, but
I do want to keep my girls as long as I can, and I am sorry that this happened
so soon, for Meg is only seventeen and it will be some years before John can
make a home for her. Your father and I have agreed that she shall not bind
herself in any way, nor be married, before twenty. If she and John love one
another, they can wait, and test the love by doing so. She is conscientious,
and I have no fear of her treating him unkindly. My pretty, tender hearted
girl! I hope things will go happily with her.”
“Hadn't you rather have
her marry a rich man?” asked Jo, as her mother's voice faltered a little over
the last words.
“Money is a good and
useful thing, Jo, and I hope my girls will never feel the need of it too
bitterly not be tempted by too much. I should like to know that John was firmly
established in some good business, which gave him an income large enough to
keep free from debt and make Meg comfortable. I'm not ambitious for a splendid
fortune, a fashionable position, or a great name for my girls. If rank and
money come with love and virtue, also, I should accept them gratefully, and
enjoy your good fortune, but I know, by experience, how much genuine happiness
can be had in a plain little house, where the daily bread is earned, and some
privations give sweetness to the few pleasures. I am content to see Meg begin
humbly, for if I am not mistaken, she will be rich in the possession of a good
man's heart, and that is better than a fortune.”
“I understand, Mother,
and quite agree, but I'm disappointed about Meg, for I'd planned to have her
marry Teddy by-and-by and sit in the lap of luxury all her days. Wouldn't it be
nice?” asked Jo, looking up with a brighter face.
“He is younger than
she, you know,” began Mrs. March, but Jo broke in . . .
“Only a little, he's
old for his age, and tall, and can be quite grown-up in his manners if he
likes. Then he's rich and generous and good, and loves us all, and I say it's a
pity my plan is spoiled.”
“I'm afraid Laurie is
hardly grown-up enough for Meg, and altogether too much of a weathercock just
now for anyone to depend on. Don't make plans, Jo, but let time and their own
hearts mate your friends. We can't meddle safely in such matters, and had
better not get `romantic rubbish' as you call it, into our heads, lest it spoil
our friendship.”
“Well, I won't, but I
hate to see things going all criss-cross and getting snarled up, when a pull
her and a snip there would straighten it out. I wish wearing flatirons on our
heads would keep us from growing up. But buds will be roses, and kittens cats,
more's the pity!”
“What's that about
flatirons and cats?” asked Meg, as she crept into the room with the finished
letter in her hand.
“Only one of my stupid
speeches. I'm going to bed. Come, Peggy,” said Jo, unfolding herself like an
animated puzzle.
“Quite right, and
beautifully written. Please add that I send my love to John,” said Mrs. March,
as she glanced over the letter and gave it back.
“Do you call him `John'?”
asked Meg, smiling, with her innocent eyes looking down into her mother's.
“Yes, he has been like
a son to us, and we are very fond of him,” replied Mrs. March, returning the
look with a keen one.
“I'm glad of that, he
is so lonely. Good night, Mother, dear. It is so inexpressibly comfortable to
have you here,” was Meg's answer.
The kiss her mother
gave her was a very tender one, and as she went away, Mrs. March said, with a
mixture of satisfaction and regret, “She does not love John yet, but will soon
learn to.
Jo's face was a study
next day, for the secret rather weighed upon her, and she found it hard not to
look mysterious and important. Meg observed it, but did not trouble herself to
make inquiries, for she had learned that the best way to manage Jo was by the
law of contraries, so she felt sure of being told everything if she did not
ask. She was rather surprised, therefore, when the silence remained unbroken,
and Jo assumed a patronizing air, which decidedly aggravated Meg, who in turn
assumed an air of dignified reserve and devoted herself to her mother. This
left Jo to her own devices, for Mrs. March had taken her place as nurse, and
bade her rest, exercise, and amuse herself after her long confinement. Amy
being gone, Laurie was her only refuge, and much as she enjoyed his society,
she rather dreaded him just then, for he was an incorrigible tease, and she
feared he would coax the secret from her.
She was quite right,
for the mischief-loving lad no sooner suspected a mystery than he set himself
to find it out, and led Jo a trying life of it. He wheedled, bribed, ridiculed,
threatened, and scolded; affected indifference, that he might surprise the
truth from her; declared her knew, then that he didn't care; and at last, by
dint of perseverance, he satisfied himself that it concerned Meg and Mr.
Brooke. Feeling indignant that he was not taken into his tutor's confidence, he
set his wits to work to devise some proper retaliation for the slight.
Meg meanwhile had
apparently forgotten the matter and was absorbed in preparations for her
father's return, but all of a sudden a change seemed to come over her, and, for
a day or two, she was quite unlike herself. She started when spoken to, blushed
when looked at, was very quiet, and sat over her sewing, with a timid, troubled
look on her face. To her mother's inquiries she answered that she was quite
well, and Jo's she silenced by begging to be let alone.
“She feels it in the
air--love, I mean--and she's going very fast. She's got most of the
symptoms--is twittery and cross, doesn't eat, lies awake, and mopes in corners.
I caught her singing that song he gave her, and once she said `John', as you
do, and then turned as red as a poppy. whatever shall we do?” said Jo, looking
ready for any measures, however violent.
“Nothing but wait. Let
her alone, be kind and patient, and Father's coming will settle everything,”
replied her mother.
“Here's a note to you,
Meg, all sealed up. How odd! Teddy never seals mine,” said Jo next day, as she
distributed the contents of the little post office.
Mrs. March and Jo were
deep in their own affairs, when a sound from Meg made them look up to see her
staring at her note with a frightened face.
“My child, what is it?”
cried her mother, running to her, while Jo tried to take the paper which had
done the mischief.
“It's all a mistake, he
didn't send it. Oh, Jo, how could you do it?” and Meg hid her face in her
hands, crying as if her heart were quite broken.
“Me! I've done nothing!
What's she talking about?” cried Jo, bewildered.
Meg's mild eyes kindled
with anger as she pulled a crumpled note from her pocket and threw it at Jo,
saying reproachfully, “You wrote it, and that bad boy helped you. How could you
be so rude, so mean, and cruel to us both?”
Jo hardly heard her,
for she and her mother were reading the note, which was written in a peculiar
hand.
“My Dearest Margaret--
“I can no longer
restrain my passion, and must know my fate before I return. I dare not tell
your parents yet, but I think they would consent if they knew that we adored
one another. Mr. Laurence will help me to some good place, and then, my sweet
girl, you will make me happy. I implore you to say nothing to your family yet,
but to send one word of hope through Laurie to,
“Your devoted John.”
“Oh, the little
villain! That's the way he meant to pay me for keeping my word to Mother. I'll
give him a hearty scolding and bring him over to beg pardon,” cried Jo, burning
to execute immediate justice. But her mother held her back, saying, with a look
she seldom wore . . .
“Stop, Jo, you must
clear yourself first. You have played so many pranks that I am afraid you have
had a hand in this.”
“On my word, Mother, I
haven't! I never saw that note before, and don't know anything about it, as
true as I live!” said Jo, so earnestly that they believed her. “If I had taken
part in it I'd have done it better than this, and have written a sensible note.
I should think you'd have known Mr. Brooke wouldn't write such stuff as that,”
she added, scornfully tossing down the paper.
“It's like his writing,”
faltered Meg, comparing it with the note in her hand.
“Oh, Meg, you didn't
answer it?” cried Mrs. March quickly.
“Yes, I did!” and Meg
hid her face again, overcome with shame.
“Here's a scrape! Do
let me bring that wicked boy over to explain and be lectured. I can't rest till
I get hold of him.” And Jo made for the door again.
“Hush! Let me handle
this, for it is worse than I thought. Margaret, tell me the whole story,”
commanded Mrs. March, sitting down by Meg, yet keeping hold of Jo, lest she
should fly off.
“I received the first
letter from Laurie, who didn't look as if he knew anything about it,” began
Meg, without looking up. “I was worried at first and meant to tell you, then I
remembered how you liked Mr. Brooke, so I thought you wouldn't mind if I kept
my little secret for a few days. I'm so silly that I liked to think no one
knew, and while I was deciding what to say, I felt like the girls in books, who
have such things to do. Forgive me, Mother, I'm paid for my silliness now. I
never can look him in the face again.”
“What did you say to
him?' asked Mrs. March.
“I only said I was too
young to do anything about it yet, that I didn't wish to have secrets from you,
and he must speak to father. I was very grateful for his kindness, and would be
his friend, but nothing more, for a long while.”
Mrs. March smiled, as
if well pleased, and Jo clapped her hands, exclaiming, with a laugh, “You are almost
equal to Caroline Percy, who was a pattern of prudence! Tell on, Meg. What did
he say to that?”
“He writes in a
different way entirely, telling me that he never sent any love letter at all,
and is very sorry that my roguish sister, Jo, should take liberties with our
names. It's very kind and respectful, but think how dreadful for me!”
Meg leaned against her
mother, looking the image of despair, and Jo tramped about the room, calling
Laurie names. All of a sudden she stopped, caught up the two notes, and after
looking at them closely, said decidedly, “I don't believe Brooke ever saw
either of these letters. Teddy wrote both, and keeps yours to crow over me with
because I wouldn't tell him my secret.”
“Don't have any
secrets, Jo. Tell it to Mother and keep out of trouble, as I should have done,”
said Meg warningly.
“Bless you, child!
Mother told me.”
“That will do, Jo. I'll
comfort Meg while you go and get Laurie. I shall sift the matter to the bottom,
and put a stop to such pranks at once.”
Away ran Jo, and Mrs.
March gently told Meg Mr. Brooke's real feelings. “Now, dear, what are your
own? Do you love him enough to wait till her can make a home for you, or will
you keep yourself quite free for the present?”
“I've been so scared
and worried, I don't want to have anything to do with lovers for a long while,
perhaps never,” answered Meg petulantly. “If John doesn't know anything about
this nonsense, don't tell him, and make Jo and Laurie hold their tongues. I
won't be deceived and plagued and made a fool of. It's a shame!”
Seeing Meg's usually
gentle temper was roused and her pride hurt by this mischievous joke, Mrs.
March soothed her by promises of entire silence and great discretion for the
future. The instant Laurie's step was heard in the hall, Meg fled into the
study, and Mrs. March received the culprit alone. Jo had not told him why he
was wanted, fearing he wouldn't come, but he knew the minute he saw Mrs.
March's face, and stood twirling his hat with a guilty air which convicted him
at once. Jo was dismissed, but chose to march up and down the hall like a
sentinel, having some fear that the prisoner might bolt. The sound of voices in
the parlor rose and fell for half an hour, but what happened during that
interview the girls never knew.
When they were called
in, Laurie was standing by their mother with such a penitent face that Jo
forgave him on the spot, but did not think it wise to betray the fact. Meg
received his humble apology, and was much comforted by the assurance that
Brooke knew nothing of the joke.
“I'll never tell him to
my dying day, wild horses shan't drag it out of me, so you'll forgive me, Meg,
and I'll do anything to show how out-and-out sorry I am,” he added, looking
very much ashamed of himself.
“I'll try,but it was a
very ungentlemanly thing to do, I didn't think you could be so sly and
malicious, Laurie,” replied Meg, trying to hid her maidenly confusion under a
gravely reproachful air.
“It was altogether
abominable, and I don't deserve to be spoken to for a month, but you will,
though, won't you?” And Laurie folded his hands together with such and
imploring gesture, as he spoke in his irresistibly persuasive tone, that it was
impossible to frown upon him in spite of his scandalous behavior.
Meg pardoned him, and
Mrs. March's grave face relaxed, in spite of her efforts to keep sober, when
she heard him declare that he would atone for his sins by all sorts of
penances, and abase himself like a worm before the injured damsel.
Jo stood aloof,
meanwhile, trying to harden her heart against him, and succeeding only in
primming up her face into an expression of entire disapprobation. Laurie looked
at her once or twice, but as she showed no sign of relenting, he felt injured,
and turned his back on her till the others were done with him, when he made her
a low bow and walked off without a word.
As soon as he had gone,
she wished she had been more forgiving, and when Meg and her mother went
upstairs, she felt lonely and longed for Teddy. After resisting for some time,
she yielded to the impulse, and armed with a book to return, went over to the
big house.
“Is Mr. Laurence in?”
asked Jo, of a housemaid, who was coming downstairs.
“Yes, Miss, but I don't
believe he's seeable just yet.”
“Why not? Is he ill?”
“La, no Miss, but he's
had a scene with Mr. Laurie, who is in one of his tantrums about something,
which vexes the old gentleman, so I dursn't go nigh him.”
“Where is Laurie?'
“Shut up in his room,
and he won't answer, though I've been a-tapping. I don't know what's to become
of the dinner, for it's ready, and there's no one to eat it.”
“I'll go and see what
the matter is. I'm not afraid of either of them.”
Up went Jo, and knocked
smartly on the door of Laurie's little study.
“Stop that, or I'll
open the door and make you!” called out the young gentleman in a threatening
tone.
Jo immediately knocked
again. The door flew open, and in she bounced before Laurie could recover from
his surprise. Seeing that he really was out of temper, Jo, who knew how to
manage him, assumed a contrite expression, and going artistically down upon her
knees, said meekly, “Please forgive me for being so cross. I came to make it
up, and can't go away till I have.”
“It's all right. Get
up, and don't be a goose, Jo,” was the cavalier reply to her petition.
“Thank you, I will.
Could I ask what's the matter? You don't look exactly easy in your mind.”
“I've been shaken, and
I won't bear it!” growled Laurie indignantly.
“Who did it?” demanded
Jo.
“Grandfather. If it had
been anyone else I'd have . . .” And the injured youth finished his sentence by
an energetic gesture of the right arm.
“That's nothing. I
often shake you, and you don't mind,” said Jo soothingly.
“Pooh! You're a girl,
and it's fun, but I'll allow no man to shake me!”
“I don't think anyone
would care to try it, if you looked as much like a thundercloud as you do now.
Why were you treated so?”
“Just because I
wouldn't say what your mother wanted me for. I'd promised not to tell, and of
course I wasn't going to break my word.”
“Couldn't you satisfy
your grandpa in any other way?”
“No, he would have the
truth, the whole truth,and nothing but the truth. I'd have told my part of the
scrape, if I could without bringing Meg in. As I couldn't, I held my tongue,
and bore the scolding till the old gentleman collared me. Then I bolted, for
fear I should forget myself.”
“It wasn't nice, but
he's sorry, I know, so go down and make up. I'll help you.”
“Hanged if I do! I'm
not going to be lectured and pummelled by everyone, just for a bit of a frolic.
I was sorry about Meg, and begged pardon like a man, but I won't do it again,
when I wasn't in the wrong.”
“He didn't know that.”
“He ought to trust me,
and not act as if I was a baby. It's no use, Jo, he's got to learn that I'm
able to take care of myself, and don't need anyone's apron string to hold on
by.”
“What pepper pots you
are! “ sighed Jo. “How do you mean to settle this affair?”
“Well, he ought to beg
pardon, and believe me when I say I can't tell him what the fuss's about.”
“Bless you! He won't do
that.”
“I won't go down till
he does.”
“Now, Teddy, be
sensible. Let it pass, and I'll explain what I can. You can't stay here, so
what's the use of being melodramatic?”
“I don't intend to stay
here long, anyway. I'll slip off and take a journey somewhere, and when Grandpa
misses me he'll come round fast enough.”
“I dare say, but you
ought not to go and worry him.”
“Don't preach. I'll go
to Washington and see Brooke. It's gay there, and I'll enjoy myself after the
troubles.”
“What fun you'd have! I
wish I could run off too,” said Jo, forgetting her part of mentor in lively
visions of martial life at the capital.
“Come on, then! Why
not? You go and surprise your father, and I'll stir up old Brooke. It would be
a glorious joke. Let's do it, Jo. We'll leave a letter saying we are all right,
and trot off at once. I've got money enough. It will do you good, and no harm,
as you go to your father.”
For a moment Jo looked
as if she would agree, for wild as the plan was, it just suited her. She was
tired of care and confinement, longed for change, and thoughts of her father
blended temptingly with the novel charms of camps and hospitals, liberty and
fun. Her eyes kindled as they turned wistfully toward the window, but they fell
on the old house opposite, and she shook her head with sorrowful decision.
“If I was a boy, we'd
run away together, and have a capital time, but as I'm a miserable girl, I must
be proper and stop at home. Don't tempt me, Teddy, it's a crazy plan.”
“That's the fun of it,”
began Laurie, who had got a willful fit on him and was possessed to break out
of bounds in some way.
“Hold your tongue!”
cried Jo, covering her ears. “`Prunes and prisms' are my doom, and I may as
well make up my mind to it. I came here to moralize, not to hear things that
make me skip to think of.”
“I know Meg would
wet-blanket such a proposal, but I thought you had more spirit,” began Laurie
insinuatingly.
“Bad boy, be quiet! Sit
down and think of your own sins, don't go making me add to mine. If I get your
grandpa to apologize for the shaking, will you give up running away?” asked Jo
seriously.
“Yes, but you won't do
it,” answered Laurie, who wished to make up, but felt that his outraged dignity
must be appeased first.
“If I can manage the
young one, I can the old one,” muttered Jo, as she walked away, leaving Laurie
bent over a railroad map with his head propped up on both hands.
“Come in!” And Mr.
Laurence's gruff voice sounded gruffer than ever, as Jo tapped at his door.
“It's only me, Sir,
come to return a book,” she said blandly, as she entered.
“Want any more?” asked
the old gentleman, looking grim and vexed, but trying not to show it.
“Yes, please. I like
old Sam so well, I think I'll try the second volume,” returned Jo, hoping to
propitiate him by accepting a second dose of Boswell's JOHNSON, as he had
recommended that lively work.
The shaggy eyebrows
unbent a little as he rolled the steps toward the shelf where the Johnsonian
literature was placed. Jo skipped up, and sitting on the top step, affected to
be searching for her book, but was really wondering how best to introduce the
dangerous object of her visit. Mr. Laurence seemed to suspect that something
was brewing in her mind, for after taking several brisk turns about the room,
he faced round on her, speaking so abruptly that RASSELAS tumbled face downward
on the floor.
“What has that boy been
about? Don't try to shield him. I know he has been in mischief by the way he
acted when he came home. I can't get a word from him, and when I threatened to
shake the truth out of him he bolted upstairs and locked himself into his room.”
“He did wrong, but we
forgave him, and all promised not to say a word to anyone,” began Jo
reluctantly.
“That won't do. He
shall not shelter himself behind a promise from you softhearted girls. If he's
done anything amiss, he shall confess, beg pardon, and be punished. Out with
it, Jo. I won't be kept in the dark.”
Mr. Laurence looked so
alarming and spoke so sharply that Jo would have gladly run away, if she could,
but she was perched aloft on the steps, and he stood at the foot, a lion in the
path, so she had to stay and brave it out.
“Indeed, Sir, I cannot
tell. Mother forbade it. Laurie has confessed, asked pardon, and been punished
quite enough. We don't keep silence to shield him, but someone else, and it
will make more trouble if you interfere. Please don't. It was partly my fault,
but it's all right now. So let's forget it, and talk about the RAMBLER or
something pleasant.”
“Hang the RAMBLER! Come
down and give me your word that this harum-scarum boy of mine hasn't done
anything ungrateful or impertinent. If he has, after all your kindness to him,
I'll thrash him with my own hands.”
The threat sounded
awful, but did not alarm Jo, for she knew the irascible old gentleman would
never lift a finger against his grandson, whatever he might say to the
contrary. She obediently descended, and made as light of the prank as she could
without betraying Meg or forgetting the truth.
“Hum . . . ha . . .
well, if the boy held his tongue because he promised, and not from obstinacy,
I'll forgive him. He's a stubborn fellow and hard to manage,” said Mr.
Laurence, rubbing up his hair till it looked as if he had been out in a gale,
and smoothing the frown from his brow with an air of relief.
“So am I, but a kind
word will govern me when all the king's horses and all the king's men couldn't,”
said Jo, trying to say a kind word for her friend, who seemed to get out of one
scrape only to fall into another.
“You think I'm not kind
to him, hey?” was the sharp answer.
“Oh, dear no, Sir. You
are rather too kind sometimes, and then just a trifle hasty when he tries your
patience. Don't you think you are?”
Jo was determined to
have it out now, and tried to look quite placid, though she quaked a little
after her bold speech. To her great relief and surprise, the old gentleman only
threw his spectacles onto the table with a rattle and exclaimed frankly . ..
“You're right, girl, I
am! I love the boy, but he tries my patience past bearing, and I know how it
will end, if we go on so.”
“I'll tell you, he'll
run away.” Jo was sorry for that speech the minute it was made. She meant to
warn him that Laurie would not bear much restraint, and hoped he would be more
forebearing with the lad.
Mr. Laurence's ruddy
face changed suddenly, and he sat down, with a troubled glance at the picture
of a handsome man, which hung over his table. It was Laurie's father, who had
run away in his youth, and married against the imperious old man's will. Jo
fancied her remembered and regretted the past, and she wished she had held her
tongue.
“He won't do it unless
he is very much worried, and only threatens it sometimes, when he gets tired of
studying. I often think I should like to, especially since my hair was cut, so
if you ever miss us, you may advertise for two boys and look among the ships
bound for India.”
She laughed as she
spoke, and Mr. Laurence looked relieved, evidently taking the whole as a joke.
“You hussy, how dare
you talk in that way? Where's your respect for me, and your proper bringing up?
Bless the boys and girls! What torments they are, yet we can't do without them,”
he said, pinching her cheeks good-humoredly. “Go and bring that boy down to his
dinner, tell him it's all right, and advise him not to put on tragedy airs with
his grandfather. I won't bear it.”
“He won't come, Sir. He
feels badly because you didn't believe him when he said he couldn't tell. I
think the shaking hurt his feelings very much.”
Jo tried to look
pathetic but must have failed, for Mr. Laurence began to laugh, and she knew
the day was won.
“I'm sorry for that,
and ought to thank him for not shaking me, I suppose. What the dickens does the
fellow expect?” And the old gentleman looked a trifle ashamed of his own
testiness.
“If I were you, I'd
write him an apology, Sir. He says he won't come down till he has one, and
talks about Washington, and goes on in an absurd way. A formal apology will
make him see how foolish he is, and bring him down quite amiable. Try it. He
likes fun, and this was is better than talking. I'll carry it up, and teach him
his duty.”
Mr. Laurence gave her a
sharp look, and put on his spectacles, saying slowly, “You're a sly puss, but I
don't mind being managed by you and Beth. Here, give me a bit of paper, and let
us have done with this nonsense.”
The note was written in
the terms which one gentleman would use to another after offering some deep
insult. Jo dropped a kiss on the top of Mr. Laurence's bald head, and ran up to
slip the apology under Laurie's door, advising him through the keyhole to be
submissive, decorous, and a few other agreeable impossibilities. Finding the
door locked again, she left the note to do its work, and was going quietly
away, when the young gentleman slid down the banisters, and waited for her at
the bottom, saying, with his most virtuous expression of countenance, “What a
good fellow you are, Jo! Did you get blown up?” he added, laughing.
“No, he was pretty
mild, on the whole.”
“AH! I got it all
round. Even you cast me off over there, and I felt just ready to go to the
deuce,” he began apologetically.
“Don't talk that way,
turn over a new leaf and begin again, Teddy, my son.”
“I keep turning over
new leaves, and spoiling them, as I used to spoil my copybooks, and I make so
many beginnings there never will be an end,” he said dolefully.
“Go and eat your
dinner, you'll feel better after it. Men always croak when they are hungry,”
and Jo whisked out at the front door after that.
“That's a `label' on my
`sect',” answered Laurie, quoting Amy, as he went to partake of humble pie
dutifully with his grandfather, who was quite saintly in temper and
overwhelmingly respectful in manner all the rest of the day.
Everyone thought the
matter ended and the little cloud blown over, but the mischief was done, for
though others forgot it, Meg remembered. She never alluded to a certain person,
but she thought of him a good deal, dreamed dreams more than ever, and once Jo,
rummaging her sister's desk for stamps, found a bit of paper scribbled over
with the words, `Mrs. John Brooke', whereat she groaned tragically and cast it
into the fire, feeling that Laurie's prank had hastened the evil day for her.
Like sunshine after a
storm were the peaceful weeks which followed. The invalids improved rapidly,
and Mr. March began to talk or returning early in the new year. Beth was soon
able to lie on the study sofa all day, amusing herself with the well-beloved
cats at first, and in time with doll's sewing, which had fallen sadly
behindhand. Her once active limbs were so stiff and feeble that Jo took her for
a daily airing about the house in her strong arms. Meg cheerfully blackened and
burned her white hands cooking delicate messes for `the dear', while Amy, a
loyal slave of the ring, celebrated her return by giving away as many of her
treasures as she could prevail on her sisters to accept.
As Christmas
approached, the usual mysteries began to haunt the house, and Jo frequently
convulsed the family by proposing utterly impossible or magnificently absurd
ceremonies, in honor of this unusually merry Christmas. Laurie was equally
impracticable, and would have had bonfires, skyrockets, and triumphal arches,
if he had had his own way. After many skirmishes and snubbings, the ambitious
pair were considered effectually quenched and went about with forlorn faces,
which were rather belied by explosions of laughter when the two got together.
Several days of
unusually mild weather fitly ushered in a splendid Christmas Day. Hannah `felt
in her bones' that it was going to be an unusually fine day, and she proved
herself a true prophetess, for everybody and everything seemed bound to produce
a grand success. To begin with, Mr. March wrote that he should soon be with
them, then Beth felt uncommonly well that morning, and, being dressed in her
mother's gift, a soft crimson merino wrapper, was borne in high triumph to the
window to behold the offering of Jo and Laurie. The Unquenchables had done
their best to be worthy of the name, for like elves they had worked by night
and conjured up a comical surprise. Out in the garden stood a stately snow
maiden, crowned with holly, bearing a basket of fruit and flowers in one hand,
a great roll of music in the other, a perfect rainbow of an Afghan round her
chilly shoulders, and a Christmas carol issuing from her lips on a pink paper
streamer.
God bless you, dear
Queen Bess!
May nothing you dismay,
But health and peace
and happiness
Be yours, this
Christmas day.
Here's fruit to feed
our busy bee,
And flowers for her
nose.
Here's music for her
pianee,
An afghan for her toes,
A portrait of Joanna,
see,
By Raphael No. 2,
Who laboured with great
industry
To make it fair and
true.
Accept a ribbon red, I
beg,
For Madam Purrer's
tail,
And ice cream made by
lovely Peg,
A Mont Blanc in a pail.
Their dearest love my
makers laid
Within my breast of
snow.
Accept it, and the Alpine
maid,
From Laurie and from
Jo.
How Beth laughed when
she saw it, how Laurie ran up and down to bring in the gifts, and what
ridiculous speeches Jo made as she presented them.
“I'm so full of
happiness, that if Father was only here, I couldn't hold one drop more,” said
Beth, quite sighing with contentment as Jo carried her off to the study to rest
after the excitement, and to refresh herself with some of the delicious grapes
the `Jungfrau' had sent her.
“So am I,” added Jo,
slapping the pocket wherein reposed the long-desired UNDINE AND SINTRAM.
“I'm sure I am,” echoed
Amy, poring over the engraved copy of the Madonna and Child, which her mother
had given her in a pretty frame.
“Of course I am!” cried
Meg, smoothing the silvery folds of her first sild dress, for Mr. Laurence had
insisted on giving it.
“How can I be
otherwise?” said Mrs. March gratefully, as her eyes went from her husband's
letter to Beth's smiling face, and her hand carressed the brooch made of gray
and golden, chestnut and dark brown hair, which the girls had just fastened on
her breast.
Now and then, in this
workaday world, things do happen in the delightful storybook fashion, and what
a comfort it is. Half an hour after everyone had said they were so happy they
could only hold one drop more, the drop came. Laurie opened the parlor door and
popped his head in very quietly. He might just as well have turned a somersault
and uttered an Indian war whoop, for his face was so full of suppressed
excitement and his voice so treacherously joyful that everyone jumped up,
though he only said, in a queer, breathless voice, “Here's another Christmas
present for the March family.”
Before the words were
well out of his mouth, he was whisked away somehow, and in his place appeared a
tall man, muffled up to the eyes, leaning on the arm of another tall man, who
tried to say something and couldn't. Of course there was a general stampede,
and for several minutes everybody seemed to lose their wits, for the strangest
things were done, and no one said a word.
Mr. March became
invisible in the embrace of four pairs of loving arms. Jo disgraced herself by
nearly fainting away, and had to be doctored by Laurie in the china closet. Mr.
Brooke kissed Meg entirely by mistake, as he somewhat incoherently explained.
And Amy, the dignified, tumbled over a stool, and never stopping to get up,
hugged and cried over her father's boots in the most touching manner. Mrs.
March was the first to recover herself, and held up her hand with a warning, “Hush!
Remember Beth.”
But it was too late.
The study door flew open, the little red wrapper appeared on the threshold, joy
put strength into the feeble limbs, and Beth ran straight into her father's
arms. Never mind what happened just after that, for the full hearts overflowed,
washing away the bitterness of the past and leaving only the sweetness of the
present.
It was not at all
romantic, but a hearty laugh set everybody straight again, for Hannah was
discovered behind the door, sobbing over the fat turkey, which she had
forgotten to put down when she rushed up from the kitchen. As the laugh
subsided, Mrs. March began to thank Mr. Brooke for his faithful care of her
husband, at which Mr. Brooke suddenly remembered that Mr. March needed rest,
and seizing Laurie, he precipitately retired. Then the two invalids were
ordered to repose, which they did, by both sitting in one big chair and talking
hard.
Mr. March told how he
had longed to surprise them, and how, when the fine weather came, he had been
allowed by his doctor, to take advantage of it, how devoted Brooke had been,
and how he was altogether a most estimable and upright young man. Why Mr. March
paused a minute just there, and after a glance at Meg, who was violently poking
the fire, looked at his wife with an inquiring lift of the eyebrows, I leave
you to imagine. Also why Mrs. March gently nodded her head and asked, rather
abruptly, if he wouldn't like to have something to eat. Jo saw and understood
the look, and she stalked grimly away to get wine and beef tea, muttering to
herself as she slammed the door, “I hate estimable young men with brown eyes!”
There never was such a
Christmas dinner as they had that day. The fat turkey was a sight to behold,
when Hannah sent him up, stuffed, browned, and decorated. So was the plum
pudding, which melted in one's mouth, likewise the jellies, in which Amy
reveled like a fly in a honeypot. Everything turned out well, which was a
mercy, Hannah said, “For my mind was that flustered, Mum, that it's a merrycle
I didn't roast the pudding, and stuff the turkey with raisins, let alone bilin'
of it in a cloth.”
Mr. Laurence and his
grandson dined with them, also Mr. Brooke, at whom Jo glowered darkly, to
Laurie's infinite amusement. Two easy chairs stood side by side at the head of
the table, in which sat Beth and her father, feasting modestly on chicken and a
little fruit. They drank healths, told stories, sang songs, `reminisced', as
the old folks say, and had a thoroughly good time. A sleigh ride had been
planned, but the girls would not leave their father, so the guests departed
early, and as twilight gathered, the happy family sat together round the fire.
“Just a year ago we
were groaning over the dismal Christmas we expected to have. Do you remember?”
asked Jo, breaking a short pause which had followed a long conversation about
many things.
“Rather a pleasant year
on the whole!” said Meg, smiling at the fire, and congratulating herself on
having treated Mr. Brooke with dignity.
“I think it's been a
pretty hard one,” observed Amy, watching the light shine on her ring with
thoughtful eyes.
“i'm glad it's over,
because we've got you back,” whispered Beth, who sat on her father's knee.
“Rather a rough road
for you to travel, my little pilgrims, especially the latter part of it. But
you have got on bravely, and I think the burdens are in a fair way to tumble
off very soon,” said Mr. March, looking with fatherly satisfaction at the four
young faces gathered round him.
“How do you know? Did
Mother tell you?' asked Jo.
“Not much. Straws show
which way the wind blows, and I've made several discoveries today.”
“Oh, tell us what they
are!” cried Meg, who sat beside him.
“Here is one.” And
taking up the hand which lay on the arm of his chair, he pointed to the
roughened forefinger, a burn on the back, and two or three little hard spots on
the palm. “I remember a time when this hand was white and smooth, and your
first care was to keep it so. It was very pretty then, but to me it is much
prettier now, for in this seeming blemishes I read a little history. A burnt
offering has been made to vanity, this hardened palm has earned something
better than blisters, and I'm sure the sewing done by these pricked fingers
will last a long time, so much good will went into the stitches. Meg, my dear,
I value the womanly skill which keeps home happy more than white hands or
fashionable accomplishments. I'm proud to shake this good, industrious little
hand, and hope I shall not soon be asked to give it away.”
If Meg had wanted a
reward for hours of patient labor, she received it in the hearty pressure of
her father's hand and the approving smile he gave her.
“What about Jo? Please
say something nice, for she has tried so hard and been so very, very good to
me,” said Beth in her father's ear.
He laughed and looked
across at the tall girl who sat opposite, with and unusually mild expression in
her face.
“In spite of the curly
crop, I don't see the `son Jo' whom I left a year ago,” said Mr. March. “I see
a young lady who pins her collar straight, laces her boots neatly, and neither
whistles, talks slang, nor lies on the rug as she used to do. Her face is
rather thin and pale just now, with watching and anxiety, but I like to look at
it, for it has grown gentler, and her voice is lower. She doesn't bounce, but
moves quietly, and takes care of a certain little person in a motherly way
which delights me. I rather miss my wild girl, but if I get a strong, helpful,
tender-hearted woman in her place, I shall feel quite satisfied. I don't know whether
the shearing sobered our black sheep, but I do know that in all Washington I
couldn't find anything beautiful enough to be bought with the five-and-twenty
dollars my good girl sent me.”
Jo's keen eyes were
rather dim for a minute, and her thin face grew rosy in the firelight as she
received her father's praise, feeling that she did deserve a portion of it.
“Now, Beth,” said Amy,
longing for her turn, but ready to wait.
“There's so little of
her, I'm afraid to say much, for fear she will slip away altogether, though she
is not so shy as she used to be,” began their father cheerfully. But
recollecting how nearly he had lost her, he held her close, saying tenderly,
with her cheek against his own, “I've got you safe, my Beth, and I'll keep you
so, please God.”
After a minute's
silence, he looked down at Amy, who sat on the cricket at his feet, and said,
with a caress of the shining hair . . .
“I observed that Amy
took drumsticks at dinner, ran errands for her mother all the afternoon, gave
Meg her place tonight, and has waited on every on with patience and good humor.
I also observe that she does not fret much nor look in the glass, and has not
even mentioned a very pretty ring which she wears, so I conclude that she has
learned to think of other people more and of herself less, and has decided to
try and mold her character as carefully as she molds her little clay figures. I
am glad of this, for though I should be very proud of a graceful statue made by
her, I shall be infinitely prouder of a lovable daughter with a talent for
making life beautiful to herself and others.”
“What are you thinking
of, Beth?” asked Jo, when Amy had thanked her father and told about her ring.
“I read in PILGRIM'S
PROGRESS today how, after many troubles, Christian and Hopeful came to a
pleasant green meadow where lilies bloomed all year round, and there they
rested happily, as we do now, before they went on to their journey's end,”
answered Beth, adding, as she slipped out of her father's arms and went to the
instrument, “It's singing time now, and I want to be in my old place. I'll try
to sing the song of the shepherd boy which the Pilgrims heard. I made the music
for Father, because he likes the verses.”
So, sitting at the dear
little piano, Beth softly touched the keys, and in the sweet voice they had
never thought to hear again, sang to her own accompaniment the quaint hymn,
which was a singularly fitting song for her.
He that is down need
fear no fall,
He that is low no
pride.
He that is humble ever
shall
Have God to be his
guide.
I am content with what
I have,
Little be it, or much.
And, Lord! Contentment
still I crave,
Because Thou savest
such.
Fullness to them a
burden is,
That go on pilgrimage.
Here little, and
hereafter bliss,
Is best from age to
age!
Like bees swarming
after their queen, mother and daughters hovered about Mr. March the next day,
neglecting everything to look at, wait upon, and listen to the new invalid, who
was in a fair way to be killed by kindness. As he sat propped up in a big chair
by Beth's sofa, with the other three close by, and Hannah popping in her head
now and then `to peek at the dear man', nothing seemed needed to complete their
happiness. But something was needed, and the elder ones felt it, though none
confessed the fact. Mr. and Mrs. March looked at one another with an anxious
expression, as their eyes followed Meg. Jo had sudden fits of sobriety, and was
seen to shake her fist at Mr. Brooke's umbrella, which had been left in the
hall. Meg was absent-minded, shy, and silent, started when the bell rang, and
colored when John's name was mentioned. Amy said, “Everyone seemed waiting for
something, and couldn't settle down, which was queer, since Father was safe at
home,” and Beth innocently wondered why their neighbors didn't run over as
usual.
Laurie went by in the
afternoon, and seeing Meg at the window, seemed suddenly possessed with a
melodramatic fit, for he fell down on one knee in the snow, beat his breast,
tore his hair, and clasped his hands imploringly, as if begging some boon. And
when Meg told him to behave himself and go away, he wrung imaginary tears out
of his handkerchief, and staggered round the corner as if in utter despair.
“What does the goose
mean?” said Meg, laughing and trying to look unconscious.
“He's showing you how
your John will go on by-and-by. Touchin, isn't it?” answered Jo scornfully.
“Don't say my John, it
isn't proper or true,” but Meg's voice lingered over the words as if they
sounded pleasant to her. “Please don't plague me, Jo, I've told you I don't
care much about him, and there isn't to be anything said, but we are all to be
friendly, and go on as before.”
“We can't, for
something has been said, and Laurie's mischief has spoiled you for me. I see
it, and so does Mother. You are not like your old self a bit, and seem ever so
far away from me. I don't mean to plague you and will bear it like a man, but I
do wish it was all settled. I hate to wait, so if you mean ever to do it, make
haste and have it over quickly,” said Jo pettishly.
“I can't say anything
till he speaks, and he won't, because Father said I was too young,” began Meg,
bending over her work with a queer little smile, which suggested that she did
not quite agree with her father on that point.
“If he did speak, you
wouldn't know what to say, but would cry or blush, or let him have his own way,
instead of giving a good, decided no.”
“I'm not so silly and
weak as you think. I know just what I should say, for I've planned it all, so I
needn't be taken unawares. There's no knowing what may happen, and I wished to
be prepared.”
Jo couldn't help
smiling at the important air which Meg had unconsciously assumed and which was
as becoming as the pretty color varying in her cheeks.
“Would you mind telling
me what you'd say?” asked Jo more respectfully.
“Not at all. You are
sixteen now, quite old enough to be my confidente, and my experience will be
useful to you by-and-by, perhaps, in your own affairs of this sort.”
“Don't mean to have
any. It's fun to watch other people philander, but I should feel like a fool
doing it myself,” said Jo, looking alarmed at the thought.
“I think not, if you
liked anyone very much, and he liked you.” Meg spoke as if to herself, and
glanced out at the lane where she had often seen lovers walking together in the
summer twilight.
“I thought you were
going to tell your speech to that man,” said Jo, rudely shortening her sister's
little reverie.
“Oh, I should merely
say, quite calmly and decidedly, `Thank you, Mr. Brooke, you are very kind, but
I agree with Father that I am too young to enter into any engagement at
present, so please say no more, but let us be friends as we were.”
“Hum, that's stiff and
cool enough! I don't believe you'll ever say it, and I know he won't be
satisfied if you do. If he goes on like the rejected lovers in books, you'll
give in, rather than hurt his feelings.”
“No, I won't. I shall
tell him I've made up my mind, and shall walk out of the room with dignity.”
Meg rose as she spoke,
and was just going to rehearse the dignified exit, when a step in the hall made
her fly into her seat and begin to sew as fast as if her life depended on
finishing that particular seam in a given time. Jo smothered a laugh at the
sudden change, and when someone gave a modest tap, opened the door with a grim
aspect which was anything but hospitable.
“Good afternoon. I came
to get my umbrella, that is, to see how your father finds himself today,” said
Mr. Brooke, getting a trifle confused as his eyes went from one telltale face
to the other.
“It's very well, he's
in the rack. I'll get him, and tell it you are here.” And having jumbled her
father and the umbrella well together in her reply, Jo slipped out of the room
to give Meg a chance to make her speech and air her dignity. But the instant
she vanished, Meg began to sidle toward the door, murmuring . . .
“Mother will like to
see you. Pray sit down, I'll call her.”
“Don't go. Are you
afraid of me, Margaret?” And Mr. Brooke looked so hurt that Meg thought she
must have done something very rude. She blushed up to the little curls on her
forehead, for he had never called her Margaret before, and she was surprised to
find how natural and sweet it seemed to hear him say it. Anxious to appear friendly
and at her ease, she put out her hand with a confiding gesture, and said
gratefully . . .
“How can I be afraid
when you have been so kind to Father? I only wish I could thank you for it.”
“Shall I tell you how?”
asked Mr. Brooke, holding the small hand fast in both his own, and looking down
at Meg with so much love in the brown eyes that her heart began to flutter, and
she both longed to run away and to stop and listen.
“Oh no, please don't,
I'd rather not,” she said, trying to withdraw her hand, and looking frightened
in spite of her denial.
“I won't trouble you. I
only want to know if you care for me a little, Meg. I love you so much, dear,”
added Mr. Brooke tenderly.
This was the moment for
the calm, proper speech, but Meg didn't make it. She forgot every word of it,
hung her head, and answered, “I don't know,” so softly that John had to stoop
down to catch the foolish little reply.
He seemed to think it
was worth the trouble, for he smiled to himself as if quite satisfied, pressed
the plump hand gratefully, and said in his most persuasive tone, “Will you try
and find out? I want to know so much, for I can't go to work with any heart
until I learn whether I am to have my reward in the end or not.”
“I'm too young,”
faltered Meg, wondering was she was so fluttered, yet rather enjoying it.
“I'll wait, and in the
meantime, you could be learning to like me. Would it be a very hard lesson,
dear?”
“Not if I chose to
learn it, but . . .”
“Please choose to
learn, Meg. I love you to teach, and this is easier than German,” broke in
John, getting possession of the other hand, so that she had no way of hiding
her face as he bent to look into it.
His tone was properly
beseeching, but stealing a shy look at him, Meg saw that his eyes were merry as
well as tender, and that he wore the satisfied smile of one who had no doubt of
his success. This nettled her. Annie Moffat's foolish lessons in coquetry came
into her mind, and the love of power, which sleeps in the bosoms of the best of
little women, woke up all of a sudden and took possession of her. She felt
excited and strange, and not knowing what else to do, followed a capricious
impulse, and, withdrawing her hands, said petulantly, “I don't choose. Please
go away and let me be!”
Poor Mr. Brooke looked
as if his lovely castle in the air was tumbling about his ears, for he had
never seen Meg in such a mood before, and it rather bewildered him.
“Do you really mean
that?” he asked anxiously, following her as she walked away.
“Yes, I do. I don't
want to be worried about such things. Father says I needn't, it's too soon and
I'd rather not.”
“Mayn't I hope you'll
change your mind by-and-by? I'll wait and say nothing till you have had more
time. Don't play with me, Meg. I didn't think that of you.”
“Don't think of me at
all. I'd rather you wouldn't,” said Meg, taking a naughty satisfaction in
trying her lover's patience and her own power.
He was grave and pale
now, and looked decidedly more like the novel heroes whom she admired, but he
neither slapped his forehead nor tramped about the room as they did. He just
stood looking at her so wistfully, so tenderly, that she found her heart
relenting in spite of herself. What would have happened next I cannot say, if
Aunt March had not come hobbling in at this interesting minute.
The old lady couldn't
resist her longing to see her nephew, for she had met Laurie as she took her
airing, and hearing of Mr. March's arrival, drove straight out to see him. The
family were all busy in the back part of the house, and she had made her way
quietly in, hoping to surprise them. She did surprise two of them so much that
Meg started as if she had seen a ghost, and Mr. Brooke vanished into the study.
“Bless me, what's all
this?” cried the old lady with a rap of her cane as she glanced from the pale
young gentleman to the scarlet young lady.
“It's Father's friend.
I'm so surprised to see you!” stammered Meg, feeling that she was in for a
lecture now.
“That's evident,”
returned Aunt March, sitting down. “But what is Father's friend saying to make
you look like a peony? There's mischief going on, and I insist upon knowing
what it is,” with another rap.
“We were only talking.
Mr. Brooke came for his umbrella,” began Meg, wishing that Mr. Brooke and the
umbrella were safely out of the house.
“Brooke? That boy's
tutor? Ah! I understand now. I know all about it. Jo blundered into a wrong
message in one of your Father's letters, and I made her tell me. You haven't
gone and accepted him, child?” cried Aunt March, looking scandalized.
“Hush! He'll hear.
Shan't I call Mother?” said Meg, much troubled.
“Not yet. I've
something to say to you, and I must free my mind at once. Tell me, do you mean
to marry this Cook? If you do, not one penny of my money ever goes to you.
Remember that, and be a sensible girl,” said the old lady impressively.
Now Aunt March
possessed in perfection the art of rousing the spirit of opposition in the
gentlest people, and enjoyed doing it. The best of us have a spice of
perversity in us, especially when we are young and in love. If Aunt March had
begged Meg to accept John Brooke, she would probably have declared she couldn't
think of it, but as she was peremptorily ordered not to like him, she
immediately made up her mind that she would. Inclination as well as perversity
made the decision easy, and being already much excited, Meg opposed the old
lady with unusual spirit.
“I shall marry whom I
please, Aunt March, and you can leave your money to anyone you like,” she said,
nodding her head with a resolute air.
“Highty-tighty! Is that
the way you take my advice, Miss? You'll be sorry for it by-and-by, when you've
tried love in a cottage and found it a failure.”
“It can't be a worse
one than some people find in big houses,” retorted Meg.
Aunt March put on her
glasses and took a look at the girl, for she did not know her in this new mood.
Meg hardly knew herself, she felt so brave and independent, so glad to defend
John and assert her right to love him, if she liked. Aunt March saw that she had
begun wrong, and after a little pause, made a fresh start, saying as mildly as
she could, “Now, Meg, my dear, be reasonable and take my advice. I mean it
kindly, and don't want you to spoil your whole life by making a mistake at the
beginning. You ought to marry well and help your family. It's your duty to make
a rich match and it ought to be impressed upon you.”
“Father and Mother
don't think so. They like John though he is poor.”
“Your parents, my dear,
have no more worldly wisdom than a pair of babies.”
“I'm glad of it,” cried
Meg stoutly.
Aunt March took no
notice, but went on with her lecture. “This Rook is poor and hasn't got any
rich relations, has he?”
“No, but he has many
warm friends.”
“You can't live on
friends, try it and see how cool they'll grow. He hasn't any business, has he?”
“Not yet. Mr. Laurence
is going to help him.”
“That won't last long.
James Laurence is a crotchety old fellow and not to be depended on. So you
intend to marry a man without money, position, or business, and go on working
harder than you do now, when you might be comfortable all your days by minding
me and doing better? I thought you had more sense, Meg.”
“I couldn't do better
if I waited half my life! John is good and wise, he's got heaps of talent, he's
willing to work and sure to get on, he's so energetic and brave. Everyone likes
and respects him, and I'm proud to think he cares for me, though I'm so poor
and young and silly,” said Meg, looking prettier than ever in her earnestness.
“He knows you have got
rich relations, child. That's the secret of his liking, I suspect.”
“Aunt March, how dare
you say such a thing? John is above such meanness, and I won't listen to you a
minute if you talk so,” cried Meg indignantly, forgetting everything but the
injustice of the old lady's suspicions. “My John wouldn't marry for money, any
more than I would. We are willing to work and we mean to wait. I'm not afraid
of being poor, for I've been happy so far, and I know I shall be with him
because he loves me, and I . . .”
Meg stopped there,
remembering all of a sudden that she hadn't made up her mind, that she had told
`her John' to go away, and that he might be overhearing her inconsistent
remarks.
Aunt March was very
angry, for she had set her heart on having her pretty niece make a fine match,
and something in the girl's happy young face made the lonely old woman feel
both sad and sour.
“Well, I wash my hands
of the whole affair! You are a willful child, and you've lost more than you
know by this piece of folly. No, I won't stop. I'm disappointed in you, and
haven't spirits to see your father now. Don't expect anything from me when you
are married. Your Mr. Book's friends must take care of you. I'm done with you
forever.”
And slamming the door
in Meg's face, Aunt March drove off in high dudgeon. She seemed to take all the
girl's courage with her, for when left alone, Meg stood for a moment, undecided
whether to laugh or cry. Before she could make up her mind, she was taken
possession of by Mr. Brooke, who said all in one breath, “I couldn't help
hearing, Meg. Thank you for defending me, and Aunt March for proving that you
do care for me a little bit.”
“I didn't know how much
till she abused you,” began Meg.
“And I needn't go away,
but my stay and be happy, may I, dear?”
Here was another fine
chance to make the crushing speech and the stately exit, but Meg never thought
of doing either, and disgraced herself forever in Jo's eyes by meekly
whispering, “Yes, John,” and hiding her face on Mr. Brooke's waistcoat.
Fifteen minutes after
Aunt March's departure, Jo came softly downstairs, paused an instant at the
parlor door, and hearing no sound within, nodded and smiled with a satisfied
expression, saying to herself, “She has seen him away as we planned, and that
affair is settled. I'll go and hear the fun, and have a good laugh over it.”
But poor Jo never got
her laugh, for she was transfixed upon the threshold by a spectacle which held
her there, staring with her mouth nearly as wide open as her eyes. Going in to
exult over a fallen enemy and to praise a strong-minded sister for the
banishment of an objectionable lover, it certainly was a shock to behold the
aforesaid enemy serenely sitting on the sofa, with the strong-minded sister
enthroned upon his knee and wearing an expression of the most abject
submission. Jo gave a sort of gasp, as if a cold shower bath had suddenly
fallen upon her, for such an unexpected turning of the tables actually took her
breath away. At the odd sound the lovers turned and saw her. Meg jumped up,
looking both proud and shy, but `that man', as Jo called him, actually laughed
and said coolly, as he kissed the astonished newcomer, “Sister Jo, congratulate
us!”
That was adding insult
to injury, it was altogether too much, and making some wild demonstration with
her hands, Jo vanished without a word. Rushing upstairs, she startled the
invalids by exclaiming tragically as she burst into the room, “Oh, do somebody
go down quick! John Brooke is acting dreadfully, and Meg likes it!”
Mr. and Mrs. March left
the room with speed, and casting herself upon the be, Jo cried and scolded
tempestuously as she told the awful news to Beth and Amy. The little girls,
however, considered it a most agreeable and interesting event, and Jo got little
comfort from them, so she went up to her refuge in the garret, and confided her
troubles to the rats.
Nobody ever knew what
went on in the parlor that afternoon, but a great deal of talking was done, and
quiet Mr. Brooke astonished his friends by the eloquence and spirit with which
he pleaded his suit, told his plans, and persuaded them to arrange everything
just as he wanted it.
The tea bell rang
before he had finished describing the paradise which he meant to earn for Meg,
and he proudly took her in to supper, both looking so happy that Jo hadn't the
heart to be jealous or dismal. Amy was very much impressed by John's devotion
and Meg's dignity, Beth beamed at them from a distance, while Mr. and Mrs.
March surveyed the young couple with such tender satisfaction that it was
perfectly evident Aunt March was right in calling them as `unworldly as a pair
of babies'. No one ate much, but everyone looked very happy, and the old room
seemed to brighten up amazingly when the first romance of the family began there.
“You can't say nothing
pleasant ever happens now, can you, Meg?” said Amy, trying to decide how she
would group the lovers in a sketch she was planning to make.
“No, I'm sure I can't.
How much has happened since I said that! It seems a year ago,” answered Meg,
who was in a blissful dream lifted far above such common things as bread and
butter.
“The joys come close
upon the sorrows this time, and I rather think the changes have begun,” said
Mrs. March. “In most families there comes, now and then, a year full of events.
This has been such a one, but it ends well, after all.”
“Hope the next will end
better,” muttered Jo, who found it very hard to see Meg absorbed in a stranger
before her face, for Jo loved a few persons very dearly and dreaded to have
their affection lost or lessened in any way.
“I hope the third year
from this will end better. I mean it shall, if I live to work out my plans,”
said Mr. Brooke, smiling at Meg, as if everything had become possible to him
now.
“Doesn't it seem very
long to wait?” asked Amy, who was in a hurry for the wedding.
“I've got so much to
learn before I shall be ready, it seems a short time to me,” answered Meg, with
a sweet gravity in her face never seen there before.
“You have only to wait,
I am to do the work,” said John beginning his labors by picking up Meg's
napkin, with an expression which caused Jo to shake her head, and then say to
herself with an air of relief as the front door banged, “Here comes Laurie. Now
we shall have some sensible conversation.”
But Jo was mistaken,
for Laurie came prancing in, overflowing with good spirits, bearing a great
bridal-looking bouquet for `Mrs. John Brooke', and evidently laboring under the
delusion that the whole affair had been brought about by his excellent
management.
“I knew Brooke would
have it all his own way, he always does, for when he makes up his mind to
accomplish anything, it's done though the sky falls,” said Laurie, when he had
presented his offering and his congratulations.
“Much obliged for that
recommendation. I take it as a good omen for the future and invite you to my
wedding on the spot,” answered Mr. Brooke, who felt at peace with all mankind,
even his mischievous pupil.
“I'll come if I'm at
the ens of the earth, for the sight of Jo's face alone on that occasion would
be worth a long journey. You don't look festive, ma'am, what's the matter?”
asked Laurie, following her into a corner of the parlor, whither all had
adjourned to greet Mr. Laurence.
“I don't approve of the
match, but I've made up my mind to bear it, and shall not say a word against
it,” said Jo solemnly. “You can't know how hard it is for me to give up Meg,”
she continued with a little quiver in her voice.
“You don't give her up.
You only go halves,” said Laurie consolingly.
“It can never be the
same again. I've lost my dearest friend,” sighed Jo.
“You've got me, anyhow.
I'm not good for much, I know, but I'll stand by you, Jo, all the days of my
life. Upon my word I will!” And Laurie meant what he said.
“I know you will, and
I'm ever so much obliged. You are always a great comfort to me, Teddy,”
returned Jo, gratefully shaking hands.
“Well, now, don't be
dismal, there's a good fellow. It's all right you see. Meg is happy, Brooke
will fly round and get settled immediately, Grandpa will attend to him, and it
will be very jolly to see Meg in her own little house. We'll have capital times
after she is gone, for I shall be through college before long, and then we'll
go abroad on some nice trip or other. Wouldn't that console you?”
“I rather think it
would, but there's no knowing what may happen in three years,” said Jo
thoughtfully.
“That's true. Don't you
wish you could take a look forward and wee where we shall all be then? I do,”
returned Laurie.
“I think not, for I
might see something sad, and everyone looks so happy now, I don't believe they
could be much improved.” And Jo's eyes went slowly round the room, brightening
as they looked, for the prospect was a pleasant one.
Father and Mother sat
together, quietly reliving the first chapter of the romance which for them
began some twenty years ago. Amy was drawing the lovers,who sat apart in a
beautiful world of their own, the light of which touched their faces with a
grace the little artist could not copy. Beth lay on her sofa, talking cheerily
with her old friend, who held her little hand as if he felt that it possessed
the power to lead him along the peaceful way she walked. Jo lounged in her
favorite low seat, with the grave quiet look which best became her, and Laurie,
leaning on the back of her chair, his chin on a level with her curly head,
smiled with his friendliest aspect, and nodded at her in the long glass which
reflected them both.
So the curtain falls
upon Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy. Whether it ever rises again, depends upon the
reception give the first act of the domestic drama called LITTLE WOMEN.
In order that we may
start afresh and go to Meg's wedding with free minds, it will be well to begin
with a little gossip about the Marches. And here let me premise that if any of
the elders think there is too much `lovering' in the story, as I fear they may
(I'm not afraid the young folks will make that objection), I can only say with
Mrs. March, “What can you expect when I have four gay girls in the house, and a
dashing young neighbor over the way?”
The three years that
have passed have brought but few changes to the quiet family. The war is over,
and Mr. March safely at home,busy with his books and the small parish which found
in him a minister by nature as by grace, a quiet, studious man, rich in the
wisdom that is better than learning, the charity which calls all mankind
`brother', the piety that blossoms into character, making it august and lovely.
These attributes, in
spite of poverty and the strict integrity which shut him out from the more
worldly successes, attracted to him many admirable persons, as naturally as
sweet herbs draw bees, and as naturally he gave them the honey into which fifty
years of hard experience had distilled no bitter drop. Earnest young men found
the gray-headed scholar as young at heart as they, thoughtful or troubled women
instinctively brought their doubts to him, sure of finding the gentlest
sympathy, the wisest counsel. Sinners told their sins to the pure-hearted old
man and were both rebuked and saved. Gifted men found a companion in him.
Ambitious men caught glimpses of nobler ambitions than their own, and even
worldlings confessed that his beliefs were beautiful and true, although `they
wouldn't pay'.
To outsiders the five
energetic women seemed to rule the house, and so they did in many things, but
the quiet scholar, sitting among his books, was still the head of the family,
the household conscience, anchor, and comforter, for to him the busy, anxious
women always turned in troublous times, finding him, in the truest sense of
those sacred words, husband and father.
The girls gave their
hearts into their mother's keeping, their souls into their father's, and to
both parents, who lived and labored so faithfully for them, they gave a love
that grew with their growth and bound them tenderly together by the sweetest
tie which blesses life and outlives death.
Mrs. March is as brisk
and cheery, though rather grayer, than when we saw her last, and just now so
absorbed in Meg's affairs that the hospitals and homes still full of wounded
`boys' and soldiers' widows, decidedly miss the motherly missionary's visits.
John Brooke did his
duty manfully for a year, got wounded, was sent home, and not allowed to
return. He received no stars or bars, but he deserved them, for he cheerfully
risked all he had, and life and love are very precious when both are in full
bloom. Perfectly resigned to his discharge, he devoted himself to getting well,
preparing for business, and earning a home for Meg. With the good sense and
sturdy independence that characterized him, he refused Mr. Laurence's more
generous offers, and accepted the place of book-keeper, feeling better
satisfied to begin with an honestly earned salary than by running any risks
with borrowed money.
Meg had spent the time
in working as well as waiting, growing womanly in character, wise in
housewifely arts, and prettier than ever, for love is a great beautifier. She
had her girlish ambitions and hopes, and felt some disappointment at the humble
way in which the new life must begin. Ned Moffat had just married Sallie
Gardiner, and Meg couldn't help contrasting their fine house and carriage, many
gifts, and splendid outfit with her own, and secretly wishing she could have
the same. But somehow envy and discontent soon vanished when she thought of all
the patient love and labor John had put into the little home awaiting her, and
when they sat together in the twilight, talking over their small plans, the
future always grew so beautiful and bright that she forgot Sallie's splendor
and felt herself the richest, happiest girl in Christendom.
Jo never went back to
Aunt March, for the old lady took such a fancy to Amy that she bribed her with
the offer of drawing lessons from one of the best teachers going, and for the
sake of this advantage, Amy would have served a far harder mistress. So she
gave her mornings to duty, her afternoons to pleasure, and prospered finely. Jo
meantime devoted herself to literature and Beth, who remained delicate long
after the fever was a thing of the past. Not an invalid exactly, but never
again the rosy, healthy creature she had been, yet always hopeful, happy, and
serene, and busy with the quiet duties she loved, everyone's friend, and an
angel in the house, long before those who loved her most had learned to know
it.
As long as THE SPREAD
EAGLE paid her a dollar a column for her `rubbish', as she called it, Jo felt
herself a woman of means, and spun her little romances diligently. But great
plans fermented in her busy brain and ambitious mind, and the old tin kitchen
in the garret held a slowly increasing pile of blotted manuscript, which was
one day to place the name of March upon the roll of fame.
Laurie, having dutifully
gone to college to please his grandfather, was now getting through it in the
easiest possible manner to please himself. A universal favorite, thanks to
money, manners, much talent, and the kindest heart that ever got its owner into
scrapes by trying to get other people out of them, he stood in great danger of
being spoiled, and probably would have been, like many another promising boy,
if he had not possessed a talisman against evil in the memory of the kind old
man who was bound up in his success, the motherly friend who watched over him
as if he were her son, and last, but not least by any means, the knowledge that
four innocent girls loved, admired, and believed in him with all their hearts.
Being only `a glorious
human boy', of course he frolicked and flirted, grew dandified, aquatic,
sentimental, or gymnastic, as college fashions ordained, hazed and was hazed,
talked slang, and more than once came perilously near suspension and expulsion.
But as high spirits and the love of fun were the causes of these pranks, he
always managed to save himself by frank confession, honorable atonement, or the
irresistible power of persuasion which he possessed in perfection. In fact, he
rather prided himself on his narrow escapes, and liked to thrill the girls with
graphic accounts of his triumphs over wrathful tutors, dignified professors,
and vanquished enemies. The `men of my class', were heroes in the eyes of the
girls, who never wearied of the exploits of `our fellows', and were frequently
allowed to bask in the smiles of these great creatures, when Laurie brought
them home with him.
Amy especially enjoyed
this high honor, and became quite a belle among them, for her ladyship early
felt and learned to use the gift of fascination with which she was endowed. Meg
was too much absorbed in her private and particular John to care for any other
lords of creation, and Beth too shy to do more than peep at them and wonder how
Amy dared to order them about so, but Jo felt quite in her own element, and
found it very difficult to refrain from imitating the gentlemanly attitudes,
phrases, and feats, which seemed more natural to her than the decorums
prescribed for young ladies. They all liked Jo immensely, but never fell in
love with her, though very few escaped without paying the tribute of a
sentimental sigh or two at Amy's shrine. And speaking of sentiment brings us
very naturally to the `Dovecote'.
That was the name of
the little brown house Mr. Brooke had prepared for Meg's first home. Laurie had
christened it, saying it was highly appropriate to the gentle lovers who `went
on together like a pair of turtledoves, with first a bill and then a coo'. It
was a tiny house, with a little garden behind and a lawn about as big as a
pocket handkerchief in the front. Here Meg meant to have a fountain, shrubbery,
and a profusion of lovely flowers, though just at present the fountain was
represented by a weather-beaten urn, very like a dilapidated slopbowl, the
shrubbery consisted of several young larches, undecided whether to live or die,
and the profusion of flowers was merely hinted by regiments of sticks to show
where seeds were planted. But inside, it was altogether charming, and the happy
bride saw no fault from garret to cellar. To be sure, the hall was so narrow it
was fortunate that they had no piano, for one never could have been got in
whole, the dining room was so small that six people were a tight fit, and the
kitchen stairs seemed built for the express purpose of precipitating both
servants and china pell-mell into the coalbin. But once get used to these
slight blemishes and nothing could be more complete, for good sense and good
taste had presided over the furnishing, and the result was highly satisfactory.
There were no marble-topped tables, long mirrors, or lace curtains in the
little parlor, but simple furniture, plenty of books, a fine picture or two, a
stand of flowers in the bay window, and, scattered all about, the pretty gifts
which came from friendly hands and were the fairer for the loving messages they
brought.
I don't think the
Parian Psyche Laurie gave lost any of its beauty because John put up the
bracket it stood upon, that any upholsterer could have draped the plain muslin
curtains more gracefully than Amy's artistic hand, or that any store-room was
ever better provided with good wishes, merry words, and happy hopes than that
in which Jo and her mother put away Meg's few boxes, barrels, and bundles, and
I am morally certain that the spandy new kitchen never could have looked so
cozy and neat if Hannah had not arranged every pot and pan a dozen times over,
and laid the fire all ready for lighting the minute `Mis. Brooke came home'. I
also doubt if any young matron ever began life with so rich a supply of
dusters, holders, and piece bags, for Beth made enough to last till the silver
wedding came round, and invented three different kinds of dishcloths for the
express service of the bridal china.
People who hire all
these things done for them never know what they lose, for the homeliest tasks
get beautified if loving hands do them, and Meg found so many proofs of this
that everything in her small nest, from the kitchen roller to the silver vase
on her parlor table, was eloquent of home love and tender forethought.
What happy times they
had planning together, what solemn shopping excursions, what funny mistakes
they made, and what shouts of laughter arose over Laurie's ridiculous bargains.
In his love of jokes, this young gentleman, though nearly through college, was
a much of a boy as ever. His last whim had been to bring with him on his weekly
visits some new, useful, and ingenious article for the young housekeeper. Now a
bag of remarkable clothes-pins, next, a wonderful nutmeg grater which fell to
pieces at the first trial, a knife cleaner that spoiled all the knives, or a
sweeper that picked the nap neatly off the carpet and left the dirt,
labor-saving soap that took the skin off one's hands, infallible cements which
stuck firmly to nothing but the fingers of the deluded buyer, and every kind of
tinware, from a toy savings bank for odd pennies, to a wonderful boiler which
would wash articles in its own steam with every prospect of exploding in the
process.
In vain Meg begged him
to stop. John laughed at him, and Jo called him `Mr. Toodles'. He was possessed
with a mania for patronizing Yankee ingenuity, and seeing his friends fitly
furnished forth. So each week beheld some fresh absurdity.
Everything was done at
last, even to Amy's arranging different colored soaps to match the different
colored rooms, and Beth's setting the table for the first meal.
“Are you satisfied?
Does it seem like home, and do you feel as if you should be happy here?” asked
Mrs. March, as she and her daughter went through the new kingdom arm in arm,
for just then they seemed to cling together more tenderly than ever.
“Yes, Mother, perfectly
satisfied, thanks to you all, and so happy that I can't talk about it,” with a
look that was far better than words.
“If she only had a
servant or two it would be all right,” said Amy, coming out of the parlor,
where she had been trying to decide whether the bronze Mercury looked best on
the whatnot or the mantle-piece.
“Mother and I have
talked that over, and I have made up my mind to try her way first. There will
be so little to do that with Lotty to run my errands and help me here and
there, I shall only have enough work to keep me from getting lazy or homesick,”
answered Meg tranquilly.
“Sallie Moffat has
four,” began Amy.
“If Meg had four, the
house wouldn't hold them, and master and missis would have to camp in the
garden,” broke in Jo, who, enveloped in a big blue pinafore, was giving the
last polish to the door handles.
“Sallie isn't a poor
man's wife, and many maids are in keeping with her fine establishment. Meg and
John begin humbly, but I have a feeling that there will be quite as much
happiness in the little house as in the big one. It's a great mistake for young
girls like Meg to leave themselves nothing to do but dress, give orders, and
gossip. When I was first married, I used to long for my new clothes to wear out
or get torn, so that i might have the pleasure of mending them, for I got
heartily sick of doing fancywork and tending my pocket handkerchief.”
“Why didn't you go into
the kitchen and make messes, as Sallie says she does to amuse herself, though
they never turn out well and the servants laugh at her,” said Meg.
“I did after a while,
not to `mess' but to learn of Hannah how things should be done, that my
servants need not laugh at me. It was play then, but there came a time when I
was truly grateful that I not only possessed the will but the power to cook
wholesome food for my little girls, and help myself when I could no longer
afford to hire help. You begin at the other end, Meg, dear, but the lessons you
learn now will be of use to you by-and-by when John is a richer man, for the
mistress of a house, however splendid, should know how work ought to be done,
if she wishes to be well and honestly served.”
“Yes, Mother, I'm sure
of that,” said Meg, listening respectfully to the little lecture, for the best
of women will hold forth upon the all absorbing subject of house keeping. “Do
you know I like this room most of all in my baby house,” added Meg, a minute
after, as they went upstairs and she looked into her well-stored linen closet.
Beth was there, laying
the snowy piles smoothly on the shelves and exulting over the goodly array. All
three laughed as Meg spoke, for that linen closet was a joke. You see, having
said that if Meg married `that Brooke' she shouldn't have a cent of her money,
Aunt March was rather in a quandary when time had appeased her wrath and made
her repent her vow. She never broke her word, and was much exercised in her
mind how to get round it, and at last devised a plan whereby she could satisfy
herself. Mrs. Carrol, Florence's mamma, was ordered to buy, have made, and
marked a generous supply of house and table linen, and send it as her present,
all of which was faithfully done, but the secret leaked out, and was greatly
enjoyed by the family, for Aunt March tried to look utterly unconscious, and
insisted that she could give nothing but the old-fashioned pearls long promised
to the first bride.
“That's a housewifely
taste which I am glad to see. I had a young friend who set up housekeeping with
six sheets, but she had finger bowls for company and that satisfied her,” said
Mrs. March, patting the damask tablecloths, with a truly feminine appreciation
of their fineness.
“I haven't a single
finger bowl, but this is a setout that will last me all my days, Hannah says.”
And Meg looked quite contented, as well she might.
A tall,
broad-shouldered young fellow, with a cropped head, a felt basin of a hat, and
a flyaway coat, came tramping down the road at a great pace, walked over the
low fence without stopping to open the gate, straight up to Mrs. March, with
both hands out and a hearty . ..
“Here I am, Mother!
Yes, it's all right.”
The last words were in
answer to the look the elder lady gave him, a kindly questioning look which the
handsome eyes met so frankly that the little ceremony closed, as usual, with a
motherly kiss.
“For Mrs. John Brooke,
with the maker's congratulations and compliments. Bless you, Beth! What a
refreshing spectacle you are, Jo. Amy, you are getting altogether too handsome
for a single lady.”
As Laurie spoke, he
delivered a brown paper parcel to Meg, pilled Beth's hair ribbon, stared at
Jo's bib pinafore, and fell into an attitude of mock rapture before Amy, then
shook hands all round, and everyone began to talk.
“Where is John?” asked
Meg anxiously.
“Stopped to get the
license for tomorrow, ma'am.”
“Which side won the
last match, Teddy?” inquired Jo, who persisted in feeling an interest in manly
sports despite her nineteen years.
“Ours, of course. Wish
you'd been there to see.”
“How is the lovely Miss
Randal?” asked Amy with a significant smile.
“More cruel than ever.
Don't you see how I'm pining away?” And Laurie gave his broad chest a sounding
slap and heaved a melodramatic sigh.
“What's the last joke?
Undo the bundle and see, Meg,” said Beth, eyeing the knobby parcel with
curiosity.
“It's a useful thing to
have in the house in case of fire or thieves,” observed Laurie, as a watchman's
rattle appeared, amid the laughter of the girls.
“Any time when John is
away and you get frightened, Mrs. Meg, just swing that out of the front window,
and it will rouse the neighborhood in a jiffy. Nice thing, isn't it?” And
Laurie gave them a sample of its powers that made them cover up their ears.
“There's gratitude for
you! And speaking of gratitude reminds me to mention that you may thank Hannah
for saving your wedding cake from destruction. I saw it going into your house
as I came by, and if she hadn't defended it manfully I'd have had a pick at it,
for it looked like a remarkably plummy one.”
“I wonder if you will
ever grow up, Laurie,” said Meg in a matronly tone.
“I'm doing my best,
ma'am, but can't get much higher, I'm afraid, as six feet is about all men can
do in these degenerate days,” responded the young gentleman, whose head was
about level with the little chandelier.
“I suppose it would be
profanation to eat anything in this spick-and-span bower, so as I'm
tremendously hungry, I propose an adjournment,” he added presently.
“Mother and I are going
to wait for John. There are some last things to settle,” said Meg, bustling
away.
“Beth and I are going
over to Kitty Bryant's to get more flowers for tomorrow,” added Amy, tying a
picturesque hat over her picturesque curls, and enjoying the effect as much as
anybody.
“Come, Jo, don't desert
a fellow. I'm in such a state of exhaustion I can't get home without help.
Don't take off your apron, whatever you do, it's peculiarly becoming,” said
Laurie, as Jo bestowed his especial aversion in her capacious pocket and
offered her arm to support his feeble steps.
“Now, Teddy, I want to
talk seriously to you about tomorrow,” began Jo, as they strolled away
together. “You must promise to behave well, and not cut up any pranks, and
spoil our plans.”
“Not a prank.”
“And don't say funny
things when we ought to be sober.”
“I never do. You are
the one for that.”
“And I implore you not
to look at me during the ceremony. I shall certainly laugh if you do.”
“You won't see me,
you'll be crying so hard that the thick fog round you will obscure the
prospect.”
“I never cry unless for
some great affliction.”
“Such as fellows going
to college, hey?” cut in Laurie, with suggestive laugh.
“Don't be a peacock. I
only moaned a trifle to keep the girls company.”
“Exactly. I say, Jo,
how is Grandpa this week? Pretty amiable?”
“Very. Why, have you
got into a scrape and want to know how he'll take it?” asked Jo rather sharply.
“Now, Jo, do you think
I'd look your mother in the face and say `All right', if it wasn't?” And Laurie
stopped short, with an injured air.
“No, I don't.”
“Then don't go and be
suspicious. I only want some money,” said Laurie, walking on again, appeased by
her hearty tone.
“You spend a great
deal, Teddy.”
“Bless you, I don't
spend it, it spends itself somehow, and is gone before I know it.”
“You are so generous
and kind-hearted that you let people borrow, and can't say `No' to anyone. We
heard about Henshaw and all you did for him. If you always spent money in that
way, no one would blame you,” said Jo warmly.
“Oh, he made a mountain
out of a molehill. You wouldn't have me let that fine fellow work himself to
death just for want of a little help, when he is worth a dozen of us lazy
chaps, would you?”
“Of course not, but I
don't see the use of your having seventeen waistcoats, endless neckties, and a
new hat every time you come home. I thought you'd got over the dandy period,
but every now and then it breaks out in a new spot. Just now it's the fashion
to be hideous, to make your head look like a scrubbing brush, wear a strait
jacket, orange gloves, and clumping square-toed boots. If it was cheap
ugliness, I'd say nothing, but it costs as much as the other, and I don't get
any satisfaction out of it.”
Laurie threw back his
head, and laughed so heartily at this attack, that the felt hat fell off, and
Jo walked on it, which insult only afforded him an opportunity for expatiating
on the advantages of a rough-and-ready costume, as he folded up the maltreated
hat, and stuffed it into his pocket.
“Don't lecture any
more, there's a good soul! I have enough all through the week, and like to
enjoy myself when I come home. I'll get myself up regardless of expense
tomorrow and be a satisfaction to my friends.”
“I'll leave you in
peace if you'll only let your hair grow. I'm not aristocratic, but I do object
to being seen with a person who looks like a young prize fighter,” observed Jo
severely.
“This unassuming style
promotes study, that's why we adopt it,” returned Laurie, who certainly could not
be accused of vanity, having voluntarily sacrificed a handsome curly crop to
the demand for quarter-inch-long stubble.
“By the way, Jo, I
think that little Parker is really getting desperate about Amy. He talks of her
constantly, writes poetry, and moons about in a most suspicious manner. He'd
better nip his little passion in the bud, hadn't he?” added Laurie, in a
confidential, elder brotherly tone, after a minute's silence.
“Of course he had. We
don't want any more marrying in this family for years to come. Mercy on us,
what are the children thinking of?” And Jo looked as much scandalized as if Amy
and little Parker were not yet in their teens.
“It's a fast age, and I
don't know what we are coming to, ma'am. You are a mere infant, but you'll go next,
Jo, and we'll be left lamenting,” said Laurie, shaking his head over the
degeneracy of the times.
“Don't be alarmed. I'm
not one of the agreeable sort. Nobody will want me, and it's a mercy, for there
should always be one old maid in a family.”
“You won't give anyone
a chance,” said Laurie, with a sidelong glance and a little more color than
before in his sunburned face. “You won't show the soft side of your character,
and if a fellow gets a peep at it by accident and can't help showing that he
likes it, you treat him as Mrs. Gummidge did her sweetheart, throw cold water
over him, and get so thorny no one dares touch or look at you.”
“I don't like that sort
of thing. I'm too busy to be worried with nonsense, and I think it's dreadful
to break up families so. Now don't say any more about it. Meg's wedding has
turned all our heads, and we talk of nothing but lovers and such absurdities. I
don't wish to get cross, so let's change the subject.” And Jo looked quite
ready to fling cold water on the slightest provocation.
Whatever his feelings
might have been, Laurie found a vent for them in a long low whistle and the
fearful prediction as they parted at the gate, “Mark my words, Jo, you'll go
next.”
The June roses over the
porch were awake bright and early on that morning, rejoicing with all their
hearts in the cloudless sunshine, like friendly little neighbors, as they were.
Quite flushed with excitement were their ruddy faces, as they swung in the
wind, whispering to one another what they had seen, for some peeped in at the
dining room windows where the feast was spread, some climbed up to nod and
smile at the sisters as they dressed the bride, others waved a welcome to those
who came and went on various errands in garden, porch, and hall, and all, from
the rosiest full-blown flower to the palest baby bud, offered their tribute of
beauty and fragrance to the gentle mistress who had loved and tended them so
long.
Meg looked very like a
rose herself, for all that was best and sweetest in heart and soul seemed to
bloom into her face that day, making it fair and tender, with a charm more
beautiful than beauty. Neither silk, lace, nor orange flowers would she have. “I
don't want a fashionable wedding, but only those about me whom I love, and to
them I wish to look and be my familiar self.”
So she made her wedding
gown herself, sewing into it the tender hopes and innocent romances of a
girlish heart. her sisters braided up her pretty hair, and the only ornaments
she wore were the lilies of the valley, which `her John' liked best of all the
flowers that grew.
“You do look just like
our own dear Meg, only so very sweet and lovely that I should hug you if it
wouldn't crumple your dress,” cried Amy, surveying her with delight when all
was done.
“Then I am satisfied.
But please hug and kiss me, everyone, and don't mind my dress. I want a great
many crumples of this sort put into it today.” And Meg opened her arms to her
sisters, who clung about her with April faces for a minute, feeling that the
new love had not changed the old.
“Now I'm going to tie
John's cravat for him, and then to stay a few minutes with Father quietly in
the study.” And Meg ran down to perform these little ceremonies, and then to
follow her mother wherever she went, conscious that in spite of the smiles on
the motherly face, there was a secret sorrow hid in the motherly heart at the
flight of the first bird from the nest.
As the younger girls
stand together, giving the last touches to their simple toilet, it may be a
good time to tell of a few changes which three years have wrought in their
appearance, for all are looking their best just now.
Jo's angles are much
softened, she has learned to carry herself with ease, if not grace. The curly
crop has lengthened into a thick coil, more becoming to the small head atop of
the tall figure. There is a fresh color in her brown cheeks, a soft shine in
her eyes, and only gentle words fall from her sharp tongue today.
Beth has grown slender,
pale, and more quiet than ever. The beautiful, kind eyes are larger, and in
them lies an expression that saddens one, although it is not sad itself. It is
the shadow of pain which touches the young face with such pathetic patience,
but Beth seldom complains and always speaks hopefully of `being better soon'.
Amy is with truth
considered `the flower of the family', for at sixteen she has the air and
bearing of a full-grown woman, not beautiful, but possessed of that
indescribable charm called grace. One saw it in the lines of her figure, the
make and motion of her hands, the flow of her dress, the droop of her hair,
unconscious yet harmonious, and as attractive to many as beauty itself. Amy's
nose still afflicted her, for it never would grow Grecian, so did her mouth,
being too wide, and having a decided chin. These offending features gave
character to her whole face, but she never could see it, and consoled herself
with her wonderfully fair complexion, keen blue eyes, and curls more golden and
abundant than ever.
All three wore suits of
thin silver gray (their best gowns for the summer), with blush roses in hair
and bosom, and all three looked just what they were, fresh-faced, happy-hearted
girls, pausing a moment in their busy lives to read with wistful eyes the
sweetest chapter in the romance of womanhood.
There were to be no
ceremonious performances, everything was to be as natural and homelike as
possible, so when Aunt March arrived, she was scandalized to see the bride come
running to welcome and lead her in, to find the bridegroom fastening up a
garland that had fallen down, and to catch a glimpse of the paternal minister
marching upstairs with a grave countenance and a wine bottle under each arm.
“Upon my word, here's a
state of things!” cried the old lady, taking the seat of honor prepared for
her, and settling the folds of her lavender moire with a great rustle. “You
oughtn't to be seen till the last minute, child.”
“I'm not a show, Aunty,
and no one is coming to stare at me, to criticize my dress, or count the cost
of my luncheon. I'm too happy to care what anyone says or thinks, and I'm going
to have my little wedding just as I like it. John, dear, here's your hammer.”
And away went Meg to help `that man' in his highly improper employment.
Mr. Brooke didn't even
say, “Thank you,” but as he stooped for the unromantic tool, he kissed his
little bride behind the folding door, with a look that made Aunt March whisk
out her pocket handkerchief with a sudden dew in her sharp old eyes.
A crash, a cry, and a
laugh from Laurie, accompanied by the indecorous exclamation, “Jupiter Ammon!
Jo's upset the cake again!” caused a momentary flurry, which was hardly over
when a flock of cousins arrived, and `the party came in', as Beth used to say
when a child.
“Don't let that young
giant come near me, he worries me worse than mosquitoes,” whispered the old
lady to Amy, as the rooms filled and Laurie's black head towered above the
rest.
“He has promised to be
very good today, and he can be perfectly elegant if he likes,” returned Amy,
and gliding away to warn Hercules to beware of the dragon, which warning caused
him to haunt the old lady with a devotion that nearly distracted her.
There was no bridal
procession, but a sudden silence fell upon the room as Mr. March and the young
couple took their places under the green arch. Mother and sisters gathered
close, as if loath to give Meg up. The fatherly voice broke more than once,
which only seemed to make the service more beautiful and solemn. The
bridegroom's hand trembled visibly, and no one heard his replies. But Meg
looked straight up in her husband's eyes, and said, “I will!” with such tender
trust in her own face and voice that her mother's heart rejoiced and Aunt March
sniffed audibly.
Jo did not cry, though
she was very near it once, and was only saved from a demonstration by the
consciousness that Laurie was staring fixedly at her, with a comical mixture of
merriment and emotion in his wicked black eyes. Beth kept her face hidden on
her mother's shoulder, but Amy stood like a graceful statue, with a most
becoming ray of sunshine touching her white forehead and the flower in her
hair.
It wasn't at all the
thing, I'm afraid,but the minute she was fairly married, Meg cried, “The first
kiss for Marmee!” and turning, gave it with her heart on her lips. During the
next fifteen minutes she looked more like a rose than ever, for everyone
availed themselves of their privileges to the fullest extent, from Mr. Laurence
to old Hannah, who, adorned with a headdress fearfully and wonderfully made, fell
upon her in the hall, crying with a sob and a chuckle, “Bless you, deary, a
hundred times! The cake ain't hurt a mite, and everything looks lovely.”
Everybody cleared up
after that, and said something brilliant, or tried to, which did just as well, for
laughter is ready when hearts are light. There was no display of gifts, for
they were already in the little house, nor was there an elaborate breakfast,
but a plentiful lunch of cake and fruit, dressed with flowers. Mr. Laurence and
Aunt March shrugged and smiled at one another when water, lemonade, and coffee
were found to be to only sorts of nectar which the three Hebes carried around.
No one said anything, till Laurie, who insisted on serving the bride, appeared
before her, with a loaded salver in his hand and a puzzled expression on his
face.
“Has Jo smashed all the
bottles by accident?” he whispered, “or am I merely laboring under a delusion
that I saw some lying about loose this morning?”
“No, your grandfather
kindly offered us his best, and Aunt March actually sent some, but Father put
away a little for Beth, and dispatched the rest to the Soldier's Home. You know
he thinks that wine should be used only in illness, and Mother says that
neither she nor her daughters will ever offer it to any young man under her
roof.”
Meg spoke seriously and
expected to see Laurie frown or laugh, but he did neither, for after a quick
look at her, he said, in his impetuous way, “I like that! For I've seen enough
harm done to wish other women would think as you do.”
“You are not made wise
by experience, I hope?” And there was an anxious accent in Meg's voice.
“No. I give you my word
for it. Don't think too well of me, either, this is not one of my temptations.
Being brought up where wine is as common as water and almost as harmless, I
don't care for it, but when a pretty girl offers it, one doesn't like to
refuse, you see.”
“But you will, for the
sake of others, if not for your own. Come, Laurie, promise, and give me one
more reason to call this the happiest day of my life.”
A demand so sudden and
so serious made the young man hesitate a moment, for ridicule is often harder
to bear than self-denial. Meg knew that if he gave the promise he would keep it
at all costs, and feeling her power, used it as a woman may for her friend's
good. She did not speak, but she looked up at him with a face made very
eloquent by happiness, and a smile which said, “No one can refuse me anything
today.”
Laurie certainly could
not, and with an answering smile, he gave her his hand, saying heartily, “I
promise, Mrs. Brooke!”
“I thank you, very,
very much.”
“And I drink `long life
to your resolution', Teddy,” cried Jo, baptizing him with a splash of lemonade,
as she waved her glass and beamed approvingly upon him.
So the toast was drunk,
the pledge made and loyally kept in spite of many temptations, for with
instinctive wisdom, the girls seized a happy moment to do their friend a
service, for which he thanked them all his life.
After lunch, people
strolled about, by twos and threes, through the house and garden, enjoying the
sunshine without and within. Meg and John happened to be standing together in
the middle of the grass plot, when Laurie was seized with an inspiration which
put the finishing touch to this unfashionable wedding.
“All the married people
take hands and dance round the new-made husband and wife, as the Germans do,
while we bachelors and spinsters prance in couples outside!” cried Laurie,
promenading down the path with Amy, with such infectious spirit and skill that
everyone else followed their example without a murmur. Mr. and Mrs. March, Aunt
and Uncle Carrol began it, others rapidly joined in, even Sallie Moffat, after
a moment's hesitation, threw her train over her arm and whisked Ned into the
ring. But the crowning joke was Mr. Laurence and Aunt March, for when the
stately old gentleman chass'ed solemnly up to the old lady, she just tucked her
cane under arm, and hopped briskly away to join hands with the rest and dance
about the bridal pair, while the young folks pervaded the garden like
butterflies on a midsummer day.
Want of breath brought
the impromptu ball to a close, and then people began to go.
“I wish you well, my
dear, I heartily wish you well, but I think you'll be sorry for it,” said Aunt
March to Meg, adding to the bridegroom, as he led her to the carriage, “You've
got a treasure, young man, see that you deserve it.”
“That is the prettiest
wedding I've been to for an age, Ned, and I don't see why, for there wasn't a
bit of style about it,” observed Mrs. Moffat to her husband, as they drove
away.
“Laurie, my lad, if you
ever want to indulge in this sort of thing, get one of those little girls to
help you, and I shall be perfectly satisfied,” said Mr. Laurence, settling
himself in his easy chair to rest after the excitement of the morning.
“I'll do my best to
gratify you, Sir,” was Laurie's unusually dutiful reply, as he carefully
unpinned the posy Jo had put in his buttonhole.
The little house was
not far away, and the only bridal journey Meg had was the quiet walk with John
from the old home to the new. When she came down, looking like a pretty
Quakeress in her dove-colored suit and straw bonnet tied with white, they all
gathered about her to say goodby, as tenderly as if she had been going to make
the grand tour.
“Don't feel that I am
separated from you, Marmee dear, or that I love you any the less for loving
John so much,” she said, clinging to her mother, with full eyes for a moment. “I
shall come every day, Father, and expect to keep my old place in all your
hearts, though I am married. Beth is going to be with me a great deal, and the
other girls will drop in now and then to laugh at my housekeeping struggles.
Thank you all for my happy wedding day. Goodby, goodby!”
They stood watching
her, with faces full of love and hope and tender pride as she walked away,
leaning on her husband's arm, with her hands full of flowers and the June
sunshine brightening her happy face--and so Meg's married life began.
It takes people a long
time to learn the difference between talent and genius, especially ambitious
young men and women. Amy was learning this distinction through much
tribulation, for mistaking enthusiasm for inspiration, she attempted every
branch of art with youthful audacity. For a long time there was a lull in the
`mud-pie' business, and she devoted herself to the finest pen-and-ink drawing,
in which she showed such taste and skill that her graceful handiwork proved
both pleasant and profitable. But over-strained eyes caused pen and ink to be
laid aside for a bold attempt at poker sketching.
While this attack
lasted, the family lived in constant fear of a conflagration, for the odor of
burning wood pervaded the house at all hours, smoke issued from attic and shed
with alarming frequency, red-hot pokers lay about promiscuously, and Hannah
never went to bed without a pail of water and the dinner bell at her door in
case of fire. Raphael's face was found boldly executed on the underside of the
moulding board, and Bacchus on the head of a beer barrel. A chanting cherub
adorned the cover of the sugar bucket, and attempts to portray Romeo and Juliet
supplied kindling for some time.
From fire to oil was a
natural transition for burned fingers, and Amy fell to painting with
undiminished ardor. An artist friend fitted her out with his castoff palettes,
brushes, and colors, and she daubed away, producing pastoral and marine views
such as were never seen on land or sea. Her monstrosities in the way of cattle
would have taken prizes at an agricultural fair, and the perilous pitching of
her vessels would have produced seasickness in the most nautical observer, if
the utter disregard to all known rules of shipbuilding and rigging had not
convulsed him with laughter at the first glance. Swarthy boys and dark-eyed
Madonnas, staring at you from one corner of the studio, suggested Murillo. Oily
brown shadows of faces with a lurid streak in the wrong place, meant Rembrandt.
Buxom ladies and dropiscal infants, Rubens, and Turner appeared in tempests of
blue thunder, orange lightning, brown rain, and purple clouds, with a
tomato-colored splash in the middle, which might be the sun or a buoy, a
sailor's shirt or a king's robe, as the spectator pleased.
Charcoal portraits came
next, and the entire family hung in a row, looking as wild and crocky as if
just evoked from a coalbin. Softened into crayon sketches, they did better, for
the likenesses were good, and Amy's hair, Jo's nose, Meg's mouth, and Laurie's
eyes were pronounced `wonderfully fine'. A return to clay and plaster followed,
and ghostly casts of her acquaintances haunted corners of the house, or tumbled
off closet shelves onto people's heads. Children were enticed in as models,
till their incoherent accounts of her mysterious doings caused Miss Amy to be
regarded in the light of a young ogress. Her efforts in this line, however,
were brought to an abrupt close by an untoward accident, which quenched her
ardor. Other models failing her for a time, she undertook to cast her own pretty
foot, and the family were one day alarmed by an unearthly bumping and screaming
and running to the rescue, found the young enthusiast hopping wildly about the
shed with her foot held fast in a pan full of plaster, which had hardened with
unexpected rapidity. With much difficulty and some danger she was dug out, for
Jo was so overcome with laughter while she excavated that her knife went too
far, cut the poor foot, and left a lasting memorial of one artistic attempt, at
least.
After this Amy subsided,
till a mania for sketching from nature set her to haunting river, field, and
wood, for picturesque studies, and sighing for ruins to copy. She caught
endless colds sitting on damp grass to book `delicious bit', composed of a
stone, a stump, one mushroom, and a broken mullein stalk, or `a heavenly mass
of clouds', that looked like a choice display of featherbeds when done. She
sacrificed her complexion floating on the river in the midsummer sun to study
light and shade, and got a wrinkle over her nose trying after `points of
sight', or whatever the squint-and-string performance is called.
If `genius is eternal
patience', as Michelangelo affirms, Amy had some claim to the divine attribute,
for she persevered in spite of all obstacles, failures, and discouragements,
firmly believing that in time she should do something worthy to be called `high
art'.
She was learning,
doing, and enjoying other things, meanwhile, for she had resolved to be an
attractive and accomplished woman, even if she never became a great artist.
Here she succeeded better, for she was one of those happily created beings who
please without effort, make friends everywhere, and take life so gracefully and
easily that less fortunate souls are tempted to believe that such are born
under a lucky star. Everybody liked her, for among her good gifts was tact. She
had an instinctive sense of what was pleasing and proper, always said the right
thing to the right person, did just what suited the time and place, and was so
self-possessed that her sisters used to say, “If Amy went to court without any
rehearsal beforehand, she'd know exactly what to do.”
One of her weaknesses
was a desire to move in `our best society', without being quite sure what the
best really was. Money, position, fashionable accomplishments, and elegant
manners were most desirable things in her eyes, and she liked to associate with
those who possessed them, often mistaking the false for the true, and admiring
what was not admirable. Never forgetting that by birth she was a gentlewoman,
she cultivated her aristocratic tastes and feelings, so that when the
opportunity came she might be ready to take the place from which poverty now
excluded her.
“My lady,” as her
friends called her, sincerely desired to be a genuine lady, and was so at
heart, but had yet to learn that money cannot buy refinement of nature, that
rank does not always confer nobility, and that true breeding makes itself felt
in spite of external drawbacks.
“I want to ask a favor
of you, Mamma,” Amy said, coming in with an important air one day.
“Well, little girl,
what is it?” replied her mother, in whose eyes the stately young lady still
remained `the baby'.
“Our drawing class
breaks up next week, and before the girls separate for the summer, I want to
ask them out here for a day. They are wild to see the river, sketch the broken
bridge, and copy some of the things they admire in my book. They have been very
kind to me in many ways, and I am grateful, for they are all rich and I know I
am poor, yet they never made any difference.”
“Why should they?” And
Mrs. March put the question with what the girls called her `Maria Theresa air'.
“You know as well as I
that it does make a difference with nearly everyone, so don't ruffle up like a
dear, motherly hen, when your chickens get pecked by smarter birds. The ugly
duckling turned out a swan, you know.” And Amy smiled without bitterness, for
she possessed a happy temper and hopeful spirit.
Mrs. March laughed, and
smoothed down her maternal pride as she asked, “Well, my swan, what is your
plan?”
“I should like to ask
the girls out to lunch next week, to take them for a drive to the places they
want to see, a row on the river, perhaps, and make a little artistic fete for
them.”
“That looks feasible.
What do you want for lunch? Cake, sandwiches, fruit, and coffee will be all
that is necessary, I suppose?”
“Oh, dear, no! We must
have cold tongue and chicken, French chocolate and ice cream, besides. The
girls are used to such things, and I want my lunch to be proper and elegant,
though I do work for my living.”
“How many young ladies
are there?” asked her mother, beginning to look sober.
“Twelve or fourteen in
the class, but I dare say they won't all come.”
“Bless me, child, you
will have to charter an omnibus to carry them about.”
“Why, Mother, how can
you think of such a thing? Not more than six or eight will probably come, so I
shall hire a beach wagon and borrow Mr. Laurence's cherry-bounce.” (Hannah's
pronunciation of charabanc.)
“All of this will be
expensive, Amy.”
“Not very. I've
calculated the cost, and I'll pay for it myself.”
“Don't you think, dear,
that as these girls are used to such things, and the best we can do will be
nothing new, that some simpler plan would be pleasanter to them, as a change if
nothing more, and much better for us than buying or borrowing what we don't
need, and attempting a style not in keeping with our circumstances?”
“If I can't have it as
I like, I don't care to have it at all. I know that I can carry it out perfectly
well, if you and the girls will help a little, and I don't see why I can't if
I'm willing to pay for it,” said Amy, with the decision which opposition was
apt to change into obstinacy.
Mrs. March knew that
experience was an excellent teacher, and when it was possible she left her
children to learn alone the lessons which she would gladly have made easier, if
they had not objected to taking advice as much as they did salts and senna.
“Very well, Amy, if
your heart is set upon it, and you see your way through without too great an
outlay of money, time, and temper, I'll say no more. Talk it over with the
girls, and whichever way you decide, I'll do my best to help you.”
“Thanks, Mother, you
are always so kind.” And away went Amy to lay her plan before her sisters.
Meg agreed at once, and
promised to her aid, gladly offering anything she possessed, from her little
house itself to her very best saltspoons. But Jo frowned upon the whole project
and would have nothing to do with it at first.
“Why in the world
should you spend your money, worry your family, and turn the house upside down
for a parcel of girls who don't care a sixpence for you? I thought you had too
much pride and sense to truckle to any mortal woman just because she wears
French boots and rides in a coupe,” said Jo, who, being called from the tragic
climax of her novel, was not in the best mood for social enterprises.
“I don't truckle, and I
hate being patronized as much as you do!” returned Amy indignantly, for the two
still jangled when such questions arose. “The girls do care for me, and I for
them, and there's a great deal of kindness and sense and talent among them, in
spite of what you call fashionable nonsense. You don't care to make people like
you, to go into good society, and cultivate your manners and tastes. I do, and
I mean to make the most of every chance that comes. You can go through the
world with your elbows out and your nose in the air, and call it independence,
if you like. That's not my way.”
When Amy had whetted
her tongue and freed her mind she usually got the best of it, for she seldom
failed to have common sense on her side, while Jo carried her love of liberty
and hate of conventionalities to such an unlimited extent that she naturally
found herself worsted in an argument. Amy's definition of Jo's idea of
independence was such a good hit that both burst out laughing, and the
discussion took a more amiable turn. Much against her will, Jo at length
consented to sacrifice a day to Mrs. Grundy, and help her sister through what
she regarded as `a nonsensical business'.
The invitations were
sent, nearly all accepted, and the following Monday was set apart for the grand
event. Hannah was out of humor because her week's work was deranged, and
prophesied that “ef the washin' and ironin' warn't done reg'lar, nothin' would
go well anywheres”. This hitch in the mainspring of the domestic machinery had
a bad effect upon the whole concern, but Amy's motto was `Nil desperandum', and
having made up her mind what to do, she proceeded to do it in spite of all
obstacles. To begin with, Hannah's cooking didn't turn out well. The chicken
was tough, the tongue too salt, and the chocolate wouldn't froth properly. Then
the cake and ice cost more than Amy expected, so did the wagon, and various
other expenses, which seemed trifling at the outset, counted up rather
alarmingly afterward. Beth got a cold and took to her bed. Meg had an unusual
number of callers to keep her at home, and Jo was in such a divided state of
mind that her breakages, accidents, and mistakes were uncommonly numerous,
serious, and trying.
It it was not fair on
Monday, the young ladies were to come on Tuesday, and arrangement which
aggravated Jo and Hannah to the last degree. On Monday morning the weather was
in that undecided state which is more exasperating than a steady pour. It
drizzled a little, shone a little, blew a little, and didn't make up its mind
till it was too late for anyone else to make up theirs. Amy was up at dawn,
hustling people out of their beds and through their breakfasts, that the house
might be got in order. The parlor struck her as looking uncommonly shabby, but
without stopping to sigh for what she had not, she skillfully made the best of
what she had, arranging chairs over the worn places in the carpet, covering
stains on the walls with home-made statuary, which gave an artistic air to the
room, as did the lovely vases of flowers Jo scattered about.
The lunch looked
charming, and as she surveyed it, she sincerely hoped it would taste well, and
that the borrowed glass, china, and silver would get safely home again. The
carriages were promised, Meg and Mother were all ready to do the honors, Beth
was able to help Hannah behind the scenes, Jo had engaged to be as lively and
amiable as an absent mind, and aching head, and a very decided disapproval of
everybody and everything would allow, and as she wearily dressed, Amy cheered
herself with anticipations of the happy moment when, lunch safely over, she
should drive away with her friends for an afternoon of artistic delights, for
the `cherry bounce' and the broken bridge were her strong points.
Then came the hours of
suspense, during which she vibrated from parlor to porch, while public opinion
varied like the weathercock. A smart shower at eleven had evidently quenched
the enthusiasm of the young ladies who were to arrive at twelve, for nobody
came, and at two the exhausted family sat down in a blaze of sunshine to
consume the perishable portions of the feast, that nothing might be lost.
“No doubt about the
weather today, they will certainly come, so we must fly round and be ready for
them,” said Amy, as the sun woke her next morning. She spoke briskly, but in
her secret soul she wished she had said nothing about Tuesday, for her interest
like her cake was getting a little stale.
“I can't get any
lobsters, so you will have to do without salad today,” said Mr. March, coming
in half an hour later, with an expression of placid despair.
“Use the chicken then,
the toughness won't matter in a salad,” advised his wife.
“Hannah left it on the
kitchen table a minute, and the kittens got at it. I'm very sorry, Amy,” added
Beth, who was still a patroness of cats.
“Then I must have a
lobster, for tongue alone won't do,” said Amy decidedly.
“Shall I rush into town
and demand one?” asked Jo, with the magnanimity of a martyr.
“You'd come bringing it
home under your arm without any paper, just to try me. I'll go myself,”
answered Amy, whose temper was beginning to fail.
Shrouded in a thick
veil and armed with a genteel traveling basket, she departed, feeling that a
cool drive would soothe her ruffled spirit and fit her for the labors of the
day. After some delay, the object of her desire was procured, likewise a bottle
of dressing to prevent further loss of time at home, and off she drove again,
well pleased with her own forethought.
As the omnibus
contained only one other passenger, a sleepy old lady, Amy pocketed her veil
and beguiled the tedium of the way by trying to find out where all her money had
gone to. So busy was she with her card full of refractory figures that she did
not observe a newcomer, who entered without stopping the vehicle, till a
masculine voice said, “Good morning, Miss March,” and, looking up, she beheld
one of Laurie's most elegant college friends. Fervently hoping that he would
get out before she did, Amy utterly ignored the basket at her feet, and
congratulating herself that she had on her new traveling dress, returned the
young man's greeting with her usual suavity and spirit.
They got on
excellently, for Amy's chief care was soon set at rest by learning that the
gentleman would leave first, and she was chatting away in a peculiarly lofty
strain, when the old lady got out. In stumbling to the door, she upset the
basket, and--oh horror!--the lobster, in all its vulgar size and brilliancy,
was revealed to the highborn eyes of a Tudor.
“By Jove, she's
forgotten her dinner!” cried the unconscious youth, poking the scarlet monster
into its place with his cane, and preparing to hand out the basket after the
old lady.
“Please
don't--it's--it's mine,” murmured Amy, with a face nearly as red as her fish.
“Oh, really, I beg
pardon. It's an uncommonly fine one, isn't it?” said Tudor, with great presence
of mind, and an air of sober interest that did credit to his breeding.
Amy recovered herself
in a breath, set her basket boldly on the seat, and said, laughing, “Don't you
wish you were to have some of the salad he's going to make, and to see the
charming young ladies who are to eat it?”
Now that was tact, for
two of the ruling foibles of the masculine mind were touched. The lobster was
instantly surrounded by a halo of pleasing reminiscences, and curiosity about
`the charming young ladies' diverted his mind from the comical mishap.
“I suppose he'll laugh
and joke over it with Laurie, but I shan't see them, that's a comfort,” thought
Amy, as Tudor bowed and departed.
She did not mention
this meeting at home (though she discovered that, thanks to the upset, her new
dress was much damaged by the rivulets of dressing that meandered down the
skirt), but went through with the preparations which now seemed more irksome
than before, and at twelve o'clock all was ready again. feeling that the
neighbors were interested in her movements, she wished to efface the memory of
yesterday's failure by a grand success today, so she ordered the `cherry
bounce', and drove away in state to meet and escort her guests to the banquet.
“There's the rumble,
they're coming! I'll go onto the porch and meet them. It looks hospitable, and
I want the poor child to have a good time after all her trouble,” said Mrs.
March, suiting the action to the word. But after one glance, she retired, with
an indescribable expression, for looking quite lost in the big carriage, sat
Amy and one young lady.
“Run, Beth, and help
Hannah clear half the things off the table. It will be too absurd to put a
luncheon for twelve before a single girl,” cried Jo, hurrying away to the lower
regions, too excited to stop even for a laugh.
In came Amy, quite calm
and delightfully cordial to the one guest who had kept her promise. The rest of
the family, being of a dramatic turn, played their parts equally well, and Miss
Eliott found them a most hilarious set, for it was impossible to control
entirely the merriment which possessed them. The remodeled lunch being gaily
partaken of, the studio and garden visited, and art discussed with enthusiasm,
Amy ordered a buggy (alas for the elegant cherry-bounce), and drove her friend
quietly about the neighborhood till sunset, when `the party went out'.
As she came walking in,
looking very tired but as composed as ever, she observed that every vestige of
the unfortunate fete had disappeared, except a suspicious pucker about the
corners of Jo's mouth.
“You've had a loverly
afternoon for your drive, dear,” said her mother, as respectfully as if the
whole twelve had come.
“Miss Eliott is a very
sweet girl, and seemed to enjoy herself, I thought,” observed Beth, with
unusual warmth.
“Could you spare me
some of your cake? I really need some, I have so much company, and I can't make
such delicious stuff as yours,” asked Meg soberly.
“Take it all. I'm the
only one here who likes sweet things, and it will mold before I can dispose of
it,” answered Amy, thinking with a sigh of the generous store she had laid in
for such an end as this.
“It's a pity Laurie
isn't here to help us,” began Jo, as they sat down to ice cream and salad for
the second time in two days.
A warning look from her
mother checked any further remarks, and the whole family ate in heroic silence,
till Mr. March mildly observed, “salad was one of the favorite dishes of the
ancients, and Evelyn . . .” Here a general explosion of laughter cut short the
`history of salads', to the great surprise of the learned gentleman.
“Bundle everything into
a basket and send it to the Hummels. Germans like messes. I'm sick of the sight
of this, and there's no reason you should all die of a surfeit because I've
been a fool,” cried Amy, wiping her eyes.
“I thought I should
have died when I saw you two girls rattling about in the what-you-call-it, like
two little kernels in a very big nutshell, and Mother waiting in state to
receive the throng,” sighed Jo, quite spent with laughter.
“I'm very sorry you
were disappointed, dear, but we all did our best to satisfy you,” said Mrs.
March, in a tone full of motherly regret.
“I am satisfied. I've
done what I undertook, and it's not my fault that it failed. I comfort myself
with that,” said Amy with a little quiver in her voice. “I thank you all very
much for helping me, and I'll thank you still more if you won't allude to it
for a month, at least.”
No one did for several
months, but the word `fete' always produced a general smile, and Laurie's
birthday gift to Amy was a tiny coral lobster in the shape of a charm for her
watch guard.
Fortune suddenly smiled
upon Jo, and dropped a good luck penny in her path. Not a golden penny,
exactly, but I doubt if half a million would have given more real happiness
then did the little sum that came to her in this wise.
Every few weeks she
would shut herself up in her room, put on her scribbling suit, and `fall into a
vortex', as she expressed it, writing away at her novel with all her heart and
soul, for till that was finished she could find no peace. Her `scribbling suit'
consisted of a black woolen pinafore on which she could wipe her pen at will,
and a cap of the same material, adorned with a cheerful red bow, into which she
bundled her hair when the decks were cleared for action. This cap was a beacon
to the inquiring eyes of her family, who during these periods kept their
distance, merely popping in their heads semi-occasionally to ask, with
interest, “Does genius burn, Jo?” They did not always venture even to ask this
question, but took an observation of the cap, and judged accordingly. If this
expressive article of dress was drawn low upon the forehead, it was a sign that
hard work was going on, in exciting moments it was pushed rakishly askew, and
when despair seized the author it was plucked wholly off, and cast upon the
floor, and cast upon the floor. At such times the intruder silently withdrew,
and not until the red bow was seen gaily erect upon the gifted brow, did anyone
dare address Jo.
She did not think
herself a genius by any means, but when the writing fit came on, she gave
herself up to it with entire abandon, and led a blissful life, unconscious of
want, care, or bad weather, while she sat safe and happy in an imaginary world,
full of friends almost as real and dear to her as any in the flesh. Sleep
forsook her eyes, meals stood untasted, day and night were all too short to
enjoy the happiness which blessed her only at such times, and made these hours
worth living, even if they bore no other fruit. The divine afflatus usually
lasted a week or two, and then she emerged from her `vortex', hungry, sleepy,
cross, or despondent.
She was just recovering
from one of these attacks when she was prevailed upon to escort Miss Crocker to
a lecture, and in return for her virtue was rewarded with a new idea. It was a
People's Course, the lecture on the Pyramids, and Jo rather wondered at the
choice of such a subject for such an audience, but took it for granted that
some great social evil would be remedied or some great want supplied by
unfolding the glories of the Pharaohs to an audience whose thoughts were busy
with the price of coal and flour, and whose lives were spent in trying to solve
harder riddles than that of the Sphinx.
They were early, and
while Miss Crocker set the heel of her stocking, Jo amused herself by examining
the faces of the people who occupied the seat with them. On her left were two
matrons, with massive foreheads and bonnets to match, discussing Women's Rights
and making tatting. Beyond sat a pair of humble lovers, artlessly holding each
other by the hand, a somber spinster eating peppermints out of a paper bag, and
an old gentleman taking his preparatory nap behind a yellow bandanna. On her
right, her only neighbor was a studious looking lad absorbed in a newspaper.
It was a pictorial
sheet, and Jo examined the work of art nearest her, idly wondering what
fortuitous concatenation of circumstances needed the melodramatic illustration
of an Indian in full war costume, tumbling over a precipice with a wolf at his
throat, while two infuriated young gentlemen, with unnaturally small feet and
big eyes, were stabbing each other close by, and a disheveled female was flying
away in the background with her mouth wide open. Pausing to turn a page, the
lad saw her looking and, with boyish good nature offered half his paper, saying
bluntly, “want to read it? That's a first-rate story.”
Jo accepted it with a
smile, for she had never outgrown her liking for lads, and soon found herself involved
in the usual labyrinth of love, mystery, and murder, for the story belonged to
that class of light literature in which the passions have a holiday, and when
the author's invention fails, a grand catastrophe clears the stage of one half
the dramatis personae, leaving the other half to exult over their downfall.
“Prime, isn't it?”
asked the boy, as her eye went down the last paragraph of her portion.
“I think you and I
could do as well as that if we tried,” returned Jo, amused at his admiration of
the trash.
“I should think I was a
pretty lucky chap if I could. She makes a good living out of such stories, they
say.” And he pointed to the name of Mrs. S.L.A.N.G. Northbury, under the title
of the tale.
“Do you know her?”
asked Jo, with sudden interest.
“No, but I read all her
pieces, and I know a fellow who works in the office where this paper is
printed.”
“Do you say she makes a
good living out of stories like this?” And Jo looked more respectfully at the
agitated group and thickly sprinkled exclamation points that adorned the page.
“Guess she does! She
knows just what folks like, and gets paid well for writing it.”
Here the lecture began,
but Jo heard very little of it, for while Professor Sands was prosing away
about Belzoni, Cheops, scarabei, and hieroglyphics, she was covertly taking
down the address of the paper, and boldly resolving to try for the
hundred-dollar prize offered in its columns for a sensational story. By the
time the lecture ended and the audience awoke, she had built up a splendid
fortune for herself (not the first founded on paper), and was already deep in
the concoction of her story, being unable to decide whether the duel should
come before the elopement or after the murder.
she said nothing of her
plan at home, but fell to work next day, much to the disquiet of her mother,
who always looked a little anxious when `genius took to burning'. Jo had never
tried this style before, contenting herself with very mild romances for THE
SPREAD EAGLE. Her experience and miscellaneous reading were of service now, for
they gave her some idea of dramatic effect, and supplied plot, language, and
costumes. Her story was as full of desperation and despair as her limited
acquaintance with those uncomfortable emotions enabled her to make it, and
having located it in Lisbon, she wound up with an earthquake, as a striking and
appropriate denouement. The manuscript was privately dispatched, accompanied by
a note, modestly saying that if the tale didn't get the prize, which the writer
hardly dared expect, she would be very glad to receive any sum it might be
considered worth.
Six weeks is a long
time to wait, and a still longer time for a girl to keep a secret, but Jo did
both, and was just beginning to give up all hope of ever seeing her manuscript
again, when a letter arrived which almost took her breath away, for on opening
it, a check for a hundred dollars fell into her lap. For a minute she stared at
it as if it had been a snake, then she read her letter and began to cry. If the
amiable gentleman who wrote that kindly note could have known what intense
happiness he was giving a fellow creature, I think he would devote his leisure
hours, if he has any, to that amusement, for Jo valued the letter more than the
money, because it was encouraging, and after years of effort it was so pleasant
to find that she had learned to do something, though it was only to write a
sensation story.
A prouder young woman
was seldom seen than she, when, having composed herself, she electrified the
family by appearing before them with the letter in one hand, the check in the
other, announcing that she had won the prize. Of course there was a great
jubilee, and when the story came everyone read and praised it, though after her
father had told her that the language was good, the romance fresh and hearty,
and the tragedy quite thrilling, he shook his head, and said in his unworldly
way . . .
“You can do better than
this, Jo. Aim at the highest, and never mind the money.”
“I think the money is
the best part of it. What will you do with such a fortune?” asked Amy,
regarding the magic slip of paper with a reverential eye.
“Send Beth and Mother
to the seaside for a month or two,” answered Jo promptly.
To the seaside they
went, after much discussion, and though Beth didn't come home as plump and rosy
as could be desired, she was much better, while Mrs. March declared she felt
ten years younger. So Jo was satisfied with the investment of her prize money,
and fell to work with a cheery spirit, bent on earning more of those delightful
checks. She did earn several that year, and began to feel herself a power in
the house, for by the magic of a pen, her `rubbish' turned into comforts for
them all. THE DUKE'S DAUGHTER paid the butcher's bill, A PHANTOM HAND put down
a new carpet, and the CURSE OF THE COVENTRYS proved the blessing of the Marches
in the way of groceries and gowns.
Wealth is certainly a
most desirable thing, but poverty has its sunny side, and one of the sweet uses
of adversity is the genuine satisfaction which comes from hearty work of head
or hand, and to the inspiration of necessity, we owe half the wise, beautiful,
and useful blessings of the world. Jo enjoyed a taste of this satisfaction, and
ceased to envy richer girls, taking great comfort in the knowledge that she
could supply her own wants, and need ask no one for a penny.
Little notice was taken
of her stories, but they found a market, and encouraged by this fact, she
resolved to make a bold stroke for fame and fortune. Having copied her novel for
the fourth time, read it to all her confidential friends, and submitted it with
fear and trembling to three publishers, she at last disposed of it, on
condition that she would cut it down one third, and omit all the parts which
she particularly admired.
“Now I must either
bundle it back in to my tin kitchen to mold, pay for printing it myself, or
chop it up to suit purchasers and get what I can for it. Fame is a very good
thing to have in the house, but cash is more convenient, so I wish to take the
sense of the meeting on this important subject,” said Jo, calling a family
council.
“Don't spoil your book,
my girl, for there is more in it than you know, and the idea is well worked
out. Let it wait and ripen,” was her father's advice, and he practiced what he
preached, having waited patiently thirty years for fruit of his own to ripen,
and being in no haste to gather it even now when it was sweet and mellow.
“It seems to me that Jo
will profit more by taking the trial than by waiting,” said Mrs. March. “Criticism
is the best test of such work, for it will show her both unsuspected merits and
faults, and help her to do better next time. We are too partial, but the praise
and blame of outsiders will prove useful, even if she gets but little money.”
“Yes,” said Jo,
knitting her brows, “that's just it. I've been fussing over the thing so long,
I really don't know whether it's good, bad, or indifferent. It will be a great
help to have cool, impartial persons take a look at it, and tell me what they
think of it.”
“I wouldn't leave a
word out of it. You'll spoil it if you do, for the interest of the story is
more in the minds than in the actions of the people, and it will be all a
muddle if you don't explain as you go on,” said Meg, who firmly believed that this
book was the most remarkable novel ever written.
“But Mr. Allen says,
`Leave out the explanations, make it brief and dramatic, and let the characters
tell the story',” interrupted Jo, turning to the publisher's note.
“Do as he tells you. He
knows what will sale, and we don't. Make a good, popular book, and get as much
money as you can. By-and-by, when you've got a name, you can afford to digress,
and have philosophical and metaphysical people in your novels,” said Amy, who
took a strictly practical view of the subject.
“Well,” said Jo,
laughing, “if my people are `philosophical and metaphysical', it isn't my
fault, for I know nothing about such things, except what I hear father say;,
sometimes. If I've got some of his wise ideas jumbled up with my romance, so
much the better for me. Now, Beth, what do you say?”
“I should so like to
see it printed soon,” was all Beth said, and smiled in saying it. But there was
an unconscious emphasis on the last word, and a wistful look in the eyes that
never lost their childlike candor, which chilled Jo's heart for a minute with a
forboding fear, and decided her to make her little venture `soon'.
So, with Spartan
firmness, the young authoress laid her firstborn on her table, and chopped it
up as ruthlessly as any ogre. In the hope of pleasing everyone, she took
everyone's advice, and like the old man and his donkey in the fable suited
nobody.
Her father liked the
metaphysical streak which had unconsciously got into it, so that was allowed to
remain though she had her doubts about it. Her mother thought that there was a
trifle too much description. Out, therefore it came, and with it many necessary
links in the story. Meg admired the tragedy, so Jo piled up the agony to suit
her, while Amy objected to the fun, and, with the best intentions in life, Jo
quenched the spritly scenes which relieved the somber character of the story.
Then, to complicate the ruin, she cut it down one third, and confidingly sent
the poor little romance, like a picked robin, out into the big, busy world to
try its fate.
Well, it was printed,
and she got three hundred dollars for it, likewise plenty of praise and blame,
both so much greater than she expected that she was thrown into a state of
bewilderment from which it took her some time to recover.
“You said, Mother, that
criticism would help me. But how can it, when it's so contradictory that I
don't know whether I've written a promising book or broken all the ten
commandments?” cried poor Jo, turning over a heap of notices, the perusal of
which filled her with pride and joy one minute, wrath and dismay the next. “This
man says, `An exquisite book, full of truth, beauty, and earnestness. All is
sweet, pure, and healthy.'” continued the perplexed authoress. “The next, `The
theory of the book is bad, full of morbid fancies, spiritualistic ideas, and
unnatural characters.' Now, as I had no theory of any kind, don't believe in
Spiritualism, and copied my characters from life, I don't see how this critic
can be right. Another says, `It's one of the best American novels which has
appeared for years.' (I know better than that), and the next asserts that
`Though it is original, and written with great force and feeling, it is a
dangerous book.' 'Tisn't! Some make fun of it, some overpraise, and nearly all
insist that I had a deep theory to expound, when I only wrote it for the
pleasure and the money. I wish I'd printed the whole or not at all, for I do
hate to be so misjudged.”
Her family and friends
administered comfort and commendation liberally. Yet it was a hard time for
sensitive, high-spirited Jo, who meant so well and had apparently done so ill.
But it did her good, for those whose opinion had real value gave her the
criticism which is an author's best education, and when the first soreness was
over,she could laugh at her poor little book, yet believe in it still, and feel
herself the wiser and stronger for the buffeting she had received.
“Not being a genius,
like Keats, it won't kill me,” she said stoutly, “and I've got the joke on my
side, after all, for the parts that were taken straight out of real life are
denounced as impossible and absurd, and the scenes that I made up out of my own
silly head are pronounced `charmingly natural, tender, and true'. So I'll
comfort myself with that, and when I'm ready, I'll up again and take another.”
Like most other young
matrons, Meg began her married life with the determination to be a model
housekeeper. John should find home a paradise, he should always see a smiling
face, should fare sumptuously every day, and never know the loss of a button.
She brought so much love, energy, and cheerfulness to the work that she could
not but succeed, in spite of some obstacles. Her paradise was not a tranquil
one, for the little woman fussed, was over-anxious to please, and bustled about
like a true Martha, cumbered with many cares. She was too tired, sometimes,
even to smile, John grew dyspeptic after a course of dainty dishes and
ungratefully demanded plain fare. As for buttons, she soon learned to wonder
where they went, to shake her head over the carelessness of men, and to
threaten to make him sew them on himself, and see if his work would stand
impatient and clumsy fingers any better than hers.
They were very happy,
even after they discovered that they couldn't live on love alone. John did not
find Meg's beauty diminished, though she beamed at him from behind the familiar
coffee pot. Nor did Meg miss any of the romance from the daily parting, when
her husband followed up his kiss with the tender inquiry, “Shall I send some
veal or mutton for dinner, darling?” The little house ceased to be a glorified
bower, but it became a home, and the young couple soon felt that it was a
change for the better. At first they played keep-house, and frolicked over it
like children. Then John took steadily to business, feeling the cares of the
head of a family upon his shoulders, and Meg laid by her cambric wrappers, put
on a big apron, and fell to work, as before said, with more energy than
discretion.
While the cooking mania
lasted she went through Mrs. Cornelius's Receipt Book as if it were a
mathematical exercise, working out the problems with patience and care.
Sometimes her family were invited in to help eat up a too bounteous feast of
successes, or Lotty would be privately dispatched with a batch of failures,
which were to be concealed from all eyes in the convenient stomachs of the
little Hummels. An evening with John over the account books usually produced a
temporary lull in the culinary enthusiasm, and a frugal fit would ensue, during
which the poor man was put through a course of bread pudding, hash, and
warmed-over coffee, which tried his soul, although he bore it with praiseworthy
fortitude. Before the golden mean was found, however, Meg added to her domestic
possessions what young couples seldom get on long without, a family jar.
Fired a with
housewifely wish to see her storeroom stocked with homemade preserves, she
undertook to put up her own currant jelly. John was requested to order home a
dozen or so of little pots and an extra quantity of sugar, for their own
currants were ripe and were to be attended to at once. As John firmly believed
that `my wife' was equal to anything, and took a natural pride in her skill, he
resolved that she should be gratified, and their only crop of fruit laid by in
a most pleasing form for winter use. Home came four dozen delightful little
pots, half a barrel of sugar, and a small boy to pick the currants for her.
With her pretty hair tucked into a little cap, arms bared to the elbow, and a
checked apron which had a coquettish look in spite of the bib, the young
housewife fell to work, feeling no doubts about her success, for hadn't she
seen Hannah do it hundreds of times? The array of pots rather amazed her at first,
but John was so fond of jelly, and the nice little jars would look so well on
the top shelf, that Meg resolved to fill them all, and spend a long day
picking, boiling, straining, and fussing over her jelly. She did her best, she
asked advice of Mrs. Cornelius, she racked her brain to remember what Hannah
did that she left undone, she reboiled, resugared, and restrained, but that
dreadful stuff wouldn't `jell'.
She longed to run home,
bib and all, and ask Mother to lend her a hand, but John and she had agreed
that they would never annoy anyone with their private worries, experiments, or
quarrels. They had laughed over that last word as if the idea it suggested was
a most preposterous one, but they had held to their resolve, and whenever they
could get on without help they did so, and no one interfered, for Mrs. March
had advised the plan. So Meg wrestled alone with the refractory sweetmeats all
that hot summer day, and at five o'clock sat down in her topsy-turvey kitchen,
wrung her bedaubed hands, lifted up her voice and wept.
Now, in the first flush
of the new life, she had often said, “My husband shall always feel free to
bring a friend home whenever he likes. I shall always be prepared. There shall
be no flurry, no scolding, no discomfort, but a neat house, a cheerful wife,
and a good dinner. John, dear, never stop to ask my leave, invite whom you
please, and be sure of a welcome from me.”
How charming that was,
to be sure! John quite glowed with pride to hear her say it, and felt what a
blessed thing it was to have a superior wife. But, although they had had
company from time to time, it never happened to be unexpected, and Meg had
never had an opportunity to distinguish herself till now. It always happens so
in this vale of tears, there is an inevitability about such things which we can
only wonder at, deplore, and bear as we best can.
If John had not
forgotten all about the jelly, it really would have been unpardonable in him to
choose that day, of all the days in the year, to bring a friend home to dinner
unexpectedly. Congratulating himself that a handsome repast had been ordered
that morning, feeling sure that it would be ready to the minute, and indulging
in pleasant anticipations of the charming effect it would produce, when his
pretty wife came running out to meet him, he escorted his friend to his
mansion, with the irrepressible satisfaction of a young host and husband.
It is a world of
disappointments, as John discovered when he reached the Dovecote. the front
door usually stood hospitably open. Now it was not only shut, but locked, and
yesterday's mud still adorned the steps. The parlor windows were closed and
curtained, no picture of the pretty wife sewing on the piazza, in white, with a
distracting little bow in her hair, or a bright-eyed hostess, smiling a shy
welcome as she greeted her guest. Nothing of the sort, for not a soul appeared
but a sanginary-looking boy asleep under the current bushes.
“I'm afraid something
has happened. Step into the garden, Scott, while I look up Mrs. Brooke,” said
John, alarmed at the silence and solitude.
Round the house he
hurried, led by a pungent smell of burned sugar, and Mr. Scott strolled after
him, with a queer look on his face. He paused discreetly at a distance when
Brooke disappeared, but he could both see and hear, and being a bachelor,
enjoyed the prospect mightily.
In the kitchen reigned
confusion and despair. One edition of jelly was trickled from pot to pot,
another lay upon the floor, and a third was burning gaily on the stove. Lotty,
with Teutonic phlegm, was calmly eating bread and currant wine, for the jelly
was still in a hopelessly liquid state, while Mrs. Brooke, with her apron over
her head, sat sobbing dismally.
“My dearest girl, what
is the matter?” cried John, rushing in, with awful visions of scalded hands,
sudden news of affliction, and secret consternation at the thought of the guest
in the garden.
“Oh, John, I am so
tired and hot and cross and worried! I've been at it till I'm all worn out. Do
come and help me or I shall die!” And the exhausted housewife cast herself upon
his breast, giving him a sweet welcome in every sense of the word, for her
pinafore had been baptized at the same time as the floor.
“What worries you dear?
Has anything dreadful happened?” asked the anxious John, tenderly kissing the
crown of the little cap, which was all askew.
“Yes,” sobbed Meg
despairingly.
“Tell me quick, then.
Don't cry. I can bear anything better than that. Out with it, love.”
“The . . .The jelly
won't jell and I don't know what to do!”
John Brooke laughed
then as he never dared to laugh afterward, and the derisive Scott smiled
involuntarily as he heard the hearty peal, which put the finishing stroke to
poor Meg's woe.
“Is that all? Fling it
out of the window, and don't bother any more about it. I'll buy you quarts if
you want it, but for heaven's sake don't have hysterics, for I've brought Jack
Scott home to dinner, and . . .”
John got no further,
for Meg cast him off, and clasped her hands with a tragic gesture as she fell
into a chair, exclaiming in a tone of mingled indignation, reproach, and dismay
. . .
“A man to dinner, and
everything in a mess! John Brooke, how could you do such a thing?”
“Hush, he's in the
garden! I forgot the confounded jelly, but it can't be helped now,” said John,
surveying the prospect with an anxious eye.
“You ought to have sent
word, or told me this morning, and you ought to have remembered how busy I was,”
continued Meg petulantly, for even turtledoves will peck when ruffled.
“I didn't know it this
morning, and there was no time to send word, for I met him on the way out. I
never thought of asking leave, when you have always told me to do as I liked. I
never tried it before, and hang me if I ever do again!” added John, with an aggrieved
air.
“I should hope not!
Take him away at once. I can't see him, and there isn't any dinner.”
“Well, I like that!
Where's the beef and vegetables I sent home, and the pudding you promised?”
cried John, rushing to the larder.
“I hadn't time to cook
anything. I meant to dine at Mother's. I'm sorry, but I was so busy,” and Meg's
tears began again.
John was a mild man,
but he was human, and after a long day's work to come home tired, hungry, and
hopeful, to find a chaotic house, an empty table, and a cross wife was not
exactly conductive to repose of mind or manner. He restrained himself however,
and the little squall would have blown over, but for one unlucky word.
“It's a scrape, I
acknowledge, but if you will lend a hand, we'll pull through and have a good
time yet. Don't cry, dear, but just exert yourself a bit, and fix us up
something to eat. We're both as hungry as hunters, so we shan't mind what it
is. Give us the cold meat, and bread and cheese. We won't ask for jelly.”
He meant it to be a
good-natured joke, but that one word sealed his fate. Meg thought it was too
cruel to hint about her sad failure, and the last atom of patience vanished as
he spoke.
“You must get yourself
out of the scrape as you can. I'm too used up to `exert' myself for anyone.
It's like a man to propose a bone and vulgar bread and cheese for company. I
won't have anything of the sort in my house. Take that Scott up to Mother's,
and tell him I'm away, sick, dead, anything. I won't see him, and you two can
laugh at me and my jelly as much as you like. You won't have anything else
here.” And having delivered her defiance all on one breath, Meg cast away her
pinafore and precipitately left the field to bemoan herself in her own room.
What those two
creatures did in her absence, she never knew, but Mr. Scott was not taken `up
to Mother's', and when Meg descended, after they had strolled away together,
she found traces of a promiscuous lunch which filled her with horror. Lotty
reported that they had eaten “a much, and greatly laughed, and the master bid
her throw away all the sweet stuff, and hide the pots.”
Meg longed to go and
tell Mother, but a sense of shame at her own short comings, of loyalty to John,
“who might be cruel, but nobody should know it,” restrained her, and after a
summary cleaning up, she dressed herself prettily, and sat down to wait for
John to come and be forgiven.
Unfortunately, John
didn't come, not seeing the matter in that light. He had carried it off as a
good joke with Scott, excused his little wife as well as he could, and played
the host so hospitably that his friend enjoyed the impromptu dinner, and
promised to come again, but John was angry, though he did not show it, he felt
that Meg had deserted him in his hour of need. “It wasn't fair to tell a man to
bring folks home any time, with perfect freedom, and when he took you at your
word, to flame up and blame him, and leave him in the lurch, to be laughed at
or pitied. No, by George, it wasn't! And Meg must know it.”
He had fumed inwardly
during the feast, but when the flurry was over and he strolled home after
seeing Scott off, a milder mood came over him. “Poor little thing! It was hard
upon her when she tried so heartily to please me. She was wrong, of course, but
then she was young. I must be patient and teach her.” He hoped she had not gone
home--he hated gossip and interference. For a minute he was ruffled again at
the mere thought of it, and then the fear that Meg would cry herself sick
softened his heart, and sent him on at a quicker pace, resolving to be calm and
kind, but firm, quite firm, and show her where she had failed in her duty to
her spouse.
Meg likewise resolved
to be `calm and kind, but firm', and show him his duty. She longed to run to
meet him, and beg pardon, and be kissed and comforted, as she was sure of
being, but, of course, she did nothing of the sort, and when she saw John
coming, began to hum quite naturally, as she rocked and sewed, like a lady of
leisure in her best parlor.
John was a little
disappointed not to find a tender Niobe, but feeling that his dignity demanded
the first apology, he made none, only came leisurely in and laid himself upon
the sofa with the singularly relevant remark, “We are going to have a new moon,
my dear.”
“I've no objection,”
was Meg's equally soothing remark. A few other topics of general interest were
introduced by Mr. Brooke and wet-blanketed by Mrs. Brooke, and conversation
languished. John went to one window, unfolded his paper, and wrapped himself in
it, figuratively speaking. Meg went to the other window, and sewed as if new
rosettes for slippers were among the necessaries of life. Neither spoke. Both
looked quite `calm and firm', and both felt desperately uncomfortable.
“Oh, dear,” thought
Meg, “married life is very trying, and does need infinite patience as well as
love, as Mother says.” The word `Mother' suggested other maternal counsels
given long ago, and received with unbelieving protests.
“John is a good man,
but he has his faults, and you must learn to see and bear with them,
remembering your own. He is very decided, but never will be obstinate, if you
reason kindly, not oppose impatiently. He is very accurate, and particular
about the truth--a good trait, though you call him `fussy'. Never deceive him
by look or word, Meg, and he will give you the confidence you deserve, the
support you need. He has a temper, not like ours--one flash and then all
over--but the white, still anger that is seldom stirred, but once kindled is
hard to quench. Be careful, be very careful, not to wake his anger against
yourself, for peace and happiness depend on keeping his respect. Watch
yourself, be the first to ask pardon if you both err, and guard against the
little piques, misunderstandings, and hasty words that often pave the way for
bitter sorrow and regret.”
These words came back
to Meg, as she sat sewing in the sunset, especially the last. This was the
first serious disagreement, her own hasty speeches sounded both silly and
unkind, as she recalled them, her own anger looked childish now, and thoughts
of poor John coming home to such a scene quite melted her heart. She glanced at
him with tears in her eyes, but he did not see them. She put down her work and
got up, thinking, “I will be the first to say, `Forgive me', but he did not
seem to hear her. She went very slowly across the room, for pride was hard to
swallow, and stood by him, but he did not turn his head. For a minute she felt
as if she really couldn't do it, then came the thought, This is the beginning.
I'll do my part, and have nothing to reproach myself with,” and stooping sown,
she softly kissed her husband on the forehead. Of course that settled it. The
penitent kiss was better than a world of words, and John had her on his knee in
a minute, saying tenderly . . .
“It was too bad to
laugh at the poor little jelly pots. Forgive me, dear. I never will again!”
But he did, oh bless
you, yes, hundreds of times, and so did Meg, both declaring that it was the
sweetest jelly they ever made, for family peace was preserved in that little
family jar.
After this, Meg had Mr.
Scott to dinner by special invitation, and served him up a pleasant feast
without a cooked wife for the first course, on which occasion she was so gay
and gracious, and made everything go off so charmingly, that Mr. Scott told
John he was a lucky fellow, and shook his head over the hardships of
bachelorhood all the way home.
In the autumn, new
trials and experiences came to Meg. Sallie Moffat renewed her friendship, was
always running out for a dish of gossip at the little house, or inviting `that
poor dear' to come in and spend the day at the big house. It was pleasant, for
in dull weather Meg often felt lonely. All were busy at home, John absent till
night, and nothing to do but sew, or read, or potter about. So it naturally
fell out that Meg got into the way of gadding and gossiping with her friend.
Seeing Sallie's pretty things made her long for such, and pity herself because
she had not got them. Sallie was very kind, and often offered her the coveted
trifles, but Meg declined them, knowing that John wouldn't like it, and then
this foolish little woman went and did what John disliked even worse.
She knew her husband's
income, and she loved to feel that he trusted her, not only with his happiness,
but what some men seem to value more--his money. She knew where it was, was
free to take what she liked, and all he asked was that she should keep account
of every penny, pay bills once a month, and remember that she was a poor man's
wife. Till now she had done well, been prudent and exact, kept her little
account books neatly, and showed them to him monthly without fear. But that
autumn the serpent got into Meg's paradise, and tempted her like many a modern
Eve, not with apples, but with dress. Meg didn't like to be pitied and made to
feel poor. It irritated her, but she was ashamed to confess it, and now and
then she tried to console herself by buying something pretty, so that Sallie
needn't think she had to economize. She always felt wicked after it, for the
pretty things were seldom necessaries, but then they cost so little, it wasn't
worth worrying about, so the trifles increased unconsciously, and in the
shopping excursions she was no longer a passive looker-on.
But the trifles cost
more than one would imagine, and when she cast up her accounts at the end of
the month the sum total rather scared her. John was busy that month and left
the bills to her, the next month he was absent, but the third he had a grand
quarterly settling up, and Meg never forgot it. A few days before she had done
a dreadful thing, and it weighed upon her conscience. Sallie had been buying
silks, and Meg longed for a new one, just a handsome light one for parties, her
black silk was so common, and thin things for evening wear were only proper for
girls. Aunt March usually gave the sisters a present of twenty-five dollars
apiece at New Year's. That was only a month to wait, and here was a lovely
violet silk going at a bargain, and she had the money, if she only dared to
take it. John always said what was his was hers, but would he think it right to
spend not only the prospective five-and-twenty, but another five-and-twenty out
of the household fund? That was the question. Sallie had urged her to do it,
had offered to lend the money, and with the best intentions in life had tempted
Meg beyond her strength. In an evil moment the shopman held up the lovely,
shimmering folds, and said, “A bargain, I assure, you, ma'am.” She answered, “I'll
take it,” and it was cut off and paid for, and Sallie had exulted, and she had
laughed as if it were a thing of no consequence, and driven away, feeling as if
she had stolen something, and the police were after her.
When she got home, she
tried to assuage the pangs of remorse by spreading forth the lovely silk, but
it looked less silvery now, didn't become her, after all, and the words `fifty
dollars' seemed stamped like a pattern down each breadth. She put it away, but
it haunted her, not delightfully as a new dress should, but dreadfully like the
ghost of a folly that was not easily laid. When John got out his books that
night, Meg's heart sank, and for the first time in her married life, she was
afraid of her husband. The kind, brown eyes looked as if they could be stern,
and though he was unusually merry, she fancied he had found her out, but didn't
mean to let her know it. The house bills were all paid, the books all in order.
John had praised her, and was undoing the old pocketbook which they called the
`bank', when Meg, knowing that it was quite empty, stopped his hand, saying
nervously . . .
“You haven't seen my
private expense book yet.”
John never asked to see
it, but she always insisted on his doing so, and used to enjoy his masculine
amazement at the queer things women wanted, and made him guess what piping was,
demand fiercely the meaning of a hug-me-tight, or wonder how a little thing
composed of three rosebuds, a bit of velvet, and a pair of strings, could
possibly be a bonnet, and cost six dollars. That night he looked as if he would
like the fun of quizzing her figures and pretending to be horrified at her
extravagance, as he often did, being particularly proud of his prudent wife.
The little book was
brought slowly out and laid down before him. Meg got behind his chair under
pretense of smoothing the wrinkles out of his tired forehead, and standing
there, she said, with her panic increasing with every word . ..
“John, dear, I'm
ashamed to show you my book, for I've really been dreadfully extravagant
lately. I go about so much I must have things, you know, and Sallie advised my
getting it, so I did, and my New Year's money will partly pay for it, but I was
sorry after I had done it, for I knew you'd think it wrong in me.”
John laughed, and drew
her round beside him, saying good-humoredly, “Don't go and hide. I won't beat
you if you have got a pair of killing boots. I'm rather proud of my wife's
feet, and don't mind if she does pay eight or nine dollars for her boots, if
they are good ones.”
That had been one of
her last `trifles', and John's eye had fallen on it as he spoke. “Oh, what will
he say when he comes to that awful fifty dollars!” thought Meg, with a shiver.
“It's worse than boots,
it's a silk dress,” she said, with the calmness of desperation, for she wanted
the worst over.
“Well, dear, what is
the `dem'd total', as Mr. Mantalini says?”
That didn't sound like
John, and she knew he was looking up at her with the straightforward look that
she had always been ready to meet and answer with one as frank till now. She
turned the page and her head at the same time, pointing to the sum which would
have been bad enough without the fifty, but which was appalling to her with
that added. For a minute the room was very still, then John said slowly--but
she could feel it cost him an effort to express no displeasure-- . . .
“Well, I don't know
that fifty is much for a dress, with all the furbelows and notions you have to
have to finish it off these days.”
“It isn't made or
trimmed,” sighed Meg, faintly, for a sudden recollection of the cost still to
be incurred quite overwhelmed her.
“Twenty-five yards of
silk seems a good deal to cover one small woman, but I've no doubt my wife will
look as fine as Ned Moffat's when she gets it on,” said John dryly.
“I know you are angry,
John, but I can't help it. I don't mean to waste your money, and I didn't think
those little things would count up so. I can't resist them when I see Sallie
buying all she wants, and pitying me because I don't. I try to be contented,
but it is hard, and I'm tired of being poor.”
The last words were
spoken so low she thought he did not hear them, but he did, and they wounded
him deeply, for he had denied himself many pleasures for Meg's sake. She could
have bitten her tongue out the minute she had said it, for John pushed the
books away and got up, saying with a little quiver in his voice, “I was afraid
of this. I do my best, Meg.” If he had scolded her, or even shaken her, it
would not have broken her heart like those few words. She ran to him and held
him close, crying, with repentant tears, “Oh, John, my dear, kind, hard-working
boy. I didn't mean it! It was so wicked, so untrue and ungrateful, how could I
say it! Oh, how could I say it!”
He was very kind,
forgave her readily, and did not utter one reproach, but Meg knew that she had
done and said a thing which would not be forgotten soon, although he might
never allude to it again. She had promised to love him for better or worse, and
then she, his wife, had reproached him with his poverty, after spending his
earnings recklessly. It was dreadful, and the worst of it was John went on so
quietly afterward, just as if nothing had happened, except that he stayed in
town later, and worked at night when she had gone to cry herself to sleep. A
week or remorse nearly made Meg sick, and the discovery that John had
countermanded the order for his new greatcoat reduced her to a state of despair
which was pathetic to behold. He had simply said, in answer to her surprised
inquiries as to the change, “I can't afford it, my dear.”
Meg said no more, but a
few minutes after he found her in the hall with her face buried in the old
greatcoat, crying as if her heart would break.
They had a long talk
that night, and Meg learned to love her husband better for his poverty, because
it seemed to have made a man of him, given him the strength and courage to
fight his own way, and taught him a tender patience with which to bear and
comfort the natural longings and failures of those he loved.
Next day she put her
pride in her pocket, went to Sallie, told the truth, and asked her to buy the
silk as a favor. The good-natured Mrs. Moffat willingly did so, and had the
delicacy not to make her a present of it immediately afterward. Then Meg
ordered home the greatcoat, and when John arrived, she put it on, and asked him
how he liked her new silk gown. One can imagine what answer he made, how he
received his present, and what a blissful state of things ensued. John came
home early, Meg gadded no more, and that greatcoat was put on in the morning by
a very happy husband, and taken off at night by a most devoted little wife. So
the year rolled round, and at midsummer there came to Meg a new experience, the
deepest and tenderest of a woman's life.
Laurie came sneaking
into the kitchen of the Dovecote one Saturday, with an excited face, and was
received with the clash of cymbals, for Hannah clapped her hands with a
saucepan in one and the cover in the other.
“How's the little
mamma? Where is everybody? Why didn't you tell me before I came home?” began
Laurie in a loud whisper.
“Happy as a queen, the
dear! Every soul of `em is upstairs a worshipin'. We didn't want no hurrycanes
round. Now you go into the parlor, and I'll send `em down to you,” with which
somewhat involved reply Hannah vanished, chuckling ecstatically.
Presently Jo appeared,
proudly bearing a flannel bundle laid forth upon a large pillow. Jo's face was
very sober, but her eyes twinkled, and there was an odd sound in her voice of
repressed emotion of some sort.
“Shut your eyes and
hold out your arms,” she said invitingly.
Laurie backed
precipitately into a corner, and put his hands behind him with an imploring
gesture. “No, thank you. I'd rather not. I shall drop it or smash it, as sure
as fate.”
“Then you shan't see
your nevvy,” said Jo decidedly, turning as if to go.
“I will, I will! Only
you must be responsible for damages.” And obeying orders, Laurie heroically
shut his eyes while something was put into his arms. A peal of laughter from
Jo, Amy, Mrs. March, Hannah, and John caused him to open them the next minute,
to find himself invested with two babies instead of one.
No wonder they laughed,
for the expression of his face was droll enough to convulse a Quaker, as he
stood and stared wildly from the unconscious innocents to the hilarious
spectators with such dismay that Jo sat down on the floor and screamed.
“Twins, by Jupiter!”
was all he said for a minute, then turning to the women with an appealing look
that was comically piteous, he added, “Take `em quick, somebody! I'm going to
laugh, and I shall drop `em.”
Jo rescued his babies,
and marched up and down, with one on each are, as if already initiated into the
mysteries of baby-tending, while Laurie laughed till the tears ran down his
cheeks.
“It's the best joke of
the season, isn't it? I wouldn't have told you, for I set my heart on
surprising you, and I flatter myself I've done it,” said Jo, when she got her
breath.
“I never was more
staggered in my life. Isn't it fun? Are they boys? What are you going to name
them? Let's have another look. Hold me up, Jo, for upon my life it's one too
many for me,” returned Laurie, regarding the infants with the air of a big,
benevolent Newfoundland looking at a pair of infantile kittens.
“Boy and girl. Aren't
they beauties?” said the proud papa, beaming upon the little red squirmers as
if they were unfledged angels.
“Most remarkable
children I ever saw. Which is which?” and Laurie bent like a well-sweep to
examine the prodigies.
“Amy put a blue ribbon
on the boy and a pink on the girl, French fashion, so you can always tell.
Besides, one has blue eyes and one brown. Kiss them, Uncle Teddy,” said wicked
Jo.
“I'm afraid they
mightn't like it,” began Laurie, with unusual timidity in such matters.
“Of course they will,
they are used to it now. Do it this minute, sir!” commanded JO, fearing he
might propose a proxy.
Laurie screwed up his
face and obeyed with a gingerly peck at each little cheek that produced another
laugh, and made the babies squeal.
“There, I knew they
didn't like it! That's the boy, see him kick, he hits out with his fists like a
good one. Now then, young Brooke, pitch into a man of your own size, will you?”
cried Laurie, delighted with a poke in the face from a tiny fist, flapping
aimlessly about.
“He's to be named John
Laurence, and the girl Margaret, after mother and grandmother. We shall call
her Daisey, so as not to have two Megs, and I suppose the mannie will be Jack,
unless we find a better name,” said Amy, with aunt-like interest.
“Name him Demijohn, and
call him Demi for short,” said Laurie
“Daisy and Demi, just
the thing! I knew Teddy would do it,” cried Jo clapping her hands.
Teddy certainly had
done it that time, for the babies were `Daisy' and `Demi' to the end of the
chapter.
“Come, Jo, it's time.”
“For what?”
“You don't mean to say
you have forgotten that you promised to make half a dozen calls with me today?”
“I've done a good many
rash and foolish things in my life, but I don't think I ever was mad enough to
say I'd make six calls in one day, when a single one upsets me for a week.”
“Yes, you did, it was a
bargain between us. I was to finish the crayon of Beth for you, and you were to
go properly with me, and return our neighbors' visits.”
“If it was fair, that
was in the bond, and I stand to the letter of my bond, Shylock. There is a pile
of clouds in the east, it's not fair, and I don't go.”
“Now, that's shirking.
It's a lovely day, no prospect of rain, and you pride yourself on keeping;
promises, so be honorable, come and do your duty, and then be at peace for
another six months.”
At that minute Jo was
particularly absorbed in dressmaking, for she was mantua-maker general to the
family, and took especial credit to herself because she could use a needle as
well as a pen. It was very provoking to be arrested in the act of a first
trying-on, and ordered out to make calls in her best array on a warm July day.
She hated calls of the formal sort, and never made any till Amy compelled her
with a bargain, bribe, or promise. In the present instance there was no escape,
and having clashed her scissors rebelliously, while protesting that she smelled
thunder, she gave in, put away her work, and taking up her hat and gloves with
an air of resignation, told Amy the victim was ready.
“Jo March, you are
perverse enough to provoke a saint! You don't intend to make calls in that
state, I hope,: cried Amy, surveying her with amazement.
“Why not? I'm neat and
cool and comfortable, quite proper for a dusty walk on a warm day. If people
care more for my clothes than they do for me, I don't wish to see them. You can
dress for both, and be as elegant as you please. It pays for you to be fine. It
doesn't for me, and furbelows only worry me.”
“Oh, dear!” sighed Amy,
“now she's in a contrary fit, and will drive me distracted before I can get her
properly ready. I'm sure it's no pleasure to me to go today, but it's a debt we
owe society, and there's no one to pay it but you and me. I'll do anything for
you, Jo, if you'll only dress yourself nicely, and come and help me do the
civil. You can talk so well, look so aristocratic in your best things, and
behave so beautifully, if you try, that I'm proud of you. I'm afraid to go
alone, do come and take care of me.”
“You're an artful little
puss to flatter and wheedle your cross old sister in that way. The idea of my
being aristocratic and well-bred, and your being afraid to go anywhere alone! I
don't know which is the most absurd. Well, I'll go if I must, and do my best.
You shall be commander of the expedition, and I'll obey blindly, will that
satisfy you?” said Jo, with a sudden change from perversity to lamblike
submission.
“You're a perfect
cherub! Now put on all your best things, and I'll tell you how to behave at
each place, so that you will make a good impression. I want people to like you,
and they would if you'd only try to be a little more agreeable. Do your hair
the pretty way, and put the pink rose in your bonnet. It's becoming, and you
look too sober in your plain suit. Take your light gloves and the embroidered
handkerchief. We'll stop at Meg's, and borrow her white sunshade, and then you
can have my dove-colored one.”
While Amy dressed, she
issued her orders, and Jo obeyed them, not without entering her protest,
however, for she sighed as she rustled into her new organdie, frowned darkly at
herself as she tied her bonnet strings in an irreproachable bow, wrestled
viciously with pins as she put on her collar, wrinkled up her features
generally as she shook out the handkerchief, whose embroidery was as irritating
to her nose as the present mission was to her feelings, and when she had
squeezed her hands into tight gloves with three buttons and a tassel, as the
last touch of elegance, she turned to Amy with an imbecile expression of
countenance, saying meekly . . .
“I'm perfectly
miserable, but if you consider me presentable, I die happy.”
“You're highly
satisfactory. turn slowly round, and let me get a careful view.” Jo revolved,
and Amy gave a touch here and there, then fell back, with her head on one side,
observing graciously, “Yes, you'll do. Your head is all I could ask, for that
white bonnet with the rose is quite ravishing. Hold back your shoulders, and
carry your hands easily, no matter if your gloves do pinch. There's one thing
you can do well, Jo, that is, wear a shawl. I can't, but it's very nice to see
you, and I'm so glad Aunt March gave you that lovely one. It's simple, but
handsome, and those folds over the arm are really artistic. Is the point of my
mantle in the middle, and have I looped my dress evenly? I like to show my
boots, for my feet are pretty, though my nose isn't.”
“You are a thing of
beauty and a joy forever,” said Jo, looking through her hand with the air of a
connoisseur at the blue feather against the golden hair. “Am I to drag my best
dress through the dust, or loop it up, please, ma'am?”
“Hold it yup when you
walk, but drop it in the house. The sweeping style suits you best, and you must
learn to trail your skirts gracefully. You haven't half buttoned one cuff, do
it at once. You'll never look finished if you are not careful about the little
details, for they make yup the pleasing whole.”
Jo sighed, and
proceeded to burst the buttons off her glove, in doing up her cuff, but at last
both were ready, and sailed away, looking as `pretty as picters', Hannah said,
as she hung out of the upper window to watch them.
“Now, Jo dear, the
Chesters consider themselves very elegant people, so I want you to put on your
best deportment. Don't make any of your abrupt remarks, or do anything odd,
will you? Just be calm, cool, and quiet, that's safe and ladylike, and you can
easily do it for fifteen minutes,” said Amy, as they approached the first
place, having borrowed the white parasol and been inspected by Meg, with a baby
on each arm.
“Let me see. `Calm,
cool, and quiet', yes, I think I can promise that. I've played the part of a
prim young lady on the stage, and I'll try it off. My powers are great, as you
shall see, so be easy in your mind, my child.”
Amy looked relieved,
but naughty Jo took her at her word, for during the first call she sat with
every limb gracefully composed, every fold correctly draped, calm as a summer
sea, cool as a snow-bank, and as silent as the sphinx. In vain Mrs. Chester alluded
to her `charming novel', and the Misses Chester introduced parties, picnics,
the opera, and the fashions. Each and all were answered by a smile, a bow, and
a demure “Yes” or “No” with the chill on. In vain Amy telegraphed the word
`talk', tried to draw her out, and administered covert pokes with her foot. Jo
sat as if blandly unconscious of it all, with deportment like Maud's face,
`icily regular, splendidly null'.
“What a haughty,
uninteresting creature that oldest Miss March is!” was the unfortunately
audible remark of one of the ladies, as the door closed upon their guests. Jo
laughed noiselessly all through the hall, but Amy looked disgusted at the
failure of her instructions, and very naturally laid the blame upon Jo.
“How could you mistake me
so? I merely meant you to be properly dignified and composed, and you made
yourself a perfect stock and stone. Try to be sociable at the Lamb's'. Gossip
as other girls do, and be interested in dress and flirtations and whatever
nonsense comes up. They move in the best society, are valuable persons for us
to know, and I wouldn't fail to make a good impression there for anything.”
“I'll be agreeable.
I'll gossip and giggle, and have horrors and raptures over any trifle you like.
I rather enjoy this, and now I'll imitate what is called `a charming girl'. I
can do it, for I have May Chester as a model, and I'll improve upon her. See if
the Lambs don't say, `What a lively, nice creature that Jo March is!”
Amy felt anxious, as
well she might, for when Jo turned freakish there was no knowing where she
would stop. Amy's face was a study when she saw her sister skim into the next
drawing room, kiss all the young ladies with effusion, beam graciously upon the
young gentlemen, and join in the chat with a spirit which amazed the beholder.
Amy was taken possession of by Mrs. Lamb, with whom she was a favorite, and
forced to hear a long account of Lucretia's last attack, while three delightful
young gentlemen hovered near, waiting for a pause when they might rush in and
rescue her. So situated, she was powerless to check Jo, who seemed possessed by
a spirit of mischief, and talked away as volubly as the lady. A knot of heads
gathered about her, and Amy strained her ears to hear what was going on, for
broken sentences filled her with curiosity, and frequent peals of laughter made
her wild to share the fun. One may imagine her suffering on overhearing
fragments of this sort of conversation.
“She rides splendidly.
who taught her?”
“No one. She used to
practice mounting, holding the reins, and sitting straight on an old saddle in
a tree. Now she rides anything, for she doesn't know what fear is, and the
stableman lets her have horses cheap because she trains them to carry ladies so
well. She has such a passion for it, I often tell her if everything else fails,
she can be a horsebreaker, and get her living so.”
At this awful speech
Amy contained herself with difficulty, for the impression was being given that
she was rather a fast young lady, which was her especial aversion. But what
could she do? For the old lady was in the middle of her story, and long before
it was done, Jo was off again, make more droll revelations and committing still
more fearful blunders.
“Yes, Amy was in
despair that day, for all the good beasts were gone, and of three left, one was
lame, one blind, and the other so balky that you had to put dirt in his mouth
before he would start. Nice animal for a pleasure party, wasn't it?”
“Which did she choose?”
asked one of the laughing gentlemen, who enjoyed the subject.
“None of them. She
heard of a young horse at the farm house over the river, and though a lady had
never ridden him, she resolved to try, because he was handsome and spirited.
Her struggles were really pathetic. There was no one to bring the horse to the
saddle, so she took the saddle to the horse. My dear creature, she actually
rowed it over the river, put it on her head, and marched up to the barn to the
utter amazement of the old man!”
“Did she ride the
horse?'
“Of course she did, and
had a capital time. I expected to see her brought home in fragments, but she
managed him perfectly, and was the life of the party.”
“Well, I call that
plucky!” And young Mr. Lamb turned an approving glance upon Amy, wondering what
his mother could be saying to make the girl look so red and uncomfortable.
She was still redder
and more uncomfortable a moment after, when a sudden turn in the conversation
introduced the subject of dress. One of the young ladies asked Jo where she got
the pretty drab hat she wore to the picnic and stupid Jo, instead of mentioning
the place where it was bought two years ago, must needs answer with unnecessary
frankness, “Oh, Amy painted it. You can't buy those soft shades, so we paint
ours any color we like. It's a great comfort to have an artistic sister.”
“Isn't that an original
idea?” cried Miss Lamb, who found Jo great fun.
“That's nothing
compared to some of her brilliant performances. There's nothing the child can't
do. Why, she wanted a pair of blue boots for Sallie's party, so she just
painted her soiled white ones the loveliest shade of sky blue you ever saw, and
they looked exactly like satin,” added Jo, with an air of pride in her sister's
accomplishments that exasperated Amy till she felt that it would be a relief to
throw her cardcase at her.
“We read a story of
yours the other day, and enjoyed it very much,” observed the elder Miss Lamb,
wishing to compliment the literary lady, who did not look the character just
then, it must be confessed.
Any mention of her
`works' always had a bad effect upon Jo, who either grew rigid and looked
offended, or changed the subject with a brusque remark, as now. “Sorry you
could find nothing better to read. I write that rubbish because it sells, and
ordinary people like it. Are you going to New York this winter?'
As Miss Lamb had
`enjoyed' the story, this speech was not exactly grateful or complimentary. The
minute it was made Jo saw her mistake, but fearing to make the matter worse,
suddenly remembered that it was for her to make the first move toward
departure, and did so with an abruptness that left three people with
half-finished sentences in their mouths.
“Amy, we must go.
Good-by, dear, do come and see us. We are pining for a visit. I don't dare to
ask you, Mr. Lamb, but if you should come, I don't think I shall have the heart
to send you away.”
Jo said this with such
a droll imitation of May Chester's gushing style that Amy got out of the room
as rapidly as possible, feeling a strong desire to laugh and cry at the same
time.
“Didn't I do well?”
asked Jo, with a satisfied air as they walked away.
“Nothing could have
been worse,” was Amy's crushing reply. “What possessed you to tell those
stories about my saddle, and the hats and boots, and all the rest of it?”
“Why, it's funny, and
amuses people. They know we are poor, so it's no use pretending that we have
grooms, buy three or four hats a season, and have things as easy and fine as
they do.”
“You needn't go and
tell them all our little shifts, and expose our; poverty in that perfectly
unnecessary way. You haven't a bit of proper pride, and never will learn when
to hold your tongue and when to speak,” said Amy despairingly.
Poor Jo looked abashed,
and silently chafed the end of her nose with the stiff handkerchief, as if
performing a penance for her misdemeanors.
“How shall I behave
here?” she asked, as they approached the third mansion.
“Just as you please. I
wash my hands of you,” was Amy's short answer.
“Then I'll enjoy
myself. The boys are at home, and we'll have a comfortable time. Goodness knows
I need a little change, for elegance has a bad effect upon my constitution,”
returned Jo gruffly, being disturbed by her failure to suit.
An enthusiastic welcome
from three big boys and several pretty children speedily soothed her ruffled
feelings, and leaving Amy to entertain the hostess and Mr. Tudor, who happened
to be calling likewise, Jo devoted herself to the young folks and found the
change refreshing. She listened to college stories with deep interest, caressed
pointers and poodles without a murmur, agreed heartily that “Tom Brown was a
brick,” regardless of the improper form of praise, and when one lad proposed a
visit to his turtle tank, she went with an alacrity which caused Mamma to smile
upon her, as that motherly lady settled the cap which was left in a ruinous
condition by filial hugs, bearlike but affectionate, and dearer to her than the
most faultless coiffure from the hands of an inspired Frenchwoman.
Leaving her sister to
her own devices, Amy proceeded to enjoy herself to her heart's content. Mr.
Tudor's uncle had married an English lady who was third cousin to a living
lord, and Amy regarded the whole family with great respect, for in spite of her
American birth and breeding, she possessed that reverence for titles which
haunts the best of us--that unacknowledged loyalty to the early faith in kings
which set the most democratic nation under the sun in ferment at the coming of
a royal yellow-haired laddie, some years ago, and which still has something to
do with the love the young country bears the old, like that of a big son for an
imperious little mother, who held him while she could, and let him go with a
farewell scolding when he rebelled. But even the satisfaction of talking with a
distant connection of the British nobility did not render Amy forgetful of
time, and when the proper number of minutes had passed, she reluctantly tore
herself from this aristocratic society, and looked about for Jo, fervently
hoping that her incorrigible sister would not be found in any position which
should bring disgrace upon the name of March.
It might have been
worse, but Amy considered it bad. For Jo sat on the grass, with an encampment
of boys about her, and a dirty-footed dog reposing on the skirt of her state
and festival dress, as she related one of Laurie's pranks to her admiring
audience. One small child was poking turtles with Amy's cherished parasol, a
second was eating gingerbread over Jo's best bonnet, and a third playing ball
with her gloves. but all were enjoying themselves, and when Jo collected her
damaged property to go, her escort accompanied her, begging her to come again, “It
was such fun to hear about Laurie's larks.”
“Capital boys, aren't
they? I feel quite young and brisk again after that.” said Jo, strolling along
with her hands behind her, partly from habit, partly to conceal the bespattered
parasol.
“Why do you always
avoid Mr. Tudor?” asked Amy, wisely refraining from any comment upon Jo's
dilapidated appearance.
“Don't like him, he
puts on airs, snubs his sisters, worries his father, and doesn't speak
respectfully of his mother. Laurie says he is fast, and I don't consider him a
desirable acquaintance, so I let him alone.”
“You might treat him
civilly, at least. You gave him a cool nod, and just now you bowed and smiled
in the politest way to Tommy Chamberlain, whose father keeps a grocery store.
If you had just reversed the nod and the bow, it would have been right,” said
Amy reprovingly.
“No, it wouldn't,”
returned Jo, “I neither like, respect, nor admire Tudor, though his
grandfather's uncle's nephew's niece was a third cousin to a lord. Tommy is
poor and bashful and good and very clever. I think well of him, and like to
show that I do, for he is a gentleman in spite of the brown paper parcels.”
“It's no use trying to
argue with you,” began Amy.
“Not the least, my
dear,” interrupted Jo, “so let us look amiable, and drop a card here, as the
Kings are evidently out, for which I'm deeply grateful.”
The family cardcase
having done its duty the girls walked on, and Jo uttered another thanksgiving
on reaching the fifth house, and being told that the young ladies were engaged.
“now let us go home,
and never mind Aunt March today. We can run down there any time, and it's
really a pity to trail through the dust in our best bibs and tuckers, when we
are tired and cross.”
“Speak for yourself, if
you please. Aunt March likes to have us pay her the compliment of coming in
style, and making a formal call. It's a little thing to do, but it gives her
pleasure, and I don't believe it will hurt your things half so much as letting
dirty dogs and clumping boys spoil them. Stoop down, and let me take the crumbs
off of your bonnet.”
“What a good girl you
are, Amy!” said Jo, with a repentant glance from her own damaged costume to
that of her sister, which was fresh and spotless still. “I wish it was as easy
for me to do little things to please people as it is for you. I think of them,
but it takes too much time to do them, so I wait for a chance to confer a great
favor, and let the small ones slip, but they tell best in the end, I fancy.”
Amy smiled and was
mollified at once, saying with a maternal air, “Women should learn to be
agreeable, particularly poor ones, for they have no other way of repaying the
kindnesses they receive. If you'd remember that, and practice it, you'd be
better liked than I am, because there is more of you.”
“I'm a crotchety old
thing, and always shall be, but I'm willing to own that you are right, only it's
easier for me to risk my life for a person than to be pleasant to him when I
don't feel like it. It's a great misfortune to have such strong likes and
dislikes, isn't it?”
“It's a greater not to
be able to hide them. I don't mind saying that I don't approve of Tudor any
more than you do, but I'm not called upon to tell him so. Neither are you, and
there is no use in making yourself disagreeable because he is.”
“But I think girls
ought to show when they disapprove of young men, and how can they do it except
by their manners? Preaching does not do any good, as I know to my sorrow, since
I've had Teddie to manage. But there are many little ways in which I can
influence him without a word, and I say we ought to do it to others if we can.”
“Teddy is a remarkable
boy, and can't be taken as a sample of other boys,” said Amy, in a tone of
solemn conviction, which would have convulsed the `remarkable boy' if he had
heard it. “If we were belles, or women of wealth and position, we might do
something, perhaps, but for us to frown at one set of young gentlemen because
we don't approve of them, and smile upon another set because we do, wouldn't
have a particle of effect, and we should only be considered odd and
puritanical.”
“So we are to
countenance things and people which we detest, merely because we are not belles
and millionaires, are we? That's a nice sort of morality.”
“I can't argue about
it, I only know that it's the way of the world, and people who set themselves
against it only get laughed at for their pains. I don't like reformers, and I
hope you never try to be one.”
“I do like them, and I
shall be one if I can, for in spite of the laughing the world would never get
on without them. We can't agree about that. for you belong to the old set, and
I to the new. You will get on the best, but I shall have the liveliest time of
it. I should rather enjoy the brickbats and hooting, I think.”
“Well, compose yourself
now, and don't worry Aunt with your new ideas.”
“I'll try not to, but
I'm always possessed to burst out with some particularly blunt speech or
revolutionary sentiment before her. It's my doom, and I can't help it.”
They found Aunt Carrol
with the old lady, both absorbed in some very interesting subject, but they
dropped it as the girls came in, with a conscious look which betrayed that they
had been talking about their nieces. Jo was not in a good humor, and the
perverse fit returned, but Amy, who had virtuously done her duty, kept her
temper and pleased everybody, was in a most angelic frame of mind. This amiable
spirit was felt at once, and both aunts `my deared' her affectionately, looking
what they afterward said emphatically, “That child improves every day.”
“Are you going to help
about the fair, dear?” asked Mrs. Carrol, as Amy sat down beside her with the
confiding air elderly people like so well in the young.
“Yes, aunt. Mrs.
Chester asked me if I would, and I offered to tend a table, as I have nothing
but my time to give.”
“I'm not,” put in Jo
decidedly. “I hate to be patronized, and the Chesters think it's a great favor
to allow us to help with their highly connected fair. I wonder you consented,
Amy, they only want you to work.”
“I am willing to work.
It's for the freedmen as well as the Chesters, and I think it very kind of them
to let me share the labor and the fun. Patronage does not trouble me when it is
well meant.”
“Quite right and
proper. I like your grateful spirit, my dear. It's a pleasure to help people
who appreciate our efforts. Some do not, and that is trying,” observed Aunt
March, looking over her spectacles at Jo, who sat apart, rocking herself, with
a somewhat morose expression.
If Jo had only known
what a great happiness was wavering in the balance for one of them, she would
have turned dove-like in a minute, but unfortunately, we don't have windows in
our breasts, and cannot see what goes on in the minds of our friends. Better
for us that we cannot as a general thing, but now and then it would be such a
comfort, such a saving of time and temper. By her next speech, Jo deprived
herself of several years of pleasure, and received a timely lesson in the art
of holding her tongue.
“I don't like favors,
they oppress and make me feel like a slave. I'd rather do everything for
myself, and be perfectly independent.”
“Ahem!” coughed Aunt
Carrol softly, with a look at Aunt March.
“I told you so,” said
Aunt March, with a decided nod to Aunt Carrol.
Mercifully unconscious
of what she had done, Jo sat with her nose in the air, and a revolutionary
aspect which was anything but inviting.
“Do you speak French,
dear?” asked Mrs. Carrol, laying a hand on Amy's.
“Pretty well, thanks to
Aunt March, who lets Esther talk to me as often as I like,” replied Amy, with a
grateful look, which caused the old lady to smile affably.
“How are you about
languages?” asked Mrs. Carrol of JO.
“Don't know a word. I'm
very stupid about studying anything, can't bear French, it's such a slippery,
silly sort of language,” was the brusque reply.
Another look passed
between the ladies, and Aunt March said to Amy, 'You are quite strong and well
no, dear, I believe? Eyes don't trouble you any more, do they?”
“Not at all, thank you,
ma'am. I'm very well, and mean to do great things next winter, so that I may be
ready for Rome, whenever that joyful time arrives.”
“Good girl! You deserve
to go, and I'm sure you will some day,” said Aunt March, with an approving; pat
on the head, as Amy picked up her ball for her.
Crosspatch, draw the
latch,
Sit by the fire and
spin,
squalled Polly, bending down from his perch on the back of her chair to
peep into Jo's face, with such a comical air of impertinent inquiry that it was
impossible to help laughing. “Most
observing bird,” said the old lady.
“Come and take a walk,
my dear?” cried Polly, hopping toward the china closet, with a look suggestive
of a lump of sugar.
“Thank you, I will.
Come Amy.” And Jo brought the visit to an end, feeling more strongly than ever
that calls did have a bad effect upon her constitution. She shook hands in a
gentlemanly manner, but Amy kissed both the aunts, and the girls departed,
leaving behind them the impression of shadow and sunshine, which impression
caused Aunt March to say, as they vanished . . .
“You'd better do it,
Mary. I'll supply the money. And Aunt Carrol to reply decidedly, “I certainly
will, if her father and mother consent.”
Mrs. Chester's fair was
so very elegant and select that it was considered a great honor by the young
ladies of the neighborhood to be invited to take a table, and everyone was much
interest in the matter. Amy was asked, but Jo was not, which was fortunate for
all parties, as her elbows were decidedly akimbo at this period of her life,
and it took a good many hard knocks to teach her how to get on easily. The `haughty,
uninteresting creature' was let severely alone, but Amy's talent and taste were
duly complimented by the offer of the art table, and she exerted herself to
prepare and secure appropriate and valuable contributions to it.
Everything went on
smoothly till the day before the fair opened, then there occurred one of the
little skirmishes which it is almost impossible to avoid, when some
five-and-twenty women, old and young, with all their private piques and
prejudices, try to work together.
May Chester was rather
jealous of Amy because the latter was a greater favorite than herself, and just
at this time several trifling circumstances occurred to increase the feeling.
Amy's dainty pen-and-ink work entirely eclipsed May's painted vases--that was
one thorn. Then the all conquering Tudor had danced four times with Amy at a
late party and only once with May--that was thorn number two. But the chief
grievance that rankled in her soul, and gave an excuse for her unfriendly
conduct, was a rumor which some obliging gossip had whispered to her, that the
March girls had made fun of her at the Lambs'. All the blame of this should
have fallen upon Jo, for her naughty imitation had been too lifelike to escape
detection, and the frolicsome Lambs had permitted the joke to escape. No hint
of this had reached the culprits, however, and Amy's dismay can be imagined,
when, the very evening before the fair, as she was putting the last touches to
her pretty table, Mrs. Chester, who, of course, resented the supposed ridicule of
her daughter, said, in a bland tone, but with a cold look . . .
“I find, dear, that
there is some feeling among the young ladies about my giving this table to
anyone but my girls. As this is the most prominent, and some say the most
attractive table of all, and they are the chief getters-up of the fair, it is
thought best for them to take this place. I'm sorry, but I know you are too
sincerely interested in the cause to mind a little personal disappointment, and
you shall have another table if you like.”
Mrs. Chester fancied
beforehand that it would be easy to deliver this little speech, but when the
time came, she found it rather difficult to utter it naturally, with Amy's
unsuspicious eyes looking straight at her full of surprise and trouble.
“Amy felt that there
was something behind this, but would not guess what, and said quietly, feeling
hurt, and showing that she did, “Perhaps you had rather I took no table at all?”
“Now, my dear, don't
have any ill feeling, I beg. It's merely a matter of expediency, you see, my
girls will naturally take the lead, and this table is considered their proper
place. I think it very appropriate to you, and feel very grateful for your
efforts to make it so pretty, but we must give up our private wishes, of
course, and I will see that you have a good place elsewhere. Wouldn't you like
the flower table? The little girls undertook it, but they are discouraged. You
could make a charming thing of it, and the flower table is always attractive
you know.”
“Especially to gentlemen,”
added May, with a look which enlightened Amy as to one cause of her sudden fall
from favor. She colored angrily, but took no other notice of that girlish
sarcasm, and answered with unexpected amiability . . .
“It shall be as you
please, Mrs. Chester. I'll give up my place here at once, and attend to the
flowers, if you like.”
“You can put your own
things on your own table, if you prefer,” began May, feeling a little
conscience-stricken, as she looked at the pretty racks, the painted shells, and
quaint illuminations Amy had so carefully made and so gracefully arranged. She
meant it kindly, but Amy mistook her meaning, and said quickly . ..
“Oh, certainly, if they
are in your way,” and sweeping her contributions into her apron, pell-mell, she
walked off, feeling that herself and her works of art had been insulted past
forgiveness.
“Now she's mad. Oh,
dear, I wish I hadn't asked you to speak, Mama,” said May, looking
disconsolately at the empty spaces on her table.
“Girls' quarrels are
soon over,” returned her mother, feeling a trifle ashamed of her own part in
this one, as well she might.
The little girls hailed
Amy and her treasures with delight, which cordial reception somewhat soothed
her perturbed spirit, and she fell to work, determined to succeed florally, if
she could not artistically. But everything seemed against her. It was late, and
she was tired. Everyone was too busy with their own affairs to help her, and
the little girls were only hindrances, for the dears fussed and chattered like
so many magpies, making a great deal of confusion in their artless efforts to
preserve the most perfect order. The evergreen arch wouldn't stay firm after
she got it up, but wiggled and threatened to tumble down on her head when the
hanging baskets were filled. Her best tile got a splash of water, which left a
sephia tear on the Cupid's cheek. She bruised her hands with hammering, and got
cold working in a draft, which last affliction filled her with apprehensions
for the morrow. Any girl reader who has suffered like afflictions will
sympathize with poor Amy and wish her well through her task.
There was great
indignation at home when she told her story that evening. Her mother said it
was a shame, but told her she had done right. Beth declared she wouldn't go to
the fair at all, and Jo demanded why she didn't take all her pretty things and
leave those mean people to get on without her.
“Because they are mean
is no reason why i should be. I hate such things, and though I think I've a
right to be hurt, I don't intend to show it. They will feel that more than
angry speeches or huffy actions, won't they, Marmee?”
“That's the right
spirit, my dear. A kiss for a blow is always best, though it's not very easy to
give it sometimes,” said her mother, with the air of one who had learned the
difference between preaching and practicing.
In spite of various
very natural temptations to resent and retaliate, Amy adhered to her resolution
all the next day, bent on conquering her enemy by kindness. She began well, thanks
to a silent reminder that came to her unexpectedly, but most opportunely. As
she arranged her table that morning, while the little girls were in the
anteroom filling the baskets, she took up her pet production, a little book,
the antique cover of which her father had found among his treasures, and in
which on leaves of vellum she had beautifully illuminated different texts. As
she turned the pages rich in dainty devices with very pardonable pride, her eye
fell upon one verse that made her stop and think. Framed in a brilliant
scrollwork of scarlet, blue and gold, with little spirits of good will helping
one another up and down among the thorns and flowers, were the words, “Thou
shalt love thy neighbor as thyself.”
“I ought, but I don't,”
thought Amy, as her eye went from the bright page to May's discontented face
behind the big vases, that could not hide the vacancies her pretty work had
once filled. Amy stood a minute, turning the leaves in her hand, reading on
each some sweet rebuke for all heartburnings and uncharitableness of spirit.
Many wise and true sermons are preached us every day by unconscious ministers
in street, school, office, or home. Even a fair table may become a pulpit, if
it can offer the good and helpful words which are never out of season. Amy's
conscience preached her a little sermon from that text, then and there, and she
did what many of us do not always do, took the sermon to heart, and straightway
put it in practice.
A group of girls were
standing about May's table, admiring the pretty things, and talking over the
change of saleswomen. They dropped their voices, but Amy knew they were
speaking of her, hearing one side of the story and judging accordingly. It was
not pleasant, but a better spirit had come over her, and presently a chance
offered for proving it. She heard May say sorrowfully . . .
“It's too bad, for
there is no time to make other things, and I don't want to fill up with odds
and ends. The table was just complete then. Now it's spoiled.”
“I dare say she'd put them
back if you asked her,” suggested someone.
“How could I after all
the fuss?” began May, but she did not finish, for Amy's voice came across the
hall, saying pleasantly . . .
“You may have them, and
welcome, without asking, if you want them. I was just thinking I'd offer to put
them back, for they belong to your table rather than mine. Here they are,
please take them, and forgive me if I was hasty in carrying them away last
night.”
As she spoke, Amy
returned her contribution, with a nod and a smile, and hurried away again,
feeling that it was easier to do a friendly thing than it was to stay and be
thanked for it.
“Now, I call that
lovely of her, don't you?” cried one girl.
May's answer was
inaudible, but another young lady, whose temper was evidently a little soured
by making lemonade, added, with a disagreeable laugh, “Very lovely, for she
knew she wouldn't sell them at her own table.”
Now, that was hard.
When we make little sacrifices we like to have them appreciated, at least, and
for a minute Amy was sorry she had done it, feeling that virtue was not always
its won reward. But it is, as she presently discovered, for her spirits began
to rise, and her table to blossom under her skillful hands, the girls were very
kind, and that one little act seemed to have cleared the atmosphere amazingly.
It was a very long day
and a hard one for Amy, as she sat behind her table, often quite alone, for the
little girls deserted very soon. Few cared to buy flowers in summer, and her
bouquets began to droop long before night.
The art table was the
most attractive in the room. There was a crowd about it all day long, and the
tenders were constantly flying to and fro with important faces and rattling
money boxes. Amy often looked wistfully across, longing to be there, where she
felt at home and happy, instead of in a corner with nothing to do. It might
seem no hardship to some of us, but to a pretty, blithe young girl, it was not
only tedious, but very trying, and the thought of Laurie and his friends made it
a real martyrdom.
She did not go home
till night, and then she looked so pale and quiet that they knew the day had
been a hard one, though she made no complaint, and did not even tell what she
had done. Her mother gave her an extra cordial cup of tea. Beth helped her
dress, and made a charming little wreath for her hair, while Jo astonished her
family by getting herself up with unusual care, and hinting darkly that the
tables were about to be turned.
“Don't do anything
rude, pray Jo. I won't have any fuss made, so let it all pass and behave
yourself,” begged Amy, as she departed early, hoping to find a reinforcement of
flowers to refresh her poor little table.
“I merely intend to
make myself entrancingly agreeable to ever one I know, and to keep them in your
corner as long as possible. Teddy and his boys will lend a hand, and we'll have
a good time yet.” returned Jo, leaning over the gate to watch for Laurie.
Presently the familiar tramp was heard in the dusk, and she ran out to meet
him.
“Is that my boy?”
“As sure as this is my
girl!” And Laurie tucked her hand under his arm with the air of a man whose
every wish was gratified.
“Oh, teddy, such
doings!” And Jo told Amy's wrongs with sisterly zeal.
“A flock of our fellows
are going to drive over by-and-by, and I'll be hanged if I don't make them buy
every flower she's got, and camp down before her table afterward,” said Laurie,
espousing her cause with warmth.
“The flowers are not at
all nice, Amy says, and the fresh ones may not arrive in time. I don't wish to
be unjust or suspicious, but I shouldn't wonder if they never came at all. When
people do one mean thing they are very likely to do another,” observed Jo in a
disgusted tone.
“Didn't Hayes give you
the best out of our gardens? I told him to.”
“I didn't know that, he
forgot, I suppose, and, as your grandpa was poorly, I didn't like to worry him
by asking, though I did want some.”
“Now, Jo, how could you
think there was any need of asking? They are just as much yours as mine. Don't
we always go halves in everything?” began Laurie, in the tone that always made
Jo turn thorny.
“Gracious, I hope not!
Half of some of your things wouldn't suit me at all. But we mustn't stand
philandering here. I've got to help Amy, so you go and make yourself splendid,
and if you'll be so very kind as to let Hayes take a few nice flowers up to the
Hall, I'll bless you forever.”
“Couldn't you do it
now?” asked Laurie, so suggestively that Jo shut the gate in his face with
inhospitable haste, and called through the bars, “Go away, Teddy, I'm busy.”
Thanks to the
conspirators, the tables were turned that night, for Hayes sent up a wilderness
of flowers, with a loverly basket arranged in his best manner for a
centerpiece. Then the March family turned out en masse, and Jo exerted herself
to some purpose, for people not only came, but stayed, laughing at her
nonsense, admiring Amy's taste, and apparently enjoying themselves very much.
Laurie and his friends gallantly threw themselves into the breach,bought up the
bouquets, encamped before the table, and made that corner the liveliest spot in
the room. Amy was in her element now, and out of gratitude, if nothing more,
was as spritely and gracious as possible, coming to the conclusion, about that
time, that virtue was it's own reward, after all.
Jo behaved herself with
exemplary propriety, and when Amy was happily surrounded by her guard of honor,
Jo circulated about the hall, picking up various bits of gossip, which
enlightened her upon the subject of the Chester change of base. She reproached
herself for her share of the ill feeling and resolved to exonerate Amy as soon
as possible. She also discovered what Amy had done about the things in the
morning,and considered her a model of magnanimity. As she passed the art table,
she glanced over it for her sister's things, but saw no sign of them. “Tucked
away out of sight, I dare say,” thought Jo, who could forgiver her own wrongs,
but hotly resented any insult offered her family.
“Good evening, Miss Jo.
How does Amy get on?” asked May with a conciliatory air, for she wanted to show
that she also could be generous.
“She has sold
everything she had that was worth selling, and now she is enjoying herself. The
flower table is always attractive, you know, `especially to gentlemen'.”
Jo couldn't resist
giving that little slap, but May took it so meekly she regretted it a minute
after, and fell to praising the great vases, which still remained unsold.
“Is Amy's illumination
anywhere about” I took a fancy to buy that for Father,” said Jo, very anxious
to learn the fate of her sister's work.
“Everything of Amy's
sold long ago. I took care that the right people saw them, and they made a nice
little sum of money for us,” returned May, who had overcome sundry small temptations,
as well as Amy had, that day.
Much gratified, Jo
rushed back to tell the good news, and Amy looked both touched and surprised by
the report of May's word and manner.
“Now, gentlemen, I want
you to go and do your duty by the other tables as generously as you have by
mine, especially the art table,” she said, ordering out `Teddy's own', as the
girls called the college friends.
“`Charge, Chester,
charge!' is the motto for that table, but do your duty like men, and you'll get
your money's worth of art in every sense of the word,” said the irrepressible
Jo, as the devoted phalanx prepared to take the field.
“To hear is to obey,
but March is fairer far than May,” said little Parker, making a frantic effort
to be both witty and tender, and getting promptly quenched by Laurie, who said
. . .
“Very well, my son, for
a small boy!” and walked him off, with a paternal pat on the head.
“Buy the vases,”
whispered Amy to Laurie, as a final heaping of coals of fire on her enemy's
head.
To May's great delight,
Mr. Laurence not only bought the vases, but pervaded the hall with one under
each arm. The other gentlemen speculated with equal rashness in all sorts of
frail trifles, and wandered helplessly about afterward, burdened with wax
flowers, painted fans, filigree portfolios, and other useful and appropriate
purchases.
Aunt Carrol was there,
heard the story, looked pleased, and said something to Mrs. March in a corner,
which made the latter lady beam with satisfaction, and watch Amy with a face
full of mingled pride and anxiety, though she did not betray the cause of her
pleasure till several days later.
The fair was pronounced
a success, and when May bade Amy goodnight, she did not gush as usual, but gave
her an affectionate kiss, and a look which said `forgive and forget'. That
satisfied Amy, and when she got home she found the vases paraded on the parlor
chimney piece with a great bouquet in each. “The reward of merit for a
magnanimous March,” as Laurie announced with a flourish.
“You've a deal more
principle and generosity and nobleness of character than I ever gave you credit
for, Amy. You've behaved sweetly, and I respect you with all my heart,” said Jo
warmly, as they brushed their hair together late that night.
“Yes, we all do, and
love her for being so ready to forgive. It must have been dreadfully hard,
after working so long and setting your heart on selling your own pretty things.
I don't believe I could have done it as kindly as you did,” added Beth from her
pillow.
“Why, girls, you needn't
praise me so. I only did as I'd be done by. You laugh at me when I say I want
to be a lady, but I mean a true gentlewoman in mind and manners, and I try to
do it as far as I know how. I can't explain exactly, but I want to be above the
little meannesses and follies and faults that spoil so many women. I'm far from
it now, but I do my best, and hope in time to be what Mother is.”
Amy spoke earnestly,
and Jo said, with a cordial hug, “I understand now what you mean, and I'll
never laugh at you again. You are getting on faster than you think, and I'll
take lessons of you in true politeness, for you've learned the secret, I
believe. Try away, deary, you'll get your reward some day, and no one will be
more delighted than I shall.”
A week later Amy did
get her reward, and poor Jo found it hard to be delighted. A letter came from
Aunt Carrol, and Mrs. March's face was illuminated to such a degree when she
read it that Jo and Beth, who were with her, demanded what the glad tiding
were.
“Aunt Carrol is going abroad
next month, and wants . . .”
“Me to go with her!”
burst in Jo, flying out of her chair in an uncontrollable rapture.
“No, dear, not you.
It's Amy.”
“Oh, Mother! She's too
young, it's my turn first. I've wanted it so long. It would do me so much good,
and be so altogether splendid. I must go!”
“I'm afraid it's
impossible, Jo. Aunt says Amy, decidedly, and it is not for us to dictate when
she offers such a favor.”
“It's always so. Amy
has all the fun and I have all the work. It isn't fair, oh, it isn't fair!”
cried Jo passionately.
“I'm afraid it's partly
your own fault, dear. When Aunt spoke to me the other day, she regretted your
blunt manners and too independent spirit, and here she writes, as if quoting
something you had said--`I planned at first to ask Jo, but as `favors burden
her', and she `hates French', I think I won't venture to invite her. Amy is
more docile, will make a good companion for Flo, and receive gratefully any
help the trip may give her.”
“Oh, my tongue, my
abominable tongue! Why can't I learn to keep it quiet?' groaned Jo, remembering
words which had been her undoing. When she had heard the explanation of the
quoted phrases, Mrs. March said sorrowfully . . .
“I wish you could have
gone, but there is no hope of it this time, so try to bear it cheerfully, and
don't sadden Amy's pleasure by reproaches or regrets.”
“I'll try,” said Jo,
winking hard as she knelt down to pick up the basket she had joyfully upset. “I'll
take a leaf out of her book, and try not only to seem glad, but to be so, and
not grudge her one minute of happiness. But it won't be easy, for it is a
dreadful disappointment.” And poor Jo bedewed the little fat pincushion she
held with several very bitter tears.
“Jo, dear, I'm very
selfish, but I couldn't spare you, and I'm glad you are not going quite yet,”
whispered Beth, embracing her, basket and all, with such a clinging touch and
loving face that Jo felt comforted in spite of the sharp regret that made her
want to box her own ears, and humbly beg Aunt Carrol to burden her with this
favor, and see how gratefully she would bear it.
By the time Amy came
in, Jo was able to take her part in the family jubilation, not quite as
heartily as usual, perhaps, but without repinings at Amy's good fortune. The young
lady herself received the news as tidings of great joy, went about in a solemn
sort of rapture, and began to sort her colors and pack her pencils that
evening, leaving such trifles as clothes, money, and passports to those less
absorbed in visions of art than herself.
“It isn't a mere
pleasure trip to me, girls,” she said impressively, as she scraped her best
palette. “It will decide my career, for if I have any genius, I shall find it
out in Rome, and will do something to prove it.”
“Suppose you haven't?”
said Jo, sewing away, with red eyes, at the new collars which were to be handed
over to Amy.
“Then I shall come home
and teach drawing for my living,” replied the aspirant for fame, with
philosophic composure. But she made a wry face at the prospect, and scratched
away at her palette as if bent on vigorous measures before she gave up her
hopes.
“No, you won't. You
hate hard work, and you'll marry some rich man, and come home to sit in the lap
of luxury all your days,” said Jo.
“Your predictions
sometimes come to pass, but I don't believe that one will. I'm sure I wish it
would, for if I can't be an artist myself, I should like to be able to help
those who are,” said Amy, smiling, as if the part of Lady Bountiful would suit
her better than that of a poor drawing teacher.
“Hum!” said Jo, with a
sigh. “If you wish it you'll have it, for your wishes are always granted--mine
never.”
“Would you like to go?”
asked Amy, thoughtfully patting her nose with her knife.
“Rather!”
“Well, in a year or two
I'll send for you, and we'll dig in the Forum for relics, and carry out all the
plans we've made so many times.”
“Thank you. I'll remind
you of your promise when that joyful day comes, if it ever does,” returned Jo,
accepting the vague but magnificent offer as gratefully as she could.
“There was not much
time for preparation, and the house was in a ferment till Amy was off. Jo bore
up very well till the last flutter of blue ribbon vanished, when she retired to
her refuge, the garret, and cried till she couldn't cry any more. Amy likewise
bore up stoutly till the steamer sailed. Then just as the gangway was about to
be withdrawn, it suddenly came over her that a whole ocean was soon to roll
between her and those who loved her best, and she clung to Laurie, the last
lingerer, saying with a sob . . .
“Oh, take care of them
for me, and if anything should happen. . . “
“I will, dear, I will,
and if anything happens, I'll come and comfort you,” whispered Laurie, little
dreaming that he would be called upon to keep his word.
So Amy sailed away to
find the Old World, which is always new and beautiful to young eyes, while her
father and friend watched her from the shore, fervently hoping that none but
gentle fortunes would befall the happy-hearted girl, who waved her hand to them
till they could see nothing but the summer sunshine dazzling on the sea.
London
Dearest People,
Here I really sit at a
front window of the Bath Hotel, Piccadilly. It's not a fashionable place, but Uncle
stopped here years ago, and won't go anywhere else. However, we don't mean to
stay long, so it's no great matter. Oh, I can't begin to tell you how I enjoy
it all! I never can, so I'll only give you bits out of my notebook, for I've
done nothing but sketch and scribble since I started.
I sent a line from
Halifax, when I felt pretty miserable, but after that I got on delightfully,
seldom ill, on deck all day, with plenty of pleasant people to amuse me.
Everyone was very kind to me, especially the officers. Don't laugh, Jo,
gentlemen really are very necessary aboard ship, to hold on to, or to wait upon
one, and as they have nothing to do, it's a mercy to make them useful,
otherwise they would smoke themselves to death, I'm afraid.
Aunt and Flo were poorly
all the way, and liked to be let alone, so when I had done what I could for
them, I went and enjoyed myself. Such walks on deck, such sunsets, such
splendid air and waves! It was almost as exciting as riding a fast horse, when
we went rushing on so grandly. I wish Beth could have come, it would have done
her so much good. As for Jo, she would have gone up and sat on the maintop jib,
or whatever the high thing is called, made friends with the engineers, and
tooted on the captain's speaking trumpet, she'd have been in such a state of
rapture.
It was all heavenly,
but I was glad to see the Irish coast, and found it very lovely, so green and
sunny, with brown cabins here and there, ruins on some of the hills, and
gentlemen's countryseats in the valleys, with deer feeding in the parks. It was
early in the morning, but I didn't regret getting up to see it, for the bay was
full of little boats, the shore so picturesque, and a rosy sky overhead. I
never shall forget it.
At Queenstown on of my
new acquaintances left us, Mr. Lennox, and when I said something about the
Lakes of Killarney, he sighed and and, with a look at me . . .
“Oh, have you e'er
heard of Kate Kearney?
She lives on the banks
of Killarney;
From the glance of her
eye,
Shun danger and fly,
For fatal's the glance
of Kate Kearney.”
Wasn't that nonsensical? We
only stopped at Liverpool a few hours. It's a dirty, noisy place, and I was
glad to leave it. Uncle rushed out and bought a pair of dogskin gloves, some
ugly, thick shoes, and an umbrella, and got shaved `a la mutton chop, the first
thing. Then he flattered himself that he looked like a true Briton, but the
first time he had the mud cleaned off his shoes, the little bootblack knew that
an American stood in them, and said, with a grin, “There yer har, sir. I've
given `em the latest Yankee shine.” It amused Uncle immensely. Oh, I must tell
you what that absurd Lennox did! He got his friend Ward, who came on with us,
to order a bouquet for me, and the first thing I saw in my room was a lovely
one, with “Robert Lennox's compliments,” on the card. Wasn't that fun, girls? I
like traveling.
I never shall get to
London if I don't hurry. The trip was like riding through a long picture
gallery, full of lovely landscapes. The farmhouses were my delight, with
thatched roofs, ivy up to the eaves, latticed windows, and stout women with
rosy children at the doors. The very cattle looked more tranquil than ours, as
they stood knee-deep in clover, and the hens had a contented cluck, as if they
never got nervous like Yankee biddies. Such perfect color I never saw, the
grass so green, sky so blue, grain so yellow, woods so dark, I was in a rapture
all the way. So was Flo, and we kept bouncing from one side to the other,
trying to see everything while we were whisking along at the rate of sixty
miles an hour. Aunt was tired and went to sleep, but Uncle read his guidebook,
and wouldn't be astonished at anything. This is the way we went on. Amy, flying
up--”Oh, that must be Kenilworth, that gray place among the trees!” Flo,
darting to my window--”How sweet! We must go there sometime, won't we Papa?”
Uncle, calmly admiring his boots--”No, my dear, not unless you want beer,
that's a brewery.”
A pause--then Flo cried
out, “Bless me, there's a gallows and a man going up.” “Where, where?” shrieks
Amy, staring out at two tall posts with a crossbeam and some dangling chains. “A
colliery,” remarks Uncle, with a twinkle of the eye. “Here's a lovely flock of
lambs all lying down,” says Amy. “See, Papa, aren't they pretty?” added Flo
sentimentally. “Geese, young ladies,” returns Uncle, in a tone that keeps us
quiet till Flo settles down to enjoy the FLIRTATIONS OF CAPTAIN CAVENDISH, and
I have the scenery all to myself.
Of course it rained
when we got to London, and there was nothing to be seen but fog and umbrellas.
We rested, unpacked, and shopped a little between the showers. Aunt Mary got me
some new things, for I came off in such a hurry I wasn't half ready. A white
hat and blue feather, a muslin dress to match, and the loveliest mantle you
ever saw. Shopping in Regent Street is perfectly splendid. Things seem so
cheap, nice ribbons only sixpence a yard. I laid in a stock, but shall get my
gloves in Paris. Doesn't that sound sort of elegant and rich?
Flo and I, for the fun
of it, ordered a hansom cab, while Aunt and Uncle were out, and went for a
drive, though we learned afterward that it wasn't the thing for young ladies to
ride in them alone. It was so droll! For when we were shut in by the wooden
apron, the man drove so fast that Flo was frightened, and told me to stop him.
but he was up outside behind somewhere, and I couldn't get at him. He didn't
hear me call, nor see me flap my parasol in front, and there we were, quite
helpless, rattling away, and whirling around corners at a breakneck pace. At
last, in my despair, I saw a little door in the roof, and on poking it open, a
red eye appeared, and a beery voice said . . .
“Now, then, mum?”
I gave my order as
soberly as I could, and slamming down the door, with an “Aye, aye, mum,” the
man made his horse walk, as if going to a funeral. I poked again and said, “A
little faster,” then off he went, helter-skelter as before, and we resigned
ourselves to our fate.
Today was fair, and we
went to Hyde Park, close by, for we are more aristocratic than we look. The
Duke of Devonshire lives near. I often see his footmen lounging at the back
gate, and the Duke of Wellington's house is not far off. Such sights as I saw,
my dear! It was as good as Punch, for there were fat dowagers rolling about in
their red and yellow coaches, with gorgeous Jeameses in silk stockings and
velvet coats, up behind, and powdered coachmen in front. Smart maids, with the
rosiest children I ever saw, handsome girls, looking half asleep, dandies in
queer English hats and lavender kids lounging about, and tall soldiers, in
short red jackets and muffin caps stuck on one side, looking so funny I longed
to sketch them.
Rotten Row means `Route
de Roi', or the king's way, but now it's more like a riding school than
anything else. The horses are splendid, and the men, especially the grooms,
ride well, but the women are stiff, and bounce, which isn't according to our
rules. I longed to show them a tearing American gallop, for they trotted
solemnly up and down, in their scant habits and high hats, looking like the
women in a toy Noah's Ark. Everyone rides--old men, stout ladies, little
children-- and the young folks do a deal of flirting here, I say a pair
exchange rose buds, for it's the thing to wear one in the button-hole, and I
thought it rather a nice little idea.
In the P.M. to
Westminster Abbey, but don't expect me to describe it, that's impossible, so
I'll only say it was sublime! This evening we are going to see Fechter, which
will be an appropriate end to the happiest day of my life.
It's very late, but I
can't let my letter go in the morning without telling you what happened last
evening. Who do you think came in, as we were at tea? Laurie's English friends,
Fred and Frank Vaughn! I was so surprised, for I shouldn't have known them but
for the cards. both are tall fellows with whiskers, Fred handsome in the
English style, and Frank much better, for he only limps slightly, and uses no
crutches. They had heard from Laurie where we were to be, and came to ask us to
their house, but Uncle won't go, so we shall return the call, and see them as
we can. They went to the theater with us, and we did have such a good time, for
Frank devoted himself to Flo, and Fred and I talked over past, present, and future
fun as if we had know each other all our days. Tell Beth Frank asked for her,
and was sorry to hear of her ill health. Fred laughed when I spoke of Jo, and
sent his `respectful compliments to the big hat'. Neither of them had forgotten
Camp Laurence, or the fun we had there. What ages ago it seems, doesn't it?
Aunt is tapping on the
wall for the third time, so I must stop. I really feel like a dissipated London
fine lady, writing here so late, with my room full of pretty things, and my
head a jumble of parks, theaters, new gowns, and gallant creatures who say “Ah!”
and twirl their blond mustaches with the true English lordliness. I long to see
you all, and in spite of my nonsense am, as ever, your loving . . .
AMY
PARIS
Dear girls,
In my last I told you
about our London visit, how kind the Vaughns were, and what pleasant parties
they made for us. I enjoyed the trips to Hampton Court and the Kensington
Museum more than anything else, for at Hampton I saw Raphael's cartoons, and at
the Museum, rooms full of pictures by Turner, Lawrence, Reynolds, Hogarth, and
the other great creatures. The day in Richmond Park was charming, for we had a
regular English picnic, and I had more splendid oaks and groups of deer than I
could copy, also heard a nightingale, and saw larks go up. We `did' London to
our heart's content, thanks to Fred and Frank, and were sorry to go away, for
though English people are slow to take you in, when they once make up their
minds to do it they cannot be outdone in hospitality, I think. The Vaughns hope
to meet us in Rome next winter, and I shall be dreadfully disappointed if they
don't, for Grace and I are great friends, and the boys very nice fellows,
especially Fred.
Well, we were hardly
settled here, when he turned up again, saying he had come for a holiday, and
was going to Switzerland. Aunt looked sober at first, but he was so cool about
it she couldn't say a word. And now we get on nicely, and are very glad he
came, for he speaks French like a native, and I don't know what we should do
without him. Uncle doesn't know ten words, and insists on talking English very
loud, as if it would make people understand him. Aunt's pronunciation is
old-fashioned, and Flo and I, though we flattered ourselves that we knew a good
deal, find we don't, and are very grateful to have Fred do the `parley vooing',
as Uncle calls it.
Such delightful times
as we are having! Sight-seeing from morning till night, stopping for nice
lunches in the gay cafes, and meeting with all sorts of droll adventures. Rainy
days I spend in the Louvre, revelling in pictures. Jo would turn up her naughty
nose at some of the finest, because she has no soul for art, but I have, and
I'm cultivation eye and taste as fast as I can. She would like the relics of
great people better, for I've seen her Napoleon's cocked hat and gray coat, his
baby's cradle and his old toothbrush, also Marie Antoinette's little shoe, the
ring of Saint Denis, Charlemagne's sword, and many other interesting things.
I'll talk for hours about them when I come, but haven't time to write.
The Palais Royale is a
heavenly place, so full of bijouterie and lovely things that I'm nearly
distracted because I can't buy them. Fred wanted to get me some, but of course
I didn't allow it. Then the Bois and Champs Elysees are tres magnifique. I've
seen the imperial family several times, the emperor an ugly, hard-looking man,
the empress pale and pretty, but dressed in bad taste, I thought--purple dress,
green hat, and yellow gloves. Little Nap is a handsome boy, who sits chatting
to his tutor, and kissed his hand to the people as he passes in his four-horse
barouche, with postilions in red satin jackets and a mounted guard before and
behind.
We often walk in the
Tuileries Gardens, for they are lovely, though the antique Luxembourg Gardens
suit me better. Pere la Chaise is very curious, for many of the tombs are like
small rooms, and looking in, one sees a table, with images or pictures of the
dead, and chairs for the mourners to sit in when they come to lament. That is
so Frenchy.
Our rooms are on the
Rue de Rivoli, and sitting on the balcony, we look up and down the long,
brilliant street. It is so pleasant that we spend our evenings talking there
when too tired with our day's work to go out. Fred is very entertaining, and is
altogether the most agreeable young man I ever knew--except Laurie, whose
manners are more charming. I wish Fred was dark, for I don't fancy light men,
however, the Vaughns are very rich and come of an excellent family, so I won't
find fault with their yellow hair, as my own is yellower.
Next week we are off to
Germany and Switzerland, and as we shall travel fast, I shall only be able to
give you hasty letters. I keep my diary, and try to `remember correctly and
describe clearly all that I see and admire', as Father advised. It is good
practice for me, and with my sketchbook will give you a better idea of my tour
than these scribbles.
Adieu, I embrace you
tenderly.
VOTRE AMIE
HEIDELBERG
My dear Mamma,
Having a quiet hour
before we leave for Berne, I'll try to tell you what has happened, for some of
it is very important, as you will see.
The sail up the Rhine
was perfect, and I just sat and enjoyed it with all my might. Get Father's old
guidebooks and read about it. I haven't words beautiful enough to describe it.
At Coblenz we had a lovely time, for some students from Bonn, with whom Fred
got acquainted on the boat, gave us a serenade. It was a moonlight night, and
about one o'clock Flo and I were waked by the most delicious music under our
windows. We flew up, and hid behind the curtains, but sly peeps showed us Fred
and the students singing away down below. It was the most romantic thing I ever
saw--the river, the bridge of boats, the great fortress opposite, moonlight
everywhere, and music fit to melt a heart of stone.
When they were done we
threw down some flowers, and saw them scramble for them, kiss their hands to
the invisible ladies, and go laughing away, to smoke and drink beer, I suppose.
Next morning Fred showed me one of the crumpled flowers in his vest pocket, and
looked very sentimental. I laughed at him, and said I didn't throw it, but Flo,
which seemed to disgust him, for he tossed it out of the window, and turned
sensible again. I'm afraid I'm going to have trouble with that boy, it begins
to look like it.
The baths at Nassau
were very gay, so was Baden-Baden, where Fred lost some money, and I scolded
him. He needs someone to look after him when Frank is not with him. Kate said
once she hoped he'd marry soon, and I quite agree with her that it would be
well for him. Frankfurt was delightful. I saw Goeth's house, Schiller's statue,
and Dannecker's famous ARIADNE. It was very lovely, but I should have enjoyed
it more if I had known the story better. I didn't like to ask, as everyone knew
it or pretended they did. I wish Jo would tell me all about it. I ought to have
read more, for I find I don't know anything, and it mortifies me.
Now comes the serious
part, for it happened here, and Fred has just gone. He has been so kind and
jolly that we all got quite fond of him. I never thought of anything but a
traveling friendship till the serenade night. Since then I've begun to feel
that the moonlight walks, balcony talks, and daily adventures were something
more to him than fun. I haven't flirted, Mother, truly, but remembered what you
said to me, and have done my very best. I can't help it if people like me. I
don't try to make them, and it worries me if I don't care for them, though Jo
says I haven't got any heart. Now I know Mother will shake her head, and the
girls say, “Oh, the mercenary little wretch!”, but I've made up my mind, and if
Fred asks me, I shall accept him, though I'm not madly in love. I like him, and
we get on comfortably together. He is handsome, young, clever enough, and very
rich--ever so much richer than the Laurences. I don't think his family would
object, and I should be very happy, for they are all kind, well-bred, generous
people, and they like me. Fred, as the eldest twin, will have the estate, I suppose,
and such a splendid one it is! A city house in a fashionable street, not so
showy as our big houses, but twice as comfortable and full of solid luxury,
such as English people believe in. I like it, for it's genuine. I've seen the
plate, the family jewels, the old servants, and pictures of the country place,
with its park, great house, lovely grounds, and fine horses. Oh, it would be
all I should ask! And I'd rather have it than any title such as girls snap up
so readily, and find nothing behind. I may be mercenary, but I hate poverty,
and don't mean to bear it a minute longer than I can help. One of us must marry
well. Meg didn't, Jo won't, Beth can't yet, so I shall, and make everything
okay all round. I wouldn't marry a man I hated or despised. You may be sure of
that, and though Fred is not my model hero, he does very well, and in time I
should get fond enough of him if he was very fond of me, and let me do just as
I liked. So I've been turning the matter over in my mind the last week, for it
was impossible to help seeing that Fred liked me. He said nothing, but little
things showed it. He never goes with Flo, always gets on my side of the
carriage, table, or promenade, looks sentimental when we are alone, and frowns
at anyone else who ventures to speak tome. Yesterday at dinner, when an
Austrian officer stared at us and then said something to his friend, a
rakish-looking baron, about `ein wonderschönes Blöndchen', Fred looked as
fierce as a lion, and cut his meat so savagely it nearly flew off his plate. He
isn't one of the cool, stiff Englishmen, but is rather peppery, for he has
Scotch blood in him, as one might guess from his bonnie blue eyes.
Well, last evening we
went up to the castle about sunset, at least all of us but Fred, who was to
meet us there after going to the Post Restante for letters. We had a charming
time poking about the ruins, the vaults where the monster tun is, and the
beautiful gardens made by the elector long ago for his English wife. I liked
the great terrace best, for the view was divine, so while the rest went to see
the rooms inside, I sat there trying to sketch the gray stone lion's head on
the wall, with scarlet woodbine sprays hanging round it. I felt as if I'd got
into a romance, sitting there, watching the Meckar rolling through the valley,
listening to the music of the Austrian band below, and waiting for my lover,
like a real storybook girl. I had a feeling that something was going to happen
and I was ready for it. I didn't feel blushy or quakey, but quite cool and only
a little excited.
By-and-by I heard
Fred's voice, and then he came hurrying through the great arch to find me. He
looked so troubled that I forgot all about myself, and asked what the matter
was. He said he'd just got a letter begging him to come home, for Frank was
very ill. So he was going at once on the night train and only had time to say
good-by. I was very sorry for him, and disappointed for myself, but only for a
minute because he said, as he shook hands, and said it in a way that I could
not mistake, “I shall soon come back, you won't forget me, Amy?”
I didn't promise, but I
looked at him, and he seemed satisfied, and there was no time for anything but
messages and good-byes, for he was off in an hour, and we all miss him very
much. I know he wanted to speak, but I think, from something he once hinted,
that he had promised his father not to do anything of the sort yet a while, for
is is a rash boy, and the old gentleman dreads a foreign daughter-in-law. We
shall soon meet in Rome, and then, if I don't change my mind, I'll say “Yes,
thank you,” when he says “Will you, please?”
Of course this is all
very private, but I wished you to know what was going on. Don't be anxious
about me, remember I am your `prudent Amy', and be sure I will do nothing rashly.
Send me as much advice as you like. I'll use it if I can. I wish I could see
you for a good talk, Marmee. Love and trust me.
Ever your AMY
“Jo, I'm anxious about
Beth.”
“Why, Mother, she has
seemed unusually well since the babies came.”
“It's not her health
that troubles me now, it's her spirits. I'm sure there is something on her
mind, and I want you to discover what it is.”
“What makes you think
so, Mother?”
“She sits alone a good
deal, and doesn't talk to her father as much as she used. I found her crying
over the babies the other day. When she sings, the songs are always sad ones,
and now and then I see a look in her face that I don't understand. This isn't
like Beth, and it worries me.”
“Have you asked her
about it?'
“I have tried once or
twice, but she either evaded my questions or looked so distressed that I
stopped. I never force my children's confidence, and I seldom have to wait for
long.”
Mrs. March glanced at
Jo as she spoke, but the face opposite seemed quite unconscious of any secret
disquietude but Beth's, and after sewing thoughtfully for a minute, Jo said, “I
think she is growing up, and so begins to dream dreams, and have hopes and
fears and fidgets, without knowing why or being able to explain them. Why,
Mother, Beth's eighteen, but we don't realize it, and treat her like a child,
forgetting she's a woman.”
“So she is. Dear heart,
how fast you do grow up,” returned her mother with a sigh and a smile.
“Can't be helped,
Marmee, so you must resign yourself to all sorts of worries, and let your birds
hop out of the nest, one by one. I promise never to hop very far, if that is
any comfort to you.”
“It's a great comfort,
Jo. I always feel strong when you are at home, now Meg is gone. Beth is too
feeble and Amy too young to depend upon, but when the tug comes, you are always
ready.”
“Why, you know I don't
mind hard jobs much, and there must always be one scrub in a family. Amy is
splendid in fine works and I'm not, but I feel in my element when all the
carpets are to be taken up, or half the family fall sick at once. Amy is
distinguishing herself abroad, but if anything is amiss at home, I'm your man.”
“I leave Beth to your
hands, then, for she will open her tender little heart to her Jo sooner than to
anyone else. Be very kind, and don't let her think anyone watches or talks
about; her. If she only would get quite strong and cheerful again, I shouldn't
have a wish in the world.”
“Happy woman! I've got
heaps.”
“My dear, what are
they?”
“I'll settle Bethy's
troubles, and then I'll tell you mine. They are not very wearing, so they'll
keep.” And Jo stitched away, with a wise nod which set her mother's heart at
rest about her for the present at least.
While apparently
absorbed in her own affairs, Jo watched Beth, and after many conflicting
conjectures, finally settled upon one which seemed to explain the change in
her. A slight incident gave Jo the clue to the mystery, she thought, and lively
fancy, loving heart did the rest. She was affecting to write busily one
Saturday afternoon, when she and Beth were alone together. Yet as she
scribbled, she kept her eye on her sister, who seemed unusually quiet. Sitting
at the window, Beth's work often dropped into her lap, and she leaned her head
upon her hand, in a dejected attitude, while her eyes rested on the dull,
autumnal landscape. Suddenly some one passed below, whistling like an operatic
blackbird, and a voice called out, “All serene! Coming in tonight.”
Beth started, leaned
forward, smiled and nodded, watched the passer-by till his quick tramp died
away, then said softly as if to herself, “How strong and well and happy that
dear boy looks.”
“Hum!” said Jo, still
intent upon her sister's face, for the bright color faded as quickly as it
came, the smile vanished, and presently a tear lay shining on the window ledge.
Beth whisked it off, and in her half-averted face read a tender sorrow that
made her own eyes fill. Fearing to betray herself, she slipped away, murmuring
something about needing more paper.
“Mercy on me, Beth
loves Laurie!” she said, sitting down in her own room, pale with the shock of
the discovery which she believed she had just made. “I never dreamed of such a
thing. What will Mother say? I wonder if her . . .” there Jo stopped and turned
scarlet with a sudden thought. “If he shouldn't love back again, how dreadful
it would be. He must. I'll make him!” And she shook her head threateningly at
the picture of the mischievous-looking boy laughing at her from the wall. “Oh
dear, we are growing up with a vengeance. Here's Meg married and a mamma, Amy
flourishing away at Paris, and Beth in love. I'm the only one that has sense
enough to keep out of mischief.” Jo thought intently for a minute with her eyes
fixed on the picture, then she smoothed out her wrinkled forehead and said,
with a decided nod at the face opposite, “No thank you, sir, you're very
charming, but you've no more stability than a weathercock. So you needn't write
touching notes and smile in that insinuating way, for it won't do a bit of
good, and I won't have it.”
Then she sighed, and
fell into a reverie from which she did not wake till the early twilight sent
her down to take new observations, which only confirmed her suspicion. Though
Laurie flirted with Amy and joked with Jo, his manner to Beth had always been
peculiarly kind and gentle, but so was everybody's. Therefore, no one thought
of imagining that he cared more for her than for the others. Indeed, a general
impression had prevailed in the family of late that `our boy' was getting
fonder than ever of Jo, who, however, wouldn't hear a word upon the subject and
scolded violently if anyone dared to suggest it. If they had known the various
tender passages which had been nipped in the bud, they would have had the
immense satisfaction of saying, “I told you so.” But Jo hated `philandering',
and wouldn't allow it, always having a joke or a smile ready at the least sign
of impending danger.
When Laurie first went
to college, he fell in love about once a month, but these small flames were as
brief as ardent, did no damage, and much amused Jo, who took great interest in
the alternations of hop, despair, and resignation, which were confided to her
in their weekly conferences. But there came a time when Laurie ceased to
worship at many shrines, hinted darkly at one all-absorbing passion, and
indulged occasionally in Byronic fits of gloom. Then he avoided the tender
subject altogether, wrote philosophical notes to Jo, turned studious, and gave
out that he was going to `dig', intending to graduate in a blaze of glory. This
suited the young lady better than twilight confidences, tender pressures of the
hand,, and eloquent glances of the eye, for with Jo, brain developed earlier
than heart, and she preferred imaginary heroes to real ones, because when tired
of them, the former could be shut up in the tin kitchen till called for, and
the latter were less manageable.
Things were in this
state when the grand discovery was made, and Jo watched Laurie that night as
she had never done before. If she had not got the new idea into her head, she
would have seen nothing unusual in the fact that Beth was very quiet, and
Laurie very kind to her. But having given the rein to her lively fancy, it
galloped away with her at a great pace, and common sense, being rather weakened
by a long course or romance writing, did not come to the rescue. As usual Beth
lay on the sofa and Laurie sat in a low chair close by, amusing her with all
sorts of gossip, for she depended on her weekly `spin', and he never disappointed
her. But that evening Jo fancied that Beth's eyes rested on the lively, dark
face beside her with peculiar pleasure, and that she listened with intense
interest to an account of some exciting cricket match, though the phrases,
`caught off a tice', `stumped off his ground'', and `the leg hit for three',
were as intelligible to her as Sanskrit. She also fancied, having set her heart
upon seeing it, that she saw a certain increase of gentleness in Laurie's
manner, that he dropped his voice now and then, laughed less than usual, was a
little absent--minded, and settled the afghan over Beth's feet with an
assiduity that was really almost tender.
“Who knows? Stranger
things have happened,” thought Jo, as she fussed about the room. “She will make
quite an angel of him, and he will make life delightfully easy and pleasant for
the dear, if they only love each other. I don't see how he can help it, and I
do believe he would if the rest of us were out of the way.”
As everyone was out of
the way but herself, Jo began to feel that she ought to dispose of herself with
all speed. But where should she go? And burning to lay herself upon the shrine
of sisterly devotion, she sat down to settle that point.
Now, the old sofa was a
regular patriarch of a sofa--long, broad, well-cushioned, and low, a trifle
shabby, as well it might be, for the girls had slept and sprawled on it as
babies, fished over the back, rode on the arms, and had menageries under it as
children, and rested tired heads, dreamed dreams, and listened to tender talk
on it as young women. They all loved it, for it was a family refuge, and one
corner had always been Jo's favorite lounging place. Among the many pillows
that adorned the venerable couch was one, hard, round, covered with prickly
horsehair, and furnished with a knobby button at each end. This repulsive
pillow was her especial property, being used as a weapon of defense, a
barricade, or a stern preventive of too much slumber.
Laurie knew this pillow
well, and had cause to regard it with deep aversion, having been unmercifully
pummeled with it in former days when romping was allowed, and now frequently
debarred by it from the seat he most coveted next to Jo in the sofa corner. If
`the sausage' as the called it, stood on end, it was a sign that he might
approach and repose, but if it lay flat across the sofa, woe to man, woman, or
child who dared disturb it! That evening Jo forgot to barricade her corner, and
had not been in her seat five minutes, before a massive form appeared beside
her, and with both arms spread over the sofa back, both long legs stretched out
before him, Laurie exclaimed, with a sigh of satisfaction . . .
“Now, this is filling
at the price.”
“No slang,” snapped Jo,
slamming down the pillow. But it was too late, there was no room for it, and
coasting onto the floor, it disappeared in a most mysterious manner.
“Come, Jo, don't be
thorny. After studying himself to a skeleton all the week, a fellow deserves
petting and ought to get it.”
“Beth will pet you. I'm
busy.”
“No, she's not to be
bothered with me, but you like that sort of thing, unless you've suddenly lost
your taste for it. Have you? Do you hate your boy, and want to fire pillows at
him?”
Anything more
wheedlesome than that touching appeal was seldom heard, but Jo quenched `her
boy' by turning on him with a stern query, “How many bouquets have you sent
Miss Randal this week?”
“Not one, upon my word.
She's engaged. Now then.”
“I'm glad of it, that's
one of your foolish extravagances, sending flowers and things to girls for whom
you don't care two pins,” continued Jo reprovingly.
“Sensible girls for
whom I do care whole papers of pins won't let me send them `flowers and
things', so what can I do? My feelings need a `vent'.”
“Mother doesn't approve
of flirting even in fun, and you do flirt desperately, Teddy.”
“I'd give anything if I
could answer, `So do you'. As I can't, I'll merely say that I don't see any
harm in that pleasant little game, if all parties understand that it's only
play.”
“Well, it does look
pleasant, but I can't learn how it's done. I've tried, because one feels
awkward in company not to do as everybody else is doing, but I don't seem to
get on”, said Jo, forgetting to play mentor.
“Take lessons of Amy,
she has a regular talent for it.”
“Yes, she does it very
prettily, and never seems to go too far. I suppose it's natural to some people
to please without trying, and others to always say and do the wrong thing in
the wrong place.”
“I'm glad you can't
flirt. It's really refreshing to see a sensible, straightforward girl, who can
be jolly and kind without making a fool of herself. Between ourselves, Jo, some
of the girls I know really do go on at such a rate I'm ashamed of them. They
don't mean any harm, I'm sure, but if they knew how we fellows talked about
them afterward, they'd mend their ways, I fancy.”
“They do the same, and
as their tongues are the sharpest, you fellows get the worst of it, for you are
as silly as they, every bit. If you behaved properly, they would, but knowing
you like their nonsense, they keep it up, and then you blame them.”
“Much you know about
it, ma'am,” said Laurie in a superior tone. “We don't like romps and flirts,
though we may act as if we did sometimes. The pretty, modest girls are never
talked about, except respectfully, among gentleman. Bless your innocent soul!
If you could be in my place for a month you'd see things that would astonish
you a trifle. Upon my word, when I see one of those harum-scarum girls, I
always want to say with our friend Cock Robin . . .
“Out upon you, fie upon
you,
Bold-faced jig!”
It was impossible to
help laughing at the funny conflict between Laurie's chivalrous reluctance to
speak ill of womankind, and his very natural dislike of the unfeminine folly of
which fashionable society showed him many samples. Jo knew that `young
Laurence' was regarded as a most eligible parti by worldly mamas, was much
smiled upon by their daughters, and flattered enough by ladies of all ages to
make a coxcomb of him, so she watched him rather jealously, fearing he would be
spoiled, and rejoiced more than she confessed to find that he still believed in
modest girls. Returning suddenly to her admonitory tone, she said, dropping her
voice, “If you must have a `went', Teddy, go and devote yourself to one of the
`pretty, modest girls' whom you do respect, and not waste your time with the
silly ones.”
“You really advise it?”
And Laurie looked at her with an odd mixture of anxiety and merriment in his
face.
“Yes, I do, but you'd
better wait till you are through college, on the whole, and be fitting yourself
for the place meantime. You're not half good enough for--well, whoever the
modest girl may be.” And Jo looked a little queer likewise, for a name had
almost escaped her.
“That I'm not!”
acquiesced Laurie, with an expression of humility quite new to him, as he
dropped his eyes and absently wound Jo's apron tassel round his finger.
“Mercy on us, this will
never do,” thought Jo, adding aloud, “Go and sing to me. I'm dying for some
music, and always like yours.”
“I'd rather stay here,
thank you.”
“Well, you can't, there
isn't room. Go and make yourself useful, since you are too big to be
ornamental. I thought you hated to be tied to a woman's apron string?” retorted
Jo, quoting certain rebellious words of his own.
“Ah, that depends on
who wears the apron!” and Laurie gave an audacious tweak at the tassel.
“Are you going?”
demanded Jo, diving for the pillow.
He fled at once, and
the minute it was well, “Up with the bonnets of bonnie Dundee,” she slipped
away to return no more till the young gentleman departed in high dudgeon.
Jo lay long awake that
night, and was just dropping off when the sound of a stifled sob made her fly
to Beth's bedside, with the anxious inquiry, “What is it, dear?”
“I thought you were
asleep,” sobbed Beth.
“Is it the old pain, my
precious?'
“No, it's a new one,
but I can bear it.” And Beth tried to check her tears.
“Tell me all about it,
and let me cure it as I often did the other.”
“You can't, there is no
cure.” There Beth's voice gave way, and clinging to her sister, she cried so
despairingly that Jo was frightened.
“Where is it? Shall I
call Mother?”
“No, no, don't call
her, don't tell her. I shall be better soon. Lie down here and `poor' my head.
I'll be quiet and go to sleep, indeed I will.”
Jo obeyed, but as her
hand went softly to and fro across Beth's hot forehead and wet eyelids, her
heart was very full and she longed to speak. But young as she was, Jo had
learned that hearts, like flowers, cannot be rudely handled, but must open
naturally, so though she believed she knew the cause of Beth's new pain, she
only said, in her tenderest tone, “Does anything trouble you, deary?”
“Yes, Jo,” after a long
pause.
“Wouldn't it comfort
you to tell me what it is?”
“not now, not yet.”
“Then I won't ask, but
remember, Bethy,that Mother and Jo are always glad to hear and help you, if
they can.”
“I know it. I'll tell
you by-and-by.”
“Is the pain better
now?”
“Oh, yes, much better,
you are so comfortable, Jo.”
“Go to sleep, dear.
I'll stay with you.”
So cheek to cheek they
fell asleep, and on the morrow Beth seemed quite herself again, for at eighteen
neither heads nor hearts ache long, and a loving word can medicine most ills.
But Jo had made up her
mind, and after pondering over a project for some days, she confided it to her
mother.
“You asked me the other
day what my wishes were. I'll tell you one of them, Marmee,” she began, as they
sat along together. “I want to go away somewhere this winter for a change.”
“Why, Jo?” And her
mother looked up quickly, as if the words suggested a double meaning.
With her eyes on her
work Jo answered soberly, “I want something new. I feel restless and anxious to
be seeing, doing, and learning more than I am. I brood too much over my own
small affairs, and need stirring up, so as I can be spared this winter, I'd
like to hop a little way and try my wings.”
“Where will you hop?”
“To New York. I had a
bright idea yesterday, and this is it. You know Mrs. Kirke wrote to you for
some respectable young person to teach her children and sew. It's rather hard
to find just the thing, but I think I should suit if I tried.”
“My dear, go out to
service in that great boarding house!” And Mrs. March looked surprised, but not
displeased.
“It's not exactly going
out to service, for Mrs. Kirke is your friend--the kindest soul that ever
lived--and would make things pleasant for me, I know. Her family is separate
from the rest, and no one knows me there. Don't care if they do. It's honest
work, and I'm not ashamed of it.”
“Nor I. But your
writing?”
“All the better for the
change. I shall see and hear new things, get new ideas, and even if I haven't
much time there, I shall bring home quantities of material for my rubbish.”
“I have no doubt of it,
but are these your only reasons for this sudden fancy?'
“No, Mother.”
“May I know the others?”
Jo looked up and Jo
looked down, then said slowly, with sudden color in her cheeks. “It may be vain
and wrong to say it, but--I'm afraid--Laurie is getting too fond of me.”
“Then you don't care
for him in the way it is evident he begins to care for you?' And Mrs. March
looked anxious as she put the question.
“Mercy, no! I love the
dear boy, as I always have, and am immensely proud of him, but as for anything
more, it's out of the question.”
“I'm glad of that, Jo.”
“Why, please?'
“Because, dear, I don't
think you suited to one another. As friends you are very happy, and your
frequent quarrels soon blow over, but I fear you would both rebel if you were
mated for life. You are too much alike and too fond of freedom, not to mention
hot tempers and strong wills, to get on happily together, in a relation which
needs infinite patience and forbearance, as well as love.”
“That's just the
feeling I had, though I couldn't express it. I'm glad you think he is only
beginning to care for me. It would trouble me sadly to make him unhappy, for I
couldn't fall in love with the dear old fellow merely out of gratitude, could
I?”
“You are sure of his
feeling for you?”
The color deepened in
Jo's cheeks as she answered, with the look of mingled pleasure, pride, and pain
which young girls wear when speaking of first lovers, “I'm afraid it is so,
Mother. He hasn't said anything, but he looks a great deal. I think I had
better go away before it comes to anything.”
“I agree with you, and
if it can be managed you shall go.”
Jo looked relieved, and
after a pause, said, smiling, “How Mrs. Moffat would wonder at your want of
management, if she knew, and how she will rejoice that Annie may still hope.”
“AH, Jo, mothers may
differ in their management, but the hope is the same in all--the desire to see
their children happy. Meg is so, and I am content with her success. You I leave
to enjoy your liberty till you tire of it, for only then will you find that
there is something sweeter. Amy is my chief care now, but her good sense will
help ;her. For Beth, I indulge no hopes except that she may be well. By the
way, she seems brighter this last day or two. Have you spoken to her?'
“Yes, she owned she had
a trouble, and promised to tell me by-and-by. I said no more, for I think I
know it,” And Jo told her little story.
Mrs. March shook her
head, and did not take so romantic a view of the case, but looked grave, and
repeated her opinion that for Laurie's sake Jo should go away for a time.
“Let us say nothing
about it to him till the plan is settled, then I'll run away before he can
collect his wits and be tragic. Beth must think I'm going to please myself, as
I am, for I can't talk about Laurie to her. But she can pet and comfort him
after I'm gone, and so cure him of this romantic notion. He's been through so
many little trials of the sort, he's used to it, and will soon get over his lovelornity.”
Jo spoke hopefully, but
could not rid herself of the foreboding fear that this `little trial' would be
harder than the others, and that Laurie would not get over his `lovelornity' as
easily as heretofore.
The plan was talked
over in a family council and agreed upon, for Mrs. Kirke gladly accepted Jo,
and promised to make a pleasant home for her. The teaching would render her
independent, and such leisure as she got might be made profitable by writing,
while the new scenes and society would be both useful and agreeable. Jo liked
the prospect and was eager to be gone, for the home nest was growing too narrow
for her restless nature and adventurous spirit. When all was settled, with fear
and trembling she told Laurie, but to her surprise he took it very quietly. He
had been graver than usual of late, but very pleasant, and when jokingly
accused of turning over a new leaf, he answered soberly, “So I am, and I mean
this one shall stay turned.”
Jo was very much
relieved that one of his virtuous fits should come on just then, and made her
preparations with a lightened heart, for Beth seemed more cheerful, and hoped
she was doing the best for all.
“One thing I leave in
your especial care,” she said, the night before she left.
“You mean your papers?”
asked Beth.
“No, my boy. Be very
good to him, won't you?”
“Of course I will, but
I can't fill your place, and he'll miss you sadly.”
“It won't hurt him, so
remember, I leave him in your charge, to plague, pet, and keep in order.”
“I'll do my best, for
your sake,” promised Beth, wondering why Jo looked at her so queerly.
When Laurie said
good-by, he whispered significantly, “It won't do a bit of good, Jo. My eye is
on you, so mind what you do, or I'll come and bring you home.”
New York, November
Dear Marmee and Beth,
I'm going to write you
a regular volume, for I've got heaps to tell, though I'm not a fine young lady
traveling on the continent. When I lost sight of Father's dear old face, I felt
a trifle blue, and might have shed a briny drop or two, if an Irish lady with
four small children, all crying more or less, hadn't diverted my mind, for I
amused myself by dropping gingerbread nuts over the seat every time they opened
their mouths to roar.
Soon the sun came out,
and taking it as a good omen, I cleared up likewise and enjoyed my journey with
all my heart.
Mrs. Kirke welcomed me
so kindly I felt at home at once, even in that big house full of strangers. She
gave me a funny little sky parlor--all she had, but there is a stove in it, and
a nice table in a sunny window, so I can sit here and write whenever I like. A
fine view and a church tower opposite atone for the many stairs, and I took a
fancy to my den on the spot. The nursery, where I am to teach and sew, is a
pleasant room next Mrs. Kirke's private parlor, and the two little girls are
pretty children, rather spoiled, I fancy, but they took to me after telling
them THE SEVEN BAD PIGS, and I've no doubt I shall make a model governess.
I am to have my meals
with the children, if I prefer it to the great table, and for the present I do,
for I am bashful, though no one will believe it.
“Now, my dear, make
yourself at home,” said Mrs. K. in her motherly way, “I'm on the drive from
morning to night, as you may suppose with such a family, but a great anxiety
will be off my mind if I know the children are safe with you. My rooms are
always open to you, and your own shall be as comfortable as I can make it.
There are some pleasant people in the house if you feel sociable, and your
evenings are always free. Come to me if anything goes wrong, and be as happy as
you can. There's the tea bell, I must run and change my cap.” And off she
bustled, leaving me to settle myself in my new nest.
As I went downstairs
soon after, I saw something I liked. The flights are very long in this tall
house, and as I stood waiting at the head of the third one for a little servant
girl to lumber up, I saw a gentleman come along behind her, take the heavy hod
of coal out of her hand, carry it all the way up, put it down at a door near
by, and walk away, saying, with a kind nod and a foreign accent, “It goes
better so. The little back is too young to haf such heaviness.”
Wasn't it good of him?
I like such things, for as Father says, trifles show character. When I
mentioned it to Mrs. K., that evening, she laughed, and said, “That must have
been Professor Bhaer, he's always doing things of that sort.”
Mrs. K. told me he was
from Berlin, very learned and good, but poor as a church mouse, and gives lessons
to support himself and two little orphan nephews whom he is educating here,
according to the wishes of his sister, who married an American. Not a very
romantic story, but it interested me, and I was glad to hear that Mrs. K. lends
him her parlor for some of his scholars. There is a glass door between it and
the nursery, and I mean to peep at him, and then I'll tell you how he looks.
He's almost forty, so it's no harm, Marmee.
After tea and a
go-to-bed romp with the little girls, I attacked the big workbasket, and had a
quiet evening chatting with my new friend. I shall keep a journal-letter, and
send it once a week, so goodnight, and more tomorrow.
Tuesday Eve
Had a lively time in my
seminary this morning, for the children acted like Sancho, and at one time I
really thought I should shake them all round. Some good angel inspired me to
try gymnastics,and I kept it up till they were glad to sit down and keep still.
After luncheon, the girl took them out for a walk, and I went to my needlework
like little Mabel `with a willing mind'. I was thanking my stars that I'd
learned to make nice buttonholes, when the parlor door opened and shut, and
someone began to hum, KENNST DU DAS LAND, like a big bumblebee. It was
dreadfully improper, I know, but I couldn't resist the temptation, and lifting
one end of the curtain before the glass door, I peeped in. Professor Bhaer was
there, and while he arranged his books, I took a good look at him. A regular
German--rather stout, with brown hair tumbled all over his head, a bushy beard,
good nose, the kindest eyes I ever saw, and a splendid big voice that does
one's ears good, after our sharp or slipshod American gabble. His clothes were
rusty, his hands were large, and he hadn't a really handsome feature in his
face, except his beautiful teeth, yet I liked him, for he had a fine head, his
linen was very nice, and he looked like a gentleman, though two buttons were
off his coat and there was a patch on one shoe. He looked sober in spite of his
humming, till he went to the window to turn the hyacinth bulbs toward the sun,
and stroke the cat, who received him like an old friend. Then he smiled, and
when a tap came at the door, called out in a loud, brisk tone, “Herein!”
I was just going to
run, when I caught sight of a morsel of a child carrying a big book, and
stopped, to see what was going on.
“Me wants me Bhaer,”
said the mite, slamming down her book and running to meet him.
“Thou shalt haf thy
Bhaer. Come, then, and take a goot hug from him, my Tina,” said the Professor,
catching her up with a laugh, and holding her so high over his head that she
had to stoop her little face to kiss him.
“Now me mus tuddy my
lessin,” went on the funny little thing. So he put her up at the table, opened
the great dictionary she had brought, and gave her a paper and pencil, and she
scribbled away, turning a leaf now and then, and passing her little fat finger
down the page, as if finding a word, so soberly that I nearly betrayed myself
by a laugh, while Mr. Bhaer stood stroking her pretty hair with a fatherly look
that made me think she must be his own, though she looked more French than
German.
Another knock and the
appearance of two young ladies sent me back to my work, and there I virtuously
remained through all the noise and gabbling that went on next door. One of the
girls kept laughing affectedly, and saying, “Now Professor,” in a coquettish
tone, and the other pronounced her German with an accent that must have made it
hard for him to keep sober.
Both seemed to try his
patience sorely, for more than once I heard him say emphatically, “No, no, it
is not so, you haf not attend to what I say,”” and once there was a loud rap,
as if he struck the table with his book, followed by the despairing
exclamation, “”Prut! It all goes bad this day.”
Poor man, I pitied him,
and when the girls were gone, took just one more peep to see if he survived it.
He seemed to have thrown himself back in his chair, tired out, and sat there
with his eyes shut till the clock struck two, when he jumped up, put his books
in his pocket, as if ready for another lesson, and taking little Tina who had
fallen asleep on the sofa in his arms, he carried her quietly away. I fancy he
has a hard life of it. Mrs. Kirke asked me if I wouldn't go down to the five
o'clock dinner, and feeling a little bit homesick, I thought I would, just to
see what sort of people are under the same roof with me. So I made myself
respectable and tried to slip in behind Mrs. Kirke, but as she is short and I'm
tall, my efforts at concealment were rather a failure. She gave me a seat by
her, and after my face cooled off, I plucked up courage and looked about me.
The long table was full, and every-- one intent on getting their dinner, the
gentlemen especially, who seemed to be eating on time, for they bolted in every
sense of the word, vanishing as soon as they were done. There was the usual
assortment of young men absorbed in themselves, young couples absorbed in each
other, married ladies in their babies, and old gentlemen in politics. I don't
think I shall care to have much to do with any of them, except one sweet-faced
maiden lady, who looks as if she had something in her.
Cast away at the very
bottom of the table was the Professor, shouting answers to the questions of a
very inquisitive, deaf old gentleman on one side, and talking philosophy with a
Frenchman on the other. If Amy had been here, she'd have turned her back on him
forever because, sad to relate, he had a great appetite, and shoveled in his
dinner in a manner which would have horrified `her ladyship'. I didn't mind,
for I like `to see folks eat with a relish', as Hannah says, and the poor man
must have needed a deal of food after teaching idiots all day.
As I went upstairs
after dinner, two of the young men were settling their hats before the hall
mirror, and I heard one say low to the other, “”Who's the new party?””
“Governess, or
something of that sort.”
“What the deuce is she
at our table for?”
“Friend of the old
lady's.”
“Handsome head, but no
style.”
“Not a bit of it. Give
us a light and come on.”
I felt angry at first,
and then I didn't care, for a governess is as good as a clerk, and I've got
sense, if I haven't style, which is more than some people have, judging from
the remarks of the elegant beings who clattered away, smoking like bad
chimneys. I hate ordinary people!
Thursday
Yesterday was a quiet
day spent in teaching, sewing, and writing in my little room, which is very
cozy, with a light and fire. I picked up a few bits of news and was introduced
to the Professor. It seems that Tina is the child of the Frenchwoman who does
the fine ironing in the laundry here. The little thing has lost her heart to
Mr. Bhaer, and follows him about the house like a dog whenever he is at home,
which delights him, as he is very fond of children, though a `bacheldore'.
Kitty and Minnie Kirk likewise regard him with affection, and tell all sorts of
stories about the plays he invents, the presents he brings, and the splendid
tales he tells. The younger men quiz him, it seems, call him Old Fritz, Lager
Beer, Ursa Major, and make all manner of jokes on his name. But he enjoys it
like a boy, Mrs. Kirke says, and takes it so good-naturedly that they all like
him in spite of his foreign ways.
The maiden lady is a
Miss Norton, rich, cultivated, and kind. She spoke to me at dinner today (for I
went to table again, it's such fun to watch people), and asked me to come and
see her at her room. She has fine books and pictures, knows interesting
persons, and seems friendly, so I shall make myself agreeable, for I do want to
get into good society, only it isn't the same sort that Amy likes.
I was in our parlor
last evening when Mr. Bhaer came in with some newspapers for Mrs. Kirke. She
wasn't there, but Minnie, who is a little old woman, introduced me very
prettily. “This is Mamma's friend, Miss March.”
“Yes, and she's jolly
and we like her lots,” added Kitty, who is and `enfant terrible'.
We both bowed, and then
we laughed, for the prim introduction and the blunt addition were rather a
comical contrast.
“”Ah, yes, I hear these
naughty ones go to vex you, Mees Marsch. If so again, call at me and I come,”
he said, with a threatening frown that delighted the little wretches.
I promised I would, and
he departed, but it seems as if I was doomed to see a good deal of him, for
today as I passed his door on my way out, by accident I knocked against it with
my umbrella. It flew open, and there he stood in his dressing gown, with a big
blue sock on one hand and a darning needle in the other. He didn't seem at all
ashamed of it, for when I explained and hurried on, he waved his hand, sock and
all, saying in his loud, cheerful way . . .
“”You haf a fine day to
make your walk. Bon voyage, Mademoiselle.””
I laughed all the way
downstairs, but it was a little pathetic, also to think of the poor man having
to mend his own clothes. The German gentlemen embroider, I know, but darning
hose is another thing and not so pretty.
Nothing has happened to
write about, except a call on Miss Norton, who has a room full of pretty
things, and who was very charming, for she showed me all her treasures, and
asked me if I would sometimes go with her to lectures and concerts, as her
escort, if I enjoyed them. She put it as a favor, but I'm sure Mrs. Kirke has told
her about us, and she does it out of kindness to me. I'm as proud as Lucifer,
but such favors from such people don't burden me, and I accepted gratefully.
When I got back to the
nursery there was such an uproar in the parlor that I looked in, and there was
Mr. Bhaer down on his hands and knees, with Tina on his back, Kitty leading him
with a jump rope, and Minnie feeding two small boys with seedcakes, as they
roared and ramped in cages built of chairs.
“We are playing
nargerie,”” explained Kitty.
“Dis is mine effalunt!”
added Tina, holding on by the Professor's hair.
“Mamma always allows us
to do what we like Saturday afternoon, when Franz and Emil come, doesn't she,
Mr. Bhaer?” said Minnie.
The `effalunt' sat up,
looking as much in earnest as any of them, and said soberly to me, “I gif you
my wort it is so, if we make too large a noise you shall say Hush! to us, and
we go more softly.”
I promised to do so,
but left the door open and enjoyed the fun as much as they did, for a more
glorious frolic I never witnessed. they played tag and soldiers, danced and
sang, and when it began to grow dark they all piled onto the sofa about the
Professor, while he told charming fairy stories of the storks on the chimney
tops, and the little `koblods', who ride the snowflakes as they fall. I wish
Americans were as simple and natural as Germans, don't you?
I'm so fond of writing,
I should go spinning on forever if motives of economy didn't stop me, for
though I've used thin paper and written fine, I tremble to think of the stamps
this long letter will need. Pray forward Amy's as soon as you can spare them.
My small news will sound very flat after her splendors, but you will like them,
I know. Is Teddy studying so hard that he can't find time to write to his friends?
Take good care of him for me, Beth, and tell me all about the babies, and give
heaps of love to everyone. From your faithful Jo.
P.S. On reading over my
letter, it strikes me as rather Bhaery, but I am always interested in odd
people, and I really had nothing else to write about. Bless you!
DECEMBER
My Precious Betsey,
As this is to be a
scribble-scrabble letter, I direct it to you, for it may amuse you, and give
you some idea of my goings on, for though quiet, they are rather amusing, for
which, oh, be joyful! After what Amy would call Herculaneum efforts, in the way
of mental and moral agriculture, my young ideas begin to shoot and my little
twigs to bend as I could wish. They are not so interesting tome as Tina and the
boys, but I do my duty by them, and they are fond of me. Franz and Emil are
jolly little lads, quite after my own heart, for the mixture of German and
American spirit in the produces a constant state of effervescence. Saturday
afternoons are riotous times, whether spent in the house or out, for on
pleasant days they all go to walk, like a seminary, with the Professor and
myself to keep order, and then such fun!
We are very good
friends now, and I've begun to take lessons. I really couldn't help it, and it
all came about in such a droll way that I must tell you. To begin at the
beginning, Mrs. Kirke called to me one day as I passed Mr. Bhaer's room where
she was rummaging.
“Did you ever see such
a den, my dear? Just come and help me put these books to rights, for I've
turned everything upside down, trying to discover what he has done with the six
new handkerchiefs I gave him not long ago.”
I went in, and while we
worked I looked about me, for it was `a den' to be sure. Books and papers
everywhere, a broken meerschaum, and an old flute over the mantlepiece as if
done with, a ragged bird without any tail chirped on one window seat, and a box
of white mice adorned the other. Half-finished boats and bits of string lay
among the manuscripts. Dirty little boots stood drying before the fire, and
traces of the dearly beloved boys, for whom he makes a slave of himself, were
to be seen all over the room. After a grand rummage three of the missing
articles were found, one over the bird cage, one covered with ink, and a third
burned brown, having been used as a holder.
“Such a man!” laughed
good-natured Mrs. K., as she put the relics in the rag bay. “I suppose the
others are torn up to rig ships, bandage cut fingers, or make kite tails. It's
dreadful, but I can't scold him. He's so absent-minded and good-natured, he
lets those boys ride over him roughshod. I agreed to do his washing and
mending, but he forgets to give out his things and I forget to look them over,
so he comes to a sad pass sometimes.”
“Let me mend them,”
said I. “I don't mind it, and he needn't know. I'd like to, he's so kind to me
about bringing my letters and lending books.”
So I have got his
things in order, and knit heels into two pairs of the socks, for they were
boggled out of shape with his queer darns. Nothing was said, and I hoped he
wouldn't find it out, but one day last week he caught me at it. Hearing the
lessons he gives to others has interested and amused me so much that I took a
fancy to lear, for Tina runs in and out, leaving the door open, and I can hear.
I had been sitting near this door, finishing off the last sock, and trying to
understand what he said to a new scholar, who is as stupid as I am. The girl
had gone, and I thought he had also, it was so still, and I was busily gabbling
over a verb, and rocking to and fro in a most absurd way, when a little crow
made me look up, and there was Mr. Bhaer looking and laughing quietly, while he
made signs to Tina not to betray him.
“So!” he said, as I
stopped and stared like a goose, “you peep at me, I peep at you, and this is
not bad, but see, I am not pleasanting when I say, haf you a wish for German?”
“Yes, but you are too
busy. I am too stupid to learn,” I blundered out, as red as a peony.
“Prut! We will make the
time, and we fail not to find the sense. At efening I shall gif a little lesson
with much gladness, for look you, Mees Marsch, I haf this debt to pay.” And he
pointed to my work `Yes,' they say to one another, these so kind ladies, `he is
a stupid old fellow, he will see not what we do, he will never observe that his
sock heels go not in holes any more, he will think his buttons grow out new
when they fall, and believe that strings make theirselves.' “Ah! But I haf an
eye, and I see much. I haf a heart, and I feel thanks for this. Come, a little lesson
then and now, or no more good fairy works for me and mine.”
Of course I couldn't
say anything after that, and as it really is a splendid opportunity, I made the
bargain, and we began. I took four lessons, and then I stuck fast in a
grammatical bog. The Professor was very patient with me, but it must have been
torment to him, and now and then he'd look at me with such an expression of
mild despair that it was a toss-up with me whether to laugh or cry. I tried
both ways, and when it came to a sniff or utter mortification and woe, he just
threw the grammar on to the floor and marched out of the room. I felt myself
disgraced and deserted forever, but didn't blame him a particle, and was
scrambling my papers together, meaning to rush upstairs and shake myself hard,
when in he came, as brisk and beaming as if I'd covered myself in glory.
“Now we shall try a new
way. You and I will read these pleasant little MARCHEN together, and dig no
more in that dry book, that goes in the corner for making us trouble.”
He spoke so kindly, and
opened Hans Andersons's fairy tales so invitingly before me, that I was more
ashamed than ever, and went at my lesson in a neck-or-nothing style that seemed
to amuse him immensely. I forgot my bashfulness, and pegged away (no other word
will express it) with all my might, tumbling over long words, pronouncing
according to inspiration of the minute, and doing my very best. When I finished
reading my first page, and stopped for breath, he clapped his hands and cried
out in his hearty way, “Das ist gut!' Now we go well! My turn. I do him in
German, gif me your ear.” And away he went, rumbling out the words with his
strong voice and a relish which was good to see as well as hear. Fortunately
the story was the CONSTANT TIN SOLDIER, which is droll, you know, so I could
laugh, and I did, though I didn't understand half he read, for I couldn't help
it, he was so earnest, I so excited, and the whole thing so comical.
After that we got on
better, and now I read my lessons pretty well, for this way of studying suits
me, and I can see that the grammar gets tucked into the tales and poetry as one
gives pills in jelly. I like it very much, and he doesn't seem tired of it yet,
which is very good of him, isn't it? I mean to give him something on Christmas,
for I dare not offer money. Tell me something nice, Marmee.
I'm glad Laurie seems
so happy and busy, that he has given up smoking and lets his hair grow. You see
Beth manages him better than I did. I'm not jealous, dear, do your best, only
don't make a saint of him. I'm afraid I couldn't like him without a spice of
human naughtiness. Read him bits of my letters. I haven't time to write much,
and that will do just as well. Thank Heaven Beth continues so comfortable.
JANUARY
A Happy New Year to you
all, my dearest family, which of course includes Mr. L. and a young man by the
name of Teddy. I can't tell you how much I enjoyed your Christmas bundle, for i
didn't get it till night and had given up hoping. Your letter came in the
morning, but you said nothing about a parcel, meaning it for a surprise, so I
was disappointed, for I'd had a `kind of feeling' that you wouldn't forget me.
I felt a little low in my mind as I sat up in my room after tea, and when the
big, muddy, battered-looking bundle was brought to me, I just hugged it and
pranced. It was so homey and refreshing that I sat down on the floor and read
and looked and ate and laughed and cried, in my usual absurd way. The things
were just what I wanted, and all the better for being made instead of bought.
Beth's new `ink bib' was capital, and Hannah's box of hard gingerbread will be
a treasure. I'll be sure and wear the nice flannels you sent, Marmee, and read
carefully the books Father has marked. Thank you all, heaps and heaps!
Speaking of books
reminds me that I'm getting rich in that line, for on New Year's Day Mr. Bhaer
gave me a fine Shakespeare. It is one he values much, and I've often admired
it, set up in the place of honor with his German Bible, Plato, Homer, and
Milton, so you may imagine how I felt when he brought it down, without its
cover, and showed me my own name in it, “from my friend Friedrich Bhaer”.
“You say often you wish
a library. Here I gif you one, for between these lids (he meant covers) is many
books in one. Read him well, and he will help you much, for the study of
character in this book will help you to read it in the world and paint it with
your pen.”
I thanked him as well
as I could, and talk now about `my library', as if I had a hundred books. I
never knew how much there was in Shakespeare before, but then I never had a
Bhaer to explain it to me. Now don't laugh at his horrid name. It isn't
pronounced either Bear or Beer, as people will say it, but something between
the two, as only Germans can give it. I'm glad you both like what I tell you
about him, and hope you will know him some day. Mother would admire his warm
heart, Father his wise head. I admire both, and feel rich in my new `friend
Friedrich Bhaer'.
Not having much money,
or knowing what he'd like, I got several little things, and put them about the
room, where he would find them unexpectedly. They were useful, pretty, or
funny, a new standish on his table, a little vase for his flower, he always has
one, or a bit of green in a glass, to keep him fresh, he says, and a holder for
his blower, so that he needn't burn up what Amy calls `mouchoirs'. I made it
like those Beth invented, a big butterfly with a fat body, and black and yellow
wings, worsted feelers, and bead eyes. It took his fancy immensely, and he put
it on his mantlepiece as an article of virtue, so it was rather a failure after
all. Poor as he is, he didn't forget a servant or a child in the house, and not
a soul here, from the French laundrywoman to Miss Norton forgot him. I was so
glad of that.
They got up a
masquerade, and had a gay time New Year's Eve. I didn't mean to go down, having
no dress. But at the last minute, Mrs. Kirke remembered some old brocades, and
Miss Norton lent me lace and feathers. So I dressed up as Mrs. Malaprop, and
sailed in with a mask on. No one knew me, for I disguised my voice, and no one
dreamed of the silent, haughty Miss March (for they think I am very stiff and
cool, most of them, and so I am to whippersnappers) could dance and dress, and
burst out into a `nice derangement of epitaphs, like an allegory on the banks
of the Nile'. I enjoyed it very much, and when we unmasked it was fun to see
them stare at me. I heard one of the young men tell another that he knew I'd
been an actress, in fact, he thought he remembered seeing me at one of the
minor theaters. Meg will relish that joke. Mr. Bhaer was Nick Bottom, and Tina
was Titania, a perfect little fairy in his arms. To see them dance was `quite a
landscape', to use a Teddyism.
I had a very happy New
Year, after all, and when I thought it over in my room, I felt as if I was
getting on a little in spite of my many failures, for I'm cheerful all the time
now, work with a will, and take more interest in other people than I used to,
which is satisfactory. Bless you all! Ever your loving . . . Jo
Though very happy in
the social atmosphere about her, and very busy with the daily work that earned
her bread and made it sweeter for the effort, Jo still found time for literary
labors. The purpose which now took possession of her was a natural one to a
poor and ambitious girl, but the means she took to gain her end were not the
best. She saw that money conferred power, therefore, she resolved to have, not
to be used for herself alone, but for those whom she loved more than life.
The dream of filling
home with comforts, giving Beth everything she wanted, from strawberries in
winter to an organ in her bedroom, going abroad herself, and always having more
than enough, so that she might indulge in the luxury of charity, had been for
years Jo's most cherished castle in the air.
The prize-story
experience had seemed to open a way which might, after long traveling and much
uphill work, lead to this delightful chateau en Espagne. But the novel disaster
quenched her courage for a time, for public opinion is a giant which has
frightened stouter-hearted Jacks on bigger beanstalks than hers. Like that
immortal hero, she reposed awhile after the first attempt, which resulted in a
tumble and the least lovely of the giant's treasures, if I remember rightly.
But the `up again and take another' spirit was as strong in Jo as in Jack, so
she scrambled up on the shady side this time and got more booty, but nearly
left behind her what was far more precious than the moneybags.
She took to writing
sensation stories, for in those dark ages, even all-perfect America read
rubbish. She told no one, but concocted a `thrilling tale', and boldly carried
it herself to Mr. Dashwood, editor of the WEEKLY VOLCANO. She had never read
SARTOR RESARTUS, but she had a womanly instinct that clothes possess an
influence more powerful over many than the worth of character or the magic of
manners. So she dressed herself in her best, and trying to persuade herself
that she was neither excited nor nervous, bravely climbed two pairs of dark and
dirty stairs to find herself in a disorderly room, a cloud of cigar smoke, and
the presence of three gentlemen, sitting with their heels rather higher than
their hats, which articles of dress none of them took the trouble to remove on
her appearance. somewhat daunted by this reception, Jo hesitated on the
threshold, murmuring in much embarrassment . . .
“Excuse me, I was
looking for the WEEKLY VOLCANO office. I wished to see Mr. Dashwood.”
Down went the highest pair
of heels, up rose the smokiest gentleman, and carefully cherishing his cigar
between his fingers, he advanced with a nod and a countenance expressive of
nothing but sleep. Feeling that she must get through the matter somehow, Jo
produced her manuscript and, blushing redder and redder with each sentence,
blundered out fragments of the little speech carefully prepared for the
occasion.
“A friend of mine
desired me to offer--a story--just as an experiment--would like your
opinion--be glad to write more if this suits.”
While she blushed and
blundered, Mr. Dashwood had taken the manuscript, and was turning over the
leaves with a pair of rather dirty fingers, and casting critical glances up and
down the neat pages.
“Not a first attempt, I
take it?” observing that the pages were numbered, covered only on one side, and
not tied up with a ribbon--sure sign of a novice.
“No, sir. She has had
some experience, and got a prize for a tale in the BLARNEYSTONE BANNER.”
“Oh, did she?” And Mr.
Dashwood gave JO a quick look, which seemed to take note of everything she had
on, from the bow in her bonnet to the buttons on her boots. “Well, you can
leave it, if you like. We've more of this sort of thing on hand than we know
what to do with at present, but I'll run my eye over it, and give you an answer
next week.”
Now, Jo did not like to
leave it, for Mr. Dashwood didn't suit her at all, but, under the
circumstances, there was nothing for her to do but bow and walk away, looking
particularly tall and dignified, as she was apt to do when nettled or abashed.
Just then she was both, for it was perfectly evident from the knowing glances
exchanged among the gentlemen that her little fiction of `my friend' was
considered a good joke, and a laugh, produced by some inaudible remark of the
editor, as he closed the door, completed her discomfiture. Half resolving never
to return, she went home, and worked off her irritation by stitching pinafores
vigorously, and in an hour or two was cool enough to laugh over the scene and
long for next week.
When she went again,
Mr. Dashwood was alone, whereat she rejoiced. Mr. Dashwood was much wider awake
than before, which was agreeable and Mr. Dashwood was not too deeply absorbed
in a cigar to remember his manners, so the second interview was much more
comfortable than the first.
“We'll take this
(editors never say I), if you don't object to a few alterations. It's too long,
but omitting the passages I've marked will make it just the right length,” he
said, in a businesslike tone.
Jo hardly knew her own
MS again, so crumpled and underscored were its pages and paragraphs, but
feeling as a tender patent might on being asked to cut off her baby's legs in
order that it might fit into a new cradle, she looked at the marked passages
and was surprised to find that all the moral reflections--which she had
carefully put in as ballast for much romance--had been stricken out.
“But, Sir, I thought
every story should have some sort of a moral, so I took care to have a few of
my sinners repent.”
Mr. Dashwoods's
editorial gravity relaxed into a smile, for Jo had forgotten her `friend', and
spoken as only an author could.
“People want to be
amused, not preached at, you know. Morals don't sell nowadays.” Which was not
quite a correct statement, by the way.
“You think it would do
with these alterations, then?”
“Yes, it's a new plot,
and pretty well worked up--language good, and so on,” was Mr. Dashwood's
affable reply.
“What do you--that is,
what compensation--” began Jo, not exactly knowing how to express herself.
“Oh, yes, well, we give
from twenty-five to thirty for things of this sort. Pay when it comes out,”
returned Mr. Dashwood, as if that point had escaped him. Such trifles do escape
the editorial mind, it is said.
“Very well, you can
have it,” said Jo, handing back the story with a satisfied air, for after the
dollar-a-column work, even twenty-five seemed good pay.
“Shall I tell my friend
you will take another if she has one better than this?” asked Jo, unconscious
of her little slip of the tongue, and emboldened by her success.
“Well, we'll look at
it. Can't promise to take it. Tell her to make it short and spicy, and never
mind the moral. What name would your friend like to put on it?” in a careless
tone.
“None at all, if you please,
she doesn't wish her name to appear and has no nom de plume,” said Jo, blushing
in spite of herself.
“Just as she likes, of
course. The tale will be out next week. Will you call for the money, or shall I
send it?” asked Mr. Dashwood, who felt a natural desire to know who his new
contributor might be.
“I'll call. Good
morning, Sir.”
As she departed, Mr.
Dashwood put up his feet, with the graceful remark, “Poor and proud, as usual,
but she'll do.”
Following Mr.
Dashwood's directions, and making Mrs. Northbury her model, Jo rashly took a
plunge into the frothy sea of sensational literature, but thanks to the life
preserver thrown her by a friend, she came up again not much the worse for her
ducking.
Like most young
scribblers, she went abroad for her characters and scenery, and banditti,
counts, gypsies, nuns, and duchesses appeared upon her stage, and played their
parts with as much accuracy and spirit as could be expected. Her readers were
not particular about such trifles as grammar, punctuation, and probability, and
Mr. Dashwood graciously permitted her to fill his columns at the lowest prices,
not thinking it necessary to tell her that the real cause of his hospitality
was the fact that one of his hacks, on being offered higher wages, had basely
left him in the lurch.
She soon became
interested in her work, for her emaciated purse grew stout, and the little
hoard she was making to take Beth to the mountains next summer grew slowly but
surely as the weeks passed. One thing disturbed her satisfaction, and that was
that she did not tell them at home. She had a feeling that Father and Mother
would not approve, and preferred to have her own way first, and beg pardon
afterward. It was easy to keep her secret, for no name appeared with her stories.
Mr. Dashwood had of course found it out very soon, but promised to be dumb, and
for a wonder kept his word.
She thought it would do
her no harm, for she sincerely meant to write nothing of which she would be
ashamed, and quieted all pricks of conscience by anticipations of the happy
minute when she should show her earnings and laugh over her well-kept secret.
But Mr. Dashwood
rejected any but thrilling tales, and as thrills could not be produced except
by harrowing up the souls of the readers, history and romance, land and sea,
science and art, police records and lunatic asylums, had to be ransacked for
the purpose. Jo soon found that her innocent experience had given her but few
glimpses of the tragic world which underlies society, so regarding it in a
business light, she set about supplying her deficiencies with characteristic
energy. Eager to find material for stories, and bent on making them original in
plot, if not masterly in execution, she searched newspapers for accidents,
incidents, and crimes. She excited the suspicions of public librarians by
asking for works on poisons. She studied faces in the street, and characters,
good, bad, and indifferent, all about her. She delved in the dust of ancient
times for facts or fictions so old that they were as good as new, and
introduced herself to folly, sin, and misery, as well as her limited
opportunities allowed. She thought she was prospering finely, but unconsciously
she was beginning to desecrate some of the womanliest attributes of a woman's
character. She was living in bad society, and imaginary though it was, its
influence affected her, for she was feeding heart and fancy on dangerous and
unsubstantial food, and was fast brushing the innocent bloom from her nature by
a premature acquaintance with the darker side of life, which comes soon enough
to all of us.
She was beginning to
feel rather than see this, for much describing of other people's passions and
feelings set her to studying and speculating about her own. a morbid amusement
in which healthy young minds do not voluntarily indulge. Wrong-doing always
brings its own punishment, and when Jo most needed hers, she got it.
I don't know whether
the study of Shakespeare helped her to read character, or the natural instinct
of a woman for what was honest, brave, and strong, but while endowing her
imaginary heroes with every perfection under the sun, Jo was discovering a live
hero, who interested her in spite of many human imperfections. Mr. Bhaer, in
one of their conversations, had advised her to study simple, true, and lovely
characters, wherever she found them, as good training for a writer. Jo took him
at his word, for she coolly turned round and studied him--a proceeding which
would have much surprised him, had he know it, for the worthy Professor was
very humble in his own conceit.
Why everybody liked him
was what puzzled Jo, at first. He was neither rich nor great, young nor
handsome, in no respect what is called fascinating, imposing, or brilliant, and
yet he was as attractive as a genial fire, and people seemed to gather about
him as naturally as about a warm hearth. He was poor, yet always appeared to be
giving something away; a stranger, yet everyone was his friend; no longer
young, but as happy-hearted as a boy; plain and peculiar, yet his face looked
beautiful to many, and his oddities were freely forgiven for his sake. Jo often
watched him, trying to discover the charm, and at last decided that it was
benevolence which worked the miracle. If he had any sorrow, `it sat with its
head under its wing', and he turned only his sunny side to the world. There
were lines upon his forehead, but Time seemed to have touched him gently,
remembering how kind he was to others. The pleasant curves about his mouth were
the memorials of many friendly words and cheery laughs, his eyes were never
cold or hard, and his big hand had a warm, strong grasp that was more
expressive than words.
His very clothes seemed
to partake of the hospitable nature of the wearer. They looked as if they were
at ease, and liked to make him comfortable. His capacious waistcoat was
suggestive of a large heart underneath. His rusty coat had a social air, and
the baggy pockets plainly proved that little hands often went in empty and came
out full. His very boots were benevolent, and his collars never stiff and raspy
like other people's.
“That's it!” said Jo to
herself, when she at length discovered that genuine good will toward one's
fellow men could beautify and dignify even a stout German teacher, who shoveled
in his dinner, darned his own socks, and was burdened with the name of Bhaer.
Jo valued goodness
highly, but she also possessed a most feminine respect for intellect, and a
little discovery which she made about the Professor added much to her regard
for him. He never spoke of himself, and no one ever knew that in his native
city he had been a man much honored and esteemed for learning and integrity,
till a countryman came to see him. He never spoke of himself, and in a
conversation with Miss Norton divulged the pleasing fact. From her Jo learned
it, and liked it all the better because Mr. Bhaer had never told it. She felt
proud to know that he was an honored Professor in Berlin, though only a poor
language-master in America, and his homely, hard-working life was much
beautified by the spice of romance which this discovery gave it.
Another and a better
gift than intellect was shown her in a most unexpected manner. Miss Norton had
the entree into most society, which Jo would have had no chance of seeing but
for her. The solitary woman felt an interest in the ambitious girl, and kindly
conferred many favors of this sort both on Jo and the Professor. She took them
with her one night to a select symposium, held in honor of several celebrities.
Jo went prepared to bow
down and adore the mighty ones whom she had worshiped with youthful enthusiasm
afar off. But her reverence for genius received a severe shock that night, and
it took her some time to recover from the discovery that the great creatures
were only men and women after all. Imagine her dismay, on stealing a glance of
timid admiration at the poet whose lines suggested an ethereal being fed on
`spirit, fire, and dew', to behold him devouring his supper with an ardor which
flushed his intellectual countenance. Turning as from a fallen idol, she made
other discoveries which rapidly dispelled her romantic illusions. The great
novelist vibrated between two decanters with the regularity of a pendulum; the
famous divine flirted openly with one of the Madame de Staels of the age, who
looked daggers at another Corinne, who was amiably satirizing her, after
outmaneuvering her in efforts to absorb the profound philosopher, who imbibed
tea Johnsonianly and appeared to slumber, the loquacity of the lady rendering
speech impossible. The scientific celebrities, forgetting their mollusks and
glacial periods, gossiped about art, while devoting themselves to oysters and
ices with characteristic energy; the young musician, who was charming the city
like a second Orpheus, talked horses; and the specimen of the British nobility
present happened to be the most ordinary man of the party.
Before the evening was
half over, Jo felt so completely disillusioned, that she sat down in a corner
to recover herself. Mr. Bhaer soon joined her, looking rather out of his
element, and presently several of the philosophers, each mounted on his hobby,
came ambling up to hold an intellectual tournament in the recess. The
conversations were miles beyond Jo's comprehension, but she enjoyed it, though
Kant and Hegel were unknown gods, the Subjective and Objective unintelligible
terms, and the only thing `evolved from her inner consciousness' was a bad
headache after it was all over. It dawned upon her gradually that the world was
being picked to pieces, and put together on new and, according to the talkers,
on infinitely better principles than before, that religion was in a fair way to
be reasoned into nothingness, and intellect was to be the only God. Jo knew
nothing about philosophy or metaphysics of any sort, but a curious excitement,
half pleasurable, half painful, came over her as she listened with a sense of
being turned adrift into time and space, like a young balloon out on a holiday.
She looked round to see
how the Professor liked it, and found him looking at her with the grimest
expression she had ever seen him wear. He shook his head and beckoned her to
come away, but she was fascinated just then by the freedom of Speculative
Philosophy, and kept her seat, trying to find out what the wise gentlemen
intended to rely upon after they had annihilated all the old beliefs.
Now, Mr. Bhaer was a
diffident man and slow to offer his own opinions, not because they were
unsettled, but too sincere and earnest to be lightly spoken. As he glanced from
Jo to several other young people, attracted by the brilliancy of the
philosophic pyrotechnics, he knit his brows and longed to speak, fearing that
some inflammable young soul would be led astray by the rockets, to find when
the display was over that they had only an empty stick or a scorched hand.
He bore it as long as
he could, but when he was appealed to for an opinion, he blazed up with honest
indignation and defended religion with all the eloquence of truth--an eloquence
which made his broken English musical and his plain face beautiful. He had a
hard fight, for the wise men argued well, but he didn't know when he was beaten
and stood to his colors like a man. Somehow, as he talked, the world got right
again to Jo. The old beliefs, that had lasted so long, seemed better than the
new. God was not a blind force, and immortality was not a pretty fable, but a
blessed fact. She felt as if she had solid ground under her feet again, and
when Mr. Bhaer paused, outtalked but not one whit convinced, Jo wanted to clap
her hands and thank him.
She did neither, but
she remembered the scene, and gave the Professor her heartiest respect, for she
knew it cost him an effort to speak out then and there, because his conscience
would not let him be silent. She began to see that character is a better
possession than money, rank, intellect, or beauty, and to feel that if
greatness is what a wise man has defined it to be, `truth, reverence, and good
will', then her friend friedrich Bhaer was not only good, but great.
This belief
strengthened daily. She valued his esteem, she coveted his respect, she wanted
to be worthy of his friendship, and just when the wish was sincerest, she came
near to losing everything. It all grew out of a cocked hat, for one evening the
Professor came in to give Jo her lesson with a paper soldier cap on his head,
which Tina had put there and he had forgotten to take off.
“It's evident he
doesn't look in his glass before coming down,” thought Jo, with a smile, as he
said “Goot efening,” and sat soberly down, quite unconscious of the ludicrous
contrast between his subject and his headgear, for he was going to read her the
DEATH OF WALLENSTEIN.
She said nothing at
first, for she liked to hear him laugh out his big, hearty laugh when anything
funny happened, so she left him to discover it for himself, and presently
forgot all about it, for to hear a German read Schiller is rather an absorbing
occupation. After the reading came the lesson, which was a lively one, for Jo
was in a gay mood that night, and the cocked hat kept her eyes dancing with
merriment. The Professor didn't know what to make of her, and stopped at last
to ask with an air of mild surprise that was irresistible . . .
“Mees Marsch, for what
do you laugh in your master's face? Haf you no respect for me, that you go on
so bad?”
“How can I be
respectful, Sir, when you forget to take your hat off?” said Jo.
Lifting his hand to his
head, the absent-minded Professor gravely felt and removed the little cocked
hat, looked at it a minute, and then threw back his head and laughed like a
merry bass viol.
“Ah! I see him now, it
is that imp Tina who makes me a fool with my cap. Well,it is nothing, but see
you, if this lesson goes not well, you too shall wear him.”
But the lesson did not go
at all for a few minutes because Mr. Bhaer caught sight of a picture on the
hat, and unfolding it, said with great disgust, “I wish these papers did not
come in the house. They are not for children to see, nor young people to read.
It is not well, and I haf no patience with those who make this harm.”
Jo glanced at the sheet
and saw a pleasing illustration composed of a lunatic, a corpse, a villain, and
a viper. She did not like it, but the impulse that made her turn it over was
not one of displeasure but fear, because for a minute she fancied the paper was
the VOLCANO. It was not, however, and her panic subsided as she remembered that
even if it had been and one of her own tales in it, there would have been no
name to betray her. She had betrayed herself, however, by a look and a blush,
for though an absent man, the Professor saw a good deal more than people
fancied. He knew that Jo wrote, and had met her down among the newspaper
offices more than once, but as she never spoke of it, he asked no questions in
spite of a strong desire to see her work. Now it occurred to him that she was
doing what she was ashamed to own, and it troubled him. He did not say to
himself, “It is none of my business. I've no right to say anything,” as many
people would have done. He only remembered that she was young and poor, a girl
far away from mother's love and father's care, and he was moved to help her
with an impulse as quick and natural as that which would prompt him to put out
his hand to save a baby from a puddle. All this flashed through his mind in a
minute, but not a trace of it appeared in his face, and by the time the paper
was turned, and Jo's needle threaded, he was ready to say quite naturally, but
very gravely . . .
“Yes, you are right to
put it from you. I do not think that good young girls should see such things.
They are made pleasant to some, but I would more rather give my boys gunpowder
to play with than this bad trash.”
“All may not be bad,
only silly, you know, and if there is a demand for it, I don't see any harm in
supplying it. Many very respectable people make an honest living out of what
are called sensation stories,” said Jo, scratching gathers so energetically
that a row of little slits followed her pin.
“There is a demand for
whisky, but I think you and I do not care to sell it. If the respectable people
knew what harm they did, they would not feel that the living was honest. They
haf no right to put poison in the sugarplum, and let the small ones eat it. No,
they should think a little, and sweep mud in the street before they do this
thing.”
Mr. Bhaer spoke warmly,
and walked to the fire, crumpling the paper in his hands. Jo sat still, looking
as if the fire had come to her, for her cheeks burned long after the cocked hat
had turned to smoke and gone harmlessly up the chimney.
“I should like much to
send all the rest after him,” muttered the Professor, coming back with a
relieved air.
Jo thought what a blaze
her pile of papers upstairs would make, and her hard-earned money lay rather
heavily on her conscience at that minute. Then she thought consolingly to
herself, “Mine are not like that, they are only silly, never bad, so I won't be
worried,” and taking up her book, she said, with a studious face, “Shall we go
on, Sir? I'll be very good and proper now.”
“I shall hope so,” was
all he said, but he meant more than she imagined, and the grave, kind look he
gave her made her feel as if the words WEEKLY VOLCANO were printed in large
type on her forehead.
As soon as she went to
her room, she got out her papers, and carefully reread every one of her
stories. Being a little shortsighted, Mr. Bhaer sometimes used eye glasses, and
Jo had tried them once, smiling to see how they magnified the fine print of her
book. Now she seemed to have on the Professor's mental or moral spectacles
also, for the faults of these poor stories glared at her dreadfully and filled
her with dismay.
“They are trash, and
will soon be worse trash if I go on, for each is more sensational than the
last. I've gone blindly on, hurting myself and other people, for the sake of
money. I know it's so, for I can't read this stuff in sober earnest without
being horribly ashamed of it, and what should I do if they were seen at home or
Mr. Bhaer got hold of them?”
Jo turned hot at the
bare idea, and stuffed the whole bundle into her stove, nearly setting the
chimney afire with the blaze.
“Yes, that's the best
place for such inflammable nonsense. I'd better burn the house down, I suppose,
than let other people blow themselves up with my gunpowder,” she thought as she
watched the DEMON OF THE JURA whisk away, a little black cinder with fiery
eyes.
But when nothing
remained of all her three month's work except a heap of ashes and the money in
her lap, Jo looked sober, as she sat on the floor, wondering what she ought to
do about her wages.
“I think I haven't done
much harm yet, and may keep this to pay for my time,” she said, after a long
meditation, adding impatiently, “I almost wish I hadn't any conscience, it's so
inconvenient. If I didn't care about doing right, and didn't feel uncomfortable
when doing wrong, I should get on capitally. I can't help wishing sometimes,
that Mother and Father hadn't been so particular about such things.”
Ah, Jo, instead of
wishing that, thank God that `Father and Mother were particular'. and pity from
your heart those who have no such guardians to hedge them round with principles
which may seem like prison walls to impatient youth, but which will prove sure
foundations to build character upon in womanhood.
Jo wrote no more
sensational stories, deciding that the money did not pay for her share of the
sensation, but going to the other extreme, as is the way with people of her
stamp, she took a course of Mrs. Sherwood, Miss Edgeworth, and Hannah More, and
then produced a tale which might have been more properly called an essay or a
sermon, so intensely moral was it. She had her doubts about it from the
beginning, for her lively fancy and girlish romance felt as ill at ease in the
new style as she would have done masquerading in the stiff and cumbrous costume
of the last century. She sent this didactic gem to several markets, but it
found no purchaser, and she was inclined to agree with Mr. Dashwood that morals
didn't sell.
Then she tried a
child's story, which she could easily have disposed of if she had not been
mercenary enough to demand filthy lucre for it. The only person who offered
enough to make it worth her while to try juvenile literature was a worthy
gentleman who felt it his mission to convert all the world to his particular
belief. But much as she liked to write for children, Jo could not consent to
depict all her naughty boys as being eaten by bears or tossed by mad bulls
because they did not go to a particular Sabbath school, nor all the good
infants who did go as rewarded by every kind of bliss, from gilded gingerbread
to escorts of angels when they departed this life with psalms or sermons on
their lisping tongues. So nothing came of these trials, land Jo corked up her
inkstand, and said in a fit of very wholesome humility . . .
“I don't know anything.
I'll wait until I do before I try again, and meantime, `sweep mud in the
street' if I can't do better, that's honest, at least.” Which decision proved
that her second tumble down the beanstalk had done her some good.
While these internal
revolutions were going on, her external life had been as busy and uneventful as
usual, and if she sometimes looked serious or a little sad no one observed it
but Professor Bhaer. He did it so quietly that Jo never knew he was watching to
see if she would accept and profit by his reproof, but she stood the test, and
he was satisfied, for though no words passed between them, he knew that she had
given up writing. Not only did he guess it by the fact that the second finger
of her right hand was no longer inky, but she spent her evenings downstairs
now, was met no more among newspaper offices, and studied with a dogged
patience, which assured him that she was bent on occupying her mind with
something useful, if not pleasant.
He helped her in many
ways, proving himself a true friend, and Jo was happy, for while her pen lay
idle, she was learning other lessons besides German, and laying a foundation
for the sensation story of her own life.
It was a pleasant winter
and a long one, for she did not leave Mrs. Kirke till June. Everyone seemed
sorry when the time came. The children were inconsolable, and Mr. Bhaer's hair
stuck straight up all over his head, for he always rumpled it wildly when
disturbed in mind.
“Going home? Ah, you
are happy that you haf a home to go in,” he said, when she told him, and sat
silently pulling his beard in the corner, while she held a little levee on that
last evening.
She was going early, so
she bade them all goodbye overnight, and when his turn came, she said warmly, “Now,
Sir, you won't forget to come and see us, if you ever travel our way, will you?
I'll never forgive you if you do, for I want them all to know my friend.”
“Do you? Shall I come?”
he asked, looking down at her with an eager expression which she did not see.
“Yes, come next month.
Laurie graduates then, and you'd enjoy commencement as something new.”
“That is your best
friend, of whom you speak?” he said in an altered tone.
“Yes, my boy Teddy. I'm
very proud of him and should like you to see him.”
Jo looked up then,
quite unconscious of anything but her own pleasure in the prospect of showing
them to one another. Something in Mr. Bhaer's face suddenly recalled the fact
that she might find Laurie more than a `best friend', and simply because she
particularly wished not to look as if anything was the matter, she
involuntarily began to blush, and the more she tried not to, the redder she
grew. If it had not been for Tina on her knee. She didn't know what would have
become of her. Fortunately the child was moved to hug her, so she managed to
hide her face an instant, hoping the Professor did not see it. But he did, and
his own changed again from that momentary anxiety to its usual expression, as
he said cordially . . .
“I fear I shall not
make the time for that, but I wish the friend much success, and you all
happiness. Gott bless you!” And with that, he shook hands warmly, shouldered
Tina, and went away.
But after the boys were
abed, he sat long before his fire with the tired look on his face and the
`heimweh', or homesickness, lying heavy at his heart. Once, when he remembered
Jo as she sat with the little child in her lap and that new softness in her
face, he leaned his head on his hands a minute, and then roamed about the room,
as if in search of something that he could not find.
“It is not for me, I
must not hope it now,” he said to himself, with a sigh that was almost a groan.
Then, as if reproaching himself for the longing that he could not repress, he
went and kissed the two tousled heads upon the pillow, took down his
seldom-used meerschaum, and opened his Plato.
He did his best and did
it manfully, but I don't think he found that a pair of rampant boys, a pipe, or
even the divine Plato, were very satisfactory substitutes for wife and child at
home.
Early as it was, he was
at the station next morning to see Jo off, and thanks to him, she began her
solitary journey with the pleasant memory of a familiar face smiling its
farewell, a bunch of violets to keep her company, and best of all, the happy
thought, “Well, the winter's gone, and I've written no books, earned no
fortune, but I've made a friend worth having and I'll try to keep him all my
life.”
Whatever his motive
might have been, Laurie studied to some purpose that year, for he graduated
with honor, and gave the Latin oration with the grace of a Phillips and the
eloquence of a Demosthenes, so his friends said. They were all there, his
grandfather--oh, so proud--Mr. and Mrs. March, John and Meg, Jo and Beth, and
all exulted over him with the sincere admiration which boys make light of at
the time, but fail to win from the world by any after-triumphs.
“I've got to stay for
this confounded supper, but I shall be home early tomorrow. You'll come and
meet me as usual, girls?” Laurie said, as he put the sisters into the carriage
after the joys of the day were over. He said `girls', but he meant Jo, for she
was the only one who kept up the old custom. She had not the heart to refuse
her splendid, successful boy anything, and answered warmly . . .
“I'll come, Teddy, rain
or shine, and march before you, playing `Hail the conquering hero comes' on a
jew's-harp.”
Laurie thanked her with
a look that made her think in a sudden panic, “Oh, deary me! I know he'll say
something, and then what shall I do?”
Evening meditation and
morning work somewhat allayed her fears, and having decided that she wouldn't
be vain enough to think people were going to propose when she had given them
every reason to know what her answer would be, she set forth at the appointed
time, hoping Teddy wouldn't do anything to make her hurt his poor feelings. A
call at Meg's, and a refreshing sniff and sip at the Daisy and Demijohn, still
further fortified her for the tete-a-tete, but when she saw a stalwart figure
looming in the distance, she had a strong desire to turn about and run away.
“Where's the
jew's-harp, Jo?” cried Laurie, as soon as he was within speaking distance.
“I forgot it.” And Jo
took heart again, for that salutation could not be called loverlike.
She always used to take
his arm on these occasions, now she did not, and he made no complaint, which
was a bad sign, but talked on rapidly about all sorts of faraway subjects, till
they turned from the road into the little path that led homeward through the
grove. Then he walked more slowly, suddenly lost his fine flow of language, and
now and then a dreadful pause occurred. To rescue the conversation from one of
the wells of silence into which it kept falling, Jo said hastily, “Now you must
have a good long holiday!”
“I intend to.”
Something in his
resolute tone made Jo look up quickly to find him looking down at her with an
expression that assured her the dreaded moment had come, and made her put out
her hand with an imploring, “No, Teddy. Please don't!”
“I will, and you must
hear me. It's no use, Jo, we've got to have it out, and the sooner the better
for both of us,” he answered, getting flushed and excited all at once.
“Say what you like
then. I'll listen,” said Jo, with a desperate sort of patience.
Laurie was a young
lover, but he was in earnest, and meant to `have it out', if he died in the
attempt, so he plunged into the subject with characteristic impetuousity,
saying in a voice that would get choky now and then, in spite of manful efforts
to keep it steady . ..
“I've loved you ever
since I've known you, Jo, couldn't help it, you've been so good to me. I've
tried to show it, but you wouldn't let me. Now I'm going to make you hear, and
give me an answer, for I can't go on so any longer.”
“I wanted to save you
this. I thought you'd understand . . . began Jo, finding it a great deal harder
than she expected.
“I know you did, but
the girls are so queer you never know what they mean. They say no when they
mean yes, and drive a man out of his wits just for the fun of it,” returned
Laurie, entrenching himself behind an undeniable fact.
“I don't. I never
wanted to make you care for me so, and I went away to keep you from it if I
could.”
“I thought so. It was
like you, but it was no use. I only loved you all the more, and I worked hard
to please you, and I gave up billiards and everything you didn't like, and waited
and never complained, for I hoped you'd love me, though I'm not half good
enough . . .” Here there was a choke that couldn't be controlled, so he
decapitated buttercups while he cleared his `confounded throat'.
“You, you are, you're a
great deal too good for me, and I'm so grateful to you, and so proud and fond
of you, I don't know why I can't love you as you want me to. I've tried, but I
can't change the feeling, and it would be a lie to say I do when I don't.”
“Really, truly, Jo?”
He stopped short, and
caught both her hands as he put his question with a look that she did not soon
forget.
“Really, truly, dear.””
They were in the grove
now, close by the stile, and when the last words fell reluctantly from Jo's
lips, Laurie dropped her hands and turned as if to go on, but for once in his
life the fence was too much for him. So he just laid his head down on the mossy
post, and stood so still that Jo was frightened.
“Oh, Teddy, I'm sorry,
so desperately sorry, I could kill myself if it would do any good! I wish you
wouldn't take it so hard, I can't help it. You know it's impossible for people
to make themselves love other people if they don't,” cried Jo inelegantly but
remorsefully, as she softly patted his shoulder, remembering the time when he
had comforted her so long ago.
“They do sometimes,”
said a muffled voice from the post.
“I don't believe it's
the right sort of love, and I'd rather not try it,” was the decided answer.
There was a long pause,
while a blackbird sung blithely on the willow by the river, and the tall grass
rustled in the wind. Presently Jo said very soberly, as she sat down on the
step of the stile, “Laurie, I want to tell you something.”
He started as if he had
been shot, threw up his head, and cried out in a fierce tone, “Don't tell me
that, Jo, I can't bear it now!”
“Tell what?” she asked,
wondering at his violence.
“That you love that old
man.”
“What old man?”
demanded Jo, thinking he must mean his grandfather.
“That devilish
Professor you were always writing about. If you say you love him, I know I
shall do something desperate.” And he looked as if he would keep his word, as
he clenched his hands with a wrathful spark in his eyes.
Jo wanted to laugh, but
restrained herself and said warmly, for she too, was getting excited with all
this, “Don't swear, Teddy! He isn't old, nor anything bad, but good and kind,
and the best friend I've got, next to you. Pray, don't fly into a passion. I
want to be kind, but I know I shall get angry if you abuse my Professor. I haven't
the least idea of loving him or anybody else.”
“But you will after a
while, and then what will become of me?”
“You'll love someone
else too, like a sensible boy, and forget all this trouble.”
“I can't love anyone
else, and I'll never forget you, Jo, Never! Never!” with a stamp to emphasize
his passionate words.
“What shall I do with
him?” sighed Jo, finding that emotions were more unmanagable than she expected.
“You haven't heard what I wanted to tell you. Sit down and listen, for indeed I
want to do right and make you happy,” she said, hoping to soothe him with a
little reason, which proved that she knew nothing about love.
Seeing a ray of hope in
that last speech, Laurie threw himself down on the grass at her feet, leaned
his arm on the lower step of the stile, and looked up at her with an expectant
face. Now that arrangement was not conducive to calm speech or clear thought on
Jo's part, for how could she say hard things to her boy while he watched her
with eyes full of love and longing, and lashes still wet with the bitter drop
or two her hardness of heart had wrung from him? She gently turned his head
away, saying, as she stroked the wavy hair which had been allowed to grow for
her sake--how touching that was, to be sure!
“I agree with Mother
that you and I are not suited to each other, because our quick tempers and
strong wills would probably make us very miserable, if we were so foolish as to
. . .” Jo paused a little over the last word, but Laurie uttered it with a
rapturous expression.
“Marry--no we
shouldn't! If you loved me, Jo, I should be a perfect saint, for you could make
me anything you like.”
“No, I can't. I've
tried and failed, and I won't risk our happiness by such a serious experiment.
We don't agree and we never shall, so we'll be good friends all our lives, but
we won't go and do anything rash.”
“Yes, we will if we get
the chance,” muttered Laurie rebelliously.
“Now do be reasonable,
and take a sensible view of the case,” implored Jo, almost at her wit's end.
“I won't be reasonable.
I don't want to take what you call `a sensible view'. It won't help me, and it
only makes it harder. I don't believe you've got any heart.”
“I wish I hadn't.”
There was a little
quiver in Jo's voice, and thinking it a good omen, Laurie turned round,
bringing all his persuasive powers to bear as he said, in the wheedlesome tone
that had never been so dangerously wheedlesome before, “Don't disappoint us,
dear! Everyone expects it. Grandpa has set his heart upon it, your people like it,
and I can't get on without you. Say you will, and let's be happy. Do, do!”
Not until months
afterward did Jo understand how she had the strength of mind to hold fast to
the resolution she had made when she decided that she did not love her boy, and
never could. It was very hard to do, but she did it, knowing that delay was
both useless and cruel.
“I can't say `yes'
truly, so I won't say it at all. You'll see that I'm right, by-and-by, and
thank me for it . . .” she began solemnly.
“I'll be hanged if I
do!” And Laurie bounced up off the grass, burning with indignation at the very
idea.
“Yes, you will!”
persisted Jo. “You'll get over this after a while, and find some lovely
accomplished girl, who will adore you, and make a fine mistress for your fine
house. I shouldn't. I'm homely and awkward and odd and old, and you'd be
ashamed of me, and we should quarrel--we can't help it even now, you see-- and
I shouldn't like elegant society and you would, and you'd hate my scribbling,
and I couldn't get on without it, and we should be unhappy, and wish we hadn't
done it, and everything would be horrid!”
“Anything more?” asked
asked Laurie, finding it hard to listen patiently to this prophetic burst.
“Nothing more, except
that I don't believe I shall ever marry. I'm happy as I am, and love my liberty
too well to be in a hurry to give it up for any mortal man.”
“I know better!” broke
in Laurie. “You think so now, but there'll come a time when you will care for
somebody, and you'll love him tremendously, and live and die for him. I know
you will, it's your way, and I shall have to stand by and see it.” And the
despairing lover cast his hat upon the ground with a gesture that would have
seemed comical, if his face had not been so tragic.
“Yes, I will live and
die for him, if her ever comes and makes me love him in spite of myself, and
you must do the best you can!” cried Jo, losing patience with poor Teddy. “I've
done my best, but you won't be reasonable, and it's selfish of you to keep
teasing for what I can't give. I shall always be fond of you, very fond indeed,
as a friend, but I'll never marry you, and the sooner you believe it the better
for both of us--so now!”
That speech was like
gunpowder. Laurie looked at her a minute as if he did not quite know what to do
with himself, then turned sharply away, saying in a desperate sort of tone, “You'll
be sorry some day, Jo.”
“Oh, where are you
going?” she cried, for his face frightened her.
“To the devil!” was the
consoling answer.
For a minute Jo's heart
stood still, as he swung himself down the bank toward the river, but it takes
much folly, sin or misery to send a young man to a violent death, and Laurie
was not one of the weak sort who are conquered by a single failure. He had no
thought of a melodramatic plunge, but some blind instinct led him to fling hat
and coat into his boat, and row away with all his might, making better time up
the river than he had done in any race. Jo drew a long breath and unclasped her
hands as she watched the poor fellow trying to outstrip the trouble which he
carried in his heart.
“That will do him good,
and he'll come home in such a tender, penitent state of mind, that I shan't
dare to see him.” she said, adding, as she went slowly home, feeling as if she
had murdered some innocent thing, and buried it under the leaves. “Now I must
go and prepare Mr. Laurence to be very kind to my poor boy. I wish he'd love
Beth, perhaps he may in time, but I begin to think I was mistaken about her. Oh
dear! How can girls like to have lovers and refuse them? I think it's dreadful.”
Being sure that no one
could do it so well as herself, she went straight to Mr. Laurence, told the
hard story bravely through, and then broke down, crying so dismally over her
own insensibility that the kind old gentleman, though sorely disappointed, did
not utter a reproach. He found it difficult to understand how any girl could
help loving Laurie, and hoped she would change her mind, but he knew even
better than Jo that love cannot be forced, so he shook his head sadly and
resolved to carry his boy out of harm's way, for Young Impetuosity's parting
words to Jo disturbed him more than he would confess.
When Laurie came home,
dead tired but quite composed, his grandfather met him as if he knew nothing,
and kept up the delusion very successfully for an hour or two. But when they
sat together in the twilight, the time they used to enjoy so much, it was hard
work for the old man to ramble on as usual, and harder still for the young one
to listen to praises of the last year's success, which to him now seemed like
love's labor lost. He bore it as long as he could, then went to his piano and
began to play. The window's were open, and Jo, walking in the garden with Beth,
for once understood music better than her sister, for he played the `SONATA
PATHETIQUE', and played it as he never did before.
“That's very fine, I
dare say, but it's sad enough to make one cry. Give us something gayer, lad,”
said Mr. Laurence, whose kind old heart was full of sympathy, which he longed
to show but knew not how.
Laurie dashed into a
livelier strain, played stormily for several minutes, and would have got
through bravely, if in a momentary lull Mrs. March's voice had not been heard
calling, “Jo, dear, come in. I want you.”
Just what Laurie longed
to say, with a different meaning! As he listened, he lost his place, the music
ended with a broken chord, and the musician sat silent in the dark.
“I can't stand this,”
muttered the old gentleman. Up he got, groped his way to the piano, laid a kind
hand on either of the broad shoulders, and said, as gently as a woman, “I know,
my boy, I know.”
No answer for an
instant, then Laurie asked sharply, “Who told you?”
“Jo herself.”
“Then there's an end of
it!” And he shook off his grandfather's hands with an impatient motion, for
though grateful for the sympathy, his man's pride could not bear a man's pity.
“Not quite. I want to
say one thing, and then there shall be an end of it,” returned Mr. Laurence
with unusual mildness. “You won't care to stay at home now, perhaps?”
“I don't intend to run
away from a girl. Jo can't prevent my seeing her, and I shall stay and do it as
long as I like,” interrupted Laurie in a defiant tone.
“Not if you are the
gentleman I think you. I'm disappointed, but the girl can't help it, and the
only thing left for you to do is to go away for a time. Where will you go?”
“Anywhere. I don't care
what becomes of me.” And Laurie got up with a reckless laugh that grated on his
grandfather's ear.
“Take it like a man,
and don't do anything rash, for God's sake. Why not go abroad, as you planned,
and forget it?”
“I can't.”
“But you've been wild
to go, and I promised you should when you got through college.”
“Ah, but I didn't mean
to go alone!” And Laurie walked fast through the room with an expression which
it was well his grandfather did not see.
“I don't ask you to go
alone. There's someone ready and glad to go with you, anywhere in the world.”
“Who, Sir?' stopping to
listen.
“Myself.”
Laurie came back as
quickly as he went, and put out his hand, saying huskily, “I'm a selfish brute,
but--you know-- Grandfather--”
“Lord help me, yes, I
do know, for I've been through it all before, once in my own young days, and
then with your father. Now, my dear boy, just sit quietly down and hear my
plan. It's all settled, and can be carried out at once,” said Mr. Laurence,
keeping hold of the young man, as if fearful that he would break away as his
father had done before him.
“Well, sir, what is it?”
And Laurie sat down, without a sign of interest in face or voice.
“There is business in
London that needs looking after. I meant you should attend to it, but I can do
it better myself, and things here will get on very well with Brooke to manage
them. My partners do almost everything, I'm merely holding on until you take my
place, and can be off at any time.”
“But you hate
traveling, Sir. I can't ask it of you at your age,” began Laurie, who was
grateful for the sacrifice, but much preferred to go alone, if he went at all.
The old gentleman knew
that perfectly well, and particularly desired to prevent it, for the mood in
which he found his grandson assured him that it would not be wise to leave him
to his own devices. So, stifling a natural regret at the thought of the home
comforts he would leave behind him, he said stoutly, Bless your soul, I'm not
superannuated yet. I quite enjoy the idea. It will do me good, and my old bones
won't suffer, for traveling nowadays is almost as easy as sitting in a chair.”
A restless movement
from Laurie suggested that his chair was not easy, or that he did not like the
plan, and made the old man add hastily, “I don't mean to be a marplot or a
burden. I go because I think you'd feel happier than if I was left behind. I
don't intend to gad about with you, but leave you free to go where you like,
while I amuse myself in my own way. I've friends in London and Paris, and
should like to visit them. Meantime you can go to Italy, Germany, Switzerland,
where you will, and enjoy pictures, music, scenery, and adventures to your
heart's content.”
Now, Laurie felt just
then that his heart was entirely broken and the world a howling wilderness, but
at the sound of certain words which the old gentleman artfully introduced into
his closing sentence, the broken heart gave an unexpected leap, and a green
oasis or two suddenly appeared in the howling wilderness. He sighed, and then
said, in a spiritless tone, “Just as you like, Sir. It doesn't matter where I
go or what I do.”
“It does to me,
remember that, my lad. I give you entire liberty, but I trust you to make an
honest use of it. Promise me that, Laurie.”
“Anything you like,
Sir.”
“Good,” thought the old
gentleman. “You don't care now, but there'll come a time when that promise will
keep you out of mischief, or I'm much mistaken.”
Being an energetic
individual, Mr. Laurence struck while the iron was hot, and before the blighted
being recovered spirit enough to rebel, they were off. During the time
necessary for preparation, Laurie bore himself as young gentleman usually do in
such cases. He was moody, irritable, and pensive by turns, lost his appetite,
neglected his dress and devoted much time to playing tempestuously on his
piano, avoided Jo, but consoled himself by staring at her from his window, with
a tragic face that haunted her dreams by night and oppressed her with a heavy
sense of guilt by day. Unlike some sufferers, he never spoke of his unrequited
passion, and would allow no one, not even Mrs. March, to attempt consolation or
offer sympathy. On some accounts, this was a relief to his friends, but the
weeks before his departure were very uncomfortable, and everyone rejoiced that
the `poor, dear fellow was going away to forget his trouble, and come home
happy'. Of course, he smiled darkly at their delusion, but passed it by with
the sad superiority of one who knew that his fidelity like his love was
unalterable.
When the parting came
he affected high spirits, to conceal certain inconvenient emotions which seemed
inclined to assert themselves. This gaiety did not impose upon anybody, but
they tried to look as if it did for his sake, and he got on very well till Mrs.
March kissed him, whit a whisper full of motherly solicitude. Then feeling that
he was going very fast, he hastily embraced them all round, not forgetting the
afflicted Hannah, and ran downstairs as if for his life. Jo followed a minute
after to wave her hand to him if he looked round. He did look round, came back,
put his arms about her as she stood on the step above him, and looked up at her
with a face that made his short appeal eloquent and pathetic.
“Oh, Jo, can't you?”
“Teddy, dear, I wish I
could!”
That was all, except a
little pause. Then Laurie straightened himself up, said, “It's all right, never
mind,” and went away without another word. Ah, but it wasn't all right, and Jo
did mind, for while the curly head lay on her arm a minute after her hard
answer, she felt as if she had stabbed her dearest friend, and when he left her
without a look behind him, she knew that the boy Laurie never would come again.
When Jo came home that
spring, she had been struck with the change in Beth. No one spoke of it or
seemed aware of it, for it had come too gradually to startle those who saw her
daily, but to eyes sharpened by absence, it was very plain and a heavy weight
fell on Jo's heart as she saw her sister's face. It was no paler and but
littler thinner than in the autumn, yet there was a strange, transparent look
about it, as if the mortal was being slowly refined away, and the immortal
shining through the frail flesh with an indescribably pathetic beauty. Jo saw
and felt it, but said nothing at the time, and soon the first impression lost
much of its power, for Beth seemed happy, no one appeared to doubt that she was
better, and presently in other cares Jo for a time forgot her fear.
But when Laurie was
gone, and peace prevailed again, the vague anxiety returned and haunted her.
She had confessed her sins and been forgiven, but when she showed her savings
and proposed a mountain trip, Beth had thanked her heartily, but begged not to
go so far away from home. Another little visit to the seashore would suit her
better, and as Grandma could not be prevailed upon to leave the babies, Jo took
Beth down to the quiet place, where she could live much in the open air, and
let the fresh sea breezes blow a little color into her pale cheeks.
It was not a
fashionable place, but even among the pleasant people there, the girls made few
friends, preferring to live for one another. Beth was too shy to enjoy society,
and Jo too wrapped up in her to care for anyone else. So they were all in all
to each other, and came and went, quite unconscious of the interest they exited
in those about them, who watched with sympathetic eyes the strong sister and
the feeble one, always together, as if they felt instinctively that a long
separation was not far away.
They did feel it, yet
neither spoke of it, for often between ourselves and those nearest and dearest
to us there exists a reserve which it is very hard to overcome. Jo felt as if a
veil had fallen between her heart and Beth's, but when she put out her hand to
lift it up, there seemed something sacred in the silence, and she waited for
Beth to speak. She wondered, and was thankful also, that her parents did not
seem to see what she saw, and during the quiet weeks when the shadows grew so
plain to her, she said nothing of it to those at home, believing that it would
tell itself when Beth came back no better. She wondered still more if her
sister really guessed the hard truth, and what thoughts were passing through
her mind during the long hours when she lay on the warm rocks with her head in
Jo's lap, while the winds blew healthfully over her and the sea made music at
her feet.
One day Beth told her.
Jo thought she was asleep, she lay so still, and putting down her book, sat
looking at her with wistful eyes, trying to see signs of hope in the faint
color on Beth's cheeks. But she could not find enough to satisfy her, for the
cheeks were very thin, and the hands seemed too feeble to hold even the rosy
little shells they had been collecting. It came to her then more bitterly than
ever that Beth was slowly drifting away form her, and her arms instinctively
tightened their hold upon the dearest treasure she possessed. For a minute her
eyes were too dim for seeing, and when they cleared, Beth was looking up at her
so tenderly that there was hardly any need for her to say, “Jo, dear, I'm glad
you know it. I've tried to tell you, but I couldn't.”
There was no answer
except her sister's cheek against her own, not even tears, for when most deeply
moved, Jo did not cry. She was the weaker then, and Beth tried to comfort and
sustain her, with her arms about her and the soothing words she whispered in
her ear.
“I've known it for a
good while, dear, and now I'm used to it, it isn't hard to think of or to bear.
Try to see it so and don't be troubled about me, because it's best, indeed it
is.”
“Is this what made you
so unhappy in the autumn, Beth? You did not feel it then, land keep it to
yourself so long, did you?” asked Jo, refusing to see or say that it was best,
but glad to know that Laurie had no part in Beth's trouble.
“Yes, I gave up hoping
then, but I didn't like to own it. I tried to think it was a sick fancy, and
would not let it trouble anyone. But when I saw you all so well and strong and
full of happy plans, it was hard to feel that I could never be like you, and
then I was miserable, Jo.”
“Oh, Beth, and you
didn't tell me, didn't let me comfort and help you? How could you shut me out,
bear it all alone?”
Jo's voice was full of
tender reproach, and her heart ached to think of the solitary struggle that
must have gone on while Beth learned to say goodbye to health, love, and live,
and take up her cross so cheerfully.
“Perhaps it was wrong,
but I tried to do right. I wasn't sure, no one said anything, and I hoped I was
mistaken. It would have been selfish to frighten you all when Marmee was so
anxious about Meg, and Amy away, and you so happy with Laurie--at least I
thought so then.”
“And I thought you
loved him, Beth, and I went away because I couldn't,” cried Jo, glad to say all
the truth.
Beth looked so amazed
at the idea that Jo smiled in spite of her pain, and added softly, “Then you
didn't, dearie? I was afraid it was so, and imagined your poor little heart
full of lovelornity all that while.”
“Why, Jo, how could I,
when he was so fond of you?” asked Beth, as innocently as a child. “I do love
him dearly. He is so good to me, how can I help It? But he could never be
anything to me but my brother. I hope he truly will be, sometime.”
“Not through me,” said
Jo decidedly. “Amy is left for him, and they would suit excellently, but I have
no heart for such things, now. I don't care what becomes of anybody but you,
Beth. You must get well.”
“I want to, oh, so
much! I try, but every day I lose a little, and feel more sure that I shall
never gain it back. It's like the tide, Jo, when it turns, it goes slowly, but
it can't be stopped..”
“It shall be stopped,
your tide must not turn so soon, nineteen is too young, Beth. I can't let you
go. I'll work and pray and fight against it. I'll keep you in spite of
everything. There must be ways, it can't be too late. God won't be so cruel as
to take you from me,” cried poor Jo rebelliously, for her spirit was far less
piously submissive than Beth's.
Simple, sincere people
seldom speak much of their piety. It shows itself in acts rather than in words,
and has more influence than homilies or protestations. Beth could not reason
upon or explain the faith that gave her courage and patience to give up life,
and cheerfully wait for death. Like a confiding child, she asked no questions,
but left everything to God and nature, Father and Mother of us all, feeling
sure that they, and they only, could teach and strengthen heart and spirit for
this life and the life to come. She did not rebuke Jo with saintly speeches,
only loved her better for her passionate affection, and clung more closely to
the dear human love, from which our Father never means us to be weaned, but
through which He draws us closer to Himself. She could not say, “I'm glad to
go,” for life was very sweet for her. She could only sob out, “I try to be
willing,” while she held fast to Jo, as the first bitter wave of this great
sorrow broke over them together.
By and by Beth said,
with recovered serenity, “You'll tell them this when we go home?”
“I think they will see
it without words,” sighed Jo, for now it seemed to her that Beth changed every
day.
“Perhaps not. I've
heard that the people who love best are often blindest to such things. If they
don't see it, you will tell them for me. I don't want any secrets, and it's
kinder to prepare them. Meg has John and the babies to comfort her, but you
must stand by Father and Mother, won't you Jo?”
“If I can. But, Beth, I
don't give up yet. I'm going to believe that it is a sick fancy, and not let
you think it's true.” said Jo, trying to speak cheerfully.
Beth lay a minute
thinking, and then said in her quiet way, “I don't know how to express myself,
and shouldn't try to anyone but you, because I can't speak out except to my Jo.
I only mean to say that I have a feeling that it never was intended I should
live long. I'm not like the rest of you. I never made any plans about what I'd
do when I grew up. I never thought of being married, as you all did. I couldn't
seem to imagine myself anything but stupid little Beth, trotting about at home,
of no use anywhere but there. I never wanted to go away, and the hard part now
is the leaving you all. I'm not afraid, but it seems as if I should be homesick
for you even in heaven.”
Jo could not speak, and
for several minutes there was no sound but the sigh of the wind and the lapping
of the tide. A white-winged gull flew by, with the flash of sunshine on its
silvery breast. Beth watched it till it vanished, and her eyes were full of
sadness. A little gray-coated sand bird came tripping over the beach `peeping'
softly to itself, as if enjoying the sun and sea. It came quite close to Beth,
and looked at her with a friendly eye and sat upon a warm stone, dressing its
wet feathers, quite at home. Beth smiled and felt comforted, for the tiny thing
seemed to offer its small friendship and remind her that a pleasant world was
still to be enjoyed.
“Dear little bird! See,
Jo, how tame it is. I like peeps better than the gulls. They are not so wild
and handsome, but they seem happy, confiding little things. I used to call them
my birds last summer, and Mother said they reminded her of me --busy,
quaker-colored creatures, always near the shore, and always chirping that
contented little song of theirs. You are the gull, Jo, strong and wild, fond of
the storm and the wind, flying far out to sea, and happy all alone. Meg is the
turtle-dove, and Amy is like the lark she write about, trying to get up among
the clouds, but always dropping down into its nest again. Dear little girl!
She's so ambitious, but her heart is good and tender, and no matter how high
she flies, she never will forget home. I hope I shall see her again, but she
seems so far away.”
“She is coming in the
spring, and I mean that you shall be all ready to see and enjoy her. I'm going
to have you well and rosy by that time.” began Jo, feeling that of all the
changes in Beth, the talking change was the greatest, for it seemed to cost no
effort now, and she thought aloud in a way quite unlike bashful Beth.
“Jo, dear, don't hope
any more. It won't do any good. I'm sure of that. We won't be miserable, but
enjoy being together while we wait. We'll have happy times, for I don't suffer
much, and I think the tide will go out easily, if you help me.”
Jo leaned down to kiss
the tranquil face, and with that silent kiss, she dedicated herself soul and
body to Beth.
She was right. There
was no need of any words when they got home, for Father and Mother saw plainly
now what they had prayed to be saved from seeing. Tired with her short journey,
Beth went at once to bed, saying how glad she was to be home, and when Jo went
down, she found that she would be spared the hard task of telling Beth's
secret. Her father stood leaning his head on the mantelpiece and did not turn
as she came in, but her mother stretched out her arms as if for help, and Jo
went to comfort her without a word.
At three o'clock in the
afternoon, all the fashionable world at Nice may be seen on the Promenade des
Anglais--a charming place, for the wide walk, bordered with palms, flowers, and
tropical shrubs, is bounded on one side by the sea, on the other by the grand
drive, lined with hotels and villas, while beyond lie orange orchards and the
hills. Many nations are represented, many languages spoken, many costumes worn,
and on a sunny day the spectacle is as gay and brilliant as a carnival. Haughty
English, lively French, sober Germans, handsome Spaniards, ugly Russians, meek
Jews, free-and-easy Americans, all drive, sit, or saunter here, chatting over
the news, and criticizing the latest celebrity who has arrived--Ristori or
Dickens, Victor Emmanuel or the Queen of the Sandwich Islands. The equipages
are as varied as the company and attract as much attention, especially the low
basket barouches in which ladies drive themselves, with a pair of dashing
ponies, gay nets to keep their voluminous flounces from overflowing the
diminutive vehicles, and little grooms on the perch behind.
Along this walk, on
Christmas Day, a tall young man walked slowly, with his hands behind him, and a
somewhat absent expression of countenance. He looked like an Italian, was
dressed like an Englishman, and had the independent air of an American--a
combination which caused sundry pairs of feminine eyes to look approvingly
after him, and sundry dandies in black velvet suits, with rose-colored
neckties, buff gloves, and orange flowers in their buttonholes, to shrug their
shoulders, and then envy him his inches. There were plenty of pretty faces to
admire, but the young man took little notice of them, except to glance now and
then at some blonde girl in blue. Presently he strolled out of the promenade
and stood a moment at the crossing, as if undecided whether to go and listen to
the band in the Jardin Publique, or to wander along the beach toward Castle Hill.
The quick trot of ponies feet made him look up, as one of the little carriages,
containing a single young lady, came rapidly down the street. The lady was
young, blonde, and dressed in blue. He stared a minute, then his whole face
woke up, and, waving his hat like a boy, he hurried forward to meet her.
“Oh, Laurie, is it
really you? I thought you'd never come!” cried Amy, dropping the reins and
holding out both hands, to the great scandalization of a French mamma, who
hastened her daughter's steps, lest she should be demoralized by beholding the
free manners of these `mad English'.
“I was detained by the
way, but I promised to spend Christmas with you, and here I am.”
“How is your
grandfather? When did you come? Where are you staying?”
“Very well--last
night--at the Chauvain. I called at your hotel, but you were out.”
“I have so much to say,
I don't know where to begin! Get in and we can talk at our ease. I was going
for a drive and longing for company. Flo's saving up for tonight.”
“What happens then, a
ball?”
“A Christmas party at
out hotel. There are many Americans there, and they give it in honor of the
day. You'll go with us, of course? Aunt will be charmed.”
“Thank you. Where now?”
asked Laurie, leaning back and folding his arms, a proceeding which suited Amy,
who preferred to drive, for her parasol whip and blue reins over the white
ponies backs afforded her infinite satisfaction.
“I'm going to the
bankers first for letters, and then to Castle Hill. The view is so lovely, and
I like to feed the peacocks. Have you ever been there?”
“Often, years ago, but
I don't mind having a look at it.”
“Now tell me all about
yourself. The last I heard of you, your grandfather wrote that he expected you
from Berlin.”
“Yes, I spent a month
there and then joined him in Paris, where he has settled for the winter. He has
friends there and finds plenty to amuse him, so I go and come, and we got on
capitally.”
“That's a sociable
arrangement,” said Amy, missing something in Laurie's manner, though she
couldn't tell what.
“Why, you see, he hates
to travel, and I hate to keep still, so we each suit ourselves, and there is no
trouble. I am often with him, and he enjoys my adventures, while I like to feel
that someone is glad to see me when I get back from my wanderings. Dirty old
hole, isn't it?” he added, with a look of disgust as they drove along the
boulevard to the Place Napoleon in the old city.
“The dirt is
picturesque, so I don't mind. The river and the hills are delicious, and these
glimpses of the narrow cross streets are my delight. Now we shall have to wait
for that procession to pass. It's going to the Church of St. John.”
While Laurie listlessly
watched the procession of priests under their canopies, white-veiled nuns
bearing lighted tapers, and some brotherhood in blue chanting as they walked,
Amy watched him, and felt a new sort of shyness steal over her, for he was
changed, and she could not find the merry-faced boy she left in the
moody-looking man beside her. He was handsomer than ever and greatly improved,
she thought, but now that the flush of pleasure at meeting her was over, he
looked tired and spiritless--not sick, nor exactly unhappy, but older and
graver than a year or two of prosperous life should have made him. She couldn't
understand it and did not venture to ask questions, so she shook her head and
touched up her ponies, as the procession wound away across the arches of the
Paglioni bridge and vanished in the church.
“Que pensez-vous?” she
said, airing her French, which had improved in quantity, if not in quality,
since she came abroad.
“That mademoiselle has
made good use of her time, and the result is charming,” replied Laurie, bowing
with his hand on his heart and an admiring look.
She blushed with
pleasure, but somehow the compliment did not satisfy her like the blunt praises
he used to give her at home, when he promenaded round her on festival
occasions, and told her she was `altogether jolly', with a hearty smile and an
approving pat on the head. She didn't like the new tone, for though not blase,
it sounded indifferent in spite of the look.
“If that's the way he's
going to grow up, I wish he's stay a boy,” she thought, with a curious sense of
disappointment and discomfort, trying meantime to seem quite easy and gay.
At Avigdor's she found
the precious home letters and, giving the reins to Laurie,read them luxuriously
as they wound up the shady road between green hedges, where tea roses bloomed
as freshly as in June.
“Beth is very poorly,
Mother says. I often think I ought to go home, but they all say `stay'. So I
do, for I shall never have another chance like this,” said Amy, looking sober
over one page.
“I think you are right,
there. You could do nothing at home, and it is a great comfort to them to know
that you are well and happy, and enjoying so much, my dear.”
He drew a little
nearer, and looked more like his old self as he said that, and the fear that
sometimes weighed on Amy's heart was lightened, for the look, the act, the
brotherly `my dear', seemed to assure her that if any trouble did come, she
would not be alone in a strange land. Presently she laughed and showed him a
small sketch of Jo in her scribbling suit, with the bow rampantly erect upon
her cap, and issuing from her mouth the words, `Genius burns!'.
Laurie smiled, took it,
put it in his vest pocket `to keep it from blowing away', and listened with
interest to the lively letter Amy read him.
“This will be a
regularly merry Christmas to me, with presents in the morning, you and letters
in the afternoon, and a party at night,” said Amy, as they alighted among the
ruins of the old fort, and a flock of splendid peacocks came trooping about
them, tamely waiting to be fed. While Amy stood laughing on the bank above him
as she scattered crumbs to the brilliant birds, Laurie looked at her as she had
looked at him, with a natural curiosity to see what changes time and absence
had wrought. He found nothing to perplex or disappoint, much to admire and
approve, for overlooking a few little affectations of speech and manner, she
was as sprightly and graceful as ever, with the addition of that indescribable
something in dress and bearing which we call elegance. Always mature for her
age, she had gained a certain aplomb in both carriage and conversation, which
made her seem more of a woman of the world than she was, but her old petulance
now and then showed itself, her strong will still held its own, and her native
frankness was unspoiled by foreign polish.
Laurie did not read all
this while he watched her feed the peacocks, but he saw enough to satisfy and
interest him, and carried away a pretty little picture of a bright-faced girl
standing in the sunshine, which brought out the soft hue of her dress, the
fresh color of her cheeks, the golden gloss of her hair, and made her a
prominent figure in the pleasant scene.
As they came up onto
the stone plateau that crowns the hill, Amy waved her hand as if welcoming him
to her favorite haunt, and said, pointing here and there, “Do you remember the
Cathedral and the Corso, the fishermen dragging their nets in the bay, and the
lovely road to Villa Franca, Schubert's Tower, just below, and best of all,
that speck far out to sea which they say ils Corsica?”
“I remember. It's not
much changed,” he answered without enthusiasm.
“What Jo would give for
a sight of that famous speck!” said Amy, feeling in good spirits and anxious to
see him so also.
“Yes,” was all he said,but
he turned and strained his eyes to see the island which a greater usurper than
even Napoleon now made interesting in his sight.
“Take a good look at it
for her sake, and then come and tell me what you have been doing with yourself
all this while,” said Amy, seating herself, ready for a good talk.
But she did not get it,
for though he joined her and answered all her questions freely, she could only
learn that he had roved about the Continent and been to Greece. So after idling
away an hour, they drove home again, and having paid his respects to Mrs.
Carrol, Laurie left them, promising to return in the evening.
It must be recorded of
Amy that she deliberately prinked that night. Time and absence had done its
work on both the young people. She had seen her old friend in a new light, not
as `our boy', but as a handsome and agreeable man, and she was conscious of a
very natural desire to find favor in his sight. Amy knew her good points, and
made the most of them with the taste and skill which is a fortune to a poor and
pretty woman.
Tarlatan and tulle were
cheap at Nice, so she enveloped herself in them on such occasions, and
following the sensible English fashion of simple dress for young girls, got up
charming little toilettes with fresh flowers, a few trinkets, and all manner of
dainty devices, which were both inexpensive and effective. It must be confessed
that the artist sometimes got possession of the woman, and indulged in antique
coiffures, statuesque attitudes, and classic draperies. But, dear heart, we all
have out little weaknesses, and find it easy to pardon such in the young, who
satisfy our eyes with their comeliness, and keep our hearts merry with their
artless vanities.
“I do want him to think
I look well, and tell them so at home,” said Amy to herself, as she put on
Flo's old white silk ball dress, and covered it with a cloud of fresh illusion,
out of which her white shoulders and golden head emerged with a most artistic
effect. Her hair she had the sense to let alone, after gathering up the thick
waves and curls into a Hebe-like knot at the back of her head.
“It's not the fashion,
but it's becoming, and I can't afford to make a fright of myself,” she used to
say, when advised to frizzle, puff, or braid, as the latest style commanded.
Having no ornaments
fine enough for this important occasion, Amy looped her fleecy skirts with rosy
clusters of azalea, and framed the white shoulders in delicate green vines.
Remembering the painted boots, she surveyed her white satin slippers with girlish
satisfaction, and chassed down the room, admiring her aristocratic feet all by
herself.
“My new fan just
matches my flowers, my gloves fit to a charm, and the real lace on Aunt's
mouchoir gives an air to my whole dress. If I only had a classical nose and
mouth I should be perfectly happy,” she said, surveying herself with a critical
eye and a candle in each hand.
In spite of this
affliction, she looked unusually gay and graceful as she glided away. She
seldom ran--it did not suit her style, she thought, for being tall, the stately
and Junoesque was more appropriate than the sportive or piquante. She walked up
and down the long saloon while waiting for Laurie, and once arranged herself
under the chandelier, which had a good effect upon her hair, then she thought
better of it, and went away to the other end of the room, as if ashamed of the
girlish desire to have the first view a propitious one. It so happened that she
could not have done a better thing, for Laurie came in so quietly she did not
hear him, and as she stood at the distant window, with her head half turned and
one hand gathering up her dress, the slender, white figure against the red
curtains was as effective as a well-placed statue.
“Good evening, Diana!”
said Laurie, with the look of satisfaction she liked to see in his eyes when
they rested on her.
“Good evening, Apollo!”
she answered, smiling back at him, for he too looked unusually debonair, and
the thought of entering the ballroom on the arm of such a personable man caused
Amy to pity the four plain Misses Davis from the bottom of her heart.
“Here are your flowers.
I arranged them myself, remembering that you didn't like what Hannah calls a
`sot-bookay', said Laurie, handing her a delicate nosegay, in a holder that she
had long coveted as she daily passed it in Cardiglia's window.
“How kind you are!” she
exclaimed gratefully. “If I'd known you were coming I'd have had something
ready for you today, though not as pretty as this, I'm afraid.”
“Thank you. It isn't
what it should be, but you have improved it,” he added, as she snapped the
silver bracelet on her wrist.
“Please don't.”
“I thought you liked
that sort of thing.”
“Not from you, it
doesn't sound natural, and I like your old bluntness better.”
“I'm glad of it,” he
answered, with a look of relief, then buttoned her gloves for her, and asked if
his tie was straight, just as he used to do when they went to parties together
at home.
The company assembled
in the long salle a manger that evening was such as one sees nowhere but on the
Continent. The hospitable Americans had invited every acquaintance they had in
Nice, and having no prejudice against titles, secured a few to add luster to
their Christmas ball.
A Russian prince
condescended to sit in a corner for an hour and talk with a massive lady,
dressed like Hamlet's mother in black velvet with a pearl bridle under her
chin. A Polish count, aged eighteen, devoted himself to the ladies, who
pronounced him, `a fascinating dear', and a German Serene Something, having come
to supper alone, roamed vaguely about, seeking what he might devour. Baron
Rothschild's private secretary, a large-nosed Jew in tight boots, affably
beamed upon the world, as if his master's name crowned him with a golden halo.
A stout Frenchman, who knew the Emperor, came to indulge his mania for dancing,
and Lady de Jones, a British matron, adorned the scene with her little family
of eight. Of course, there were many light-footed, shrill-voiced American
girls, handsome, lifeless-looking English ditto, and a few plain but piquante
French demoiselles, likewise the usual set of traveling young gentlemen who
disported themselves gaily, while mammas of all nations lined the walls and
smiled upon them benignly when they danced with their daughters.
Any young girl can
imagine Amy's state of mind when she `took the stage' that night, leaning on
Laurie's arm. She knew she looked well, she loved to dance, she felt that her
foot was on her native heath in a ballroom, and enjoyed the delightful sense of
power which comes when young girls first discover the new and lovely kingdom
they are born to rule by virtue of beauty, youth, and womanhood. She did pity
the Davis girls, who were awkward, plain, and destitute of escort, except a
grim papa and three grimmer maiden aunts, and she bowed to them in her
friendliest manner as she passed, which was good of her, as it permitted them
to see her dress, and burn with curiosity to know who her distinguished-looking
friend might be. With the first burst of the band, Amy's color rose, her eyes
began to sparkle, and her feet to tap the floor impatiently, for she danced
well and wanted Laurie to know it. Therefore the shock she received can better
be imagined than described, when he said in a perfectly tranquil tone, “Do you
care to dance?”
“One usually does at a
ball.”
Her amazed look and
quick answer caused Laurie to repair his error as fast as possible.
“I meant the first
dance. May I have the honor?”
“I can give you one if
I put off the Count. He dances divinely, but he will excuse me, as you are an
old friend,” said Amy, hoping that the name would have a good effect, and show
Laurie that she was not to be trifled with.
“Nice little boy, but
rather a short Pole to support . ..
A daughter of the gods,
Divinely tall, and most
divinely fair,”
was all the satisfaction she got, however. The set in which they found themselves was composed of English,
and Amy was compelled to walk decorously through a cotillion, feeling all the
while as if she could dance the tarantella with relish. Laurie resigned her to
the `nice little boy', and went to do his duty to Flo, without securing Amy for
the joys to come, which reprehensible want of forethought was properly
punished, for she immediately engaged herself till supper, meaning to relent if
he then gave any signs penitence. She showed him her ball book with demure
satisfaction when he strolled instead of rushed up to claim her for the next, a
glorious polka redowa. But his polite regrets didn't impose upon her, and when
she galloped away with the Count, she saw Laurie sit down by her aunt with an
actual expression of relief.
That was unpardonable,
and Amy took no more notice of him for a long while, except a word now and then
when she came to her chaperon between the dances for a necessary pin or a
moment's rest. Her anger had a good effect, however, for she hid it under a
smiling face, and seemed unusually blithe and brilliant. Laurie's eyes followed
her with pleasure, for she neither romped nor sauntered, but danced with spirit
and grace, making the delightsome pastime what it should be. He very naturally
fell to studying her from this new point of view, and before the evening was
half over, had decided that `little Amy was going to make a very charming
woman'.
It was a lively scene,
for soon the spirit of the social season took possession of everyone, and
Christmas merriment made all faces shine, hearts happy, and heels light. The
musicians fiddled, tooted, and banged as if they enjoyed it, everybody danced
who could, and those who couldn't admired their neighbors with uncommon warmth.
The air was dark with Davises, and many Jones gamboled like a flock of young
giraffes. The golden secretary darted through the room like a meteor with a dashing
frenchwoman who carped the floor with her pink satin train. The serene Teuton
found the supper table and was happy, eating steadily through the bill of fare,
and dismayed the garçons by the ravages he committed. But the Emperor's friend
covered himself with glory, for he danced everything, whether he knew it or
not, and introduced impromptu pirouettes when the figures bewildered him. The
boyish abandon of that stout man was charming to behold, for though he `carried
weight', he danced like an India-rubber ball. He ran, he flew, he pranced, his
face glowed, his bald head shown, his coattails waved wildly, his pumps
actually twinkled in the air, and when the music stopped, he wiped the drops
from his brow, and beamed upon his fellow men like a French Pickwick without
glasses.
Amy and her Pole
distinguished themselves by equal enthusiasm but more graceful agility, and
Laurie found himself involuntarily keeping time to the rhythmic rise and fall
of the white slippers as they flew by as indefatigably as if winged. When
little Vladimir finally relinquished her, with assurances that he was
`desolated to leave so early', she was ready to rest, and see how her recreant
knight had borne his punishment.
It had been successful,
for at three-and-twenty, blighted affections find a balm in friendly society,
and young nerves will thrill, young blood dance, and healthy young spirits
rise, when subjected to the enchantment of beauty, light, music, and motion.
Laurie had a waked-up look as he rose to give her his seat, and when he hurried
away to bring her some supper, she said to herself, with a satisfied smile, “Ah,
I thought that would do him good!”
“You look like Balzac's
`FEMME PEINTE PAR ELLE-NENE',” he said, as he fanned her with one hand and held
her coffee cup in the other.
“My rouge won't come
off.” And Amy rubbed her brilliant cheek, and showed him her white glove with a
sober simplicity that made him laugh outright.
“What do you call this
stuff?” he asked, touching a fold of her dress that had blown over his knee.
“Illusion.”
“Good name for it. It's
very pretty--new thing, isn't it?”
“It's as old as the
hills. You have seen it on dozens of girls, and you never found out that it was
pretty till now? Stupide!”
“I never saw it on you
before, which accounts for the mistake, you see.”
“None of that, it is
forbidden. I'd rather take coffee than compliments just now. No, don't lounge,
it makes me nervous.”
Laurie sat bold
upright, and meekly took her empty plate feeling an odd sort of pleasure in having
`little Amy' order him about, for she had lost her shyness now, and felt an
irresistible desire to trample on him, as girls have a delightful way of doing
when lords of creation show any signs of subjection.
“Where did you learn
all this sort of thing?” he asked with a quizzical look.
“As `this sort of
thing' is rather a vague expression, would you kindly explain?” returned Amy,
knowing perfectly well what he meant, but wickedly leaving him to describe what
is indescribable.
“Well--the general air,
the style, the self-possession, the-- the--illusion--you know”, laughed Laurie,
breaking down and helping himself out of his quandary with the new word.
Amy was gratified, but
of course didn't show it, and demurely answered, “Foreign life polishes one in
spite of one's self. I study as well as play, and as for this”--with a little
gesture toward her dress--”why, tulle is cheap, posies to be had for nothing,
and I am used to making the most of my poor little things.”
Amy rather regretted
that last sentence, fearing it wasn't in good taste, but Laurie liked her
better for it, and found himself both admiring and respecting the brave
patience that made the most of opportunity, and the cheerful spirit that
covered poverty with flowers. Amy did not know why he looked at her so kindly,
now why he filled up her book with his own name, and devoted himself to her for
the rest of the evening in the most delightful manner, but the impulse that
wrought this agreeable change was the result of one of the new impressions
which both of them were unconsciously giving and receiving.
In France the young
girls have a dull time of it till they are married, when `Vive la liberté!'
becomes their motto. In America, as everyone knows, girls early sign the
declaration of independence, and enjoy their freedom with republican zest, but
the young matrons usually abdicate with the first heir to the throne and go
into a seclusion almost as close as a French nunnery, though by no means as
quiet. Whether they like it or not, they are virtually put upon the shelf as
soon as the wedding excitement is over, and most of them might exclaim, as did
a very pretty woman the other day, “I'm as handsome as ever, but no one takes
any notice of me because I'm married.”
Not being a belle or
even a fashionable lady, Meg did not experience this affliction till her babies
were a year old, for in her little world primitive customs prevailed, and she
found herself more admired and beloved than ever.
As she was a womanly
little woman, the maternal instinct was very strong, and she was entirely
absorbed in her children, to the utter exclusion of everything and everybody
else. Day and night she brooded over them with tireless devotion and anxiety,
leaving John to the tender mercies of the help, for an Irish lady now presided
over the kitchen department. Being a domestic man, John decidedly missed the
wifely attentions he had been accustomed to receive, but as he adored his
babies, he cheerfully relinquished his comfort for a time, supposing with
masculine ignorance that peace would soon be restored. But three months passed,
and there was no return of repose. Meg looked worn and nervous, the babies
absorbed every minute of her time, the house was neglected, and Kitty, the
cook, who took life `aisy', kept him on short commons. When he went out in the
morning he was bewildered by small commissions for the captive mamma, if he
came gaily in at night, eager to embrace his family, he was quenched by a “Hush!
They are just asleep after worrying all day.” If he proposed a little amusement
at home, “No, it would disturb the babies.” If he hinted at a lecture or a
concert, he was answered with a reproachful look, and a decided “Leave my
children for pleasure, never!” His sleep was broken by infant wails and visions
of a phantom figure pacing noiselessly to and fro in the watches of the night.
His meals were interrupted by the frequent flight of the presiding genius, who
deserted him, half-helped, if a muffled chirp sounded from the nest above. And
when he read his paper of an evening, Demi's colic got into the shipping list
and Daisy's fall affected the price of stocks, for Mrs. Brooke was only
interested in domestic news.
The poor man was very
uncomfortable, for the children had bereft him of his wife, home was merely a
nursery and the perpetual `hushing' made him feel like a brutal intruder
whenever he entered the sacred precincts of Babyland. He bore it very patiently
for six months, and when no signs of amendment appeared, he did what other
paternal exiles do--tried to get a little comfort elsewhere. Scott had married
and gone to housekeeping not far off, and John fell into the way of running
over for an hour or two of an evening, when his own parlor was empty, and his
own wife singing lullabies that seemed to have no end. Mrs. Scott was a lively,
pretty girl, with nothing to do but be agreeable, and she performed her mission
most successfully. The parlor was always bright and attractive, the chessboard
ready, the piano in tune, plenty of gay gossip, and a nice little supper set
forth in tempting style.
John would have
preferred his own fireside if it had not been so lonely, but as it was he
gratefully took the next best thing and enjoyed his neighbor's society.
Meg rather approved of
the new arrangement at first, and found it a relief to know that John was
having a good time instead of dozing in the parlor, or tramping about the house
and waking the children. But by-and-by, when the teething worry was over and the
idols went to sleep at proper hours, leaving Mamma time to rest, she began to
miss John, and find her workbasket dull company, when he was not sitting
opposite in his old dressing gown, comfortably scorching his slippers on the
fender. She would not ask him to stay at home, but felt injured because he did
not know that she wanted him without being told, entirely forgetting the many
evenings he had waited for her in vain. She was nervous and worn out with
watching and worry, and in that unreasonable frame of mind which the best of
mothers occasionally experience when domestic cares oppress them. Want of
exercise robs them of cheerfulness, and too much devotion to that idol of
American women, the teapot, makes them feel as if they were all nerve and no
muscle.
“Yes,” she would say,
looking in the glass, “I'm getting old and ugly. John doesn't find me
interesting any longer, so he leaves his faded wife and goes to see his pretty
neighbor, who has no incumbrances. Well, the babies love me, they don't care if
I am thin and pale and haven't time to crimp my hair, they are my comfort, and
some day John will see what I've gladly sacrificed for them, won't he, my
precious?”
To which pathetic
appeal daisy would answer with a coo, or Demi with a crow, and Meg would put by
her lamentations for a maternal revel, which soothed her solitude for the time
being. But the pain increased as politics absorbed John, who was always running
over to discuss interesting points with Scott, quite unconscious that Meg
missed him. Not a word did she say, however, till her mother found her in tears
one day, and insisted on knowing what the matter was,for Meg's drooping spirits
had not escaped her observation.
“I wouldn't tell anyone
except you, Mother, but I really do need advice, for if John goes on much
longer I might as well be widowed,” replied Mrs. Brooke, drying her tears on
Daisy's bib with an injured air.
“Goes on how, my dear?”
asked her mother anxiously.
“He's away all day, and
at night when I want to see him, he is continually going over to the Scotts'.
It isn't fair that I should have the hardest work, and never any amusement. Men
are very selfish, even the best of them.”
“So are women. Don't
blame John till you see where you are wrong yourself.”
“But it can't be right
for him to neglect me.”
“Don't you neglect him?”
“Why, Mother, I thought
you'd take my part!”
“So I do, as far as
sympathizing goes, but I think the fault is yours, Meg.”
“I don't see how.”
“Let me show you. Did
John ever neglect you, as you call it, while you made it a point to give him
your society of an evening, his only leisure time?”
“No, but I can't do it
now, with two babies to tend.”
“I think you could,
dear, and I think you ought. May I speak quite freely, and will you remember
that it's Mother who blames as well as Mother who sympathizes?”
“Indeed I will! Speak
to me as if I were little Meg again. I often feel as if I needed teaching more
than ever since these babies look to me for everything.”
Meg drew her low chair
beside her mother's, and with a little interruption in either lap, the two
women rocked and talked lovingly together, feeling that the tie of motherhood
made them more one than ever.
“You have only made the
mistake that most young wives make-- forgotten your duty to your husband in
your love for your children. A very natural and forgivable mistake, Meg, but
one that had better be remedied before you take to different ways, for children
should draw you nearer than ever, not separate you, as if they were all yours, and
John had nothing to do but support them. I've seen it for some weeks, but have
not spoken, feeling sure it would come right in time.”
“I'm afraid it won't.
If I ask him to stay, he'll think I'm jealous, and I wouldn't insult him by
such an idea. He doesn't see that I want him, and I don't know how to tell him
without words.”
“Make it so pleasant he
won't want to go away. My dear, he's longing for his little home, but it isn't
home without you, and you are always in the nursery.”
“Oughtn't I to be there?”
“Not all the time, too
much confinement makes you nervous, and then you are unfitted for everything.
Besides, you owe something to John as well as to the babies. Don't neglect
husband for children, don't shut him out of the nursery, but teach him how to
help in it. His place is there as well as yours, and the children need him. Let
him feel that he has a part to do, and he will do it gladly and faithfully, and
it will be better for you all.”
“You really think so,
Mother?”
“I know it, Meg, for I've
tried it, and I seldom give advice unless I've proved its practicability. When
you and Jo were little, I went on just as you are, feeling as if I didn't do my
duty unless I devoted myself wholly to you. Poor Father took to his books,
after I had refused all offers of help, and left me to try my experiment alone.
I struggled along as well as I could, but Jo was too much for me. I nearly
spoiled her by indulgence. You were poorly, and I worried about you till I fell
sick myself. Then Father came to the rescue, quietly managed everything, and
made himself so helpful that I saw my mistake, and never have been able to got
on without him since. That is the secret of our home happiness. He does not let
business wean him from the little cares and duties that affect us all, and I
try not to let domestic worries destroy my interest in his pursuits. Each do
our part alone in many things, but at home we work together, always.”
“It is so, Mother, and
my great wish is to be to my husband and children what you have been to yours.
Show me how, I'll do anything you say.”
“You were always my
docile daughter. Well, dear, if I were you, I'd let John have more to do with
the management of Demi, for the boy needs training, and it's none too soon to
begin. Then I'd do what I have often proposed,, let Hannah come and help you.
She is a capital nurse, and you may trust the precious babies to her while you
do more housework. You need the exercise, Hannah would enjoy the rest, and John
would find his wife again. Go out more, keep cheerful as well as busy, for you
are the sunshine-maker of the family, and if you get dismal there is no fair
weather. Then I'd try to take an interest in whatever John likes--talk with
him, let him read to you, exchange ideas, and help each other in that way.
Don't shut yourself up in a bandbox because you are a woman, but understand
what is going on, and educate yourself to take your part in the world's work,
for it all affects you and yours.”
“John is so sensible,
I'm afraid he will think I'm stupid if I ask questions about politics and
things.”
“I don't believe he
would. Love covers a multitude of sins, and of whom could you ask more freely
than of him? Try it, and see if he doesn't find your society far more agreeable
than Mrs. Scott's suppers.”
“I will. Poor John! I'm
afraid I have neglected him sadly, but I thought I was right, and he never said
anything.”
“He tried not to be
selfish, but he has felt rather forlorn, I fancy. This is just the time, Meg,
when young married people are apt to grow apart, and the very time when they
ought to be most together, for the first tenderness soon wears off, unless care
is taken to preserve it. And no time is so beautiful and precious to parents as
the first years of the little lives given to them to train. Don't let John be a
stranger to the babies, for they will do more to keep him safe and happy in
this world of trial and temptation than anything else, and through them you
will learn to know and love one another as you should. Now, dear, good-by.
Think over Mother's preachment, act upon it if it seems good, and God bless you
all.”
Meg did think it over,
found it good, and acted upon it, though the first attempt was not made exactly
as she planned to have it. Of course the children tyrannized over her, and
ruled the house as soon as they found out that kicking and squalling brought
them whatever they wanted. Mamma was an abject slave to their caprices, but
Papa was not so easily subjugated, and occasionally afflicted his tender spouse
by an attempt at paternal discipline with his obstreperous son. For Demi
inherited a trifle of his sire's firmness of character, we won't call it
obstinacy, and when he made up his little to have or to do anything, all the
king's horses and all the king's men could not change that pertinacious little
mind. Mamma thought the dear too young to be taught to conquer his prejudices,
but Papa believed that it never was too soon to learn obedience. So Master Demi
early discovered that when he undertook to `wrastle' with `Parpar', he always
got the worst of it, yet like the Englishman, baby respected the man who
conquered him, and loved the father whose grave “No, no,” was more impressive
than all Mamma's love pats.
A few days after the
talk with her mother, Meg resolved to try a social evening with John, so she
ordered a nice supper, set the parlor in order, dressed herself prettily, and
put the children to bed early, that nothing should interfere with her
experiment. But unfortunately Demi's most unconquerable prejudice was against
going to bed, and that night he decided to go on a rampage. So poor Meg sang
and rocked, told stories and tried every sleep-prevoking wile she could devise,
but all in vain, the big eyes wouldn't shut, and long after Daisy had gone to
byelow, like the chubby little bunch of good nature she was, naughty Demi lay
staring at the light, with the most discouragingly wide-awake expression of
countenance.
“Will Demi lie still
like a good boy, while Mamma runs down and gives poor Papa his tea?” asked Meg,
as the hall door softly closed, and the well-known step went tip-toeing into
the dining room.
“Me has tea!” said
Demi, preparing to join in the revel.
“No, but I'll save you
some little cakies for breakfast, if you'll go bye-by like Daisy. Will you,
lovey?”
“Iss!” and Demi shut
his eyes tight, as if to catch sleep and hurry the desired day.
Taking advantage of the
propitious moment, Meg slipped away and ran down to greet her husband with a
smiling face and the little blue bow in her hair which was his especial
admiration. He saw it at once and said with pleased surprise, “Why, little
mother, how gay we are tonight. Do you expect company?”
“Only you, dear.”
“No, I'm tired of being
dowdy, so I dressed up as a change. You always make yourself nice for table, no
matter how tired you are, so why shouldn't I when I have the time?'
“I do it out of respect
for you, my dear,” said old-fashioned John.
“Ditto, ditto, Mr.
Brooke,” laughed Meg, looking young and pretty again, as she nodded to him over
the teapot.
“Well, it's altogether
delightful, and like old times. This tastes right. I drink your health, dear.”
And John sipped his tea with an air of reposeful rapture, which was of very
short duration however, for as he put down his cup, the door handle rattled
mysteriously, and a little voice was heard, saying impatiently . . .
“Opy doy. Me's tummin!”
“It's that naughty boy.
I told him to go to sleep alone, and here he is, downstairs, getting his death
a-cold pattering over that canvas,” said Meg, answering the call.
“Mornin' now,”
announced Demi in joyful tone as he entered, with his long nightgown gracefully
festooned over his arm and every curl bobbing gayly as he pranced about the
table, eyeing the `cakies' with loving glances.
“No, it isn't morning
yet. You must go to bed, and not trouble poor Mamma. Then you can have the
little cake with sugar on it.”
“Me loves Parpar,” said
the artful one, preparing to climb the paternal knee and revel in forbidden
joys. But John shook his head, and said to Meg. . .
“If you told him to
stay up there, and go to sleep alone, make him do it, or he will never learn to
mind you.”
“Yes, of course. Come,
Demi.” And Meg led her son away, feeling a strong desire to spank the little
marplot who hopped beside her, laboring under the delusion that the bribe was
to be administered as soon as they reached the nursery.
Nor was he
disappointed, for that shortsighted woman actually gave him a lump of sugar,
tucked him into his bed, and forbade any more promenades till morning.
“Iss!” said Demi the
perjured, blissfully sucking his sugar, and regarding his first attempt as
eminently successful.
Meg returned to her
place, and supper was progressing pleasantly, when the little ghost walked
again and exposed the maternal delinquencies by boldly demanding, “More sudar,
Marmar.”
“Now this won't do,”
said John, hardening his heart against the engaging little sinner. “We shall
never know any peace till that child learns to go to bed properly. You have
made a slave of yourself long enough. Give him one lesson, and then there will
be an end of it. Put him in his bed and leave him, Meg.”
“He won't stay there,
he never does unless I sit by him.”
“I'll manage him. Demi,
go upstairs, and get into your bed, as Mamma bids you.”
“S'ant!” replied the
young rebel, helping himself to the coveted `cakie', and beginning to eat the
same with calm audacity.
“You must never say
that to Papa. I shall carry you if you don't go yourself.”
“Go 'way, me don't love
Parpar.” And Demi retired to his mother's skirts for protection.
But even that refuge
proved unavailing, for he was delivered over to the enemy, with a “Be gentle
with him, John,” which struck the culprit with dismay, for when Mamma deserted
him, then the judgment day was at hand. Bereft of his cake, defrauded of his
frolic, and borne away by a strong hand to that detested bed, poor Demi could
not restrain his wrath, but openly defied Papa, and kicked and screamed lustily
all the way upstairs. The minute he was put into bed on one side, he rolled out
on the other, and made for the door, only to be ignominiously caught up by the
tail of his little toga and put back again, which lively performance was kept
up till the young man's strength gave out, when he devoted himself to roaring
at the top of his voice. This vocal exercise usually conquered Meg, but John
sat as unmoved as the post which is popularly believed to be deaf. No coaxing,
no sugar, no lullaby, no story, even the light was put out and only the red
glow of the fire enlivened the `big dark' which Demi regarded with curiosity
rather than fear. This new order of things disgusted him, and he howled
dismally for `Marmar', as his angry passions subsided, and recollections of his
tender bondwoman returned to the captive autocrat. The plaintive wail which
succeeded the passionate roar went to Meg's heart, and she ran up to say
beseechingly . . .
“Let me stay with him,
he'll be good now, John.”
“No, my dear. I've told
him he must go to sleep, as you bid him, and he must, if I stay here all night.”
“But he'll cry himself
sick,” pleaded Meg, reproaching herself for deserting her boy.
“No, he won't, he's so
tired he will soon drop off and then the matter is settled, for he will understand
that he has got to mind. Don't interfere, I'll manage him.”
“He's my child, and I
can't have his spirit broken by harshness.”
“He's my child, and I
won't have his temper spoiled by indulgence. Go down, my dear, and leave the
boy to me.”
When John spoke in that
masterful tone, Meg always obeyed, and never regretted her docility.
“Please let me kiss him
once, John?”
“Certainly. Demi, say
good night to Mamma, and let her go and rest, for she is very tired with taking
care of you all day.”
Meg always insisted
upon it that the kiss won the victory, for after it was given, Demi sobbed more
quietly, and lay quite still at the bottom of the bed, whither he had wriggled
in his anguish of mind.
“Poor little man, he's
worn out with sleep and crying. I'll cover him up, and then go and set Meg's
heart at rest.” thought John, creeping to the bedside, hoping to find his
rebellious heir asleep.
But he wasn't, for the
moment his father peeped at him, Demi's eyes opened, his little chin began to
quiver, and he put up his arms, saying with a penitent hiccough, “Me's dood,
now.”
Sitting on the stairs
outside Meg wondered at the long silence which followed the uproar, and after
imagining all sorts of impossible accidents, she slipped into the room to set
her fears at rest. Demi lay fast asleep, not in his usual spreadeagle attitude,
but in a subdued bunch, cuddled close in the circle of his father's arm and
holding his father's finger, as if he felt that justice was tempered with
mercy, and had gone to sleep a sadder and wiser baby. So held, John had waited
with a womanly patience till the little hand relaxed its hold, and while
waiting had fallen asleep, more tired by that tussle with his son than with his
whole day's work.
As Meg stood watching
the two faces on the pillow, she smiled to herself, and then slipped away
again, saying in a satisfied tone, “I never need fear that John will be too
harsh with my babies. He does know how to manage them, and will be a great
help, for Demi is getting too much for me.”
When John came down at
last, expecting to find a pensive or reproachful wife, he was agreeably
surprised to find Meg placidly trimming a bonnet, and to be greeted with the
request to read something about the election, if he was not too tired. John saw
in a minute that a revolution of some kind was going on, but wisely asked no
questions, knowing that Meg was such a transparent little person, she couldn't
keep a secret to save her life, and therefore the clue would soon appear. He
read a long debate with the most amiable readiness and then explained it in his
most lucid manner, while Meg tried to look deeply interested, to ask
intelligent questions, and keep her thoughts from wandering from the state of
the nation to the state of her bonnet. In her secret soul, however, she decided
that politics were as bad as mathematics, and the the mission of politicians
seemed to be calling each other names, but she kept these feminine ideas to
herself, and when John paused, shook her head and said with what she thought
diplomatic ambiguity, “Well, I really don't see what we are coming to.”
John laughed, and
watched her for a minute, as she poised a pretty little preparation of lace and
flowers on her hand, and regarded it with the genuine interest which his harangue
had failed to waken.
“She is trying to like
politics for my sake, so I'll try and like millinery for hers, that's only
fair,” thought John the Just, adding aloud, “That's very pretty. Is it what you
call a breakfast cap?”
“My dear man, it's a
bonnet! My very best go-to-concert-and-theater bonnet.”
“I beg your pardon, it
was so small, I naturally mistook it for one of the flyaway things you
sometimes wear. How do you keep it on?”
“these bits of lace are
fastened under the chin with a rosebud, so.” And Meg illustrated by putting on
the bonnet and regarding him with an air of calm satisfaction that was
irresistible.
“It's a love of a
bonnet, but I prefer the face inside, for it looks young and happy again.” And
John kissed the smiling face, to the great detriment of the rosebud under the
chin.
“I'm glad you like it,
for I want you to take me to one of the new concerts some night. I really need
some music to put me in tune. Will you, please?”
“Of course I will, with
all my heart, or anywhere else you like. You have been shut up so long, it will
do you no end of good, and I shall enjoy it, of all things. What put it into
your head, little mother?”
“Well, I had a talk
with Marmee the other day, and told her how nervous and cross and out of sorts
I felt, and she said I needed change and less care, so Hannah is to help me
with the children, and I'm to see to things about the house more, and now and
then have a little fun, just to keep me from getting to be a fidgety,
broken-down old woman before my time. It's only an experiment, John, and I want
to try it for your sake as much as for mine, because I've neglected you
shamefully lately, and I'm going to make home what it used to be, if I can. You
don't object, I hope?”
Never mind what John
said, or what a very narrow escape the little bonnet had from utter ruin. All
that we have any business to know is that John did not appear to object,
judging from the changes which gradually took place in the house and its
inmates. It was not all Paradise by any means, but everyone was better for the
division of labor system. The children throve under the paternal rule, for
accurate, stedfast John brought order and obedience into Babydom, while Meg
recovered her spirits and composed her nerves by plenty of wholesome exercise,
a little pleasure, and much confidential conversation with her sensible
husband. Home grew homelike again, and John had no wish to leave it, unless he
took Meg with him. The Scotts came to the Brookes' now, and everyone found the
little house a cheerful place, full of happiness, content, and family love.
Even Sallie Moffatt liked to go there. “It is always so quiet and pleasant
here, it does me good, Meg,” she used to say, looking about her with wistful
eyes, as if trying to discover the charm, that she might use it in her great
house, full of splendid loneliness, for there were no riotous, sunny-faced
babies there, and Ned lived in a world of his own, where there was no place for
her.
This household
happiness did not come all at once, but John and Meg had found the key to it,
and each year of Married life taught them how to use it, unlocking the
treasuries of real home love and mutual helpfulness, which the poorest may
possess, and the richest cannot buy. This is the sort of shelf on which young
wives and mothers may consent to be laid, safe from the restless fret and fever
of the world, finding loyal lovers in the little sons and daughters who cling
to them, undaunted by sorrow, poverty, or age, walking side by side, through
fair and stormy weather, with a faithful friend, who is, in the true sense of
the good old Saxon word, the `house-band', and learning, as Meg learned, that a
woman's happiest kingdom is home, her highest honor the art of ruling it not as
a queen, but as a wise wife and mother.
Laurie went to Nice
intending to stay a week, and remained a month. He was tired of wandering about
alone, and Amy's familiar presence seemed to give a homelike charm to the foreign
scenes in which she bore a part. He rather missed the `petting' he used to
receive, and enjoyed a taste of it again, for no attentions, however
flattering, from strangers, were half so pleasant as the sisterly adoration of
the girls at home. Amy never would pet him like the others, but she was very
glad to see him now, and quite clung to him, feeling that he was the
representative of the dear family for whom she longed more than she would
confess. They naturally took comfort in each other's society and were much
together, riding, walking, dancing, or dawdling, for at Nice no one can be very
industrious during the gay season. But, while apparently amusing themselves in
the most careless fashion, they were half-consciously making discoveries and
forming opinions about each other. Amy rose daily in the estimation of her
friend, but he sank in hers, and each felt the truth before a word was spoken.
Amy tried to please, and succeeded, for she was grateful for the many pleasures
he gave her, and repaid him with the little services to which womanly women
know how to lend an indescribable charm. Laurie made no effort of any kind, but
just let himself drift along as comfortably as possible, trying to forget, and
feeling that all women owed him a kind word because one had been cold to him.
It cost him no effort to be generous, and he would have given Amy all the
trinkets in Nice if she would have taken them, but at the same time he felt
that he could not change the opinion she was forming of him, and he rather dreaded
the keen blue eyes that seemed to watch him with such half-sorrowful,
half-scornful surprise.
“All the rest have gone
to Monaco for the day. I preferred to stay at home and write letters. They are
done now, and I am going to Valrosa to sketch, will you come?' said Amy, as she
joined Laurie one lovely day when he lounged in as usual about noon.
“Well, yes, but isn't
it rather warm for such a long walk?” he answered slowly, for the shaded salon
looked inviting after the glare without.
“I'm going to have the
little carriage, and Baptiste can drive, so you'll have nothing to do but hold
your umbrella, and keep your gloves nice,” returned Amy, with a sarcastic
glance at the immaculate kids, which were a weak point with Laurie.
“Then I'll go with
pleasure.” And he put out his hand for her sketchbook. But she tucked it under
her arm with a sharp . . .
“Don't trouble
yourself. It's no exertion to me, but you don't look equal to it.”
Laurie lifted his
eyebrows and followed at a leisurely pace as she ran downstairs, but when they
got into the carriage he took the reins himself, and left little Baptiste
nothing to do but fold his arms and fall asleep on his perch.
The two never
quarreled. Amy was too well-bred, and just now Laurie was too lazy, so in a minute
he peeped under her hatbrim with an inquiring air. She answered him with a
smile, and they went on together in the most amicable manner.
It was a lovely drive,
along winding roads rich in the picturesque scenes that delight beauty-loving
eyes. Here an ancient monastery, whence the solemn chanting of the monks came
down to them. There a bare-legged shepherd, in wooden shoes, pointed hat, and
rough jacket over one shoulder, sat piping on a stone while his goats skipped
among the rocks or lay at his feet. Meek, mouse-colored donkeys, laden with
panniers of freshly cut grass passed by, with a pretty girl in a capaline
sitting between the green piles, or an old woman spinning with a distaff as she
went. Brown, soft-eyed children ran out from the quaint stone hovels to offer
nosegays, or bunches of oranges still on the bough. Gnarled olive trees covered
the hills with their dusky foliage, fruit hung golden in the orchard, and great
scarlet anemones fringed the roadside, while beyond green slopes and craggy heights,
the Maritime Alps rose sharp and white against the blue Italian sky.
Valrosa well deserved
its name, for in that climate of perpetual summer roses blossomed everywhere.
They overhung the archway, thrust themselves between the bars of the great gate
with a sweet welcome to passers-by, and lined the avenue, winding through lemon
trees and feathery palms up to the villa on the hill. Every shadowy nook, where
seats invited one to stop and rest, was a mass of bloom, every cool grotto had
its marble nymph smiling from a veil of flowers and every fountain reflected
crimson, white, or pale pink roses, leaning down to smile at their own beauty.
Roses covered the walls of the house, draped the cornices, climbed the pillars,
and ran riot over the balustrade of the wide terrace, whence one looked down on
the sunny Mediterranean, and the white-walled city on its shore.
“This is a regular
honeymoon paradise, isn't it? Did you ever see such roses?” asked Amy, pausing
on the terrace to enjoy the view, and a luxurious whiff of perfume that came
wandering by.
“No, nor felt such
thorns,” returned Laurie, with his thumb in his mouth, after a vain attempt to
capture a solitary scarlet flower that grew just beyond his reach.
“Try lower down, and
pick those that have no thorns,” said Amy, gathering three of the tiny
cream-colored ones that starred the wall behind her. She put them in his
buttonhole as a peace offering, and he stood a minute looking down at them with
a curious expression, for in the Italian part of his nature there was a touch
of superstition, and he was just then in that state of half-sweet, half-bitter
melancholy, when imaginative young men find significance in trifles and food
for romance everywhere. He had thought of Jo in reaching after the thorny red
rose, for vivid flowers became her, and she had often worn ones like that from
the greenhouse at home. The pale roses Amy gave him were the sort that the
Italians lay in dead hands, never in bridal wreaths, and for a moment he
wondered if the omen was for Jo or for himself, but the next instant his
American common sense got the better of sentimentality, and he laughed a
heartier laugh than Amy had heard since he came.
“It's good advice,
you'd better take it and save your fingers,” she said, thinking her speech
amused him.
“Thank you, I will,” he
answered in jest, and a few months later he did it in earnest.
“Laurie, when are you
going to your grandfather?” she asked presently, as she settled herself on a
rustic seat.
“Very soon.”
“You have said that a
dozen times within the last three weeks.”
“I dare say, short
answers save trouble.”
“He expects you, and
you really ought to go.”
“Hospitable creature! I
know it.”
“Then why don't you do
it?”
“Natural depravity, I
suppose.”
“Natural indolence, you
mean. It's really dreadful!” And Amy looked severe.
“Not so bad as it
seems, for I should only plague him if I went, so I might as well stay and
plague you a little longer, you can bear it better, in fact I think it agrees
with you excellently.” And Laurie composed himself for a lounge on the broad
ledge of the balustrade.
Amy shook her head and
opened her sketchbook with an air of resignation, but she had made up her mind
to lecture `that boy' and in a minute she began again.
“What are you doing
just now?”
“Watching lizards.”
“No, no. I mean what do
you intend and wish to do?”
“Smoke a cigarette, if
you'll allow me.”
“How provoking you are!
I don't approve of cigars and I will only allow it on condition that you let me
put you into my sketch. I need a figure.”
“With all the pleasure
in life. How will you have me, full-length or three-quarters, on my head or my
heels? I should respectfully suggest a recumbent posture, then put yourself in
also and call it `Dolce far niente'.”
“Stay as you are, and
go to sleep if you like. I intend to work hard,” said Amy in her most energetic
tone.
“What delightful
enthusiasm!” And he leaned against a tall urn with an air of entire
satisfaction.
“What would Jo say if
she saw you now?” asked Amy impatiently, hoping to stir him up by the mention
of her still more energetic sister's name.
“As usual, `Go away,
Teddy. I'm busy!'” He laughed as he spoke, but the laugh was not natural, and a
shade passed over his face, for the utterance of the familiar name touched the
wound that was not healed yet. Both tone and shadow struck Amy, for she had
seen and heard them before, and now she looked up in time to catch a new
expression on Laurie's face--a hard bitter look, full of pain, dissatisfaction,
and regret. It was gone before she could study it and the listless expression
back again. She watched him for a moment with artistic pleasure, thinking how
like an Italian he looked, as he lay basking in the sun with uncovered head and
eyes full of southern dreaminess, for he seemed to have forgotten her and
fallen into a reverie.
“You look like the
effigy of a young knight asleep on his tomb,” she said, carefully tracing the
well-cut profile defined against the dark stone.
“Wish I was!”
“That's a foolish wish,
unless you have spoiled your life. You are so changed, I sometimes think--”
There Amy stopped, with a half-timid, half-wistful look, more significant than
her unfinished speech.
Laurie saw and
understood the affectionate anxiety which she hesitated to express, and looking
straight into her eyes, said, just as he used to say it to her mother, “It's
all right, ma'am.”
That satisfied her and
set at rest the doubts that had begun to worry her lately. It also touched her,
and she showed that it did, by the cordial tone in which she said . . .
“I'm glad of that! I
didn't think you'd been a very bad boy, but I fancied you might have wasted
money at that wicked Baden-Baden, lost your heart to some charming Frenchwoman
with a husband, or got into some of the scrapes that young men seem to consider
a necessary part of a foreign tour. Don't stay out there in the sun, come and
lie on the grass here and `let us be friendly', as Jo used to say when we got
in the sofa corner and told secrets.”
Laurie obediently threw
himself down on the turf, and began to amuse himself by sticking daisies into
the ribbons of Amy's hat, that lay there.
“I'm all ready for the
secrets.” And he glanced up with a decided expression of interest in his eyes.
“I've none to tell. You
may begin.”
“Haven't one to bless
myself with. I thought perhaps you'd had some news from home..”
“You have heard all
that has come lately. Don't you hear often? I fancied Jo would send you
volumes.”
“She's very busy. I'm
roving about so, it's impossible to be regular, you know. When do you begin
your great work of art, Raphaella?' he asked. changing the subject abruptly
after another pause, in which he had been wondering if Amy knew his secret and
wanted to talk about it.
“Never,” she answered,
with a despondent but decided air. “Rome took all the vanity out of me, for
after seeing the wonders there, I felt too insignificant to live and gave up
all my foolish hopes in despair.”
“Why should you, with
so much energy and talent?”
“That's just why,
because talent isn't genius, and no amount of energy can make it so. I want to
be great, or nothing. I won't be a common-place dauber, so I don't intend to
try any more.”
“And what are you going
to do with yourself now, if I may ask?”
“Polish up my other
talents, and be an ornament to society, if I get the chance.”
It was a characteristic
speech, and sounded daring, but audacity becomes young people, and Amy's
ambition had a good foundation. Laurie smiled, but he liked the spirit with
which she took up a new purpose when a long-cherished one died, and spent no
time lamenting.
“Good! And here is
where Fred Vaughn comes in, I fancy.”
Amy preserved a
discreet silence, but there was a conscious look in her downcast face that made
Laurie sit up and say gravely, “Now I'm going to play brother, and ask
questions. May I?”
“I don't promise to
answer.”
“Your face will, if
your tongue won't. You aren't woman of the world enough yet to hide your
feelings, my dear. I heard rumors about Fred and you last year, and it's my
private opinion that if he had not been called home so suddenly and detained so
long, something would have come of it, hey?”
“That's not for me to
say,” was Amy's grim reply, but her lips would smile, and there was a
traitorous sparkle of the eye which betrayed that she knew her power and
enjoyed the knowledge.
“You are not engaged, I
hope?” And Laurie looked very elder-brotherly and grave all of a sudden.
“No.”
“But you will be, if he
comes back and goes properly down on his knees, won't you?”
“Very likely.”
“Then you are fond of
old Fred?”
“I could be, if I
tried.”
“But you don't intend
to try till the proper moment? Bless my soul, what unearthly prudence! He's a
good fellow, Amy, but not the man I fancied you'd like.”
“He is rich, a
gentleman, and has delightful manners,” began Amy, trying to be quite cool and
dignified, but feeling a little ashamed of herself, in spite of the sincerity
of her intentions.
“I understand. Queens
of society can't get on without money, so you mean to make a good match, and
start in that way? Quite right and proper, as the world goes, but it sounds odd
from the lips of one of your mother's girls.”
“True, nevertheless.”
A short speech, but the
quiet decision with which it was uttered contrasted curiously with the young
speaker. Laurie felt this instinctively and laid himself down again, with a
sense of disappointment which he could not explain. His look and silence, as
well as a certain inward self-disapproval, ruffled Amy, and made her resolve to
deliver her lecture without delay.
“I wish you'd do me the
favor to rouse yourself a little,” she said sharply.
“Do it for me, there's
a dear girl.”
“I could, if I tried.”
And she looked as if she would like doing it in the most summary style.
“Try, then. I give you
leave,” returned Laurie, who enjoyed having someone to tease, after his long
abstinence from his favorite pastime.
“You'd be angry in five
minutes.”
“I'm never angry with
you. It takes two flints to make a fire. You are as cool and soft as snow.”
“You don't know what I
can do. Snow produces a glow and a tingle, if applied rightly. Your
indifference is half affectation, and a good stirring up would prove it.”
“Stir away, it won't
hurt me and it may amuse you, as the big man said when his little wife beat
him. Regard me in the light of a husband or a carpet, and beat till you are
tired, if that sort of exercise agrees with you.”
Being decidedly nettled
herself, and longing to see him shake off the apathy that so altered him, Amy
sharpened both tongue and pencil, and began.
“Flo and I have got a
new name for you. It's Lazy Laurence. How do you like it?”
She thought it would
annoy him, but he only folded his arms under his head, with an imperturbable, “That's
not bad. Thank you, ladies.”
“Do you want to know
what I honestly think of you?”
“Pining to be told.”
“Well, I despise you.”
If she had even said `I
hate you' in a petulant or coquettish tone, he would have laughed and rather
liked it, but the grave, almost sad, accent in her voice made him open his
eyes, and ask quickly . . .
“Why, if you please?”
“Because, with every
chance for being good, useful, and happy, you are faulty, lazy, and miserable.”
“Strong language,
mademoiselle.”
“If you like it, I'll
go on.”
“Pray do, it's quite
interesting.”
“I thought you'd find
it so. Selfish people always like to talk about themselves.”
“Am I selfish?” The
question slipped out involuntarily and in a tone of surprise, for the one
virtue on which he prided himself was generosity.
“Yes, very selfish,”
continued Amy, in a calm, cool voice, twice as effective just then as an angry one.
“I'll show you how, for I've studied you while we were frolicking, and I'm not
at all satisfied with you. Here you have been abroad nearly six months, and
done nothing but waste time and money and disappoint your friends.”
“Isn't a fellow to have
any pleasure after a four-year grind?”
“You don't look as if
you'd had much. At any rate, you are none the better for it, as far as I can
see. I said when we first met that you had improved. Now I take it all back,
for I don't think you half so nice as when I left you at home. You have grown
abominably lazy, you like gossip, and waste time on frivolous things, you are
contented to be petted and admired by silly people, instead of being loved and
respected by wise ones. With money, talent, position, health, and beauty, ah
you like that old Vanity! But it's the truth, so I can't help saying it, with
all these splendid things to use and enjoy, you can find nothing to do but
dawdle, and instead of being the man you ought to be, you are only . . .” There
she stopped, with a look that had both pain and pity in it.
“Saint Laurence on a
gridiron,” added Laurie, blandly finishing the sentence. But the lecture began
to take effect, for there was a wide-awake sparkle in his eyes now and a
half-angry, half-injured expression replaced the former indifference.
“I supposed you'd take
it so. You men tell us we are angels, and say we can make you what we will, but
the instant we honestly try to do you good, you laugh at us and won't listen,
which proves how much your flattery is worth.” Amy spoke bitterly, and turned
her back on the exasperating martyr at her feet.
In a minute a hand came
down over the page, so that she could not draw, and Laurie's voice said, with a
droll imitation of a penitent child, “I will be good, oh, I will be good!”
But Amy did not laugh,
for she was in earnest, and tapping on the outspread hand with her pencil, said
soberly, “Aren't you ashamed of a hand like that? It's as soft and white as a
woman's, and looks as if it never did anything but wear Jouvin's best gloves
and pick flowers for ladies. You are not a dandy, thank Heaven, so I'm glad to
see there are no diamonds or big seal rings on it, only the little old one Jo
gave you so long ago. Dear soul, I wish she was here to help me!”
“So do I!”
The hand vanished as
suddenly as it came, and there was energy enough in the echo of her wish to
suit even Amy. She glanced down at him with a new thought in her mind, but he
was lying with his hat half over his face, as if for shade, and his mustache
hid his mouth. She only saw his chest rise and fall, with a long breath that
might have been a sigh, and the hand that wore the ring nestled down into the
grass, as if to hide something too precious or too tender to be spoken of. All
in a minute various hints and trifles assumed shape and significance in Amy's
mind, and told her what her sister never had confided to her. She remembered
that Laurie never spoke voluntarily of Jo, she recalled the shadow on his face
just now, the change in his character, and the wearing of the little old ring
which was no ornament to a handsome hand. Girls are quick to read such signs
and feel their eloquence. Amy had fancied that perhaps a love trouble was at
the bottom of the alteration, and now she was sure of it. Her keen eyes filled,
and when she spoke again, it was in a voice that could be beautifully soft and
kind when she chose to make it so.
“I know I have no right
to talk so to you, Laurie, and if you weren't the sweetest-tempered fellow in
the world, you'd be very angry with me. But we are all so fond and proud of
you, I couldn't bear to think they should be disappointed in you at home as I
have been, though, perhaps they would understand the change better than I do.”
“I think they would,”
came from under the hat, in a grim tone, quite as touching as a broken one.
“They ought to have
told me, and not let me go blundering and scolding, when I should have been
more kind and patient than ever. I never did like that Miss Randal and now I
hate her!” said artful Amy, wishing to be sure of her facts this time.
“Hang Miss Randal!” And
Laurie knocked the hat off his face with a look that left no doubt of his
sentiments toward that young lady.
“I beg pardon, I
thought . . .” And there she paused diplomatically.
“No, you didn't, you
knew perfectly well I never cared for anyone but Jo,” Laurie said that in his
old, impetuous tone, and turned his face away as he spoke.
“I did think so, but as
they never said anything about it, and you came away, I supposed I was mistaken.
And Jo wouldn't be kind to you? Why, I was sure she loved you dearly.”
“She was kind, but not
in the right way, and it's lucky for her she didn't love me, if I'm the
good-for-nothing fellow you think me. It's her fault though, and you may tell
her so.”
The hard, bitter look
came back again as he said that, and it troubled Amy, for she did not know what
balm to apply.
“I was wrong, I didn't
know. I'm very sorry I was so cross, but I can't help wishing you'd bear it
better, Teddy, dear.”
“Don't, that's her name
for me!” And Laurie put up his hand with a quick gesture to stop the words
spoken in Jo's half-kind, half-reproachful tone. “Wait till you've tried it
yourself,” he added in a low voice, as he pulled up the grass by the handful.
“I'd take it manfully,
and be respected if i couldn't be loved,” said Amy, with the decision of one
who knew nothing about it.
Now, Laurie flattered
himself that he had borne it remarkably well, making no moan, asking no
sympathy, and taking his trouble away to live it down alone. Amy's lecture put
the Matter in a new light, and for the first time it did look weak and selfish
to lose heart at the first failure, and shut himself up in moody indifference.
He felt as if suddenly shaken out of a pensive dream and found it impossible to
go to sleep again. Presently he sat up and asked slowly, “Do you think Jo would
despise me as you do?”
“Yes, if she saw you
now. She hates lazy people. Why don't you do something splendid, and make her
love you?”
“I did my best, but it
was no use.”
“Graduating well, you
mean? That was no more than you ought to have done, for your grandfather's
sake. It would have been shameful to fail after spending so much time and
money, when everyone knew that you could do well.”
“I did fail, say what
you will, for Jo wouldn't love me,” began Laurie, leaning his head on his hand
in a despondent attitude.
“No, you didn't, and
you'll say so in the end, for it did you good, and proved that you could do
something if you tried. If you'd only set about another task of some sort,
you'd soon be your hearty, happy self again, and forget your trouble.”
“That's impossible.”
“Try it and see. You
needn't shrug your shoulders, and think, `Much she knows about such things'. I
don't pretend to be wise, but I am observing, and I see a great deal more than
you'd imagine. I'm interested in other people's experiences and
inconsistencies, and though I can't explain, I remember and use them for my own
benefit. Love Jo all your days, if you choose, but don't let it spoil you, for
it's wicked to throw away so many good gifts because you can't have the one you
want. There, I won't lecture any more, for I know you'll wake up and be a man
in spite of that hard-hearted girl.”
Neither spoke for
several minutes. Laurie sat turning the little ring on his finger, and Amy put
the last touches to the hasty sketch she had been working at while she talked.
Presently she put it on his knee, merely saying, “How do you like that?”
He looked and then he
smiled, as he could not well help doing, for it was capitally done, the long,
lazy figure on the grass, with listless face, half-shut eyes, and one hand
holding a cigar, from which came the little wreath of smoke that encircled the
dreamer's head.
“How well you draw!” he
said, with a genuine surprise and pleasure at her skill, adding, with a
half-laugh, “Yes, that's me.”
“As you are. This is as
you were.” And Amy laid another sketch beside the one he held.
It was not nearly so
well done, but there was a life and spirit in it which atoned for many faults,
and it recalled the past so vividly that a sudden change swept over the young
man's face as he looked. Only a rough sketch of Laurie taming a horse. Hat and
coat were off, and every line of the active figure, resolute face, and
commanding attitude was full of energy and meaning. The handsome brute, just
subdued, stood arching his neck under the tightly drawn rein, with one foot
impatiently pawing the ground, and ears pricked up as if listening for the
voice that had mastered him. In the ruffled mane. The rider's breezy hair and
erect attitude, there was a suggestion of suddenly arrested motion, of
strength, courage, and youthful buoyancy that contrasted sharply with the
supine grace of the `DOLCE FAR NIENTE' sketch. Laurie said nothing but as his
eye went from one to the other, Amy say him flush up and fold his lips together
as if he read and accepted the little lesson she had given him. That satisfied
her, and without waiting for him to speak, she said, in her sprightly way . . .
“Don't you remember the
day you played Rarey with Puck, and we all looked on? Meg and Beth were
frightened, but Jo clapped and pranced, and I sat on the fence and drew you. I
found that sketch in my portfolio the other day, touched it up, and kept it to
show you.”
“Much obliged. You've
improved immensely since then, and I congratulate you. May I venture to suggest
in ` a honeymoon paradise' that five o'clock is the dinner hour at your hotel?”
Laurie rose as he
spoke, returned the pictures with a smile and a bow and looked at his watch, as
if to remind her that even moral lectures should have an end. He tried to
resume his former easy, indifferent air, but it was an affectation now, for the
rousing had been more effacious than he would confess. Amy felt the shade of
coldness in his manner, and said to herself . ..
“Now, I've offended
him. Well, if it does him good, I'm glad, if it makes him hate me, I'm sorry,
but it's true, and I can't take back a word of it.”
They laughed and
chatted all the way home, and little Baptist, up behind, thought that monsieur
and madamoiselle were in charming spirits. But both felt ill at ease. The
friendly frankness was disturbed, the sunshine had a shadow over it, and
despite their apparent gaiety, there was a secret discontent in the heart of
each.
“Shall we see you this
evening, mon frere?” asked Amy, as they parted at her aunt's door.
“Unfortunately I have
an engagement. Au revoir, madamoiselle.” And Laurie bent as if to kiss her
hand, in the foreign fashion, which became him better than many men. Something
in his face made Amy say quickly and warmly . . .
“No, be yourself with
me, Laurie, and part in the good old way. I'd rather have a hearty English
handshake than all the sentimental salutations in France.”
“Goodbye, dear.” And
with these words, uttered in the tone she liked, Laurie left her, after a
handshake almost painful in its heartiness.
Next morning, instead
of the usual call, Amy received a note which made her smile at the beginning
and sigh at the end.
My Dear Mentor,
Please make my adieux
to your aunt, and exult within yourself, for `Lazy Laurence' has gone to his
grandpa, like the best of boys. A pleasant winter to you, and may the gods
grant you a blissful honeymoon at Valrosa! I think Fred would be benefited by a
rouser. Tell him so, with my congratulations.
Yours gratefully,
TELEMACHUS
“Good boy! I'm glad
he's gone,” said Amy, with an approving smile.
The next minute her
face fell as she glanced about the empty room, adding, with an involuntary
sigh, “Yes, I am glad, but how I shall miss him.”
When the first
bitterness was over, the family accepted the inevitable, and tried to bear it
cheerfully, helping one another by the increased affection which comes to bind
households tenderly together in times of trouble. They put away their grief,
and each did his or her part toward making that last year a happy one.
The pleasantest room in
the house was set apart for Beth, and in it was gathered everything that she
most loved, flowers, pictures, her piano, the little worktable, and the beloved
pussies. Father's best books found their way there, Mother's easy chair, Jo's
desk, Amy's finest sketches, and every day Meg brought her babies on a loving
pilgrimage, to make sunshine for Aunty Beth. John quietly set apart a little
sum, that he might enjoy the pleasure of keeping the invalid supplied with the
fruit she loved and longed for. Old Hannah never wearied of concocting dainty
dishes to tempt a capricious appetite, dropping tears as she worked, and from
across the sea came little gifts and cheerful letters, seeming to bring breaths
of warmth and fragrance from lands that know no winter.
Here, cherished like a
household saint in its shrine, sat Beth, tranquil and busy as ever, for nothing
could change the sweet, unselfish nature, and even while preparing to leave
life, she tried to make it happier for those who should remain behind. The
feeble fingers were never idle, and one of her pleasures was to make little
things for the school children daily passing to and fro, to drop a pair of
mittens from her window for a pair of purple hands, a needlebook for some small
mother of many dolls, penwipers for young penmen toiling through forests of
pothooks, scrapbooks for picture-loving eyes, and all manner of pleasant
devices, till the reluctant climbers of the ladder of learning found their way
strewn with flowers, as it were, and came to regard the gentle giver as a sort
of fairy godmother, who sat above there, and showered down gifts miraculously
suited to their tastes and needs. If Beth had wanted any reward, she found it
in the bright little faces always turned up to her window, with nods and
smiles, and the droll little letters which came to her, full of blots and
gratitude.
The first few months
were very happy ones, and Beth often used to look round, and say “How beautiful
this is!” as they all sat together in her sunny room, the babies kicking and
crowing on the floor, mother and sisters working near, and father reading, in
his pleasant voice, from the wise old books which seemed rich in good and
comfortable words, as applicable now as when written centuries ago, a little
chapel, where a paternal priest taught his flock the hard lessons all must
learn, trying to show them that hope can comfort love, and faith make
resignation possible. Simple sermons, that went straight to the souls of those
who listened, for the father's heart was in the minister's religion, and the
frequent falter in the voice gave a double eloquence to the words he spoke or
read.
It was well for all
that this peaceful time was given them as preparation for the sad hours to
come, for by-and-by, Beth said the needle was `so heavy', and put it down
forever. Talking wearied her, faces troubled her, pain claimed her for its own,
and her tranquil spirit was sorrowfully perturbed by the ills that vexed her
feeble flesh. Ah me! Such heavy days, such long, long nights, such aching
hearts and imploring prayers, when those who loved her best were forced to see
the thin hands stretched out to them beseechingly, to hear the bitter cry, “Help
me, help me!” and to feel that there was no help. A sad eclipse of the serene
soul, a sharp struggle of the young life with death, but both were mercifully
brief, and then the natural rebellion over, the old peace returned more
beautiful than ever. With the wreck of her frail body, Beth's soul grew strong,
and though she said little, those about her felt that she was ready, saw that
the first pilgrim called was likewise the fittest, and waited with her on the
shore, trying to see the Shining Ones coming to receive her when she crossed
the river.
Jo never left her for
an hour since Beth had said “I feel stronger when you are here.” She slept on a
couch in the room, waking often to renew the fire, to feed, lift, or wait upon
the patient creature who seldom asked for anything, and `tried not to be a
trouble'. All day she haunted the room, jealous of any other nurse, and prouder
of being chosen then than of any honor her life ever brought her. Precious and
helpful hours to Jo, for now her heart received the teaching that it needed.
Lessons in patience were so sweetly taught her that she could not fail to learn
them, charity for all, the lovely spirit that can forgive and truly forget
unkindness, the loyalty to duty that makes the hardest easy, and the sincere
faith that fears nothing, but trusts undoubtingly.
Often when she woke Jo
found Beth reading in her well-worn little book, heard her singing softly, to
beguile the sleepless night, or saw her lean her face upon her hands, while
slow tears dropped through the transparent fingers, and Jo would lie watching
her with thoughts too deep for tears, feeling that Beth, in her simple,
unselfish way, was trying to wean herself from the dear old life, and fit
herself for the life to come, by sacred words of comfort, quiet prayers, and
the music she loved so well.
Seeing this did more
for Jo than the wisest sermons, the saintliest hymns, the most fervent prayers
that any voice could utter. For with eyes made clear by many tears, and a heart
softened by the tenderest sorrow, she recognized the beauty of her sister's
life--uneventful, unambitious, yet full of the genuine virtues which `smell
sweet, and blossom in the dust', the self-forgetfulness that makes the humblest
on earth remembered soonest in heaven, the true success which is possible to
all.
One night when Beth
looked among the books upon her table, to find something to make her forget the
mortal weariness that was almost as hard to bear as pain, as she turned the
leaves of her old favorite, Pilgrims's Progress, she found a little paper,
scribbled over in Jo's hand. The name caught her eye and the blurred look of
the lines made her sure that tears had fallen on it.
“Poor Jo! She's fast
asleep, so I won't wake her to ask leave. She shows me all her things, and I
don't think she'll mind if I look at this”, thought Beth, with a glance at her
sister, who lay on the rug, with the tongs beside her, ready to wake up the
minute the log fell apart.
Sitting patient in the
shadow
Till the blessed light
shall come,
A serene and saintly
presence
Sanctifies our troubled
home.
Earthly joys and hopes
and sorrows
Break like ripples on
the strand
Of the deep and solemn
river
Where her willing feet
now stand.
O my sister, passing
from me,
Out of human care and
strife,
Leave me, as a gift,
those virtues
Which have beautified
your life.
Dear, bequeath me that
great patience
Which has power to
sustain
A cheerful,
uncomplaining spirit
In its prison-house of
pain.
Give me, for I need it
sorely,
Of that courage, wise
and sweet,
Which has made the path
of duty
Green beneath your
willing feet.
Give me that unselfish
nature,
That with charity
divine
Can pardon wrong for
love's dear sake--
Meek heart, forgive me
mine!
Thus our parting daily
loseth
Something of its bitter
pain,
And while learning this
hard lesson,
My great loss becomes
my gain.
For the touch of grief
will render
My wild nature more
serene,
Give to life new
aspirations,
A new trust in the
unseen.
Henceforth, safe across
the river,
I shall see forever
more
A beloved, household
spirit
Waiting for me on the
shore.
Hope and faith, born of
my sorrow,
Guardian angels shall
become,
And the sister gone
before me
By their hands shall
lead me home.
Blurred and blotted,
faulty and feeble as the lines were, they brought a look of inexpressible
comfort to Beth's face, for her one regret had been that she had done so
little, and this seemed to assure her that her life had not been useless, that
her death would not bring the despair she feared. As she sat with the paper
folded between her hands, the charred log fell asunder. Jo started up, revived
the blaze, and crept to the bedside, hoping Beth slept.
“Not asleep, but so
happy, dear. See, I found this and read it. I knew you wouldn't care. Have I
been all that to you, Jo?” she asked, with wistful, humble earnestness.
“OH, Beth, so much, so
much!” And Jo's head went down upon the pillow beside her sister's.
“Then I don't feel as
if I'd wasted my life. I'm not so good as you make me, but I have tried to do
right. And now, when it's too late to begin even to do better, it's such a
comfort to know that someone loves me so much, and feels as if I'd helped them.”
“More than any one in
the world, Beth. I used to think I couldn't let you go, but I'm learning to
feel that I don't lose you, that you'll be more to me than ever, and death
can't part us, though it seems to.”
“I know it cannot, and
I don't fear it any longer, for I'm sure I shall be your Beth still, to love
and help you more than ever. You must take my place, Jo, and be everything to
Father and Mother when I'm gone. They will turn to you, don't fail them, and if
it's hard to work alone, remember that I don't forget you, and that you'll be
happier in doing that than writing splendid books or seeing all the world, for
love is the only thing that we can carry with us when we go, and it makes the
go easy.”
“I'll try, Beth.” And
then and there Jo renounced her old ambition, pledged herself to a new and
better one, acknowledging the poverty of other desires, and feeling the blessed
solace of a belief in the immortality of love.
So the spring days came
and went , the sky grew clearer, the earth greener, the flowers were up fairly
early, and the birds came back in time to say goodbye to Beth, who, like a
tired but trustful child, clung to the hands that had led her all her life, as
Father and Mother guided her tenderly through the Valley of the Shadow, and gave
her up to God.
Seldom except in books
do the dying utter memorable words, see visions, or depart with beatified
countenances, and those who have sped many parting souls know that to most the
end comes as naturally and simply as sleep. As Beth had hoped, the `tide went
out easily', and in the dark hour before dawn, on the bosom where she had drawn
her first breath, she quietly drew her last, with no farewell but one loving
look, one little sigh.
With tears and prayers
and tender hands, Mother and sisters made her ready for the long sleep that
pain would never mar again, seeing with grateful eyes the beautiful serenity
that soon replaced the pathetic patience that had wrung their hearts so long,
and feeling with reverent joy that to their darling death was a benignant
angel, not a phantom full of dread.
When morning came, for
the first time in many months the fire was out, Jo's place was empty, and the
room was very still. But a bird sang blithely on a budding bough, close by, the
snowdrops blossomed freshly at the window, and the spring sunshine streamed in
like a benediction over the placid face upon the pillow, a face so full of
painless peace that those who loved it best smiled through their tears, and
thanked God that Beth was well at last.
Amy's lecture did
Laurie good, though, of course, he did not own it till long afterward. Men
seldom do, for when women are the advisers, the lords of creation don't take
the advice till they have persuaded themselves that it is just what they intended
to do. Then they act upon it, and, if it succeeds, they give the weaker vessel
half the credit of it. If it fails, they generously give her the whole. Laurie
went back to his grandfather, and was so dutifully devoted for several weeks
that the old gentleman declared the climate of Nice had improved him
wonderfully, and he had better try it again. There was nothing the young
gentleman would have liked better, but elephants could not have dragged him
back after the scolding he had received. Pride forbid, and whenever the longing
grew very strong, he fortified his resolution by repeating the words that had
made the deepest impression, “I despise you.” “Go and do something splendid
that will make her love you.”
Laurie turned the
matter over in his mind so often that he soon brought himself to confess that
he had been selfish and lazy, but then when a man has a great sorrow, he should
be indulged in all sorts of vagaries till he has lived it down. He felt that
his blighted affections were quite dead now, and though he should never cease
to be a faithful mourner, there was no occasion to wear his weeds
ostentatiously. Jo wouldn't love him, but he might make her respect and admire
him by doing something which should prove that a girl's no had not spoiled his
life. He had always meant to do something, and Amy's advice was quite
unnecessary. He had only been waiting till the aforesaid blighted affections
were decently interred. That being done, he felt that he was ready to `hide his
stricken heart, and still toil on'.
As Goethe, when he had
a joy or a grief, put it into a song, so Laurie resolved to embalm his love
sorrow in music, and to compose a Requiem which should harrow up Jo's soul and
melt the heart of every hearer. Therefore the next time the old gentleman found
him getting restless and moody and ordered him off, he went to Vienna, where he
had musical friends, and fell to work with the firm determination to
distinguish himself. But whether the sorrow was too vast to be embodied in
music, or music too ethereal to uplift a mortal woe, he soon discovered that
the Requiem was beyond him just at present. It was evident that his mind was
not in working order yet, and his ideas needed clarifying, for often in the
middle of a plaintive strain, he would find himself humming a dancing tune that
vividly recalled the Christmas ball at Nice, especially the stout Frenchman,
and put an effectual stop to tragic composition for the time being.
Then he tried an opera,
for nothing seemed impossible in the beginning, but here again unforeseen
difficulties beset him. He wanted Jo for his heroine, and called upon his
memory to supply him with tender recollections and romantic visions of his
love. But memory turned traitor, and as if possessed by the perverse spirit of
the girl, would only recall Jo's oddities, faults, and freaks, would only show
her in the most unsentimental aspects--beating mats with her head tied up in a
bandana, barricading herself with the sofa pillow, or throwing cold water over
his passion a la Gummidge--and an irresistible laugh spoiled the pensive
picture he was endeavoring to paint. Jo wouldn't be put into the opera at any
price, and he had to give her up with a “Bless that girl, what a torment she
is!” and a clutch at his hair, as became a distracted composer.
When he looked about
him for another and a less intractable damsel to immortalize in melody, memory
produced one with the most obliging readiness. This phantom wore many faces,
but it always had golden hair, was enveloped in a diaphanous cloud, and floated
airily before his mind's eye in a pleasing chaos of roses, peacocks, white
ponies, and blue ribbons. He did not give the complacent wraith any name, but
he took her for his heroine and grew quite fond of her, as well he might, for
he gifted her with every gift and grace under the sun, and escorted her,
unscathed, through trials which would have annihilated any mortal woman.
Thanks to this
inspiration, he got on swimmingly for a time, but gradually the work lost its
charm, and he forgot to compose, while he sat musing, pen in hand, or roamed
about the gay city to get some new ideas and refresh his mind, which seemed to
be in a somewhat unsettled state that winter. He did not do much, but he
thought a great deal and was conscious of a change of some sort going on in
spite of himself. “It's genius simmering, perhaps. I'll let it simmer, and see
what comes of it,” he said, with a secret suspicion all the while that it
wasn't genius, but something far more common. Whatever it was, it simmered to
some purpose, for he grew more and more discontented with his desultory life,
began to long for some real and earnest work to go at, soul and body, and
finally came to the wise conclusion that everyone who loved music was not a
composer. Returning from one of Mozart's grand operas, splendidly performed at
the Royal Theatre, he looked over his own, played a few of the best parts, sat
staring at the busts of Mendelssohn, Beethoven, and Bach, who stared benignly
back again. Then suddenly he tore up his music sheets, one by one, and as the
last fluttered out of his hand, he said soberly to himself . . .
“She is right! Talent
isn't genius, and you can't make it so. That music has taken the vanity out of
my as Rome took it out of her, and I won't be a humbug any longer. Now what
shall I do?”
That seemed a hard
question to answer, and Laurie began to wish he had to work for his daily
bread. Now if ever, occurred an eligible opportunity for `going to the devil',
as he once forcibly expressed it, for he had plenty of money and nothing to do,
and Satan is proverbially fond of providing employment for full and idle hands.
The poor fellow had temptations enough from without and from within, but he
withstood them pretty well, for much as he valued liberty, he valued good faith
and confidence more, so his promise to his grandfather, and his desire to be
able to look honestly into the eyes of the women who loved him, and say “All's
well,” kept him safe and steady.
Very likely some Mrs.
Grundy will observe, “I don't believe it, boys will be boys, young men must sow
their wild oats, and women must not expect miracles.” I dare say you don't,
Mrs. Grundy, but it's true nevertheless. Women work a good many miracles, and I
have a persuasion that they may perform even that of raising the standard of
manhood by refusing to echo such sayings. Let the boys be boys, the longer the
better, and let the young men sow their wild oats if they must. But mothers,
sisters, and friends may help to make the crop a small one, and keep many tares
from spoiling the harvest, by believing, and showing that they believe, in the
possibility of loyalty to the virtues which make men manliest in good women's
eyes. If it is a feminine delusion, leave us to enjoy it while we may, for
without it half the beauty and the romance of life is lost, and sorrowful
forebodings would embitter all our hopes of the brave, tender-hearted little
lads, who still love their mothers better than themselves and are not ashamed
to own it.
Laurie thought that the
task of forgetting his love for Jo would absorb all his powers for years, but
to his great surprise he discovered it grew easier every day. He refused to
believe it at first, got angry with himself, and couldn't understand it, but
these hearts of ours are curious and contrary things, and time and nature work
their will in spite of us. Laurie's heart wouldn't ache. The wound persisted in
healing with a rapidity that astonished him, and instead of trying to forget,
he found himself trying to remember. He had not foreseen this turn of affairs,
and was not prepared for it. He was disgusted with himself, surprised at his
own fickleness, and full of a queer mixture of disappointment and relief that
he could recover from such a tremendous blow so soon. He carefully stirred up
the embers of his lost love, but they refused to burst into a blaze. There was
only a comfortable glow that warmed and did him good without putting him into a
fever, and he was reluctantly obliged to confess that the boyish passion was
slowly subsiding into a more tranquil sentiment, very tender, a little sad and
resentful still, but that was sure to pass away in time, leaving a brotherly
affection which would last unbroken to the end.
As the word `brotherly'
passed through his mind in one of his reveries, he smiled, and glanced up at
the picture of Mozart that was before him . . .
“Well, he was a great
man, and when he couldn't have one sister he took the other, and was happy.”
Laurie did not utter
the words, but he thought them, and the next instant kissed the little old
ring, saying to himself, “No, I won't! I haven't forgotten, I never can. I'll
try again, and if that fails, why then . . .
Leaving his sentence
unfinished, he seized pen and paper and wrote to Jo, telling her that he could
not settle to anything while there was the least hope of her changing her mind.
Couldn't she, wouldn't she, and let him come home and be happy? While waiting
for an answer he did nothing, but he did it energetically, for he was in a
fever of impatience. It came at last, and settled his mind effectually on one
point, for Jo decidedly couldn't and wouldn't. She was wrapped up in Beth, and
never wished to hear the word love again. Then she begged him to be happy with
somebody else, but always keep a little corner of his heart for his loving
sister Jo. In a postscript she desired him not to tell Amy that Beth was worse,
she was coming home in the spring and there was no need of saddening the
remainder of her stay. That would be time enough, please God, but Laurie must write
to her often, and not let her feel lonely, homesick or anxious.
“So I will, at once.
Poor little girl, it will be a sad going home for her, I'm afraid.” And Laurie
opened his desk, as if writing to Amy had been the proper conclusion of the
sentence left unfinished some weeks before.
But he did not write
the letter that day, for as he rummaged out his best paper, he came across
something which changed his purpose. Tumbling about in one part of the desk
among bills, passports, and business documents of various kinds were several of
Jo's letters, and in another compartment were three notes from Amy, carefully
tied up with one of her blue ribbons and sweetly suggestive of the little dead
roses put away inside. with a half-repentant, half-amused expression, Laurie
gathered up all Jo's letters, smoothed, folded, and put them neatly into a
small drawer of the desk, stood a minute turning the ring thoughtfully on his
finger, then slowly drew it off, laid it with the letters, locked the drawer,
and went out to hear High Mass at Saint Stefan's, feeling as if there had been
a funeral, and though not overwhelmed with affliction, this seemed a more
proper way to spend the rest of the day than in writing letters to charming
young ladies.
The letter went very
soon, however, and was promptly answered, for Amy was homesick, and confessed
it in the most delightfully confiding manner. The correspondence flourished
famously, and letters flew to and fro with unfailing regularity all through the
early spring. Laurie sold his busts, made allumettes of his opera, and went
back to Paris, hoping somebody would arrive before long. He wanted desperately
to go to Nice, but would not till he was asked, and Amy would not ask him, for
just then she was having little experiences of her own, which made her rather
wish to avoid the quizzical eyes of `out boy'.
Fred Vaughn had
returned, and put the question to which she had once decided to answer, “Yes,
thank you,” but now she said, “No, thank you,” kindly but steadily, for when
the time came, her courage failed her, and she found that something more than
money and position was needed to satisfy the new longing that filled her heart
so full of tender hopes and fears. The words, “Fred is a good fellow, but not
at all the man I fancied you would ever like,” and Laurie's face when he
uttered them, kept returning to her as pertinaciously as her own did when she
said in look, if not in words, “I shall marry for money.” It troubled her to
remember that now, she wished she could take it back, it sounded so unwomanly.
She didn't want Laurie to think her a heartless, worldly creature. She didn't
care to be a queen of society now half so much as she did to be a lovable
woman. She was so glad he didn't hate her for the dreadful things she said, but
took them so beautifully and was kinder than ever. His letters were such a
comfort, for the home letters were very irregular and not half so satisfactory
as his when they did come. It was not only a pleasure, but a duty to answer
them, for the poor fellow was forlorn, and needed petting, since Jo persisted
in being stonyhearted. She ought to have made an effort and tried to love him.
It couldn't be very hard, many people would be proud and glad to have such a
dear boy care for them. But Jo never would act like other girls, so there was
nothing to do but be very kind and treat him like a brother.
If all brothers were
treated as well as Laurie was at this period, they would be a much happier race
of beings than they are. Amy never lectured now. She asked his opinion on all
subjects, she was interested in everything he did, made charming little
presents for him, and sent him two letters a week, full of lively gossip,
sisterly confidences, and captivating sketches of the lovely scenes about her.
As few brothers are complimented by having their letters carried about in their
sister's pockets, read and reread diligently, cried over when short, kissed
when long, and treasured carefully, we will not hint that Amy did any of these
fond and foolish things. But she certainly did grow a little pale and pensive
that spring, lost much of her relish for society, and went out sketching alone
a good deal. She never had much to show when she came home, but was studying
nature, I dare say, while she sat for hours, with her hands folded, on the
terrace at Valrosa, or absently sketched any fancy that occurred to her, a
stalwart knight carved on a tomb, a young man asleep in the grass, with his hat
over his eyes, or a curly-haired girl in gorgeous array, promenading down a
ballroom on the arm of a tall gentleman, both faces being left a blur according
to the last fashion in art, which was safe but not altogether satisfactory.
Her aunt thought that
she regretted her answer to Fred, and finding denials useless and explanations
impossible, Amy left her to think what she liked, taking care that Laurie
should know that Fred had gone to Egypt. That was all, but he understood it,
and looked relieved, as he said to himself, with a venerable air . ..
“I was sure she would
think better of it. Poor old fellow! I've been through it all, and I can
sympathize.”
With that he heaved a
great sigh, and then, as if he had discharged his duty to the past, put his
feet up on the sofa and enjoyed Amy's letter luxuriously.
While these changes
were going on abroad, trouble had come at home. But the letter telling that
Beth was failing never reached Amy, and when the next found her at Vevay, for
the heat had driven them from Nice in May, and they had travelled slowly to
Switzerland, by way of Genoa and the Italian lakes. She bore it very well, and
quietly submitted to the family decree that she should not shorten her visit,
for since it was too late to say goodbye to Beth, she had better stay, and let
absence soften her sorrow. But her heart was very heavy, she longed to be at
home, and every day looked wistfully across the lake, waiting for Laurie to
come and comfort her.
He did come very soon,
for the same mail brought letters to them both, but he was in Germany, and it
took some days to reach him. The moment he read it, he packed his knapsack,
bade adieu to his fellow pedestrians, and was off to keep his promise, with a
heart full of joy and sorrow, hope and suspense.
He knew Vevay well, and
as soon as the boat touched the little quay, he hurried along the shore to La
Tour, where the Carrols were living en pension. The garçon was in despair that
the whole family had gone to take a promenade on the lake, but no, the blonde
mademoiselle might be in the chateau garden. If monsieur would give himself the
pain of sitting down, a flash of time should present her. But monsieur could
not wait even a `flash of time', and in the middle of the speech departed to
find mademoiselle himself.
A pleasant old garden
on the borders of the lovely lake, with chestnuts rustling overhead, ivy
climbing everywhere, and the black shadow of the tower falling far across the
sunny water. At one corner of the wide, low wall was a seat,and here Amy often
came to read or work, or console herself with the beauty all about her. She was
sitting here that day, leaning her head on her hand, with a homesick heart and
heavy eyes, thinking of Beth and wondering why Laurie did not come. She did not
hear him cross the courtyard beyond, nor see him pause in the archway that led
from the subterranean path into the garden. He stood a minute looking at her
with new eyes, seeing what no one had ever seen before, the tender side of
Amy's character. Everything about her mutely suggested love and sorrow, the blotted
letters in her lap, the black ribbon that tied up her hair, the womanly pain
and patience in her face, even the little ebony cross at her throat seemed
pathetic to Laurie, for he had given it to her, and she wore it as her only
ornament. If he had any doubts about the reception she would give him, they
were set at rest the minute she looked up and saw him, for dropping everything,
she ran to him, exclaiming in a tone of unmistakable love and longing . . .
“Oh, Laurie, Laurie, I
knew you'd come to me!”
I think everything was
said and settled then, for as they stood together quite silent for a moment,
with the dark head bent down protectingly over the light one, Amy felt that no
one could comfort and sustain her so well as Laurie, and Laurie decided that
Amy was the only woman in the world who could fill Jo's place and make him
happy. He did not tell her so, but she was not disappointed, for both felt the
truth, were satisfied, and gladly left the rest to silence.
In a minute Amy went
back to her place, and while she dried her tears, Laurie gathered up the
scattered papers, finding in the sight of sundry well-worn letters and
suggestive sketches good omens for the future. As he sat down beside her, Amy
felt shy again, and turned rosy red at the recollection of her impulsive
greeting.
“I couldn't help it, I
felt so lonely and sad, and was so very glad to see you. It was such a surprise
to look up and find you, just as I was beginning to fear you wouldn't come,”
she said, trying in vain to speak quite naturally.
“I came the minute I
heard. I wish I could say something to comfort you for the loss of dear little
Beth, but I can only feel, and . . .” He could not get any further, for her too
turned bashful all of a sudden, and did not quite know what to say. He longed
to lay Amy's head down on his shoulder, and tell her to have a good cry, but he
did not dare, so took her hand instead, and gave it a sympathetic squeeze that
was better than words.
“You needn't say
anything, this comforts me,” she said softly. “Beth is well and happy, and I
mustn't wish her back, but I dread the going home, much as I long to see them
all. We won't talk about it now, for it makes me cry, and I want to enjoy you
while you stay. You needn't go right back, need you?”
“Not if you want me,
dear.”
“I do, so much. Aunt
and Flo are very kind, but you seem like one of the family, and it would be so
comfortable to have you for a little while.”
Amy spoke and looked so
like a homesick child whose heart was full that Laurie forgot his bashfulness
all at once, and gave her just what she wanted--the petting she was used to and
the cheerful conversation she needed.
“Poor little soul, you
look as if you'd grieved yourself half sick! I'm going to take care of you, so
don't cry any more, but come and walk about with me, the wind is too chilly for
you to sit still,” he said, in the half-caressing, half-commanding way that Amy
liked, as he tied on her hat, drew her arm through his, and began to pace up
and down the sunny walk under the new-leaved chestnuts. He felt more at ease
upon his legs, and Amy found it pleasant to have a strong arm to lean upon, a
familiar face to smile at her, and a kind voice to talk delightfully for her
alone.
The quaint old garden
had sheltered many pairs of lovers, and seemed expressly made for them, so
sunny and secluded was it, with nothing but the tower to overlook them, and the
wide lake to carry away the echo of their words, as it rippled by below. For an
hour this new pair walked and talked, or rested on the wall, enjoying the sweet
influences which gave such a charm to time and place, and when an unromantic
dinner bell warned them away, Amy felt as if she left her burden of loneliness
and sorrow behind her in the chateau garden.
The moment Mrs. Carrol
saw the girl's altered face, she was illuminated with a new idea, and exclaimed
to herself, “Now I understand it all--the child has been pining for young
Laurence. Bless my heart, I never thought of such a thing!”
With praiseworthy
discretion, the good lady said nothing, and betrayed no sign of enlightenment,
but cordially urged Laurie to stay and begged Amy to enjoy his society, for it
would do her more good than so much solitude. Amy was a model of docility, and
as her aunt was a good deal occupied with Flo, she was left to entertain her
friend, and did it with more than her usual success.
At Nice, Laurie had
lounged and Amy had scolded. At Vevay, Laurie was never idle, but always
walking, riding, boating, or studying in the most energetic manner, while Amy
admired everything he did and followed his example as far and as fast as she
could. He said the change was owing to the climate, and she did not contradict
him, being glad of a like excuse for her own recovered health and spirits.
The invigorating air
did them both good, and much exercise worked wholesome changes in minds as well
as bodies. They seemed to get clearer views of life and duty up there among the
everlasting hills. The fresh winds blew away desponding doubts, delusive
fancies, and moody mists. The warm spring sunshine brought out all sorts of
aspiring ideas, tender hopes, and happy thoughts. The lake seemed to wash away
the troubles of the past, and the grand old mountains to look benignly down
upon them saying, “Little children, love one another.”
In spite of the new
sorrow, it was a very happy time, so happy that Laurie could not bear to
disturb it by a word. It took him a little while to recover from his surprise
at the cure of his first, and as he had firmly believed, his last and only
love. He consoled himself for the seeming disloyalty by the thought that Jo's
sister was almost the same as Jo's self, and the conviction that it would have
been impossible to love any other woman but Amy so soon and so well. His first
wooing had been of the tempestuous order, and he looked back upon ;it as if
through a long vista of years with a feeling of compassion blended with regret.
He was not ashamed of it, but put it away as one of the bitter-sweet
experiences of his life, for which he could be grateful when the pain was over.
His second wooing, he resolved, should be as calm and simple as possible. There
was no need of having a scene, hardly any need of telling Amy that he loved
her, she knew it without words and had given him his answer long ago. It all
came about so naturally that no one could complain, and he knew that everybody
would be pleased, even Jo. But when our first little passion has been crushed,
we are apt to be wary and slow in making a second trial, so Laurie let the days
pass, enjoying every hour, and leaving to chance the utterance of the word that
would put an end to the first and sweetest part of his new romance.
He had rather imagined
that the denouement would take place in the chateau garden by moonlight, and in
the most graceful and decorous manner, but it turned out exactly the reverse,
for the matter was settled on the lake at noonday in a few blunt words. They
had been floating about all the morning, from gloomy St. Gingolf to sunny
Montreux, with the Alps of Savoy on one side, Mont St. Bernard and the Dent du
Midi on the other, pretty Vevay in the valley, and Lausanne upon the hill
beyond, a cloudless blue sky overhead, and the bluer lake below, dotted with
the picturesque boats that look like white-winged gulls.
They had been talking
of Bonnivard, as they glided past Chillon, and of Rousseau, as they looked up
at Clarens, where he wrote his Heloise. Neither had read it, but they knew it
was a love story, and each privately wondered if it was half as interesting as
their own. Amy had been dabbling her hand in the water during the little pause
that fell between them, and when she looked up, Laurie was leaning on his oars
with an expression in his eyes that made her say hastily, merely for the sake
of saying something . .
“You must be tired.
Rest a little, and let me row. It will do me good, for since you came I have
been altogether lazy and luxurious.”
“I'm not tired, but you
may take an oar, if you like. There's room enough, though I have to sit nearly
in the middle, else the boat won't trim,” returned Laurie, as if he rather
liked the arrangement.
Feeling that she had
not mended matters much, Amy took the offered third of a seat, shook her hair
over her face, and accepted an oar. She rowed as well as she did many other
things, and though she used both hands, and Laurie but one, the oars kept time,
and the boat went smoothly through the water.
“How well we pull
together, don't we?” said Amy, who objected to silence just then.
“So well that I wish we
might always pull in the same boat. Will you,Amy?” very tenderly.
“Yes, Laurie,” very
low.
Then they both stopped
rowing, and unconsciously added a pretty little tableau of human love and
happiness to the dissolving views reflected in the lake.
It was easy to promise
self-abnegation when self was wrapped up in another, and heart and soul were
purified by a sweet example. But when the helpful voice was silent, the daily
lesson over, the beloved presence gone, and nothing remained but loneliness and
grief, then Jo found her promise very hard to keep. How could she `comfort
Father and Mother' when her own heart ached with a ceaseless longing for her
sister, how could she `make the house cheerful' when all its light and warmth
and beauty seemed to have deserted it when Beth left the old home for the new,
and where in all the world could she `find some useful, happy work to do', that
would take the place of the loving service which had been its own reward? She
tried in a blind, hopeless way to do her duty, secretly rebelling against it
all the while, for it seemed unjust that her few joys should be lessened, her
burdens made heavier, and life get harder and harder as she toiled along. Some
people seemed to get all sunshine, and some all shadow. It was not fair, for
she tried more than Amy to be good, but never got any reward, only disappointment,
trouble and hard work.
Poor Jo, these were
dark days to her, for something like despair came over her when she thought of
spending all her life in that quiet house, devoted to humdrum cares, a few
small pleasures, and the duty that never seemed to grow any easier. “I can't do
it. I wasn't meant for a life like this, and I know I shall break away and do
something desperate if somebody doesn't come and help me,” she said to herself,
when her first efforts failed and she fell into the moody, miserable state of
mind which often comes when strong wills have to yield to the inevitable.
But someone did come
and help her, though Jo did not recognize her good angels at once because they
wore familiar shapes and used the simple spells best fitted to poor humanity.
Often she started up at night, thinking Beth called her, and when the sight of
the little empty bed made her cry with the bitter cry of unsubmissive sorrow, “Oh,
Beth, come back! Come back!” she did not stretch out her yearning arms in vain.
For, as quick to hear her sobbing as she had been to hear her sister's faintest
whisper, her mother came to comfort her, not with words only, but the patient
tenderness that soothes by a touch, tears that were mute reminders of a greater
grief than Jo's, and broken whispers, more eloquent than prayers, because
hopeful resignation went hand-in-hand with natural sorrow. Sacred moments, when
heart talked to heart in the silence of the night, turning affliction to a
blessing, which chastened grief and strengthened love. Feeling this, Jo's
burden seemed easier to bear, duty grew sweeter, and life looked more
endurable, seen from the safe shelter of her mother's arms.
When aching heart was a
little comforted, troubled mind likewise found help, for one day she went to
the study, and leaning over the good gray head lifted to welcome her with a
tranquil smile, she said very humbly, “Father, talk to me as you did to Beth. I
need it more than she did, for I'm all wrong.”
“My dear, nothing can
comfort me like this,” he answered, with a falter in his voice, and both arms
round her, as if he too, needed help, and did not fear to ask for it.
Then, sitting in Beth's
little chair close beside him, Jo told her troubles, the resentful sorrow for
her loss, the fruitless efforts that discouraged her, the want of faith that
made life look so dark, and all the sad bewilderment which we call despair. She
gave him entire confidence, he gave her the help she needed, and both found
consolation in the act. For the time had come when they could talk together not
only as father and daughter, but as man and woman, able and glad to serve each
other with mutual sympathy as well as mutual love. Happy, thoughtful times
there in the old study which Jo called `the church of one member', and from
which she came with fresh courage, recovered cheerfulness, and a more
submissive spirit. For the parents who had taught one child to meet death
without fear, were trying now to teach another to accept life without
despondency or distrust, and to use its beautiful opportunities with gratitude
and power.
Other helps had
Jo--humble, wholesome duties and delights that would not be denied their part
in serving her, and which she slowly learned to see and value. Brooms and
dishcloths never could be as distasteful as they once had been, for Beth had
presided over both, and something of her housewifely spirit seemed to linger
around the little mop and the old brush, never thrown away. As she used them,
Jo found herself humming the songs Beth used to hum, imitating Beth's orderly
ways, and giving the little touches here and there that kept everything fresh
and cozy, which was the first step toward making home happy, though she didn't
know it till Hannah said with an approving squeeze of the hand . . .
“You thoughtful creeter,
you're determined we shan't miss that dear lamb ef you can help it. We don't
say much, but we see it, and the Lord will bless you for't, see ef He don't.”
As they sat sewing
together, Jo discovered how much improved her sister Meg was, how well she
could talk, how much she knew about good, womanly impulses, thoughts, and
feelings, how happy she was in husband and children, and how much they were all
doing for each other.
“Marriage is an
excellent thing, after all. I wonder if I should blossom out half as well as
you have, if I tried it, always `perwisin'' I could,” said Jo, as she
constructed a kite for Demi in the topsy-turvy nursery.
“It's just what you
need to bring out the tender womanly half of your nature, Jo. You are like a
chestnut burr, prickly outside, but silky-soft within, and a sweet kernel, if
one can only get at it. Love will make you show your heart one day, and then
the rough burr will fall off.”
“Frost opens chestnut
burrs, ma`am, and it takes a good shake to bring them down. Boys go nutting,
and I don't care to be bagged by them,” returned Jo, pasting away at the kite
which no wind that blows would ever carry up, for Daisy had tied herself on as
a bob.
Meg laughed, for she
was glad to see a glimmer of Jo's old spirit, but she felt it her duty to
enforce her opinion by every argument in her power, and the sisterly chats were
not wasted, especially as two of Meg's most effective arguments were the
babies, whom Jo loved tenderly. Grief is the best opener of some hearts, and
Jo's was nearly ready for the bag. A little more sunshine to ripen the nut,
then, not a boy's impatient shake, but a man's hand reached up to pick it
gently from the burr, and find the kernal sound and sweet. If she suspected
this, she would have shut up tight, and been more prickly than ever,
fortunately she wasn't thinking about herself, so when the time came, down she
dropped.
Now, if she had been
the heroine of a moral storybook, she ought at this period of her life to have
become quite saintly, renounced the world, and gone about doing good in a
mortified bonnet, with tracts in her pocket. But, you see, Jo wasn't a heroine,
she was only a struggling human girl like hundreds of others, and she just
acted out her nature, being sad, cross, listless, or energetic, as the mood
suggested. It's highly virtuous to say we'll be good, but we can't do it all at
once, and it takes a long pull, a strong pull, and a pull all together before
some of us even get our feet set in the right way. Jo had got so far, she was learning
to do her duty, and to feel unhappy if she did not, but to do it cheerfully,
ah, that was another thing! She had often said she wanted to do something
splendid, no matter how hard, and now she had her wish, for what could be more
beautiful than to devote her life to Father and Mother, trying to make home as
happy to them as they had to her? And if difficulties were necessary to
increase the splendor of the effort, what could be harder for a restless,
ambitious girl than to give up her own hopes, plans, and desires, and
cheerfully live for others?
Providence had taken
her at her word. Here was the task, not what she had expected, but better
because self had no part in it. Now, could she do it? She decided that she
would try, and in her first attempt she found the helps I have suggested. Still
another was given her, and she took it, not as a reward, but as a comfort, as
Christian took the refreshment afforded by the little arbor where he rested, as
he climbed the hill called Difficulty.
“Why don't you write?
That always used to make you happy,” said her mother once, when the desponding
fit over-shadowed Jo.
“I've no heart to
write, and if I had, nobody cares for my things.”
“We do. Write something
for us, and never mind the rest of the world. Try it, dear. I'm sure it would
do you good, and please us very much.”
“Don't believe I can.”
But Jo got out her desk and began to overhaul her half-finished manuscripts.
An hour afterward her
mother peeped in and there she was, scratching away, with her black pinafore
on, and an absorbed expression, which caused Mrs. March to smile and slip away,
well pleased with the success of her suggestion. Jo never knew how it happened,
but something got into that story that went straight to the hearts of those who
read it, for when her family had laughed and cried over it, her father sent it,
much against her will, to one of the popular magazines, and to her utter
surprise, it was not only paid for, but others requested. Letters from several
persons, whose praise was honor, followed the appearance of the little story,
newspapers copied it, and strangers as well as friends, admired it. For a small
thing it was a great success, and Jo was more astonished than when her novel
was commended and condemned all at once.
“I don't understand it.
What can there be in a simple little story like that to make people praise it
so?” she said, quite bewildered.
“There is truth in it,
Jo, that's the secret. Humor and pathos make it alive, and you have found your
style at last. You wrote with not thoughts of fame and money, and put your
heart into it, my daughter. You have had the bitter, now comes the sweet. Do
your best, and grow as happy as we are in your success.”
“If there is anything
good or true in what I write, it isn't mine. I owe it all to you and Mother and
Beth,” said Jo, more touched by her father's words than by any amount of praise
from the world.
So taught by love and
sorrow, Jo wrote her little stories, and sent them away to make friends for
themselves and her, finding it a very charitable world to such humble
wanderers, for they were kindly welcomed, and sent home comfortable tokens to
their mother, like dutiful children whom good fortune overtakes.
When Amy and Laurie
wrote of their engagement, Mrs. March feared that Jo would find it difficult to
rejoice over it, but her fears were soon set at rest, for thought Jo looked
grave at first, she took it very quietly, and was full of hopes and plans for
`the children' before she read the letter twice. It was a sort of written duet,
wherein each glorified the other in lover-like fashion, very pleasant to read
and satisfactory to think of, for no one had any objection to make.
“You like it, Mother?”
said Jo, as they laid down the closely written sheets and looked at one
another.
“Yes, I hoped it would
be so, ever since Amy wrote that she had refused Fred. I felt sure then that
something better than what you call the `mercenary spirit' had come over her,
and a hint here and there in her letters made me suspect that love and Laurie
would win the day.”
“How sharp you are,
Marmee, and how silent! You never said a worked to me.”
“Mothers have need of
sharp eyes and discreet tongues when they have girls to manage. I was half
afraid to put the idea into your head, lest you should write and congratulate
them before the thing was settled.”
“I'm not the
scatterbrain I was. You may trust me. I'm sober and sensible enough for
anyone's confidante now.”
“So you are, my dear, and
I should have made you mine, only I fancied it might pain you to learn that
your Teddy loved someone else.”
“Now, Mother, did you
really think I could be so silly and selfish, after I'd refused his love, when
it was freshest, if not best?”
“I knew you were
sincere then, Jo, but lately I have thought that if he came back, and asked
again, you might perhaps, feel like giving another answer. Forgive me, dear, I
can't help seeing that you are very lonely, and sometimes there is a hungry
look in your eyes that goes to my heart. So I fancied that your boy might fill
the empty place if he tried now.”
“No, Mother, it is
better as it is, and I'm glad Amy has learned to love him. But you are right in
one thing. I am lonely, and perhaps if Teddy had tried again, I might have said
`Yes', not because I love him any more, but because I care more to be loved
than when he went away.”
“I'm glad of that, Jo,
for it shows that you are getting on. There are plenty to love you, so try to
be satisfied with Father and Mother, sisters and brothers, friends and babies,
till the best lover of all comes to give you your reward.”
“Mothers are the best
lovers in the world, but I don't mind whispering to Marmee that I'd like to try
all kinds. It's very curious, but the more I try to satisfy myself with all
sorts of natural affections, the more I seem to want. I'd no idea hearts could
take in so many. Mine is so elastic, it never seems full now, and I used to be
quite contented with my family. I don't understand it.”
“I do.” And Mrs. March
smiled her wise smile, as Jo turned back the leaves to read what Amy said of
Laurie.
“It is so beautiful to
be loved as Laurie loves me. He isn't sentimental, doesn't say much about it,
but I see and feel it in all he says and does, and it makes me so happy and so
humble that I don't seem to be the same girl I was. I never knew how good and
generous and tender he was till now, for he lets me read his heart, and I find
it full of noble impulses and hopes and purposes, and am so proud to know it's
mine. He says he feels as if he `could make a prosperous voyage now with me
aboard as mate, and lots of love for ballast'. I pray he may, and try to be all
he believes me, for I love my gallant captain with all my heart and soul and
might, and never will desert him, while God lets us be together. Oh, Mother, I
never knew how much like heaven this world could be, when two people love and
live for one another!”
“And that's our cool,
reserved, and worldly Amy! Truly, love does work miracles. How very, very happy
they must be!” And Jo laid the rustling sheets together with a careful hand, as
one might shut the covers of a lovely romance, which holds the reader fast till
the end comes, and he finds himself alone in the workaday world again.
By-and-by Jo roamed
away upstairs, for it was rainy, and she could not walk. A restless spirit
possessed her, and the old feeling came again, not bitter as it once was, but a
sorrowfully patient wonder why one sister should have all she asked, the other
nothing. It was not true, she knew that and tried to put it away, but the
natural craving for affection was strong, and Amy's happiness woke the hungry
longing for someone to `love with heart and soul, and cling to while God let
them be together'.
Up in the garret, where
Jo's unquiet wanderings ended stood four little wooden chests in a row, each
marked with its owners name, and each filled with relics of the childhood and
girlhood ended now for all. Jo glanced into them, and when she came to her own,
leaned her chin on the edge, and stared absently at the chaotic collection,
till a bundle of old exercise books caught her eye. She drew them out, turned
them over, and relived that pleasant winter at kind Mrs. Kirke's. She had
smiled at first, then she looked thoughtful, next sad, and when she came to a
little message written in the Professor's hand, her lips began to tremble, the
books slid out of her lap, and she sat looking at the friendly words, as they
took a new meaning, and touched a tender spot in her heart.
“Wait for me, my
friend. I may be a little late, but I shall surely come.”
“Oh, if he only would!
So kind, so good, so patient with me always, my dear old Fritz. I didn't value
him half enough when I had him, but now how I should love to see him, for
everyone seems going away from me, and I'm all alone.”
And holding the little
paper fast, as if it were a promise yet to be fulfilled, Jo laid her head down
on a comfortable rag bag, and cried, as if in opposition to the rain pattering
on the roof.
Was it all self-pity,
loneliness, or low spirits? Or was it the waking up of a sentiment which had
bided its time as patiently as its inspirer? Who shall say?
Jo was alone in the
twilight, lying on the old sofa, looking at the fire, and thinking. It was her
favorite way of spending the hour of dusk. No one disturbed her, and she used
to lie there on Beth's little red pillow, planning stories, dreaming dreams, or
thinking tender thoughts of the sister who never seemed far away. Her face
looked tired, grave, and rather sad, for tomorrow was her birthday, and she was
thinking how fast the years went by, how old she was getting, and how little
she seemed to have accomplished. Almost twenty-five, and nothing to show for
it. Jo was mistaken in that. There was a good deal to show, and by-and-by she
saw, and was grateful for it.
“An old maid, that's
what I'm to be. A literary spinster, with a pen for a spouse, a family of
stories for children, and twenty years hence a morsel of fame, perhaps, when,
like poor Johnson, I'm old and can't enjoy it, solitary, and can't share it,
independent, and don't need it. Well, I needn't be a sour saint nor a selfish
sinner, and, I dare say, old maids are very comfortable when they get used to
it, but . . .” And there Jo sighed, as if the prospect was not inviting.
It seldom is, at first,
and thirty seems the end of all things to five-and-twenty. But it's not as bad
as it looks, and one can get on quite happily if one has something in one's
self to fall back upon. At twenty-five, girls begin to talk about being old maids,
but secretly resolve that they never will be. At thirty they say nothing about
it, but quietly accept the fact, and if sensible, console themselves by
remembering that they have twenty more useful, happy years, in which they may
be learning to grow old gracefully. Don't laugh at the spinsters, dear girls,
for often very tender, tragic romances are hidden away in the hearts that beat
so quietly under the sober gowns, and many silent sacrifices of youth, health,
ambition, love itself, make the faded faces beautiful in God's sight. Even the
sad, sour sisters should be kindly dealt with, because they have missed the
sweetest part of life, if for no other reason. And looking at them with
compassion, not contempt, girls in their bloom should remember that they too
may miss the blossom time. That rosy cheeks don't last forever, that silver
threads will come in the bonnie brown hair, and that, by-and-by, kindness and
respect will be as sweet as love and admiration now.
Gentlemen, which means
boys, be courteous to the old maids, no matter how poor and plain and prim, for
the only chivalry worth having is that which is the readiest to pay deference
to the old, protect the feeble, and serve womankind, regardless of rank, age,
or color. Just recollect the good aunts who have not only lectured and fussed,
but nursed and petted, too often without thanks, the scrapes they have helped
you out of, the tips they have given you from their small store, the stitches
the patient old fingers have set for you, the steps the willing old feet have
taken, and gratefully pay the dear old ladies the little attentions that women
love to receive as long as they live. The bright-eyed girls are quick to see
such traits, and will like you all the better for them, and if death, almost the
only power that can part mother and son, should rob you of yours, you will be
sure to find a tender welcome and maternal cherishing from some Aunt Priscilla,
who has kept the warmest corner of her lonely old heart for `the best nevvy in
the world'.
Jo must have fallen
asleep (as I dare say my reader has during this little homily), for suddenly
Laurie's ghost seemed to stand before her, a substantial, lifelike ghost,
leaning over her with the very look he used to wear when he felt a good deal
and didn't like to show it. But, like Jenny in the ballad . . .
She could not think it
he,
and lay staring up at him in startled silence, till he stooped and
kissed her. Then she knew him, and flew up, crying joyfully . .. “Oh my Teddy! Oh my Teddy!”
“Dear Jo, you are glad
to see me, then?”
“Glad! My blessed boy,
words can't express my gladness. Where's Amy?”
“Your mother has got
her down at Meg's. We stopped there by the way, and there was no getting my
wife out of their clutches.”
“Your what?” cried Jo,
for Laurie uttered those two words with an unconscious pride and satisfaction
which betrayed him.
“Oh, the dickens! Now
I've done it.” And he looked so guilty that Jo was down on him like a flash.
“You've gone and got
married!”
“Yes, please, but I never
will again.” And he went down upon his knees, with a penitent clasping of
hands, and a face full of mischief, mirth, and triumph.
“Actually married?”
“Very much so, thank
you.”
“Mercy on us. What
dreadful thing will you do next?” And Jo fell into her seat with a gasp.
“A characteristic, but
not exactly complimentary, congratulation,” returned Laurie, still in an abject
attitude, but beaming with satisfaction.
“What can you expect,
when you take one's breath away, creeping in like a burglar, and letting cats
out of bags like that? Get up, you ridiculous boy, and tell me all about it.”
“Not a word, unless you
let me come in my old place, and promise not to barricade.”
Jo laughed at that as
she had not done for many a long day, and patted the sofa invitingly, as she
said in a cordial tone, “The old pillow is up garret, and we don't need it now.
So, come and fess, Teddy.”
“How good it sounds to
hear you say `Teddy'! No one ever calls me that but you.” And Laurie sat down
with an air of great content.
“What does Amy call
you?”
“My lord.”
“That's like her. Well,
you look it.” And Jo's eye plainly betrayed that she found her boy comelier
than ever.
The pillow was gone,
but there was a barricade, nevertheless, a natural one, raised by time absence,
and change of heart. Both felt it, and for a minute looked at one another as if
that invisible barrier cast a little shadow over them. It was gone directly
however, for Laurie said, with a vain attempt at dignity . . .
“Don't I look like a
married man and the head of a family?”
“Not a bit, and you
never will. You've grown bigger and bonnier, but you are the same scapegrace as
ever.”
“Now really, Jo, you
ought to treat me with more respect,” began Laurie, who enjoyed it all
immensely.
“How can I, when the
mere idea of you, married and settled, is so irresistibly funny that I can't
keep sober!” answered Jo, smiling all over her face, so infectiously that they
had another laugh, and then settled down for a good talk, quite in the pleasant
old fashion.
“It's no use your going
out in the cold to get Amy, for they are all coming up presently. I couldn't
wait. I wanted to be the one to tell you the grand surprise, and have `first
skim' as we used to say when we squabbled about the cream.”
“Of course you did, and
spoiled your story by beginning at the wrong end. Now, start right, and tell me
how it all happened. I'm pining to know.”
“Well, I did it to
please Amy,” began Laurie,with a twinkle that made Jo exclaim . . .
“Fib number one. Amy
did it to please you. Go on, and tell the truth, if you can, sir.”
“Now she's beginning to
marm it. Isn't it jolly to hear her?” said Laurie to the fire, and the fire
glowed and sparkled as if it quite agreed. “It's all the same, you know, she
and I being one. We planned to come home with the Carrols, a month or more ago,
but they suddenly changed their minds, and decided to pass another winter in
Paris. But Grandpa wanted to come home. He went to please me, and I couldn't
let him go along, neither could I leave Amy, and Mrs. Carrol had got English
notions about chaperons and such nonsense, and wouldn't let Amy come with us.
So I just settled the difficulty by saying, `Let's be married, and then we can
do as we like'.”
“Of course you did. You
always have things to suit you.”
“Not always.” And
something in Laurie's voice made Jo say hastily . . .
“How did you ever get
Aunt to agree?”
“It was hard work, but
between us, we talked her over, for we had heaps of good reasons on our side.
There wasn't time to write and ask leave, but you all liked it, had consented
to it by-and-by, and it was only `taking time by the fetlock', as my wife says.”
“Aren't we proud of
those two word, and don't we like to say them?” interrupted Jo, addressing the
fire in her turn, and watching with delight the happy light it seemed to kindle
in the eyes that had been so tragically gloomy when she saw them last.
“A trifle, perhaps,
she's such a captivating little woman I can't help being proud of her. Well,
then Uncle and Aunt were there to play propriety. We were so absorbed in one
another we were of no mortal use apart, and that charming arrangement would
make everything easy all round, so we did it.”
“When, where, how?”
asked Jo, in a fever of feminine interest and curiosity, for she could not
realize it a particle.
“Six weeks ago, at the
American consul's, in Paris, a very quiet wedding of course, for even in our
happiness we didn't forget dear little Beth.”
Jo put her hand in his
as he said that, and Laurie gently smoothed the little red pillow, which he
remembered well.
“Why didn't you let us
know afterward?” asked Jo, in a quieter tone, when they had sat quite still a
minute.
“We wanted to surprise
you. We thought we were coming directly home, at first, but the dear old
gentleman, as soon as we were married, found he couldn't be ready under a
month, at least, and sent us off to spend our honeymoon wherever we liked. Amy
had once called Valrosa a regular honeymoon home, so we went there, and were as
happy as people are but once in their lives. My faith! Wasn't it love among the
roses!”
Laurie seemed to forget
Jo for a minute, and Jo was glad of it, for the fact that he told her these
things so freely and so naturally assured her that he had quite forgiven and
forgotten. She tried to draw away her hand, but as if he guessed the thought
that prompted the half-involuntary impulse, Laurie held it fast, and said, with
a manly gravity she had never seen in him before . . .
“Jo, dear, I want to
say one thing, and then we'll put it by forever. As I told you in my letter
when I wrote that Amy had been so kind to me, I never shall stop loving you,
but the love is altered, and I have learned to see that it is better as it is.
Amy and you changed places in my heart, that's all. I think it was meant to be
so, and would have come about naturally, if I had waited, as you tried to make
me, but I never could be patient, and so I got a heartache. I was a boy then,
headstrong and violent, and it took a hard lesson to show me my mistake. For it
was one, Jo, as you said, and I found it out, after making a fool of myself.
Upon my word, I was so tumbled up in my mind, at one time, that I didn't know
which I loved best, you or Amy, and tried to love you both alike. But I
couldn't, and when I saw her in Switzerland, everything seemed to clear up all
at once. You both got into your right places, and I felt sure that it was well
off with the old love before it was on with the new, that I could honestly
share my heart between sister Jo and wife Amy, and love them dearly. Will you
believe it, and go back to the happy old times when we first knew one another?”
“I'll believe it, with
all my heart, but, Teddy, we never can be boy and girl again. The happy old
times can't come back, and we mustn't expect it. We are man and woman now, with
sober work to do, for playtime is over, and we must give up frolicking. I'm
sure you feel this. I see the change in you, and you'll find it in me. I shall
miss my boy, but I shall love the man as much, and admire him more, because he
means to be what I hoped he would. We can't be little playmates any longer, but
we will be brother and sister, to love and help one another all our lives,
won't we, Laurie?”
He did not say a word,
but took the hand she offered him, and laid his face down on it for a minute,
feeling that out of the grave of a boyish passion, there had risen a beautiful,
strong friendship to bless them both. Presently Jo said cheerfully, for she
didn't the coming home to be a sad one, “I can't make it true that you children
are really married and going to set up house-keeping. Why, it seems only
yesterday that I was buttoning Amy's pinafore, and pulling your hair when you
teased. Mercy me, how time does fly!”
“As one of the children
is older than yourself, you needn't talk so like a grandma. I flatter myself
I'm a `gentleman growed' as Peggotty said of David, and when you see Amy,
you'll find her rather a precocious infant,” said Laurie, looking amused at her
maternal air.
“You may be a little
older in years, but I'm ever so much older in feeling, Teddy. Women always are,
and this last year has been such a hard one that I feel forty.”
“Poor Jo! We left you
to bear it alone, while we went pleasuring. You are older. Here's a line, and
there's another. Unless you smile, your eyes look sad, and when I touched the
cushion, just now, I found a tear on it. You've had a great deal to bear, and
had to bear it all alone. What a selfish beast I've been!” And Laurie pulled
his own hair, with a remorseful look.
But Jo only turned over
the traitorous pillow, and answered, in a tone which she tried to make more
cheerful, “No, I had Father and Mother to help me, and the dear babies to
comfort me, and the thought that you and Amy were safe and happy, to make the
troubles here easier to bear. I am lonely, sometimes, but I dare say it's good
for me, and . . .”
“You never shall be
again,” broke in Laurie, putting his arm about her, as if to fence out every
human ill. “Amy and I can't get on without you, so you must come and teach `the
children' to keep house, and go halves in everything, just as we used to do,
and let us pet you, and all be blissfully happy and friendly together.”
“If I shouldn't be in
the way, it would be very pleasant. I begin to feel quite young already, for
somehow all my troubles seemed to fly away when you came. You always were a
comfort, Teddy.” And Jo leaned her head on his shoulder, just as she did years
ago, when Beth lay ill and Laurie told her to hold on to him.
He looked down at her,
wondering if she remembered the time, but Jo was smiling to herself, as if in
truth her troubles had all vanished at his coming.
“You are the same Jo
still, dropping tears about one minute, and laughing the next. You look a
little wicked now. What is it, Grandma?”
“I was wondering how
you and Amy get on together.”
“Like angels!”
“Yes, of course, but
which rules?”
“I don't mind telling
you that she does now, at least I let her think so, it pleases her, you know.
By-and-by we shall take turns, for marriage, they say, halves one's rights and
doubles one's duties.”
“You'll go on as you
begin, and Amy will rule you all the days of your life.”
“Well, she does it so
imperceptibly that I don't think I shall mind much. She is the sort of woman who
knows how to rule well. In fact, I rather like it, for she winds one round her
finger as softly and prettily as a skein of silk, and makes you feel as if she
was doing you a favor all the while.”
“That ever I should
live to see you a henpecked husband and enjoying it!” cried JO, with uplifted
hands.
It was good to see
Laurie square his shoulders, and smile with masculine scorn at that
insinuation, as he replied, with his “high and mighty” air, “Amy is too
well-bred for that, and I am not the sort of man to submit to it. My wife and I
respect ourselves and one another too much ever to tyrannize or quarrel.”
Jo like that, and
thought the new dignity very becoming, but the boy seemed changing very fast
into the man, and regret mingled with her pleasure.
“I am sure of that. Amy
and you never did quarrel as we used to. She is the sun and I the wind, in the
fable, and the sun managed the man best, you remember.”
“She can blow him up as
well as shine on him,” laughed Laurie. “such a lecture as I got at Nice! I give
you my word it was a deal worse than any or your scoldings, a regular rouser.
I'll tell you all about it sometime, she never will, because after telling me
that she despised and was ashamed of me, she lost her heart to the despicable
party and married the good-for-nothing.”
“What baseness! Well,
if she abuses you, come to me, and I'll defend you.”
“I look as if I needed
it, don't I?” said Laurie, getting up and striking an attitude which suddenly
changed from the imposing to the rapturous, as Amy's voice was heard calling, “Where
is she? Where's my dear old Jo?”
In trooped the whole
family, and everyone was hugged and kissed all over again, and after several
vain attempts, the three wanderers were set down to be looked at and exulted
over. Mr. Laurence, hale and hearty as ever, was quite as much improved as the
others by his foreign tour, for the crustiness seemed to be nearly gone, and
the old-fashioned courtliness had received a polish which made it kindlier than
ever. It was good to see him beam at `my children', as he called the young
pair. It was better still to see Amy pay him the daughterly duty and affection
which completely won his old heart, and best of all, to watch Laurie revolve
about the two, as if never tired of enjoying the pretty picture they made.
The minute she put her
eyes upon Amy, Meg became conscious that her own dress hadn't a Parisian air,
that young Mrs. Mofffat would be entirely eclipsed by young Mrs. Laurence, and
that `her ladyship' was altogether a most elegant and graceful woman. Jo
thought, as she watched the pair, “How well they look together! I was right,
and Laurie has found the beautiful, accomplished girl who will become his home
better than clumsy old Jo, and be a pride, not a torment to him.” Mrs. March
and her husband smiled and nodded at each other with happy faces, for they saw
that their youngest had done well, not only in worldly things,but the better
wealth of love, confidence, and happiness.
For Amy's face was full
of the soft brightness which betokens a peaceful heart, her voice had a new
tenderness in it, and the cool, prim carriage was changed to a gentle dignity,
both womanly and winning. No little affectations marred it, and the cordial
sweetness of her manner was more charming than the new beauty or the old grace,
for it stamped her at once with the unmistakable sign of the true gentlewoman
she had hoped to become.
“Love has done much for
our little girl,” said her mother softly.
“She has had a good
example before her all her life, my dear,” Mr. March whispered back, with a
loving look at the worn face and gray head beside him.
Daisy found it
impossible to keep her eyes off her `pitty aunty', but attached herself like a
lap dog to the wonderful chatelaine full of delightful charms. Demi paused to
consider the new relationship before he compromised himself by the rash
acceptance of a bribe, which took the tempting form of a family of wooden bears
from Berne. A flank movement produced an unconditional surrender, however, for
Laurie knew where to have him.
“Young man, when I
first had the honor of making your acquaintance you hit me in the face. Now I
demand the satisfaction of a gentleman,” and with that the tall uncle proceeded
to toss and tousle the small nephew in a way that damaged his philosophical
dignity as much as it delighted his boyish soul.
“Blest if she ain't in
silk from head to foot? Ain't it a relishin' sight to see her settin' there as
fine as a fiddle, an[d hear folks calling little Amy `Mis. Laurence!'” ] Such a
happy procession as filed away into the little dining room! Mr. March proudly
escorted Mrs. Laurence. Mrs. March as proudly leaned on the arm of `my son'.
The old gentleman took Jo, with a whispered, “You must be my girl now,” and a
glance at the empty corner by the fire, that made Jo whisper back, “I'll try to
fill her place, sir.
The twins pranced
behind, feeling that the millennium was at hand, for everyone was so busy with
the newcomers that they were left to revel at their own sweet will, and you may
be sure they made the most of the opportunity. Didn't they steal sips of tea,
stuff gingerbread ad libitum, get a hot biscuit apiece, and as a crowning
trespass, didn't they each whisk a captivating little tart into their tiny
pockets, there to stick and crumble treacherously, teaching them that both
human nature and a pastry are frail? Burdened with the guilty consciousness of
the sequestered tarts, and fearing that Dodo's sharp eyes would pierce the thin
disguise of cambric and merino which hid their booty, the little sinners
attached themselves to `Dranpa', who hadn't his spectacles on. Amy, who was
handed about like refreshments, returned to the parlor on Father Laurence's
arm. The others paired off as before, and this arrangement left Jo
companionless. She did not mind it at the minute, for she lingered to answer
Hannah's eager inquiry.
“Will Miss Amy ride in
her coop (coupe), and use all them lovely silver dishes that's stored away over
yander?”
“Shouldn't wonder if
she drove six white horses, ate off gold plate, and wore diamonds and point
lace every day. Teddy thinks nothing too good for her,” returned Jo with
infinite satisfaction.
“No more there is! Will
you have hash or fishballs for breakfast?” asked Hannah, who wisely mingled
poetry and prose.
“I don't care.” And Jo
shut the door, feeling that food was an uncongenial topic just then. She stood
a minute looking at the party vanishing above, and as Demi's short plaid legs
toiled up the last stair, a sudden sense of loneliness came over her so strongly
that she looked about her with dim eyes, as if to find something to lean upon,
for even Teddy had deserted her. If she had known what birthday gift was coming
every minute nearer and nearer, she would not have said to herself, “I'll weep
a little weep when I go to bed. It won't do to be dismal now.” Then she drew
her hand over her eyes, for one of her boyish habits was never to know where
her handkerchief was, and had just managed to call up a smile when there came a
knock at the porch door.
She opened with
hospitable haste, and started as if another ghost had come to surprise her, for
there stood a tall bearded gentleman, beaming on her from the darkness like a
midnight sun.
“Oh, Mr. Bhaer, I am so
glad to see you!” cried Jo, with a clutch, as if she feared the night would
swallow him up before she could get him in.
“And I to see Miss
Marsch, but no, you haf a party,” and the Professor paused as the sound of
voices and the tap of dancing feet came down to them.
“No, we haven't, only
the family. My sister and friends have just come home, and we are all very
happy. Come in, and make one of us.”
Though a very social
man, I think Mr. Bhaer would have gone decorously away, and come again another
day, but how could he, when Jo shut the door behind him, and bereft him of his
hat? Perhaps her face had something to do with it, for she forgot to hide her
joy at seeing him, and showed it with a frankness that proved irresistible to
the solitary man, whose welcome far exceeded his boldest hopes.
“If I shall not be
Monsieur de Trop, I will so gladly see them all. You haf been ill, my friend?”
He put the question
abruptly, for, as Jo hung up his coat, the light fell on her face, and he saw a
change in it.
“Not ill, but tired and
sorrowful. We have had trouble since I saw you last.”
“Ah, yes, I know. My
heart was sore for you when I heard that,” And he shook hands again, with such
a sympathetic face that Jo felt as if no comfort could equal the look of the
kind eyes, the grasp of the big, warm hand.
“Father, Mother, this
is my friend, Professor Bhaer,” she said, with a face and tone of such
irrepressible pride and pleasure that she might as well have blown a trumpet
and opened the door with a flourish.
If the stranger had any
doubts about his reception, they were set at rest in a minute by the cordial
welcome he received. Everyone greeted him kindly, for Jo's sake at first, but
very soon they liked him for his own. They could not help it, for he carried
the talisman that opens all hearts, and these simple people warmed to him at
once, feeling even the more friendly because he was poor. For poverty enriches
those who live above it, and is a sure passport to truly hospitable spirits.
Mr. Bhaer sat looking about him with the air of a traveler who knocks at a
strange door, and when it opens, finds himself at home. The children went to
him like bees to a honeypot, and establishing themselves on each knee,
proceeded to captivate him by rifling his pockets, pulling his beard, and
investigating his watch, with juvenile audacity. The women telegraphed their
approval to one another, and Mr. March, feeling that he had got a kindred
spirit, opened his choicest stores for his guest's benefit, while silent John
listened and enjoyed the talk, but said not a word, and Mr. Laurence found it
impossible to go to sleep.
If Jo had not been
otherwise engaged, Laurie's behavior would have amused her, for a faint twinge,
not of jealousy, but something like suspicion, caused that gentleman to stand
aloof at first, and observe the newcomer with brotherly circumspection. But it
did not last long. He got interested in spite of himself, and before he knew
it, was drawn into the circle. For Mr. Bhaer talked well in this genial
atmosphere, and did himself justice. He seldom spoke to Laurie, but he looked
at him often, and a shadow would pass across his face, as if regretting his own
lost youth, as he watched the young man in his prime. Then his eyes would turn
to Jo so wistfully that she would have surely answered the mute inquiry if she
had seen it. But Jo had her own eyes to take care of, and feeling that they
could not be trusted, she prudently kept them on the little sock she was
knitting, like a model maiden aunt.
A stealthy glance now
and then refreshed her like sips of fresh water after a dusty walk, for the
sidelong peeps showed her several propitious omens. Mr. Bhaer's face had lost
the absent-minded expression, and looked all alive with interest in the present
moment, actually young and handsome, she thought, forgetting to compare him
with Laurie, as she usually did strange men, to their great detriment. Then he
seemed quite inspired, though the burial customs of the ancients, to which the
conversation had strayed, might not be considered an exhilarating topic. Jo quite
glowed with triumph when Teddy got quenched in an argument, and thought to
herself, as she watched her father's absorbed face, “How he would enjoy having
such a man as my Professor to talk with every day!” Lastly, Mr. Bhaer was
dressed in a new suit of black, which made him look more like a gentleman than
ever. His bushy hair had been cut and smoothly brushed, but didn't stay in
order long, for in exciting moments, he rumpled it up in the droll way he used
to do, and Jo liked it rampantly erect better than flat, because she thought it
gave his fine forehead a Jove-like aspect. Poor Jo, how she did glorify that
plain man, as she sat knitting away so quietly, yet letting nothing escape her,
not even the fact that Mr. Bhaer actually had gold sleeve-buttons in his
immaculate wristbands.
“Dear old fellow! He
couldn't have got himself up with more care if he'd been going a-wooing,” said
Jo to herself, and then a sudden thought born of the words made her blush so
dreadfully that she had to drop her ball, and go down after it to hide her
face.
The maneuver did not
succeed as well as she expected, however, for though just in the act of setting
fire to a funeral pyre, the Professor dropped his torch, metaphorically
speaking, and made a dive after the little blue ball. Of course they bumped
their heads smartly together, saw stars, and both came up flushed and laughing,
without the ball, to resume their seats, wishing they had not left them.
Nobody knew where the
evening went to, for Hannah skillfully abstracted the babies at an early hour,
nodding like two rosy poppies, and Mr. Laurence went home to rest. The others
sat round the fire, talking away, utterly regardless of the lapse of time, till
Meg, whose maternal was impressed with a firm conviction that Daisy had tumbled
out of be, and Demi set his night-gown afire studying the structure of matches,
made a move to go.
“We must have our sing,
in the good old way, for we are all together again once more,” said Jo, feeling
that a good shout would be a safe and pleasant vent for the jubilant emotions
of her soul.
They were not all
there. But no one found the words thoughtless or untrue, for Beth still seemed
among them, a peaceful presence, invisible, but dearer than ever, since death
could not break the household league that love made disoluble. The little chair
stood in its old place. The tidy basket, with the bit of work she left
unfinished when the needle grew `so heavy', was still on its accustomed shelf.
The beloved instrument, seldom touched now had not been moved, and above it
Beth's face, serene and smiling, as in the early days, looked down upon them,
seeming to say, “Be happy. I am here.”
“Play something, Amy.
Let them hear how much you have improved,” said Laurie, with pardonable pride
in his promising pupil.
But Amy whispered, with
full eyes, as she twirled the faded stool, “Not tonight, dear. I can't show off
tonight.”
But she did show
something better than brilliancy or skill, for she sang Beth's songs with a
tender music in her voice which the best master could not have taught, and
touched the listener's hearts with a sweeter power than any other inspiration
could have given her. The room was very still, when the clear voice failed
suddenly at the last line of Beth's favorite hymn. It was hard to say . . .
Earth hath no sorrow
that heaven cannot heal;
and Amy leaned against her husband, who stood behind her, feeling that
her welcome home was not quite perfect without Beth's kiss. “Now, we must finish with Mignon's song, for
Mr. Bhaer sings that,” said Jo, before the pause grew painful. And Mr. Bhaer
cleared his throat with a gratified “Hem!” as he stepped into the corner where
Jo stood, saying . . .
“You will sing with me?
We go excellently well together.”
A pleasing fiction, by
the way, for Jo had no more idea of music than a grasshopper. But she would
have consented if he had proposed to sing a whole opera, and warbled away,
blissfully regardless of time and tune. It didn't much matter, for Mr. Bhaer
sang like a true German, heartily and well, and Jo soon subsided into a subdued
hum, that she might listen to the mellow voice that seemed to sing for her
alone.
Know'st thou the land
where the citron blooms,
used to be the Professor's favorite line, for `das land' meant Germany
to him, but now he seemed to dwell, with peculiar warmth and melody, upon the
words . . . There, oh there, might
I with thee,
O, my beloved, go
and one listener was so thrilled by the tender invitation that she
longed to say she did know the land, and would joyfully depart thither whenever
he liked The song was considered a
great success, and the singer retired covered with laurels. But a few minutes
afterward, he forgot his manners entirely, and stared at Amy putting on her
bonnet, for she had been introduced simply as `my sister', and on one had
called her by her new name since her came. He forgot himself still further when
Laurie said, in his most gracious manner, at parting . . .
“My wife and I are very
glad to meet you, sir. Please remember that there is always a welcome waiting
for you over the way.”
Then the Professor
thanked him so heartily, and looked so suddenly illuminated with satisfaction,
that Laurie thought him the most delightfully demonstrative old fellow he ever
met.
“I too shall go, but I
shall gladly come again, if you will gif me leave, dear madame, for a little
business in the city will keep me here some days.”
He spoke to Mrs. March,
but he looked at Jo, and the mother's voice gave as cordial an assent as did
the daughter's eyes, for Mrs. March was not so blind to her children's interest
as Mrs. Moffat supposed.
“I suspect that is a
wise man,” remarked Mr. March, with placid satisfaction, from the hearthrug,
after the last guest had gone.
“I know he is a good
one,” added Mrs. March, with decided approval, as she wound up the clock.
“I thought you'd like
him,” was all Jo said, as she slipped away to her bed.
She wondered what the
business was that brought Mr. Bhaer to the city, and finally decided that he
had been appointed to some great honor, somewhere, but had been too modest to
mention the fact. If she had seen his face when, safe in his own room, he
looked at the picture of a severe and rigid young lady, with a good deal of
hair, who appeared to be gazing darkly into futurity, it might have thrown some
light upon the subject, especially when he turned off the gas, and kissed the
picture in the dark.
“Please, Madam Mother,
could you lend me my wife for half an hour? The luggage has come, and I've been
making hay of Amy's Paris finery, trying to find some things I want,” said
Laurie, coming in the next day to find Mrs. Laurence sitting in her mother's
lap, as if being made `the baby' again.
“Certainly. Go, dear, I
forgot that you have any home but this.” And Mrs. March pressed the white hand
that wore the wedding ring, as if asking pardon for her maternal covetousness.
“I shouldn't have come
over if I could have helped it, but I can't get on without my little woman any
more than a . . .”
“Weathercock can
without the wind,” suggested Jo, as he paused for a simile. Jo had grown quite
her own saucy self again since Teddy came home.
“Exactly, for Amy keeps
me pointing due west most of the time, with only an occasional whiffle round to
the south, and I haven't had an easterly spell since I was married. Don't know
anything about the north, but am altogether salubrious and balmy, hey, my lady?”
“Lovely weather so far.
I don't know how long it will last, but I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm
learning how to sail my ship. Come home, dear, and I'll find your bootjack. I
suppose that's what you are rummaging after among my things. Men are so
helpless, Mother,” said Amy, with a matronly air, which delighted her husband.
“What are you going to
do with yourselves after you get settled?” asked Jo, buttoning Amy's cloak as
she used to button her pinafores.
“We have our plans. We
don't mean to say much about them yet, because we are such very new brooms, but
we don't intend to be idle. I'm going into business with a devotion that shall
delight Grandfather, and prove to him that I'm not spoiled. I need something of
the sort to keep me steady. I'm tired of dawdling, and mean to work like a man.”
“And Amy, what is she
going to do?” asked Mrs. March, well pleased at Laurie's decision and the
energy with which he spoke.
“After doing the civil
all round, and airing our best bonnet, we shall astonish you by the elegant
hospitalities of our mansion, the brilliant society we shall draw about us, and
the beneficial influence we shall exert over the world at large. That's about
it, isn't it, Madame Recamier?” asked Laurie with a quizzical look at Amy.
“Time will show. Come
away, Impertinence, and don't shock my family by calling me names before their
faces,” answered Amy, resolving that there should be a home with a good wife in
it before she set up a salon as a queen of society.
“How happy those
children seem together!” observed Mr. March, finding it difficult to become
absorbed in his Aristotle after the young couple had gone.
“Yes, and I think it
will last,” added Mrs. March, with the restful expression of a pilot who has
brought a ship safely into port.
“I know it will. Happy
Amy!” And Jo sighed, then smiled brightly as Professor Bhaer opened the gate
with an impatient push.
Later in the evening,
when his mind had been set at rest about the bootjack, Laurie said suddenly to
his wife, “Mrs. Laurence.”
“My Lord!”
“That man intends to
marry our Jo!”
“I hope so, don't you,
dear?”
“Well, my love, I
consider him a trump, in the fullest sense of that expressive word, but I do
wish he was a little younger and a good deal richer.”
“Now, Laurie, don't be
too fastidious and worldly-minded. If they love one another it doesn't matter a
particle how old they are nor how poor. Women never should marry for money . .
.” Amy caught herself up short as the words escaped her, and looked at her
husband, who replied, with malicious gravity . . .
“Certainly not, though
you do hear charming girls say that they intend to do it sometimes. If my
memory serves me, you once thought it your duty to make a rich match. That
accounts, perhaps, for your marrying a good-for-nothing like me.”
“Oh, my dearest boy,
don't, don't say that! I forgot you were rich when I said `Yes'. I'd have
married you if you hadn't a penny, and I sometimes wish you were poor that I
might show how much I love you.” And Amy, who was very dignified in public and
very fond in private, gave convincing proofs of the truth of her words.
“You don't really think
I am such a mercenary creature as I tried to be once, do you? It would break my
heart if you didn't believe that I'd gladly pull in the same boat with you,
even if you had to get your living by rowing on the lake.”2
“Am I an idiot and a
brute? How could I think so, when you refused a richer man for me, and won't
let me give you half I want to now, when I have the right? Girls do it every
day, poor things, and are taught to think it is their only salvation, but you
had better lessons, and though I trembled for you at one time, I was not
disappointed, for the daughter was true to the mother's teaching. I told Mamma
so yesterday, and she looked as glad and grateful as if I'd given her a check
for a million, to be spent in charity. You are not listening to my moral
remarks, Mrs. Laurence.” And Laurie paused, for Amy's eyes had an absent look,
though fixed upon his face.
“Yes, I am, and
admiring the dimple in your chin at the same time. I don't wish to make you
vain, but I must confess that I'm prouder of my handsome husband than of all
his money. Don't laugh, but your nose is such a comfort to me.” And Amy softly
caressed the well-cut feature with artistic satisfaction.
Laurie had received
many compliments in his life, but never one that suited him better, as he
plainly showed though he did laugh at his wife's peculiar taste, while she said
slowly, “May I ask you a question, dear?”
“Of course, you may.”
“Shall you care if Jo
does marry Mr. Bhaer?”
“Oh, that's the trouble
is it? I thought there was something in the dimple that didn't quite suit you.
Not being a dog in the manger, but the happiest fellow alive, I assure you I
can dance at Jo's wedding with a heart as light as my heels. Do you doubt it,
my darling?”
Amy looked up at him,
and was satisfied. Her little jealous fear vanished forever, and she thanked
him, with a face full of love and confidence.
“I wish we could do
something for that capital old Professor. Couldn't we invent a rich relation,
who shall obligingly die out there in Germany, and leave him a tidy little
fortune?” said Laurie, when they began to pace up and down the long drawing
room, arm in arm, as they were fond of doing, in memory of the chateau garden.
“Jo would find us out,
and spoil it all. She is very proud of him, just as he is, and said yesterday
that she thought poverty was a beautiful thing.”
“Bless her dear heart!
She won't think so when she has a literary husband, and a dozen little
professors and professorins to support. We won't interfere now, but watch our
chance, and do them a good turn in spite of themselves. I owe Jo for a part of
my education, and she believes in people's paying their honest debts, so I'll
get round her in that way.”
“How delightful it is
to be able to help others, isn't it? That was always one of my dreams, to have
the power of giving freely, and thanks to you, the dream has come true.”
“Ah, we'll do
quantities of good, won't we? There's one sort of poverty that I particularly
like to help. Out-and-out beggars get taken care of, but poor gentle folks fare
badly, because they won't ask, and people don't dare to offer charity. Yet
there are a thousand ways of helping them, if one only knows how to do it so
delicately that it does not offend. I must say, I like to serve a decayed
gentleman better than a blarneying beggar. I suppose it's wrong, but I do,
though it is harder.”
“Because it takes a
gentleman to do it,” added the other member of the domestic admiration society.
“Thank you, I'm afraid
I don't deserve that pretty compliment. But I was going to say that while I was
dawdling about abroad, I saw a good many talented young fellows making all
sorts of sacrifices, and enduring real hardships, that they might realize their
dreams. Splendid fellows, some of them, working like heros, poor and
friendless, but so full of courage, patience, and ambition that I was ashamed
of myself, and longed to give them a right good lift. Those are people whom
it's a satisfaction to help, for if they've got genius, it's an honor to be
allowed to serve them, and not let it be lost or delayed for want of fuel to
keep the pot boiling. If they haven't, it's a pleasure to comfort the poor
souls, and keep them from despair when they find it out.”
“Yes, indeed, and
there's another class who can't ask, and who suffer in silence. I know
something of it, for I belonged to it before you made a princess of me, as the
king does the beggar-maid in the old story. Ambitious girls have a hard time,
Laurie, and often have to see youth, health, and precious opportunities go by,
just for want of a little help at the right minute. People have been very kind
to me, and whenever I see girls struggling along, as we used to do, I want to
put out my hand and help them, as I was helped.”
“And so you shall, like
an angel as you are!” cried Laurie, resolving, with a glow of philanthropic
zeal, to found and endow an institution for the express benefit of young women
with artistic tendencies. “Rich people have no right to sit down and enjoy
themselves, or let their money accumulate for others to waste. It's not half so
sensible to leave legacies when one dies as it is to use the money wisely while
alive, and enjoy making one's fellow creatures happy with it. We'll have a good
time ourselves, and add an extra relish to our own pleasure by giving other
people a generous taste. Will you be a little Dorcal, going about emptying a
big basket of comforts, and filling it up with good deeds?”
“With all my heart, if
you will be a brave St. Martin, stopping as you ride gallantly through the
world to share your cloak with the beggar.”
“It's a bargain, and we
shall get the best of it!”
So the young pair shook
hands upon it, and then paced happily on again, feeling that their pleasant
home was more homelike because they hoped to brighten other homes, believing
that their own feet would walk more uprightly along the flowery path before
them, if they smoothed rough ways for other feet, and feeling that their hearts
were more closely knit together by a love which could tenderly remember those
less blest than they.
I cannot feel that I
have done my duty as humble historian of the March family, without devoting at
least one chapter to the two most precious and important members of it. Daisy
and Demi had now arrived at years of discretion, for in this fast age babies of
three or four assert their rights, and get them, too, which is more than many
of their elders do. If there ever were a pair of twins in danger of being
utterly spoiled by adoration, it was these prattling Brookes. Of course they
were the most remarkable children ever born, as will be shown when I mention
that they walked at eight months, talked fluently at twelve months, and at two
years they took their places at table, and behaved with a propriety which
charmed all beholders. At three, Daisy demanded a `needler', and actually made
a bag with four stitches in it. She likewise set up housekeeping in the
sideboard, and managed a microscopic cooking stove with a skill that brought
tears of pride to Hannah's eyes, while Demi learned his letters with his
grandfather, who invented a new mode of teaching the alphabet by forming
letters with his arms and legs, thus uniting gymnastics for head and heels. The
boy early developed a mechanical genius which delighted his father and
distracted his mother, for he tried to imitate every machine he saw, and kept
the nursery in a chaotic condition, with his `sewinsheen', a mysterious
structure of string, chairs, clothespins, and spools, for wheels to go `wound
and wound'. Also a basket hung over the back of a chair, in which he vainly
tried to hoist his too confiding sister, who, with feminine devotion, allowed
her little head to be bumped till rescued, when the young inventor indignantly
remarked, “Why, Marmar, dat's my lellywaiter, and me's trying to pull her up.”
Though utterly unlike
in character, the twins got on remarkably well together, and seldom quarreled
more than thrice a day. Of course, Demi tyrannized over Daisy, and gallantly
defended her from every other aggressor, while Daisy made a galley slave of
herself, and adored her brother as the one perfect being in the world. A rosy,
chubby, sunshiny little soul was Daisy, who found her way to everybody's heart,
and nestled there. One of the captivating children, who seem made to be kissed
and cuddled, adorned and adored like little goddesses, and produced for general
approval on all festive occasions. Her small virtues were so sweet that she
would have been quite angelic if a few small naughtinesses had not kept her
delightfully human. It was all fair weather in her world, and every morning she
scrambled up to the window in her little nightgown to look our, and say, no
matter whether it rained or shone, “Oh, pitty day, oh, pitty day!” Everyone was
a friend, and she offered kisses to a stranger so confidingly that the most
inveterate bachelor relented, and baby-lovers became faithful worshipers.
“Me loves evvybody,”
she once said, opening her arms, with her spoon in one hand, and her mug in the
other, as if eager to embrace and nourish the whole world.
As she grew, her mother
began to feel that the Dovecote would be blessed by the presence of an inmate
as serene and loving as that which had helped to make the old house home, and
to pray that she might be spared a loss like that which had lately taught them
how long they had entertained an angel unawares. Her grandfather often called
her `Beth', and her grandmother watched over her with untiring devotion, as if
trying to atone for some past mistake, which no eye but her own could see.
Demi, like a true
Yankee, was of an inquiring turn, wanting to know everything, and often getting
much disturbed because he could not get satisfactory answers to his perpetual “What
for?”
He also possessed a
philosophic bent, to the great delight of his grandfather, who used to hold
Socratic conversations with him, in which the precocious pupil occasionally
posed his teacher, to the undisguised satisfaction of the womenfolk.
“What makes my legs go,
Dranpa?” asked the young philosopher, surveying those active portions of his
frame with a meditative air, while resting after a go-to-bed frolic one night.
“It's your little mind,
Demi,” replied the sage, stroking the yellow head respectfully.
“What is a little mine?”
“It is something which
makes your body move, as the spring made the wheels go in my watch when I
showed it to you.”
“Open me. I want to see
it go wound.”
“I can't do that any
more than you could open the watch. God winds you up, and you go till He stops
you.”
“Does I?” And Demi's
brown eyes grew big and bright as he took in the new thought. “Is I wounded up
like the watch?”
“Yes, but I can't show
you how, for it is done when we don't see.”
Demi felt his back, as
if expecting to find it like that of the watch, and then gravely remarked, “I
dess Dod does it when I's asleep.”
A careful explanation
followed, to which he listened so attentively that his anxious grandmother
said, “My dear, do you think it wise to talk about such things to that baby?
He's getting great bumps over his eyes, and learning to ask the most
unanswerable questions.”
“If he is old enough to
ask the question he is old enough to receive true answers. I am not putting the
thoughts into his head, but helping him unfold those already there. These
children are wiser than we are, and I have no doubt the boy understands every
word I have said to him. Now, Demi, tell me where you keep your mind.”
If the boy had replied
like Alcibiades, “By the gods, Socrates, I cannot tell,” his grandfather would
not have been surprised, but when, after standing a moment on one leg, like a
meditative young stork, he answered, in a tone of calm conviction, “In my
little belly,” the old gentleman could only join in Grandma's laugh, and
dismiss the class in metaphysics.
There might have been
cause for maternal anxiety, if Demi had not given convincing proofs that he was
a true boy, as well as a budding philosopher, for often, after a discussion
which caused Hannah to prophesy, with ominous nods, “That child ain't long for
this world,” he would turn about and set her fears at rest by some of the
pranks with which dear, dirty, naughty little rascals distract and delight
their parent's souls.
Meg made many moral
rules, and tried to keep them, but what mother was ever proof against the
winning wiles, the ingenious evasions, or the tranquil audacity of the
miniature men and women who so early show themselves accomplished Artful
Dodgers?
“No more raisins, Demi.
They'll make you sick,” says Mamma to the young person who offers his services
in the kitchen with unfailing regularity on plum-pudding day.
“Me likes to be sick.”
“I don't want to have
you, so run away and help Daisy make patty cakes.”
He reluctantly departs,
but his wrongs weigh upon his spirit, and by-and-by when an opportunity comes
to redress them, he outwits Mamma by a shrewd bargain.
“Now you have been good
children, and I'll play anything you like,” says Meg, as she leads her
assistant cooks upstairs, when the pudding is safely bouncing in the pot.
“Truly, Marmar?” asks
Demi, with a brilliant idea in his well-powdered head.
“Yes, truly. Anything
you say,” replies the shortsighted parent, preparing herself to sing, “The
Three Little Kittens” half a dozen times over, or to take her family to “Buy a
penny bun,” regardless of wind or limb. But Demi corners her by the cool
reply...
“Then we'll go and eat
up all the raisins.”
Aunt Dodo was chief
playmate and confidante of both children, and the trio turned the little house
topsy-turvy. Aunt Amy was as yet only a name to them, Aunt Beth soon faded into
a pleasantly vague memory, but Aunt Dodo was a living reality, and they made
the most of her, for which compliment she was deeply grateful. But when Mr.
Bhaer came, Jo neglected her playfellows, and dismay and desolation fell upon
their little souls. Daisy, who was fond of going about peddling kisses, lost
her best customer and became bankrupt. Demi, with infantile penetration, soon
discovered that Dodo like to play with `the bear-man' better than she did him,
but though hurt, he concealed his anguish, for he hadn't the heart to insult a
rival who kept a mine of chocolate drops in his waistcoat pocket, and a watch
that could be taken out of its case and freely shaken by ardent admirers.
Some persons might have
considered these pleasing liberties as bribes, but Demi didn't see it in that
light, and continued to patronize the `the bear-man' with pensive affability,
while Daisy bestowed her small affections upon him at the third call, and considered
his shoulder her throne, his arm her refuge, his gifts treasures surpassing
worth.
Gentlemen are sometimes
seized with sudden fits of admiration for the young relatives of ladies whom
they honor with their regard, but this counterfeit philoprogenitiveness sits
uneasily upon them, and does not deceive anybody a particle. Mr. Bhaer's
devotion was sincere, however likewise effective--for honesty is the best
policy in love as in law. He was one of the men who are at home with children,
and looked particularly well when little faces made a pleasant contrast with
his manly one. His business, whatever it was, detained him from day to day, but
evening seldom failed to bring him out to see--well, he always asked for Mr.
March, so I suppose he was the attraction. The excellent papa labored under the
delusion that he was, and reveled in long discussions with the kindred spirit,
till a chance remark of his more observing grandson suddenly enlightened him.
Mr. Bhaer came in one
evening to pause on the threshold of the study, astonished by the spectacle
that met his eye. Prone upon the floor lay Mr. March, with his respectable legs
in the air, and beside him, likewise prone, was Demi, trying to imitate the
attitude with his own short, scarlet-stockinged legs, both grovelers so
seriously absorbed that they were unconscious of spectators, till Mr. Bhaer
laughed his sonorous laugh, and Jo cried out, with a scandalized face . . .
“Father, Father, here's
the Professor!”
Down went the black
legs and up came the gray head, as the preceptor said, with undisturbed
dignity, “Good evening, Mr. Bhaer. Excuse me for a moment. We are just
finishing our lesson. Now, Demi, make the letter and tell its name.”
“I knows him!” And,
after a few convulsive efforts, the red legs took the shape of a pair of
compasses, and the intelligent pupil triumphantly shouted, “It's a We, Dranpa,
it's a We!”
“He's a born Weller,”
laughed Jo, as her parent gathered himself up, and her nephew tried to stand on
his head, as the only mode of expressing his satisfaction that school was over.
“What have you been at
today, bübchen?” asked Mr. Bhaer, picking up the gymnast.
“Me went to see little
Mary.”
“And what did you
there?”
“I kissed her,” began
Demi, with artless frankness.
“Prut! Thou beginnest
early. What did the little Mary say to that?” asked Mr. Bhaer, continuing to
confess the young sinner, who stood upon the knee, exploring the waistcoat
pocket.
“Oh, she liked it, and
she kissed me, and I liked it. Don't little boys like little girls?” asked
Demi, with his mouth full, and an air of bland satisfaction.
“You precious chick!
Who put that into your head?” said Jo, enjoying the innocent revelation as much
as the Professor.
“`Tisn't in mine head,
it's in mine mouf,” answered literal Demi, putting out his tongue, with a
chocolate drop on it, thinking she alluded to confectionery, not ideas.
“Thou shouldst save
some for the little friend. Sweets to the sweet, mannling.” And Mr. Bhaer
offered Jo some, with a look that made her wonder if chocolate was not the
nectar drunk by the gods. Demi also saw the smile, was impressed by it, and
artlessly inquired. ..
“Do great boys like
great girls, too, 'Fessor?”
Like young Washington,
Mr. Bhaer `couldn't tell a lie', so he gave the somewhat vague reply that he
believed they did sometimes,in a tone that made Mr. March put down his
clothesbrush, glance at Jo's retiring face, and then sink into his chair,
looking as if the `precocious chick' had put an idea into his head that was both
sweet and sour.
Why Dodo, when she
caught him in the china closet half an hour afterward, nearly squeezed the
breath out of his little body with a tender embrace, instead of shaking him for
being there, and why she followed up this novel performance by the unexpected
gift of a big slice of bread and jelly, remained one of the problems over which
Demi puzzled his small wits, and was forced to leave unsolved forever.
While Laurie and Amy
were taking conjugal strolls over velvet carpets, as they set their house in
order, and planned a blissful future, Mr. Bhaer and Jo were enjoying promenades
of a different sort, along muddy roads and sodden fields.
“I always do take a
walk toward evening, and I don't know why I should give it up, just because I
happen to meet the Professor on his way out,” said Jo to herself, after two or
three encounters, for though there were two paths to Meg's whichever one she
took she was sure to meet him., either going or returning. He was always
walking rapidly, and never seemed to see her until quite close, when he would
look as if his short-sighted eyes had failed to recognize the approaching lady
till that moment. Then, if she was going to Meg's he always had something for
the babies. If her face was turned homeward, he had merely strolled down to see
the river, and was just returning, unless they were tired of his frequent
calls.
Under the
circumstances, what could Jo do but greet him civilly, and invite him in? If
she was tired of his visits, she concealed her weariness with perfect skill,
and took care that there should be coffee for supper, “as Friedrich--I mean Mr.
Bhaer--doesn't like tea.”
By the second week,
everyone knew perfectly well what was going on, yet everyone tried to look as
if they were stone-blind to the changes in Jo's face. They never asked why she
sang about her work, did up her hair three times a day, and got so blooming
with her evening exercise. And no one seemed to have the slightest suspicion
that Professor Bhaer, while talking philosophy with the father, was giving the
daughter lessons in love.
Jo couldn't even lose
her heart in a decorous manner, but sternly tried to quench her feelings, and
failing to do so, led a somewhat agitated life. She was mortally afraid of
being laughed at for surrendering, after her many and vehement declarations of
independence. Laurie was her especial dread, but thanks to the new manager, he
behaved with praiseworthy propriety, never called Mr. Bhaer `a capital old
fellow' in public, never alluded, in the remotest manner, to Jo's improved
appearance, or expressed the least surprise at seeing the Professor's hat on
the Marches' table nearly every evening. But he exulted in private and longed
for the time to come when he could give Jo a piece of plate, with a bear and a
ragged staff on it as an appropriate coat of arms.
For a fortnight, the
Professor came and went with lover-like regularity. Then he stayed away for
three whole days, and made no sign, a proceeding which caused everybody to look
sober, and Jo to become pensive, at first, and then--alas for romance--very
cross.
“Disgusted, I dare say,
and gone home as suddenly as he came. It's nothing tome, of course, but I
should think he would have come and bid us goodbye like a gentleman,” she said
to herself, with a despairing look at the gate, as she put on her things for
the customary walk one dull afternoon.
“You'd better take the
little umbrella, dear. It looks like rain,” said her mother, observing that she
had on her new bonnet, but not alluding to the fact.
“Yes, Marmee, do you
want anything in town? I've got to run in and get some paper,” returned Jo,
pulling out the bow under her chin before the glass as an excuse for not
looking at her mother.
“Yes, I want some
twilled silesia, a paper of number nine needles, and two yards of narrow
lavender ribbon. Have you got your thick boots on, and something warm under
your cloak?”
“I believe so,”
answered Jo absently.
“If you happen to meet
Mr. Bhaer, bring him home to tea. I quite long to see the dear man,” added Mrs.
March.
Jo heard that, but made
no answer, except to kiss her mother, and walk rapidly away, thinking with a
glow of gratitude, in spite of her heartache, “How good she is to me! What do
girls do who haven't any mothers to help them through their troubles?”
The dry-goods stores
were not down among the counting-houses, banks, and wholesale warerooms, where
gentlemen most do congregate, but Jo found herself in that part of the city
before she did a single errand, loitering along as if waiting for someone,
examining engineering instruments in one window and samples of wool in another,
with most unfeminine interest, tumbling over barrels, being half-smothered by
descending bales, and hustled unceremoniously by busy men who looked as if they
wondered `how the deuce she got there'. A drop of rain on her cheek recalled
her thoughts from baffled hopes to ruined ribbons. For the drops continued to
fall, and being a woman as well as a lover, she felt that, though it was too
late to save her heart, she might her bonnet. Now she remembered the little
umbrella, which she had forgotten to take in her hurry to be off, but regret
was unavailing, and nothing could be done but borrow one or submit to to a
drenching. She looked up at the lowering sky, down at the crimson bow already
flecked with black, forward along the muddy street, then one long, lingering
look behind, at a certain grimy warehouse, with `Hoffmann, Swartz, & Co.'
over the door, and said to herself, with a sternly reproachful air...
“It serves me right!
what business had I to put on all my best things and come philandering down
here, hoping to see the Professor? Jo, I'm ashamed of you! No, you shall not go
there to borrow an umbrella, or find out where he is, from his friends. You shall
trudge away, and do your errands in the rain, and if you catch your death and
ruin your bonnet, it's no more than you deserve. Now then!”
With that she rushed
across the street so impetuously that she narrowly escaped annihilation from a
passing truck, and precipitated herself into the arms of a stately old
gentleman, who said, “I beg pardon, ma'am,” and looked mortally offended.
Somewhat daunted, Jo righted herself, spread her handkerchief over the devoted
ribbons, and putting temptation behind her, hurried on, with increasing
dampness about the ankles, and much clashing of umbrellas overhead. The fact
that a somewhat dilapidated blue one remained stationary above the unprotected
bonnet attracted her attention, and looking up, she saw Mr. Bhaer looking down.
“I feel to know the
strong-minded lady who goes so bravely under many horse noses, and so fast
through much mus. What do you down here, my friend?”
“I'm shopping.”
Mr. Bhaer smiled, as he
glanced from the pickle factory on one side to the wholesale hide and leather
concern on the other, but her only said politely, “You haf no umbrella. May I
go also, and take for you the bundles?”
“Yes, thank you.”
Jo's cheeks were as red
as her ribbon, and she wondered what he thought of her, but she didn't care,
for in a minute she found herself walking away arm in arm with her Professor,
feeling as if the sun had suddenly burst out with uncommon brilliancy, that the
world was all right again, and that one thoroughly happy woman was paddling
through the wet that day.
“We thought you had
gone,” said Jo hastily, for she knew he was looking at her. Her bonnet wasn't
big enough to hide her face, and she feared he might think the joy it betrayed
unmaidenly.
“Did you believe that I
should go with no farewell to those who haf been so heavenly kind tome?” he
asked so reproachfully that she felt as if she had insulted him by the
suggestion, and answered heartily . . .
“No, I didn't. I knew
you were busy about your own affairs, but we rather missed you, Father and
Mother especially.”
“And you?”
“I'm always glad to see
you, sir.”
In her anxiety to keep
her voice quite calm, Jo made it rather cool, and the frosty little
monosyllable at the end seemed to chill the Professor, for his smile vanished,
as he said gravely . . .
“I thank you, and come
one more time before I go.”
“You are going, then?”
“I haf no longer any
business here, it is done.”
“Successfully, I hope?”
said Jo, for the bitterness of disappointment was in that short reply of his.
“I ought to think so,
for I haf a way opened to me by which I can make my bread and gif my Junglings
much help.”
“Tell me, please! I
like to know all about the--the boys,” said Jo eagerly.
“That is so kind, I
gladly tell you. My friends find for me a place in a college, where I teach as
at home, and earn enough to make the way smooth for Franz and Emil. For this I
should be grateful, should I not?”
“Indeed you should. How
splendid it will be to have you doing what you like, and be able to see you
often, and the boys!” cried Jo, clinging to the lads as an excuse for the
satisfaction she could not help betraying.
“Ah! But we shall not
meet often, I fear, this place is at the West.”
“So far away!” And Jo
left her skirts to their fate, as if it didn't matter now what became of her
clothes or herself.
Mr. Bhaer could read
several languages, but he had not learned to read women yet. He flattered
himself that he knew Jo pretty well, and was, therefore, much amazed by the
contradictions of voice, face, and manner, which she showed him in rapid
succession that day, for she was in half a dozen different moods in the course
of half an hour. When she met him she looked surprised, though it was
impossible to help suspecting that she had come for that express purpose. When
he offered her his arm, she took it with a look that filled him with delight,
but when he asked if she missed him, she gave such a chilly, formal reply that
despair fell upon him. On learning his good fortune she almost clapped her
hands. Was the joy all for the boys? Then on hearing his destination, she said,
“So far away!” in a tone of despair that lifted him on to a pinnacle of hope,
but the next minute she tumbled him down again by observing, like one entirely
absorbed in the matter...
“Here's the place for
my errands. Will you come in? It won't take long.”
Jo rather prided
herself upon her shopping capabilities, and particularly wished to impress her
escort with the neatness and dispatch with which she would accomplish the
business. But owing to the flutter she was in, everything went amiss. She upset
the tray of needles, forgot the silesia was to be `twilled' till it was cut
off, gave the wrong change, and covered herself with confusion by asking for
lavender ribbon at the calico counter. Mr. Bhaer stood by, watching her blush
and blunder, and as he watched, his own bewilderment seemed to subside, for he
was beginning to see that on some occasions, women, like dreams, go by
contraries.
When they came out, he
put the parcel under his arm with a more cheerful aspect, and splashed through
the puddles as if he rather enjoyed it on the whole.
“Should we no do a
little what you call shopping for the babies, and haf a farewell feast tonight
if I go for my last call at your so pleasant home?” he asked, stopping before a
window full of fruit and flowers.
“What will we buy?”
asked Jo, ignoring the latter part of his speech, and sniffing the mingled
odors with an affectation of delight as they went in.
“May they haf oranges
and figs?” asked Mr. Bhaer, with a paternal air.
“They eat them when
they can get them.”
“Do you care for nuts?”
“Like a squirrel.”
“Hamburg grapes. Yes,
we shall drink to the Fatherland in those?”
Jo frowned upon that
piece of extravagance, and asked why he didn't buy a frail of dated, a cask of
raisins, and a bag of almonds, and be done with it? Whereat Mr. Bhaer
confiscated her purse, produced his own, and finished the marketing by buying
several pounds of grapes, a pot of rosy daisies, and a pretty jar of honey, to
be regarded in the light of a demijohn. Then distorting his pockets with knobby
bundles,and giving her the flowers to hold, he put up the old umbrella, and
they traveled on again.
“Miss Marsch, I haf a
great favor to ask of you,” began the Professor, after a moist promenade of
half a block.
“Yes, sir.” And Jo's
heart began to beat so hard she was afraid he would hear it.
“I am bold to say it in
spite of the rain, because so short a time remains to me.”
“Yes, sir.” And Jo
nearly crushed the small flowerpot with the sudden squeeze she gave it.
“I wish to get a little
dress for my Tina, and I am too stupid to go alone. Will you kindly gif me a
word of taste and help?”
“Yes, sir.” And JO felt
as calm and cool all of a sudden as if she had stepped into a refrigerator.
“Perhaps also a shawl
for Tina's mother, she is so poor and sick, and the husband is such a care.
Yes, yes, a thick, warm shawl would be a friendly thing to take the little
mother.”
“I'll do it with
pleasure, Mr. Bhaer. I'm going very fast, and he's getting dearer every minute,”
added Jo to herself, then with a mental shake she entered into the business
with an energy that was pleasant to behold.
Mr. Bhaer left it all
to her, so she chose a pretty gown for Tina, and then ordered out the shawls.
The clerk, being a married man, condescended to take an interest in the couple,
who appeared to be shopping for their family.
“Your lady may prefer
this. It's a superior article, a most desirable color, quite chaste and
genteel,” he said, shaking out a comfortable gray shawl, and throwing it over
Jo's shoulders.
“Does this suit you,
Mr. Bhaer?” she asked, turning her back to him, and feeling deeply grateful for
the chance of hiding her face.
“Excellently well, we
will haf it,” answered the Professor, smiling to himself as he paid for it,
while Jo continued to rummage the counters like a confirmed bargain-hunter.
“Now shall we go home?”
he asked, as if the words were very pleasant to him.
“Yes, it's late, and
I'm so tired.” Jo's voice was more pathetic than she knew. For now the sun
seemed to have gone in as suddenly as it came out, and the world grew muddy and
miserable again, and for the first time she discovered that her feet were cold,
her head ached, and that her heart was colder than the former, fuller of pain
than the latter. Mr. Bhaer was going away, he only cared for her as a friend,
it was all a mistake, and the sooner it was over the better. With this idea in
her head, she hailed an approaching omnibus with such a hasty gesture that the
daisies flew out of the pot and were badly damaged.
“This is not our
omniboos,” said the Professor, waving the loaded vehicle away, and stopping to
pick up the poor little flowers.
“I beg your pardon. I
didn't see the name distinctly. Never mind, I can walk. I'm used to plodding in
the mud,” returned Jo, winking hard, because she would have died rather than
openly wipe her eyes.
MR. Bhaer saw the drops
on her cheeks, though she turned her head away. The sight seemed to touch him very
much, for suddenly stooping down, he asked in a tone that meant a great deal, “Heart's
dearest, why do you cry?”
Now, if Jo had not been
new to this sort of thing she would have said she wasn't crying, had a cold in
her head, or told any other feminine fib proper to the occasion. Instead of
which, that undignified creature answered, with an irrepressible sob, “Because
you are going away.”
“Ach, mein Gott, that
is so good!” cried Mr. Bhaer, managing to clasp his hands in spite of the
umbrella and the bundles, “Jo, I haf nothing but much love to gif you. I came
to see if you could care for it, and I waited to be sure that I was something
more than a friend. Am I? Can you make a little place in your heart for old
Fritz?” he added, all in one breath.
“Oh, yes!” said Jo, and
he was quite satisfied, for she folded both hands over his are, and looked up
at him with an expression that plainly showed how happy she would be to walk
through life beside him, even though she had no better shelter than the old umbrella,
if he carried it.
It was certainly
proposing under difficulties, for even if he had desired to do so, Mr. Bhaer
could not go down upon his knees, on account of the mud. Neither could he offer
Jo his hand, except figuratively, for both were full. Much less could he
indulge in tender remonstrations in the open street, though he was near it. So
the only way in which he could express his rapture was to look at her, with an
expression which glorified his face to such a degree that there actually seemed
to be little rainbows in the drops that sparkled on his beard. If he had not
loved Jo very much, I don't think he could have done it then, for she looked
far from lovely, with her skirts in a deplorable state, her rubber boots
splashed to the ankle, and her bonnet a ruin. Fortunately, Mr. Bhaer considered
her the most beautiful woman living, and she found him more `Jove-like” than
ever, though his hatbrim was quite limp with the little rills trickling thence
upon his shoulders (for he held the umbrella all over Jo), and every finger of
his gloves needed mending.
Passers-by probably
thought them a pair of harmless lunatics, for they entirely forgot to hail a
bus, and strolled leisurely along, oblivious of deepening dusk and fog. Little
they cared what anybody thought, for they were enjoying the happy hour that
seldom comes but once in any life, the magical moment which bestows youth on
the old, beauty on the plain, wealth on the poor, and gives human hearts a
foretaste of heaven. The Professor looked as if he had conquered a kingdom, and
the world had nothing more to offer him in the way of bliss. While Jo trudged
beside him, feeling as if her place had always been there, and wondering how
she ever could have chosen any other lot. Of course, she was the first to
speak--intelligibly, I mean, for the emotional remarks which followed her
impetuous “Oh, yes!” were not of a coherent or reportable character.
“Friedrich, why didn't
you . . .”
“Ah, heaven, she gifs
me the name that no one speaks since Minna died!” cried the Professor, pausing
in a puddle to regard her with grateful delight.
“I always call you so
to myself--I forgot, but I won't unless you like it.”
“Like it? It is more
sweet to me than I can tell. Say `thou', also, and I shall say your language is
almost as beautiful as mine.”
“Isn't `thou' a little
sentimental?” asked Jo, privately thinking it a lovely monosyllable.
“Sentimental? Yes.
Thank Gott, we Germans believe in sentiment, and keep ourselves young mit it.
Your English `you' is so cold, say `thou', heart's dearest, it means so much to
me,” pleaded Mr. Bhaer, more like a romantic student than a grave professor.
“Well, then, why didn't
thou tell me all this sooner?” asked Jo bashfully.
“Now I shall haf to
show thee all my heart, and I so gladly will, because thou must take care of it
hereafter. See, then, my Jo--ah, the dear, funny little name--I had a wish to
tell something the day I said goodbye in New York, but I thought the handsome
friend was betrothed to thee, and so I spoke not. Wouldst thou have said `Yes',
then, if I had spoken?”
“I don't know. I'm
afraid not, for I didn't have any heart just then.”
“Prut! That I do not
believe. It was asleep till the fairy prince came through the wood, and waked
it up. Ah, well, `Die erste Liebe ist die beste', but that I should not expect.”
“Yes, the first love is
the best, but be so contented, for I never had another. Teddy was only a boy,
and soon got over his little fancy,” said Jo, anxious to correct the
Professor's mistake.
“Good! Then I shall
rest happy, and be sure that thou givest me all. I haf waited so long, I am
grown selfish, as thou wilt find , Professorin.”
“I like that,” cried
Jo, delighted with her new name. “Now tell me what brought you, at last, just
when I wanted you?”
“This.” And Mr. Bhaer
took a little worn paper out of his waistcoat pocket.
Jo unfolded it, and
looked much abashed, for it was one of her own contributions to a paper that
paid for poetry, which accounted for her sending it an occasional attempt.
“How could that bring
you?” she asked, wondering what he meant.
“I found it by chance.
I knew it by the names and the initials, and in it there was one little verse
that seemed to call me. Read and find him. I will see that you go not in the
wet.”
Four little chests all
in a row,
Dim with dust, and worn
by time,
All fashioned and
filled, long ago,
By children now in
their prime.
Four little keys hung
side by side,
With faded ribbons,
brave and gay
When fastened there,
with childish pride,
Long ago, on a rainy
day.
Four little names, one
on each lid,
Carved out by a boyish
hand,
And underneath there
lieth hid
Histories of the happy
band
Once playing here, and
pausing oft
To hear the sweet
refrain,
That came and went on
the roof aloft,
In the falling summer
rain.
“Meg” on the first lid,
smooth and fair.
I look in with loving
eyes,
For folded here, with
well-known care,
A goodly gathering
lies,
The record of a
peaceful life--
Gifts to gentle child
and girl,
A bridal gown, lines to
a wife,
A tiny shoe, a baby
curl.
No toys in this first
chest remain,
For all are carried
away,
In their old age, to
join again
In another small Meg's
play.
Ah, happy mother! Well
I know
You hear, like a sweet
refrain,
Lullabies ever soft and
low
In the falling summer
rain.
“Jo” on the next lid,
scratched and worn,
And within a motley
store
Of headless, dolls, of
schoolbooks torn,
Birds and beasts that
speak no more,
Spoils brought home
from the fairy ground
Only trod by youthful
feet,
Dreams of a future
never found,
Memories of a past
still sweet,
Half-writ poems,
stories wild,
April letters, warm and
cold,
Diaries of a wilful
child,
Hints of a woman early
old,
A woman in a lonely
home,
Hearing, like a sad
refrain--
“Be worthy, love, and
love will come,”
In the falling summer
rain.
My Beth! the dust is
always swept
From the lid that bears
your name,
As if by loving eyes
that wept,
By careful hands that
often came.
Death cannonized for us
one saint,
Ever less human than
divine,
And still we lay, with
tender plaint,
Relics in this
household shrine--
The silver bell, so
seldom rung,
The little cap which
last she wore,
The fair, dead
Catherine that hung
By angels borne above
her door.
The songs she sang,
without lament,
In her prison-house of
pain,
Forever are they
sweetly blent
With the falling summer
rain.
Upon the last lid's
polished field--
Legend now both fair
and true
A gallant knight bears
on his shield,
“Amy” in letters gold
and blue.
Within lie snoods that
bound her hair,
Slippers that have
danced their last,
Faded flowers laid by
with care,
Fans whose airy toils
are past,
Gay valentines, all
ardent flames,
Trifles that have borne
their part
In girlish hopes and
fears and shames,
The record of a maiden
heart
Now learning fairer,
truer spells,
Hearing, like a blithe
refrain,
The silver sound of
bridal bells
In the falling summer
rain.
Four little chests all
in a row,
Dim with dust, and worn
by time,
Four women, taught by
weal and woe
To love and labor in
their prime.
Four sisters, parted
for an hour,
None lost, one only
gone before,
Made by love's immortal
power,
Nearest and dearest
evermore.
Oh, when these hidden
stores of ours
Lie open to the
Father's sight,
May they be rich in
golden hours,
Deeds that show fairer
for the light,
Lives whose brave music
long shall ring,
Like a spirit-stirring
strain,
Souls that shall gladly
soar and sing
In the long sunshine
after rain.
“It's very bad poetry,
but I felt it when I wrote it, one day when I was very lonely, and had a good
cry on a rag bag. I never thought it would go where it could tell tales,” said
Jo, tearing up the verses the Professor had treasured so long.
“Let it go, it has done
it's duty, and I will haf a fresh one when I read all the brown book in which
she keeps her little secrets,” said Mr. Bhaer with a smile as he watched the
fragments fly away on the wind. “Yes,” he added earnestly, “I read that, and I
think to myself, She has a sorrow, she is lonely, she would find comfort in
true love. I haf a heart full, full for her. Shall I not go and say, “If this
is not too poor a thing to gif for what I shall hope to receive, take it in
Gott's name?”
“And so you came to
find that it was not too poor, but the one precious thing I needed,” whispered
Jo.
“I had no courage to
think that at first, heavenly kind as was your welcome to me. But soon I began
to hope, and then I said, `I will haf her if I die for it'. and so I will!”
cried Mr. Bhaer, with a defiant nod, as if the walls of mist closing round them
were barriers which he was to surmount or valiantly knock down.
Jo thought that was
splendid, and resolved to be worthy of her knight, though he did not come
prancing on a charger in gorgeous array.
“What made you stay
away so long?” she asked presently, finding it so pleasant to ask confidential
questions and get delightful answers that she could not keep silent.
“It was not easy, but I
could not find the heart to take you from that so happy home until I could haf
a prospect of one to gif you, after much time, perhaps, and hard work. How
could I ask you to gif up so much for a poor old fellow, who has no fortune but
a little learning?”
“I'm glad you are poor.
I couldn't bear a rich husband,” said Jo decidedly, adding in a softer tone, “Don't
fear poverty. I've known it long enough to lose my dread and be happy working
for those I love, and don't call yourself old--forty is the prime of life. I
couldn't help loving you if you were seventy!”
The Professor found
that so touching that he would have been glad of his handkerchief, if he could
have got at it. As her couldn't, Jo wiped his eyes for him, and said, laughing,
as she took away a bundle or two...
“I may be
strong-minded, but no one can say I'm out of my sphere now, for woman's special
mission is supposed to be drying tears and bearing burdens. I'm to carry my
share, Friedrich, and help to earn the home. Make up your mind to that, or I'll
never go,” she added resolutely, as he tried to reclaim his load.
“We shall see. Haf you
patience to wait a long time, Jo? I must go away and do my work alone. I must
help my boys first, because, even for you, I may not break my word to Minna.
Can you forgif that, and be happy while we hope and wait?”
“Yes, I know I can, for
we love one another, and that makes all the rest easy to bear. I have my duty,
also, and my work. I couldn't enjoy myself if I neglected them even for you, so
there's no need of hurry or impatience. You can do your part out West, I can do
mine here, and both be happy hoping for the best, and leaving the future to be
as God wills.”
“Ah! Thou gifest me
such hope and courage, and I haf nothing to gif back but a full heart and these
empty hands,” cried the Professor, quite overcome.
Jo never, never would
learn to be proper, for when he said that as they stood upon the steps, she
just put both hands into his, whispering tenderly, “Not empty now,” and
stooping down, kissed her Friedrich under the umbrella. It was dreadful, but
she would have done it if the flock of draggle-tailed sparrows on the hedge had
been human beings, for she was very far gone indeed, and quite regardless of
everything but her own happiness. Though it came in such a very simple guise,
that was the crowning moment of both their lives, when, turning from the night
and storm and loneliness to the household light and warmth and peace waiting to
receive them, with a glad “Welcome home!” Jo led her lover in, and shut the
door.
For a year Jo and her
Professor worked and waited, hoped and loved, met occasionally, and wrote such
voluminous letters that the rise in the price of paper was accounted for,
Laurie said. The second year began rather soberly, for their prospects did not
brighten, and Aunt March died suddenly. But when their first sorrow was
over--for they loved the old lady in spite of her sharp tongue--they found they
had cause for rejoicing, for she had left Plumfield to Jo, which made all sorts
of joyful things possible.
“It's a fine old place,
and will bring a handsome sum, for of course you intend to sell it,” said
Laurie, as they were all talking the matter over some weeks later.
“No, I don't,” was Jo's
decided answer, as she petted the fat poodle, whom she had adopted, out of
respect to his former mistress.
“You don't mean to live
there?”
“Yes, I do.”
“But, my dear girl,
it's an immense house, and will take a power of money to keep it in order. The
garden and orchard alone need two or three men, and farming isn't in Bhaer's
line, I take it.”
“He'll try his hand at
it there, if I propose it.”
“And you expect to live
on the produce of the place? Well, that sounds paradisiacal, but you'll find it
desperate hard work.”
“The crop we are going
to raise is a profitable one,” And Jo laughed.
“Of what is this fine
crop to consist, ma'am?”
“Boys. I want to open a
school for little lads--a good, happy, homelike school, with me to take care of
them and Fritz to teach them.”
“That's a truly Joian
plan for you! Isn't that just like her?” cried Laurie, appealing to the family,
who looked as much surprised as he.
“I like it,” said Mrs.
March decidedly.
“So do I,” added her
husband, who welcomed the thought of a chance for trying the Socratic method of
education on modern youth.
“It will be an immense
care for Jo,” said Meg, stroking the head or her one all-absorbing son.
“Jo can do it, and be
happy in it. It's a splendid idea. Tell us all about it,” cried Mr. Laurence,
who had been longing to lend the lovers a hand, but knew that they would refuse
his help.
“I knew you'd stand by
me, sir. Amy does too--I see it in her eyes, though she prudently waits to turn
it over in her mind before she speaks. Now, my dear people,” continued Jo
earnestly, “just understand that this isn't a new idea of mine, but a
long-cherished plan. Before my Fritz came, I used to think how, when I'd made
my fortune, and no one needed me at home, I'd hire a big house, and pick up
some poor, forlorn little lads who hadn't any mothers, and take care of them,
and make life jolly for them before it was too late. I see so many going to
ruin for want of help at the right minute, I love so to do anything for them, I
seem to feel their wants, and sympathize with their troubles, and oh, I should
so like to be a mother to them!”
Mrs. March held out her
hand to Jo, who took it, smiling, with tears in her eyes, and went on in the
old enthusiastic way, which they had not seen for a long while.
“I told my plan to
Fritz once, and he said it was just what he would like, and agreed to try it
when we got rich. Bless his dear heart, he's been doing it all his life--helping
poor boys, I mean, not getting rich, that he'll never be. Money doesn't stay in
his pocket long enough to lay up any. But now, thanks to my good old aunt, who
loved me better than I ever deserved, I'm rich, at least I feel so, and we can
live at Plumfield perfectly well, if we have a flourishing school. It's just
the place for boys, the house is big, and the furniture strong and plain.
There's plenty of room for dozens inside, and splendid grounds outside. They
could help in the garden and orchard. Such work is healthy, isn't it, sir? Then
Fritz could train and teach in his own way, and Father will help him. I can
feed and nurse and pet and scold them, and Mother will be my stand-by. I've
always longed for lots of boys, and never had enough, now I can fill the house
full and revel in the little dears to my heart's content. Think what
luxury--Plumfield my own, and a wilderness of boys to enjoy it with me.”
As Jo waved her hands
and gave a sigh of rapture, the family went off into a gale of merriment, and
Mr. Laurence laughed till they thought he'd have an apoplectic fit.
“I don't see anything
funny,” she said gravely, when she could be heard. “Nothing could be more
natural and proper than for my Professor to open a school, and for me to prefer
to reside in my own estate.”
“She is putting on airs
already,” said Laurie, who regarded the idea in the light of a capital joke. “But
may I inquire how you intend to support the establishment? If all the pupils
are little ragamuffins, I'm afraid your crop won't be profitable in a worldly
sense, Mr. Bhaer.”
“Now don't be a
wet-blanket, Teddy. Of course I shall have rich pupils, also--perhaps begin
with such altogether. Then, when I've got a start, I can take in a ragamuffin
or two, just for a relish. Rich people's children often need care and comfort,
as well as poor. I've seen unfortunate little creatures left to servants, or
backward ones pushed forward, when it's real cruelty. Some are naughty through
mismanagement or neglect, and some lose their mothers. Besides, the best have
to get through the hobbledehoy age, and that's the very time they need most
patience and kindness. People laugh at them, and hustle them about, try to keep
them out of sight, and expect them to turn all at once from pretty children into
fine young men. They don't complain much-- plucky little souls--but they feel
it. I've been through something of it, and I know all about it. I've a special
interest in such young bears, and like to show them that I see the warm,
honest, well-meaning boys' hearts, in spite of the clumsy arms and legs and the
topsy-turvy heads. I've had experience, too, for haven't I brought up one boy
to be a pride and honor to his family?”
“I'll testify that you
tried to do it,” said Laurie with a grateful look.
“And I've succeeded
beyond my hopes, for here you are, a steady, sensible businessman, doing heaps
of good with your money, and laying up the blessings of the poor, instead of
dollars. But you are not merely a businessman, you love good and beautiful
things, enjoy them yourself, and let others go halves, as you always did in the
old times. I am proud of you, Teddy, for you get better every year, and
everyone feels it, though you won't let them say so. Yes, and when I have my
flock, I'll just point to you, and say `There's your model, my lads'.”
Poor Laurie didn't know
where to look, for, man though he was, something of the old bashfulness came
over him as this burst of praise made all faces turn approvingly upon him.
“I say, Jo, that's
rather too much,” he began, just in his old boyish way. “You have all done more
for me than I can ever thank you for, except by doing my best not to disappoint
you. You have rather cast me off lately, Jo, but I've had the best of help,
nevertheless. So, if I've got on at all, you may thank these two for it.” And
he laid one hand gently on his grandfather's head, and the other on Amy's
golden one, for the three were never far apart.
“I do think that
families are the most beautiful things in all the world!” burst out Jo, who was
in an unusually up-lifted frame of mind just then. “When I have one of my own,
I hope it will be as happy as the three I know and love the best. If John and
my Fritz were only here, it would be quite a little heaven on earth,” she added
more quietly. And that night when she went to her room after a blissful evening
of family counsels, hopes, and plans, her heart was so full of happiness that
she could only calm it by kneeling beside the empty bed always near her own,
and thinking tender thoughts of Beth.
It was a very
astonishing year altogether, for things seemed to happen in an unusually rapid
and delightful manner. Almost before she knew where she was, Jo found herself
married and settled at Plumfield. Then a family of six or seven boys sprung up
like mushrooms, and flourished surprisingly, poor boys as well as rich, for Mr.
Laurence was continually finding some touching case of destitution, and begging
the Bhaers to take pity on the child, and he would gladly pay a trifle for its
support. In this way, the sly old gentleman got round proud Jo, and furnished
her with the style of boy in which she most delighted.
Of course it was uphill
work at first, and Jo made queer mistakes, but the wise Professor steered her
safely into calmer waters, and the most rampant ragamuffin was conquered in the
end. How Jo did enjoy her `wilderness of boys', and how poor, dear Aunt March
would have lamented had she been there to see the sacred precincts of prim,
well-ordered Plumfield overrun with Toms, Dicks, and Harrys! There was a sort
of poetic justice about it, after all, for the old lady had been the terror of
the boys for miles around, and now the exiles feasted freely on forbidden
plums, kicked up the gravel with profane boots unreproved, and played cricket
in the big field where the irritable `cow with a crumpled horn' used to invite
rash youths to come and be tossed. It became a sort of boys' paradise, and
Laurie suggested that it should be called the `Bhaer-garten', as a compliment
to its master and appropriate to its inhabitants.
It never was a
fashionable school, and the Professor did not lay up a fortune, but it was just
what Jo intended it to be--`a happy, homelike place for boys, who needed
teaching, care, and kindness'. Every room in the big house was soon full. Every
little plot in the garden soon had its owner. A regular menagerie appeared in
barn and shed, for pet animals were allowed. And three times a day, Jo smiled
at her Fritz from the head of a long table lined on either side with rows of
happy young faces, which all turned to her with affectionate eyes, confiding
words, and grateful hearts, full of love for `Mother Bhaer'. She had boys
enough now, and did not tire of them, though they were not angels, by any
means, and some of them caused both Professor and Professorin much trouble and
anxiety. But her faith in the good spot which exists in the heart of the
naughtiest, sauciest, most tantalizing little ragamuffin gave her patience,
skill, and in time success, for no mortal boy could hold out long with Father
Bhaer shining on him as benevolently as the sun, and Mother Bhaer forgiving him
seventy times seven. Very precious to Jo was the friendship of the lads, their
penitent sniffs and whispers after wrongdoing, their droll or touching little
confidences, their pleasant enthusiasms, hopes, and plans, even their
misfortunes, for they only endeared them to her all the more. There were slow
boys and bashful boys, feeble boys and riotous boys, boys that lisped and boys
that stuttered, one or two lame ones, and a merry little quadroon, who could
not be taken in elsewhere, but who was welcome to the `Bhaer-garten', though
some people predicted that his admission would ruin the school.
Yes, Jo was a very
happy woman there, in spite of hard work, much anxiety, and a perpetual racket.
She enjoyed it heartily and found the applause of her boys more satisfying than
any praise of the world, for now she told no stories except to her flock of
enthusiastic believers and admirers. As the years went on, two little lads of her
own came to increase her happiness--Rob, named for Grandpa, and Teddy, a
happy-go-lucky baby, who seemed to have inherited his papa's sunshiny temper as
well as his mother's lively spirit. How they ever grew up alive in that
whirlpool of boys was a mystery to their grandma and aunts, but they flourished
like dandelions in spring, and their rough nurses loved and served them well.
There were a great many
holidays at Plumfield, and one of the most delightful was the yearly
apple-picking. For then the Marches, Laurences, Brookes. And Bhaers turned out
in full force and made a day of it. Five years after Jo's wedding, one of these
fruitful festivals occurred, a mellow October day, when the air was full of an
exhilarating freshness which made the spirits rise and the blood dance
healthily in the veins. The old orchard wore its holiday attire. Goldenrod and
asters fringed the mossy walls. Grasshoppers skipped briskly in the sere grass,
and crickets chirped like fairy pipers at a feast. Squirrels were busy with their
small harvesting. Birds twittered their adieux from the alders in the lane, and
every tree stood ready to send down its shower of red or yellow apples at the
first shake. Everybody was there. Everybody laughed and sang, climbed up and
tumbled down. Everybody declared that there never had been such a perfect day
or such a jolly set to enjoy it, and everyone gave themselves up to the simple
pleasures of the hour as freely as if there were no such things as care or
sorrow in the world.
Mr. March strolled
placidly about, quoting Tusser, Cowley, and Columella to Mr. Laurence, while
enjoying . . .
The gentle apple's
winey juice.
The Professor charged up and down the green aisles like a stout Teutonic
knight, with a pole for a lance, leading on the boys, who made a hook and
ladder company of themselves, and performed wonders in the way of ground and
lofty tumbling. Laurie devoted himself to the little ones, rode his small
daughter in a bushel-basket, took Daisy up among the bird's nests, and kept
adventurous Rob from breaking his neck. Mrs. March and Meg sat among the apple
piles like a pair of Pomonas, sorting the contributions that kept pouring in,
while Amy with a beautiful motherly expression in her face sketched the various
groups, and watched over one pale lad, who sat adoring her with his little
crutch beside him. Jo was in her element
that day, and rushed about, with her gown pinned up, and her hat anywhere but
on her head, and her baby tucked under her arm, ready for any lively adventure
which might turn up. Little Teddy bore a charmed life, for nothing ever
happened to him, and Jo never felt any anxiety when he was whisked up into a
tree by one lad, galloped off on the back of another, or supplied with sour
russets by his indulgent papa, who labored under the Germanic delusion that
babies could digest anything, from pickled cabbage to buttons, nails, and their
own small shoes. She knew that little Ted would turn up again in time, safe and
rosy, dirty and serene, and she always received him back with a hearty welcome,
for Jo loved her babies tenderly.
At four o'clock a lull
took place, and baskets remained empty, while the apple pickers rested and
compared rents and bruises. Then Jo and Meg, with a detachment of the bigger
boys, set forth the supper on the grass, for an out-of-door tea was always the
crowning joy of the day. The land literally flowed with milk and honey on such
occasions, for the lads were not required to sit at table, but allowed to
partake of refreshment as they liked--freedom being the sauce best beloved by
the boyish soul. They availed themselves of the rare privilege to the fullest
extent, for some tried the pleasing experiment of drinking mild while standing
on their heads, others lent a charm to leapfrog by eating pie in the pauses of
the game, cookies were sown broadcast over the field, and apple turnovers
roosted in the trees like a new style of bird. The little girls had a private
tea party, and Ted roved among the edibles at his own sweet will.
When no one could eat
any more, the Professor proposed the first regular toast, which was always
drunk at such times--”Aunt March, God bless her!” A toast heartily given by the
good man, who never forgot how much he owed her, and quietly drunk by the boys,
who had been taught to keep her memory green.
“Now, Grandma's
sixtieth birthday! Long life to her, with three times three!”
That was given with a
will, as you may well believe, and the cheering once begun, it was hard to stop
it. Everybody's health was proposed, form Mr. Laurence, who was considered
their special patron, to the astonished guinea pig, who had strayed from its
proper sphere in search of its young master. Demi, as the oldest grandchild,
then presented the queen of the day with various gifts, so numerous that they were
transported to the festive scene in a wheelbarrow. Funny presents, some of
them, but what would have been defects to other eyes were ornaments to
Grandma's--for the children's gifts were all their own. Every stitch Daisy's
patient little fingers had put into the handkerchiefs she hemmed was better
than embroidery to Mrs. March. Demi's miracle of mechanical skill, though the
cover wouldn't shut, Rob's footstool had a wiggle in its uneven legs that she
declared was soothing, and no page of the costly book Amy's child gave her was
so fair as that on which appeared in tipsy capitals, the words-- “To dear
Grandma, from her little Beth.”
During the ceremony the
boys had mysteriously disappeared, and when Mrs. March had tried to thank her
children, and broken down, while Teddy wiped her eyes on his pinafore, the
Professor suddenly began to sing. Then, from above him, voice after voice took
up the words, and from tree to tree echoed the music of the unseen choir, as
the boys sang with all their hearts the little song that Jo had written, Laurie
set to music, and the Professor trained his lads to give with the best effect.
This was something altogether new, and it proved a grand success, for Mrs.
March couldn't get over her surprise, and insisted on shaking hands with every
one of the featherless birds, from tall Franz and Emil to the little quadroon,
who had the sweetest voice of all.
After this, the boys
dispersed for a final lark, leaving Mrs. March and her daughters under the
festival tree.
“I don't think I ever
ought to call myself `unlucky Jo' again, when my greatest wish has been so
beautifully gratified,” said Mrs. Bhaer, taking Teddy's little fist out of the
milk pitcher, in which he was rapturously churning.
“And yet your life is
very different from the one you pictured so long ago. Do you remember our
castles in the air?” asked Amy, smiling as she watched Laurie and John playing
cricket with the boys.
“Dear fellows! It does
my heart good to see them forget business and frolic for a day,” answered Jo,
who now spoke in a maternal way of all mankind. “Yes, I remember, but the life
I wanted then seems selfish, lonely, and cold to me now. I haven't given up the
hope that I may write a good book yet, but I can wait, and I'm sure it will be all
the better for such experiences and illustrations as these.” And Jo pointed
from the lively lads in the distance to her father, leaning on the Professor's
arm, as they walked to and fro in the sunshine, deep in one of the
conversations which both enjoyed so much, and then to her mother, sitting
enthroned among her daughters, with their children in her lap and at her feet,
as if all found help and happiness in the face which never could grow old to
them.
“My castle was the most
nearly realized of all. I asked for splendid things, to be sure, but in my
heart I knew I should be satisfied, if I had a little home, and John, and some
dear children like these. I've got them all, thank God, and am the happiest
woman in the world.” And Meg laid her hand on her tall boy's head, with a face
full of tender and devout content.
“My castle is very
different from what I planned, but I would not alter it, though, like Jo, I
don't relinquish all my artistic hopes, or confine myself to helping others
fulfill their dreams of beauty. I've begun to model a figure of baby, and
Laurie says it is the best thing I've ever done. I think so, myself, and mean
to do it in marble, so that, whatever happens, I may at least keep the image of
my little angel.”
As Amy spoke, a great tear
dropped on the golden hair of the sleeping child in her arms, for her one
well-beloved daughter was a frail little creature and the dread of losing her
was the shadow over Amy's sunshine. This cross was doing much for both father
and mother, for one love and sorrow bound them closely together. Amy's nature
was growing sweeter, deeper, and more tender. Laurie was growing more serious,
strong, and firm, and both were learning that beauty, youth, good fortune, even
love itself, cannot keep care and pain, loss and sorrow, from the most blessed
for ...
Into each life some
rain must fall,
Some days must be dark
and sad and dreary.
“She is growing better,
I am sure of it, my dear. Don't despond, but hope and keep happy,” said Mrs.
March, as tender-hearted Daisy stooped from her knee to lay her rosy cheek
against her little cousin's pale one.
“I never ought to,
while I have you to cheer me up, Marmee, and Laurie to take more than half of
every burden,” replied Amy warmly. “He never lets me see his anxiety, but is so
sweet and patient with me, so devoted to Beth, and such a stay and comfort to
me always that I can't love him enough. So, in spite of my one cross, I can say
with Meg, `Thank God, I'm a happy woman.'”
“There's no need for me
to say it, for everyone can see that I'm far happier than I deserve,” added Jo,
glancing from her good husband to her chubby children, tumbling on the grass
beside her. “Fritz is getting gray and stout. I'm growing as thin as a shadow,
and am thirty. We never shall be rich, and Plumfield may burn up any night, for
that incorrigible Tommy Bangs will smoke sweet-fern cigars under the
bed-clothes, though he's set himself afire three times already. But in spite of
these unromantic facts, I have nothing to complain of, and never was so jolly
in my life. Excuse the remark, but living among boys, I can't help using their
expressions now and then.”
“Yes, Jo, I think your
harvest will be a good one,” began Mrs. March, frightening away a big black
cricket that was staring Teddy out of countenance.
“Not half so good as
yours, Mother. Here it is, and we never can thank you enough for the patient
sowing and reaping you have done,” cried Jo, with the loving impetuosity which
she never would outgrow.
“I hope there will be
more wheat and fewer tares every year,” said Amy softly.
“A large sheaf, but I
know there's room in your heart for it, Marmee dear,” added Meg's tender voice.
Touched to the heart,
Mrs. March could only stretch out her arms, as if to gather children and
grandchildren to herself, and say, with face and voice full of motherly love,
gratitude, and humility...
“Oh, my girls, however
long you may live, I never can wish you a greater happiness than this!”
END OF LITTLE WOMEN